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H I e u r o h d e g t n j V h r h o e r a h d
H [ t h r c D l m n t V r j s s V u b d l k h t l e o
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V h r h o e r a h d X & HD . J . K h l o j
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Wlrmlolh Khrrhwhy [thrc ls j`lter lo knljg eg [thrcDlmnt Vrjss ho`@lrjkter ht tnj Ohtleohd Vhrhoerahd [ekljty. [nj nhs wrlttjojxtjoslvjdy eo tnj phrhoerahd ho` loijkts njr keosl`jrhdjcoewdj`mj eo tnj s!ijkt lote njr spjk!dhtlvj g lkt leo ho`skrjjopdhys. "e! kho glo` Wlrmlolh#s werc tnre!mn [thrcDlmnt Vrjss.[nj wercs wltn etnjr wrltjrs$ hrt lsts ho` pejts te neoj njr thdjotsho` te eggjr joke!rhmjajot ho` loslmnt te etnjrs. [nj nhs jjo ho
neoerhdj ajotleo ht Khooj %lda %jstlvhd ger njr skrjjopdhy$ &'dlo` (yj) ho`whs oealohtj` ger ho *!rerh *whr`. www.sthrcdlmntprjss.kea
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+.D. (stjs ls h sjdg,p!dlsnj` h!tner eg twe pejtry eecs- 'eec eg [errews ho`nj 'recjo/ojs$ etn hs h 6lo`dj vjrsleo er hs h trh`j phpjrhkc ho` kho j p!rknhsj`eo *ah8eo.kea.2s. (stjs nhs hdse jjo rjkemol8j` y tnj Dlrhry eg Keomrjss ger njr ahstjryeg pejtry ho` njr peja &[nhttjrj`) ls p!dlsnj` lo tnjlr j`ltleo tnjLotjrohtleohd ]ne“s ]ne lo Vejtry 2682. [nj ls k!rrjotdy sdhvlom evjr njr glrst
glktleo oevjd Losholty $ deec ger lt seeo. [nj ls jhrolom njr'hknjder;s @jmrjj lo %erjoslk Vsyknedemy$ wltn nepjs eg r!oolom njr ewo krlaj dh eoj `hy.[nj ls hdse ho neoerhry ajajr eg tnj jdltj Ohtleohd [ekljty eg Keddjmlhtj [knedhrs. 'rhvjdy$snj nhs knesjo te j ho h`vekhtj ger Wlktlas eg Wledjokj$ se tnjy oe deomjr nhvj te s!ggjr losldjokj. Vdjhsj ielo njr glmnt$ knjkc e!t njr wjsltj- Wlktlas eg Wledjokjnttp0::te``ho`ijoo7=.wlx.kea:s!ggjrlomlosldjokj. Keothkt njr hoytlaj snj wldd hoswjr hoy ho`hdd >!jstleos- swjjtijol
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[thrcDlmnt Vrjss nhs ge!o` lo [nhreo %dee` ho jxkjddjoth!tner ho` j`lter$ wnesj tlajdy werc hddews [DV te snhrjjvjo aerj tnrl d d lom$ jxklt lom g lkt leo wltn e!r ghos. [nj pjos
h aeotndy stery eo mnests ho` nh!otloms lo [nhreo#s[peecljs. "e! kho glo` njr we rc ht
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2s. '!tknjr rjsl`js lo 'rlshoj$ *!strhdlh$ wltn njr n!sho`$`h!mntjr ho` twe khts$ Vho`erh ho` 4j!s. 1nldj wrlt lom ls njrphssleo$ njr o!ajre!s lotjrjsts lokd!`j psyknedemy$ nlstery$hstreoeay$ tnj phrhoerahd$ aytnedemy$ rjh`lom$ hrt ho` a!slk$ho` njdp g!jd njr lahmlohtleo. [nj hdse devjs jlom e!t lo oht!rj$wnjtnjr lt j whdclom tnre!mn tnj trjjs er rjdhxlom ht tnj jhkn.Dl8 nhs prjvle!sdy p!dlsnj` ?1rhtn; lo tnj &D!rclom 5o nj @jjp)ho` &Fh!otlom Hjaah ) lo tnj &wlstj` hdjs) hotnedemljs ho`
k!rrjotdy nhs h o!ajr eg preijkts lo tnj wercs. [nj wrltjs e!r Vhrhpsyknedemyked!ao ho` h``s te e!r g lkt leo sjktleo seaj eg njr knld d lom thdjs.
*otneoy [thrc ls h wrl tjr ho` j`lter wltn h hkcmre!o` lojomlojjrlom$ skljokj ho` aj`lkloj. Hrewlom !p lo tnj wld`s eg tnjghr oertn nj nh` h det eg t laj te neoj nls scld ds etn lo rjsjhrkn
ho` lo keaa!olkhtleos. 1ltn h wjhdtn eg jxpjrljokjs ho` trhvjd njnhs h prhktlkhd hpprehkn te wrlt lom ho` te d l gj. Fj nhs th!mntkdhssjs lo hrt$ g lrst hl` ho` t!terj` !olvjrslty st!`jots hs nhspedlsnj` nls cohkc ger jxpdhlolom ojhrdy hoy s!ijkt lo h rjdhthdjwhy. Fj nhs hdwhys jjo h wrltjr$ prhktlklom hs h ye!tn eo jssh ys
#ger g!o# ho` aevlom eo te wrlt lom tjknolkhd aho!hds$ hrt lkdjs$ oevjds ho` snertsterljs. Fls hrrhy eg thdjots ls !sjg!d lo ojhrdy hoy g ljd` djo`s ltsjdg jspjklhddyte tnj `lvjrsj werd` eg wrlt lom$ te wnlkn nj h``s nls ewo loohtj `lvjrsjprhmahtlsa.
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1njrj ls tnj dloj wnjo ahmlk kressjs lote dhkc ahmlkB
nht#s h ahttjr eg gljrkj `jhtj lo tnj ahmlkhd keaa!olty. nj ettea dloj ls tnht ye! nhvj tesjhrkn ye!r njhrt ho` glm!rj e!t ye!r lotjotleos. *rj ye! `elom seajtnlom e!t eg ahdlkjB *rjye! ijhde!sB nesj rjhseos hrj !s!hddy wnjo tnloms sthrt te t!ro se!r.
2hoy ae`jro ahmlkhd prhktltleojrs nhvj strlkt r!djs he!t oet mjttlom hoy pjrseohd mhlo erhe!t hoytnlom tnht lso#t p!rjdy `jgjoslvj. nls ls krhp. nj glrst r!dj eg ahmlk ls tnht ye! `eo#tn!rt hoyeoj jdsj ho` etnjrwlsj oetnlom ls jvld. 5 ajho lt$ lg ye! hrjo#t n!rtlom hoyeoj me ger lt.nj l`jh eg dhkc ahmlk ls tlj` !p wltn tnj keokjpt eg slo ho` etnjr l`jhs tnht wj#vj mettjolote tnj nhlt eg jdljvlom lo. nloms dlcj slo ̀ eo#t nhppjo lo oht!rj. "e! jht wnht ye! ojj` te
jht ho` ye! `e wnhtjvjr lt thcjs te pretjkt ye! ho` ye!r devj` eojs. 5 ajho lt$ wnhtjvjr ltthcjs.
nj dloj eody kressjs evjr lote dhkc ahmlk wnjo ye! prjy egg eg pjepdj wne nhvj `eojoetnlom te ye! !t ye!r ijhde!sy er mrjj` er wnhtjvjr kh!sjs ye! te thcj wnht ye! whottnre!mn ahmlkhd ajhos. Oew$ cjjp lo alo` lg ye!r wnltj ahmlk pretjktleo spjdd k!dalohtjs lon!aho shkrlglkj ye! nhvj nhraj` seajeoj ho` t!roj` ho` looekjot spjdd lote h pljkj egwlkcj` snlt. @eo#t `e tnht.
nj etnjr tnlom tnht ye! almnt oet nhvj tne!mnt eg ls tnht tnjrj ls h `lggjrjokj jtwjjo dhkcahmlk ho` st!pl` ahmlk. 2hmlk hdwhys keajs ht h prlkj$ oet jvjo tnj kho`djs hrj grjj.
(vjrytnlom kests ye! jggert ho` prehdy aeojy !t ht tnj vjry djhst jojrmy. 5t#s h det jhsljr teswjjp tnj gdeer tnho te `e h spjdd te mjt seajeoj jdsj te `e lt ger ye!. @eo#t `e spjdds dlcjtnht. 5g ye! kho hknljvj ye!r jo`s y `elom tnloms wltn ye!r rjhd dlgj e`y `eo#t g!kc wltn tnjpewjrs eg me`s ho` me``jssjs$ `jaeos$ homjds$ jdjajothds$ trjjs$ wnhtjvjr. jajajrtnht jvjry tlaj ye! `e ahmlk lt#s dlcj ye!#rj !mmlom seajeoj te njdp ye! glx ye!r predjasger ye!. "e! me te tnj !olvjrsj ho` shy$ #Kho 5 errew seaj jojrmy$ d!kc ho` en$ ahyj glvj!kcsB#.
nloc khrjg!ddy wnjo ye! `e hoy spjdd oe ahttjr new slapdj lt kho nhvj lmmjr rhalglkhtleostnho ye! lahmloj. 5o snert$ !sj ye!r keaaeosjosj ho` ye! weo#t plss egg hoy splrlts$ `jltljser kress evjr lote dhkc ahmlk.
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Few `e 5 mjt rl` eg h sthdcjrB 2hmlkhddy 5 ajho.
[thdcjrs hrj nhr`. nht#s h ghkt wnjtnjr ye! `jhd wltn tnja pnyslkhddy er ahmlkhddy. 5#ahss!alom grea ye!r h``jo`!a te ye!r >!jstleo tnht ye!#vj trlj` tnj trh`ltleohd ajtne`s egtrylom te mjt rl` eg sthdcjr0 tnloms dlcj hsclom tnja te djhvj$ tjddlom tnja te !mmjr egg er ye!#ddkhdd tnj keps ho` lg lt#s sjrle!s khddlom tnj keps ger rjhd.
njrj hrj `lggjrjot clo`s eg sthdcjrs hs wjdd. [eaj eg tnja hrj psyknlk vhaplrjs$ lo ghkt 5we!d` shy tnht aest sthdcjrs ghdd lote tnls khtjmery. nj sthdcjr `ejso#t whot wnht#s jst gerye!$ tnjy whot ye! te j wltn tnja ger tnjlr ewo sjdglsn rjhseos ho` tnht ghdds !o`jr jojrmytnjgt. "e!#rj jst jt ger mjttlom rl` eg h psyknlk vhaplrj sthdcjr ls te thcj seaj glra ajhs!rjste hssjrt tnht ye!r jojrmy jdeoms te ye! ho` ye! hdeoj.
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K!t ye!r tlj te tnja. Dltjrhddy. hcj h phlr eg sklssers ho` solp hevj ye!r nho`$ jovlsleolom hkhdj tnht keoojkts ye! te ye!r sthdcjr wnldj ye! `e lt. @e tnj shaj tnlom te tnj ettea egye!r gjjt. @eo#t k!t ye!rsjdg$ tnht we!d` j st!pl`. njo0
nj lm d!j snljd`.[lt wltn ye!r nho`s jltnjr ned`lom ye!r gjjt$ kress djmmj` eo tnj j` er wnjrjvjr$ er p!t ye!rgjjt te jhkn etnjr ho` ye!r nho`s te jhkn etnjr. Fho`s ho` gjjt hrj wnjrj ye! hrj aestdlcjdy te sprlom h djhc se ye!#vj met te pretjkt tnjsj pdhkjs.
Oew ye! aj`lthtj ho` jovlsleo0 "jp$ h lm d!j snljd`. 5 jahohtjs grea ye!r tnreht ho` ye!kho n!a wnldj ye! `e tnls er slom er wnhtjvjr ye!#rj aest keagerthdj wltn. "e!r tnrehtknhcrh ls d!j ho` nhppjos te j h vjry hwjseaj `jgjoslvj keder ho` ajknholsa.
"e! oew nhvj ye!r snljd`. 5#a hss!alom ye!#rj oet ho l`let er h skhttjrrhlo ho` ye! nh` tnjgek!s te ahcj lt wjdd. 5g ye! kho#t ahcj h d!j snljd` tnjo ye!#rj prjtty nepjdjss te ye! jttjrwerc eo tnht.
Ojxt stjp0 @rloc djaeo. 'htnj lo djaeo ho` shdt. njsj werc jvjo jttjr tnho mhrdlk htcjjplom vhaplrjs ht hy.
%lohddy$ wnjo:lg ye! sjj ye!r sthdcjr hmhlo$ wnjo ye! spjhc te tnja kdhsp ye!r nho`stemjtnjr te hvel` tnja trylom te thcj ye!r jojrmy tnre!mn tnja. 5g ye! kho slt kress djmmj`wltne!t jlom `jjaj` h tethd grjhc `e tnht tee. 6jjp ye!r klrk!lts kdesj` hmhlost tnja ho`tnjy#dd >!lkcdy glo` seaj jhsljr prjy ho` aevj eo.
!jstleo05 tnloc h grljo` eg aloj ls !slom ahmlk te mjt wnht snj whots e!t eg dlgj$ wnht sne!d` 5 `e he!tltB
*oswjr0nj glrst tnlom tnht keajs te alo` wnjo 5 njhr ye!r >!jstleo ls$ #1ny `e ye! khrjB#.
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5s snj n!rtlom etnjr pjepdj `e mjt wnht snj whotsB 5g snj ls 6hrah wldd sert njr e!t seeojrrhtnjr tnho dhtjr. [thy hwhy grea njr. "e! kho rjh` ay jhrdljr pests he!t `elom h lo`lomrlt!hd er h holsnlom rlt!hd lg snj ls n!rtlom ye! pjrseohddy er pjepdj ye! khrj `jjpdy he!t. 5gsnj#s n!rtlom rho`ea pjepdj cjjp ye!r oesj e!t eg lt$ ye! hrjo#t tnj nho` eg 6hrah.
*rj ye! ijhde!sB njrj#s oetnlom wreom wltn !slom ahmlk te laprevj ye!r dlgj. *dd tnht !ddsnlt
he!t oet !slom lt ger pjrseohd mhlo tnht tnjy keosthotdy me eo he!t eo tjdjvlsleo snews lsjxhktdy tnht0 !ddsnlt.
2hmlk nhs hdwhys jjo !sj` te pretjkt ho` jonhokj dlgj ho` tnht ls tnj oht!rj eg mee` ahmlk.nj ghkt tnht snj#s s!kkjssg!ddy !slom ahmlk te mjt mee` tnloms e!t eg dlgj ke!d` j keosl`jrj`preeg tnht snj#s jlom rjspeosldj wltn njr ahmlk ho` njr dlgj ho` ls jlom rjwhr`j` ger njrmee` jojrmy ho` lotjots. "e!r >!jstleo whs jxtrjajdy vhm!j$ #wnht sne!d` ye! `e he!t ltB#. 5nhvj oe l`jh wny ye! tnloc ye! sne!d` `e hoytnlom he!t lt. 1ltne!t h njdd eg h det aerjlogerahtleo ay h`vlkj ls te alo` ye!r ewo ahmlks ho` djhvj ye!r #grljo`# hdeoj.
nj etnjr tnlom ls0 nhvj ye! keosl`jrj` hsclom njr he!t ltB @e ye! jvjo coew lg snjprhktlkjs ahmlkB 5g ye! tnloc snj#s !slom ahmlk te stjhd wnht rlmntg!ddy jdeoms te etnjr pjepdjtnjo ye! ojj` te thdc te njr he!t lt sjkeo`. %lrst ye! ojj` te jxhaloj ye!r ewo lotjotleosho` try te glm!rj e!t new a!kn eg wnht ye!r ewo lotjotleos hrj ho` new tnjy hrj laphktlomye!r hldlty te j oeo,lhsj`.
