He walks slowly among the crowd, feeling all dizzy and everything. He lost it. He really lost his self-control. What just happened to him few weeks back really hits him hard. He still couldnt believe it. No, it must be a dream, a dream. How can it be? They were so in love with each other. Aside from Jaejoong, Changmin has no one else in this world. Jaejoong, who was the first to reach out his hand to Changmin, the only one who approaches Changmin with sweet smiles and warm hugs. The one who always walk by his side since they were both innocent kids, children that knew nothing of the cruelty of the world just yet. He can still clearly remember the sentences, words by words. Changmin takes out two pieces of paper from his jacket, then stares at the ticket blankly. He still remember, yeah, the memories, how can he erase them just like that?Changmin looks at the skinny hand that is holding his own. A smile carves on his face as the songs they were listened to finished. Changmin helps to unpluck the earphone from Jaejoongs ears. His voice is lovelylike always, Jaejoong said, complimenting the singer that they just heard. Changmin smiles as he caress Jaejoongs remaining locks to the side. Theres not much hair left on Jaejoongs head, he even already lost his eyebrows, not to mention any other part of his body. Undergoing chemotherapy as a treatment for his brain tumor does do the trick. Changmin looks at the face that he has been in love since he was twelve and caresses the gradually sunken cheeks gently. Changmin still found Jaejoong pretty. Now that the once bright big doe eyes, full of life and love now filled with nothing but pain, he still find the man laying before him pretty. The full pink lips once always curve bright smiles but now, its chapped and dry, sending Changmins heart to burn in hurt. Changmin-ah he called out again and makes the younger one to look at him with warm gaze. Yes Jae, Changmin answered as he hold on Jaejoongs skinny hand and bring it close to his cheek to feel Jaejoongs touches that he has been longing to feel again.ChangminI want to see himI want to see Xiabefore I close my eyes, Jaejoong said, almost whispering in audible tone, but Changmin already get used to it, so he capture every words uttered by Jaejoongs without missing any of it successfully.Jaeyou shouldnt said thatyou will win this battle. When you are betterI promise, we will go to his concertnonot just concert, even to his fan signing event Changmin said carefully, persuading the sick man. Jaejoong only let out soft chuckles in sarcastic tone. Andwhen will that day come Min? Face itIm losing the battlethe cancer is winning over meyou knew it better Minyou are a doctor, Changmin looked down when Jaejoongs eyes meet him. Yes, he knew it perfectly. Jaejoongs chance of survival is not that high, but still he wouldnt stop hoping for miracles to happen.Please Minits not like Im asking for a VVIP seatas long as I can see him, from a seat far from the stageas long as I can hear his melodious voicethat is enough for meplease Jaejoong begs again and Changmin slowly looks back at Jaejoong. SureI will buy the tickets for us,Changmin is back to his trance when he feels someone just bumped his shoulder, pulling him away from his trains of thought. Watch where are you going young man, a voice is heard and Changmin look up, only to notice two men in white suit is standing in front of him. You just knocked our master down one of the men in the black suit said and Changmin can see a man with a cap on his hat stand behind the two men is busy dusting his butt. Apologize now, another man command, making Changmin totally puzzled. You are being rudeapologize now!! the voice become more stern and Changmin can only stand there, unmoving.Its alright guysits not his attentionyou are the one whos become rude now, the guarded man said as he walked past his guards and extend his hand toward Changmin. Sorry for my men rudeness, IM Kim Junsu, Changmin take that chance to properly look at the man who is wearing the cap before hesitantly welcoming the strangers hand to meet his own. And whats your name? Junsu asked and slowly Changmin said his name. Shim ChangminShim ChangminI will try to remember your namehere, Changmin is stunned as Junsu hand him two pieces of paper to him. You dropped itwhen you accidentally bumped onto me, without saying anything back, Changmin took the tickets with shaky hand. OmoIm running latebye Mr Shim, Junsu said as he bid his good bye then continue running followed by the two men closely behind. Changmins eyes follow the petite figure as the male disappear into the crowd and he looked back at the pieces of paper on his hands. Xia The Ballads, he whispers slowly and continue walking without any sense of direction.Xia looks at the crowd from behind the stage and almost has his jaw dropped to the floor. The responses for his first ballads concert are no joke indeed. He turns to look at his manager before raising an eyebrow. Sohow long again that I have to perform? he asked to validate his own schedule. 90 minuteswith breaks few timesso youll be alright Xia his manager said and Xia end up pouting. He is eager to meet his fans, but he hates the way the manager manages his schedule. He should be here since two days ago and rehearsing, but he got only half day to rehearse and thats all because his manager decide to pack his schedule with variety shows and interview. Get ready Xiayou are going to stand on the stage in two more hoursfinished your make up and wardrobe, Xia rolled his eyes and head back to his waiting room, letting the chordies to do their jobs on him.Ahwe got VVIPs right?? Hum, make sure they met me first before I start the show manger-nim, Xia said and the manager nods. Well, the VVIP pay lots of money to meet Xia, so he has no objection for that. Xia closes his eyes, letting the professionals hands to do wonder to his appearance as he closes his eyes for the touches.Changmin stops on his trance and look around. His eyes almost bulge out once he realized where his feet carried his body to. He thinks he already walk for few hours, wandering around since morning and never thought that he will come here. Jae he called out, feeling helpless and sad because Jaejoongs dream of seeing Xia live concert couldnt be granted. He takes a deep breath and turn on his heels, ready to leave the place when suddenly he feels his heart become heavy. You want me to watch him, on behalf of you arent you? he whispers and Changmin can suddenly feel the gentle breezes pass through, caressing his whole being. AlrightI will grant your wishmy love,He steps in to the backstage, not really knowing where he should be heading since the security only lead him there after he showed his ticket. Changmin looks around carefully as he walk around, uncertain on taking which way. Heyboycome herebring this to Xia Changmin is startled when a female staff walk pass him and hand him a tray of fresh cut fruits and a glass of warm honey water. Errexcuse mebut where is his room?The female staff turns on her heels and shakes her head few times. Are you kidding me? How can helper boy lost his waytck..I need to speak with your supervisor tomorrow, and the female staff take the tray again from his hands and quickly walk away. B-butIm Changmin stops trying to explain himself and he try to follow the woman steps. If his deducing is correct, then he can meet Xia by following the woman. Sadly, with the frenzied atmosphere behind the stage, Changmin lost trace of her and now he doesnt even know the exact place where he is.Changmin keep wandering around until he reach a place that is crowded with the concert staffs if hes not mistaken and become assured that Xia will definitely be there. Ouhhello!!! Changmin turn around as he feels like the greeting is directed to him. He freeze a little seeing Xia is standing in front of him before awkwardly smiling at him. You know this helper boy Mr Xia? the same female staff that Junsu bumped into just now asked and Xia look at her before his gazes change towards Changmin. Helper boy? Are you new? I never met you before, Xia exclaim and Changmin quickly shakes his head.N-NoactuallyIm Changmin fishes something from his pocket, trying to show his ticket towards Xia and shows him that hes actually the VVIPs spectator.Xiaget readyyou appearance in five minutes!!! the flow director shouts and Xia quickly makes his way towards the stage. Uhmwell Mr Shim Changminwe will talk laterI need to run now, Xia said as he runs towards the stage, taking his position and readying himself, leaving a dumbfounded Changmin behind. Bewildered when Xia just called out his name. Are you perhaps sasaeng? Changmin turn to face a man that just asked him that question and Changmin quickly shakes his head. NoIm actually a VVIP spectator he answered as he shows his ticket on his hand. The man quickly bows his head in apology for not recognizing him. After all, theres only ten VVIP tickets and the other VVIPs already met with Xia. Thenplease follow methe VVIP section is herenot too closenor too far from the stageyou can comfortably see Xias performance as well as he can walk up, up to your section, the man suddenly become so kind and friendly, explaining to him. Changmin only nods as he follows the said man and take his seat.Enjoy the show the man wished and indeed, Changmin did enjoy the show so much that he forgot that he has been sitting on his seat for 90 minutes straight without moving. Xias movement, Xias voice, Xias action, everything Xia do during the concert bewitched him completely. No wonder you like him so much Jae he whispers as he silently recording the concert with his smart phone. Recording as much as he can and he promised to show that to Jaejoong, well literally.The concert finished and Xia can now happily skipping to his waiting room to greet the VVIPs viewer. He