east of summer

8/14/2019 East of Summer

1/61

EAST OF SUMMER

The hands of time are moving much too fast

I thought I was living in the present

Seems though as I am reliving my pastThe children that I knew so young are getting old

My muscles grown and ache

As my bones get brittle and coldThe places that I used to go are now demolished

Schools turned into parking lots

My senses no longer prim and polishedSkin once so smooth has become dry and cracked

Memories of yesterday fade

As the pain moves to various spots in my back

Happiness

I chased happiness through years through tears to this paradise

But when I got to it I found happiness was elsewhere

I looked back over the traveled lands that I had learned to despiseAnd realized that this elusive oy was all the time right there

My !if only"s# were a massive mountain I was forced to face

$rustrating my dreams my time and %uaking the peace of my brow

How wonderful it would have been for the anguish to be replacedAnd accept that I could have oy then and I can decide to have it now

That it was never dependant on how much I had in the bankIt did not matter how many cars or houses I owned or could sell&as not important what was my pay grade or my rank

Made no difference who was my boss or who was my personnel

All along it was simply up to me to make a choiceThat I had to decide to be happy and happiness would be there

To be content in the state that I am currently in and reoice

$or happiness is a decision you can decide to have anywhere


2/61

The light comes on in a hallway in a building down the street

A dog howls in notes that only the birds and trees can realizeThe sky covered by a dark veil though still you can feel heat

$lowers are silent and bees retreat from their ourney in the skies

There is an echo in the distant e'panding horizon that e'plodes(ightening flashes in the souls of all that are near by

The people are hidden deep within their humble abodes

As the ground shakes with the melody of the river"s sigh$ar from the borders of one"s heart there rages a war

It promises death and yet it gifts life and birth

Though some will be killed others will have eternal scars

Some will be planted as seeds deep within the earthThe roots will grow deep in the hands of fertile soil

The fruits promise to be tender and sweet

)et hands will be calloused from learning to toil

And these plants will be as sacrificed meat

That *ay in the +ark

,ivers caress the shore offering solemn empathy

In return the earth hugs the currents to show its sympathy

Together they flow for miles around branches and curves

-ach desiring to e'pand the borders they feel they deserve&e sit on the edge our feet in the cool moist flow

&ondering where are dreams and leaves will go

Skipping the stones to reach the other side.r fall short and are washed away by the tide

The breeze is calm and yet the trees gleefully dance

A melody a rhythm here in the forest of romanceThe creatures sing their own uni%ue sound

The peace and tran%uility of nature is all around

&e hold hands and travel to places we both have never been

And pray that this feeling nor this day will never end


3/61

Anticipation of Seeing )ou

&ill her hair feel like silk on the edge of my fingers/&ill the day after be satiated with sensations that linger/

$or months I have looked forward to this blissful day

That you would be in my arms and our kiss full display$or months only visions of you was in my dreams

Thoughts of you brightening my day like sunbeams

&ill her hands be molded to the grip of my palms/

&ill the presence of her voice bring peace and calm/$or months I have longed to hold you tight

That you won"t disappear and would be by my side

$or months been imagining the taste and the sweet smell

To listen to your stories and offering some of mine to tell&ill her eyes glow or penetrate through the many walls/

&ill her heart heed to love"s tender call/$or months my skin has danced with the thoughts of your embrace

*ancing and shivering with the ecstasy of the sight of your face

*istant (over

How can I feel your soul when your heart is behind closed doors/How can I taste your thoughts when your mind is on the 0thfloor/

There are delights that perhaps we will never e'perience together

And even a level of bliss that will not become a part of our tetherMaybe your hands won"t be enveloped in the strength of my grip

And my arms will never be tightly wrapped around your supple hips

There is a chasm that my spirit wishes to leap into your arms)et the distance is too great for it to escape free from dire harm

So on the oceans I will send waves of wet kisses for your tender shore

And in the wind I will blow sweet warm thoughts for you to adore

So in the stars I will write our love a million times in the skyAnd in the rain I will give moisture to our seeds so they will never die

Then I can feel your soul because your heart is always at my door

I will taste your thoughts cause you mind is dancing on my floor


4/61

Internal Attacks

The distant thunder shatters the borders of my aching brain

The touch of your hands soothe the ruptures so terse

1ile words travel through the river of my veins2erves cannot comprehend which phenomenon is worse

The winds will come the rains will violently fall

)et we will be here safe under the fortified roof.ur souls will heed the storm"s enticing call

And the contracts of vows will be the proof

&e can watch the violent clouds as they approach

The structure will envelope us no cause for alarmBut the fences the bastilles have been broached

The true enemy is in both of us to do harm

The seeds die only for a tree to be bornThat"s the way life goes

The heart e'pands to the world adorn

That"s the way love grows

The rain falls in torrents on innocent barren heads

+erfect day for a long movie lost in the covers of a bed

A glass of wine perhaps to ease the melody on the roof&armed by your touch held in your arms saturated by love

*ancing souls in time with the raindrops and our heart beat

-cstasy found in your kiss or caressing the curves of your feetThu0nder e'plodes shaking the houses firm foundation

The mattress sings we are baptized by the bliss of our fountain

(ightening flashes showing briefly the outlines of naked fleshBut invisible to the eyes and ears are the borders of bliss

,ivers and lakes form in the crevices of our yard

As sweat flows down curves and drowns our desirous hearts

,ain kn3ocks on the windows and doors an'ious to get in&e are oblivious to the storm though we dance to the rhythm within

Time is none'istent tomorrows and yesterdays are a world away

.ur only reality is the splendor found in the core of this rainy day


5/61

45333 puzzle pieces scrambled in the core of my soulMy mind unable to decipher colors and shapes is frustrated

