Poetic Embrace

Fiordaliza Charles copyright 2012 Fiordaliza Charles

Smashbook Edition

DEDICATION

To my creator and savior GOD. To the people that worked so hard at published America to

make sure that I get my book published again, to my readers whom I appreciate so much. To

my mother who always encourages me to do my best. My daughter who always brings out the

best in me. My husband who always been a supporter of everything that I do and to my family

and friends that have supported me in the making of this book and in life. Thank you all for

everything you do for me. I am forever thankful.

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

First and foremost, I will like to thank God for giving me the ability to read and write poetry and to you all of the staff members of Publish America for giving me yet another opportunity to be heard and for taking a chance with me again.

Very special thanks to my family and friends that asked me to keep writing because, they feel I need to be heard, your support means so much to me. Much love to Father and Mother who love me unconditionally and really helped me to embrace who I've become. Special thanks to all my readers who continue to support me and give me wonderful feedback on my writings each day. I will never forget your words of encouragement.

I am specially grateful to my daughter Kadiya whom believes in me and looks up to me and she says I make her want to be a better person because of what I have accomplished here and last but, not least my biggest thank you goes out to my husband who encourages me to do better everyday and assures me that he loves me. I am so blessed to have found you and I love you with all my heart.

Fiordaliza Charles

ALONE

As I lay here thinking Last night

Pondering on how to find my soul a home Where the water's are not for the thirsty

and bread is not made of a stone

I came up with one thing and I don't believe that I'm wrong

That nobody but, nobody

can make it out here alone

Alone, all alone nobody but, nobody

can make it out here alone

Give me a reason to live I don’t want to be around anymore

I lost everything that I adored

Alone, all alone nobody but, nobody

can make it out here alone

TIRED OF WAITING

I'm tired of waiting, patiently for love To get hurt, once again

tired of the bull-crap I get from these lames I need a true friend till the very end

Life is so unpredictable When you find yourself in love everything just seems so real

but, that is never the deal

Now that is over, I have to forget the fun everything that you promised, is now done

after all the I love you's all the love we shared is gone

I'm tired of wishing, things get better Today, I promise myself

I break free and start thinking of me

DON'T UNDERSTAND

Why can't you feel my fears why do we grow apart and not near

I waste time and all my tears for true love, all of these years

Can't you tell, I have a broken heart that my soul has been torn apart

why, can't I just forget you Now, that I am feeling blue

I feel this pain, like a burning flame I'm going to be alone once again not letting anyone else in my lane

I need time to recuperate

You don't understand love is not a game

I am hurting and you just walk away My life will never be the same

I SEE THE TRUTH

I knew it was coming The day I feel my heart was ran over

Never through that after all these years you would give me your cold shoulder

The ocean is no longer full The sun is no longer shinning The air suddenly became cold I feel the pain through my soul

I see the truth A day I wished never came true

My best friend turn out to be The one that was untrue

I feel so empty and doomed My heart you truly misused

For some reason I still love you but, I'm glad that we are through

I'M BACK...

I'm back city of sorrow thought I never say that again

land of broken promises and no friends greater places I've embraced

Giving all nothing in return but, now I am truly happy

though everyone else is not to NYC I can always come back

Feeling the thrill of the day Hanging out in a familiar place

and seeing my New York I will never feel alone again

Leaving here was no surprise but, coming back felt so good I left many good things behind now, I'm just glad to be back

SURVIVOR...

Having shelter, is not enough to survive but, I bet I can make it work

suffering deep inside of my soul can't help it that my stomach groans

I put my negative thoughts away in a jar of memory jelly hoping that it dissolves

and one day my time will come

Striving to do better but, things are getting worst

putting my heart away in silent fear trying to hold back these tears

I am a survivor, I know I said these words to myself everyday

I can't give up on life now I have to do this for my child

NEW YORK CITY

What it is to me, simply this

A city of hope and dreams

ditches, garbage, hearts that are broken within hard workers, who can't afford anything

People living mostly in fear In an apartments that are staked out

Scared to get wet in this rain

Praying the lord takes your soul, if you pass away

Mixture of people from different races NYC you can take it a leave it but, you will return for more

is just like an addition, that just can't ignore

New York City, is for survivors I've been here, fought the war

Same old city, just a different day

Rain or sunshine, I'm here to stay

MY HEART

I wondered where you've gone they told me you went away

I wondered, why you left so sudden all my sunny skies turned to gray

Thought I would never love this way never thought we've be apart like this

But, what did you have to lose? You left me, feeling confused

I've told you that I needed you and you made it to a test

I just wanted us to be together and build us a happy nest

I knew my heart was ready for you that's the reason why I stayed

but, I knew that the moment you saw her You would of broken away

I MISS YOU...