has been notified that all ten tickets has been sold and he is expected to greet the ten of them. HelloXia here, he greets when he get inside his waiting room. He chats and takes pictures, as well as giving out his signature but he cant help but to notice, he missed another two persons when all the VVIP already left. UhmManager Im, are there any VVIP that didnt come to my concert? Xia asked and Manager Im quickly gives a check on the VVIP list. Nopeall here. Why? he asked and Xia pouted. Noseems like I only greet eight of them he mutters before shrugs it off. Well..maybe they already went home. Who knows, he said, talking to himself as he get to the chair and take the make-up remover. I want to quickly return to Kim Junsuplease,Changmin stroll along the night without any intention of going home at all. Why bother to go home? Nothing will greet him anyway, only emptiness and he dislikes the coldness from his own place. Since Jaejoong left almost a month ago, Changmin cant help but to feel that way. He was an orphan. He grew up with Jaejoong and he already made a vow when they were younger. A vow that, when Changmin becomes a successful person, he will take Jaejoong as his husband legally. Changmin inhales the cool air breathes and let it out slowly. But the vow left as an empty promise. Jaejoong was diagnosed with brain tumor on stage three. Changmin who just becomes a resident at that time, work his hardest to cure his lover but to no avail. Jaejoong passed away in his sleep inside Changmins embrace on the hospital bed two days after he lost his ability to see with his eyes. Changmin awakes with tears brimming his face when Jaejoong gave no response when he called out for his beloved.Changmin was the one who took Jaejoong pulse and he was the one who declared the death of his beloved. Changmin keep wandering like that without empty souls and minds. He looks at the busy roads with passing cars and without realizing, his feet carry his body to the side of the road. I have no one else in this world aside from you Jaeand now that you left I see no purpose of living anymore he closes his eyes, ready to walk pass the busy street when he feels a warm hand grab his wrist.There you arecomeMr Shim ChangminI have been looking for you for quite a while now. I was looking for you as well after the concert ended, there were staffs get-together but I never see you, Changmins eyes snap open as he looks at the owner of the voice. Its Junsu with his warm smile on his face again. What is this? What does this mean?Master Xia!!!Oppsstimes out and Junsu already on his full run again, dragging Changmin along with him and the young doctor cant even say a word to reject the energetic male that appear to be able to make Changmin lost on his words every time he popped up around Changmin. Mr Kim Junsu!!!! Come back here!! Junsu looks back at his chasing manager and pokes out his tongue playfully. He keeps holding on Changmins hand tightly as he doesnt want to get separated while running away with Changmin. Junsu keeps giggling happily as his manager keeps chasing after them; and he keep using the advantage of people that are crowding the area to escape from his raging manager.Changmin is not even sure how long they have been running but at the end, both of them end up outside of a late night snack bar. Junsu stops running, so does Changmin both men panting heavily trying to catch their breathes. Junsu then looks around before he bends his body with his hands covering his stomach and he laughs out loud. What are you laughing for? Changmin asked, a bit puzzled by the stranger behavior. Junsu looks at Changmin and grins. Wellbecause its funoh my godMr Shim, where have you been all my whole lifeyou just bring lots of laughter to me, he said casually and once he manages to catch his breath again, Junsu stand straight and he look around. Okayline clear, he declares and quickly walk into the snack bar without forgetting to drag Changmin with him. Junsu happily skipping to an empty table and sits on one of the empty chair while he never let go of Changmins wrist, forcing the taller man to follow him. Once both of them already sits down, Junsu let go of Changmins hand and smiles widely at the astonished doctor.Greatnow I have a company to eat Junsu grins and waves his hand towards the old lady running the snack bar.Uhm.what do you want? Junsu asked cheerily and Changmin shakes his head. Imnot hungry he answered slowly and Junsu nods. Ohokay thenjust accompany me till I finished mine, Junsu said and as soon as the old lady come close, he quickly spurts out his order. Auntiegives me a whole chicken in butter lemon, then two servings of spicy chicken feetas well as four cans of soda please, Changmin is amused by the order and he cant help but to just keep looking at Junsu.Why are you looking at me like that? Junsu asked and that makes Changmin blushed a little. Well, who wont after being caught red handed staring at the cute face like that. Wait, did he just said that the stranger is cute?UhmI have been thinkingwhy did you drag me around like I am someone you know? Changmin asked sincerely and thats make Junsu crooked his eyebrows. Uh? Well, I do know youdont you remember this morning, I bumped onto you, then I gave you back your tickets to my concertthen we met again at the backstage when I was about to performdoes that ring any bells to you? Junsu explain, simply but yet Changmin is left hanging, trying to digest all the information Junsu just throws at him.W-Waitjust waitwe bumped to each other? Junsu nods eagerly and Changmin think again as he take a good look on Junsus face. Ahrightthe man with two guards this morning. Changmin said and Junsu end up chuckling happily like little kids.Thenyou saidyou hand me back your concert tickets that I dropped downthe tickets supposed to be Xias Ballad concert Changmin widen his eyes at the realization. Oh my Godyou are that Xia?? Changmin asked with disbelief tone inside his voice. Wow, how stupid he must be for not noticing Xia from the first time they met. But again, he was not a big fan of said man and he wasnt paying attention much when Jaejoong showed him Xias pictures to him before this.You nail it just right! Junsu exclaims and somehow, his brightness, his unique laughter slowly makes Changmins lips curl upward. Im sorry for not recognizing you right away, Changmin said, apologizing for his late wits to realize.Its alrightbeside its refreshing to be around someone who didnt really know meits make me more alive, Junsu said while smiling widely again. Changmin can only nods at that sentence since the old lady already come with Junsus order and two plate. Uhuhlook like the auntie wants you to eat Junsu said while having this teasing smile on his face. Changmin looks at the food, then at Junsu. Im fineyou just go ahead and eat,Ohcome onI need a friend that can eat with me.sojoin me please Junsu pleads and like an ice cube placed under the scorching hot sun, Changmin complied though hes not eating that much but still, it brings smile on Junsus face. Unconsciously, they start to open a conversation between them.Changmin mostly being silent and hearing instead do the talking. He find Junsu as an amusing person because despite of his young age, he seems to have many experience. Soyou said, a fan broke into your house and role-play as your wife? Changmin asked and Junsu nods his head. YesI was freaked out when I got home, a girl in apron greet me and call me honeyshe even prepare a full course meal for meI of course run out from the building and went to the security. Can you imagine how freaked out I was at that time? Lucky she greets me when I just get into my apartment. I cant imagine what will happen if she greet me when I was already strips off my clothes and ready to take my showers, Junsu continue and Changmin end up chuckling. Heythats not a funny matterits a serious matter you knowI knowI just imagining your reaction if she greets you when you are ready to take bath, Changmin said and Junsu pouts. Hummaybe I beat her to death without even realizing it,Thats creepy, Changmin respond and Junsu rolls his eyes.The girl is creepier he snaps back and Changmin cant help but to agree.The supper come to an end and before they both knew as the night crawl deeper. The city of Seoul have slowly become a little bit quiter. Changmin and Junsu bid good-bye to each other then went back to their own respective way, before parting they exchange phone number. Changmin for once in these past three years, starting from the day he knew Jaejoong was ill up to recently, went to bed with a light heart.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~It has been a week since he met Xia, no Junsu. Well, now he can comfortably call the famous singer with his name since the said man insists on being informal. He said that they are friends now. Theres no need to be formal around each other. When Changmin woke up the morning after he met Junsu, he always thought that it was only a dream and shrugs it off. But a text message arrives on that morning. Junsus text, asking him whether he had a good night sleep or not. Honestly, Changmin didnt expect it at all since after they went home, he receive not even a text from Junsu, not to mention a phone call and Changmin will definitely not be the one who called first. He doesnt want to be a pushover friend that he decides, if Junsu contact him first, they will definitely become friends.Changmin is laying on his bed, well not exactly his bed, but the bed prepared for interns in the staff room for them to take a short rest while waiting for any emergency matter to emerge and called out for them. Changmin was lucky that he is placed at the Orthopedic section, so he wasnt going to be busy as the doctors at the ER section. He is about to close his eyes when he heard the beeping sounds of his cellphone.