5g ye! whot te mlvj aj aerj logerahtleo he!t tnj slt!htleo 5 we!d` j hdj te plo pelot tnjh`vlkj te ye! jttjr.
%er ye! ho` hoyeoj jdsj sjjclom ahmlkhd h`vlkj ay jahld keothkt ls0
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&otjrvljw wltn 'joo [phud`lom hbeut njr Hb`uktleo( &okhrkjrhtleo ho` )hpj by 'eno P. 'jajd*cj&otjvljwj` by +lrmlolh ,hrrhwhy [thrc +,[.
L nhvj bjjo grljo`s wltn Ijoo [phud`lom ger sjvjrhd yjhrs oew. Pnreumn tnj yjhrs L nhvj sjjo njr nhvj
nlmns ho` dews grea tnj keosjqujokjs eg bjlom h vlktla eg hbusj. Zdtlahtjdy L nhvj sjjo h streom
weaho wne stldd bjdljvjs lo nepj ho` nhppy jo`loms. Njr krjhtlvj thdjots nhvj gdeurlsnj` hs snj glo`stnj strjomtn te aevj eo te ojw knhptjrs lo njr dlgj `jspltj tnj jvjots snj `jskrlbjs njrj.
Hs yeu rjh` tnls hrtlkdj L hs! tnht yeu `eo"t sjj Ijoo hs h vlktla but rhtnjr hs h survlver. [nj ls stldd
glmntlom ger njr dlgj lo seaj phrt eg njr alo` hs snj ls trhppj` lo tnht kjdd but `hy by `hy L sjj njrbjkeaj aerj grjj. L sjj njr hs h `jvetj` aetnjr ho` h devlom grljo` wnesj deyhdty ho` gljrkjojss hrj
phrt eg njr glmntlom splrlt tnht !jpt njr shoj ho` hdlvj `urlom njr lokhrkjrhtleo.
L nepj tnht hs yeu rjh` tnls yeu `eo"t `lsalss njr hs yjt hoetnjr vlktla lo h werd` gudd eg vlktlas. L whot
yeu te sjj njr hs h syabed eg nepj. #njtnjr ajthpnerlkhd er hktuhd khptlvlty wj hdd nhvj lt lo us te oet
eody survlvj but te tnrlvj.Pnho! yeu ger rjh`lom tnls wltn ho epjo alo` ho` ho epjo njhrt.
$jhr lo alo` tnht tnj geddewlom lotjrvljw ls j%trjajdy trlmmjrlom ho` lg sukn sub&jkts hrj h trlmmjr ger
yeu pdjhsj s!lp hnjh` phst tnj lotjrvljw.
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%ny `eot yeu *thrt by tjddlom u* h dlttdj blt hbeut yeur*jd68
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& ha h #0 yjhr ed` `rjhajr( wne bjdljvj* lo tnj pewjr e6 pe*ltlvlty ho` devj te evjrkeaj *trummdj*. &
devj nlclom( khaplom( ho` 6l*nlom. Bh*lkhddy hoytnlom te `e wltn tnj eut`eer*. Ht tlaj* wnjo & wrltj hohrtlkdj er h *tery( & e6tjo 6lo` ay*jd6 whotlom te nehr` ay werc. :lcj lt* *eaj clo` e6 blm *jkrjt tnht &
`eot whot hoyeoj jd*j te *jj. &6 yeu tnloc hbeut ho hutner* pljkj* hrj oe aerj tnho mdlap*j* lote nl*
er njr alo`. hbeut lt
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7ukn e6 tnj wrltlom yeu `e *nhrj nh* h `hrc ho` e6tjo *j=uhd h*pjkt te lt( weud` yeu *hy tnj*j pljkj*
hrj jh*ljr te *nhrj er `e yeu cjjp tnj rjhddy `hrc eoj* nl``jo hwhy8
'2;;9& tnloc tnht lt* oet pjr*hy jh*ljr te *nhrj h* lt l* te mjt eut e6 ay njh`. & ha kurrjotdy werclom eo oet
nl`lom tnj `hrcjr *terlj* hwhy. & ha h *urvlver e6 pny*lkhd( p*yknedemlkhd( ho` *j=uhd hbu*j. Pnj
trhuah bjmho lo ay dl6j wnjo & wh* eody >. H* aukn h* &` dlcj te djhvj tnj*j jdjajot* 6rea aywrltlom tnjy hdwhy* *jja te 6lo` tnjlr why lo.
+,[9( 0( & wh* h *dhvj te jvjry *lomdje6 'eno 'hajd*cj* wnla*. & ojvjr tneumnt & weud` ahcj lt eut e6 tnht `uomjeo wltn oe dlmnt( h bukcjt
te pl** lo( ojw*phpjr te `e tnj etnjr bu*loj** lo( ho` net aldc um* 6lddj` wltn whtjr te bhtn lo. "j
rhpj` aj jvjry`hy. jrnhp* tnj wer*j tnlom l* nj ah`j aj bj nl* 6rljo` ho` & dehtnj` nla. %njo nj
rjdjh*j` aj nj put h nee`j` *wjht*nlrt bhkcwhr`* evjr ay 6hkj ho` put pdh*tlk *trlp nho`ku66* eo aj( &tneumnt & wh* melom te `lj. "ewjvjr nj *lapdy `reppj` aj ht ay aetnjr* neu*j wnlkn & ojvjr ted`
nla wnjrj lt wh*.
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Kultj neoj*tdy & prhyj` ho` rjdlj` njhvldy upeo ay *plrlt 6rljo`* 6er mul`hokj. 2vjr *lokj & wh* h knld`
& keud` keaauolkhtj wltn *plrlt*. & wh*ot hddewj` phpjr ho` pjo *e & keud`ot wrltj wnlkn wh* prebhbdy wer*j tnho bjlom rhpj`. & whtknj` h det e6 P+@
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%nht `e yeu ajho by *plrlt 6rljo`*8
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[lokj & wh* h knld` & nhvj nh` h rjdhtleo*nlp wltn *jvjrhd *plrlt* tnht nhvj mlvjo aj nepj lo tlaj* wnjotnjrj wh* oeoj. & bjdljvj tnht tnjy hrj tnj *plrlt* e6 ay hokj*ter*.
+,[9,eud` yeu j=pdhlo aerj hbeut tnht8 "ew `e yeu *jj/*jo*j tnja8
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$*uhddy tnjy wldd hppjhr wnjo & kde*j ay jyj* ho` khdd te tnja( but *eajtlaj* & nhvj *jjo tnjrj
uojhrtndy 6lmurj* *lttlom er *tho`lom oj=t te aj. Pnjrj hrj weajo( h dlttdj mlrd e6 > er 3( ho` J ajo.
Pwe e6 wnea & ha djjry e6. & bjdljvj tnj etnjr ahdj l* ay mrjht mrjht mrho`6htnjr )hoc
+,[9
%nlkn eoj* hrj yeu djjry e6 ho` wny8
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& ha djjry e6 tnj twe ajo bjkhu*j & `e oet coew wne tnjy hrj( tnjy ojvjr thdc ho` eody jvjr whtkn. &
`e oet coew wnht tnjy whot( but 6er *nlt* ho` mlmmdj* & wjot te h p*yknlk wltn eoj e6 ay 6rljo`* ho`*urj h* *nlt *nj *jjo tnj *plrlt* hreuo` aj( but ted` aj te whtkn eut 6er tnj twe ajo
+,[9l` yeu jvjr *jj tnja bj6erj yeu wjrj *j=uhddy hbu*j`8 jrnhp* tnjy hrj keoojktj` te yeur hbu*jr*8
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+,[9
%h* nj rjdlmleu*8 %ny `l` nj *hy nj mhvj yeu h blbdj8
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& h*cj` nla 6er lt oe & bjmmj` nla ho` oe nj wh*ot rjdlmleu*. Pnj blbdj nj mhvj aj wh* lo*krlbj` 0NF
ho` lokdu`j` h prhyjr beec nj *hl` lt wh* nl* aetnjr*
'eno 'jajd*cj( [jrlhd )hpl*t
+,[9
"ew `l` nj rjhkt wnjo yeu ted` nla Me` weud` mjt nla8
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:lcj nj wh* uoteuknhbdj ho` *nrummj` nl* *neud`jr* dlcj wnhtjvjr aho wnjo yeu u*t h*cj` tnht & nh`h 6dh*nbhkc ho` *jjo nla lo ay alo` `elom lt. L[nlvjr*L
+,[l` yeu tnloc yeu weud` *urvlvj wnjo yeu wjrj trhppj` tnjrj8
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4n oe & tneumnt & wh* h meojr
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+,[9"ew `l` yeu `jhd wltn tnht8
'2;;9& prhyj` bjkhu*j & dltjrhddy nh` oetnlom jd*j. "j nh` oe rjh*eo te cjjp aj hdlvj. & whtknj` h*
veduotjjr* wjrj keablom tnj wee`* 6er ay be`y. ,ho yeu lahmloj *jjlom yeur*jd6 eo h 7l**lom
e*tjr. & u*j` te *krjha &a njrj &a njrj tld ay velkj wh* rhmmj`. & trlj` te pry tnj njhvy ajthd `eer
epjo tld ay 6lomjrtlp* bdj`. & nhvj *khr*.
+,[9
%ny `e yeu tnloc tnht nj `jkl`j` te djt yeu me8 %jrj tnjrj hoy knhomj* tnht prjkj`j` yeur rjdjh*j8
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"j nh` buroj` aj wltn h klmhr eo ay bhkc tnj 6lr*t olmnt bjkhu*j & rj6u*j` te keapdy ho` 6eumnt nlae66 e6 aj( lt nh` bjkeaj lo6jktj`. & `eot coew l6 tnht* wny er nj u*t mrjw tlrj` ho` wh* rjh`y 6er tnj
oj=t pljkj lo nl* keddjktleo
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& ajho tnj yjhr 'hajd*cj wh* khpturj` & wh* F aeotn* prjmohot ho` u*t bjmloolom ay rjdhtleo*nlp
wltn Pè `( wne & 6lr*t ajt wnjo nj wh* 0F ho` & wh* . Pnjo & wh* bdj**j` wltn ay `humntjr lo F(
but & hdwhy* 6jdt uowertny e6 lt hdd.
+,[
%nht nhppjoj` te 'hajd*cj8
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"j jo`j` up melom te hld 6er 03 te dl6j
+,[9
l` yeu jvjr *jj nla hmhlo8
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;e & eptj` eut e6 6hklom nla lo tnj keurt reea ho` wretj h vlktla laphkt *thtjajot( but & `l` *jj nla
eo *jvjrhd Pv *new* tnht & `l`.oet lo pjr*eo( but eo P+
+,[9
%eud` yeu jvjr whot te keo6reot nla8
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"eoj*tdy & `eot tnloc & keud`. ;et bjkhu*j & ha *khrj` but bjkhu*j tnj wnedj tlaj & wh* `ewo tnjrj &weud` h*c nla wny nj `l`ot try te cl`ohp aj wnjo & wh* *ebjr8 &6 & wh* *ebjr nj weud`ot nhvj bjjo
hbdj te mjt aj. & dlvj` eo ay ewo lo h reumn phrt e6 tnj klty 6rea tnj tlaj & wh* 05 uotld & wh* >. [e
ojj`dj** te *hy & ha h brhwdjr( pdu* & ha &rl*n ho` Mjraho *e & nhvj h rjhddy *nert 6u*j. & u*t `eotcoew tnht & weud`ot whot te nurt nla er `e te nla j=hktdy wnht nj `l` te aj.
+,[9
e yeu 6jjd dlcj tnj *khdj* nhvj bjjo bhdhokj` 6er yeu by nl* hld *jotjokj8
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Hb*edutjdy oet bjkhu*j wnldj nj mjt* tnrjj net* ho` h ket. & ha eut njrj *trummdlom wltn bldd* ho` plkclom up tnj pljkj* 6rea beut* wltn P[.
Bj*l`j* nj wldd bj eut lo yjhr* wnht tnjo8
+,[
e yeu nhvj h keplom *trhtjmy lo pdhkj 6er wnjo nj l* rjdjh*j`8
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Grhocdy( & nhvj bdekcj` lt 6rea ay alo` uotld u*t oew.
+,[9[e tnjrj l* *tldd *eaj keplom te `e eo tnht hkkeuot tnjo. e yeu tnloc yeudd bj hdrlmnt8
'2;;9& nhvj h rjhddy mee` *uppert/wrltlom mreup wne & ahy nhvj te rjdy njhvldy eo er *e & nepj te. du* tnjrj
hrj hdwhy* beec* te rjh`@
+jry truj@ e yeu nhvj hoy kde*lom tneumnt* yeu` dlcj te *nhrj8
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djh*j ojvjr mjt lote h khr wltn *eajeoj yeu `eot coew. &6 yeu hrj melom te mjt tlp*y hdwhy* u*j tnj bu``y *y*tja. P[ l* h vjry nhr` `l*jh*j te uo`jr*tho` ho` te `jhd wltn. 7hoy *ukkuab te lt ho` jo`
tnjlr dl6j rhtnjr tnho `jhd wltn lt. &6 yeu coew *eajeoj tnht nh* P[ `eot turo yeur bhkc eo tnja
wnjo tnjy pu*n yeu hwhy( h* wj hrj u*t trylom te cjjp yeu 6rea mjttlom nurt. %j `eot rjhddy whot te
bj hdeoj.
+,[
Pnhoc yeu 6er *nhrlom yeur tneumnt* ho` j=pjrljokj* betn *plrltuhd ho` auo`hoj eo tnl* er`jhd.
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Hbusjrs, Aholpudhters ho` [eklephtns9 Pnj Ahclom eg Dllom ho` !jh` "nests.#$ %lrmlolh &hrrh'h$ [thrc
& wh* melom te wrltj ho hrtlkdj hbeut 6hcjr*( hbeut pjepdj wne *jj etnjr pjepdj mjt hbu*j` ho` tnjokdhla tnj j=hkt *haj tnlom nhppjoj` te tnja er try te knhomj lt u*t joeumn te pjr*eohdlzj lt te tnjlr
ewo dlvj* but tnj aerj rj*jhrkn & `l` hbeut tnj*j pjepdj wne & tneumnt e6 h* 6hcjr* tnj aerj & rjhdlzj`
tnht tnj*j wjrj hktuhddy hbu*jr* lo `l*mul*j.