Reality never set in You were more than a friend to me To you I told all my dark secrets

Things I always kept within

Now that you no longer here Who do I run to with my fears

You the one who understood me When I was draining in tears

How am I going to get passed The things that we both went through Now we can't just sit and talk about it

Life was taken from you and we parted

Knowing that you in a better place keeps me from going insane

I wish that you was here so we can become one again

CRUSHED

Shattered in pieces, where is my heart I want to love you but, how

all you do is run away and leave when I want you to stay

The days we spent together you always on your phone

I get a little moment of your time and you never drop me a line

I think you find excuses not to be with me through the day but, if you want for it to be over

that is all you have to say

I do not want to lose you I really love you so much

It may not mean anything to you but, I don't want to be crushed

QUESTIONS

Are you still here ? Waiting for what ?

Why don't you leave me ? What are your thoughts

Why must I repeat myself? How many times, do I have to tell you?

Do you think this is a game? Here, you can no longer stay

Why don't you get out of my face? Do you think you can't be replaced?

How can you love anyone? After you hurt them this way

Do you think I'm yours? Was you to my heart untrue?

Can you find someone like me? I'm not coming back to you

NEVER AGAIN

The smell of your cologne the hugs that I once owned

the way you made love to me now I will never know

You used to tell me you adore me now I'm feeling all used

you leave me behind like a piece a crap how come treat me like that

I waited for you each day with the smell of you still around but, you never came back home

where did all the love go

The love we shared can not be found It will never be replaced

can't you see that I'm the one why do I love so hard

TEARS OF A CLOWN

Don't ever think that I'm not hurt

every time you leave I want to die but, I will never show it

I rather you think I'm alright

Don't ever think that I'm not in pain

every time we not together I feel I’m going insane but, I will never show you that

I rather you think, I'm just drained

Don't ever think that I am not sad

every time you leave me, I want to cry but, I will never let you see me like that

I rather you think, that with out you I will survive

Don't ever think that I don't be stress

every time you not around I'm a mess but, I will never show that when I am near you

I rather you think, that I don't miss you

I AM SCARED TOO

I want to love you all over again but, I don't think you want to be loved every time I attempt to, I just get hurt

Like you was not sent from above

Can you show me the way I want to make it through

with you by my side each day despite of what you put me though

I know is hard to keep it together my heart is always confused

I can't imagine my life with out you but, I am also scared too

PEACE !!!

Let's fight for the right reason Let's make a difference in our children life Let's give the world a reason to celebrate

Let's take a chance and make things right

Let's get together brothers and sisters Let's remember to celebrate life every day Let's make our mothers and fathers proud

Let's take our children fears away

Let's give people something good to talk about Let's grant our ancestor something to be proud about

Let's be grateful for what we have found

Let's say "Yes I Can" without a doubt

Let's be more specific of what we need Let's show our generation ways to succeed Let's give each other the love we deserve

and work on peace down here on earth

A PICTURE

It saw a picture, it made me look twice I did not know him from a drop of a dime but, I needed him to be a part of my life

can't believe that I met him online

He made me believe in every word he said He knew of all the pain, I was trying to erase

He said he take care of it and take me afar Away from all the things that have broken my heart

I trusted him with all that I know my body could not wait till he came home

I felt so incomplete until we spoken last night He was my savior and my only knight