Impatience and an'iety infiltrate to take control

(eaving my spirit in a confused and dire state$ar away lies the map the directions to make this masterpiece

It is beyond the black hill mountains and the +acific .cean

+romising love oy and insurmountable releaseAnd will solve the riddle the dilemma of these divided emotions

-lements of this skyscraper lay scattered in my mind

My hands tied to the post of procrastination and fear

There are no instructions or construction guru for me to findAnd no past successes that my soul can hear

$ar away an engineer holds the blue prints to the magnificent structure

It is beyond the clouds and the planet"s path

1owing to gift wisdom5 creativity5 and steady composureAnd will assassinate the cancers of ealousy vengeance and wrath

Her love is concentrated

2o water no additives or preservatives2atural as sunshine refreshing as an ocean breeze

So I take her in small doses

+ure and strong like the scent of a 45333 roses

Her love is concentrated

Her laugh still rings in my earsStories of unbridled lust or unforgiven tears

6ourneys that span the depth of words or the breadth of emotions

Thoughts and touches that travel beyond oceansBliss in every touch ecstasy in every kiss

But it is the warmth the inward beauty I truly miss

Sometimes I look in the mirror and see us in deep embrace

The apprehensions the fear that we both faceThen I see the me in her of dreams realized

Hope deferred and ambitions behind the borders of the skies


6/61


7/61

I must admit that I try not to have any preconceived ideas any large e'pectations5 but

having already freely and openly communicating with you that I did have some ideas

some hopes some e'pectations9 I knew that our conversations would flow5 I knew that theair would be filled with both laughter and intrigue5 I knew that the source of true beauty

would be your delightful spirit5 I knew that it would be comfortable talking with you5 I

knew that our conversations would be diverse and span many topics5 I knew all of thesethings e'pected all of these things looked forward to all of these things )-T in all of

these areas the e'perience far e'ceeded everything I had e'pected everything I dreamt it

would be everything I hoped it would be9 It now only leaves me an'ious and anticipating

our ne't meeting9 .nce again I will try not to have e'pectations yet know that whateverthought whatever hope whatever dream will be e'ceeded by your presence once again9

The atmosphere so noisy with words I could not decipher)et my ears were saturated by the gentle melody of her

$umbling with chopsticks while eating chicken feet.r being warmed soothed by the dance of her and me

A stranger in a different land yet at peace and content

That this moment in time was meantTo know more and see more and hear more my spirit thirsts

-'perience with her all these and many more firsts

Time was so short and so very rare

But even now I must reflect on your beauty and stare

2ot ust at the charming smile or beautiful e'pressive eyesBut at the wonderful spirit where the true treasure lies

-very moment no matter how long or how brief

The atmosphere was lovely far beyond my belief(istening to your laughter to your thoughts and dreams

Made me only more addicted to your presence it seems

To feel your hands your body wrapped tightly in my arms

Smell your sweet scent tracing the borders of your charms&atching your silky hair slip through tender fingers

The priceless sensation of being with still lingers

Time was so short yet no other e'perience could compareTo the oy of being with you like an answered prayer

Hypnotized by the conversations the delightful smiles

Still fills my would with warmth that spans the miles-very time in your presence listening to your voice

The atmosphere saturated with so many brilliant shade of oys


8/61

The sun appeared to be so brightTouching your hand turned days from nights

Although our passion on fire our bodies connected in sin

Being with you tasting your nectar allows me to see the windMy soul never before able to take flight

Hearing your laughter brings hidden charms to light

And though our touches would make the nuns blushBeing with you smelling your scent causes my senses to rush

The waves never seemed to have so much might

$eeling the borders of your mind framed my blissful plight

And though our love dances with the melody of sinBeing with you takes me to place never before been

The moon never appeared to be full and white

Hearing your spirit holding you felt so very right

And though others would condemn our making loveI can"t help but feel that even :od understood far above

Trees sag from the weight of forbidden fruit

My arms to short to reach the limbThe will of my spirit praying for seeds to take root

And lift me up to them

+assion rushes through the core of my veins-choing the rushing rhythmic sound

-tching caverns and caves on my fragile mind

As I an'iously await for the fruit to hit the groundMy arms grow weary stretching to the lowest branch

To taste the bliss of a fresh harvest

-motions herded like cattle on a vast ranch

Although heard to determine if I am cursed or blessed


9/61

There is a chasm of years between you and I

As if you were precious earth and I the sky

Seemingly never to be never to enoy one another"s touch*oomed to view the essence that makes souls rush

+erhaps there may be those who look at our love and understand

The bliss of our melody of laughter or holding each other"s handsThere is a time though that we oin in the bog

&here we dance so close together appearing as flowing fog

Then land and sky seem to become as one

The aged sage connecting the lively heart of someone so youngThere is a chasm of elements between you and me

As if you were the precious soil and I the sea

Seemingly never to be become as one

Tortured to enoy endless touches but borders never to be undone+erhaps there may be those who look at our love and blush

The ecstasy of our passion that flies and seems to be in a rushThere is a time though where li%uid and soil mi' so true

&here we dance so close hard to define what is me and what is you

The waves and earth seem to become as oneThe ancient teacher connecting the virgin soil of one so young

There is a chasm of seasons between you and me

As if I was winter and you were the summer"s free

Seemingly never to be never to enoy a passionate hug*oomed to be distant and void of the mountains of love

+erhaps there may be those who dream and see us and understand

That love has no concept of time when it comes to woman and manThere are times though when the summer like sun melts the snow

.r when frost forms on the windows of an August flow

Then the summer and winter become temporarily as oneThe weather worn sage warmed by the soul of someone so young

Mighty lions seemingly free in their gilded cage bound by the borders of the zoo

7hained and doomed to the distant memories of the African plans so free and true

2ot so different than us bound to our emotions that are hidden behind golden bars.ur soul cries our in lament for wings to reach the limit of the far away stars

