through the eyes of a child

DRAFTThrough theeyes of a child

James Willis

Published by FastPencil

DRAFTCopyright © 2012 James Willis

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DRAFTContents

Inside Tears 1

Thinking of you 7

FlatLine 11

A Mother’s Warmth 15

Cold Nights 19

Song Unwritten 23

Man You Never Knew 27

A rose by any other name 31

If Heaven was a mile away 35

Fame 39

Heaven Number Line 43

DRAFTA Mother’s Love 47

Guardian Angel 53

Daddy’s Forgotten Son 57

America The Great 61

Inspiration 65

Man In the Moon 69

Let Me Love You 73

Through My Eyes 77

Wishes 81

DRAFTInside Tears

DRAFT who will cry for the little boy?Lost and all alone.Who will cry for the little boy?Abandoned without his own? Who will cry for the little boy?He cried himself to sleep.Who will cry for the little boy?He never had for keeps. Who will cry for the little boy?He walked the burning sandWho will cry for the little boy?The boy inside the man. Who will cry for the little boy?Who knows well hurt and painWho will cry for the little boy?He died again and again. Who will cry for the little boy?A good boy he tried to beWho will cry for the little boy?Who cries inside of me

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DRAFT Who will cry for the little boy? As the cow bell still rings As images still play in his head from his best and onlyfriend Closed his eyes on his face and hands were blood darkencolor red Who will cry for the little boy? Who experienced sex at such a young age Only to be molested by his baby sitter when no oneheard him say stop or scream Who will cry for the little boy who strives to be The best he can be Who will cry for the little boy who travels the worldalone

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DRAFTWho will cry for the little boy Who struggled to get out and make it from street tostreet Who will cry for the little boy Who been to hell in back Who will cry for the little boy A good boy he tried to beWho will cry for the little boy?Who carries the world on his shoulders As he continues to cry for what is not seenWho will cry for the little boy?Who cries inside of me

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DRAFTThinking of you

DRAFTThinking Of YouI am always thinking of you 24/7,All day and all night.You took my pain away,And made the darkness become light.There’s no words,That can express the way i feel.Because you are so true,Which makes it feel real.When i listen to your voice on the phone,It brightens up my day.Your words so sweet,Causes all my pain to go away.Just talking to you,Calms my soul.Maybe being with you,Is one of my goals.But right now,I sit and think of you.Just sitting and wondering,About how beautiful you are too.Because beauty is beautyAnd beauty is trueYou are my heavenAnd that is true

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DRAFTBy: James Willis

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DRAFTFlatLine

DRAFTrushed into this bedwhats wrong with methey r poking me with tubessomeone help, i cant breathethey say get readyprep him for the o.r.call doctor so n so stati am under Anastasian my dream, i am fighting ail, beat him tooracing at the sprint cup seriesin my arms i hold my daughter, we are playing in theparkthe wife come running to bring us lunchthe sun is setting, its after dark. the moon is up, we aresitting under the stars by the sea, next thing I knowthree man n mask comen take them, no, no wait for me. then the next thing iremember is that im here on this table.i heard the doctor say he has multiple gun shots to thechest, all i could think no waitit cant be timeI am have a wife n a daughtergive me my timemy heart is crashingdoctors bring in the crash cart

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DRAFTup to 300, clearnothingshock him again!!!!i watch my soul leave my body as i hear-ed her voiceone more time,daddy i love uwith a smile she said you’ll be just finemommy waiting tocan we get some ice cream pleasemy wife says honey, i love u very much,i say to heru r my rock, my joints that keep me togethermy heart that beatsthe blood vestals that keep me warm through thestormy weatheru r my counselor, my lover n my friend,u r my angel, my Adam’s ribmy breath that never endsu r my better half forever n a dayI am coming up with ya ll, i fought the best i could. shesays i know baby u did goodnow grab our hand andtogether lets go home like we should….he flat-line, time of death 18:23

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DRAFTA Mother’s Warmth

DRAFT your an amazing mom, i bet your smile light up hismoon at night and his morning sun. Your the warmthkeeps him warm n the wintern hot n the spring, your laugh makes him feel joy likethe joy of delicious chocolate chip cookies coming outof the oven. You are hisdreams wen he sleeps, his night light when he scared,his heart that beats, the pillow that protects hishead. You are an amazingmother,woman,sister,friend. He couldn’t ask for a betterperson for god to give him to then u. your son is luckyto be bless n wakeup to see beautiful n angelic angel like u, you are theband aid wen he bleeds, the scar to heal his pan. Therenothing like a motherswarmth that shine like warm wet rain. your the paintingof Nigeria falls, the Mona Lisa smile, the four walls of ahouse, the shoes onhis feet, you are a one n a million n i see the hard work udo. You are his heaven, everyday he wakes up n theclouds next to an angel whowraps her wings around him, he is lucky to have anamazing mom like u”