He never made me feel insecure He gave me his love and so much more

Then one day I realize that it was all a dream

and he was just a picture in my computer screen

COME WITH ME

I want to take you away to a place where all your pain disappears

like a candle that brightens your life I promise to never leave your side

I will give you all the things that you deserve No, place that you'll find here on earth

let me love you down from here on and completely take over your soul

Let me take over your mind to a place where you feel at ease

where your body is set free as you reach your final destiny

Come with me and be loved to a place filled with many fantasies

where there are many pleasures and I can be your hidden treasure

WHATEVER YOU WANT

I know that is so sudden my heart for you felt so hard

I knew it from the start you was my luck charm

I want to do it all over again and again you made the pains go away it hit me like a sunlight's ray

that you was here to stay

I never want you to leave with you I rather be

you are the one sent from above You can have whatever you want

HAPPY

Happier then I ever been Joyful and more complete No longer feeling scared

You can keep me teddy bear

Filled with so much love Memories of us make me smile Feeling like a new born child

Knowing that you will be around

Thankful that you are here Waited for your love for so many years

I am no longer living in fear Pain no longer lives here

LIES

Said we be forever but, I know that is not the true How can your love be for real, with all this pain I have

consumed You said you love me and you made it seemed like you

cared In my heart I took a chance because, I am always scared

How can I ever forgive and forget Your love was all that I knew

Don't sit around an pretend you love me

.

Just because, you think I am lonely I don't want to see you ever again

not for another other day of my life

because, you are the one who broke my heart and all you spoken was lies

UN-BREAK MY HEART

I been through enough heartaches The pain needs to go away Can someone please tell me That his love is here to stay

I'm tired of being used Left alone and confused Tell me this love is true

because, my heart belongs to you

My heart can not take it any more My walls are down to the floor

I opened up a new door, to let you in my life Are you here to Un-break my heart?

GRANTED...

Why am I so confused You say one thing and meant another

Why can you be honest with me Tell me you don't want to be bothered

I thought you was the one I seen you in my wildest fantasies

I always wanted to be yours The one that made you feel complete

Why did I give you so many chances We can't keep living a lie

Why do you toy with my emotions and want to drop me like a dime

I guess you was not ready for love I was not what you really wanted

All I needed was for you to be true and the love from you to be granted

M.U.S.I.C

M-Music makes my heartache's melt away and forget the pains

U-Umbrella for sad tears, as I listen to the melodies of my favorite song

S-Songs that I can relate to and reminisce on for years to

come

I-I listen to my music when I am alone or in the company of who I love

C -Could only imagine my life without it, music makes me whole

ONLY YOU

Who lies within my soul ? Who makes me feel I am in control? Who makes my body feel at ease?

Who makes me feel complete?

Who never makes me want to cry? Who makes me feel protected?

Who made me realize my goals in life? Who is the one who loves me and the one that I love?

Who makes my body unwind ? Who is my favorite guy?

Whom don't I never forget to mention? Who knows the answer to these questions?

Only You

BE MINES

You always outside, I have to start a fight Your friends always come first when are you going to be mines

If they always by your side

I don't know what you want from me all I ask for some one on one time

but, you rather see me going insane like a migraine on my brain

You said, you no longer feeling the same maybe we should end things now

how can you really want me and you never be around

I wanted you in my life forever but, not the way that things are how can you want this forever

when you keep breaking my heart

LAY DOWN BESIDE ME

Lay down beside me Let me look into your eyes

as they make me realize that you will never leave my side

Lay down beside me So I can hear your beating heart beating in harmony with mines Telling me that they beat as one

Lay down beside me For I long to feel your touch

This alone tells me That I am the one you love

Lay down beside me and I will lay my head on your chest

where my fears melt away And my mind has found it's rest

Lay down beside me Lets do a prayer together

and together we shall conquer what ever Knowing that we will be forever

WALLS

Come down walls Break away from it all

I can't keep hiding because, I been hurt by love

Come down walls Let me be free

Expressing my inner thoughts and, believing in me

Come down walls I'm tired of fighting myself

I want to be happy and feel the love embrace

DISTANCE LOVE

I had a feeling that you were gone your mother, brother and sister too

I did not know what to do I wished that this was untrue

I went through so much trying to get here

couldn't find no where to stay and it made me feel insane

I let you go but, It was so hard my heart knew it from the start

that you was the man, I should of loved how can I forget you now

As life go on, we will probably meet again

but, I know that in my dreams you will always be here with me

I WISH YOU THE BEST

The grass may look greener on the other side I think you should go take a look

I hope that you are right because, I will no longer be waiting

and I hope that all your dreams come true because, all you done is made me feel blue