There is no truth to the thought that our love has not borders around it

$or there are chains and moats that surround even its seemingly vast limitsSo like the lion we will room through the prison letting out moans and roars

But dream of butterflies and eagles which are gifted to fly and to soar


10/61

A hunger is rising in me turning primordial man into beast

7ondemned by fate to dine at this Barmecidal feast

Soul famished for both passion and love.nly fed by the sour raindrops from above

(imits placed on the unbridled desires

That burns the borders with roaring firesShe offers me a kiss and fresh uice

A warm hug to comfort me to a truce

Her touches merely add fuel to the inferno

Her songs invite the temptations to swiftly growThe time disappears hidden by fate"s vile thief

Stealing my hopes and harvests of belief

The heat evaporates the moisture up

+reventing my soul to give supMy mind e'panded as if added to yeast

2ow gorging on this primordial feast

+hysical beauty is a subtle trap that bids welcomeTo those who like me who are deaf and dumb

:uided merely by the passion and wanton lust

My will my path I loose my vision forfeit my trust

My soul lost in a stare yet my soul singsMy heart laments for such a fragile wing

There emotions deeply rooted inclined to swell

*ooming my life to be condemned to hellA lovely face a pleasant smile a shapely body

Is the drug that into'icates the core of me

There is a beauty so uni%ue and rare

That my soul can"t help but stop and stare

The splendor that delights like morning dewThis charm though is not so rare to you

$or every morning when you look in the mirror

Beauty splendor comeliness appearsThere is melody so precious and hard to find

That my soul can"t help but hoard it in my mind

The loveliness delights like the sea"s peaceful blueThis rarity though is found richly in you

$or every view of your facets it becomes clear

Beauty splendor comeliness appears


11/61

These emotions in the deep dark depths of my soul are born

(ike some undiscovered insect or some graceful white unicornBut like the heavenly star high in the air

My soul confirms that it is actually precious and rare

)et still in my life it truly e'istsThere are no plastic kisses or borders to our bliss

Shall these thoughts lay still and yet purge

The twinkling of a wish the twilight of an urge$orce my ears to cease their incessant ringing

1oid of the sky"s of the sea"s gentle singing

The flowers spewing the dreams of tomorrow"s fruit)et my tongue sadly vanes mute

A delight of rainbows dancing before me in paradise

But love is a dream one cannot see with open eyes

There are endless bridges with such pricey tollsThat offers no hope or salvation to bankrupt souls

)ou have what you feared or perhaps what you wishedThat from my heart you have been eternally banished

2ot a temporary dictum but one to span the borders of time

+unishment fit for the timelessness unrelented crime

A decision for the world to declare the earth to seeThe dark and evil wounding the vile treachery

2o longer will you have access to betray the land

The verdict is perpetual and on it my heart standsSurely I have forgiven you and no hate is on my tongue

)et there is no %uestion or hope we are done


12/61

The tears evaporated from the hear forming clouds in my skies.nly to once again rain from the corner of melting eyes

There was no path to peace and no salvation in sleep

.nly space to reflect the aching and to once again weep*eep inside my oceans are in tumultuous rage

The shores eroded and my heart can"t turn the page

In the caves there are earth%uakes that cave in the walls

(eaving emotions trapped without air in dark lonely hallsMy thoughts lay still awaiting to be embalmed

2o source or melody offered to make me calm

The well of tears form rivers that rush to the sea

7arving caverns and valleys deep in the core of me

In the love of you count me neither as last or least

In the love of you count me neither as animal or beast7ount me one who has sought your heart your soul to discover

In the hopes of becoming to you both friend and lover

In the love of you count me neither as draft or dreamIn the love of you count me neither as brunt or beam

7ount me as one who is intrigued enough to know the real you

In the hopes of finding of a love so uni%ue and trueIn the love of you count me neither as grim or grime

In the love of you count me neither as thief or crime

7ount me as one who is delighted by the melody of your tones

In the hopes of making your heart my eternal home

Here in this land that you have never been

A place perhaps your feet may never trod

But since you are in my heart you are with me then;nder the same sun smiled upon by the same loving :od

)ou are dancing under the same sun"s warm kiss

)our feet feeling the refreshing touch of the ocean"s bliss

The sweetness that I taste the beauty I see


13/61

)ou are there enoying the lovely sensations with me

(onging to be in your arms lost in the ecstasy of your kiss

There are no limits to the oy of our laughter

2o borders to the level of unbridled bliss*reams now confirmed fantasies realized

To wake up to the beauty of your smiling eyes

$eeling the comfort of the shower on our skinStill not as pleasurable as the touch of your hands on my limbs

&ashing one another"s flesh tasting the sweetness of lips

$lowing with the rhythm of desire tracing one another"s hips

Still with the boundless e'pectations that I had soughtThey all were e'ceeded by the reality of thought

&hen there are days that are pregnant with graysThe skies too full of pain even to morn

Horizon is obscured by the daunting hazeAnd time and oyful sunshine is forlorn

My thoughts are drawn to you

Then my skies are bright and blue&here there are days that torment the ocean waves

The surface too scattered with confusion

Horizon disappears and is impeding even to the brave

And distance and peaceful calm is only an illusionMy thoughts are drawn to you

Then my oceans are calm clear and blue

)ou hold onto my arm

And I feel like a king

)ou feel safe from all hurt and harm;s together is such a wonderful thing

)ou kiss the corner of my lips

And I feel such e'citement)ou feel the beginning of bliss

;s together brings such contentment

)ou stare into my eyesAnd I feel like I could fly

)ou feel you have found paradise

;s together is so very right


14/61

&ho would have thought would who would have knew

That the mere touch of your hand

&ould turn my gray skies to blue&ho would have thought would who would have conceived

