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The Deer AreRunning

Jack Galmitz


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The Deer are RunningCopyright Jack Galmitz

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The %eer are running& Running 'ortheir li(es& Through water& )ater(ery *lue an% white& +tems o'%ea% plants protru%e here an%there& ne is ahea%& I %on-t know i'

he is the lea%er or merely the'astest runner& ne nearly has'altere% an% create% *rown wa(es&

They all create *rown wa(es& Thewater must *e shallow& It-s har% totell 'rom their 'aces i' they arerunning 'rom something 'ear'ul ortowar%s something 'ear'ul& Theterror is there& I am a'rai% 'or them&I 'eel 'ear& +uch wakes 'ear makes&.our %eer& .our wakes& /n% mine,which is not there& r, is there *utonly I can see it& The chaos 'earmakes& The lea%er, we-ll call himthat, looks to ha(e reache%shallower water& 0ay*e they-ll *e'ree o' whate(er stunne% them&/n% my heart can stop racing& Thistime&


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Twine & Damne% twine& It must

ha(e gotten wet at some time& Icoul%n-t untie the knot it ha%taken& I wante% to use it to hang apainting I ha% 'inishe% an% now thee%ges were 'raying& I wasn-t sure i'it woul% *e long enough& I-% *eenat it so long that sweat was%ripping on the ta*le I was workingat& .rom my chin& 1(en 'rom myel*ows& It was ma%e 'rom 2ute, astrong 'i*er, an% it clung togetherno matter what metho% I use% toseparate it& It ma%e me itch wheresmall particles *roke o'' an% stuckto my wet skin& It remin%e% me o'wool& It coul% *e so't i' you stroke%it on a sheep, *ut once sheere%an% stretche% into threa%s an%wo(en, it coul% cut into your skin atany moment like an insect-s teeth&

I was *eginning to 'eel itchy aroun%my neck& Not the kin% o' itch you


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want to scratch, the kin% you know%raws *loo% i' you %o& Just thepain'ul kin% that comes 'rom anim*e%%e% sharp3e%ge% material& Iremem*ere% a time when I wasa*out eight years ol% an% ha% towear a tie 'or au%itorium in school&0y mother chose a woolen tie that

I hate%& I tol% her I %i%n-t want towear it& +he hit me in the 'ace&0ore than once& I remem*er it wasan e4pensi(e tie, *ut I can-t recalli' she *ought it or it was a gi't& Ilike% the pattern an% the way itknotte%& 5ut I crie% to her that ititche% me all %ay aroun% my neck&I swore when I was ol%er, I woul%ne(er *uy woolen clothing&5esi%es, the trauma o' *eing hitlike that ne(er le't me an% 'romthen on was associate% with wool3an% now twine& /s I continue% totry to unra(el the knots 6I 'aile% tomention that the twine ha% *eentie% a num*er o' times7, a 'on%memory o' a 'o4 o' a woman, re%3haire%, too, returne%& )e wereha(ing an a''air3 I was a gra%uate

stu%ent at a school where herhus*an% was on the 'aculty o' the


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math %epartment3 an% were goingto Toronto to spen% a weeken%&+he %i%n-t want me wearing myusual %ungarees an% lum*er shirts,so she wante% to *uy me pants&)hen she mentione% wool3 it *eingwinter3 I tol% her I coul%n-t wearwool& +he was a clothes %esigner

an% recommen%e% ga*ar%ine,which she sai% %i%n-t itch orscratch& It turne% out she wasright& I thought i' I ha%n-t recentlycut my nails perhaps I woul%n-t *eha(ing so much trou*le with theknots& Then, I thought my nailswoul% ha(e *roken against thetension in'use% in the tying o' thethrea%s& I ha% thus 'ar trie% tounloosen the top knot with (ariousthicknesses o' nee%les& /s sharpas the points were I coul%n-t getthem *etween the two lengths o'twine& I pushe% one thick nee%lethrough towar%s where they 2oine%an% with one han% at each en%pulle% up on the nee%le& The coils%i%n-t *u%ge& I nee%e% somethingstronger an% hea(ier& I trie% a

tweezers, thinking it woul% graspthe line an% allow it to li't out o' its


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con'ines& 8owe(er, this pro(e% as'utile as the nee%les& .inally, out o'%esperation, I snippe% the e%ge o'the protru%ing twine an% trie% topush it out with a Phillip-s screwri(er& 9n'ortunately, all thathappene% was that the en% o' thetwine crushe% an% 'raye% a *it