7e*t weajo er ajo wne kdhla te nhvj bjjo hbu*j` er nh` vledjokj keaalttj` hmhlo*t tnja lo eoj
6era er hoetnjr hrj tjddlom tnj trutn. Pnj 6hkt e6 tnj ahttjr l* tnht h`alttlom te bjlom tnj vlktla e6 hbu*jl* `jajholom ho` `l66lkudt. Pnl* l* eoj e6 tnj 6lr*t whrolom *lmo* tnht wnht yeu hrj *jjlom l* ho hbu*jr
ho` oet h vlktla9 +lktla* 6lo` lt nhr` te thdc hbeut wnht nhppjoj` wnldj Hbu*jr* *jja te mdery lo jvjry
mery `jthld.
"ew `ej* tnl* tlj lote tnj *upjrohturhd ho` tnj phrhoerahd8 Pnjrj hrj h det e6 why* but tnj prlaj why
l* tnht Hbu*j khu*j* jojrmy *lmohturj*. &t djhvj* ho laprlot ho` jvjo l6 tnj +lktla *urvlvj* tnj hbu*j
tnjrj l* h phrt e6 tnjlr terturj` *plrlt tnht l* dj6t bjnlo`. Hoy vledjokj djhvj* ho laprlot ho` Hbu*jr*(7holpudhter* ho` [eklephtn* djhvj h whcj e6 jojrmy 6rea tnjlr tero up +lktla* bjnlo` tnja.
&t l* hdd wjdd ho` mee` te me mne*t nuotlom but djt* oet 6ermjt tnht *eajtnlom nhppjoj` te ahcj tnj*j
mne*t*. Pnj rjhd werd` vledjokj l* wnht khu*j* tnjrj te bj mne*t* lo tnj 6lr*t pdhkj ho` wltn vledjokj
ho` hbu*j bjlom rhaphot lt l*ot hoy weo`jr tnht tnjrj hrj *e ahoy nhuotj` nlmnwhy*( neu*j* ho`netjd*.
& nh` h *thdcjr 6er ahoy yjhr* wne 6eddewj` aj 6rea klty te klty( wne lo*jrtj` njr*jd6 lote ay dl6j(*tedj ay wrltlom( pny*lkhddy( vjrbhddy ho` jaetleohddy htthkcj` aj ho` wne weud` oet mjt eut e6 ay
dl6j. j*pltj tnj 6hkt tnht & khddj` tnj pedlkj( teec njr lo 6er p*yknlhtrlk njdp ho` `l` jvjrytnlom & pe**lbdy keud` 6er njr tnj 6hkt e6 tnj ahttjr khaj `ewo te & nh` te *tep hdd keothkt wltn njr ho` mjt njreut e6 ay dl6j lo er`jr te *tep tnj hbu*j.
%nht `l` *nj `e tnj *jkeo` & dekcj` ay `eer te njr eokj ho` 6er hdd8 [nj rho hreuo` *hylom tnht & nh`
hbu*j` njr. [nj ted` *terlj* lo mrhpnlk vledjot `jthld ho` rhddlj` njr 6haldy ho` 6rljo`* wne *nj nh`hd*e hkku*j` e6 hbu*lom njr h* *nj vldl6lj` aj ho` ay nu*bho`. "jr `jthld* wjrj `l*turblom ho` ahoy
e6 tnja wjrj thcjo jltnjr 6rea *terlj* & nh` wrlttjo lo ho j66ert te `jhd wltn ay ewo hbu*j( er 6rea
6lktleohdlzj` hkkeuot* e6 hbu*j.
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[e wj nhvj h kh*j e6 & *hl`( *nj *hl`( new `e wj tjdd wne l* tjddlom tnj trutn ho` wne l* dylom8
%jdd( tnj 6lr*t tnlom l* tnht & nh` bjjo h*clom 6er njdp 6er yjhr*. & nh` bjjo khddlom tnj pedlkj( thclom njrlo 6er p*yknlhtrlk njdp( buylom njr p*yknlhtrlk aj`lkhtleo 6er njr( h*clom njr 6rljo`* ho` 6haldy te
pdjh*j( pdjh*j njdp aj. [nj( eo tnj etnjr nho`( prhl*j` aj te tnj *cy uotld tnj aeajot & *nut ay `eer
lo njr 6hkj. H* *eeo h* & kde*j` e66 te njr *nj lovjrtj` tnj *tery ho` *hl` tnht & nh` bjjo jvld hdd hdeom. &t`l`ot ho*wjr tnj 1uj*tleo9 %ny `l`ot yeu djhvj8
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Phcj I h* ho j=hapdj. [nj wh* wjdd coewo te
*hy tnht jvjryeoj whotj` njr *j=uhddy ho` l6 hoyeoj eppe*j` njr lo hoywhy *nj weud` *hy tnjy rhpj`njr ho` ruo te hdd njr hddlj* 6er njdp. Hdd tnj wnldj *nj brhmmj` hbeut thclom h`vhothmj e6 mlrd* ht phrtlj*
wne wjrj ph**j` eut ho` `elom tnlom* te tnja wnjo tnjy wjrj vudojrhbdj. Pnl* *jt up `l`ot knhomj 6er
I uotld tnj `hy *nj `lj`.
%njo I tneumnt *nj nh` h knhokj ht rjkeokldlhtleo wltn aj ho` 6euo` eut wnht tewo & wh* lo( h6tjr
tjddlom pjepdj nerrl6lk *terlj* hbeut aj ho` ay nu*bho` *nj khaj bhkc te eur `eer ho` ted` u* tnht lt
wh* eur 6rljo`* : ho` wne nh` 6erkj` njr te *hy tnj*j tnlom* ho` tnht *nj ojvjr weud` nhvj *hl`tnja l6 tnjy nh`ot rhpj` njr ho` 6erkj` njr.
Pnjrj l* hoetnjr typj e6 hbu*jr h* wjdd ho` tnl* typj l* h blt aerj keo6u*lom ho` nhr` te plo `ewo bjkhu*j tnj hbu*j l* jaetleohd rhtnjr tnho pny*lkhd. 2aetleohd Hbu*jr* kho bj trhkcj` lo h *laldhr why
te tnj pny*lkhd Hbu*jr*. Pnjy nhvj phttjro*.
Pnjy wldd *u``jody pelot h 6lomjr ho` *hy tnht *eajeoj nh* bjjo pny*lkhddy hbu*lom tnja 6er `jkh`j*
wnjo tnjrj l*ot hoy *lmo tnht tnjrj nh* bjjo hoytnlom nhppjolom. Pnjy wldd lalthtj tnj *terlj* e6 etnjr**e tnht tnjy kho mjt aerj hddlj* ho` wldd tjdd tnj *terlj* e6 hbu*j lo mery `jthld( rjvjdlom o *prjh`lom ldd-
rjputj hbeut *eajeoj wne tnjy pjrkjlvj h* nhvlom kre**j` tnja. 7hybj tnj Hbu*jr u*t whot* te trh`jup( ahybj tnjy whot te hvel` hdlaeoy er knld` *uppert.
Phcj tnj j=hapdj e6 ' ujdd. ujdd dlvj` 6er twjoty yjhr* wltn tnj *haj aho ho` nh` ahoy knld`rjowltn nla. 4oj `hy *nj whdcj` hwhy 6rea nla ho` tnj knld`rjo ho` wltnlo tnj wjjc nh` h ojw
bey6rljo`( h ojw khr( h ojw hphrtajot ho` tnjo *nj turoj` hreuo` ho` *hl` *nj nh` bjjo bjlom hbu*j`
6er tnj ph*t twjoty yjhr* ho` tnht njr p*yknetlk j= nh` ojhrdy clddj` njr wltn nl* pny*lkhd hbu*j.
Pnl* *tery betnjr* aj eo *jvjrhd djvjd*. Pnj 6lr*t tnlom l* tnht *nj *jjaj` te nhvj oe prebdja wltn
djhvlom njr knld`rjo wltn njr j= ho` `ej*ot *jja te tnloc tnjy 6lt lote njr ojw dl6j*tydj. Hbu*jr* hrjmee` ht `repplom hoytnlom tnht bjkeaj* ho lokeovjoljokj te tnja wnjo lt *ult* tnja. ujdd nh``jkl`j` tnht *nj whotj` te bj h wrltjr ho` *nj rjh` ay bdem hbeut ay hbu*j ho` wh* `jjpdy laphktj`
by lt. Pnj tnlom tnht *jjaj` te laphkt njr tnj ae*t wh*ot ay hktuhd bdem but rhtnjr new ay bdem
h66jktj` etnjr pjepdj.
H det e6 pjepdj wldd rjh` ay bdem ho` ho` tnjy wldd *hy tnlom* dlcj( &a *e mdh` te coew &a oet hdeoj(
Pnhoc yeu 6er *nhrlom yeur *tery( &a *e nhppy yeu met hwhy( ho` tnlom* dlcj tnht. ujdd `l`ot *hyhoytnlom dlcj tnht wnjo *nj rjh` ay bdem. [nj `l`ot *hy tnht *nj rjdhtj` te lt lo hoywhy( *nj u*t *hl`
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tnht lt wh* rjhddy( mee` ho` tnht lt *urj *jjaj` te laphkt h det e6 pjepdj.
[nj `l`ot *hy hoytnlom jd*j uotld hdae*t h aeotn dhtjr wnjo *nj hooeuokj` tnht njr nu*bho` wh*
p*yknetlk ho` nh` bjhtjo njr 6er tnj ph*t twjoty yjhr*. Pnj vjry oj=t tnlom *nj *hl` wh*( [thy tuoj`6er ay beec eo new & *urvlvj` ay yjhr* e6 hbu*j.
Glr*t e6 hdd( lt wh* *urprl*lom tnht tnj 6lr*t tnlom *nj whotj` te `e wh* h tjdd-hdd beec hbeut njr Hbu*j. &tl* tee `j6loltj( lt l*ot jh*y te 6lmurj eut wnht nhppjoj` wnjo yeuvj bjjo h vlktla ho` tnl* l* audtlpdlj`
wnjo lt nh* bjjo melom eo 6er `jkh`j*. "jr hddjmj` hbu*jr nh* tnj keo6u*j`( nurt ho` *h` rjhktleo e6 h
vlktla. "j h*c* hmhlo ho` hmhlo( wny `l` *nj djhvj( wny weud` *nj *hy tnj*j tnlom*8
Pnj dhomuhmj e6 tnj +lktla l* tnj dhomuhmj e6 wny. ujdd *jja* te nhvj hdd tnj ho*wjr* wnjrjh* njr
nu*bho` l* dj6t lo h bjwld`jrj` 6umuj.
& u*j ujdd h* ho j=hapdj bjkhu*j tnjrj l* h djmltlahtj ay*tjry tnjrj. $odlcj tnj etnjr kh*j* &vj *ltj`
njrj & `l`ot dlvj tnreumn tnj er`jhd. & wh*ot lovedvj` lo tnj ahrrlhmj er coew jltnjr phrtlklphot vjry
wjdd. Hdd & kho *hy 6er *urj l* wnht & *jj ho` wnht dhomuhmj jhkn phrty u*j*.
Pnht l* tnj eody why te rjhddy tjdd +lktla* 6rea Hbu*jr*( dl*tjo ho` 6jjd. &6 yeu 6lo` yeur*jd6 vledjotdy
rjhktlom te h *tery h*c yeur*jd6 l6 lt* tee *jo*htleohd( l6 tnj `jthld* hrj tee vlbrhot ho` l6 tnj dhomuhmj l*`j*lmoj` te *nekc yeu. &6 h +lktla l* tjddlom tnjlr *tery tnj `jthld* ahy bj *nekclom but lt l* tnj *nekc e6
*errew ho` njhrtbrjhc rhtnjr tnho tnj *jo*htleohdl*a e6 h nerrer aevlj.
Hbu*jr* nhvj u*uhddy *pjot yjhr* keovloklom tnjlr vlktla* tnht tnjy hrj dj** tnho tnja. Pnjy nhvj
pdhyj` mhaj* wltn tnjlr +lktla* alo`*( ah`j tnja `eubt tnjlr ewo *holty. +lktla* hrj aukn dlcj
mne*t*( tnjy hrj keo*thotdy rjdlvlom tnjlr hbu*j ho` trylom te j=erkl*j tnj vledjokj 6rea tnjlr dlvj*.
7ukn dlcj mne*t*( tnj phlo l* rjdljvj` by bjlom hbdj te thdc hbeut tnj vledjokj ho` mjt lt eut e6tnja*jdvj*. Ger +lktla* ho` Mne*t*( tnj *nhaj e6 nhvlom bjjo thcjo by h 6erkj *treomjr tnho tnja l* h
*dew prekj** te evjrkeaj.
[eaj +lktla*( aukn dlcj Mne*t* bjkeaj wrhtn6ud ho` vlo`lktlvj ho` hbu*lvj tnja*jdvj*. Bj khrj6ud
wnjo yeu wh`j lote tnj*j whtjr*( oet jvjrytnlom l* hdwhy* h* lt *jja*. :l*tjo 6er tnj 1uljt neoj*ty tnhtkeaj* dlcj h 6h`j` velkj ho` mjotdy *pjhc* tnj trutn.
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!lloj Djh`jrs (l`j )olkeros#$ %lrmlolh &hrrh'h$ [thrc
5o Oertn 6erjh lt ls jdljvj` tnht tnj glrst `lkthter 6la,5d [!om wne teec pewjr lo JG9M hdse
krjhtj` tnj werd`. nj `lkthters nhvj p!t temjtnjr h ne`mj pe`mj eg Knrlstlholty$ '!``nlsa ho`
etnjr rjdlmleos te p!t tnj ke!otry lote h keog!slom !t lreo glst eg r!dj tnre!mn gjhr. [e glrady ls lt
jdljvj` tnht tnj @lkthter ls hclo te me` tnht te `jgy$ rjjd er jvjo snew `lsrjspjkt ls hclo te
njrjsy. 5o Oertn 6erjh lg tnj `lvloj djh`jr shys nj;s rl`lom h !olkero$ ye! jttjr jdljvj tnht nj;s
rl`lom h !olkero$ ye!r dlgj ho` se!d ahy `jpjo` eo ye!r hldlty te `e se.
nls sjjas loshoj !t hkt!hddy$ tnls lso;t hoytnlom ojw. 5o (omdho` tnj 6lom whs jdljvj` te j
knesjo y He` ho` se te `jgy tnj clom whs te `jgy He`. nls ls hdse tnj jdljg njd` he!t tnj
Vepj lo tnj Khtnedlk Kn!rkn.
nj predja wltn @lvloj !dj ls tnht lt ls seajtnlom tnht nhs oe preeg ho` tnjrj ls rjhddy eody tnj wer` eg tnj r!djr ho`
pjrnhps nls s!ppertjrs te kdhla tnht tnls ls tnj wldd eg h `lvloj gerkj. Kdhlalom te nhvj krjhtj` tnj werd` g!rtnjr keapdlkhtjs
tnj dlvjs eg pjepdj lo Oertn 6erjh ho` slokj Oertn 6erjh ls h sahdd ke!otry wltn vjry gjw wlo`ews te tnj e!tsl`j werd`$
`jgylom tnj `lkthter ls jssjotlhddy seajtnlom tnht kho jo` tnj werd`. nls ls h mee` rjhseo te h`njrj te rhtleohd tne!mnt ho` tehppdy skljotlglk rjhseo te hoy ho` hdd nypetnjsls.
nj K!dt eg Vjrseohdlty ls h pdey johktj` y oet i!st `lkthters !t hdse y k!dts ho` y ojhrdy hoy pjrseo er mre!p wne ls
deeclom te nhvj h strhomdj ned` eo pjepdj. nls lso;t i!st ho hggjktleo er h`alrhtleo ger seajeoj$ lt ls ahrcj` y tnj lotjoslty
eg gjjdlom ho` tnj djvjds eg `jvetleo etn `jaho`j` y tnj djh`jr ho` eggjrj` y tnj geddewjrs.
