what is the point without love?
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About the Author
A single parent of two children who has a huge love ofanimals, having many as pets. A great cook who enjoys
baking as often as possible.
Loves learning new things, having qualified as an
accountant and a chef in her younger years.
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I would like to thank my close family and friends fortheir support in my hour of need. Also, Mr. Carl Leavy
Photography in Cornwall and Mrs. Tina White for
pushing me to send this book off to be published, as well
as my two fantastic children whom I love dearly.
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Copyright© Katrina Scarlett (2015)
The right of Katrina Scarlett to be identified as author of this
work has been asserted by her in accordance with section 77
and 78 of the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988.
All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be
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A CIP catalogue record for this title is available from the
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ISBN 9781785545290(Paperback)
ISBN 9781785545306 (Hardback)
www.austinmacauley.com
First Published (2015)
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Printed and bound in Great Britain
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Introduction
When Mary Jane goes on to a dating website at the
request of her children to find a partner as they were
growing up, she could never have imagined what was
going to happen to her life, her sanity and her health.
Then she met Terrence, and life changed, but was it
for the better or would it end her?
When Terrence went on the same website, he waslooking for a causal relationship and he never expected
what he got when he met Mary Jane and her children.
Would his life, sanity and health also be at risk of
disintegrating around him?
With many sexually tense events, twists and turns to
keep you reading from the edge of your seat. What must
Mary Jane and Terrence go through to discover if theyhave found what they were searching for all their lives?
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Chapter 1
It was late one night, around 11.30 pm. The stars were
out, a light breeze filtered in through the back door that
was open for the dogs to come and go as they pleased.
Sat at her computer was Mary Jane, typing away on
a dating website on which her membership was about to
end. You see, as a single Mum, Mary Jane had been
alone for eight years bringing up her children and hadnot been near anyone since her break up with the father
of her youngest at nine weeks pregnant.
Three days previously, her two children had said to
find someone as they were growing up and would not be
about much as they had their own social lives.
Mary Jane thanked them and signed up for a trial on
a site that introduces you to single men in the hope thatshe would meet a nice guy and be able to start living
again. She had put everything into her kids and bringing
them up but the trail was about to end that night and she
had spoken to a few guys online, some asking for money
to help bring gold back to England. When that happened
Mary Jane stopped talking to them as she knew it was a
scam and she would not see or hear from the guys again.But half an hour before the membership was to end
someone said ‘hi’ to her. He looked normal and sweet he
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said nice things, so she agreed to talk to him. His name
was Terrence and his I.D was ‘T-bone’.
As they spoke they exchanged e-mail and MSN I.Dsand continued talking until midnight, then the
membership ended, so they continued talking through
MSN. Mary Jane’s I.D was ‘Bo-peep’.
The messages flew backwards and forwards between
Bo-peep and T-bone that night, and they got on really
well. Since they had mutual interests they agreed to meet
up on the following Saturday at the local supermarketnear Mary Jane’s house.
Terrence lived around forty miles away from Mary
Jane. He had just moved to a place called Bodmin in
Cornwall and Mary Jane lived in a place called
Camborne, which was near Truro.
The area was lovely, full of trees, countryside and
beaches where Mary Jane walked the dogs and took thekids to play on warm summer days. Mary Jane would
take the dogs and her kids, Michelle and Neville, to the
beach for the day to have a picnic and a swim in the
ocean.
Well, Saturday arrived and the kids had gone to see
their father, so Mary Jane was alone and had no worries.
That morning she showered and got ready. She put onher makeup and did her hair in a loose pony tail. She
wore jeans and a t-shirt and flip flops, and thought,
that’ll do, as she looked in the mirror.
Mary Jane was not a slim girl but she was not huge
either, just a little over weight, but she looked good. She
walked out of the house and drove to the supermarket in
Pool. There were lots of people milling about as thesupermarket was close to the local weekend market. She
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waited for Terrence to arrive from Bodmin, reading the
texts he was sending as he drove to meet her.
The text went along the lines of: I’m looking forwardto seeing you and getting to know you, and talking about
hobbies. He liked carp fishing and dogs, and although
Mary Jane was not into fishing she thought she could
cope with it as it not football. She hated football.
Terrence arrived and texted, “I’m here, where are
you babe?”
Mary Jane answered, “I’m sat on the bench by thefront door of the supermarket. I’m wearing a red top and
jeans.”
Terrence replied, “I’m wearing track suit bottoms
and an old t-shirt.”
He had not made much of an effort to dress up but
that didn’t matter, as he walked towards her she saw he
was not overly thin either but he was kind of cute. Hehad little cherub cheeks and a sweet smile. He sat next to
her and they talked about the journey from Bodmin and
agreed to go for a drink. They left the supermarket and
went to the McDonalds around the corner. They sat
outside drinking and talking whilst Mary Jane had a
cigarette, they laughed and joked and realised they had
grown up around the same area in Yorkshire and theyknew the places they each spoke about. As their date
ended they agreed to meet again the next day.
When Mary Jane went home that evening she was
thinking what a nice guy he was and how she felt
comfortable in his presence, which she had not felt in a
long time.
As Mary Jane put the kids to bed and sat at hercomputer to check the emails from that day, a message
appeared on MSN saying “Hi, how’s you? I really
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enjoyed meeting you today and look forward to seeing
you tomorrow.”
Mary Jane smiled and thought the same. She’d reallyenjoyed today, it made a change from staying home,
doing the house work and cooking.
They stayed up late messaging each other and when
Mary Jane went to bed Terrence was texting on the
phone until the early hours talking about places in
Yorkshire.
Three hours later Mary Jane got up and got ready togo meet Terrence again. Off she went with a smile on
her face thinking, I hope this works out.
The second date went really well. They went to
Truro and sat on the quay watching flocks of swans
swim up the water’s edge and congregate near the flood
gates. Laughing. They sat there talking for hours about
anything and everything, they even went to a beachcalled Portreath whilst sat on a bench, a church
congregation arrived to do a service on the beach and to
baptise one of the congregation. They sat there laughing
at the singing and how the birds tried to join invite was
so funny. They moved a little further away so as to not
disturb the service and when they sat down again he held
her hand and put his arm around her and they satsnuggled up on the bench enjoying the scenery and
listening to the birds singing along with the service that
was going on.
They watched as the vicar – who was wearing shorts
and a t shirt that said I am the Preacher on it – walk into
the ocean with three other people and dunk some poor
girl under the water as a wave crashed over the top ofher. They ran out of the water to get dry and warm up. It
was kind of nice but funny.
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As the day ended, Mary Jane and Terrence talked
about where this was going and they agreed to start
dating, but slowly. Mary Jane had a friend arriving thenext day to stay for a week from up country and she was
looking forward to catching up with all the gossip and
having a laugh or two.
As the week progressed, Terrence and Mary Jane
were talking via text and MSN on an evening when
everyone else was in bed. Not much sleep was had by
either of them that week.One night, Terrence arrived without much notice to
see Mary Jane. She welcomed him in and made a brew
and he talked with her friend and had a laugh and they
seemed to get on. Everything was going brilliantly.
When her friend left the following Monday morning
Mary Jane had not had any sleep as she had to take her
friend to the bus station to catch the coach back home. Arelaxing day was needed as everyone was tired and
would need an early night. Whilst she was thinking
about going to bed that evening (around 9 pm) she got a
text message from Terrence saying he needed a hug as
he had just been told some bad news about an aunt.
Mary Jane told him to come down for a brew and a
talk. When he arrived he was looking as though he wasabout to cry. When he walked in she opened her arms to
give him the hug that he so badly needed. And he kissed
her, which she was not expecting. They sat on the sofa
talking and he said he had just found out his aunt had
died that morning, so Mary Jane put her arms around
him again to hug him and said, ‘Sorry about your loss
babe.’