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DRAFTCold Nights

DRAFTcold nights n stormy days,cause for warm hearts and cuddle nightscandle light and steamy showers cause long hot nightand long Sexy hours.steamed windows, head up against the glass, watchingyour body bang up against the glass,cold days n stormy nightscauses two hearts to grow into onewhole one, full of love n passioncold nights are where the best love making happenscold nights and stormy day,make the worst relationships grow into strongersummer day’s

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DRAFTSong Unwritten

DRAFTU r the pen to a fresh sheet of blue bind-ed notebookpaper,you are the blue pen that starts to write but don’t knowwere to startu r the thoughts on the first line, the lyrics that makesthis song rhyme,u r the scratches when things don’t go right but theambition to keep on going.u r the harmony that keeps these words stuck insomeone head,the beat that matches just right that makes someonebump the headu r the hard works that pays off when you receive anaward for me,u r the top downloaded single that over a million play inthey poofs on repeatu r the feeling that u get when you do a platinum albumthe gussy feeling u get whenever u hear me and it relatesto the things u r going through in life, u r the reasonsongs like me are rare,u r the feeling u get when the radio makes u number 1u r that feeling someone gets when they r hugged upunder the moonlightu r the “oh that’s my jam,” that makes someone groove,

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DRAFTyou are the wedding song, the song that makes u lightup a smile wen you are in a shitty mood. u r the releasedate that sold-out stores,u r the reason Grammy exists for artist like uthe “thank u god ” for all u dou r the reason we spend hours in the lab trying toperfectu r the song that has yet to be written titled unknownthe finished copy of a true meaningful love song ”

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DRAFTMan You NeverKnew

DRAFTI am the man that has your backI am the man who support uI am the man who pays yo duesThe man u never knew…I am the man who would call you not out your nameThe man who would make u smile all the sameI am the man who treats u like a queenThe man of fairy tale dreamsI am the skinny guy who cares but shows he wants to bethere…I am the man u thought u never get to know, i let myactions show i am,the man who asks no question’s butgives his all to uI am the idiot who u ignoreI am the man u afraid to take a chance onThe one who secretly makes u smileI am the man that wants to be your Aladdin n u myJasmineI am the man u pasted up, the guy who toes u step on2, I am the man who good, very good to uI am the man u never knew

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DRAFTA rose by any othername

DRAFT A rose by any other name smell so sweetgrowing upI planted this seed in my mother’s garden with my momand over the years I watched it go through hell and backDry hot summer days and cold long stormy nightsAt times it felt like there would be no rain so that thewater would absorb into the ground and into it’s rootsNow I see how strong you’ve became and the obstacle’syou out grewYou’ve out grown, poverty, hunger, and war, you’veseen violence and still you manage to shine with abeautiful smile and so uniqueYou stand tall and strong I hope you plant more seeds because as you sit in my window sealyou stand firm and tall, your head held high ready to face any storm, you are what most are afraid tobecomesome are stuck in the middleother’s come close and get lost on the way but you leadthe way for other’s to follow without playing monkey inthe middle Your pedals shine so bright when the sun shines, yourrosy red color makes everyone stop and admire you

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DRAFT your beauty outshines the moon glow and still at nightyour the only thing shinning as the stars reflect youMom would be proud if she could see how wonderfulyou grewA rose by any other name has no other meaningexcept the word that starts with the letter= U

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DRAFTIf Heaven was a mileaway

DRAFTDear GodI’m only 7 and I’m coming to you todaymy dog is sickand I need your help right awayHe been with me for as long as I can rememberI remember when I was 5he jumped on me and knocked me downall I can remember was someone yelling“Timber”Mommy says he has cancerDaddy sits in sadness all the timeYou know they say ” A dog is a man’s best friend”He used to enjoy running, chasing stray catsI remember this one timehe ran awayhe was chasing after a squirreland guess whatthe squirrel chased back.So GodI am asking you to help me pleaseI brought him to show and tellhe licked and played with everyonethe funny part was when he urine on Billy.He’s been with us for every HolidayChristmas was his favorite one of all

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DRAFTonce the clock struck 12:00 am on Christmas’s dayhe’d still one of santa’s cookiesand give you a barkjust to say HeySo if you took himand heaven was only a mile awayI’d travel to heaven at 4:00just so we could sit and play.