1njo jxhalolom tnj phrhoerahd lo keotjxt wltn Oertn 6erjh lt ls `lgglk!dt te glo` a!kn tnre!mn oerahd knhoojds jkh!sj
aest eg tnj k!dt!rj whs vledjotdy jxp!omj`. *dd deyhdty a!st j te tnj 6la ghaldy ho` hoytnlom jdsj ls p!olsnhdj y `jhtn er
werc khaps wnjrj gjw jskhpj grea. nj p!olsnajot ls oet i!st eg tnj eggjo`jr !t hdse eg hdd tnjlr ghaldy ho` jvjo
mjojrhtleos oet yjt ero wldd dlvj$ werc ho` `lj lo tnjsj khaps ger vhm!j eggjokjs.
njsj jdljgs gdy lo tnj ghkj eg skljokj ho` rjhseo hmhlo ho` hmhlo ho` nhvj ah`j Oertn 6erjh
tnj dh!mnlom stekc eg tnj jotlrj werd`. 5o =7JN ?rjsjhrknjrs; kdhlaj` te nhvj ge!o` tnj !olkero
dhlr.
nls preeg whs seaj hddjmj` khrvlom eo h rekc ojhr h khvj tnht shl`$ ?!olkero dhlr.; *kker`lom te
tnj s!prjaj `lkthter eg 6erjh tnls prevjs 6erjh;s `lvloj rlmnt te r!dj jkh!sj eg ho hokljot stery
tnht tnj r!djr eg h pewjrg!d klty hclo te tnj wjstjro l`jh eg Khajdet re`j h !olkero lote tnj klty.
nht;s h deom whys te me te try te prevj ye!r `lvloj djh`jrsnlpL
*t tnj vjry djhst wj kho djhro grea Oertn 6erjh;s hpprehkn te k!dt!rj ho` tnj phrhoerahd tnht
skljokj ho` rhtleohdlty ls lotjmrhd. 5t ls h ojhrdy p!rjdy ojmhtlvj jxhapdj slokj hdd wj coew he!t tnj phrhoerahd ls Oertn
6erjh ls jxtrjajdy `!le!s ho` !orjdlhdj. %ert!ohtjdy wj nhvj seaj !othlotj` logerahtleo he!t tnj jotlrj 6erjho
pjolos!dh tnhocs te [e!tn 6erjh er tnj jotlrj k!dt!rj we!d` oew j dest te !s.
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"jttlom (l` eg *ld lo +eur Dlgj#$ %lrmlolh &hrrh'h$ [thrc
Vjepdj egtjo weo`jr lg tnjy hrj ?i!st k!rsj`; lo dlgj. njrj hrj h det eg pjepdj wne jdljvj lo k!rsjs ho` hdtne!mn wnjtnjr er
oet tnjy hrj ?rjhd; ls lo >!jstleo$ tnj pdhkje jggjkt eg nhvlom tnj prehktlvj hldlty te `e seajtnlom te rjaevj h k!rsj.
5t ls `lgglk!dt te j kjrthlo lg ye! hrj dherlom !o`jr h k!rsj !t hsclom ye!rsjdg seaj hslk >!jstleos kho njdp te sert lt e!t.
J.5s tnjrj hoy etnjr jxpdhohtleo ger wnht ye! hrj jxpjrljoklom.
nls ls laperthot jkh!sj lg ye! dhaj jvjry h` `hy tnht ye! nhvj eo h k!rsj tnjo ye! rjaevj ye!r ewo
hkke!othldlty lo dlgj ho` ye! rjaevj ye!r ewo h!tnerlty lo ye!r dlgj. 5t;s jst lg ye! kho glx ye!r predjas ye!rsjdg
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wltne!t glo`lom h ?ahmlkhd; rjhseo ger tnloms tnht nhvj meoj wreom.5g ye! `jkl`j tnht tnloms hrj tee prjtjroht!rhd te j
oerahd$ tnjo lt ls tlaj te aevj eo te tnj ojxt >!jstleo.
=.Fhvj ye! ah`j seajeoj vjry homry er vjry ijhde!sB
nls >!jstleo kho j `lgglk!dt te hoswjr wnjo tnjrj kho j pjepdj whtknlom !s tnht wj `eo;t coew he!t. 5g seajeoj ls
sthdclom ye! lo dlgj er lo seklhd aj`lh er etn lt kho thcj tlaj te rjhdl8j seajeoj nhs ho !onjhdtny lotjrjst lo ye!. [e$
jxhaloj tnls >!jstleo hs khrjg!ddy ho` eijktlvjdy hs pessldj.
N.@ejs tnj pjrseo ye! nhvj !psjt nhvj tnj coewdj`mj ho` hldlty te pdhkj h njx hmhlost ye!B
5g ye! stldd jdljvj ye! hrj s!ggjrlom grea h k!rsj hgtjr hsclom ye!rsjdg tnjsj >!jstleos ho` `elom h lt eg rjsjhrkn lote
ye!r seklhd ojtwerc$ tnjo nhvj h deec hre!o` ye!r rjsl`jokj$ ye!r trhosperthtleo$ ye!r werc ho` hoy etnjr pdhkjs ye!
we!d` keosl`jr h pdhkj eg keagert ger ye!rsjdg. [jj lg ye! glo` hoy s!splkle!s deeclom tnloms e!o` !p lo dhkc er rj`
strlom$ hmmljs g!dd eg aystjry s!sthokj er hoytnlom jdsj tnht deecs hs tne!mn lt whs pdhkj` slmolglkhotdy lote ye! werd`.
Knjkc pdhkjs tnht ye! we!d`o;t oerahddy deec lo ho` pdhkjs tnht `eo;t mjt kdjhoj` vjry egtjo jspjklhddy kdesjdy.
5g ye! glo` seajtnlom$ lt ls mjojrhddy jdljvj` tnht tnj jst why te `lspesj eg lt ls tnre!mn !rolom lt$ p!ttlom lt lo r!oolom whtjr
er !rylom lt ghr hwhy grea wnjrj ye! dlvj.
5g ye! `eo;t glo` hoytnlom er lg ye! glo` seajtnlom ho` stldd gjjd hkk!rsj`$ tnjo lt ls tlaj te thcj
ke!otjr ajhs!rjs.
@elom spjdds te rjaevj ahmlk ho` pretjkt ye!rsjdg ls keosl`jrj` te j tnj wnltjst eg ahmlk ho`
aest ghltns hddew ger prhyjrs er hooelotlom er etnjr rlt!hds eg pretjktleo. /ody `e wnht ye! gjjd
keagerthdj wltn ho` lg ye! hrj werrlj` ger wnhtjvjr rjhseo tnht rjaevlom h k!rsj lso;t jtnlkhd
tnjo `eo;t me hmhlost ye!rsjdg.
5 ha melom te rljgdy `lsk!ss tnj vhrle!s ajhos !sj` te rjaevj h k!rsj$ lg ye! hrj lotjrjstj` lo
aerj logerahtleo tnjrj hrj etnjr hrtlkdjs tnht kevjr spjklglks ger new te `e tnjsj.
* p!rlgylom htn ls h keaaeo ho` tlaj tjstj` ajtne` ger rjaevlom ldd wldd. njy vhry hkker`lom te
jdljgs ho` ye! sne!d` hdse j hwhrj tnht seaj pjepdj ahy nhvj hddjrmljs$ se ahcj s!rj ye!
`eo;t jgerj ye! laajrsj ye!r jotlrj e`y lo h htn glddj` wltn njrs ye!;vj ojvjr jjo jxpesj`
te jgerj. *o ed` vee`ee !okresslom htn khdds ger nyssep$ shdt$ r!j$ shmj ho` grhoclokjosj te jp!t lo tnj htn wnldj shylom tnj N
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5t;s jst lg ye! kho hvel` mjttlom h k!rsj p!t eo ye! ht hdd ho` mee` splrlt!hd prhktlkj wnjo `jhdlom wltn pjepdj kho njdp ye!
hvel` lt. 5g ye! coew wne ls kh!slom tnj predja ye! ojj` te sjvjrj hdd tljs te tnja. /oj eg tnj jst whys te `e tnls ho` te
ahcj s!rj tnht ye! `eo;t nhvj hoy eg tnjlr pnyslkhd jdeomloms lo ye!r ne!sj. njsj jdeomloms gera h eo` wltn pjepdj ho`
tnht ahcjs lt jhsljr ger seajeoj wne ls ahdlkle!s te p!t h k!rsj eo ye!.
jt!ro tnj ltjas er `lspesj eg tnja !t mjt tnja e!t eg pjrseohd sphkj. *dse$ ahcj s!rj tnht ye! mjt hkc hdd ye!r pjrseohd
jdeomloms grea tnja. @eo;t djhvj ye!r nhlrr!sn$ sekcs er jvjo h `v` wltn seajeoj wne almnt whot te p!t h k!rsj eo ye!.
5g ye! jdljvj lo tnj @lvloj$ wnejvjr ye! jdljvj lo er wnhtjvjr ye!r ghltn$ prhy. "e!r prhyjr ho` ye!r ghltn hrj tnj jst why
te rjpjd tnjsj ldd lotjotleos. [hy h reshry er prhy te h$ wnhtjvjr ye!r jdljg sjt ls$ !tldl8j ye!r ghltn.
nj dhst tnlom 5 wldd s!mmjst ls tnj aest laperthot ho` sne!d` j `eoj rjm!dhrdy ho` tnere!mndy0 Kdjho ye!r ne!sj. Kdjho
jvjrytnlom. [wjjp$ vhk!!a$ aep$ `!st ho` tnjo i!ap lo tnj snewjr ho` whsn ye!rsjdg egg te. Hjt `rjssj` lo kdjho kdetnjs
hgtjr ho` joiey ye!r tl`y ne!sj ho` ye!r tl`y splrlt!hd dlgj.
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Pnj Hokljot hh-e Djmjo` eg [clo/hdcjrs#$ 6joo [phud`lom
C%nldj lt l* pe**lbdj tnht tnjrj hrj *terlj* tnht hrj *lapdy ojvjr ted` te eut*l`jr* tnht mlvj khu*j tetnj bdhocjt *ldjokj e6 tne*j wne ahcj tnjlr neaj eo rj*jrvhtleo*( lt l* hd*e pe**lbdj tnht tnjy u*t `eoDt
dlcj te thdc hbeut tnjlr ojlmnber* wnjo tnjy kho ojvjr coew wnlkn eoj dlcj* te ruo hreuo` ht olmnt lo h prj`hterD* *clo. 2ltnjr why( tnj bjnhvler e6 betn tnj *clo-whdcjr* tnja*jdvj* h* wjdd h* tnj pjepdj wnedlvj ojhr tnja lo`lkhtj tnht *clo-whdcjr* hrj oet h *tery te *khrj knld`rjo er jvjo h whrolom te *thy
lo*l`j ht olmnt. Pnjy hrj rjhd( ho` tnjy hrj nuaho( wltn hdd tnj bjojvedjokj ho` ahdjvedjokj tnht
keaj* wltn lt.A- %lddlha H. %lddlha*eo
&t l* nhr` te bjdljvj tnht tnj*j krjjpy lahmj* tnht nhvj bjjo 6dehtlom hreuo` tnj lotjrojt hrj rjhd. 4r tnht
tnj krjhturj khpturj` lo tnj lahmj keud` bj rjhd. "ewjvjr tnj*j *khry djmjo`* hrj oet u*t thdd thdj* ho`
tnj krjhturj khpturj` lo tnj lahmj l* rjhd( h* rjhd h* yeu ho` aj. Pnj phrhoerahd nhvj bjjo ruttj` eute6 tnjlr `hrc nl`lom pdhkj* by tnj 6erkj* e6 tjknoedemy. %nht wldd tnj*j phrhoerahd bjlom* `e eokj tnjy
rjhdlzj tnht8
Pnj trlbj* e6 tnj ;hvhe &o`lho hdd bjdljvj lo tnj djmjo` e6 tnj *clo-whdcjr. Hdbjlt ahoy rj6u*j te
thdc hbeut hoytnlom pjrthlolom te h *clo-whdcjr 6er 6jhr e6 bjlom puol*nj` by tnj *clo-whdcjr. &t l* *hl`
tnht *clo-whdcjr* whdc haeom*t tnj trlbj `urlom tnj `hy ho` tnjo kevjrtdy ajthaerpne*j lote h *clo-
whdcjr ht olmnt.
Hkker`lom te ;hvhe djmjo` tnj *clo-whdcjr l* h aj`lkloj aho er h wltkn tnht nh* jvedvj` ho`
rhtnjr tnho u*lom nl* er njr pewjr 6er mee` knee*j te bj ahdlkleu* ho` jvld. Pe keapdjtj tnj jvedutleote *clo whdcjr nj er *nj au*t aur`jr h kde*j 6haldy ajabjr. "jokj mlvlom tnj *clo-whdcjr trjajo`eu*
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*upjrohturhd pewjr* wnlkn mlvj* nla er njr tnj khphbldlty te authtj lote hoy holahd tnjy wl*n er jvjo
lote hoetnjr nuaho. Hdtneumn ae*t ;hvhe thdj* hrj ted` e6 *clo whdcjr* prj6jrrlom keyetj*( ewd*(
6e=j*( wedvj*( er krew*. Pnl* 6hkt mlvj* aj phu*j bjkhu*j l6 eoj keud` knhomj lote hoy holahd nj er
*nj wl*nj*( wny tnj prj6jrjokj 6er tnj h6erjajotleoj` holahd*8
Pnjrj hrj 6jw wne nhvj *pecjo e6 tnjlr jokeuotjr* wltn h *clo-whdcjr ho` by oe ajho* hrj tnjy
pdjh*hot. H krjjpy phrhoerahd bjlom pjjr* lo ho` tnjo coekc* eo hdd yeur wlo`ew*. Pnjo h deu`
nhaajrlom bjmlo* eo tnj whdd* eut*l`j e6 yeur neaj. ,eud` bj h *clo-whdcjr. Pnjrj hrj thdj* e6 tnj*j phrhoerahd bjlom* *thdclom tnjlr vlktla* ho` tnj ouajreu* why* lo wnlkn tnjy `edj eut phlo ho` lo*tldd
6jhr. &t nh* jvjo bjjo *hl` tnht tnj *clo-whdcjr wldd *tjhd tnj 6hkj e6 nl* er njr nuaho vlktla* ho` tnht l6
yeu dekc jyj* wltn lt yeu bjkeaj 6rezjo wltn 6jhr. Pnjo pjtrl6lj` tnj *clo-whdcjr hb*erb* lt*jd6 loteyeur *clo.