That the mere sound of your laughter

&ould make my heart once again believe&ho would have though who would have conured/

That the mere taste of your lips

&ould calm this dangerous civil war

There are no %uestions or concerns of how or why6ust the contentment and oy that it is true

Three are no answers ust peace nigh

&ith the touch the sound the taste the mere thought of you

&ho would have thought who would have uncoverThat the mere sharing of feelings

&ould turn stranger to friend and friend to lover&ho would have thought who would have trust

That the mere holding you in my arms

&ould spark love and %uell lust&ho would have though who would have fantasized/

That the mere glance of your eyes or smile

&ould be the discovery of a virgin paradise

There are no %uestions to what and how6ust the bliss of a oy so pure and true

There are no answers to the intrigue of now

&ith the feeling the hugs the glance or merely the thoughts of you

.ne of my fondest memories was you lying in my arms talking sharing laughing5 our

voices our laughter filling the room this sanctuary for two9 Safe and protected from thepast from the future9 It was so natural us together naked not only physically but

emotionally spiritually e'posing our thoughts our feelings with no fear of attack or

udgment or shame9 The only regret was that is was only one day9 That days could havebeen spend in one another"s arms sharing holding tasting enoying the endless talks and

infinite laughter9


15/61

I saw the scars on your heartBut it did not make me scared

I loved you from the very start

I saw the wounds that were freshly healed)et it did not make me view you as marred

I loved you with each facet revealed

I could hear the past abuse you knewBut did not make me run away

I love you for being you

I could sense the pain you had to endure

)et it did not make me betrayI loved you for not being perfect and pure

I say the torment of your mind

But did not make me ashamed

I loved you for you as you accepted all of mineI tasted the sour and the sweet

)et did not make me place any blameI loved you for you for you loved me for being me

)ou look into foggy mirrors and see visions of someone besmirched

Someone wounded with no hope of overcoming the shame the hurt

$orever dirty forever less than any other person on earth

I look and see that time has not been kindBut I see you also as a rare and precious find

That these abrasions shaped you into a priceless diamond

)ou listen to your dreams and come up with every reason why they cannot come trueI listen to every phrase and become more and more confident in the ability of you

)ou look at yourself and see the dirt the healing scars

I see a kind and gentle being with a beautiful heart)ou see a person who won"t succeed but is destined to fail

I see a wonderful person with unlimited potential


16/61

I carried our love like a watercolor painting in the rain

-ach drop changing the appearance each gust of wind evoking pain

&hat once was a masterpiece of distinguishable figures and shapes2ow is an obscure grotes%ue abstraction of the blending of love and hate

The paper once firm steady and so very sure

2ow is mush crumbling with no source of salvation or cure1ivid colors now run onto the surface of the street

$orming rivers of emotions that rush away from me

The torrent rushes down gutters and into storm drains

+icture now eliminated completely by the touch of the rain.nly faded colors are left on the paper"s face

.ur past our future our love now eternally erased

It has something to do with how she holds my arm

(ike I am a knight 43 feet tall strong and leanShe is completely safe from all hurt and harm

And with me above anything or anyone else she desires to be seen

&hen I talk she looks so deeply into my eyes(ike I am some wise sage giving a lecture

She is able to see far beyond the borders of our paradise

To communicate with grace and charm her conecture

&hen I am silent she can hear every emotion(ike I am some transparent clean window

She is not frightened or apprehensive to the wild notions

But is an'ious to all the parts of me to discover to know&hen I am so very far away she still is so near

(ike I never left the comfort of her side

She is able to touch and tantalize though not hereBut her essence is engraved on my inside

Along this ourney I realize I have checked baggageIt is not with me at the time but still e'ists

All these stored emotions mi'tures of oy and pain

That when I get to my destination I have to pick up againThe price was paid for e'cess pounds cause there was so much

The pickup tickets run for miles but still folded in my pockets

&ill you wait with me at the carousel for me to collect them&ill you be scared when all of the porters appear

.r will you offer me a hand to help me carry them


17/61

)our voice travels from my ears to the border of my soul

Tantalizing every nerve with every traveled span

$eeding the furnace of desire with mounds of coalAnd evokes emotions that only love can understand

The meal only an appetizer to the sweet communion

,hythms of the band merely back up to the true melody$ireworks e'plode in my heart to celebrate our union

My eyes want you to tomorrow wake with me

)our scent into'ication the limits of my every dream

A touch of your hand delights every cell in my body)our presence here is like a precious sunbeam

My flesh wants you to tomorrow wake with me

)our laughter makes my spirit smile and dance

Touching my mind with such grace and beautyThe evening ignites this bonfire of romance

My ears want you tomorrow to wake with meI can taste the sweetness of your thoughts when we kiss

Intriguing my preconceived perception of reality

My spirit lavishes in the waves of perpetual blissMy soul wants you to tomorrow wake with me

.ur ceiling is gray and threatens to rain

7ooling the inferno that rushes through our veinsAs the drops fall on our bare flesh

It soothes our muscles to temporarily rest

+uddles of rain and sweat form on our sheets&e dance to the sweet melody of our heartbeats

Steam is emitted into the air as drops hit our skin

$orming the clouds warming deep from within(ightening flashes bouncing off the four walls

.ur souls react e'citedly to love"s tender calls


18/61

How horrible the state to face pages white with no penTo place ink to paper and not be able to think

Torture to be pregnant with lusts and yet without sin

Thirst like Tantalus surrounded by water but prevented to take a drinkMy hands want to follow my eyes to forbidden flesh

$eet want to cross the lines drawn in the sand

:rab what is not mine and fail the testBut get the thrill that temporary fills the chasm of man