He started to kiss her and run his hands over her
body. Things got carried away, they went upstairs to the
bedroom and started to make love. It was passionate and
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long. He kissed her from head to foot and ran his hands
over her breasts, taking each in his mouth and sucking
and biting them as he went. He let his hand wanderdown between her thighs. When his hand reached what
he was looking for, he found – to his surprise – that she
had very little hair down there. He took a deep breath
and moved down to where his hand was and started
licking and sucking at her clitoris while his finger dug
deeper in her. He was taking her high in the clouds and
letting her fall down before reaching the edge again, and
when she was wet enough he thrust into her with a
vigour that was not expected and fucked her until she
climaxed from a great height. They fell back on the bed
sweating and breathing heavy whilst they lay next to
each other, kissing and cuddling. She said, “I have never
done that before.”
He said “Nor have I, babe. That was fantastic,” and
he held her tight.
During the night they woke up and they continued
where they had left off and saw the sun rise together
through the open window.
When he got up to leave for work that day he said,
“I’ll see you tonight,” and off he went after having a
mug of tea and some toast.He texted her throughout the day saying how much
he enjoyed last night and she said the same. Over the
next few days the relationship grew and they started to
fall in love with each other and get closer as they talked
about loads of things via text and MSN.
They discussed each other’s sexual desires and each
time they met up the sex was more intense than the time before.
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Chapter 2
It was early August when this all began. Both Mary Jane
and Terrence were enjoying going with the flow and
meeting up regularly to have sex and act out their desires
Terrence was 6ft 2” tall with short, curly, mousy-
brown hair, with hair covering his back and chest. He
had no tattoos but was thinking about getting one.
He was quiet and kept himself to himself and hatedanyone talking about personnel things that had happened
in private, as he believed that what happens in private
stays in private, which Mary Jane agreed with. What
happens behind closed doors stays there unless it is
violence.
Mary Jane stood 5ft 9” tall, she had long blonde hair,
piercing green eyes, a cute little button nose and a smilethat would dazzle a king. She enjoyed a laugh and
playing practical jokes on her friends, she was slightly
plump but liked to be called curvaceous rather than fat.
Mary Jane had had bad luck with previous
relationships and was very cautious with Terrence.
The first official date was splendid. He picked Mary
Jane up and took her out for a meal at a local restaurant.
They ate steak with mushrooms and salad with a glass of
red wine, followed by a lemon sorbet and a walk on the
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local beach in the moon light along the water’s edge.
When they were hidden by the rocks that were jutting
out, Terrence laid down a blanket and started a small fireup as they sat and drank more wine on the beach and
talked about life.
There on the beach as they lay next to each other
talking he leaned over and kissed her on the lips, and his
hands started to wander – as they always did – up her leg
and in to her panties. It was dusk and no one was about
on the beach, only the two of them. The passion tookover and they made mad, passionate love there beside
the rocks and as they were in the middle of making love
a wave came crashing in and swept over them and they
ended up soaked from the ocean and love making. As
they finished making love on the beach Terrence told
Mary Jane a little about his past.
He was forty-six years old, had no family and hisonly sibling had fallen out with him and they did not talk
anymore. His ex cheated on him with his best friend and
he had caught them in the act of making love in their bed
at home. He had arrived back from work early and when
he saw them he walked out of the house and left. He
never looked back and moved to Cornwall and that was
nine months before he had met Mary Jane.
Mary Jane had had a similar experience with her
exes. They had all cheated on her, so both Terrence and
Mary Jane knew what it felt like to be cheated on and
both would not do that to each other.
Terrence got to know Mary Jane’s two children,
Michelle and Neville, and they all got on great. They
went on day trips out and holidays away to America and
Canada, and they made love every chance they had. Life
was going along smoothly for around 12 months.
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When Terrence went to work one morning Mary
Jane had a feeling that something was wrong. The night
before, Terrence had mentioned that he had to go awayfor a week for a stag do with his cousin, but now she felt
uneasy and that something just didn’t seem to ring true
about what he had said, so she kept quiet but listened
very carefully to everything that was being or not being
said. That weekend the kids had gone to stay with their
dad and Mary Jane decided to make Terrence’s one
dream come true; to go to a grave-yard and make love on
someone’s grave in the middle of the night. So they left
the house to walk along the coast to find a small, remote
grave-yard that was out of the way and no one would be
going to visit at that time of night.
As they found the grave-yard they walked to the
back, amongst the owls tweeting, the bats flying
overhead and the mice and rats running past their feet as
they walked.
The moon was full that night and the stars were
twinkling brightly. There was a light breeze. As they
reached the back part of the grave-yard they sat down
and started to kiss and fondle each other.
As Mary Jane was fondling Terrence he became hard
and she took him in her hand and placed him inside hermouth. She ran her tongue along the tip and stroked him
up and down, following with him in her mouth at the
same time. She removed his member from her lips and
kissed the end and ran her tongue along the outside edge
so that the breeze caught him after he had been in the
warmth of her mouth. He took a sharp breath in through
gritted teeth and he said that no one had ever given him
one of these before, so she continued to run her lips andmouth along his length until he came with a violent
shudder. As she laid on her back he climbed over her,
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pulled her skirt up, ripped her panties off and thrust his
fingers inside her with an unexpected thrust. She yelped
out in shock and delight at the hard invasion.He played with her clitoris with his thumb and fore
finger and went toward her with his tongue as an owl
flew overhead hooting. They were breathing heavily and
perspiring from the anticipation of what was to come.
His tongue flicked in and out of her most intimate place
while his thumb and finger continued to play with her
clitoris. Whilst all her senses were flying high he pulledaway from her and thrust in to her with his engorged
penis. They both yelled out as he entered her in ecstasy.
He thrust in and out, grabbing hold of her legs and
placing them around his neck so he could get deeper
inside her and make her feel the whole length of him
from tip to ground. She ground her hips to his rhythm
and he felt every single millimetre of her sliding up and
down his engorged penis. As they were making love it
started to rain and the drops fell on them, but they were
too engrossed in making love and they never felt the
rain. The thunder and lightning started over head and
this only increased the intense feelings that were flying
within that grave-yard that night. As the thunder gave an
almighty clack they both climaxed together and rode the
wave of emotions back down and laid breathless for anhour, quietly thinking about what had happened.
She rolled over to face him and he was crying
silently into his arm. She leaned over to make sure he
was ok and he said, “Yes, my love, that was the most
emotional sex I have ever had, but I’m sorry, I am going
back to my ewe have been talking recently and that trip
for my cousin’s stag weekend is in fact a week awaywith my ex. I never expected to still have feelings for her
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but I do. I love you both but I have known her for more
than ten years.”
Mary Jane sat up and said calmly “So you’rechoosing the devil you know rather than the devil you
don’t. You know what she did to you last time, she will
only do it again, my love, and you will be the one
hurting as you will have lost one of the best things you
ever had.”
He threw emotional words at her and said “In fact, I
have not stopped seeing her whilst we have beentogether. When I was supposed to be in Canada I was
actually in Bodmin with her the whole time.”
Mary Jane took a deep breath to stop herself from
crying in front of him and said to him, “If you truly
loved her you would not have stayed up late at night
talking to me whilst she lay in bed upstairs and texting
me during the day whilst you were with her.”“Yes, but I do care for you both and I thought I’ll do
to her what she did to me. But I regret hurting you in the
process and I’m not sure if I will tell her I was with you
or not,” Terrence told her.
Mary Jane turned her head from him to compose
herself again before she totally broke down in front of
him. She said to him “You have to listen to your heart,my love, and I knew that was what you were doing the
whole time.”
“How did you know,” he asked.
“Does that really matter?” she said. “I just knew that
you were playing this dangerous game, but you don’t
know the rules and you’re going to end up getting hurt
big time, as she will cheat on you again,” she said.
“Well that will be my own fault if she does.”
