Yanti B. Sugarda

My being floatsBetween the real and unrealA constant wish to be true

To both worlds

My true beingResides eternallyIn a dreamworld

The wish to be envelopedIn the embrace of

My eternal true love

Bringing with meThe fantasy

Of my own True LoveInto my real world

I come out of my dreamI enter my mortal self

Carrying you in my heartEverywhere you are there

You are everywhereWhenever I need youI need not be lonely

You Are Everywhere

End of the dayTrickle of tears swept awaySoft strokes of the fingers

Lingering on lashes of silky gray

End of the dayKeeping the tears at bayClinging to hopes of love

Existing in a land far away

End of the dayWistful longings come to stay

Dwelling in deep crevicesWhere sweet memories lay

End of the dayHopes not to end in dismayPeace brought forth to reignVivid dreams in full array

Evening Glow

Yanti B. Sugarda

If I could leave this worldIf I could dream

I would be in a landWhere angels and flowers dwell

My true love by my sideHolding my hand

Walking down the pathThe path of everlasting love

I would have searched my heartThe inner sanctuary

Of which deepest dimensionsHeaven gave my soul to carry

The lost love has transfusedInto the depths of immortalityThe keepers of love and truthSent such beauty to eternity

Love is foreverNever lost, never diminished

In the misty land of angelsKept eternally unblemished

Love is eternal

My Flower Dream

Yanti B. Sugarda

Yanti B. Sugarda

If your are really close,Then my spirit will be able

To touch you and feel your warmthWherever I go and whatever I do

If you really feel for me,Then I can always count on you

To share any joy or sadnessThat fills my heart

If you really care for me,Then I know you will never hurt me

If your are true,I will feel it

If you are not true,I hope that you will tell me frankly,

For I will not demandWhat you will not willingly offer me.

If You Are There

In the middle of the nightSleeping restlesslyDreaming dreamsI should not haveWishing thingsI could not have

The passions and longingsThe tenderness and sweet caresses

Are there yet unreachable

Something seems amissEmptiness returns

Fear grips my heartLoneliness looms

Standing beside the bed

I am jolted out of sleepWith sudden realization

In The Middle Of The Night

Yanti B. Sugarda

I come out of my dreamI enter my mortal self

Carrying you in my heart Everywhere you are there

When I am afraidYou are there

In my darkest hoursProtecting me from my fears

When I am trying to sleepYou embrace me

Whispering words of loveSending me into my dreams

You are everywhereWhenever I need youI need not be lonely

You are always there for me

Out Of My Dream

Yanti B. Sugarda

Sometimes one wondersWhy people

Have the tendencyTo cover themselves in shields

Of aloofness, of avoidance,Of disinterest, of forced vivacity

Of pretentiousness

Are there woundsAlong the path of life

That have not yet healed?

Are there remembered unpleasantnessesThat should not be allowed

To reoccur ?

Yes, we meetA lot of fearful people

The victims of past pains

I would like to openThese shields

It is not going to hurtBecause I would like to be

A FRIEND

The Fear Of Getting Hurt

Yanti B. Sugarda

In the land of the spheresWhere mists and vapours flow

Layers upon layersOf spiritual lights aglow

The lights of love angelsCrisscrossing among the halosSwift wings in every direction

Releasing cupid's arrows

The flash of longingCalls beyond the misty waves

In vain calling outTo search for the love knaves

The loss of loveLamented in despair

The broken pieces recapturedTime and space cannot repair

Yanti B. Sugarda

The Land Of Lost Love

When the virtual illusionsEnter reality

When daydreamsBecome vivid tangibles

When fantasiesBecome too real

There is no more sanctuaryThe unreal has brushed

The realThe unreal has burned

The realThe unreal has impinged

Upon the real

Where is one to flee?

Dreams have changedTaking on a tangible shape

Driven by force and passionUntrue to the dream

I am unwaryI am the victim

Of my own dreamsAnd fantasies

What message

When The Unreal Becomes Real

Yanti B. Sugarda

Before you look at mePlease look into me

Appearances belie the soulAppearances don't show

my weeping heart

My appearanceIs what other people see

My surface selfMy superficial self

I cannot see myselfI see what others tell me

How I lookPrevents peopleFrom seeing me

The real me

Tell meWhat do you see

Can you not feel my soul, ever?