To: Minnie MouseMinnie~~Guess who??Are you asleep already??Changmin cant help but to chuckle at the text. Seriously Junsu, they have been texting each other for almost a week now, did he really think Changmin wouldnt save his number in his contact list?

To: Xia JunsuI know it's you.We have been texting for almost a week already :)Are you home now?

He pressed send and place his cellphone on his tummy. His eyes is getting heavier but somehow, Junsus text makes him feels excited and doesnt feels like he want to sleep just yet.

To: Minnie MouseHome and just finished showersOugh JunJin hyung nag me all the way back =3=I have to pretend that I fall asleep to make him stop.. /(^3^)/~Changmin chuckles again reading Junsus text. Honestly, he now knew a little bit about Junsus manager. Someone who is really strict with Junsu indeed. He then begin typing a short message, anticipating on how Junsu will reply to him.

To: Xia Junsuaww poor you :(You must be tired.Sent. Changmin put his cell phone on his tummy again after setting the alarm clock. He will be waking up around four oclock to make his round again. Changmin grins satisfied then he closes his eyes, trying to get some sleep when he feels another vibration on his tummy.To: Minnie MouseI was tired, but then remember youcant help but to feel all giddylike school girl ~\(^_^)/~anyway, aren't you tired?I will go to sleep after youSo we can dream together..:DChangmin eyes snaps open again and he reads the text. He cant help but to feel goose bumps all over his body before he decides to reply to Junsu.

To: Xia JunsuWhat's with the giddiness?And that was sooooo cheesy !Hahaha.yeah I'm a bit tired but not sleepy yet.are you going to sleep now?Changmin asked, and now suddenly all of his sleepiness flew away. The way Junsu typed the text, as if hes trying to flirt with Changmin but Changmin is not ready yet. Not ready to open his hear to someone else than Jaejoong. After all, he promised Jaejoong to be loyal for his entire life though Jaejoong did disagree with his promised.To: Minnie MouseAre you having goosebump now?I know you'll fall fo itJust teasing you know..kikikikiI'm sleepyreally sleepy nowGood night Changmin. Have a nice dreamAnd thats how their conversation that night ended. Changmin is left completely bewildered and confuse. Is Junsu only teasing him or the singer is really hitting on him?~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Wake up Junsuyou have a schedule early in the morning already!!! Junsu groans a little when he feels someone pulling away his blanket. He turn around and lay flat on his stomach, dipping his head further under the pillow avoiding the rays of light from hitting his face since he can hear clearly the sounds of the curtain spreads wide open. Come on Junsustop being lazy!! now its his pillow thats being stolen from him. Junsu groans even more and slowly getting up when his shoulder getting shakes a little bit violently. H-HumI dont feel to wellcant you just cancel my schedule for today? Junsu asked, pleading earnestly but his manager ignores him completely.Stop being a spoil brat. Just because your first and second albums are always on the top of the chart, that doesnt mean that you can slack of on your third album. Come onget readyyou have an album coming out soon his manager begin again and Junsu cant help but to sigh at that. Slowly, he rose up from his bed and makes his way towards the bathroom. Ill be waiting at the living room. Im giving you only an hour to get ready Junsu,Junsu gets into the bathroom, brushing his teeth, washes his face and take a quick shower before returning to his bedroom again then an idea come to him. He grins mischievously as he looks around inside his room and found no one. He walk to his wardrobe, quickly change into a rather decent outfit then reach for his cap and sunglasses. He then walk to the window and looked down. HumI can climb down using the emergency stair he whispers to himself. Grabbing his wallet after jotting down Changmins phone number on a piece of paper, Junsu begins his mission impossible. Sneaks out of his apartment that is on the tenth level and escapes successfully using the emergency staircase.Junsu grins victoriously when he almost reaches the ground level. He try to lengthen his leg more since the stair is about ten inches short from the ground but Junsu didnt even know where did it went wrong when he trip on his feet and feel down. He groans and almost screams at first but thankfully he manages to control his expression. Junsu try to stand up straight but that just resulting in shrieking pain jolted around his ankle. DangI think I sprained my ankle he said, talking to himself as he looks around. Junsu start to begin hopping on one leg and get close to the roadside. Without wasting anytime he hails for a cab and soon as the cab stop, he quickly get onto it, afraid that his manager will really actually catch on him.Where to? the cab driver asked and Junsu looks at the driver. Just driveI will tell you where should we head later, Junsu said politely and the cab driver nods. Well its not a problem to him at all, after all, the farther they went, thats mean more money for him as well. Uhmuncle..do you by any chance have a mobile phone? Junsu asked again, as polite as he can and the cab driver end up laughing. In this modern world, who on earth that didnt own a mobile phone even the cheapest one? Even little kids have already have their own phones. But why did you asked? the driver asked again and Junsu face light up. Thank goduhm..can I borrow yours for a while? I need to make a call to my friend. I want to visit him but I lost his address as well as my cell phone. Please uncle Junsu pleads, using his childish charm on the seemingly kind old man. Surehereuse it, the driver said as he hand over his cellphone. Junsu takes it with gratitude and begin punch in Changmins number. He waits for Changmin to pick up his call and pray that he didn't call him when Changmin is being busy with his patients.HelloYes hello ChangminOuhJunsuwhos number are you using? Changmin asked curiously and Junsu quickly cuts him.Save it for laterI will tell you once we meet. Uhm, where are you right now?HospitalI knowbut I mean, which hospital?Daegu University Hospital why? Changmin asked again and Junsu ignores the man.Uncle, how long will it takes to go to Daegu University Hospital? Junsu asked the old man and the old man quickly gives his answer.About fifteen minutes from hereThank you unclethen Changminsee you in fifteen minutes Junsu said and hung up leaving Changmin bewildered again with his actions.