more& I took a *reak to %ry my'ace o''& I put on some music tohelp rela4 me as I worke% thepro*lem out& /'ter trying to pull onthe e4ten%e% loops o' the *oun%twine themsel(es without their*u%ging, I ga(e up& I thought o'throwing out the twine, as I ha%%e(elope% a personal antipathytowar%s it& Then, an i%ea occurre%to me& I took the twine as it was toa store in the neigh*orhoo% thatma%e trophies an% laminate%things such as %iplomas& I aske%them i' they coul% make a *ronzecast o' the twine& They sai% theycoul%& I also wante% it mounte% onen% on a mar*le *ase, which theysai% they coul% accommo%ate mewith& .inally, I wante% a small

metal pla:ue on the mar*le to rea%


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;The 9n%ispute%< an% my name*eneath it&

I repeat mysel'& I repeat mysel'& I

repeat mysel'& ou repeat yoursel'& ou repeat yoursel'& ou repeat


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New York City & +irens&>ampposts& +treets that slope%ownwar% go %owntown& +treetsthat slope upwar% go uptown&

Trains un%ergroun% that go up an%go %own town& That go east an%go west& 8ansom ca*s in Central

Park 'or tourists& They %on-t goanywhere& Just some clop clop o'hoo(es an% sometimes hugesteaming %roppings& 8ospitals&8ospitals& 8ospitals& 1mergencies&1mergencies& 1mergencies&+tores& +tores& >ights& Jewelryshining& )omen-s clothing onmanne:uins& 5ars& People liningup to see a 2azz concert& Peoplelining up to see a mo(ie&Chinatown& l% *uil%ings& Crow%so' outsi%ers& >ines 'or a restaurantthat has *een gi(en a goo% rating&)or% o' mouth& ? million mouths&/*an%one% *uil%ings& +teel %oors&Drugs passe% un%er one way,money the other& >ines o' people*uying 8& )or% o' mouth& >ines o'people *uying C& )or% o' mouth&

14pressway, o(erpasses,*uttresses, a*utments, %esolate


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places, homeless out *egging oralrea%y sleeping un%er *ri%gespans& +tretch limousines 'rom the*oroughs 'ille% with into4icate%chil%ren o' the working classes&Ca*s like yellow32ackets& 8ornspresse% %own& elling insi%e&Domestic %isputes& Domestic

(iolence& Domestic a*use& Police&Police& Police& .ires& 8ook an%>a%%er companies& )hiskeypoure%& 1ast Ri(er& The 8u%son&

The :uiet Cloisters& The :uiet5ron4 @oo& +e4& +e4& In hotels& Inresi%ences& n the street& In cars&In mo(ie theaters& 9n%ergroun% inthe meat market %istrict& Iceskaters at Rocke'eller Center& TheChristmas tree lit& The *allet&5reak3%ancers& +treet musicians inthe col%& +treet per'ormers&

nlookers& Champagne& Night Train& .lAneurs& +tray cats& +tray

%ogs& ne huge, ol%, *lack %og *ymy house& )e-(e talke% *e'ore& /young man unaware o' e(erythingwalks up to pass us like an arrow inthe night& The %og growls an% the

man 'reezes& I talk the %og %own,release his crisis& I tell the man to


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walk aroun% me, :uietly, so'tly,without 'ear& I thank the %og 'or itsgenerosity& I tell him I sympathizewith his plight, *eing out%oors an%harrie% an% unwante% an% soonhunte%& I tell him I woul% take himin i' I %i%n-t ha(e so many cats& 5ig,*lack, *rutal an% ol%& The city&