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Mary Jane stood up and collected her panties that
had been thrown to one side and placed them in her
pocket. She turned to Terrence and said, “You know, Igenuinely loved you and I will always love you and you
were the only one I have let in to my heart in eight
years.”
Terrence said, “I thought you were lying about that.”
“No,” she said. “I was not.”
“I will be here when she hurts you again, my love, as
you will need someone to talk to and to help you throughthe grief that will follow.” She walked over to him, sat
on the floor, leaned over and gave him a kiss on his
cheek and turned to walk away.
When she got home she locked the front door and
climbed in to the shower and cried like a baby under the
droplets of water that fell on her naked body. She
remembered every single touch that she had just feltfrom his hands.
Mary Jane stayed in the shower for an hour just
crying and holding herself tight, thinking to herself what
must she have done to have him do this to her.
When she got out the shower she had missed calls
and messages on her phone from Terrence saying “I’m
sorry babe I feel awful for doing this to you.”
Mary Jane answered with grace and dignity: “I knew
all along that you were playing this dangerous game and
now you have lost and I have won. You have to know
the rules and conditions of any game you choose to play
and you have not researched these. Your loss, my love. I
loved you dearly and I always will.”
As she walked in to the kitchen she smiled to herself.
Terrence had told her he could not have kids but little
did he know she was pregnant with his child.
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Terrence got up off the ground where he sat and
straightened his clothes and walked back to his car
outside Mary Janes place. As he walked towards herfront door to knock, he saw no lights on and wondered if
she had got home ok. He never knew she was stood
watching him as he turned and got in the car and drove
away.
Mary Jane fell to the floor and curled up, crying
herself to sleep that night on the cold, concrete floor of
the kitchen.
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Chapter 3
Mary Jane woke to the sun rising through the window of
the kitchen and the dogs laid next to her on the floor
keeping her warm. As she stirred, the dogs woke up and
kissed her face to make sure she was ok.
As Mary Jane stood up from the cold floor to make a
hot mug of black coffee and a slice of fruit from the
fridge, the sun shone right in her face and glistened brightly. Mary Jane smiled to herself and thought that
things were going to be better from now on and she
wouldn’t let that bastard beat her into the ground. She
was stronger than that.
Just then the children came in and asked “What’s for
breakfast, Mum?” As Mary Jane started to make the
children’s breakfast she was thinking about what to donext. She thought there is nothing left for me here
anymore and my oldest leaves school this year, so I think
a change of scenery is called for. With that, she placed
bread in the toaster and eggs on the griddle and bacon in
the oven to cook. She went to her iPad and turned it on
and started looking for somewhere to live away from
Camborne. After about 10 minutes there was a place thatcaught her eye, it involved looking after the next door
house for a reduced rent on a farm up near Wade Bridge
in Cornwall.
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As Mary Jane was looking into it further, she became
aware of an alarm going off in the background and
remembered that she was cooking. “OH shoot!” she said,looking at the burnt eggs and toast in the toaster. As she
threw the burnt food in to the garbage bag to start again
the phone went off, letting her know she had a call.
“Neville, can you do the eggs and toast please, darling? I
must get the phone.”
She picked up the phone and said, “Hello, Smith
residence, can I help you? OH hello…Yes…Speaking.Oh great, yes that would be fantastic! When do you need
me to start and when do I finalize the move to a new
place nearer to work? Oh yes, I will get the information
and get back to you later this afternoon. And thank you
so much.”
As she turned around the children were stood behind
her in the hallway leaning against the kitchen doorframe, waiting to hear what had just happened. She
pointed to the kitchen and said, “Come on, we need to
talk about something important, darlings.”
As they sat down to eat breakfast, Mary Jane sat with
a mug of black coffee in her hands, looking at the floor
and wondering where the hell to start this conversation.
It was going to be hard to tell them they were moving upto Sowerby in West Yorkshire for a job.
She knew Neville would not want to go as he was in
his final year of school, but Mary Jane needed to leave
Cornwall and get away from the memories of the past
twelve months with Terrence.
Neville spoke first and said, “He hurt you didn’t he
Mum?”Mary Jane looked at him with tears in her eyes and
said, “Yes, darling, he has broken my heart and I need to
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get away from here and start anew. The phone call I just
had was a job offer in Yorkshire, doing the accounts for
a large commercial farm near the Yorkshire moors, notfar from a place called Sowerby and we can move next
month in to a large for bedroomed house and we don’t
have to get rid of the animals, we can take them all with
us. Only problem is, we have to leave next month and
that means leaving everything we know here in
Camborne. So I would like the both of you to think
about it for me and let me know your answer by 3pm
today please.”
As Mary Jane went about cleaning up the breakfast
dishes, placing them in to the dishwasher and wiping the
sides down, her phone beeped to say Terrence had texted
her.
“I am sorry, babe, I never meant to hurt you. Can we
talk? Can I ring you now?”Mary Jane answered, “If you like, but what is the
point, you made your choice last night.”
When he phoned moments later, Mary Jane
answered the phone with a strict thought in mind: don’t
tell him about the job offer up country, see what he has
to say for himself
“Guten Morgan,” he said.“Good morning, what can I do for you? “She
sounded calmer than she felt, her hands were shaking as
she held the phone to her ear and her legs were going to
give out on her if she didn’t sit down soon. The emotion
was still too raw for her liking but she had to remain
strong and sound as though the information she found
out the night before was nothing major.“Can I come see you?”
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Mary Jane said, “Do you think that would be wise?
We would only end up in bed making love and that is
not going to sort this shit out, is it my love?”She again referred to what she said the night before,
about how you have to choose which way you want to
go with your head or your heart, and when you have
chosen you need to keep going down that road and not
look back. She said “I have to go right now, I have to
finish doing what I’m doing before it gets worse. Take
care, Terrence, love. You’ve got my phone number ifyou need to talk later.” She put the phone down on him
and finished her cleaning.
When she had finished, the kitchen looked the
cleanest it had ever looked as she had scrubbed the
floors and sides to a bright gleam. You could see your
face in the surfaces.
She sat down with another mug of black coffee andstarted thinking about moving to Yorkshire. It was a big
change but she sure did need to leave the house they
were in.
Just then, the kids came in to the room and said, “We
have thought about what you said, Mum, and we will
move if you really want to go.”
So, the decision had been made; they were moving.Mary Jane picked up her phone to look into the price of
a removal van for all the furniture they had.
After Mary Jane had arranged a price and agreed
with the company that it was ok to drop off the boxes so
they could start packing up the belongings, she returned
the phone call she’d had that morning and confirmed that
she would be taking the position as of the 1st Septemberand they would arrive on the 28thAugust if that was ok. It
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would give them time to unpack most of the stuff in the
house and settle in a little.
Sowerby Dairy Farm sent an email to Mary Janeconfirming the moving date and where the keys would
be upon arrival, so that they could move in on the 28th of
August, as well as the directions to the property and
where they were allowed to go and where the animals
could not go.
The excitement started to grow in the Smith family
as they went about the task of packing their belongings.There was just a week left until the removal van arrived
to collect the stuff and transport it to Yorkshire.
Mary Jane had not heard from Terrence in a few
days. He must have made his decision about staying with
Claire. Mary Jane breathed a sigh of relief as she had no
idea how he would take it that they were moving. She
had felt the baby move for the first time that morningand felt a little bad for not having told him that she was
having his baby. She had not even told her children yet
that there was going to be a new baby and if they knew
they would not let her move furniture around like she
was doing when they were in bed. She also had to make
sure everything was clean before the removal men
arrived to move it into the van to take away.Just then there was a knock on the front door. The
kids had gone to see their friends before they left, they
wanted to spend some time with them and take a break
from packing the house up.
As Mary Jane walked to answer the front door she
stepped back in shock. For who should be there but
Terrence, with a large bunch of roses and a shy grin onhis face. She closed the door behind her and stood on the
doorstep to talk to Terrence so he could not see that they
were packing up the house. It was too close to the move
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to change her mind now and all she wanted to do right
now was run into his arms and cry and tell him she loved
him and that she was pregnant with his child. Shewanted to say that she was sorry but they were moving,
but instead of doing that she stood up tall and took a
deep breath.