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DRAFTFame

DRAFT I am a 22 year old rock starsome people would say I have it madefans, glamor, music career, and a big house where I staybut if I could trade it all in just for a dayI would give it to 3rd world countriesand help stop povertymaybe come up with a way to cure canceror AID’SI would teach business’s people in other countries howto help build a better business for there townsso that they could hire more people to workand help families growI would start up a savings account for every child andhelp build and feed every homeI would be Santa to the kids and bring them the best ofgifts they could only dream and teach them that they can believe in their dreamsand goals if they push and work hard enough, I wouldtell them that you can believe an anythingthat your imagination is the greatest gift you can have,because as long as you are creative and imaginative youcan be better than what you had in the pastIf I could trade in being a rock star for a dayI would help prevent homelessness because everyonemakes mistakes

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DRAFTI would cure the world from the disease of selfishnessand hateIf i could just have one dayeducation would be free and health care would be foreveryonefamilies would grow together and loveIf i could do it all todaythe world would be a safer and betterplace, so maybe I’ll start tomorrowbecause today I have a show to play

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DRAFTHeaven NumberLine

DRAFTWaiting in Line sucksI’ve been hear for hoursplease will this line hurry upA voice saysSon be patient because that is the keyBut I have a meeting with my sonHe’s the captain of his college baseball teamHe needs me, today is an important gameIt’s the National SeriesI remember when he was young and all he wanted to dowas play catch with meman was I stupidI put work before my sonand my familyit was no wonder the wife and I fought all the timeIt was because of meThe voice said Don’t blame your selfI said but it’s trueI was a big time lawyerthat night is as clear now as the sky color blueI was leaving the office when the wife called and told meto bring home some dinnerI had just receive a phone call about a defendant whowas wrongly placed in prison and had to be releasebefore Friday. I was trying to do everything at once

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DRAFTI had to run back to the office and grab a hold of theclients file, my son’s baseball game was at 7 pm, all thewhile I had to make it home before 6 so I can help putfood on the table. It was 5:30pm and I wasn’t sure Iwould be ableSo I rushed to the store and grabbed a few things weneeded to eat, pizza, and some ice cream, a big bag ofpeanut m&m’s for me and a couple other things. As Iwas walking to my car, a man said to me ” hey are you,so and so” I said yesHe nothing, then all I hear-ed were screams, I lookeddown and saw I was bleeding but I couldn’t see fromwhere. The next thing I knew i was hereSo you see it’s important I need to reach himlet me through pleaseSon if you hear, I love U and your sister very much, Isorry I put the job before you and I’m sorry I’m notthere today. You were the greatest son any father couldever ask for. Tell your mom I love her and if I couldmarry her all over again I would in a heart beat. Son hita few home run’s for your old man. I’m watching overyou every step of the way. Have a good game andbecome National ChampsI’m sorry I couldn’t make it today

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DRAFTA Mother’s Love

DRAFT A mother’s loveIs always trueIt’s all you needTo get you throughA mother’s loveCan seem like hateShe’s only toughTo keep you safeA mother’s loveIs always thereIn simple waysShe’ll show she caresA mother’s loveCan never compareWith anyone else’sAnywhereA Mother’s love, is sure to find A way to comfort, ease your mindShe knows just how, to build you upWhen you’re so down, and can’t look upYou love the way, she makes you feelLike you’re so special, her ideal

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DRAFTHer thought must start, with God aboveTo bring such caring, with such love And as it flows, like gentle rainIt surely helps, when troubles painComes your wayA mother’s loveCan never break a bondBut mend all troubles and make the rain at night turninto sunshineIt’s a dream catcher when you sleepShe’s always there to catch my dreams especially theones that scare me.A mother is strong, even when she weakIt’s something untouchable given 24/hrs., 7 days of theweek.A mother’s loveBeats on the dailyIt’s the love she gives that guide you through the roughyears on a dailyA mother’s loveComes from God’s heartTo spread through the world and its love starts with mefrom the startThere isn’t just one day

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DRAFTThat can express how we feelSo on this day may we give u all our loveunconditionally realGiven from him to meAnd it’s a blessing trueHis gift was the best mother in the worldU”

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DRAFTGuardian Angel

DRAFTIf Guardian Angelswere real and could fly down to earthI’d ask to fly across the worldduring the nighti’d fly high above the moonjust have you in my presence’syou are my guardian angelmy strengthmy passion, my creativeness, my joy, the feeling you getwhen someone inspires youmy heaven on earth in moreyou are my joints that make me move,the lungs that help me breaththe beats in my heartu r the world at its best everydayu r what the meaning of joy is and the feeling