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[clo-whdcjr* hrj rhrjdy jvjr jo*ohrj` ho` breumnt te u*tlkj 6er tnjlr bdee`y htrekltlj*( but h 6jw nhvj
bjjo. H *clo-whdcjr trhkcjr au*t djhro jvjrytnlom nj er *nj kho hbeut tnj *clo-whdcjr. Pnjo nj er *nj
au*t `jtjraloj tnj *clo-whdcjrD* truj l`jotlty. Pnjo nj er *nj au*t deec tnj *clo whdcjr lo tnj jyj l6yeu hrjoDt phrhdyzj` wltn 6jhr ho` preoeuokj nl* er njr ohaj ho` tnj ohaj e6 jvld lo lt* 6udd. [nertdy
tnjrjh6tjr tnj *clo-whdcjr wldd mjt *lkc er `lj. Pnl* l* tnj uolvjr*j brlomlom u*tlkj upeo nl* er njh` 6er
tnjlr krlaj* hmhlo*t nuaholty.&6 yeu nhvj *jjo h *clo-whdcjr er nhvj nh` ho jokeuotjr wltn eoj pdjh*j keothkt tnj pubdl*njr* ht
4utjrae*t( wj wldd bj nhppy te njhr yeur *terlj*. %j nhvj oe prebdja wltn hoeoyalty ho``l*krjtjoj** coewlom tnht tnj*j bjlom* rjthdlhtj wnjo yeu thdc hbeut tnja. & nhvj prevl`j` dloc* bjdew6er tne*j lotjrj*tj` lo rjh`lom *eaj e6 tnj thdj* e6 jokeuotjr* wltn *clo-whdcjr*.
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#$ 6joo [phud`lom
%nht l* tnj 7jholom e6 Blrtnahrc*8
& nhvj twe 6hwo kederj` njhrt-*nhpj` blrtnahrc*( eoj eo ay rlmnt blkjp ho` tnj etnjr eo tnj
bhkc*l`j e6 ay nlp. Pnjy hrj oet umdy ho` &Dvj ojvjr mlvjo tnja aukn tneumnt( but tnjy hrj h phrt e6aj. Pnu* & bjkhaj kurleu*. %nht `ej* lt ajho8 ej* lt ajho &Da *pjklhd8 ej* lt *yabedlzj tnht & ha
h ml6tj` *jo*ltlvj japhtn8 Hdd tnj*j 1uj*tleo* ho` ahoy aerj zeea tnreumn ay alo` h* & peo`jr tnj
teplk e6 blrtnahrc*. Pnl* aeotn wj wldd j=pderj wnht tnj truj ajholom* e6 blrtnahrc* hrj.Hdeom wltn ay mrewlom lotjrj*t lo tnj ajholom e6 blrtnahrc* lt *jja* &Da eloj` lo ay lotjrj*t
by tnj rj*t e6 tnj werd`. 7hoy pjepdj *pjkudhtj tnht blrtnahrc* hrj h *lmo e6 h p*yknlk. 7hoy etnjr*
bjdljvj tnht blrtnahrc* *lmol6y pree6 e6 h ph*t dl6j. Pnj ae*t pepudhr tnjery l* tnht blrtnahrc* lo`lkhtjtnlom* tnht nhppjoj` lo h prjvleu* dl6j. Ger j=hapdj( h pjr*eo l* *thbbj` lo h ph*t dl6j lo tnj *teahkn
tnht pjr*eo tnjo keaj* bhkc wltn h blrtnahrc lo tnj *nhpj e6 tnj weuo` eo tnj *teahkn. &t ahy bj
wloj kederj` ho` dekhtj` lo tnj j=hkt *pet h* tnj *thb weuo`. %jlr`( rlmnt8
Hrj hdd blrtnahrc* *lmo* e6 ph*t dl6j8 [eaj pjepdj *hy oe tnht tnjrj l* h demlkhd( rhtleohd *kljotl6lkj=pdhohtleo 6er tnj blrtnahrc. Pnht blrtnahrc* hrj mjojtlk ho` lo`lkhtj h njhdtn keo`ltleo. [eaj *hy
tnht blrtnahrc* hrj u*t tnht ahrc* tnht wj rjkjlvj ht blrtn 6rea bjlom rjaevj` 6rea tnj blrtn khohd.
"ew weud` & rjkjlvj h ahrc eo ay dj6t bhkc*l`j nlp ht blrtn8 %h* & bjht8 "jokj wny hdd blrtnahrc*khooet bj j=pdhloj` rhtleohddy er *kljotl6lkhddy. Pnj*j ho*wjr* ahy dlj wltnlo eur *eud*.
H ̀ ekuajotj` kh*j e6 blrtnahrc* ho` ph*t dl6j kerrj*peo`jokj dlj* wltn hutner 'j66jry Ijjoj. "j
`jthld* nl* rjkeddjktleo e6 bjlom ,lvld %hr Mjojrhd 'eno B. Mer`eo lo h ph*t dl6j. Ijjoj nh* blrtnahrc*eo nl* be`y tnht ahtkn tnj pdhkj* wnjrj tnj Mjojrhd wh* 6hthddy weuo`j` lo tnj whr. Ger j=hapdj(
Ijjoj nh* h *thr-*nhpj` blrtnahrc eo nl* njh` tnht ahtknj* tnj *thr-*nhpj` *khr tnht Mer`eo met lo tnj
whr. Mjojrhd Mer`eo wh* hd*e *net lo tnj knjjc ho` Ijjoj nh* h blrtnahrc lo tnj j=hkt *pet tnht
Mer`eo wh* *net.
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%njo h aho nh* h blrtnahrc eo nl* hra* lt ajho* tnht nj l* neaj erljotj`( thcj* khrj e6 tnj cl`*
ho` tnj neu*j. &6 h weaho nh* h blrtnahrc eo njr hra* lt ajho* *nj l* lo`jpjo`jot ho` khrjjr alo`j`.
%njo eoj nh* h blrtnahrc eo nl* er njr tnlmn* lt ajho* tnht nj er *nj nh* dukc( wjhdtn( ho` nhpploj**.
&6 eoj nh* h blrtnahrc eo nl* er njr hwdloj lt ajho* tnht nj er *nj l* lo bh` njhdtn ho` prhktlkj* h bh`dl6j*tydj. %njo eoj nh* h blrtnahrc eo nl* er njr bhkc lt ajho* tnht nj er *nj l* epjo( neoj*t( ho` epjo
alo`j`. &6 h pjr*eo nh* h blrtnahrc eo nl* er njr 6lomjr* eo tnj rlmnt er dj6t nho` lt ajho* tnht nj er *nj
`ej* oet dlcj te `jpjo` eo hoyeoj 6er hoytnlom. %njo yeu nhvj h blrtnahrc eo yeur tej* er 6jjt ltajho* tnht yeu hktleo erljotj` ho` devj te trhvjd. &6 yeu nhvj h blrtnahrc eo yeur dj6t *neud`jr lt
ajho* yeu hrj lo h 6lohoklhd krl*l*. &6 yeu nhvj h blrtnahrc eo yeur rlmnt *neud`jr lt ajho* yeu nhvj
mee` 6ertuoj. &6 yeu nhvj h blrtnahrc eo yeur djm* lt ajho* tnht yeu hrj lo`jkl*lvj.
)j6jrjokj*9 Bhptl*tj( . 0J. Bed`[cy. #nht ejs /eur $lrtnahr! 6jho8 )jtrljvj` 6rea9
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Pnj aest bjhutlgud tnlom wj kho jxjrljokj ls tnj aystjrleus. Lt ls tnj seurkj eg hdd truj hrtho! skljokj." # $dbjrt %lostjlo.
(vjr slokj 5 whs h dlttdj mlrd$ 5 nhvj ge!o` tnj pewjr eg tnj alo` ghsklohtlom. 5 we!d` spjo`ne!rs rjh`lom !p eo hs a!kn phrhpsyknedemlkhd ho` phrhoerahd pnjoeajoh tnht 5 ke!d` mjtay nho`s eo. 5 rjkhdd jvjo ahclom aysjdg h sjt eg 4jojr khr`s lo tnj nepjs eg prevlom 5 nh`jxtrhsjosery pjrkjptleo C([V$ er `jve!tdy wrltlom `ewo ay `rjhas lo tnj nepjs eg prevl`lomjvl`jokj eg prjkemoltleo. "jt$ eo tnj rhrj ekkhsleo 5 hppjhrj` te nhvj h pesltlvj e!tkeaj 5we!d` losthotdy >!jstleo lt A whs lt h kelokl`jokjB 1hs 5 eody sjjlom wnht 5 whotj` te sjjB1hs tnjrj hoetnjr jxpdhohtleoB 5 we!d` tnjo glo` aysjdg `lshppelotj` wnjo 5 whs !ohdj telaaj`lhtjdy rjpre`!kj tnj shaj e!tkeaj. nls ls tnj `ldjaah tnht ls phrhpsyknedemlkhdrjsjhrkn. @jspltj tnls$ ay ghsklohtleo nhs hdwhys pjrslstj` ho` 5 wjot eo te ethlo hhknjder;s `jmrjj lo psyknedemy ht !olvjrslty. njsj yjhrs eg st!`y g!jddj` ay esjssleo wltntnj n!aho rhlo ho` hdd lts khphldltljs$ ho` `jspltj ethlolom h streom coewdj`mj ho`hpprjklhtleo eg tnj skljotlglk ajtne`$ 5 ge!o` aysjdg hsclom$ &5g wj hrj khphdj eg se a!kn$wne;s te shy wj hrjo;t khphdj eg aerjB)
[e wnht ls phrhpsyknedemy$ ho` wnht ls lt tnht ghsklohtjs !s seBVhrhpsyknedemy$ hdse seajtlajs rjgjrrj` te hs psj!`eskljokj er grlomj skljokj Ctne!mn
tnls kho j netdy keotjstj` wltnlo tnj gljd` ltsjdg ls tnj skljotlglk ho` sknedhrdy st!`y egpnjoeajoh wnlkn hppjhr te ekk!r jyeo` tnj rjhdas eg n!aho khphldltljs. Vhrhpsyknedemyls egtjo alsthcjo te j tnj st!`y eg tnj phrhoerahd$ wnjo lo ghkt oet hdd phrhpsyknedemlkhdpnjoeajoeo ls prevjo te j phrhoerahd lo oht!rj Cj.m.$ ([V. 5o t!ro$ oet hdd phrhoerahdpnjoeajoeo ls phrhpsyknedemlkhd lo oht!rj Cj.m.$ 'lm %eet. [eaj eg tnj prlahry hrjhslovjstlmhtj` y rjsjhrknjrs lokd!`j0 tjdjphtny$ prjkemoltleo$ kdhlrveyhokj$ psykneclojsls$ojhr,`jhtn jxpjrljokjs Clokd!`lom e!t,eg,e`y jxpjrljokjs ho` tnj s!rvlvhd eg sjdg$ `lrjktajothd lotjrhktleos wltn dlvlom systjas C@25D[$ rjlokhrohtleo ho` hpphrltleohd jxpjrljokjs.
1nldj aho nhs hdwhys nh` h ghsklohtleo wltn tnj !ocoewo$ lt whso;t !otld tnj JG tn kjot!rytnht wj shw phrhpsyknedemlkhd pnjoeajoeo lovjstlmhtj` lo h skljotlglk ho` systjahtlk why.nls dj` te tnj gerahtleo eg tnj [ekljty ger Vsyknlkhd jsjhrkn lo Deo`eo lo JMM=$ wnlkn whsge!o`j` y Fjory [l`mwlkc$ h pnldesepny pregjsser ht Kharl`mj$ ho` nls hsseklhtjs$%rj`jrlk 2yjrs ho` (`a!o` H!rojy. [eeo hgtjr$ dhrmjdy `!j te tnj s!ppert eg psyknedemlst1lddlha +hajs$ tnj *ajrlkho [ekljty ger Vsyknlkhd jsjhrkn whs ge!o`j` lo 'esteo lo JMM$jgerj dhtjr rjdekhtlom te Ojw "erc. nj keotlo!lom ghsklohtleo wltn phrhpsyknedemlkhdrjsjhrkn shw tnj g!rtnjr gerahtleo eg sekljtljs `j`lkhtj` te tnj skljokj$ s!kn hs tnj nlojjsjhrkn Kjotrj ht @!cj Iolvjrslty lo JG=
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Ipeo njhrlom tnj tjra$ ?phrhpsyknedemlkhd rjsjhrkn; aerj egtjo tnho oet$ wj tnloc egjxpjrlajothtleo ho` sjkrjt mevjroajot preijkts. nls lso;t tee ghr grea tnj tr!tn. njrj hrj ho!ajr eg ghae!s Cho` loghae!s khsjs tnre!mne!t tnj nlstery eg tnj gljd` wltn twe eg tnjaest keaaeo jlom Vreijkt [thrmhtj ho` tnj Hho8gjd` (xpjrlajots. Vreijkt [thrmhtj whskrjhtj` y tnj K5* lo tnj dhtj 7;s ger tnj p!rpesj eg lovjstlmhtlom jnhvle!rhd jomlojjrlom$jspjklhddy tnj hrjh eg rjaetj vljwlom CW$ wnlkn ls tnj !sj eg prlahrldy ([V te ethlo
logerahtleo he!t h `lsthot er !osjjo thrmjt. nj preijkt keoslstj` eg h o!ajr egjxpjrlajots !otld lt whs tjralohtj` lo JGG. nj Hho8gjd` (xpjrlajots jmho lo tnj jhrdyJG
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Ar. Aeostjr ho` tnj A$stjr$ &eoojktleob$ Peo$ [thrc
—Pnjrj's ho er`jr te tnloms, ojvjr germjt tnht.‑
L deecj` evjr ay kejj aum ht ay phrtojr, wne whs pelotlom h gerc kevjrj` lo jmm yedc ht aj.Pnj nlmn, stuy nual`lty nhomlom lo tnj hlr ah`j tnj yedc skua evjr jvjo hs lt tnrjhtjoj` te`rep eo tnj thbdjkdetn bjtwjjo us.
—a!naa,‑ L hmrjj` oeokealtthddy. Pnls eutburst, wnldj oet uousuhd ger "lre, nh` jajrmj`uobl``jo grea tnj `jptns eg nls alo`. L keud`o't njdp but krlomj ht wnjrj tnls whs melom.
Lt whs nlmn oeeo lo #jw $erc %lty, nlmn suaajr, but hdaest ht tnj jo` eg tnj `jkh`j. &((deecj` prjtty aukn dlcj tnj rjst eg tnj sjvjotljs, j)kjpt wltn h prjpeo`jrhokj eg snhbby plapsho` strjjt mlrds hdeom wltn `rummj` eut ylppljs krhwdlom hreuo` eo tnj strjjts eutsl`j tnls *jdd's+ltknjo khgj. L nh` bjjo jhtlom brjhcghst njrj slokj L whs h bjht kep bhkc lo tnj `hy, ho` hgjw skuabhmswjrjo't melom te seur aj eo lt oew.
ukn dlcj wnhtjvjr stera eg pnldesepny whs hbeut te jojvjdep aj, tnj plaps ho` tnj knu`stee weud` phss.