“Yes, what can I help you with, Terrence?”
“Can I come in to talk please?” he said.
She looked at the door and thought, if we go inside
we will just end up in bed. “No, I’m decorating the stairsand it is a right mess, let me get my bag and we can go
to Portreath and get a coffee and have a chat there.”
“Ok. These are for you, love. Shall I wait in my car
or are we walking?”
“I think I’ll go in my car and you in yours, then we
don’t have to come back here.”
As Mary Jane walked into the hall to collect her bag,
she saw herself in the hall mirror and thought, I look a
right state. Oh well, it will have to do.
She was wearing a pair of old trousers, trainers and a
grandfather shirt, with her hair scrapped back off her
face into a tight pony-tail down her back. I really should
have my hair cut, she thought as she picked up her bag
and the car keys from the sideboard.
As she walked toward the front door she saw a pen
and some paper and thought, I best leave the kids a note
to tell them where I am and not to worry.
Hi kids. Gone to Portreath for a coffee. Won’t be
long. I’ve got my phone if you need me. Love you kids xxxx
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Then she left and walked to her car and noticed
Terrence looking at her as she walked towards where she
was parked on the pavement.I must really look a mess, she thought. I bet he’s
thinking I’m glad I did what I did now.
As Mary Jane started her car Terrence moved his out
of the way so she could pull out without a problem. He
followed her to Portreath and in to the parking space
next to her in the car park near to the cafe where they
would have a coffee.As Mary Jane went to get out of the car, Terrence
stood next to her door as she opened it and got hold of
her hand. He pulled her into his arms and said to her as
he kissed her, “I’m so sorry, love. I made a mistake. I
never should have done that to you. Can you forgive
me?”
Trying to catch her breath, Mary Jane leaned backagainst the car before she fell to the floor and made a
fool of herself for fainting. As she looked up, Terrence’s
face was white.
“What’s the matter, love?” he asked .
“Nothing, why? You just shocked me by grabbing
hold of me like that. I’ll be ok in a minute when I get my
coffee and a cookie. Shall we?” She pointed to the cafeso she didn’t have to push past him.
As she walked towards the cafe he followed next to
her, trying to grab hold of her hand as they walked. This
was unusual as he didn’t like public displays of
affection, so she kept her hands tight on her bag and her
keys.
When they ordered their drinks they headed to the
window seat so she could look out at the ocean when it
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was getting too hard to talk without breaking down in
front of him.
It was getting late when their coffee arrived.“Have you eaten today,” he asked.
“Yes, I had some eggs this morning thanks. I’ll be
ok.” She started to pick at the cookie she had ordered,
thinking, if I eat this I will be sick. Her hands were
shaking and her legs felt like jelly under the table. Every
time he looked at her heart missed a beat and she could
feel herself getting hot under the collar, just by lookingat him and remembering the last time they were together.
She saw him looking at her again she smiled and asked if
everything was ok?
“Yes,” he replied. “You look good, you’ve got a
glow I’ve not seen before but you’re shaking like a leaf.
Are you sure you’re ok?”
“Yes, I am fine thanks,” she said as she picked upher coffee to have a drink of it.
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Chapter 4
As they were sat in the window talking about the thingsthat had happened, Terrence said, “I love you, babe, you
know that don’t you? But I still love her too and I don’t
know what I am going to do at that moment.”
A seagull flew into the window and made everyone
sat near them jump from the noise it made.
At the back of Mary Jane’s mind, she was thankful for
the distraction the seagull gave her, so that she couldthink what her reply would be to the statement he had
just made. The reply came to her in that instant. They
were leaving on Saturday morning, so she could arrange
to meet up Saturday night to go for a drink and talk
further. She was feeling light headed with him so near.
By the time he found out they had left the area there
would be hundreds of miles between them, and he wouldnot be able to just turn up like he had just done and
shake her world apart like he had. Her strength was
going to kick the proverbial bucket in a minute and walk
out the door and she’d wind up telling him everything,
including about the baby. She still needed to come to
terms with the idea herself as she was only three months
gone and was not yet starting to show, apart from her
skin was glowing and her hair was very shiny and
growing like mad.
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She then turned to Terrence and said, “Look, love,
why don’t we go out for a meal on Saturday night as I
will have more time to talk to you then. I have to gethome and finish the decorating before the paint sets in
the tin, as I left the lid off the pot.” She smiled at him to
make him feel that everything was ok and not give off
the impression that she would not be in Cornwall
anymore. By the time he realised she had left they would
be unpacking the kettle and making their first brew in
their new home in Yorkshire. They’d be unpacking their
night clothes and bedding so they could go to bed, before
starting on the unpacking on the Sunday morning.
Terrence smiled at Mary Jane and said, “Yes, that
would be nice. What time shall I pick you up?”
Mary Jane thought for a second and said, “How
about 8pm, love? I’ll book us a table in the restaurant
round the corner. Chinese ok for you, yes?”“Yes,” he replied as he touched her hand which was
laid on the table next to the coffee mug and the cookie
that she had been trying to eat, but felt too sick when she
put any near her mouth.
She wanted him so badly. She could just take him
there and then, but she refrained from doing anything of
the sort. “Well,” she said. “I best get going. I have loadsto do.” This was not a lie by any means, she was just
doing something other than painting. They were
finishing the packing.
As Mary Jane rose to leave the cafe she felt herself
starting to fall towards the floor and she blacked out.
Terrence jumped up and caught her before she hit the
floor. His face had turned white with fear. What the hellhad just happened? Why had she just passed out on him?
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He realised right there that he loved her more than he
had thought was possible, and he knew in that instant
what he was going to do. When he got home he’darrange to go and talk to Claire about Mary Jane. He had
not told her anything, but Mary Jane knew the whole
truth and yet she had still agreed to go out for a meal
with him on Saturday and she was here right now in his
arms after having spoken to him about it all.
In that instant he was brought back to reality by a
member of staff asking if he needed any help with theyoung lady in his arms, and he thought, oh shit yes, call
an ambulance now.
The staff then took over as he seemed to have lost
the ability to do anything. They laid Mary Jane on to the
floor in the recovery position and waited for the
ambulance to arrive. After what seemed like an hour, the
ambulance arrived and Mary Jane was starting to comearound.
Just as the paramedic was walking in, Mary Jane was
starting to sit up. The paramedic rushed over to her and
said, “Please stay on the floor whilst I do your vitals and
we can chat, ok?” Mary Jane nodded her head to
acknowledge that she understood what he was saying.
She was still feeling light-headed but felt better for being told to stay on the floor. As the paramedic was
taking her blood-pressure and pulse, she looked over to
Terrence and saw how worried and white he looked at
that moment. He turned his head to look directly at her
as she sat on the floor and he mouthed, “Are you ok,
love?” Mary Jane felt faint all over again
Just the paramedic spoke to her, asking questionsabout her health and what she had eaten that day.
Terrence was about to answer about what she had eaten
that day when she shook her head and said, “I have not
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eaten for six days. I just feel sick every time I try to put
food near my mouth.”
Terrence looked mad as he realised she had lied tohim about having eaten earlier. Bang goes the idea that
he would let her walk out of the cafe and go home
without him forcing his way in to the house to make sure
she had something to eat. So she sat there hoping that the
paramedic would say that she needed to go to the
hospital to make sure everything was ok, as then it
would be easier to tell Terrence that she was ok to goalone and that she’d see him Saturday night. But he was
watching her with the paramedic and looked stern.
The waitress came over to ask if there was anything
she could do to assist and just as the paramedic was
about to answer, Terrence said, “Can you get me a bowl
of chicken soup and a sweet tea? The waitress looked at
Mary Jane and the paramedic and they both nodded theirheads as if to confirm what he had asked for.