Changmin stands up straight while leaning on his table. His arms crossed across his chest and an eyebrow is raised in questions. So now that I already tend your sprained anklewhich has already swollen so muchare you ready to tell me what actually had happened? Changmin asked and Junsu slowly raise his right foot and inspect the bandage around his ankle before lift his head up, grinning mischievously towards Changmin direction. Humnothing really happenedit just, I was a klutzmy mind was elsewhere and I ended up spraining my ankle, Junsu said innocently, still reluctant to tell the doctor about the truth that he actually had ran away from his own manager. Changmin click his tongue again as he gently hold on Junsus foot, inspecting that foot again to make sure he did treat Junsu right.And you let your ankle become like thisits already inflamed and swollen so muchyou shouldnt put further stress on this feet Changmin said and turn on his heels, walking toward his table and sit down as he writes some prescriptions on the receipt. Heretake your medicines at the pharmacy, Changmin said as he hand out the white paper. Junsu climb off the bed he has been sitting slowly and like before, he keeps hopping on one foot and take the prescription written by Changmin. Thank you Minnie for thisand thank you for treating me, Junsu said and makes his way out from the young doctor examination room. Junsu walks towards the waiting bench, sitting down for a while to catch his breath before his eyes scanning around. Humwhere should I go now? he pouts at himself as he already lost his way to where the pharmacy should be and he couldnt walk that much. Ohcheer up Junsuyou will find your way somehow he said, cheering himself up and stand up again before slowly makes his way around.Junsu walks slowly by keep leaning on the wall, depending on the white cold cement to support his weight and body since he is now basically is walking with a feet. Then he chuckles to himself. Such a whiny man. Think about the disable peoples around you Junsu.this is nothing compared to your pain, he said, encouraging his self and keep walking for ten more minutes before he decides to take a break and sits on the empty bench again. He looks around, his shade and cap are still intact on his face, but walking inside this hospital with a shade on is proof to be a stupid thing to do. He take off his shades, then looking around, looking for any signboard that may help him to finally find the pharmacy and finally have his medicine. Deciding that dwindling on his own will no good to him and will just make his ankle swollen even more, Junsu decides on asking peoples around. Junsu stands up again, and begin walking slowly, searching for someone he might actually can ask for direction to the pharmacy.Hiexcuse me Junsu begins, greeting two considerably young girls on their way somewhere inside the hospital. Yes mister? they asked again and Junsu smiles his angelic smile, his trademark that he forgot that his fans will quickly recognize it. Oh my Godits Xia! one of the girls screeches and making Junsu bewildered for a while. He quickly put his index finger on his lips, asking the girls to quiet down but to no avail. Its really you.oh myoh myoppawhats bring you here?? the screeching screams that slowly increasing slowly makes the crowds and passerby that initially want to walk to their own destination start to gather around him. Junsu start to feel panicked a little and he keeps gesturing to the slowly gathering crowds to keep quiet but failed miserably.Oh my Godit's Xia!!!Oppa!!!Oppa!!!Oppa!!!Please give me your signature!!!Oppa!!!Please take pictures with me!!!! Slowly the place he is standing right now becomes crowded with fans that are trying to get their hands on Junsu. Junsus face begins to pale out, the light and flashes from the cellphones and camera starts to bathe his sole existence there. Junsu suddenly feels someone pulls his head, maybe one of his fans, resulting on his cap to fall down and revealing his face. Gone his masquerade and the crowds gone crazier. Junsu try to make his escape by try to get through the crowd but his injured ankle makes everything harder for him. Junsu feels like suffocating, the crowds keep pressing him, the air becomes hot. Junsu start to coughs badly, trying hard to breaths in the crowd. Dang he feels light headed, and the world around him start to spin slowly as the screaming and noises get into his head. Junsus eyes rolled back, almost closed and hes about to faint when he feels a pair of warm and strong arms scoots him up like a bride and the one who holds him make a way for their escape.Stupid Junsu can only smiles a little at that word as he can barely recognize the owner of the voice that muttering it.Yeahstupidly in lovehe murmur, then everything went black in Junsus world.Changmin pressed the mini air conditioner on the table and let some cool air released before he walks to the only bed in the room. His eyes slowly trailing the sleeping figure, starting from his hair, to his closed eyes, cute button nose then his plump full lips. Changmins eyes travel more downward and he cant help but to gulp at the exposed honey cream neck. The sounds of the door click opened make him snaps out from his drooling state and he stand up straight, greeting the doctor that come in. How is he doing? Yeon Hee asked and Changmin try to put up his poker face at the female doctor question.Dr ShimIm asking you she called out again and Changmin clears his throat.Wellnothing abnormalhis pulse and heart rate is at normal range Changmin said, reporting while Yeon Hee herself start to check on Junsus pulse by feeling the beats of his pulse on his wrist. Humlooks like he was under panic attack a while back, Yeon Hee said and she jots something down on the file clipped at the end of the bed. Look like itwho wouldnt? Being surrounded like that Changmin added, agreeing with the girl and Yeon Hee lifts her head to look at Changmin.Well, lucky him that you pass by there and saved him from the crazy crowds.fansthey are scary, the female doctor added and Changmin can only smile. OhDr Shimone more thing Yeon Hee stops middle way to the door as she turns on her heels and look at Changmin by tilting her head a little. Thank you for making our hospital famous in less than 24 hoursand be careful on your way backthere are reporters outside that are going crazy to get exclusive interviews with you, she said, winking teasingly and makes her way out after leaving a jaw dropped doctor inside the VIP room. Changmin looked back at the sleeping singer and just realized something. DamnI forgot how famous he isChangmin closed the last file of the patient he needs to consult for this time being and look at his watch. Ah, its half an hour past twelve. No wonder his stomach start rumbling, making noises demanding his attention. Changmin notices this. Weird things start to happen to him since the day he met Junsu. He mean by properly met. Since the night he ate the late night supper with that singer, his appetite as food monster come back whereas he has been losing his appetite to eat since the late Jaejoong enter the fourth stage of cancer and when Jaejoong left him to a better place (he really wants to believe on that) Changmin totally lost of the will to eat. Basically, his passion as a doctor to save another life (to redeem himself for his own failure to save his lovers life) is what keeps him going on and try to struggle away.But that night, when his patient also died because of the bone cancer, Changmin just lost it. He feels like he really need to join Jaejoong but a warm hand that suddenly pull him from his suicide thought turn every darkness into light for him. Deep inside Changmins heart, he is thankful towards Junsu who unconsciously had saved his life from ending in vain. Changmin cleared his table and stand up, informing the nurse that hell be heading to the cafeteria for lunch and instructed her to page him quickly if theres something important he needs to attend to.It was when he in his way to the cafeteria that he notices a group of crowds forms at the lobby heading to the pharmacy. At first, Changmin wants to ignore the crowd, since he really needs to chase the time and have a proper meal before he resume his works as a doctor. Then he heard someone (not really someone, its almost everyone) screams Xia name and that is when Changmin realized. Junsu had come alone. If he had come with his manager, surely the manager is already entering his room with Junsu before this. Rushing there, Changmin can see how hard for Junsu to escape the frantic fans and he can clearly see that Junsu is blacking out. Lack of oxygen and under arrest of panic attack. His usually glowing self has turn to pale as a white sheet and Changmin quickly ushering the security teams with his authority as a doctor and without thinking much, break into the crowds and just in time, before Junsu blacking out, he manages to hold that man and lift him up bridal style before making an escape from there. Changmin wasnt thinking of anything else at that time, but to save Junsu from further harm.He can feel his throat is so dry once he gains consciousness. Junsu frowns a little in his half asleep condition before he slowly opens his eyes only to close it again at the light that illuminating his sights. Junsu his ears perk up at the mention of his real name and Junsu lift up one of his hand, covering the upper half of his face before slowly re-opening his eyes again and let his retinas slowly adjusting to the light. W-Where am I? Junsu asked slowly with cracked and hoarse voice sending a smile on Changmins face. Hospital you idiot, Changmin answered and Junsu quickly jolts up, looking around, resulting in getting his head spinning out of dizziness because of his actions.Heyslowly Changmin said, holds on Junsus hand and shoulder when the said man already have his hand on his head, trying to ease out the dizziness out of his head. Junsu slowly looks up at Changmin and cant help but to