Love does not hurt like this and it is never untrue Love makes you feel complete and never abused

each and every time we are together you want something new well, I wish you the best because we are through

GET AWAY TRAIN

Don't trip on what I have to say but, you need a quick vacation

from all the madness inside you and all of these bad temptations

Take a day and spend time on yourself not your car and not your friends

You need a place to relax where you can leave everything in the past

Rejoice in great harmony Sit around and try not to complain Join all your problems in one cloud From a window of a get away train

Never look back keep moving forward

life is to short to waste on unhappy moments

THE END

You made me feel unwanted You made me feel deranged

When ever I wanted to be with you Your excuses were always the same

I don't know why you feel the need to continue this

I wanted us to be together but, not the way it is

I think we both can agree we don't feel the same any more

I don't have no more to say I just want you to go away

Lets end things now and move on our lives will be so much better

why can't you see we are not meant and this will not last forever

THE LOVE IS GONE

Pain in my heart wont leave my soul

hit me so hard I though I was dead

In your arms I felt whole Now all I feel is alone

why can't you see I am in need What happen to our hopes and dreams

I knew that this was to good to be true The moment I said I loved you should of know it was coming from me you were departing

I cared for you too much to say this but, I can't do this any more

my heart just cant ignore that it don't love you anymore

THE HEART DOES NOT LIE

When your heart is no longer ticking at the site of your mate

when everything becomes argument you just want to get away

You don't want to get involve in anything that they do

you feel they are being untrue In all they are saying to you

It does not matter what they do It don't bother you any more you don't want them around

and to just walk out of the door

Emotions are running every where You can't pretend that you care You don't feel anything inside

The heart does not lie

LOVE IS

Love is patient and never anxious Love is polite and does not fight Love is truthful and does not lie

and it never makes you cry

Love never let you lose control Love makes you feel whole

Love creates excitement Makes you feel like a giant

Love is more than happy times Love is taking a risk

Love is everything great wrapped up in one Something that you can resist

Love is precious Love is always true

Love is like everyone in a room but, you only see the one for you

I WISHED FOR YOU

Tall but, not too tall Thick but, not too wide Sincere with all he do

Someone that I can't deny

Mentally like an instrument Always ready to learn

giving me pleasure in all we endure and making me always feel secure

Someone that knows all my secrets and still accepts me the same

proud to be all mines and wants me to be his wife

People can see the love in our eyes Our love we cannot hide

I wished for you and my dream finally came true

LETTER FROM GOD

When everything feels unfamiliar When you fear the unknown When you feel life is gone

Because, your body feels cold

When you think you cannot make it When your feel like your alone

When your tears are all you own I'll be right here all along

When you feel you have no friends When you feel like you are not safe

When you feel like you are about to lose it I'll be here to save the day

When life seems to be get harsh When people turn their backs

When you feel lost and confused come to me, I'll be waiting for you

NOTHING LEFT

You came to me in a flash

Like the memories of my past

I had to make it all last

make you mines no matter what

but, to my surprise

you were not mines

only came to hurt me inside

now all Ido is cry

I had to make my tears go dry

feeling so empty inside

and fearing that I will die

now is too late to turn back

to the life that I once owned

the love we shared is now gone

and nothing left to be done

OUR WORLD

I was everywhere with my thoughts

Like a child inside a sandbox Like a tree missing a branch to grow My life with out you will be so cold

I missed you every minute of the hour

The moment you walked away I knew I was in trouble

I felt your touch and I was in drained

What is it about you that I can't resist

Is it all in your sensual kiss Or the way you placed me in your arms I feel like a kid eating Lucky Charms