Mary Jane was about to get up off the floor when
Terrence walked over to her, picked her up from the
floor and placed her gently on to a chair at the table
where they were sat previously. He thanked the
paramedic for his help and he looked at her as if to make
sure she was happy with the situation. She nodded at himand smiled.
Just then, the waitress arrived with the sweet tea and
chicken soup and Mary Jane picked up the spoon and
started to eat. As she was eating she realised she was
famished and started eating with a renewed vigour.
Terrence followed the paramedic out of the café,
asking him questions about what would have caused herto black out. The paramedic looked through the window
at Mary Jane as if to check it was ok to answer him. He
turned to Terrence and said, “If she has not eaten in six
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days then that could be the main cause, but there could
be other things at play here. I would advise she visit her
GP in the morning to get checked out. Watch over hertonight, don’t leave her alone, she needs to be with
someone.
When Terrence walked back in, Mary Jane was
passing her bowl to the waitress, smiling at her saying,
“Thank you, that was lovely and the tea is nice. Thank
you for all you did whilst I was on the floor. The
waitress said it was ok and asked if she needed anythingelse at that moment. Mary Jane saw Terrence walking
towards her and she said, “Could I please have a small
bowl of sorbet?” And off the waitress went.
When Terrence arrived at the table he looked at
Mary Jane and said, “The paramedic said I was not to
leave you alone tonight, so I’ll be coming back to yours
to look after you.” Mary Jane turned white again and hecrouched next to her looking worried.
She wondered how the hell she’d get out of this one.
He couldn’t come back to her place as he would see they
had virtually packed up the whole house. She said, “It’s
ok, I have Neville there to look after me.” She gave a
weak smile.
Terrence said, “No way. I’m staying.”Then Mary Jane thought, why not get a bed and
breakfast? That way he would not see the house.
She mentioned it to Terrence and said the paint
fumes would do her no good. Terrence seemed to
consider the idea and smiled. “Ok,” he said. “That
sounds like a good idea. “And so he went off to book a
room for the night.
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Mary Jane thought that once he had fallen asleep she
would sneak off home and hide the car and ignore the
door.By the time he had returned with the keys for the
room, Mary Jane had eaten the sorbet she had ordered.
He gently took her arm and walked her towards the front
door of the cafe to lead her towards the room he had
booked for the night. No sooner had he got her outside,
he grabbed her around the waist, spun her to face him
and started kissing her neck, lips and forehead. She placed her hands on his shoulders to keep from falling to
the ground again and returned the passionate kiss right
outside the front door of the cafe with everyone
watching. He kissed her with an open hunger that she
had not felt before.
He stopped as suddenly as he started and said, “If I
don’t get you to the room now I’m going to take youright now in front of the cafe with all those people
watching us, and that would not be a good idea. We
would get arrested for indecent exposure, my love. Let’s
go shall we?”
Looking up to his eyes Mary Jane smiled and nodded
her head. This was not good. She could feel herself
falling under his spell again and she was so close toleaving. What should she do? There was no other option.
She had to get away now.
He grabbed her hand and started to lead her towards
the chalets on the beach behind the café. He opened the
first door he came to, picked her up and carried her in to
the room. He placed her gently on the bed. She lay there
looking up at him as he walked back towards the door to
lock it and close the drab curtains that were up against
the windows. The decor was not much better either.
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As he walked over to her he turned the bed-side lamp
on that was next to where she was laying, he sat down
gently and started to stroke the hair out of her eyes soshe could see better, and he saw her pale face looking up
at him with expectations that he was not sure he could
fulfil. She was not aware of the look on her face as she
watched him moving around the room.
He went over to where the tea facilities were on the
table across the room from the bed, he switched the
kettle on and proceeded to make some sweet tea for herto drink. Whilst he waited for it to boil he went in to the
bathroom and started to run a hot bath for her, as her
makeup was streaming down her cheeks from when she
had been crying whilst she was out of it on the floor.
As Mary Jane watched him move around the room
with a svelte ease, she dreamed of what his reaction
would be if she told him right now that she was pregnantwith his child.
Her eyes started to droop and she fell asleep right
where she had been placed. The next thing she knew was
Terrence waking her up with a hot sweet tea. He said,
“Your bath is ready, my love. Drink up your tea and let’s
get you in that bath to wash all that dirt you have on your
face.”She sat up, took the mug from him and started to
drink; it was hot and sweet. She looked at him and asked
how long she’d been asleep.
“Oh, not long, love. Only about an hour. I was sat
here.” And he pointed to the side of the bed next to her.
“I laid holding you in my arms, watching you sleep like
a baby.”His eye twinkled like stars as he watched her
drinking her tea, she looked so fragile sat there on the
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bed holding the mug with both hands and blowing the
steam so she could take a drink without burning herself
on the hot tea.He looked so content as he sat there watching her
watch him whilst she drank her tea. As she finished her
tea she went to lean over and place the mug on the
bedside table when he took it from her hands and placed
it on the table nearest to him. He gently pushed her back
on to the bed and laid next to her, pinning her to the bed
with a gentle but heavy weight so she could not move.She didn’t want to move.
His hands started to run along the top of her clothes,
towards her breasts under her shirt. He touched them
gently and said they felt different to the last time he
tasted them. He smiled as he kissed her with a fever of
need that was trying to get out, he wanted to take her
right there, to rip every piece of clothing off her bodyand keep her in that room forever.
Just then he stopped kissing her and jumped off the
bed. He walked around and picked her up. She looked at
him in a questioning way. “What the hell are you doing
now look?”
He walked into the bath room and placed her on her
feet next to the steaming bubble bath. When he had gotthe bubble bath and the warm towels, she thought
through a fog in her mind.
He slowly started to undress her, taking off her shirt
with ease, button by button. Her breathing grew with
each button he undid, as he got to the button on her jeans
he kissed her nose and undid the jeans and slid them
down her legs to the floor, leaving her stood in themiddle of the room in just her bra and panties. Thank
God they were new and not the old ones she had on
yesterday morning.
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Chapter 5
He stood looking at her standing in the middle of the
room wearing her peach bra and panties and saw her
rounded breasts breathing heavily; up and down they
went. He walked over and pulled her hair loose from the
hair clip that held it and watched as her hair cascaded
down her back. He put his arms around her as he undid
her bra, from behind he kissed her neck as he unfastenedthe clasps that held it in place.
He then started to crouch in front of her as he pulled
her panties down her legs. Mary Jane stood there unable
to move an inch, her heart was missing too many beats,
if she moved she would fall to the floor and that would
not be good.
As his fingers tugged the panties down him followedwith gentle kiss along her stomach and down her thighs.
He stopped just above her pubis and blew gently on it,
making her shiver with delight and anticipation. He then
lifted each foot so as to remove the panties completely.
He threw them to one side where he had thrown the rest
of her clothes and she stood in front of him in her
birthday suit, her hair cascading down her back. His eyesran all over her body, making her feel uneasy at being
looked at like that. He turned to face the bath and placed
his hand in the water as if to check it before placing a
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child in so as not to get burnt. She remembered doing
this for her kids when they were small.
He turned suddenly, making her jump out of her skinat his sudden movement. He swept her off her feet and
placed her in the bath and proceeded to undress himself
and climb in the tub after her. He found the soap on the
side and proceeded to wash her arms, legs, feet and
between her thighs. Every single touch felt as though she
was going to explode, she tried to hold her breath when
he said, “Breathe, baby. Don’t pass out on me again. Icould not handle that twice in one day. You scared the
hell out of me. Why did you lie and say you had eaten
this morning? You said you had not eaten in six days.
Mary Jane looked at the water and said to the
bubbles, “I just can’t seem to face eating right now, but I
enjoyed that soup you ordered and I ate it all like a good
girl.” She smiled at him and he seemed to breathe a sighof relief.