notice that Changmin still have his attire from the morning and he glances towards his watch looking at the time only to widen his eyes in shock. Oh myits already 9? What happened actually? Junsu asked, begin to dig in his own curiosity of what had happened.You dont remember getting swarmed by your fans? Changmin asked and Junsu looks stunned for a while before he slowly nods.I remember thatand what happened next? I just remember getting dizzy, and suffocatelike I cant breatheYou passed outlucky I pass by and just in time before you fall on the floor and worsen your health condition Junsu is silent when he hears Changmins voice. Deep down, he cant help but to notice, that Changmin looks like he is nagging him for some reason. Junsu just keep staring at Changmin when the young doctor begins his nag again.Just what in your mind at that time Junsu? How can you expose yourself and lookyour ankle get swollen even moreand I found no medicine that I prescribed to you when I check your belonginglike seriously Junsu, you need to care more for your health, Junsu grins at Changmin ways making the young doctor snaps even more. You can still grinning at times like this? Ive been worried sick at your condition and when my colleagues informed me that you fainted because of your sudden rise in blood pressure, I cant help but to feel more worried about you, you know thatand how can you end up coming alone when you sprained your ankle? Isnt your manager supposed to be with you?WellI came aloneactually I sprained my ankle because I sneaked out from my own apartment Junsu said and grinning innocently afterward making the young doctor gapes in amusement. How did you escape?Iescape by using the emergency stairssoI climb down from the tenth level,Tenth level?!!!! That is so dangerous Kim Junsu!! If I were you manager, you will definitely be grounded, Changmin said, voice stern and commanding that Junsu cant help but to flinch at the voice. Changmin keep staring at the man sitting on the bed as Junsu looks down on his laps. Changmin can clearly see Junsus shoulders shaking. Oh my God? Did I just scold him? Is he crying? Changmin bites down his lower lip feels sorry all of sudden and start to think what rights do he has on Junsu that he end up snapping and scolding him like that? But isnt just right for a friend to be worrying over his another friend.Min Changmin stunned again at the gentle voice calling out his name and he leans a little bit closer to Junsu. Yes?Bwahahahahahaha. Changmins face drawn obvious frowns as he looks at how hard Junsu is laughing right now. With both hands pressing on his stomach, he literally begins rolling on the bed. Oh my god, Dr Shim, you sounds like an old lady, nagging like that.so alike with my grandmothernagging me all the timeyou two can be a good pair, Junsu commented teasingly with soft giggles at the end of his voice. Seeing how cheerful Junsus look, Changmin who initially want to nag more melt at the sight. He places his hand on the top of Junsus head and ruffling the soft pink hair (which Changmin knew was dyed and he is curious on the real color of Junsus hair) softly. Its nice to see you laughingnow Im at easeat least I know you are feeling better now, Changmin said and Junsu nods while wiping his tears that come out from too much laughing.Thank you for worrying Minbut it will be nicer if you take off your hand from my head before I bite it down, silent between them as Changmin realized what he had done. His eyes widen at the shocked of his own action and he cant help but to keep staring at Junsus face and Junsu, who is clueless on Changmins shocked only just stare back innocently.Kim Junsu!! the sounds of the door bang open make both of them flinches and automatically Changmin retreat his hand as he looks at the angry man storm in without any regards to Changmin present.You are so gonna get this Kim Junsu. You ran away, sneaking out from your own place, making us to cancel your schedule for today that we have already set in two months prior just to create this stupid scandal!!! the manager Changmin knew called as PilGyo start to scold the singer on the bed. Changmin can feel how embarrassed Junsu is at that time because his cheeks slowly turn into the shades of red.Excuse meIm Kim Junsus doctor, Changmin interrupt and PilGyo look at the person who is standing inside the same room with a white coat still hang neatly on his body. So what you are his doctor? You didnt bear the loss we bear for his actions, PilGyo retort and Changmin swear, he has this urgency to talk back to PilGyo but Junsu quickly interrupt.Minleave us pleaseI think I need to talk to my manageralone Changmin was hesitant at first, but then he comply considering how embarrassing for Junsu if he is tonstay and watch him being scolded.What are you trying to do actually Kim Junsu? You left your cell phone, sneaking out, injured yourself, then get yourself tangled in such a messy scandalous event. Its him right? The doctor just now? The one that they claims to be in relationship with you? PilGyo keeps asking on and on, like fully loaded machine gun, shooting out its bullet endlessly. Junsu can only lower his head down while listening to the constant nagging that never cease to keep protruding his ears but still he hasnt said anything either to talk back to his own manager. Junsu takes a deep breath, then he looks up at PilGyo. Hyung you and the agency can take legal actions on me. I admit that I was wrong all the fault lies in me and I intend to break our contract, Junsu words seems to shut the manger up as Junsu can clearly see his manager look at him with bewildered face.No. no no you cant do that you still have two years contract with us. You cant just break it off or a legal action will be taken against you,And as I have told you before. You can take legal actions against me I fully realized the fault lies within me but do it right because I have plenty of evidences to go against the agency Junsu warns as he pulled up his blanket after laying down. Nowif you excuse me I want to have my good rest as you know, I do fainted this afternoon and the doctor said I was under a great stress... you should head home to hyung I believe, both of us already have a long and tiring day and we need the energy to face what may come tomorrow good night hyung..Changmin looks at his wrist, reading the watch before doing some light stretching to ease out his flexed Changmin stands up from his table heading out of his room and stroll along the sidewalk towards the car park before he can feels flash of lights start to shower him. Instantly he lifts his hand up, covering his face.Hi hi Im from Channel 5, may I know your name sir? We are from KBS World, what kind of relationship did you have with Mr Xia?Is it true about the dating rumour about the two of you?Theres rumour saying that you two have been dating for quite a while and have met on date quite a few time now Changmin become totally confused on what had happened. He clenches his jaw, trying to calm his heart as he is slowly grasping the situation. Taking a deep breath, Changmin suddenly grabs cameraman and take his camera from him. Changmin get through the pictures taken and begins deleting pictures of him, as well as Junsu.What the hell are you doing? the said cameraman shouts and Changmin glares towards his way. Im saving you the trouble of going to the court, he answered calmly and begin looking around as he got surrounded by a flock of reporters. Taking pictures of somebody else, without his consent are violation of privacy I can take action against you all and press charges to whoever published my pictures or the pictures of the incident happened this afternoon. Now if you excuse me, I need to go, Changmin words clearly left the reporters bewildered as the cameraman begins lowering their camera and stop taking pictures of him. Changmin walk to his car, getting inside, ignites the engine and quickly drives away while giving the high beams towards the reporters. Junsu-ahnow when me myself getting closer to your world, now I knowits never that easy, he whispers as he drives away, glancing towards the building where Junsu is resting right now. Junsu-ah...you must endure it well...as a friend, I will always stand by your side...always...count on me...I will make everything right.The two little boys sits under the tree on the hill while looking up on the blue sky. Both of their faces are covered with dirts, proving that they havent been cared by adults for quite a while now. Junsu...are you tired? the older one asked and the smaller one nods. Uhm...but we still didnt have enough money for umma, he answered while rubbing his eyes sleepily. Then....rest a little first Su, we can go looking for empty cans and bottles after this, the older said, caressing the soft lock of his little brother. Junsu of course nods obediently since he didnt want to trouble his hyung further by doing foolish things such as disobeying his hyung words. Hyung...when I grow up...I promise, we will leave this place...I will work hard, and make sure that both of us will have a family again, the younger one whispers as he leans his head on the older one shoulder. No...Im the older one, I should work hard for us...earn money, and bring umma home from the hospital, then we can live happily together again, the older one said. How about we both work hard hyung? We can get umma out faster then, Junsu said, suggesting the best way as a five years old boy. His brother however, didnt seem to agree with it. Looking at how terrible his cute little brother is, he as the oldest out of them will never want his little brother to suffer no more. Su...you have a great voice....promise me, when you are getting older...youll be a singer,His eyebrows almost knitted to each other when he feels the sun rays fall upon his face. Junsu scrunches his nose, then unconsciously turning on his back and pulling up the blanket all over his body. Junsu curled up further, dipping his head under the pillow as he let out soft whine