I need to have you close to me

Taken to a place of ecstasy To a world that is made for only you and me

Place me in your heart and never leave

TILL THE DAY, WE MEET AGAIN

Seems like yesterday I will pick a fight with you

Just to get some f your attention It was all with good intentions

I'm still lost with out your smile and I just can't figure it out

You used to make me so mad Now, I wish I had that back

I will never forget your words I'm yours no matter the wrongs

Now I am sitting here wishing you was alive Feeling like I want to die

Now that your gone why will I forget all the memories we had together

Till the day, we meet again I will treasure them forever

ANGEL OF MINES

He was of a pure as the color white he was softer than a dove

gave me more than I could imagine like he was sent from above

I knew he was the one He will whisper in my ears

all the things I wanted to hear and he was around for years

How can I ever forget him I know that he is now gone Our love was so profound

It was true love, he was the one

I wish I could turn back now To a time when the world was ours

you was wearing a disguise because, you were an angel of mines

DON'T EVEN BOTHER

I saw it with my very own eyes You kissed her and said goodnight

I thought you was all mines how can you do me like that

You took away a piece of my heart but, you won't give it back

love is not for everyone I feel so incomplete and shallow

for you a tear I will not drop How can you explain what I saw, for what

I don't want to hear it you saying you are sorry, wait until tomorrow

what we had is now over and that's that

please don't even bother

I AM DONE

Roses are red Violets are blue

Sugar is sweet and so are you

yeah right ! you thought I was through I don't want to ever hear from you

You gave me all of these clues I just didn't want to see the truth

but, now who is feeling blue my heart no longer loves you go cry your crocodile tears I just want you out of here

All you did was bring me pain and my love for you was real

I am though with all of your lies I am done, goodbye

LET'S PRETEND

We own our destiny we can pick the life we want

we appear to be happy never complain life is crappy

The skies are always blue No rain ever falls

You are with the one you love and we never have to fall

we get along with our family we co-exist with each other

we have many other brothers though they are not from the same mother

we never die or become of old age our world is filled with joy and never pain

we have everything we desire lets pretend

because, that is all we can believe

YOUR NAME

I seen you around once or twice and about we spoken with our eyes

but, never open our mouths

I love the way you walk from far away, I can see the way you talk

you hands moving as you arrive I want to be by my side

I asked around for you with the description I known they told me you was around

but, you are no where to be found

Tell me are you going to stop my way let me hear you say it

what I want to know is no shame I just want to know your name

ALWAYS & FOREVER

A= Apart we will never, ever be L= Lovers we will always remain W= We belong together forever

A= Anyone can see we are in love Y= You and me happy as we ought to be

S= Saving our hearts for each other indeed

&

F= Forever will always be O= Offering our love to one another R= Realizing we were meant to be

E= Even if we was to ever part V=Valentines will be in our hearts

E= Everyday we will feel so special R= Remembering we are each others treasure

GET OUT

You think I am always nagging and you are so tired of it

You obviously do not know me If you think that you own me

You must have just been born With a silver spoon in your mouth Do you know what it is to struggle

and really being with out

Wake up and smell the coffee before you end up in a bliss I'm tire of your complaining

about the old life you had

Being alone can be harsh but, I will always adjust that is no doubt

Why stick around if your not happy All you have to do is get out

SMILE

You seen me smiling from ear to ear, and I was once a wreck

why can I forget you and not deal with your mess

If I was single I can just mingle

I don't need this stress I deserve more than love at is best

You say you love me and that you loved me for a while

but, the way that you act towards me just brings me tears of a clown

Where did my heart go Are you back to hurt me again I just want you to leave now I want to get back my smile

DO YOU STILL CARE?

What brought us together also, tore us apart. You always been far

Away from my giving heart

No one can replace you The cannot compare to what we had, you will always be

My shining star

Where did it all go ? The love we shared, I look around and you are not there

Like you been hiding from a night mare

Give me my heart back, if you don't want it Grant me serenity if you dare

I need to know, do you still care ?

TENDERNESS

Treat me with more respect Let me forget the meaning of the rest

I want to feel special in every way Like you once mentioned

Please be gentle, oh so gentle I am a little sentimental

All I want is to be loved and nurtured Like a queen, dreams off

Take good care of my heart Treat me like a woman at her best Like the precious diamond I am

with a lot of tenderness

POETIC EMBRACE

My poems are like hugs I hope that you enjoyed them all

because, I written them just for you and for my life to adjust

I am grateful for all of you hope that you stick around

because, I need you to express myself somehow

Watch our out world, I am not done I'm going to continue

giving you more of My poetic heart and the best is yet to come