There are dreams that fill the corners of my night

&hispering desires that my soul cannot admit

The songs the dances the wings to take flight)et the darkness envelopes the escape with guile and wit

(ies erupt in my heart and spew out of my mouth

.rchestrated by my will and wish to deceive

7hanging the compass my magnetic soul from north to southAnd casts a shadow on the things I confess to believe

In her voice is a melody so sweet and wise

That causes my soul to dance to the rhythmSeeing her walk is poetry in motion before my eyes

Sets my dreams on fire when she in them

In her spirit is a beauty so precious and rareThat causes my heart to sing its praise

(istening to her thoughts is like hearing answered prayer

And delights my path and brightens my daysIn her arms is a peace so warm and comforting

That causes my flesh to always desire to be there

$eeling the embrace sets my nerves on oyous alarm

And fills my world with contentment beyond compare


19/61

(ust and (ove

Thoughts are evoked sparkling on my mind"s sky like stars-ach word flies like drops of rain in this saturated bucket of trust

$rom the beginning the words have infiltrated my heart

And the rhymes have divided the borders of love and lustThese seeds that have been planted in fertile soil now take root

$ed by the moisture from the gray clouds hovering above

+romising seasons of flowers and precious sweet fruitAnd defining the fine lines between lust and love

Many have eyes but do not see and hearts that cannot feel

But in you I have found proof there is a paradise that is so realThat there are still those that can change the shape of my day

&ith a mere thought or wish that is sent my way

Many are the miles that separate your voice from mine

But in you there is a connection that my words can"t defineThere are not many who know what love and life are about

And even rarer to find beauty that is e%ual inside and outMany have minds that cannot think and ears but do not hear

But in you I have found proof that you can be touched though you are not near

That there are still those who can intrigue and inspire&ith a mere word or smile invite my mind to in%uire

Thoughts are sprouting like seedlings in a barren field

-ach idea soaring to new lands with every wind gust2otions like waves on the ocean with new patterns revealed

And show original designs celebrating the difference of love and lust

These pulsating rhythms in the air5 on land and sea+rovide the music that all in nature speaks of

-choing a sweet5 peaceful and priceless melody

And compose the symphony of the definition of lust and love


20/61

$rom< me

To< u

$rom the shape of her tears

To the fruitfulness of her years$rom the pureness of her smile

To the uni%ueness of her style

Her voice echoes in my skiesHer words intrigue my paradise

$rom the silkiness of her hair

To the thoughts that fill the air

$rom the ideas that she birthsTo the fertile soil on her earth

Her songs touch my mind

Her rhythms inspire my time

$rom the shade of yesterday"s shadowsTo the hopes of her tomorrows

$rom the corners of her sky aboveTo the colors of her life and love

Her dance absorbs my concentration

Her notes arouses my contemplation

2ow Serving =>?@

It"s not a thing as I stand in this welfare line

It"s now not a perversion ust of my heart but also my mind

Suckling off of the sour nectar but at least it is free

But the vile poison runs through every nerve in me


21/61

Mental anore'ia

Spiritual dysle'ia

My soul is ruptured and is in constant battle with the snakes of the flesh

Tears flow drowning the melodies of forgiveness and peace

The adrenaline in my brain is too restless to give restThis civil war promises to never give me release

&ar wages on the causalities lay on the side of the road

*ead and dying crying out for help grow faint in the distance

My heart struggles to carry the weight of the loadAs it offers warnings and announcements of resistance

-motional bulimia

As the volcanoes of thoughts and dreams erupt my heart e'pands

7hanging its surface5 gently or violently altering its contourAs the cool emotions and waves of e'perience convert li%uid into land

The maps are drawn to direct the paths that continue to allure

My words invent new borders that confirm the road signs

And her melody has found a home in the warmth of my reverieThe brilliant rising sun adorns the form of my fragile mind

Her rhymes baptize my fertile soul and plant numerous seeds

A new wind blows through the corridors that had long been forgotten7ausing dust and dirt to temporarily pollute the once clear air

But day will emerge when the space will be virgin to all that is rotten

And along this path of seedlings that take root I will see her thereA fresh rain falls %uelling the lava that burns red and searing

7ausing a fresh sweet scent to escape and fill the lungs in my chest

Her rhythm baptizes my world and has become so endearing

And has gifted my volcanoes my oceans my skies with sweet rest

Between )our Sa'

)our tunes mesmerize the rhythm of my heartbeat*ancing to the notes or ust laying here to rela'

The music flows from my ears to the soul of my feet

As I am here in between your sa'

Sweat forms on my brow my thoughts a bonfire


22/61

,ushing torrents in my veins e'pand my walls

My world spinning from the e'ploding desire

And every cell every nerve heeds lovely callsThe sweet dew that drips off my moaning lips

$orms a river baptizing your tongue with honey nectar

Hands trace the borders of our face and curves of hipsBliss swells beyond the concepts of our vast love hectares

The composition original as it is so uni%ue

Beyond my comprehension of figures and factsAs I am here between your sa'

Spent the night wrapped snug in your warm armsSurrounded by your beauty saturated by your charm

Tasting sweet dreams escaping from your lips

Tracing the limits of ecstasy along your shapely hips

Time goes by so slowing I wonder what is on your mindI"m nervous I"m could no peace can I possibly find

The words I sent certainly daggers and shapes that betray

I"m guilty I"m ashamed there are no calming deeds to do or to sayI wonder if you will call if you will scream with pain

.r if you will run scared while my tears rain

Here I (ove )ou

Im the dancing rain outside skipping on the window paneThe gray skies echo the colors of my soul when we are apart