The man is 'orty3'i(e an% li(es withhis mother& 8e has always li(e%with her& 8e is in a 'oreigncountry3 /merica3 an% a'ter'ourteen years is still una*le tospeak an% rea% an% write in1nglish& 8e has ma%e no e''ort inthis regar%& 8e has not worke% in'i(e years& 8e collecte% 9&I&5& 'ortwo years an% %i% some *uying an%selling o' Chinese anti:ues on thesi%e& Then, two years ago, coming*ack 'rom a 'lea market, he slippe%in the *athroom o' a thruway reststop an% 'racture% his skull& 8ewas rushe% to a hospital inConnecticut an% un%erwent *rain

surgery 'or ? hours& 8e %ie% an%was re(i(e% a 'ew times on the


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this that 'inally *rought out hisstep'ather, who was kept out o'these 'ights *ecause he was/merican an% %i% not speakChinese& .rom the poun%ing thelast time, he thought the man must*e poun%ing with his 'eet on thestone 'loor& 5ut, no, he was

actually poun%ing on the so'a,which cost the step3'atherB#, ""&""& 8e was now on +ocial+ecurity Disa*ility himsel' an% tol%the younger man that i' he *rokethe so'a he woul% call the policean% ha(e him remo(e%& The stormsu%%enly *egan to su*si%e& Therewas still high3pitche% so**ing an%kicking, *ut o' %iminishe% strength&/n%, then, su%%enly, it went :uiet&8is wi'e sai% nothing& The youngerman sai% nothing& It was like anyother +un%ay a'ternoon& The step3'ather coul% watch 'oot*all, take awalk in the slums he li(e% in, rea%a *ook, or smoke an% %rink co''eean% listen to music on hiscomputer& 8e woul% ne(er *einclu%e% in these out*ursts an% he

woul% ne(er 'eel like a mem*er o'


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a 'amily& 8e %i%n-t care %eeply&8e was waiting to %ie&

Between the 'lakes& The trees&

+peech& +he sai%, ;I think it-s thenew contours, the *lurring o'


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e%ges, the loss o' 'ocus that makessnow'all so *eauti'ul& >ook at theshru*s& 5e'ore they ga(e awaytheir %eath& They were sharp an%without %irection& Now they looklike contemplation in a Chineselan%scape painting&< It was histurn an% incum*ent to *e the other

si%e o' the rock& ;It lasts so short atime& / 'ew 'ootprints, a 'ew cars,an% it *egins to *ecome slush&

Then it melts an% runs to cornersan% you can-t cross& It-s %angerousgoing 'or ol% people an% %ri(ers&ow li(es ha(e theircunning& That sha(e% hea% *astar%who %oes the *illing actually tol%me a story a*out a 'rien% o' hiswho *ought homes in .lori%a an%sol% them to gays3a growingmarket3an% then laughe% alou%, asi' homose4uality was anamusement& I' only any o' theseignorant shits knew that the

/merican Psychiatric /ssociationan% /merican Psychologists


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/ssociation ha% *oth remo(e%homose4uality 'rom their lists o'mentalKemotional illnesses a*outthirty years ago& They still think'rom the street, 'rom the rocking*rimstone *i*le church with itsknowle%ge o' human nature%e(elope% in the 5ronze /ge&

Psychological *ullies, torturersL

There was a *oy, a 'ew years ol%erthan the rest o' us, who use% tohang aroun% the schoolyar%& 8e

was a goo% car% player an%e4ceptionally smart& I was tol% he


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was gay, *ut I coul%n-t put thati%ea together then, *ecause hewas strong, i' wiry, athletic i'somewhat wil%, an% 'ast as a testcar on the %esert& There wasnothing unusual a*out him,although I suppose such thinking ismerely stereotyping& Mnowing then

in the #E "s that he woul% 'ace 2o*%iscrimination, he %eci%e% to 2ointhe post o''ice an% staye% there 'orhis whole li'e& 8e was one o' theguys an% I %i%n-t 'eel any%iscom'ort aroun% him& ne %ay Isat at one o' the chess ta*les in theschoolyar% an% on the *oar% was as:uirrel& Peter, the gay youngman, ha% 'oun% it in his car an%ma%e a pet o' it& It was o%%& Thes:uirrel %i%n-t look real it was sostill an% I ha% ne(er seen a s:uirrelso accustome% to people as to 2ustsit in their company& Peter tookout a peanut an% ga(e it to thes:uirrel, who took it in his clawe%han% an% chewe% it open& Iwoul%n-t touch it& I ha(e to a%mit Iwas a'rai%, not 2ust *ecause they

sometimes carry ra*ies, *ut simply*ecause to me they were small


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wil% animals& Peter stroke% it aswe all talke% a*out it& .inally, hetook it in his han% an% carrie% it tohis car an% put it in the *ack seat&)hen he le't, I thought, %amn,that-s the :ueerist thing I e(er saw&