“Well,” he said, “please eat or you will get ill and I
don’t want that, ok?”
She smiled and laid back in the water. He stood up
and moved to sit behind her so he could wash her hair
and caress her breasts from behind.
My god, he thought, have they grown or am Iimagining it? He shook the thought out of his mind and
carried on washing her body, every single inch that he
could and some more just for the hell of it. He was
enjoying this.
When he had finished, she was breathing gently and
he thought she had fallen asleep, so he just held her close
to his body as if it was the last thing he would ever do.He heard his heart say, “Don’t you ever let her go, you
fool. You won’t find anyone else that loves you as she
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does and you will never feel this way again and if you let
her go what is the point of carrying on without her in
your life?”Then he slipped under the water and woke with a
fright. Had he dreamed that or was it real? As he looked
around the room he thought, where the hell am I? He
saw her stood in the doorway, wrapped in a towel, still
wet and with a white face. He smiled and breathed again,
he had not realised he had been holding his breath. He
stood up, showing himself in all his glory and he lookedat where she was looking and saw his engorged penis
standing to attention.
He stepped out of the bath tub and she backed away
from him as if she was scared of what he was going to
do. He said, “Are you ok, love?” She smiled and nodded
but turned to walk towards the bedroom and started to
get dressed. He went in after her and said, “Just lay nextto me please. I need to hold you.”
She sat on the edge of the bed and he pulled her in to
his arms and curled around her, pinning her to the bed.
She squealed with laughter and let herself go limp in his
arms. He placed his lips on her throat and blew gentle
kisses and his hands started to wander as if they had a
life of their own. He cupped her breasts in his hands, placed one in his mouth and started sucking hard. He
caressed her hair with his other hand clamping hands full
and pulling her head backwards. He knew he was being
rough but he needed that right now. God how he had
missed doing this to her over the last few weeks. He
thought, my God I love this girl so much it hurts like
hell.
As he continued, she started to respond to his touch
and started to writhe and groan. He moved his mouth
from her breast and raped her mouth with his tongue.
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Savage would be a word you could use for how rough he
was. But she responded to every bit of it with as much
vigour as he.Her hands started to rub up his back towards his neck
and she played with the hair on the back of his head,
pulling it away from her and making him groan as much
as she was.
He suddenly pinned her deeper into the bed, pulled
her legs apart and knelt between them, kissing inside her
thighs. He then got off the bed and pulled out the curtaincords and tied her gently to the bed. He laid her spread-
eagled across the bed. He started at her feet and worked
his way up to her breasts and her mouth, then he moved
her legs apart with his knees and he thrust inside her.
Strong and wild, he rode her like never before and she
yelled out in glory as she climaxed within seconds of
starting. He then climaxed seconds later and lay on topof her. He undid her bonds and she placed her hands
around him as he lay on top of her. They fell asleep for a
few hours as they lay together. A few hours later she
woke up feeling stiff and pinned. She realised he was
still laying on top of her, so she gently moved from
under him and went to the toilet. She then promptly got
her clothes and got dressed. She kissed him gently on his
forehead and said quietly, “I love you, Terrence, with allmy heart. But you killed me when you did what you did
and I’m not sure I can ever trust you again, my love.
Live a safe, long life and be happy. I love you.”
She sneaked out of the room and ran to her car in the
parking lot and drove away as fast as she could without
waking anyone up.
When she got home she saw the lights were on and
the kids were finishing the packing in the lounge. As she
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walked in they said, “Are you ok, Mum? You’ve been a
long time.
“Yes, darlings,” she replied. “I’m on. Come on, let’sgo to bed and finish this off in the morning before the
removal men arrive, ok?”
“Do you want a cup of tea before bed, Mum?
Michelle asked her.
“Oh, yes please, darling. Can you bring it up? I’m
going to get in to my night clothes and climb in to bed.”
“Ok, Mum. I’ll bring it up for you.”
“Love you!” they both said at the same time as she
walked out of the kitchen towards her bedroom.
“Love you too, babies,” she shouted back to them
with a smile on her face. She thought how lucky she was
to have such great kids.
The next morning, Mary Jane woke at 4am to the sun
rising and smiled as she saw her cup of tea next to her
bed. Cold. Aw, bless them, she thought.
She climbed out of bed, got dressed and went
downstairs to find that the kids had finished packing and
just left out three mugs, the coffee and toaster with bread
for breakfast. She threw the cold tea out and washed hermug to make a fresh drink. She sat down looking out the
back door whilst the dogs were having a wee.
She listened to the local radio until the children got
up and the removal men arrived. Then all hell let loose.
She made the drinks and toast, the removal men got to
work removing all the boxes and furniture and stacking
it in the back of the van they had arrived in. As theywere finishing loading the van, Mary Jane put the dogs
in her car and waited until the last box was removed so
she could lock the door and leave.
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Neville asked if he could drive with the van and
Michelle stayed with Mary Jane. When they were
finished, Mary Jane walked around the house makingsure nothing was missed and then walked out the front
door and locked it. She then hugged her daughter and
said, “Come on, babe, let’s start the next chapter in our
lives.” And she drove away from the house towards the
landlords to return the key and give him her address to
forward any mail she may receive.
As she left the key and got back in the car, she drovetowards Portreath to take one last look at the ocean as it
would be awhile before she would see it again.
As she drove down the hill towards the sea front she
saw Terrence’s car, still in the car park, and realised this
was risky. She drove straight past and silently blew him
a kiss and said, “Farewell my love, you’ll understand
one day and I love you always.”Just then as she drove past she saw him walking
towards his car looking mad. He turned to look and it
seemed as though he had seen her. She panicked but kept
on driving, saying a pray under her breath as she hit the
A30.She knew he had not seen her and was thankful.
As she drove along the A30 she said, “Let’s get a
coffee, babe.” and pulled in to McDonalds at IndianQueens. Also known as hamburger hill to the locals.
They ordered the coffee and something to eat and
they carried on the long journey to Yorkshire. As she
drove, the tears started to flow down her face. She
wondered if she had done the right thing by leaving
without saying a word to Terrence.
The sun was shining down that day, but a dark cloud passed over the sun as they left the A30 and drove on to
the M5.
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Chapter 6
Whilst Mary Jane and Michelle were driving up the M6
towards Yorkshire, listening to The Rose on CD, both
crying for their own reasons, Mary Jane squeezed
Michelle’s hand and said, “It will all work out, babe.
Come on, chin up, we will be fine.”
But back in Cornwall, Terrence had found out that
Mary Jane had gone. The house was empty and she hadleft nothing. It looked as though she had never existed or
lived here.
He fell to his knees and held his head in his hands,
he let out a childlike wail, looking up to the sky as if
shouting to him above. He says, “Why? What am I going
to do now? I have lost the one thing I never should have
let go and I realise that now! Oh my God! Mary Janesaid I would regret it one day and now she’s gone.”
He sat on the porch of Mary Jane’s house crying and
rocking himself back and forth until it turned to dusk and
Mary Jane’s neighbour came over with a mug of tea and
a blanket and sat next to him. She placed a hand on his
knee and asked, “Are you ok, dear? I saw you here
alone.”He looked up at her with a swollen face from crying;
red eyes sending tears rolling down his cheeks and
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dripping off his chin like a waterfall. He pulled his legs
inward and curled up, crying even harder than before,
because someone was being nice to him when it was hisown fault that he had lost the love of his life. He now
knew what he had to do, but where to begin he had no
idea.
Carol put her hand on Terrence, pulled him nearer to
her and held him in her arms whilst he cried himself to
sleep on that cold porch. The rain started to fall and the
thunder arrived, the storm went on for hours as if all theanger needed to be shown to everyone. This young
man’s heart had been broken.
A couple of hours later Terrence stirred and he
opened his eyes thinking the arms around him belonged
to Mary Jane and he grabbed her to pull her closer to
him. He heard Carol say, “No dear, I’m not Mary Jane!”