Yanti B. Sugarda

Look Into Me

In the middle of the nightI sit awake in subdued lightWishing with all my might

To once again be able to writeFrom the depths of my heart

It was an awakening sensationTo find a caring companion

Entering into my lonely dominionPromising to reach a union

Of two souls lost by separation

But in this empty surroundingAs I muse among those sleeping

Fearing my dreams are disappearingInto a deep pit of longing

Beyond the reaches of understanding

I feel the need to recallThe closeness we had, without a wall

Union almost complete, not allWondering what powers I must callTo have the unity I seek be eternal

I seek closeness and unityTo make my nights be filled

with serenityTo let me be able to sleep

in peaceYanti B. Sugarda

Deep Night Musing

End of the dayTrickle of tears swept awaySoft strokes of the fingers

Lingering on lashes of silky gray

End of the dayKeeping the tears at bay

Clinging to hopes of loveExisting in a land far away

End of the dayWistful longings come to stay

Dwelling in deep crevicesWhere sweet memories lay

End of the dayHopes not to end in dismayPeace brought forth to reignVivid dreams in full array

Yanti B. Sugarda

Evening Glow

I am an emotional person. I express my emotions.

Through my words, through my poems.

My emotions would sometimes Be seen as irrational,

Such as the concept of dream world and earth world .

Yes, perhaps I tend to be irrational, But there always is a logic in my irrationality.

Basically my logic is intact.

I think I am a logical thinker. Emotional, sometimes irrational,

But always logical.

Yanti B. Sugarda

Emotions And Logic

I climb out of my shellMy shell of normal reality

To explore myselfWho I really am

What I really want

Am I asleep all this time?If I am asleep, I want to know

Am I awake all this time?If I am awake, I want to know

What heights am I capable of?What depths can I explore?

Is my present lifeThe life for me

Or is there another worldWaiting for me?

Yanti B. Sugarda

Exploration

The surge of warmth, like a warm breezeEncompassing my senses,

evaporating the chili breath of the cold winds,originating from the unmoving, stone-cold earth

The warmth of you, the warmth emanating fromyour body, your lips,

your soul, your smile, your eyes, your armsThe warmth of the fire burning in your heart

The frozen feelings, cold as iceStart to unfreeze,

melting down in drops and trickles of molten loneliness

to disappear forever into the shadows of the grey fogs

Vanish forever, all coldness, darkness and dampness

enemies and nightmares the winds of loneliness blown away into

nothingnessby the everlasting fierce breath of your enduring

love

Yanti B. Sugarda

Fierce Breath Of Love

You tend to accept me And be tolerant of me and my views

I am not quite sure your acceptance of meIs not some sort of compromise

Repressing your own needs And submerging yourself into my wishes

I believe that this kind of compromise Would be felt as obligatory in the end

It would be a good reason For falling out of love.

On the other extreme, I tend to be a bit harsh

Always trying to find weak spots Which could harm our relationship

Not believing that this love could last

I tend to have misgivingsAbout the genuineness of our relationship

Despite its transformationInto my dreamworld

I am ruthless in my bluntness

Searching for proofOf the endurance of your love Preparing myself for the worst Not able to endure the reality

Yanti B. Sugarda

Exploration

Your love and careYour embrace and kissesI hold dear in my heart

Forever and ever

I can feel the beatingOf your heart on mineI can feel your warmth

On my cold fingers

If you hold me closeAnd love me truly

I will never feel aloneI will never feel afraid

Please hold me tightStay in my dreams

Please always be with meForever

Yanti B. Sugarda

Your Love And Care

Are you reaching my soul, and finding

who I really am? Are you realizing how I really feel?

Souls cannot connectto each other on earth

without the use of words.

But words have its limitations. Direct connection between the souls

should be achieved, without words.

If we don't have

access through words, we should be able to feel other souls

without words.

we should connectthrough our spirits.

If you really feel deeply

Yanti B. Sugarda

From Soul To Soul

Have you ever thoughtHow our souls came to be here

On earth and not somewhere else?

Have you ever thoughtHow we came into being?

Who, what, where we were before?

Have you ever thoughtWhy we exist here on earth

Inside the human form of our existence?

Have you ever thoughtWhat blood relation really is

What human contacts are all about?

Have you ever thought How our destiny is determined

If it is determined without our help?

Have you ever thoughtIf each soul is alone independently

Or is it perpetually linked with other souls?

Have you ever thoughtIf the universe is our playgroundOr are we stranded only on earth?

Yanti B. Sugarda

Have You Ever Thought?

The Haunting Spiritof Love and Passion

by : Yanti B. Sugarda