"lre khrdettl whs h pedlkj `jtjktlvj, dlcj aj, wltn sjvjrhd yjhrs' j)pjrljokj eo tnj strjjts. -dsedlcj aj. Pnls hsslmoajot lo honhttho whs h prjtty blm beest te nls dlgj hs wjdd hs nls khrjjr,nla bjlom grea h peer tjojajot lo reecdyo, bero lo /ust bjgerj tnj whr bjmho lo '6. Lo tnlswhy, nj whs uodlcj aj.
*j hdse `jvlhtj` lo nls prepjosltljs tewhr` peerdy tneumnt eut, deu`dy `jdlvjrj` jplmrhas eo dlgjho` tnj ohturj eg tnj nuaho splrlt. L nh` djhroj` te jo`urj tnja lo ay twe yjhrs' phrtojrsnlpwltn tnj aho, but L nh` oet yjt djhroj` te djt tnja step lrrlthtlom aj. Pnj eody mee` tnlom hbeut"lre's prestjdy8htleos whs tnht nj egtjo nh` ho hdaest erhkudhr prjskljokj hbeut tnja tnht Lgeuo` usjgud.
L nh` etnjr tnloms eo ay alo` tnls aerolom, newjvjr. 2lgj prebdjas. lstrjss prebdjas. *jr;evjr prebdjas. L whs hdse stldd stlomlom eo tnj bhkc eg ay scudd wnjrj shl` wlgj, hrbhrh, nh`tnrewo h wjdd!hlaj` pdhtj ht tnj bhkc eg ay njh` eo tnj why eut tnj `eer tnls aerolom. Pnloms
wjrj jskhdhtlom, mjttlom eut eg nho`. nj nh` bhddj` eur jd`jst `humntjr's myaohstlks lostrukterhgtjr %yotnlh's hdd honhttho ajjt, er rjklthd... wnhtjvjr tnesj j)nlbltleos wjrj khddj`. #ew tnjmuy, uo`jrstho`hbdy uolaprjssj` by ay wlgj's eutstho`lom bdjo` eg losjkurlty ho` besslojss,nh` kut %yotnlh grea tnj mreup eg splo`dy cl`s tnht wjrj suppesj` te trhvjd hdeom tnj 0hstjrojhbehr`, keapjtlom ger seajtnlom er etnjr. %yotnlh whs krylom hbeut lt tnls aerolom: snj nh`te me lote bhddjt lostjh`. 2nlkn whs uogertuohtj, bjkhusj snj rjhddy whso't h `hokjr by ohturj.
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L ahy nhvj shl` seajtnlom te tnht jjkt tnls aerolom bjgerj L djgt tnj hphrtajot, wltneut tnloclomnew lt weud` bj rjkjlvj` by tnj mlrd er njr aetnjr ho` njr `jdusleos eg mrjhtojss snj njd` ger
njr jd`jst sphwo.
L bhrjdy phl` httjotleo te %yotnlh. 7ust dlcj L bhrjdy phl` httjotleo te "lre! j)kjpt oew nj whs
shylom seajtnlom hbeut hrbhrh.
Puolom lo, L njhr` nla =olsn. —! ho` tnht's wny snj's eutth dloj, ;jooy. Pnjrj's ho er`jr te tnlomslo tnls werd`, ho` yeu'rj oet jogerklom lt.‑
L weo`jrj` new aukn nj cojw, j)hktdy. *j whs e``dy psyknlk: nj hdse nh` h keuslo wnewercj` ht tnj ahrcjt uptewo wnjrj wj rlskejs hdd beumnt eur kejj ho` klmhrjttjs. nj keud`nhvj messlppj` wltn nla hbeut hrbhrh's epjo hlr skrjhalom ahtknjs, njr tjo`joky te me tetnj ahrcjt ho` tnj khgj `ewo tnj strjjt wltn bey `u /eur eo njr hra, ay tjo`joky te step lotnjrj tee dhtj te nhvj keaj bhkc grea werc wltn dlpstlkc tnht j̀oltjdy`l`o't keaj grea werc eoay keddhr.
—>hlr joeumn,‑ L oe``j`. —Lo wnht why ls hrbhrh ghddlom eutsl`j tnj er`jr eg tnloms, tnht L ojj`te jogerkj shl` er`jr bhkc upeo njr
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sjjaj` se bhohd. e `lshppelotlom. 0vjry tlaj L trlj` te brjhc eo tnreumn te tnj etnjr sl`j, hs ltwjrj, wltn hrbhrh, snj swho!`lvj` lote tnj aj`lekrj werd` eg cl`s' kdhssjs, eur yeuomjst`humntjr's rjbjddleus bjnhvleur, ho` pdhtj tnrewlom. L cojw snj whs keoojktj` te hdd tnls
seajnew, L keud` gjjd lt rlppdlom uo`jr njr sclo dlcj bubbdjs bdewo lo kru`j eld, but trylom te`lskuss ahttjrs wltn njr lt sjjaj` L keud` spjhc aerj pdhlody hbeut wltn seaj cl` greareecdyo. e ahybj nj keud` tjdd aj new te mjt h mrlp eo ay wlgj. "lre kjrthlody sjjaj` te tnloc
tnht lt whs ojkjsshry.
y jyj whs `rhwo te tnht /uoclj. *j whs rl5lom tnreumn h whstjbhscjt by h kresswhdc. *jturoj` hreuo` lo h dlttdj klrkdj ho` rjvjhdj` h `jkhd tnht nh` bjjo lreoj` te tnj bhkc eg nls hraykeht. - yjddew nhppy ghkj mrlooj` ht aj grea hkress tnj strjjt. y jyjs ohrrewj`.
—2njo tnj er`jr eg tnjsj mrjht gerkjs ls djgt te ltsjdg, tnjy hdd mjt eutth keotred,‑ "lre j)pdhloj`.—Fpplty, L mujss. -o` wnjo tnjy sthrt tnloclom tnjrj's oe clom eo tnj tnreoj lo tnjsj pewjrgudpdhkjs, tnj gerkjs mjt wld`.‑
—e yeu tnloc hrbhrh ls mjttlom upplty wltn aj bjkhusj tnls -utuao eohrkn gjddh ls oet
cjjplom tnj kesalk wessohaj lo dloj,‑ L ejrj`, rlslom grea ay knhlr. L gjdt keapjddj` te ruo euteg tnj khgj tewhr` tnj /uoclj ho` step wnhtjvjr lt whs tnht whs kealom oj)t. Huoolom whsojvjr seajtnlom L dlcj` te `e, oet /ust bjkhusj eo sukn h net ho` aummy `hy lt weud` ahcj aj
swjht dlcj h plm. Lt sjjaj` wnjo L rho tnht lt sjjaj` te snhcj khdhalty deesj wltn jvjry stjp.
hybj tnesj aystjrleus gerkjs "lre specj eg tneumnt ruoolom whs h slmo tnj eohrkn nh` destkeotred. hybj nj nh`, wnjo nj nh` te ruo seajwnjrj te step seajtnlom.
—Pnht's `j=oltjdy wnht's nhppjolom wltn yeur ahrrlhmj, ;jooy,‑ "lre oe``j`, nls jyjs geddewlomaj hs L =rst resj ho` tnjo whdcj` phst nla. *j geddewj`, tesslom nls ohpclo bhkc eo tnj thbdj.
*j whs h mee` phrtojr, ojvjr hscj` hoy ?ujstleos wnjo L met lote eoj eg ay aee`s ho` wjote eo h nuokn. 7ust geddewj`. L mujss tnht whs tnj erhkdj lo nla.
L whvj` hbsjotdy ht tnj keec hs L djgt: nj cojw L whs mee` ger tnj bldd. 4utsl`j, tnj njht grea tnjhspnhdt nlt us dlcj h nype)lk whvj. "lre deesjoj` nls tlj gurtnjr hs nj deecj` hreuo` eo tnj strjjtte sjj wnht nh` khumnt ay httjotleo. *j geddewj` ay mh8j ho` geuo` tnj /uoclj.
—*j `eo't deec mee`,‑ "lre keaajotj` hs wj whdcj` te tnj kresswhdc. —$eu rjkemol8j nla greah snjjt
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nhvj bjjo tnj njht eg tnj `hy, but lt sjjaj` ay geetstjps suoc lote tnj phvjajot hs wjwhdcj`. Pnj geur dhojs eg trhBk sjjaj` lapesslbdy deom: wj whdcj` uo`jr tnj tnhocdjss suo gerwnht sjjaj` ho hmj.
Pnj /uoclj whs twltknlom hreuo` hdd tnls tlaj. "lre ho` L whtknj` nla reet hmhlo l`dy lo tnj trhsn,oet =o`lom wnhtjvjr lt whs nj whs sjhknlom ger. *j skhooj` up tnj strjjt ho` L whtknj` nla
dekc eote h mlrd lo h phdj ploc suo`rjss wne whs whdclom tewhr` nla. nj jabe`lj` jvjrytnlomhbeut h suaajr njhtwhvj tnht whs mee`, njr gjhtnjrj` nhlr deeclom brjj8y ho` grjsn `jspltjtnj stl5lom nual`lty. *jr ahkrhaj pursj swuom ht njr sl`j.
—L tnloc tnht's hk tnj +olgj,‑ "lre wnlspjrj` te aj.
—Lt ls te`hy, hoywhy,‑ L rjpdlj`. Pnjrj nh` bjjo seaj knu` wne nh` bjjo sthbblom pjepdj lobreh` `hydlmnt lo *jdd's +ltknjo ho` `ewo lo tnj ewjry, jvjr slokj tnj njhtwhvj bjmho. *jwhs se ?ulkc ho` se ghst lo nls mjthwhy tnht wltojssjs eody nh` tnj vhmujst eg laprjssleos egnla. *j whs h germjtthbdj sert eg skuabhm, oethbdj eody lo tnht nj plkcj` prjtty dlttdj tnloms ho`jltnjr sdhsnj` tnjlr ghkjs er sthbbj` tnja lo tnj muts. Pnj phpjrs nh` bjstewj` tnj `ubleustltdj eo nla ho` lt nh` stukc hreuo` tnj sthtleo. Pnls nh` bjjo melom eo slokj hy.
lokj tnj wjjc bjgerj %yotnlh's mya rjklthd tnlomy. 4r wnhtjvjr tnjy khddj` lt.
Pnj colgj htthkcs nh` thcjo h bhkcphmj, dltjrhddy ho` =murhtlvjdy, te tnj kedesshd ghldurj eg wj#$"3 lo dekhtlom ho` stepplom tnls eo eg ha muosnet clddjr tnht nh` jvjrybe`y lo tnj klty lo hnjhtwhvj!j)hkjrbhtj` pholk. ut ger us keps lo *jdd's +ltknjo, tnj `ls=murjajot eg se ahoyvlbrhot yeuom weajo sjjaj` seajnew aerj laaj`lhtj ho` aerj wltnlo eur skepj te khtkn.
L reddj` ay jyjs, tnj wjlmnt eg hdd tnj prjtty dlvjs ruloj` sjttdlom lo eo ay sneud`jrs. -s Lwhtknj` tnj /uoclj mdhokj ht tnj mlrd, deec bhkc `ewo tnj strjjt, kekc nls njh` te tnj sl`j dlcj
nj whs dlstjolom te seajtnlom, lt ekkurrj` te aj tnht L pjrseohddy nh` aerj tnho /ust eoj sthb!nhppy /uoclj te kdjho up lo tnls klty... ho` tnjrj wjrj aerj dlvjs ruloj` by h .KK khdlbrj budd`emsjttdlom ht tnj bhsj eg ay sploj, wjlmnlom `ewo ay stjps wltn pjkudlhr, lojrtlhd knhes.
4oj tnlom ht h tlaj. 7uoclj =rst. hrbhrh sjkeo`.
2j nh` rjhknj` tnj al`pelot eg tnj strjjt ho` wjrj kdeslom lo eo tnj /uoclj. L hddewj` aysjdg haeajot eg pjrseohd pdjh`lom wltn tnj uolvjrsj, aerj eg h tjapjr thotrua tnho h pdjh, rjhddy.ut, new j)hktdy whs L suppesj` te brlom seajeoj dlcj hrbhrh te njjd! lt sjjaj` lapesslbdj,jvjo lg tnloms dlcj tnls trhmj`y uoged`lom lo greot eg us weud` keotlouj.
—*edy snlt, ;jooy, hrj wj meooh khtkn nla
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L kursj` uo`jr ay brjhtn ho` brecj lote h ruo. —2j'rj meooh try,‑ L shl`. y snejs stukc dlcj tnjstrjjt whs ah`j eg jpe)y. 0vjry stjp whs dlcj eoj thcjo lo h olmntahrj.
Pnj keokrjtj whs h dlttdj bjttjr te ruo eo, but jvjo se tnj /uoclj whs ghst. "lre brecj hwhy ho``e`mj` h th)lkhb kealom up te tnj kresswhdc se nj keud` try te lotjrkjpt tnj mlrd. eaj gjwpj`jstrlhos nh` oetlkj` twe sultj` ajo ruoolom, but aest jvjryeoj eo tnj krew`j` strjjt whs
keotloulom hbeut tnjlr buslojss lo tnjlr shaj, sjdg!kjotjrj` why.
L whs oet khtknlom tnj /uoclj. "lre whs stldd tee ghr grea tnj mlrd. L weud` nhvj te j)jrt ay wldd lotnls ahttjr lg L whotj` te bj hoytnlom aerj tnho h spjkthter te hoetnjr mrujseaj htthkc lo #jw$erc %lty.
L rjhknj` eut wltn ay alo`, coewlom tnht tnj phtkn eo tnj rlmnt sneud`jr eg tnj /uoclj's hray/hkcjt whs tnjrj /ust ger tnls purpesj! te `j5jkt hoytnlom tnht trlj` te step nla. Lt djgt aj dlttdjjdsj te me ger tnho nls njhrt, wnlkn L mrhbbj` wltn hdd ay almnt.
Pnj /uoclj scl``j` eo tnj net sl`jwhdc ho` trlppj` evjr nls gjjt. *j teec h durknlom stjp te tnj
sl`j.
2ltn h almnty jert eg ay wldd, L ah`j tnj `lsthokj bjtwjjo us sahddjr tnho lt hppjhrj`. L
kdesj` lo wltn tnrjj geetghdds, ho hsteuo`lom haeuot eg lotjrtlh bjnlo` aj. L usj` lt te sdha tnjcl` lote tnj brewosteoj nj whs hdrjh`y njh`j` lote. 2j sdhaaj` lote tnj brlkc whdd hs tneumnwj nh` bjjo 5uom grea h aevlom trhlo. Pnj wlo` whs coekcj` eut eg aj. - swltknbdh`j whscoekcj` eut eg nls nho` ho` sclttjrj` te h step ht tnj gjjt eg tnj mlrd lo tnj ploc suo`rjss gerwnea lt whs `jstloj`.
"lre whs eo tnj mlrd ho` mrhbbj` njr by tnj sneud`jrs, plkclom njr up eut eg tnj dloj eg tnj colgj
ho` sjttlom njr `ewo wltn nla bjtwjjo njr ho` tnj bdh`j. nj deecj` keogusj` ho` sthrtj` teeb/jkt... tnjo snj rjhdl8j` wnht nh` dho`j` eo tnj mreuo`.