&ind breathes words that attempt to stall my brain

But the fire burns thoughts of you within warms my heartHere I love you

In the halo of warm touches from the smiling sun

The bright skies echo the oy in my soul when we are together

The gentle breeze singing of the combining of two into one7elebrating the life the love the laughter that will last forever

Here I love you

In the rising of the sun welcoming a day so newThe horizon colors echo my anticipation of seeing your eyes wide open

)our sweet breath after a morning kiss from you

Beginning the passion and e'citement you ignite deep insideHere I love you

In the setting of the sun the ending to a beautiful day

The horizon saturated echoes with purples oranges yellows and reds

)our sweet breeze that blows away all the grime away


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,eflecting on the infinite e'pressions both done and said

Here I love you

I desire your voice your touch your hair

$amished for the nutrients of your kiss)our sweetness even sugar cannot compare

2ever e'perienced such overwhelming bliss

I crave your laughter your skinStarving for the taste of your lips

The sensation a place I"ve never been

A virgin to the subtle shape of your hips

I long for your legs your arms your earsHungering for the succulent flavor of your dreams

I yearn for your wetness of oyous tears

+ining for delightful taste of your cream

I am releasing this starving scapegoatTo feed on the words lodged in my thinning throat

$ree to sing and roam on the paths of charming melodies

-'citing the sky to reflect on fonder past memories

My (ove

My love e'ists beyond the physical realm

$or if I had no hands or lips to hold or to kiss

My soul would still make love your heart to overwhelmMy love e'ists infinitely strong yet so fragile and tender

$or if my eyes could not see or ears not hear your rhyme

My soul would still see you uni%ue splendorAnd saturate your spirit with the treasures of time

My love e'ists beyond what one can taste or feel

$or if my nerves were numb my tongue dumb

The emotions the e'pressions would still be alive and so realAnd we would still soar and thrive as one

+rayer $or My (ove

(ord5 my prayer may be a selfish re%uest

But I pray for the woman that I love

That any pain any fear you cast as far as the east is from west


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And the love5 peace5 oy5 and contentment rain on her from above

I pray that strength and happiness be in the depth of her heart

That prosperity and wealth come from everything that she envisionsThat faith and health reign in her body as it did from the very start

And that wisdom be in each of her daily decisions

(ord5 my prayer is that whatever is weak in her be made strongThat every idea and dream she has that )ou tenderly nurture

That beautiful and right replace everything wrong

And )ou walk her into a glorious and beautiful futureI pray for the woman I love that )ou hold her in your arms

That )ou keep her mind5 soul5 and heart safe from all harm

And the )ou reveal how much I love her

She $eels My Soul

She walks and my heart and mind seem to loose control

But more than anything she feels my soulShe walks and my ideas and dreams seem to follow

But more than those trails she feels my soul

The flowers are less aromatic the sun less bright&henever her presence is within my sight

&hen I Am 2e't To )ou

There is sunshine and peace that is faithful and pure

,ainbows and waterfalls that decorate the dayThe oy the contentment is far beyond measure

And delights and warm more than my words can say

The air is clear and the sky so beautifully blueIt is like a virgin paradise when I am ne't to you

There are flowers that bloom colorful and bright

&arm breezes that massage me deep within

The wonderful melody rings our both day and nightAnd the touch of your hair tantalizes my skin

The scent is so into'icating the taste so sweet and true

It is like a perfect Shangri la when I am ne't to you

A comet flies at the speed of light its destiny unknown

:ala'ies glisten in the night guiding wayward souls home

The wind"s breath dictated by a powerful sunbeam

The ocean"s death the reflection of a star"s dream


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&hile my soul on a bed of nails restlessly sleeps

Sky"s light years away continue the cycle to sow and reap

The air grows heavy yet the sphere continues to flyThe breeze grows weary and decorates the evening sky

A meteorite aims for a planet"s delicate surface

:ravity balances and maintains according to its purposeThe universe held together by an infinite heavenly scheme

)et there is still space and time for a star to dream

A dream that lights the sky and shines through the cloudsA dream that lays the way for everyday without a shroud

A dream that promises direction and endless tomorrows

A dream that gifts reflections and dismisses sorrows

$rom A *istance

I can still feel your sweet breath on my skin though you are so far awayThe tingles still run through the core of my very soul

*elightful melodies of your laughter ring in my ears everydayBeauty still lingers in my min and heart making them whole

$rom a distance your delicious taste is on the tip of my tongue

)our tears have left stains that remain on my cheekThe rooms stil have shadows of all the deeds done

And the lovely smell of your skin saturates my weeks

I can still feel your sweat that dripped on my already soaked chest

The look in your bliss filled eyes engraved in my memory)our love that so comfortably made my life its nest

The sensations that set my imprisoned spirit free

$rom a distance I can hear you calling my nameMy hear rushes and dances like it did when you were here

The notes of your thoughts turns sparks to a desirous flame

And cause all doubt all fear all wars to disappearI can still feel the warm touch of your soft hands

The tenderness still engulfs and holds my essence

And ecstasy and thrill that only heaven can understand

A paradise that is made simply by your presence$rom a distance my nerves get e'cited at your sight

The storms and cold fierce winds go way

The vile darkness that attacks is made warm and brightAnd you still introduce love5 peace and oy to my day

:low

There are places that one can travel to get in the know

But there is only one path to glow


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It lies deep within your heart on the way to your soul

However there are signs that easily distract

:uiding you with untruths that will attackA faint mind will not overcome the onslaught

And slow feet will result in you being caught

There are worlds that promise that you will growBut there is only way to glow

It lies deep within your mind on the way to your soul

(et me warn you there are those who will enticeThat your dreams they will demand as a sacrifice

A faint heart will be slaughtered and tortured

And weak thoughts will lead to a failed future

There are hands that will promise a reap for what you sowBut there is only one place to glow