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#hen I walk these streets I passthrough angels, a *ir% with *rokenwings& 8ow many yar%s, whatspee%, what re'lection, %i% it take'or it to *reak its neck& It looke% atme& I coul% see it coul% see& 5ut I

was no sa(ior coul%n-t hol% thelea(ing& Things happen&+u%%enly, I-m thrust in a situationo(er which I ca(e& Its eyes hel%mine like the han%s o' a smallchil%& )hat coul% I say& )histle atune to soothe it, as i' I weren-ta'rai%& It coul%n-t *e 'oole% *ymusic howe(er inspire% it may& Itnee%e% assurance it nee%e% toknow I was *ra(e& I picke% it upan% stroke% its hea%, small as thetears that angels she%, an% sai%,;Plo(er chick, 'ar 'rom the shoreso' *irth, soon you-ll *e *ackamongst the others at the watersgrowing up&< The eyes were wi%ean% small an% un%eci%e%, *ut I wasall it ha% so it truste%& I was late'or work& I %eci%e% to take o'', take

a train an% go to 0ontauk Pointan% lay the *ir% in the %unes or in


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the 'lats or 0arram grass, where itcoul% %ie where it knew *est, coul%smell the salty air, the win% o'' thesea-s *ack, the piping perhaps o'its own kin% in the whirlwin% air& Iput it un%er my hat an% o'' wewent& I whispere% to it an% tol% itthe name o' each stop, so it woul%

store it in memory o' its li'e& /man *esi%e me eye% me in a waythat I 'elt sure he knew I ha% aplo(er chick on my hea%, *ut whathe %i%n-t know was the *ir% ha%'oun% me or the other way an% Iwas 2ust 'ollowing or%ers& )e goto'' an% there was the 0ontauklighthouse at Turtle 8ill, the'urthest tip o' >ong Islan%& It-s ahea(ily woo%e% area an% I coul%see an% I showe% the *ir% thecon(erging o' the /tlantic ceanan% 5lock Islan% +oun%& I took atrail into the woo%s an% sat on arock an% tol% the chick to take alook at the seals sunning on theo''shore rocks& I-m not sure it coul%see anything more than a *lur, *utthere we were 'inally& /s the sky

turne% pink an% la(en%er, I sai%goo%*ye to the *ir% an% place% it in


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some san% grass& Its eyes werestill wi%e an% it was still ali(e an% Ithink it thanke% me&

Gentleman 6H7FI-(e *een in'orme% *y a mutualac:uaintance that your gallery islooking 'or an otherwise healthytwo3hea%e% cal' 'or e4hi*ition& Ithink I may *e a*le to assist,although I woul% nee% your priorguarantee that the animal6s7wasKwere not shown 'or theamusement o' your patrons an%that itKthey woul% not *e *aite% orhumiliate% or stare% at 'or anyamount o' time e4ten%ing *eyon%two minutes 6as this seemssu''icient 'or (iewing an%protecting the animal6s7- %ignity&

Coinci%entally, I ha% place% a wantnotice in a 'ew local newspapers


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out west 'or 2ust such an itemanimal an% recei(e% two replies,one 'rom )yoming an% one 'romNe*raska& The 'armers areawaiting my response& I suggestyou place the animals6s7 in a pensurroun%e% *y mirrors, as this willgi(e (iewers ample e4posure as

well as ampli'y the polycephaly&Perhaps, a *ill*oar% with a *rie'history o' the con%ition mightrecommen% itsel'& ou may want to%iscuss the mythology o' theancient Greeks- Typhon OCer*erus, the 8in%us- Ra(ana, theRomans- Janus 6nee%less to say7,an% such creatures *eings as

rochi, @mey Gorynych, O+(eto(i%& These are merelysuggestions, as I am not a curator*y tra%e, *ut a *ar*er&