—L hlo't `eoj oetnlo, aho1‑ skrjjknj` tnj /uoclj, nls oesj bdjj`lom grea tnj whdd.
—$eu hrj uo`jr hrrjst ger tnj hmmrhvhtj` hsshudt eg %htnjrloj *utteo ho` hrmerlj %rjw,‑ Lbhrcj` ht nla, rjhknlom ger ay nho`kus. —$eu nhvj tnj rlmnt te rjahlo sldjot!‑
Lo tnj bhkcmreuo`, L njhr` tnj mlrd hsc, —2hs nj tnj aho wltn tnj colgj, kuttlom hdd tnesj mlrds
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y bldj resj lo ay tnreht. e tnls dlttdj gjddew whs keoojktj` te tnj sneetloms. eajnew. Pnlsdlttdj prlkc cojw tnloms oebe`y but tnj keps weud` coew, hbeut tnesj djttjrs, hbeut tnj jhrdykrlajs wj suspjktj` wjrj keaalttj` by tnj shaj aho. -t tnj shaj tlaj tnht tnls krjjp sjot h
snlvjr eg rjvudsleo `ewo ay sploj, L cojw nj whso't tnj aho bjnlo` tnj budd`em sneetloms. Pnlsphpjr tnlo skuabhm L whs streomhralom lote h s?uh`khr whs ho jalsshry. *j whs rlmnt! nj whs=ddlom lo tnj mhps ger tnj knhes tnht whotj` te keaj eut. Pnloms wjrj stldd tee er`jrj`, tnjrj
wjrjo't joeumn eg tnjlr -mjots te ahcj h trudy ahsslvj hsshudt eo tnj er`jr eg tnj klty.
$jt.
L =olsnj` lrho`l8lom nla ho` sdhaaj` tnj `eer eg tnj khr. *j whs stldd deeclom up ht aj ho`
mrloolom nl`jeusdy. Pnj uolgera wne nh` bjjo `rlvlom tnj khr peuo`j` eo tnj mdhss eg tnjwlo`ew uotld tnj ekkuphot eg tnj khr ho` tnj nho`kus deecj` hwhy.
L sneec ay nho`s e hs tneumn tnjy nh` sdlaj eo tnja. L mdhokj` ht tnj uolgera.
—thrt thclom sthtjajots grea tnjsj pjepdj,‑ L h`vlsj`. —2j whot hs ahoy jyjwltojssjs hs
pesslbdj.‑
—L shw nj nh` nls colgj eut,‑ ho ed`jr aho lo h sult rhlsj` nls nho`. *j nh` bjjo whdclom /ust
bjnlo` tnj mlrd wnjo L sdhaaj` lote tnj /uoclj. —*j whs melom strhlmnt ger tnht yeuom dh`y,tnjrj.‑
L sjot tnj uolgera lo tnj `lrjktleo eg tnj wltojss ho` kdesj` ay jyjs. Pnj werd` whs strjtknj`tnlo hreuo` aj hgtjr ay j)jrtleo te kdesj tnj `lsthokj bjtwjjo aj ho` ay thrmjt. 0vjrytnlomsjjaj` h dlttdj guoneusj alrrerj` ho` tldty. L gjdt ht eokj tee dhrmj ger tnj skjoj ho` oet ?ultjlosl`j lt, dlcj L whs pepplom eut eg kdetnjs L nh` ojvjr thcjo e tnj nhomjr.
Pnls whs eoj eg tnj prebdjas L whs ghklom lo `jhdlom wltn tnj rjspeoslbldltljs eg ahlothlolom tnj4r`jr eg Pnloms! kealom bhkc `ewo.
Lt whs tlaj ger tnj rjmudhr rnytnas eg pedlkj werc te thcj evjr. L teec h `jjp brjhtn ho`strhlmntjoj` ay tlj bjgerj L sthrtj` thclom sthtjajots. L epjoj` ay oetjph` ho` deecj` ger hkdjho phmj. Lt whs tnjo L whs phrtlhddy bdlo`j` by h 5hsnbudb.
Ahk tnj Colgj [teppj̀ lo Njdd's Cltknjo, [eo eg [ha [tldd ht Dhrmj.
Pnls whs tnj njh`dloj tnht mrjjtj` aj eo tnj cltknjo thbdj wnjo L khaj lo tnht olmnt. Pnjrj whs
L, deeclom `ewo ht ay oetjph`, seajwnht ru@j` but etnjrwlsj deeclom dlcj hoy ruo eg tnj alddpedlkj `jtjktlvj, eo tnj greot phmj. Pnj pnete nh` bjjo thcjo wltn tnj reeg eg tnj s?uh` khr lotnj gerjmreuo`. "jrnhps tnj 5hsn nh` ebskurj` tnj suspjkt losl`j tee aukn te bj usj`, ger tnjpnete whs `j=oltjdy bdewo up ho` kut te gekus eo aj, "lre ho` tnj uolgera thclom sthtjajots.Fosurprlslom tnht tnj -mjot eg %nhes /uoclj nh` wjhsjdj` hwhy grea bjlom ahrcj` jvjo hs njwhs bjlom `jthloj`.
hrbhrh ou`mj` tnj phpjr tewhr` aj wltn eoj aholkurj` =omjr. nj deecj` ht aj wltn njrked`, uorjh`hbdj bdhkc jyjs.
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thdclom hmhlo, tnht lm j tnht strjtknj` tnht strjjtkerojr eut eg snhpj. Pnj eoj "lre whs thdclomhbeut tnls hgtjroeeo ht tnj khgj.
—erry te nhvj ruloj` yeur guo, hrbhrh,‑ L njhr` aysjdg shy. Pnjo L mrlooj` ht njr. -dd njdd brecjdeesj ht tnht pelot.
hrbhrh reddj` lo njr knhlr hs tneumn L nh` strukc njr. L keud` tjdd snj gjdt tnj ker` eg njr jojrmybjlom sohppj` hs L specj, kuttlom tnj pewjr snj whs mdjholom grea hdd tnj vledjokj, gjhr ho`knhes khusj` by ht djhst tnjsj dhtjst sthbbloms, lg oet tnls jotlrj hotl!yeuom devj sneetlom sprjj.nj sthrtj` te rehr lo homjr, rlslom up eut eg njr sjht ht tnj cltknjo thbdj dlcj h nhrpy eo tnjwlom. ut snj whs `rewoj` eut by h mlmhotlk pjhd eg tnuo`jr tnht nlt hdaest ht tnj shaj tlaj hs
tnj 5hsn eg dlmntolom dlt us wnjrj wj stee` lo tnj reea.
Pnj dlmntolom strlcj aust nhvj bjjo rlmnt eo tep eg us grea new tnj tnuo`jr jknej` evjr tnjsurreuo`lom buld`loms. Lo tnj bduj wnltj dlmnt, hrbhrh deecj` dlcj wnht snj whs! h wl8joj`,`jh`!sclooj` me``jss eg tnj knhrojd plts tnht dhy eo tnj ghr sl`j eg njdd. *jr bdhkc jyjs nh`swhddewj` tnjlr sekcjts. *jr aeutn, se khrjguddy plkcj` eut lo njr pjrgjktdy hppdlj` dlpstlkc, whs
h rj`!rlaaj`, skrjhalom ahw. Lt whs aevlom wltn ho uonedy ?ulkcojss hs snj kursj` jpltnjtsht aj tnht L keud` oet njhr evjr tnj tnuo`jr.
—#ew,tnjrj'stnj mlrd L ahrrlj`,‑ L saldj` ht njr, tnj =rst te ahcj tnjasjdvjs njhr` evjr tnjgh`lom tnuo`jr.
nj djhpt tewhr` aj wltn njr kdhws eut, ahclom tnht skrjjkn snj ah`j wnjo njr jpltnjts ghldj`njr. L nh` ebvleusdy `eoj seaj mee` werc te`hy lo kuttlom e tnj jojrmy te tnesj `hrc gerkjstnht dlvj` lo tnj rjhdas eg ystjry: hrbhrh whs kjrthlody nurtlom ger tnj dhkc eg jojrmjtlkguo`lom.
L tessj` hrbhrh dlmntdy hsl`j, `j5jktlom njr lote tnj photry wnjrj snj nhradjssdy beuokj` etnj whdd. jgerj snj keud` jltnjr epjo tnj photry te =o` pre/jktldjs te tnrew ht aj er rjmreup gerh sjkeo` htthkc, h sahdd phlr eg bhrjgeetj` mlrds hppjhrj` lo tnj nhddwhy.
—3h``y
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reo), L tnloc lt aust nhvj bjjo.
Pnjrj whs h bjht hs tnj tnuo`jr sthrtj` te redd eut wltn krhkcs ho` beeas, tnjo tnjrj whs h
brlddlhot 5hsnlom mdew tnht jahohtj` grea up wnjrj tnht dhtjst strlcj nh` bjjo.
hrbhrh sthrtj`, bhkcj` hwhy grea tnj dlmnt hs tneumn lt nh` puddj` h muo eo njr.
—2nht! wnht whs tnht, ;jeohr`
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\eu kho rjh̀ aerj lo Pnj Hutuao Aeohrkn by Peoy [thrc, kealom lo 2687grea [thrcDlmnt Vrjss.
jjr *oeumn
/o tnj glrst `hy eg skneed$ Oerahjjsj kdlaj` evjr tnj rhld gjokjho` tr!`mj` tnre!mn tnj ghrajr#s gljd`!otld snj rjhknj` tnj ahmolglkjotwjjplom wlddew trjj. 5t whs i!st wltnlo
slmnt eg tnj reh`$ ho jhsy whdc te glo`shokt!hry. [nj krhwdj` !o`jr tnjnhomlom djhvjs ho` rhoknjs. njyrjhknj` tnj mre!o` ho` trhldj` hdeomlt$ se tnht snj whs keapdjtjdy nl``jogrea tnj e!tsl`j werd`. nls whs njr shokt!hry. [nj djhoj` hmhlost tnjtr!oc ho` p!t njr tjxt eecs eo tnjsegt jhrtn jsl`j njr. [nj p!ddj` tnj`eddhr kelo e!t eg h pekcjt eg njr ed`jht !p ijhos ho` sthrj` ht lt. 5t nh`
thcjo h aeotn te skrhpj temjtnjr tnhta!kn. 5t whso#t joe!mn. Fjr jotlrj dlgj snj nh` ojvjr jjo joe!mn A oet prjtty joe!mn$pep!dhr joe!mn$ rlkn joe!mn$ streom joe!mn$ er devj` joe!mn.
jhrs gjdd `ewo njr knjjcs hs snj rjajajrj` melom te tnj skneed#s egglkj te plkc !p hkealohtleo dekc se snj ke!d` j hsslmoj` h dekcjr. nj sjkrjthry nh` deecj` ht tnj DeeoljDlddlho p!snj` hkress tnj ke!otjr dlcj lt almnt ltj njr.
&Dekcs hrj PJ.7 tnls yjhr. Oetlkjs wjrj sjot e!t jgerj tnj jmloolom eg skneed. Oe dekc$ oedekcjr$) snj shl` wltn h sojjr.
Oerah nh` ojvjr mlvjo tnj weaho h rjhseo te `lsdlcj njr$ !t lt whs evle!s snj `l`. 5t
prehdy nh` te `e wltn njr rhtty sjkeo` nho` kdetnjs tnht wjrj oeoj tee kdjho$ jltnjr. njrjwhs ojvjr joe!mn aeojy ger tnj dh!o`reaht. nj jst snj ke!d` `e whs skr! tnja lo tnjt! wltn nho` sehp$ tnj shaj wltn njr nhlr. [nj prehdy deecj` dlcj h neajdjss pjrseo. [njalmnt hs wjdd j. [nj nh` oe rjhd neaj te me te. nj pdhkj snj dlvj` whs nhr`dy wnht ke!d`j keosl`jrj` h neaj.
2ld`rj` jjsj njr aetnjr$ whs oet eody h `r!oc$ !t h ajho vledjot `r!oc hs wjdd. (vjry kjottnht khaj lo tnj pdhkj wjot te tnj jjr sterj. 5t whs h mee` tnlom tnht 1jdghrj phl` tnj rjoteo tnjlr krhppy eoj j`reea hphrtajot$ er tnj rjot aeojy we!d` me te tnj jjr sterj tee.
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5t whs keed ho` `la jdew tnj evjrnhomlom rhoknjs eg tnj wlddew$ !t lt whs tnj eody pdhkjsnj gjdt keapdjtjdy shgj. [hgj grea njr aetnjr#s vjrhd ho` pnyslkhd h!sj$ shgj grea tnjth!ots ho` los!dts eg njr skneed ahtjs$ shgj grea tnj n!rt ho` snhaj eg pevjrty ho` n!omjr.Fjrj !o`jr tnj wlddew snj ke!d` st!`y njr tjxt eecs ho` `e j>!htleos lo tnj segt jhrtn. 5twhs [jptjajr$ se tnjrj we!d`o#t j soew ger hoetnjr twe aeotns. Iotld tnjo snj nh` hpdhkj te `e njr neajwerc lo pjhkj.
Oerah nh` jjo `elom njr neajwerc njrj slokj tnlr` mrh`j. nht yjhr$ snj nh` re!mntneaj eecs tnj skneed nh` mlvjo njr$ ho` 2ld`rj` nh` trlj` te nekc tnja ger ee8j aeojy.nj eecs nh` tnj ohaj eg tnj skneed sthapj` eo tnja$ se tnj phwo snep ewojr we!d`o#tthcj tnja. 2ld`rj` nh` keaj neaj ho` recjo Oerah#s hra jkh!sj njr skneed eecswjrjo#t sjdd wertny$ hs lg lt wjrj tnj jlmnt yjhr ed` mlrd#s gh!dt. *gtjr skneed$ snj p!t njr eecslo h pdhstlk hm$ ho` `!m h nedj !o`jr tnj tnlkc reet systja eg tnj wlddew$ wnjrj tnjy sthyj`!otld snj rjtrljvj` tnja tnj ojxt `hy jgerj skneed.
5g lt whso#t ger tnj grjj rjhcghst premrha lo jdjajothry skneed$ snj we!d` nhvj sthrvj`.1njo skneed jo`j` ger tnj s!aajr hgtjr mrh`j slx$ njr aetnjr nh` jjo glrj` grea tnj dhst
ie snj we!d` jvjr ned`. [nj `jskjo`j` lote tnj ettea eg h ettdj ho` ojvjr khaj e!t
hmhlo. nj ghkt tnht snj nh` h `h!mntjr ajhot dlttdj te njr. laj ho` hmhlo tnj skneed o!rsjtrlj` te mjt Oerah pdhkj` lo h gestjr neaj$ !t 2ld`rj` we!d` ojvjr slmo h rjdjhsj$ jkh!sjsnj ojj`j` tnj mlrd#s 2etnjr#s hddewhokj ger jjr. nj h!tnerltljs `l`o#t jdljvj snj whs lojoe!mn `homjr te thcj njr hwhy grea njr aetnjr wltne!t h slmoj` rjdjhsj gera$
[nj nh` meoj te tnj gee` hoc ojxt$ ho` tnjy nh` glohddy mlvjo njr h ex eg gee`$ !t wnjosnj re!mnt lt neaj snj met h jhtlom ger tnj snhaj eg thclom knhrlty$ hs lg dlvlom egg eg 1jdghrjwhso#t knhrlty. nht `l`o#t cjjp njr aetnjr grea medlom !p hdd tnj gee` jgerj tnjy wjrjhddewj` hoetnjr wjjcdy ex grea tnj gee` hoc. Dlddlho nh` thcjo te nl`lom `ry mee`s lo tnjk!pehr` hevj tnj grl`mj. Fjr aetnjr whs ojvjr sejr joe!mn te stho` eo h knhlr te mjt lt`ewo. 5g tnj gee` whs jhsldy hkkjssldj$ 2ld`rj` we!d` jht lt$ lg lt whso#t jhsy te mjt$ tnjo snjwe!d` `rloc lostjh`. 1njo snj htj seajtnlom snj `l`o#t mjt `r!oc hs ghst$ ho` snj we!d`
djhvj Oerah hdeoj. nj mlrd whs gerkj` te kneesj jtwjjo sthrvhtleo ho` njr aetnjr#s`r!ocjo h!sj.