He sat up bolt upright and apologised to her andstarted to rock again. She said, “Come on, let’s go make
another drink and talk about it.” She stood up and held
out her hand to lead him away from the cold, wet porch
they had been sitting on.
As he sat on the kitchen chair in Carol’s house,
waiting for her to pass him a hot sweet tea, he smiled at
her and said, “I’m sorry for showing myself up andthank you for all your kindness.” She smiled back at him
and said it was ok.
She said, “What happened between you two? You
both seemed so happy and then you just left without
warning and now Mary Jane has left.”
He looked at her with fresh tears rolling down his
face and said, “I made all this happen. It’s my fault and Ihave to make everything right again.”
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With that, Carol passed Terrence his drink, sat next
to him and held his hand. She said, “Come on, dear, let it
all out, you will feel better for it. A problem shared is a problem halved.” And with that he started to cry freely
again.
Suddenly he turned to Carol and said to her, “You
know, Mary Jane was my hero and everything I wish I
could be. She gave me unconditional love and when I
cheated on her with my ex and walked away from her
and the kids I left my heart with her. I now know that Inever should have let her go. What am I going to do?”
Carol said, “What you’re going to do, my dear, is
you’re going to drink that tea and have something to eat,
then you’re going to start looking for her and run as fast
as you can to sort this out and if you’re meant to be
together, you will be with her soon.”
“I don’t even have a picture of Mary Jane and thekids,” he said.
Carol said, “I have one here you can have, my dear,
but you have to rest and get dry, ok?” And with that,
Carol showed him to the couch and pulled a clean, dry
blanket out. “There you go, get some sleep and you can
start in the morning. “He sat on the couch and Carol
placed the blanket over him and he fell asleep with tearsrolling down his face again.
Terrence slept fitfully, he kept waking up and
looking for Mary Jane in the room, but he never saw her.
He thought he saw her once, stood by the back door
waving at him saying, I’m here my love, come get me
and make it all right, and with that she turned and
walked away in to the clouds.He watched the sun rise out of the black sky and turn
a brilliant blue with no clouds to be seen anywhere and
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from a distance harmony crossed over him and the hope
came in to him that he would find Mary Jane and make
everything right. He would never let her go again, hewould never let her out of his sight and he would be
romantic, loving and attentive to her every need.
Meanwhile, Mary Jane, Michelle and Neville arrived
at the new house in Yorkshire. The storm had arrived
there too, it was tipping it down as they opened the front
door and every one ran indoors, including the dogs. They
searched the house and looked in all the rooms.The house was huge and the kitchen was a dream. A
huge farmhouse kitchen with an AGA and huge
windows overlooking the fields where the dogs would be
running free in the morning.
Then Mary Jane heard a squeal of delight come from
upstairs that sounded like Michelle. She ran out the
kitchen and upstairs to where the sound had come fromand found Michelle running around a room with a smile
on her face and she said, “Mum, can I have this room
please? Look at it, it’s huge and it’s got a dressing room
for all my clothes. Please Mum can I have it? Please?”
Mary Jane smiled at her and said, “Yes of course you
can, darling.” And with that Mary Jane walked off to
search all the other rooms. She found what would be herroom, it over-looked the back of the house and fields,
they went for as far as the eye could see and just when
you could see no further a forest appeared on the edge
and went until you could see no further. Right then, as
she looked out of the window, a fork of lightning
appeared over the trees and her heart missed a beat and
made her feel faint. She sat in the middle of the floor and
curled up and cried until she was spent.
From outside, Mary Jane heard the removal men
talking to Neville and went downstairs to see what was
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wrong. They looked at Mary Jane and said, “This
weather is not the best, love. Would it be ok for us to
wait until morning to start bringing in the furniture?”“Yes, sure,” she said, and offered them a drink of tea
and they all walked in the house for a drink. Neville said
that he’d get some bedding sorted and disappeared out of
sight.
As Mary Jane and the removal men sat talking about
where the furniture would go, a peace fell over her and
she felt content for the first time in weeks.The removal men left to find somewhere to sleep and
left Mary Jane and the children wandering round an
empty house.
As they curled up in the lounge that night they all
fell asleep quickly. Mary Jane had a fitful sleep, it was as
if she was feeling Terrence’s feelings as well as her own
and she wondered what he was doing right now.Terrence was sat on the couch at Carol’s house
thinking exactly the same as Mary Jane, watching the
storm overhead, and he too fell asleep once more.
Mary Jane woke to the birds singing. The storm had
ended. As the sun rose up from behind the forest over
the way she sat up slowly thinking, I could put a huge
Christmas tree in that window and leave the curtainsopen so we can see the snow in the background, how
nice that would look.
She stood up and walked in to the kitchen to make a
coffee and open the doors to let some fresh air in to the
house. It smelled a little musty from not being lived in,
the dogs ran outside in to the field and Mary Jane stood
watching them play as she drank her coffee.
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Just then, she heard a knock on the front door, she
jumped, thinking, he can’t have found me so soon. She
went to answer the doorIt was the removal men. “Morning, love,” they said.
“We’re here to unpack the furniture for you.” And with a
smile, she let them in.
Neville and Michelle walked in to the kitchen and
said, “Can we go investigate, Mum? We want to see
where the local shops and stuff is.”
“Yes, sure, darling. When you find the shop, can you bring some stuff back with you?” She gave them a list of
what was needed and gave them some money. Off the
kids went to find out what there was to do.
The removal men walked in with the first bit of
furniture and smiled as they walked past Mary Jane to
place it where it should go. And that was how the day
went; unpacking and moving furniture around until itwas put where it should be.
It was around mid-afternoon when Mary Jane heard
the phone go, she ran to answer it and found it was Carol
who was calling her. Oh dear, she thought, something
must be wrong for her to call, I only gave her the number
for emergencies.
“Hi Carol. How are you, darling? Yes it’s greatthank you, the house is fantastic, you will have to come
and visit us. What about coming up for Christmas? We
would love to have you here and bring in the New Year
as a family. Yes, that would be great, so let me know if
you’re going to come and stay with us.”
Carol said, “I need to talk to you, babe. Terrence was
here last night.”
“Oh,” said Mary Jane, “What happened?”
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“Well,” Carol said, “He stayed here on my couch. He
was in a real mess, he was sat crying on your porch all
day. I went out when the storm arrived and sat with himwhilst he cried and brought him home and gave him a
blanket, and he cried himself to sleep on my couch. He’s
upstairs now in the shower. Can you please talk to him?”
Mary Jane wanted to shout no, but she said, “I can’t
talk to him right now, Carol. I need some time to sort
myself out and think things through.”
“But he loves you, Mary Jane.”“If he loved me, Carol, he would not have cheated on
me would he? I bet he’s still with Claire and he will be
going back to her after he leaves your place. Carol please
don’t tell him where we are, I can’t deal with all this
right now, and I need some space. Please, Carol.”
“Yes, Mary Jane, I promise I won’t say anything
about where you are, love.”Just as Carol said that, Terrence walked in and
realised she was talking to Mary Jane and knew that
Carol knew where she was.
Carol quickly ended the call and turned to Terrence
and smiled at him, hoping he had not figured out who
she was talking to just then.
“Everything ok, dear? Do you feel better for that
shower? How about a bacon sandwich? That will help
you start the day right.” She said as she turned to walk in
the kitchen to start cooking the bacon.
“Where is she, Carol? Please tell me. I know you
were just talking to her.”
Carol stopped what she was doing and turned to facehim. She said, “Dear, I made a promise not to tell you
and I cannot and will not break that promise. I hope you
understand.” She turned back to finish cooking.
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Terrence smiled at her and said, “Shall I make the
tea?” And he walked over to the kettle to turn it on, but
in his mind he was thinking, how can I make her slip upand tell me where she is?
They sat down at the table to eat their sandwiches.