on the disturbance he receives. Then he feels a weight dips into his bed, Junsu drawn a pout on his face as he slowly poking out his head from under the pillow to see whos the one who is disturbing his beauty sleep. Hum...Im still so sleepy... he whines out once he sees Changmins face. Changmin pulls the blanket away before pulling the sleeping singer to sit down properly. Junsu pouts harder as he can barely open his eyes right now.Hey...you are getting discharge today...you should showers up, put on fresh clothes and go home...I believe your manager already brought everything you need by last night right? Changmin said coaxing the sleepy singer as he gets up, gathering what might belong to Junsu but it fell on deaf ear because once he turn around, his eyes feast on already curls up into cocoon with the blanket again. Changmin cant help but to smiles on Junsus act. I wonder how old are you to be acting like this Junsu-ah, he said whispering as he sits down on the bed again. Changmin hands moves towards Junsus shoulder, shaking the singer gently to wake him up again. Hyung...just let me sleep five more minutes... Junsu whines out and that really startles Changmin out of his wits. Hyung? Junsu-ah...wake up...this is Changmin... Changmin said and shaking Junsus shoulder a little bit hard. Junsu mumbles something incoherently before finally opening his eyes slowly and this time, when his eyes meet Changmins eyes, he froze. Eh..??Good morning...now go shower up...its my off day today...Ill be sending you home, Changmin said and Junsu still looks at him with puzzled look on his face before he finally grasp what is happening around him. Ouh...Changmin....its okay...I can go home by myself. If you sent me home, I will involve you deeper into the scandal. I promised to show up at the agency today...theres press conference I need to attend as well, Junsu answered lightly after he finally grasp where he is right now. Changmin turn to look at the man and raise an eyebrow. You have a swollen ankle that hasnt healed fully yet. And since Im your doctor in charge of your health, I already wrote Medical Certificate for you that you can use for a week for a medical leave purpose...so, I want you to rest...go home and rest Junsu. You need to fully recover... Changmin said and Junsu takes a deep breath. Then....resting at my place wouldnt be a good things...reporters will be swarming around and I didnt want to pass out ever again because of the human swamp, he mumbles out and thats catches Changmins attention again.How about....spending time at my place until everything calm down? Changmin suggested and Changmin swears, he never see Junsus eyes going brighter than he is now. Are you sure? I can be a nuisance you know, Junsu said and Changmin smile. You said that...we are friend right? Isnt that what friend do? Helping each other out whenever they in trouble? Junsu smiles and nods. Thanks Changmin...I really needs a place right now...to breath...and to think...but, I think we need to stop somewhere first...I think a small shop where I can buy some comfortable clothes will be good...since if I need to stay at your place...I still needs clothes,Dont worry about that... Changmin answered with a small smile on his face.What do you mean?Just trust me...now showers up...we need to get you clean and fresh...and I plan a safe escape route as well since as you can see, the reporters have already make this hospital likes their own place to loiter around... Changmin said, trying to crack a joke with Junsu to lighten up the mood and its prove to be a success when Junsus face light up with a warm smile. Junsu...I dont know why...but I promise you, I will not let you be alone now. Changmins heart whispers as he sees the man slowly getting up from his bed, leaning to his IVs drip pole as he try to drag himself to the toilet. Changmin without hesitation, act out of his instinct and comes out helping the said man to the toilet before comes back only to face Junsus manager.Mr Kim PilGyo, Changmin greets politely then ignores the manager as he continue packing Junsus belonging. What are you doing? PilGyo asked and Changmin turn back to look at him. Cant you see? Im packing Junsus things, he answered as if he is doing the most obvious things to do at the time. What do you mean by packing his things? the slightly older man asked again and this time, Changmin turn to look at him closely.Im going to take him away...from people like you...that treat him no less than a robot without feelings.You have no rights...he belongs to our agency, and still have terms and conditions he should obey, PilGyo retort and Changmin quickly looks at the manager with fierce eyes.Im his lover, and thats what make me have rights on him...if you dont want your agency to suffer more lost, you better leave and gives Junsu his deserved rest, Changmin threats and PilGyo cant do anything much but to comply though he admits that he is a bit startle with Changmins boldness on confessing his relationship with Junsu. Now you better leave...or you and your agency, will find more trouble by photos that going to be uploaded to the internet if you still with your stance on not giving break to my precious Junsu.Junsu couldnt help but to keep wonder to himself. Now that the both of them are already in the car, his curiosity has grow bigger than ever. Changmin said, they will be reporters around so they need to escape carefully, but at the end, he and Changmin both end up walking comfortably along to the parking lot though he depends on his crutches and Changmin have to carry his knapsack along.Changmin... Junsu finally decides to break the comfortable silence between them as Changmin still have his eyes focus on the road. Yes, the young doctor answers without thinking much. You know... I have been feeling weird all this this time...because you said, there are reporters that are flooding the hospital, but we manage to escape them without any trouble at all... Junsu said. Changmin smiles a little before turning on the radio, choosing to ignores the curious man. Changmin....answer me.... Junsu whines as he hold on Changmins arm, shaking it a little. I dont know...they swarm me like flies but I didnt see them at all today, Changmin finally answers, feigning ignorance despite the truth of what he has done last night. Threatening the nosy reporters with laws.I see...Changmin-ah...may I borrow your phone?What for? Dont you have one of your own? Changmin asked back and Junsu pouts again. I left it at the hospital...better if someone got it and used it...I really dont want to leave any clue behind. I want to live a different life for this whole week, he said, explaining without Changmins need to ask further. Changmin smiles before a mischievous grin creep up upon his face. Well...what to do then? Its on my back pocket. Do you think you can get it? Changmin tease the singer. Junsu widens his eyes a little then nods his head. Sure...well, you have to move forward a little, so that I can take it out... Junsu answered as his hand directly heads to the back of Changmins butt. Its Changmin turn to get startle on how bold Junsu is. Kidding...kidding...there...under the dashboard...my phone is there, Changmin quickly said, avoiding Junsus hand that is ready to grab the back of his butt. Junsu chuckles victoriously before taking the cellphone and open it. Theres a pattern password.Yeah...I forgot...hand me that... Changmin take the phone, unlock it and hand it over to Junsu again. Junsu take the phone gladly and begin his activity.Hum...this is weird... Junsu mumbles out as he keep focusing on the phone screen, perhaps reading something but Changmin didnt really know what it is. What weird? Changmin asked and his question make Junsu lift his head up a little before back to focusing on the screen of the phone.Well, Im searching articles about me. There are few, about my disappearance and not attending any of my schedule yesterday...and news of me got hospitalized...but...But what? Changmin cut in, Junsu put down Changmins phone then he look at Changmins side profile carefully.PilGyo hyung said, I do create scandal yesterday...about you and me...weirdly, theres no single pictures on the web about that scandal, Junsu said, admitting that hes rather curious about it. Whenever he try to open any link regarding that, the links are neither expired, or has been take down by the owner. Your agency must have take actions against that...they wouldnt want their precious singer to be stress further, Changmin said, answering to Junsu.My precious Junsu,the word precious suddenly rings into Junsus ear, inevitably bringing soft blush to creep upon his cheeks when Junsu remembered back what he accidentally heard that time when he was just get out from the toilet after freshened up.Still, I feel weird, before this, there are another celebrities under the same label as mine that got tangled up in a scandal, but the agency do nothing aside from press conference to clear the misunderstanding, Junsu answered back looking at Changmin though he admit, his response is a bit too late because he got startled at first.You are weird Junsu...shouldnt you be glad that everything is over now? That there are no pictures of us?I know....I know, I do feel relieve because of that, but still, I want to look at how good the photos of us were...but since the photos had been taken down, I will just imagine how I look like when you carry me away from the crowd, Junsu said calmly, making Changmin chuckles a little. Believe me...not that good...I have the chance to see it...and those pictures look really terrible,Still you have the chance to look at them.I saved some...on my personal computer...I will let you see it later, once we reach my place...now, we should get something to eat first, its nearing lunch already...Sure...if you promised me that youll pay, Junsu quickly agree, not to mention adding some conditions to their lunch.Alright...its on me... and that makes Junsu claps his hands like little kids getting a new toy.