It lies deep in your spirit and leads to your soul

However there is music that will hypnotize your feet

)our soul will drown in bottomless lakes of deceitA faint soul will result in I being killed

And flimsy deed will leave your life unfulfilled

-mpty Streets

In the dark alleys the bricks moan and grown with defeatBlackness swallows the night her e on these barren streets

The light post has committed suicide and died

The beer bottles e'ploded and with each tear criedAnts and roaches scurry on the aching concrete

Trash and filth fill the air with vile conceit

The fire hydrant has been emptied of all it had insideThe weeds weep for the sweet fruit it will be denied

Black holes sky a reflection of the neighborhood done and incomplete

Blood stains echo the rhythm of time so bittersweet

Houses an arena where good and bad collideHere the pain and fear is amplified

The fences have laid down their weapons at the curb"s feet

7itizens blinded and starved by the searing heatIn the vile shadows my dreams are crucified

And my very will grows strong and commits suicide

7oming Back $or More

The delight of your smile touches virgin parts of me


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)our love your grace has gifted me with new eyes to see

I am comforted by your touch soothed by your words

My heart is sure that it will come back for thirdsThe taste of your kiss makes my nerves run wild

The oy of our play makes me feel as happy as a child

Thoughts swim in my mind of you giving my spirit a liftMy mind is sure that it will come back for fifths

-cstasy is found when you touch the contour of my face

To hear your melody all pain and fear is erasedThe poems you dedicate send my emotions to heaven

My spirit is sure that it will come back infinite times seven

&hen I look in your eyes hold your hands in mine

My heart skips a beat my soul does a danceThe sun in my world is inspired to shine

My heart is encouraged to take a chance

I have been deceived and betrayed in the pastMy heart has been tortures broke in many pieces

But your words tell me that forever we will last

My heart holds you dear and the fear ceases

More Than Summertime

)ou know when I taste her lips hold her hand in mind

I love that girl much more than even summertimeThe warm rays and cool breeze cannot begin to compare

To when we are together in the water on the ground or in the air

The beautiful flowers blooming adorning the landscape

7annot compare to the splendor that our oy creates.ur love more precious than any rhythm or rhyme

I love that girl more than summertime

The clear blue heavens and night"s sky saturated with stars7annot compare to the bliss of our two hearts

The warm ocean waters that caress the shore

7ould never compare to our dance faithful and pureSuch ecstasy to be in her presence a oy divine

I love that girl so much more than summertime


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(ove Storm

The gray clouds pregnant with rain hover above

My mind storms and rains on you words of love

The moist drops flow from your head to the soles of your feetSaturating every nerve with caresses and kisses so sweet

The words soak your soul with verbs adectives and nouns

Baptizing and cleansing your past and leaving a present crown)ou complete being is wet to its very core

-mbracing the waves of words that change your shore

Heaven cries with oy from the darkness above

My heart reoices and rains on you words of love,ivers e'pand and rush because of the added flow

6ust as our love multiplies with each word each phrase we know

*ams overflow from the influ' of so much rain

.ur hearts dance and fly in love"s powerful hurricane

7hecked Baggage

My checked baggage contains clothes memories of yesterday.utfits and shoes worn out notes about thing that I used to pray

The leather suitcase contains pieces of my broken heart and raped mind

:arment bag full of forgotten dreams and halos and wings divine

There are volumes of stories and poems written in my blood(uggage that are ust empty or full of both hate and love

This claim ticket cannot be traded or thrown away

But when my destination is reached it must be claimed.ne again my luggage will be pulled behind me

Binding me anchoring me preventing me from being free

The weight will task my arms above what they can pullMy back will ache and my mind %uake ?38C>@?gfpkg

May Is In Bloom

There is a scent in the air that fills my heart"s every room

It inspires my soul to dance cause May is in bloomThe melody echoes in my heart songs never heard before

But gifts my mind warmth and my spirit wings to soar

&hat bliss what eternal oy divineTo have found you and know that you are mine

7olors more brilliant than ever the sky so clear and blue

All dream are revived my heart reoices because of you

The warm breeze caresses the borders of my reality


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-very ailment every chasm every pain you are the perfect remedy

The atmosphere is saturated with such delightful tunes

All is at peace now that May is in bloom

)our head lying on my chest lullabied by my heartbeat

A rhythm of bliss that flows from your head to your feetSensation of your hands caressing the limits of my body

7auses a delightful chill to run throughout all of me

The sweet scent of your breathe and skin fills the air

A beautiful paradise your presence takes me thereIn the silence where every word is spoken with a closed mouth

The oy and peace fills me from the north to the south

There are dark clouds that shield my north starMy spirit a mere shadow swaying to tears on my guitar

A solemn song rings in the air the melody so blue

$ar away oceans ache and heartbreaks between me and you

,estless sands of time fall like snow to the barren groundThese dreams dance to the music yet there is no sound

Searching for the answers on the ceiling

A path to put to words these emotions I"m feeling

But then the sense and sensibility starts to leaveMy heart sighs my spirit deeply breathes

-yes focus on the limits of the corners of the room

The barren walls dreams of my emending doom

,ain knocks on the roof with desires to wash my winds away&et windows blur my visions of night and day


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It Is )ou

&ho has introduced the melody to this mas%uerade/

That causes the winds to cease the pains to fadeA storm of delight that saturates the shores of my soul

A gift of insight that pays life"s e'pensive toll

&ho has turned the volume up on what my heart has to say&hen all other sounds and bands begin to play

This symphony of emotions that pain colorful spectrums

A rhythm like the ocean that sooths my ear drums

&ho has warmed my heart filling it with such bliss/That invites creative passion with a touch with a kiss

The gentle rhythms whose echoes disintegrate my soul"s enemies

&ho has washed my past of all my regretful yesterdays/

And made new horizons appear and shown me the wayThis virgin universe full of the fascinating and the new