When they had finished, Terrence cleaned the dishes
away and put them back in the cupboard for Carol, and
he said to her, “Thank you for everything you did for me
last night, you don’t know how much it actually meant to
me.” He left the house and got in to his car and droveaway. But to where, he had no idea.
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Chapter 7
As the day was coming to an end, Mary Jane could see
the house coming together. All the furniture was in place
now and all they had to do was unpack the clothes and
ornaments and go shopping for food. Then she could
make a proper meal in the new house. But Neville had
brought the shopping home for today and that would be
enough to have something to eat tonight and go shoppingtomorrow.
Neville and Michelle were upstairs putting the
curtain up at the windows and Mary Jane was just about
to start cooking the dinner. She got out the mince and
onions to start frying them, she opened a bottle of red
wine whilst she cooked and went about her chores.
Around an hour later, Mary Jane was just putting thefinishing touches to the salad to go with the lasagne she
had just made. She went and set the table for them to eat
on and called the kids down to come and eat as dinner
was ready. The children came downstairs laughing at
what they were doing and ran in to the kitchen, nearly
knocking Mary Jane over. She nearly dropped the dinner
but she smiled because they seemed happy
As they sat down to dinner that night it was nearly
8pm, they started to talk about what they had seen when
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they were out investigating the area. They both started to
talk at the same time and they fell about laughing.
It turned out that the shop was further away than theythought, but it was a nice village when they found it.
There was a lovely little pub where they could go for
lunch one day and a corner shop that sold the basics.
They had met up with some of the kids in the area and
made a couple of new friends and asked if it was ok for
them to go and meet them the next day.
Mary Jane said it was ok to go but she had to go tothe supermarket to get some food in, as they would
starve otherwise, and that was how the meal continued;
full of laughter and giggles and talking about what they
were going to be doing over the next few weeks.
Mary Jane went upstairs around 10pm that night and
climbed into the shower. She stood under the flow of
water, as it touched her body and she started to wash herhands, she let them wander between her thighs and she
played with herself under the warm flow of water
cascading down her body. She felt the baby move inside
her and her hands wandered up to her breasts and she
fondled them and massaged them and ran her hands
across her stomach. She stayed in the shower for an hour
and satisfied her needs, but she wished Terrence wasthere to share this with her and she released the tears that
she didn’t know she had been holding in, and cried till
she was exhausted and cold.
She got out of the shower, dried herself and put on
her night dress. She climbed in to bed and cried herself
to sleep, holding the pillow he had slept on the last time
he was with her at her old house in Cornwall.
Terrence, in the meantime, was at home talking to
Claire and she was shouting at him
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“Where were you last night and the night before?”
she shouted.
He turned around to make the tea and smiled as hesaid, “I was with the girl who I love more than I ever
loved you.” He turned to see her reaction to the
statement he had just made and her face fell.
She stopped shouting and whispered her reply.
“What do you mean by that remark?” she asked. As she
looked at him with wide eyes, a single tear rolled down
her cheek. He started to tell her everything that hadhappened since he moved to Cornwall the year before.
He started at the beginning when she had cheated on
him with one of her co-workers from the factory they
had both worked at.
“Well,” he said, “you never turned up for work that
day. In truth you had not told me that you had changed
your shift, so when you had not turned up, I came tocheck everything was ok with you and when I walked in
the house I heard noises from upstairs and went to see
where it was coming from. I walked in to the bedroom to
see you sat on top of him, riding him like a wild pony
and you were shouting out, yes, yes! We never had sex
like that, so why with him?” he asked. He then continued
with what he was saying to her. “I walked out of thehouse, got in the car and went to Cornwall that day and
never came back to you. I was hurt and didn’t know
what I was going to do after what I had just seen, so I
went to stay with my family and found a job. I worked
hard for the first few months, I only ate, slept and
worked and then I decided to sign up for a dating
website and got talking to a girl on there, she was called
Mary Jane. She had two children and we talked late in to
the night and then texted and emailed each other over the
following weeks and agreed to meet. When I saw her for
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the first time, sat on that bench wearing those jeans and
that t-shirt, I fell in love with her instantly and knew that
it was going to be a strong bond.”Claire found her voice and said, “But it takes you
ages to fall in love and you fell for her instantly?”
“Yes,” he said, “I did, but I never realised that until
the other day when she passed out on me in the cafe we
were at whilst you were at work. I booked us in to a bed
and breakfast that night on the sea front and I made
passionate love to her in the bathroom and on the bed.That night I slept in her arms and woke with her and
made love to her again before I left.
He had lied about that, as in reality, Mary Jane was
the one who had left in the early hours without saying a
word to him, and she had then left Cornwall and that had
killed him inside. He knew at that moment that he must
have really hurt her, for her to pack up and leave withouttelling anyone where she was going, apart from Carol,
who he really must go and see again to see if he can
make her slip up about Mary Jane’s whereabouts.
As he continued to tell Claire that he has been seeing
Mary Jane for twelve months, he told her about the sex
they had together and said, “I have never made love with
that much passion before and I probably never willagain.”
Claire picked up on the never will again part of the
conversation. She smiled and said to him, “You lost her,
didn’t you?”
He said, “No, I have not, I will find her and make her
see that I am sorry for everything I have done to hurt her.
“He said to Claire, “I would like to say I’m sorry to you, but I won’t, as you started this and I made the mistake of
thinking you had changed when it was me who had
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When Jim saw what Mary Jane was wearing he
smiled and said, “Aye girl, too much,” and laughed.
She said, “Yes, I know that now, you fool.Tomorrow I will wear jeans, ok?”
“Aye, girl, that would be better.” Off he went to
show her around the building and where she would be
working from that day. He said,“…and when the wee
one comes we can move everything over to your place
and you can work from home if you like, just till you can
come back here.” They went for a coffee and to chatabout what needed to be done that day.
Whilst Mary Jane and Jim were drinking their
coffee, Jim said, “Do you mind if we call you MJ from
now on? It’s just easier to call you that if we need you
for anything.”
“Sure,” she said, and from that day everyone knew
her as MJ and no one ever mentioned the full name ofMary Jane again.
By the time MJ had sat at her desk she thought, this
is going to be a job and a half. She laughed to herself
because the person who had done it recently had made a
few mistakes that MJ needed to sort out before she could
do this year’s accounts. She made a start on the task that
needed to be sorted first and she worked until 5.30pmthat day and took some work home with her so she could
get ahead of the game as she needed to start this year’s
accounts.
When she got home from work her house was full of
people she did not know. She smiled; that’s my kids for
you, she thought, inviting everyone back for dinner. She
walked in the house and said, “Hi, guys,” and walked into the kitchen to make a brew.
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Carol shouted down the phone to her, “Are you ok,
dear? I’m sorry but I have let it slip, he knows where you
are but not your address. I only said you were nearSowerby in Yorkshire. MJ spoke further with Carol and
told her not to worry about it and made sure Carol was
alright. She eventually ended the call and went in to the
kitchen to get a glass of red wine. She sat at the table
thinking about everything and going over what should,
could or would have happened if only she had done this
or done that. When she finally went to bed it was after
midnight, she climbed in to bed and slept a deep and
meaningful sleep, she must have needed it, for she felt a
million times better knowing that he knew she was safe
now.
She climbed out of bed and put on her jeans, trainers
and a jumper, also a hat, scarf and gloves and took the
dogs out for a walk in the woods. As she entered the
woods it had just started to snow and it was bitter cold
that day.
She spent hours walking the dogs and ended up in
the village where she got herself a coffee and something
to eat. Then, realising she had left her purse at home she
spoke to Dave (the owner) and asked if it was ok to send
Neville back with the money.
Dave said to her, “Aye, love. Sure, that’ll be fine.
Should you be out in your condition in this weather?”
“Oh, get away with ya, Dave,” she said. “I’m
pregnant not dying.” She laughed and they sat down