He looks at the night sky from the window of his apartment. The sky looks dark tonight, maybe because of the thick clouds or maybe, the moon and the stars just decide to hide themselves from his sight or worse, all of it just his imagination. He takes a deep breath, the sounds of the announcer reading the weather forecast manages to steal his attention for a while. The forecast that tonight will be a bit windy and rain along with thunder and lightning strike, but not enough to create a storm but Changmins heart already filled with stormy motions. His feelings and consciences are mixing, battling each other. His rationality is slowly decreasing. It has been two weeks passed since that night, the last night Junsu spent with him. A night that neither Changmin nor Junsu can forget just like that. Because of that night, Changmin has become a coward, a coward that constantly running away. He has been running away from reality, reality of that night, a mistake he committed. At least that what he believes.Changmin take a deep breath, then he turn on his heels; have enough of night air for the time being and his eyes .falls on his neatly made bed. Changmin couldnt help but to walk to his bed and sit downs. Changmin unconsciously moves his hand toward the pillows that Junsu used before. Then his hand gently caress the soft mattress he has been sitting on, the other side of the bed where Junsu laid his body every night for a week every time he wants to rest. The side where sometimes, Junsu ended up crossing it over to Changmins side without he even realize it. Changmin took another deep breath before slowly laying down on the bed. Jaewhat have I done? I betrayed you, he whispers and closes his eyes as his minds wander back to the day he brought Junsu with him to live just as Kim Junsu, not Xiah.Junsu unconsciously, he whispers out the man name in his half-conscious state.Golden Dragon City, Junsu read out the name written on the big board on the building blocks as soon as Changmin take a left turn entering the neighborhood. Yupits a shop that accommodates almost everything I need. Start from clothes, food, cleaning utensils, etcetc Changmin answered as he carefully Changmin parked the car outside of the small mart before climb off the car, taking the crutches from the back seat and quickly get to the passenger seat side and open the door for Junsu. Junsu smiles at the young doctor, assuring him that hes fine and its okay but Changmin still stand tall beside Junsu, didnt even bother to budge at all. MinI can walk fine, Junsu said as he grab his own crutches and slowly get off the car. Im the doctor here Junsu, I know better, Changmin replied and thats make Junsu pout at his words. But its my bodymy leg, my ankle; I know them better than you. I have been living with them for twenty-eight years already, Junsu retort back and Changmin sighs. Hardheadedfinefineyou know best but still you already fainted once Junsu, Changmin said, begin to start his nag again but stops right when he sees Junsus warm smile.What is there to worry about? I have you arent I? the questions make Changmins heart rings. He forgot for a while at the truth behind the warm smiles. Junsu has been standing alone all this time. Then Changmin remember the way Junsu act as Xiah. Always rainbows and sunshine when the truth is, the singer has many painful things hidden from the world. How did Changmin knew? Well, simple, this morning when he woke Junsu up from his sleep, Junsu unconsciously mumbled out hyung and theres longing inside that voice. Changmin is so sure of that. After all, he did study psychology and passed the course with flying colors.Finebut tell me instantly if you feels tiredwe can stop and rest before continuing, Changmin said and Junsu chuckles again. Oh stop it Minyou are being worry too muchI got stamina okay, Junsu said as he makes his way into the mart. Though Junsu assured him that hes fine, Changmin still didnt let his guard down. Changmin take a cart near the entrance and push it along while Junsu already on his feet, walking slowly and a bit uncomfortable, but thanks to the crutches, he can walk a little bit better than before. HumMinwhere is the clothes section? Junsu asked but Changmin pay no attention to the other man because now, his own heaven already open up before him.Changmin? Junsu called out again, only to gape in amusement once his eyes fall on Changmin who already have half of the cart filled with various kind of food, from instant noodles, up to fresh fruits. Junsu eyes follow Changmins movement before slowly makes his way towards the obviously excited young doctor. Changminwhat are you going to cook with all these? Junsu asked once he stand next to Changmin while point to the already half-filled cart.Wellwe can cook many thingsbesidesthis is for three days food, Changmin said mindlessly, almost makes the singes eyeballs pops out from the socket out of shock. You meanall of these Junsu points to the cart filler with three kilos of Korean beef, two and half kilos of Holland potatoes, some vegetables, fruits, five cartons of milk, and much more. Changmin turn to look at Junsu and nods his head. YupI usually filled the cart with half of the food, but since you are going to live with me, so why not filled it full? Changmin exclaims again and Junsu shakes his head. Changmin-ah, Junsu called out but the young doctor is too excited shopping for foods, hence he didnt really hear Junsu calling out for him.Junsu try again. This time he hold on Changmins hand, stopping the tall lanky man from keep picking up any food his eyes lands on. I didnt eat that muchIm on diet, or else, my weight will be increase, Junsu said, explaining to the young doctor. Changmin who is already holding two pomegranates look at him before scowling at Junsu direction. So what if you gain weight? You need to gain in anyway because your weight is far from ideal with your height and if you asking how I know it, I just knew it when I lift you up when you passed out yesterdayand logically, a passed out person is heavier because all his limbs and muscles are in complex relax mode but still, I didnt have any problem carrying you. So, since Im the doctor in charge for your health, during your stay with me, you have to forget your ridiculous diet and eat like you should. Ill be the one nurturing your proper meal from now and Ill make sure you got your nutrition right, Changmin said while Junsu just blinks his eyes a few time while looking at Changmins direction.What? Im saying the truth, Changmin finally speaks his discomfort when Junsu did nothing but look at him. Junsu smiles warmly as he steps closer to Changmin as he hugs the young doctor tightly, ignoring the poor crutches and let them fall on the floor with loud thuds, earning them some looks from peoples around them. Junsuwhat are you doing? You are inviting people attention towards us,I dont careI just want to hug youlet me stay like this for a brief while. Let me at least believe, that in this world, there are hands that still hold me and protect me from the harshness of reality, Junsu whispers as he buried his face on Changmins chest. Changmin freeze on his spot as he heard Junsu out. Slowly, he put the pomegranates into the cart then wrapping his arms around Junsus body and pulls the singer closer. He keeps his hold tight and secure and Changmin himself realize something. His heartbeat start to rise up; and he knows it well.He takes the potatoes that had been cleaned beforehand and take the knife, slowly peeling off the skin. Though a bit clumsy, Junsu is determines to help out. Changmin has warned him before to sit stills and just watch, but that will be too much for Junsu. Hes easily bored and with Changmin acted like that, he only able to sneak around, helping Changmin to peel off the potatoes skin when the young doctor have his back turn on him. Junsu keeps his eyes on the potatoes, peeling off carefully. Yesone finishedthree more to go he cheers silently to himself, as he didnt want Changmin to catch him doing the work. He takes another potato; almost start to peel the skin off when he feels a hand caught his wrist. I thought I already make it clearyou are about to watch only Junsu, Changmin said, warning out and Junsu pouted. But Im boredbesideMin, its only potatoesno harm done. Im sitting downpleaselet me help you he pleads and he starts to us his rounded eyes, pleading to Changmin. Changmin try to ignore the looks on Junsus face at first, but then fall for the cute puppy eyes Junsu keeps throwing to him. OkayokayI will let you do the potatoes okay, Changmin gives in and Junsu cheers happily as he start to concentrate back on his work before.Changmin walk back to the sink as he starts to scissors the dried seaweed. Junsu lift his head up and he looks at Changmin as the young doctor preparing the seaweed soups ingredients. UhmMin, are you making seaweed soup? Junsu asked and Changmin nods his head.Yeswhy?Urmcan you not mashed the garlic? I like to eat them as whole, Changmins head snapped then he looks at Junsu.Minlets not mashed the garlic. I like to eat them as whole,Junsu keep staring at Changmin, obviously startle by Changmins reaction on his request. Butif you dont like it then, its okayI was justsuggesting, Junsu said, quickly correcting himself as he looks down, continue to peel the potatoes. Kim Junsumind your manneryou are a guest here he mutters under his breath, scolding his own being for being bossy all of sudden. Noits okayIm fine with thatbesides, my aim is to get you proper nutrition, Junsu quickly lifts his head up, grinning widely and he shoots Changmin a lovely gaze. Thank you Minand if you canadd some abalone in itthe soup will be really delicious,And we add some abalone in it. The soup will be really delicious.While stirring the soup, Changmin cant help but to keep his eyes on Junsu. Junsu, who are you? Why are you so similar to him? his heart whispers and that send another beats towards Changmins heart. Slowly, Changmins eyes falls on Junsu who is happily dicing the potatoes now.Dinner is ready. A whole table filled by various of food. Cooked by Changmin, aided by Junsu. Egg rolled, chopped beef steaks, seaweeds soup, sweet sour marinated