The musical score cean o' +oun%s*y John Cage woul% *e ana%mira*le accompaniment to the(isual e4perience& It clim*s an%ten%erly touches an% repeats notesmuch as the cal'-s polycephaly%oes i' (iewe% properly& It will

so'ten the (iewersK(oyeurs toreach a state o' holy regar% 'acing


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the acci%ents o' our natural worl%&+peaking o' which, 2ust how %o youplan to prepare 'or the unnaturalsurroun%ings o' your stu%io space&)ill you *e willing to lay so%,perhaps that %iamon% shape so%they lay in ankee +ta%ium, as thiswoul% com'ort the cal'H 8a(e you

listene% to John Cage-s +uite 'or Toy PianoH ou can play this oncecean o' +oun%s completes its

running& I strongly recommen%that you ha(e instructors, license%pet trainers, teach your (isitorshow to stroke an animal-s hea%6s7&+ome %on-t like to *e touche% onthe hea%, as it terri'ies them&Please *ear this in min% inpromoting your show&/s I un%erstan% it, you willsimultaneously *e e4hi*iting onloan 5uil%ing I %esigne% *y/ntony Gormley, as well asrepresentati(e pieces 'rom theshow against NatureF The hy*ri%'orms o' mo%ern sculpture, whichwas recently at the 8enry 0ooreInstitute in >ee%s& I think *elie(e

The Rock Drill *y Jaco* 1pstein O0organ >e .ay *y Pierre Roche will


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nicely *alance the cal'-s presence,as it places the li(ing *eing againstwithin :uestions o' Darwiniane(olution an% mo%ernist sculpturalimagination&Please con(ey your anticipate%response to this in:uiry /+/P, as Iwill ha(e to make arrange 'or

purchase an% trans'er& I want tominimize the trauma, assumingyou are stea%'ast in yourintentions, an% much planning willgo into this& I am in a wheelchair,which 'urther complicates thematter6s7& I presume your galleryis in accor%ance with access law 'orthe %isa*le%& In January, !""Q, theNew ork +tate Di(ision o' 8umanRights incorporate% a section o' the'e%eral /&D&/& co(ering *usinessesor places o' pu*lic accommo%ation&

That allows state en'orcement o'the part o' the /&D&/& re:uiring;places o' pu*lic accommo%ationto make reasona*le mo%i'icationsin policies, practices an%proce%ures when pro(i%ing access'or a person with a %isa*ility,< sai%

John P& 8errion, %irector o'


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%isa*ility rights 'or the +tateDi(ision o' 8uman Rights&/s 'ar as what %ecisions are ma%eregar%ing the cal' a'ter thee4hi*ition runs its course that willha(e to *e %iscusse%& I *elie(e*arnyar% animals are not permitte%in resi%ential areas, so I will not *e

a*le to gi(e the cal' a home&Perhaps, you can 'in% a suita*leplace in the *ack o' your gallery,well3sheltere% an% com'orta*le 'orthe cal'& I suggest you contactyour lawyers regar%ing this&


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The 'ar o'' soun% o' a siren wasnearing& )hen it got closeenough, he looke% aroun%, to seeoutsi%e i' there was a 'ire or i'someone was %ying an% people inthe *uil%ing were assem*ling

outsi%e& It was %ark an% he coul%not see *ut he coul% imagine there% an% *lue stro*es o' light 'romthe (ehicle on the walls o' thechippe% re% *rick *uil%ings& )as itan ol% man or woman %ying o' aheart attack or stroke an% this wasthe last 'ew moments o' their li(es&)as it a man %ea% alrea%y in hishome, the *athroom water running,a neigh*or ha(ing calle% the 'ire%epartment 'or help& Thathappene% to him once an% he an%the 'ireman agree% that i' the manwere %ea% there woul% *e a%istincti(e an% strong o%or& /week later when they were calle%again an% clim*e% *y la%%er intothe apartment, it turne% out theyha% *een wrong& The man ha%

*een %ea% 'or two weeks& The'ireman there sai% there was no


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smell *ecause the temperaturewas col%& )hene(er he hear% asiren approaching, he alwaysimagine% it was coming 'or him& Totake him away or *ring him to ahospital, restraine%& 8e %i%n-t seeany help or ser(ice in sirens& 8ewas counting on %eath& 8e was

looking 'or %eath& 8is li'e ha% *eenso %isappointing an% he was soshut3o'' 'rom the worl% an% anycontact with people& 8e ha% cometo know laughter was cruelty& Thatyou coul% always %epen% on*etrayal& That howe(er well youknew it, the kni'e still hurt& 8eemaile% a 'rien% in Taiwan to%iscuss poetry& 8is only 'rien%swere on the internet an% they werenot easily a(aila*le& They all ha%'amilies an% responsi*ilities an%only so much time 'or him& 8enee%e% much more&