The wonderful person who has and does this is D9you

I don"t know much about our mind or your world

But my heart knows that story of when boy meets girl

How it is love at first sight oy with such might

The pages turn and new chapters end and start)et never before has one so touched my heart

There is such peace with a sweet tender release

-cstasy that flows and continues and refuses to ceaseThere is a knowing in my mind in my world

$or it has touched the bliss of meeting this girl

How I feel love so uni%ue and real7ontentment that cause every wound to heal

The sun rises and sets signifying a day done

But every moment invites my thoughts to run

Here my sky rains and baptizes my aching eyesThe story continues and forms a virgin paradise

Ides .f March

There are regrets that echo deep in my soulThat even the brilliant light of day cannot console

The cleansing rains that wash away the world"s grime

)et the millions of drops cannot erase my crime

There was a path I started so wondrous and true


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A delightful path that would lead to knowing you

)et the vacancy of words and inconsistent thoughts

Have confused my way and brought my steps to naughtA betrayal of deeds to bring silence to the melodic sounds

That has turned a beautiful smile into a frown

2o words or display can undo the confused messI can only ask for her forgiveness

Help Me +lease5 +iano

7louds gather to storm on the ground of my soul

&hen the lightening strikes the thunder fills the airThe rain is propelled by the winds control

And the leaves fly off leaving the trees bare

Here in my room the empty walls scream

The silence make the hope disappear and fear to grow*arkness swallows my will and drowns my dreams

I reach for the keys5 help me please5 pianoThe shadows hold my heart hostage

The ground shakes with each e'plosion of thunder

,ains flood the earth attacking with such rageAnd saturate the emotions from deep under

Here in my room the windows start to weep

The breath of the wind comes and goes

$ertile soil anticipating the time to sow and reapThe chords invite me5 help me please5 piano

The moon hides behind the opa%ue black shroud

&hen the rain stops the rivers still violently rushMy spirit wrapped in the darkness of the clouds

And the words cause the sky to blush

The world saturated and soaked by the rainMy heart shivers my eyes start to glow

The wounds open up and ache with such pain

Melodies hug me5 help me please5 piano

A $ew Minutes +ast Midnight

Silence saturates the air and invades the borders of nightAlone and alive here a few minutes past midnight

)our touch your smile is so very far away

The memory of them though fills this day

*arkness envelopes my soul and holds it so tight


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&ishing and wanting you here a few minutes past midnight

)our words travel through the distance of miles

They echo in my mind and show themselves in my smiles$loors cushion my steps as my soul take flight

*eeper and darker here a few minutes past midnight

A ourney over vast oceans ad countless mountains,eaching for your hands and you fresh fountains

*reams promise that soon we will reunite

(ively and in love here a few minutes past midnight-cstasy found in the paradise that is so true

Bliss discovered in your eyes and the beauty that is you

All"s $air In (ove and &ar

Somewhere between the pleasure and the pain I lost the score

But I remember hearing you say all"s fair in love and war)our words are the poison that saturates my brain

But also the prison that bring bliss to my veins

A wonderful beat that impregnates my vaulted pride)et the touch makes my soul contemplate suicide

I sit in an electric chair waiting for you to flip the switch

.r rela' in the recliner being served by a gentle white witch

My neck in the noose of your wavering emotionsA heart drenched by confused and unstable devotion

My body shaking confined by the stocks firm grasp

Awaiting the guillotines blade that drips with relapseThe will of my spirit is broken my heart is torn

But I remember you reciting that all"s fain in love and war

)our songs are the re%uiem that my e'pressions dance toBut also the melodies that make everyday fresh and new

The delightful yet dreadful tone swells my borders

1aulted ideas either bowing or escaping your dire orders

There are prayers that constantly are lifted up to an invincible :od)et my body shivers with fear in front of your firing s%uad

My thoughts have been %uartered my future decapitated

As tomorrows with you bring such oy anticipatedI scan the horizon ad the needle penetrates my veins

Soon the li%uid will s%ueeze my heart and freeze my brain

Such dichotomy as my soul searches for the cure or for even more)et I recall you saying that all"s fair in love and war


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In her voice is a melody so sweet and wise

That causes my soul to dance to the rhythmSeeing her walk is poetry in motion before my eyes

Sets my dreams on fire when she is in them

In her spirit is a beauty so precious and rareThat causes my heart to sing its praise

(istening to her thoughts is like hearing an answered prayer

And delights my path and brightens my daysIn her arms is a peace so warm and comforting

That causes my flesh to always desire to be there

$eeling the embrace sets my nerves on oyous alarm

And fills my world with contentment beyond compare


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NORTH OF FALL.7T*-7 30

Somehow his fingers play the notes between the keys

$eeling the colors that everyone feels but few see

Trios with heart mind and soul dance between light and darkMemories on the edge of tongues ignite with every flat and sharp

$earless the rhythms e'plode then impregnate silence in the air

The boyish beat caressed captures the ears and hearts stare

$eet are too dazzled to tap hands to awed to clap

.ne can only feed on the rich notes and gorge to become fatEebra fantasy segregation and integration at its best

;ni%ue chords meeting from the north south east and westMy soul ust listens because my ears cannot comprehend

The pattern the beat undecipherable when where its ends and begins

)ou lay still I will breath for both of us

.ur brows waterlogged with ecstasy

These rain clouds of love the echoes of lustShatter the mirrors and divide the raging sea

Around my neck a garland of remembered dreams

Hangs

A withered sole leaf on the bare limb of a treeSwings

Topography of my thoughts shivers in this winter winds

$lying,oots wonder and whisper to the tender seeds

Sleeping

&hen I was young I

east of summer

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