crabs, chilies fried potatoes and apple salads. Junsu and Changmin bot looked at their dinner table before Junsus eyes falls on Changmins grinning face. Minisnt this too much just for dinner? Junsu asked and Changmin only dismissed Junsus question by filling Junsus bowl with rice and put it in front of Changmin. Nowjust raise you chopstick and eatstop questioning, Changmin said while Junsu pouted a little. Alrightalright, Junsu answered as he begins eating. As he did that, his eyes widen at the delicious sensation invading his senses. WowMinthis is work of art, Junsu praises and Changmin responded by putting another slice of meats on Junsus bowl. If that soeat to your heart content, Changmin continue and Junsu nodded as he indulging himself with the treat.Humeverything is delicious, Junsu said as he sips on the seaweed soup again and again, then Junsu take a slice of the egg roll, chewing it slowly but his face change color at that. Changmin notice that and he quickly stands up and walks to Junsu. Whats wrong? Changmin asked as Junsu looks up at him, hardly swallowing the egg rolls and drink his juice. Do you have some salt pepper? I cant eat sweet egg rolls, Changmin looks at Junsu before slowly walking over to the kitchen cabinet and hand it over to Junsu. Without hesitating, Junsu pour generous amount of the salt pepper on his share of egg rolls then grins. This is more like it, he commented and smile at Junsu. Changmin can only smile softly to Junsu at that.Come on Jaewhos on earth make egg rolls and puts salt pepper in it? Egg rolls should taste a bit sweet, Changmin complained as he accompanies Jaejoong cooking at the kitchen. Jaejoong gives Changmin a glance, ignoring the comments before continuing to make his own egg roll.I didbecause both me and my little brother hate it sweet. Our mother thought us that as well, Jaejoong replied and since that day, every time they want to eat egg rolls, there will be two different kinds of battered egg, sweet one for Changmin and salty one for Jaejoong.Changmin is in deep thought as he waits for Junsu to come out from the bathroom since the singer insist on having his shower. He is now in deep curiosity. Who Junsu actually is? His eating habit is too similar to the late Jaejoong and sometimes, his bold action also reflects on how Jaejoong acted when the said man was with him. He takes a deep breath once and his wandering mind come back as soon as he hear the sound of the bathrooms door being opened, revealing Junsu in rabbit pajamas. Changmins eyes falls on Junsu, from head to toe as Junsu walks to him calmly, not realizing the fact he has stir something inside Changmins heart. Min thank you for the clothesI thought it will be bigger and longer but it just match my size perfectly, Junsu said and Changmin can only smile at him. Wellits a clothes of my friend mine. Mine will be really unsuitable for you to wear. Is it comfortable? Changmin asked again and Junsu nods.Yesand very comfortable. Anywaywhere will I sleep? Junsu asked again and Changmin scratches his scalp. He forgot, he used to share the bed with Jaejoong and his apartment is only one room apartment. Well you can take the bedyou are the one who is sick right now after all, Changmin said, being a gentleman and offer his bed. A rare occasion indeed since Changmin loves his bed as much as he loves his food since sleeping on his own bed is a rare chance because most of the time he spends his time at the hospital and rest his tired body on the hard-rock hospital bed more.But then Minyou are the one who will have bad back ache later in the morning, Junsu bickers back and Changmin smile. Its fine really, Changmin said as he helps Junsu to the bed. Junsu eyes scanning the queen size bed then he looks up at Changmin. The bed is big enough to accommodate both of usjust sleep on the bed with me Min, Junsu said thoughtlessly, sending Changmin to freeze over. Junsu climbs on the bed and lay down and he looks at Changmin. Come on Minboth of us are men, nothing will happenedso just sleep and rest well okay Junsu continue, coaxing Changmin and Changmin didnt have much choice but to obey by then. He slowly climbs on the bed then lay down next to Junsu. Junsu notices that Changmin is being careful, so he takes the bolster and put it in between of them. Satisfied now? We had a long and tiring day already Minlets just rest okay, Junsu said as he pulls the cover up and closes his eyes. Changmin looks at Junsu, and then smiles a little. Good night Su and Changmin only hear out mumbles words in response. Words that if Changmin didnt misinterprets them as Good night tooMinnie.Hyung why mom is sleeping in there? Why mom no sleep on bed? the younger one of the two brothers, asking his older brother on the reason their mom is sleeping while dress prettily in white hanbok. The older looks at his brother and smile. Maybemom is comfortable sleeping in there. See, mom didnt even move. No needles pricking moms hands eitherno wire to mom nose. In there, its comfortable for mom, he answered, acting wise when the truth is, he also curious on why their mother sleeping in the coffin. Two little boy, standing awkwardly in the middle of many people around with black clothes on and they looks around. Unsure of what had happened but the older one can grasp it quickly. Hyung he looks down at his brother, a toddler of five years old as the toddler hugs him by his waist. The older one looks down and collects his little brother in a protective hug. Both of them are too young to understand the world just yet, and their relatives that are coming isnt telling them anything either. Sueits nothing...dont worry okay? the older one coaxed gently and the little one nods his head.Poor boysafter their father gone missing without any trace, now their mother left them, Junsus ears perk up, hearing the words that one of his aunty said. Storming towards the old lady, Junsu pointed his finger accusingly. "Aunty lie!! Mom is sleepingthere! then his tiny finger point to the coffin where his mother rest forever. The old lady didnt scold the young boy, instead she stands up and walk to Junsu, embracing the innocent boy into a warm hug. Poor boy and Junsu can feel his cheeks getting wet with warm water.Why aunty cries? Junsu asked innocently while tilting his head up. The old lady can only smile bitterly at the question before shaking her head. Nothing sweetheart, she said as she hugs Junsu again while the other brother just stands there, clueless. After all, they were only seven and five year old boys.Junsu scratch his itchy ear and frowning a little. The itchiness stops for a while, but then comes again. He frowns deeper in his sleep. He scratch his ear again, this time he determine to catch anything moving that keep making his ear itching. Hum he whines when the itchiness come back soon after. Junsu open his eyes, looking at surrounding with half-lidded eyes but he found no bugs or any insects that are flying here and there to disturb him. Junsu closes his eyes again, this time dipping his head under the pillow to avoid the itchiness attack. Junsu smiles satisfied, now, theres no more interruption to his sleep. Junsu lands his hand comfortably on the bed, then he snuggles closer to the bed, liking the warmness. Wait? What is this?He remembers the bed is all soft and springy, but this one is rather hard, and fleshy. The material however, soft and warm; Junsus hand keeps roaming around some more before his eyes snaps open and he looks at the thing he just touched carelessly before. Then his eyes widen in horror as he watches what he had been touching for quite a while now. Junsus throat suddenly feels dry and his face quickly heats up despite of the cool air of the spring that come gushing from the slightly open windows.Sois this the reason why you asked me to sleep in the same bed with you? Changmin asked with a teasing smile on his face. Junsu quickly shakes his head, so fast that he ended up feeling nauseous because of the spins.Nolike reallyI didnt mean it Junsu answered, defending himself while stuttering, obviously embarrassed with just had happened between them. You know, you not only rubbing your hand on my body here and there, you even slide your hand under my shirt, Changmin continues to tease as Junsu has becomes redder and redder. HumI didnt mean itI wasnt conscious, Junsu retort back and that earn Changmin more idea to tease, he slowly sits down and take Junsus hand. WellI can accept that as a reason thenyou werent conscious of what you are doingbut Junsu, even if you do touch me like right nowI wouldnt mind, he continues and as Junsu goes redder, he grabs the pillow and hits Changmins body. Im not!!! Not touching you!!! he shrieks, giving out his dolphin-like voice and Changmin couldnt help but to continue laughing.Hearing the laughs coming out from Changmin, Junsu get more shy and embarrassed, he resort to hitting Changmin more and more while Changmin just let himself been beaten up by Junsu before he catches the raging dolphins hands and pull the pillow away, throwing it into the corner (poor innocent pillow T_T), then he pins Junsu to the bed startling the singer. You should restraints your movements Sueyour ankle isnt healing yet, Changmin said with his face so close to Junsu that it makes Junsus face become redder. Changmin gazes down on Junsus face, their eyes meet and Junsu swear, he feels something like electricity flowing through all his veins and his heart start to do some weird flips (LOL, overreacting metaphor). They stay like that for quite a while, looking at each other as if they are trying to penetrate into each other mind, reading it like reading a book. Junsu avert his eyes everywhere after that, breaking the eye contact but Changmin keep staring at Junsus face as if he want to carve Junsus face in his mind forever. Junsu clears his throat awkwardly before he ended up pushing Changmins off him. Off me Minyou are heavy Junsu said, trying to lighten the awkward mood and Changmin looks like he just get awakes from his in daze state. Smiling a little Changmin nods his head. Ah.rightoh, Ill prepare our breakfast. You can go wash up first, Changmin said as he stands up and walk out from his own bedroom.