sexual suicide
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Alyssa, Ahmad, Quan, and Tiffany are back in Sexual Suicide, the sequel to Somebody Else’s Vows. With her marriage on the rocks, Alyssa realizes it is time to stop playing with fire and decide to whom her loyalties belong. She desperately wants to mend the wounds of her tattered vows with Quan, but the alluring temptation named Ahmad is one she can’t seem to shake. When an unexpected run-in occurs secrets that have been hidden behind closed bedroom doors come tumbling out, forcing everyone to come clean…or sort of. Can Alyssa and Quan’s marriage survive the mistakes of the past or is the truth enough to sign and dry the ink on their divorce papers? An uncertain wife, a scorned husband, an envious lover, and someone who is determined to win by any means necessary, set the stage for a potential murder, and suicide in a way you have never imagined.TRANSCRIPT
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Sexual Suicide
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Norlita Brown
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Sexual Suicide
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Time had decided…
not to be my friend. I knew Q was clocking my
every moment, waiting on the opportunity to pounce, with
his “aha!” Q had filed for divorce several months ago and
had I not contested it, we would be happily single right
now. That would have been a whole lot better than these
feelings of guilt racing through my veins. I don’t know
why I contested it either.
If I were to guess, I would say it had everything to do
with the fact that Q didn’t just leave it at we had
irreconcilable differences. No! He wanted to cry on the
Judge’s shoulders talking about how wrong I had done him.
To make matters worse, he brought up the fact that I had
fallen in love with Ahmad. I would have tried to argue my
point but instead I decided to play hardball. Chrisette
Michelle’s Blame it on me couldn’t counsel me then. I
couldn’t help but laugh as I recollected the events of that
day.
“Your honor,” I said with tears brimming on my eye
lids. I tugged at my brown vest, then brought my hands to
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my face and wiped away the tears with all the drama I
could muster, “I am so in love with Q.” I looked over at
him and watched as his jaw dropped. “I don’t know why
he wants to leave me,” I said and took hold of the Kleenex
that was being offered by the bailiff, I wiped my nose and
continued. “I feel like I am the only one who has put any
effort into saving this marriage and now he’s decided to
just throw me out like yesterday’s trash.” I sat back down
in my seat as if the weight of it all was just too much for
me to bear.
“We have built so much together and if only for that
reason we should give one another a fair chance to work
beyond our differences.”
Judge Michaels looked at me as if she wanted to cry
with me, as if my pain was hers and countless other
women’s. She looked at Q, “Mr. Robertson, I tend to agree
with Alyssa,” she said. I took note of how she referred to
me informally even though this was the first time we had
ever encountered one another.
She picked up a pen and began writing, “I am going to
recommend that you guys seek counseling,” she said, “I am
assigning you Dr. Carol Donovan,” she continued before
tearing a sheet from her pad and handing it to the bailiff,
who in turn handed it to Q. “You’re more than welcome to
seek your own counselor as well, but this one is not an
option.”
She stared us both in the eyes as if we were being
parented for some wrong we had done, “I want to see you
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both back here in 6 months, but I want you to give it an
honest try. Okay,” she said as she looked directly at Q.
I left with a smirk on my face knowing that all of it
was just a game. I no longer wanted Q as I could tell that
he sure in hell didn’t want me either.
None of that mattered right now as I drove home from
Ahmad’s worried that Q would know exactly where I was
and what I had done. I wondered what Tee would do in
this same situation and then I smiled, today, I was going to
try to fill Tee’s shoes.
I flew up the back stairs like I had wings; my clothes
hit the floor before my feet had a chance to gain steady
ground. I jumped in the bed with Q and for the second time
that day my head was in a man’s lap. I looked up at Q’s
startled expression, but as I continued to place my warm
tongue along everything that was his, I watched him relax
and give in to the pleasure.
I tried to force Q to sex me the way that Ahmad just
had. I wanted the aggression the passion, but Q just
reverted back to our same ordinary sex. I closed my eyes
and envisioned the love I had just made with Ahmad, the
way his soft lips touched my body, the hardness of his
chest, the memories set me on fire and caused my body to
explode.
I opened my eyes and looked at Q’s boastful
expression. ‘Humph,’ I thought, ‘if only you knew, that
orgasm didn’t have anything to do with you.’ I held my
tongue and my peace and went to shower with the
revelation that my sex life was about to look up.