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The strings to hea(en werese(ere% with scissors o' water& /ll'ell %own& )e went shopping an%*ought& Nicolas Joseph Cugnotin(ente% a steam powere%automo*ile in #? E lea%ing to *ankro**ery getaways, the %eli(ery o'milk *ottles, an% steaming hoursstuck on stagnant highwayssometimes to the *each an%wa(es& 0en an% women stoppe%wearing hea% co(erings asprescri*e% in Corinthians an% thewa(y look *ecame 'ashiona*le&>ouis3 ictor %e 5roglie claime% thatall matter, not 2ust light, ha% awa(e3like nature& +ome peoplecare% most %i% not gi(e a 'uck& )e

sat on the knoll *y the lake an%watche% win% ripples all %ay& >ess


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an% less o' the *o%y was co(ere%&)e were not ashame%& 1%isonin(ente% the light *ul* an% soonnight was %ay an% stars wereplucke% %own an% place% on 'ilthy,co**lestone% streets& Trains weregi(en o(erhea% catenary systemsan% people tra(ele% 'rom 8o*oken

to Gla%stone looking out at cowsan% horses, tractors, threshers an%night gathering 'rom clou%s o'gray& Then *ack again& 1le(atorsclim*e%& The iron 'rame raise%&Cities were mountain rangesapartments ca(es& )e wore lessan% were not ashame%& +teamshipstra(ele% oceans, ri(ers, lakes,%roppe% goo%s at ports an% %i%n-tstay& )e looke% aroun% an% sawoursel(es& )hat we thought weprinte% an% it staye%& )e%issecte%& +aw how we were ma%e&Diseases were catalogue%& )elooke% aroun% an% saw oursel(esan% wa(e%& )e ma%e steel an%*uilt tanks an% machine guns,han%3grena%es, airplanes an%*om*s& )e were less than nake%,

millions were merely *o%y parts&)e playe% the harp& )e coul%n-t


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reattach the strings to the sky&6Though some thought that theyha%&7 >ooking %own 'rom theo*ser(atory o' the 1mpire +tate5uil%ing are lines o' yellow ca*san% cars an% corners, gri%s, an%%ark stops& ou can see Piet0on%rian in his stu%io puri'ie% o'

things painting 5roa%way 5oogie)oogie& ou can anticipate +hinya Tsukamoto& I took an ocean liner

an% stoo% on the %eck an% thoughno one was waiting 'or me at the%ock, like e(eryone else I wa(e%an% wa(e% until my arm %roppe%&

There$ a 'ew 'amily photos I keepon the wall in whate(er motel orone3room occupancy hotel I rent&0y 'ather looks so young& 8e wascon(icte% twenty3'i(e years ago 'ormur%er an% now he-s mi%%le3age%&

ou coul% say I ne(er ha% a 'ather,

*ut that woul% not *e accurate& 8ewrote to me weekly 'or all these


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years an% I wrote *ack& 8a(ing no'amily, I ne(er %e(elope% arelationship with society3I wassuspen%e% 'rom school *e'oregra%uating 8igh +chool an% I%e(elope% no work skills to speako' so, I worke% with my han%s ato%% 2o*s& I like% working with my

han%s an% one %ay I %eci%e% totake the letters *etween me an%my 'ather an% sa(e them in someway& I coate% them with paper3machS, li'te% some o' the paper,an% let certain wor%s in *lue inkpeak throughF so*er, sorry, li*rary,church, cooking were a 'ew that Ile't (isi*le& I also sa(e% my 'irstreply to him& >et most o' it show& Iwas 'aith'ul& )hat *egan as aho**y turne% into a way o' li'e& I*egan to *uil% small rooms 'ille%with woo%en sculptures o' my'ather 'acing me in a chair& Then I%i% a series calle% I ne(er playe%*all with my 'ather, in which ne4tto a ru**er *all, I ma%e out o' my'ather-s mug shot a pro'ile o' himan% place% it on another ru**er

*all& This was my way o' ha(ing arelationship with him& Then, I %i% a


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series o' painting calle% my 'atherwas not a thing, mo(ing 'rom arealistic painting to increasinglya*stract ren%erings o' him an%then a series o' *ursting non3representational paintings& It wasat this time that I *egan to showmy art at galleries& The showings

were success'ul an% I 'inally 'oun%a way to li(e in the worl% an% *epro%ucti(e& 9ncon(entional, *utmy 'ather in his way *rought me upright&


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