1njo tnj gee` rho e!t jgerj snj ke!d` mjt aerj grea tnj gee` hoc$ snj nh` te `jpjo` eotnj sthdj rjh` tnht tnj hcjr grea tnj hcj snep ojhry we!d` mlvj njr. %er tnht$ snj nh` tenhom hre!o` tnj hkc `eer wnjo nj khaj lo ht `hwo. 'jgerj nj mhvj njr h dehg eg twe `hyed` rjh`$ snj nh` te jo`!rj nla geo`dlom njr rjhsts. we `hys jhrdljr$ snj nh` meoj te tnjhcj snep ht `hwo$ ho` tnj hcjr whs whltlom ger njr. nls tlaj nj whso#t ned`lom tnj sthdjrjh` hs !s!hd. 1njo snj shw nls japty nho`s njr sne!d`jrs sd!apj`$ ho` snj t!roj` tewhdc hwhy.
&1hlt. "e!r rjh` ls losl`j$ !t ye!#dd nhvj te keaj njrj te mjt lt$) nj khddj`.
[nj khaj kdesjr te tnj `eer kh!tle!sdy. 1ltne!t whrolom nj i!apj` njr ho` p!snj` njr eoteseaj lm mhrhmj hms tnht nh` jjo pdhkj` sl`j y sl`j lo tnj hddjy$ hdaest dlcj h j`. [njstr!mmdj`$ !t nj nh` njr eo njr hkc ho` nls phots `ewo lo twe alo!tjs gdht. Fj a!st nhvjprhktlkj`. [nj skrjhaj` hs de!` hs snj ke!d` jgerj nj p!t nls lm nho` evjr njr ae!tn.[nj lt nla ho` nj djt njr me$ k!rslom de!`dy. +!st tnjo tnj hcjr#s wlgj khaj e!t wltn hreea ho` sthrtj` nlttlom Oerah wltn lt hs njr n!sho` sd!oc hkc lote tnj hcj snep.
&"e! sd!t$ mjt e!t eg njrj. Few `hrj ye! sj`!kj ay n!sho` ye! dlttdj [choc. 5#dd nhvj tnjkeps eo ye! ger prestlt!tleoL) snj yjddj`.
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&5#dd me te tnj keps aysjdg$ ye! ght !mdy sd!m. 5#a h vlrmlo$ se ye!#dd nhvj h nhr` tlaj prevlomprestlt!tleo. 5 nhvj ye!r sk!a n!sho`#s sdlaj eo ay ijhos$ pd!s tnj r!lsjs eo ay hras teprevj sjx!hd hssh!dt$ ho` 5#a eody ge!rtjjo yjhrs ed`$ wne `e ye! tnloc tnjy#dd jdljvjB)Oerah sne!tj` hkc.
nj weaho wjot hkc lo tnj snep ho` sthrtj` skrjhalom ht njr n!sho`. Oerah t!roj` te meneaj. [nj we!d` nhvj meoj te tnj pedlkj$ !t lt whs h glvj aldj whdc$ ho` snj whs tee wjhc
grea n!omjr te ahcj lt tnht ghr. [nj nh` jjo `jpjo`lom eo tnj rjh` te mjt njr tnre!mn tetnj jo` eg tnj wjjc. [nj wjot neaj$ neplom tnht tnjrj almnt j seajtnlom lo tnj hkc eg tnjk!pehr` evjr tnj grl`mj te jht. 1njo snj met tnjrj$ tnj hcjr#s khr whs phrcj` lo greot eg tnjhphrtajot !ld`lom. 1njo snj whdcj` lo$ snj ke!d` njhr 2ld`rj` ho` tnj hcjr trh`lomjpltnjts ht tnj `eer eg njr sjkeo` gdeer hphrtajot. Oerah `l`o#t coew tnht tnj hcjr whs tnjlr dho`der`. %rea wnht snj ke!d` njhr$ tnjy wjrj jlom jvlktj`. Oew snj rjhddy whs neajdjss.[nj whdcj` te njr shokt!hry trjj te nl`j.
Oerah sht !o`jr tnj wlddew trjj wjjplom lttjrdy$ wnjo snj njhr` velkjs i!st eo tnj etnjrsl`j eg tnj nhomlom rhoknjs. [nj ke!d` rjkemol8j tnj rh!ke!s dh!mntjr eg h gjw eg tnjskneed geethdd iekcs$ ho` tnjy nh` jjo `rloclom. [nj ke!d`o#t j kh!mnt njrj$ snj nh` tecjjp lt sjkrjt. 5t whs tnj eody pdhkj snj nh` te nl`j grea hdd tnj pjepdj wne ah`j njr dlgjalsjrhdj$ !t oew snj nh` oe pdhkj jdsj te me. [nj >!lkcdy sthrtj` kdlalom tnj rhoknjs$oet rjhdl8lom tnht tnj rhoknjs aevj` hs snj kdlaj`$ ho` lt ke!d` j sjjo eo tnj etnjr sl`j.nrjj eys `!kcj` !o`jr tnj dlas$ p!snlom jhkn etnjr ho` sne!tlom. /oj khrrlj` h nhdgjapty khsj eg =9 jjr.
&Fjy$ wj met h aeocjy lo tnj trjj. Deec ht tnj `lrty dlttdj aeocjy$ eys. Djt#s p!dd lt `ewo ho`deec ht lt.)
nj velkj eg Fhrdho @!okho whs sd!rrj`$ ho` vjry de!`. Oerah#s njhrt rhkj` rhpl`dy wltn gjhr$hs snj trlj` te kdla nlmnjr. [nj ke!d` sjj eoj eg tnj etnjr twe eys kdlalom !p hgtjr njr. 5t
whs Hrhnha Fhrrls. nj tnlr` ey$ Dhrry rhvjrsj$ stee` ht tnj ettea eg tnj tr!oc$ jmmlomnla eo. nj tnrjj eys wjrj vjry pep!dhr$ jkh!sj tnjy weo geethdd mhajs ger tnj skneed$se tnjy met hwhy wltn tnj tre!dj tnjy keoslstjotdy met lote. njy wjrj ojvjr knhrmj` wltn!o`jrhmj `rloclom$ !ddylom ho` hssh!dtlom ye!omjr eys$ er tnj httjaptj` rhpj eg h ke!pdj eg tnj i!oler mlrds.
(vjo wnjo tnj ghaldljs eg tnj twe mlrds trlj` te mjt tnja hrrjstj`$ oetnlom khaj eg lt. HrhnhaFhrrls#s ghtnjr whs h kep$ se tnj lovjstlmhtleo whs scjwj` tewhr` dhalom tnj twe mlrds gersedlkltlom$ ho` wnjo tnj eys we!d`o#t phy$ tnjy krlj` rhpj. /g ke!rsj lt whs hdd dljs$ !t tnjystldd met hwhy wltn lt.
Oerah skrjhaj` hs Hrhnha mrhj` njr hocdj ho` p!ddj`. [nj n!om eote tnj rhokn hevjnjr hs jst snj ke!d`$ wnldj snj trlj` te clkc nla egg. 5t `l`o#t werc. Fj kdlaj` nlmnjr ho` nltnjr co!kcdjs$ se tnht snj whs gerkj` te djt me. *s snj gjdd$ tnj etnjr twe eys mrhj` njr ho`tnrjw njr te tnj mre!o`. [nj clkcj` ho` skrjhaj` !otld eoj eg tnja hsnj` njr njh` lo wltnh rekc. [nj whs eody hdlvj phrt eg tnj tlaj$ hs tnjy teec t!ros rhplom njr. [nj `lj`seajwnjrj lo tnj al``dj eg lt hdd. Fjr splrlt resj grea tnj skjoj ho` whtknj` lo nerrer hs tnjeys wjot te Hrhnha#s tr!kc ho` khaj hkc wltn h snevjd. njy !rlj` njr rlmnt tnjrj !o`jrtnj wlddew trjj.
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2ld`rj` nh` djgt tewo wnjo snj whs jvlktj`$ se Oerah whso#t rjpertj` alsslom. 1njo snj`l`o#t rjt!ro te skneed$ lt whs hss!aj` tnht snj nh` meoj wltn njr aetnjr. Oe eoj jvjodeecj` ger tnj peer `jh`$ looekjot mlrd wne ojvjr `jsjrvj` njr rettjo ghtj. Fjr splrlt dlomjrj`!o`jr tnj trjj ger h tlaj$ kdesj te njr e`y. hmj ht tnj loi!stlkj eg njr dlgj ho` `jhtn$ !ldt !plo njr splrlt hs tnj wlddew#s djhvjs t!roj` yjddew ho` gjdd !peo Oerah#s snhddew mrhvj. njo
tnj soew khaj ho` !rlj` tnj ghddjo djhvjs. nj s!aajr khaj ho` tnj jh!tlg!d wlddew#s`reeplom rhoknjs wjrj kevjrj` lo d!sn mrjjo djhvjs. Oerah#s splrlt jkhaj g!dd eg nhtrj` ger tnesj wne nh` djgt njr e`y tnjrj !o`jr tnj trjj$ hdeoj ho` germettjo.
[nj `jkl`j` te sjjc rjvjomj eo tnesj wne nh` re!mnt njr te s!kn h phlog!d$ dest ho` deojdyjo`. Fjr splrlt nevjrj` hre!o` tnj hcj snep tnht nh` sjt jvjots lo aetleo tnht dj` te tnjjmloolom eg njr jo`. [nj jmho te geddew tnj hcjr lo ho` e!t eg tnj snep$ sdhaalom `eers$t!rolom tnj hcj evjos !p tee nlmn se tnht tnj dehvjs eg rjh` !rot !p. [nj ah`j njr ghkjhppjhr lo tnj alrrer s!rghkj eg tnj sthlodjss stjjd grl`mj. nj tjrrlglj` hcjr skrjhaj` ho` gjddhmhlost tnj mhs stevj$ wnjrj tnj tjh cjttdj wnlstdj` evjr ho epjo gdhaj. nj cjttdj whscoekcj` evjr$ ho` nls sdjjvj kh!mnt glrj lo tnj gdhaj eg tnj !rojr. Fj rho te tnj sloc te r!o
ked` whtjr evjr lt. 2jhownldj$ Oerah kh!sj` tnj evjo altts eo tnj ke!otjr jsl`j tnj stevjte khtkn glrj. nj ehc k!ttlom ehr` jsl`j tnj altts kh!mnt glrj ojxt. 5o tjo alo!tjs$ tnj jotlrjcltknjo whs eo glrj. nj hcjr rho e!t tnj hkc `eer skrjhalom. Fls wlgj hrjdy nh` tlaj tevhkhtj tnj hphrtajot hevj tnj snep wnjrj tnjy dlvj`. 1ltnlo glgtjjo alo!tjs tnj hcj snepwhs jom!dgj` lo gdhajs. Oew tnjy wjrj neajdjss tee.
1njo tnj ojw skneed yjhr jmho$ Oerah#s splrlt sthdcj` tnj tnrjj eys tnht nh` clddj` njr.[lokj njr ghkj hppjhrlom eo h rjgdjktlvj s!rghkj nh` prevj` se jggjktlvj wltn tnj hcjr$ snjhppjhrj` lo tnj htnreea alrrers eg tnj eys. njo snj met losl`j tnjlr mya hms ho` ah`jtnja nep hre!o`. [nj nh!otj` tnja grea Fhrdho#s ne!sj$ te Hrhnha#s ne!sj te Dhrry#s
ne!sj$ p!ddlom egg kevjrs$ skrjjknlom lo tnjlr jhrs$ tnrewlom st!gg hre!o` tnjlr reeas. njywjrj ojrve!s wrjkcs. nj tnrjj sthrs eg tnj skneed geethdd tjha sthrtj` te ahcj st!pl`alsthcjs$ tnht dest hdd mhajs. nj tjha tnht ke!d`o#t desj dhst yjhr$ ke!d`o#t wlo tnls yjhr.
njlr pep!dhrlty whoj`$ hs `l` tnjlr krj`lldlty. Olmntahrjs pdhm!j` hdd tnrjj eg tnja$ whclomho` sdjjplom. njy ke!d` sjj njr ohcj` djj`lom e`y ht tnj ettea eg skneed sthlrwjdds$d!rclom lo kerojrs eg tnjlr ne!sjs$ ho` lo tnjlr kdesjts. njy wjrj jvjot!hddy clkcj` e!t egskneed ger `rloclom eo tnj skneed mre!o`s. /oj sprlom `hy dhkj` wltn grjj8lom rhlo$ tnj tnrjjlotexlkhtj` eys khrjjoj` egg tnj lky reh` ojhr tnj wlddew trjj. 5t krhsnj` lote tnj trjj wnjrjtnjy nh` clddj` ho` !rlj` Oerah. Fjr splrlt whtknj` wltn shtlsghktleo. [nj ke!d` nhvj jhsldyah`j tnj khr !rst lote gdhajs$ jkh!sj njr splrlt whs streomjst njrj$ wltn njr e`y. [nj
`l`o#t$ tne!mn. [nj `jkl`j` tnjy a!st dlvj te phy ger tnjlr slos.
nj ghrajr tnht ewoj` tnj gljd` wnjrj tnj wlddew trjj mrjw$ shw tnj hkkl`jot$ ho` khddj` gernjdp. 1njo tnj eys wjrj `!m e!t eg tnj vjnlkdj$ Oerah#s e`y whs !ojhrtnj`. (vjo tne!mnsnj nh` spjot evjr h yjhr lo tnj mre!o`$ tnj tnrjj eys# @O* whs hdd evjr njr kdetnlom$ ho`wnht rjahloj` eg njr e`y.
nj eys wjrj mlvjo tnj `jhtn pjohdty$ ho` wjrj mlvjo tnj djtnhd loijktleos tnht jo`j` tnjlrdlvjs. *dd tnrjj eg tnja wjrj slxtjjo yjhrs ed`$ !t tnjo Dlddlho nh` eody jjo ge!rtjjo. 1njo
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tnj dhst ey whs `jkdhrj` `jh`$ Dlddlho#s splrlt `lsslphtj` lote tnj e8eoj dhyjr. [nj#` nh`joe!mn.