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DRAFTDaddy’s ForgottenSon

DRAFTDad had to work againlate always at the officesometimes I wonder why he is still aroundI mean he is never there to watch me playhe is always workingsometimes I feel like i am just in the wayi have to take care of the family read my sister a story at night so that she can sleepI have to comfort mom at night when she criesbecause she wondering if you will come home beforeshe goes to sleepI got an A in all my classesI posted it on the fridge like old timeshoping you see it and we’d hang outjust the two of usand we would have fun times.So dad where are youwhen we need youmostfamily comes firstbut I guess to you we are just Ghost

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DRAFTAmerica The Great

DRAFTAmerica the greatif the Statue of Liberty could speakI’m sure she would walk the world and take a look andsayI thought I stood for Freedombut how could that beWe are afraid of changewe bully as a economic societywe don’t come together as oneselflessness is our main priority.The word freedom means to judge without color,gender, or sexuality,the government is so corrupthow can we create a better world without poverty whenwe can’t even get along in our own house or senateviolence is out more in the streets then it is love in thehomes, this isn’t freedomthis is hell on earth continuing to go wrong, I’d traveledthis world and see more money is being spent on thingswe don’t need instead of helping each-other to feedanother and better each-other’s education, where is theroot word FreeWhat do I stand forbecause this isn’t freedom if you ask meHow can we have a future if we are afraid to change

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DRAFTwhat we as human’s are still causing and doing

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DRAFTInspiration

DRAFTWhat inspires me to write these poemsis that I take a look at the worldand see whats wrongboth the good and the badso that I can help change the worldand make it a better place for our kid’s to growfor families to liveto build better structured homesand help educate our kidswhat inspires me is everyday peoplewho work hard to make ends meetwho makes sacrifice’s for the things they want and goget what they needU inspire me to be a better writerto help change and bring to life what I seeto help better America for the futureand change the worldYou are what the definition of inspiration mean’s tosomeone like me

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DRAFTMan In the Moon

DRAFTWhen I was a little boy just around the age of 5I believed in Santa, the Easter Bunny, Tooth Fairy’s,Jack Frost, the sand man you name itand I believedbut no one told you about the Man In the Moon didtheyhe watches you when you sleephe protects your home and everyone in itMy mom told me about him when I was 2 years oldbecause I was afraid of the darkand she said it’s okthe man in the moon can be your night light and helpyou dreamHe watches over the world at night and protects us fromevil thing.You have to find your inner child if you want to believeIn the man in the moonsometimes you wonder why the moon is so bright andonly part of it when you look up in the sky you see thatit is greythat is where he livesand he watching over youeven on today

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DRAFTLet Me Love You

DRAFTLet me love love from day 2 nightlet me be the one 2 make u cry at nightlet me love u like no other can seelet me love u the best way i know how,always andforever babylet me love u when your downlet me show u that there’s no need for a frownlet me huge u and hold u tightlet me be the one u tell good nightlet me love u….like they do in the skys abovelet me love u with my unconditional lovecause see baby im not like all these otha dudes seei wont hurt u,hit u or even call u names baby.let me be the one u think aboutlet me be the one who u love with out a dout.let me get 2 see yo smile and beautiful facelet me show u the best love in the world everydaylet me love ualways and forever and ever.”

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DRAFTThrough My Eyes

DRAFTThrough My Eyesif I could let me show you around the gates of hellbut bear with meif your reading this it may get graphicOn your right you have a woman having sexy and notgiving a damncan’t blame it on the father or the motherit’s from the video that sex is the only way to get a manto your leftyou see a homeless man begging for something to eatoh and did you see that person drive away but a minutebefore he reached the light he pulled out $20’s like hewas a gAt the cross walk you see children with barely any flesh,a bowl made out of dirt and the only water they have todrink is the rain waterFurther on the tour you see a kid being bullied for hisshoes his mom worked 3x as much over time just to gethim and across the street you see drug deals being soldin a high school parking lot to a minor under the age of14.Wait lets stop and watch the new since we have a littletime on the tour5 teens committed suicide, because word’s can cutworsen than you think

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DRAFTHealth insurance are rising, kids dropping out of school,Shall I continue the tour or have you had enough ofseeing what I seethe government taxes middle class so that the rich canbecome richerPeople killing people over shoesjust last night a father killed his family over a situationgone bad at work. He brought his work home and killedevery one he knew8 year old girls being traded for sex on the black marketbanks being robbed everydaywhere is the love we are supposed to createplease stop the hate and help lovethis tour has come to an endlet change the future of the world and make it asafer and better place

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DRAFTWishes

DRAFT A shooting star just passed me byor was it an airplaneno it was def. a shooting starmake a wish, make a wishmy girl saysI say did alreadyshe asked what was itI said wait and seethat if you haven’t figured it out by nowthan your not ready.

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