down

the streets

I see myself reflected everywhere, in every window, in every brick. Faces staring at me, and theyre all me.

Trilbies scattering down paths, scarves dissolving down doors, Guitar Hero controllers being scrutinized by whatever beings hide behind my coloured shadows.

5:48 PM

Theres something solid forming in the air.

Is that a black guitar?

I see it, but Im not the only one. A faceless gentleman, being led down the prison block to his cold cell, fills the room, is reflected everywhere, and is fully aware of everything in

here. Does he see me?

5:49 PM

I see seven secret sentences written on the walls. I hear the laughter of seven children. I feel seven cathedrals prepare for the end. The Neonate leaves for his Tower, The Knights

prepare as Rapture is coming. The Harlot and The Beast begin their game of cat and mouse.

A book closes, and the only memory I have of these lies on the page I just wrote.

5:50 PM

A concert of zombies shudder as Peter Gabriel sings.

Wonder women, you can draw your blind.

Dont look at me, Im not your kind.

IM RAEL!

5:51 PM

WHERE THE HELL AM I let me try to gather my thoughts.

I see trees. But Im in a car. Im.. in the backseat of a car. Were driving through a forest. The Lamb Lies Down on Broadway is playing on the radio. The sky is a darker red.

Whos driving?

5:52 PM

Gather your thoughts, gather your thoughts. Its a giant.. uh.. its.. like.. a Cockroach Jesus. A cockroach. With Jesus head. I darent speak up.

10:59 PM

..fuck, okay, that was such a cheap lie.

11:00 PM

RAPTURERAPTURERAPTURERAPTUREOW

Fuck, that hurt. ..wait, what? Tiger Stripes! TIGER STRIPES! YOU CAME BACK TO ME! And hit me in the head! Please dont do that ever again, ohhh my favourite X-Plorer

guitar controller, Tiger Striiiipes, I missed youuuuuuu, ahahaha! ..but.. whered you fall from? The sky? ..the sky is bright red again.

Im getting close to home.

11:05 PM

Its oddly quiet. Im keeping Tiger Stripes so close.

11:09 PM

Okay, Ive made it to my neighbourhood. Were pretty much home free, Tiger Stripes.

I think we can take this part slowly.

11:10 PM

Yknow, for a total Rapture, End-Of-The-World scenario, this isnt half-bad. I could get used to this. I could get very used to this.

11:11 PM

Okay, I know its actually 23:11 and all, but Im gonna make a wish anyway. I wish I had a girlfriend.

Could you imagine that? The world might end with me remainingOh hey, my house is pretty close.

11:12 PM

hello, eight spidercats!

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4:07 PM

Far below the borders on the crown of society,

Mankind turns to dance.

No soldier wins when the inferno begins,

No artist leaves his trance.

God, I never get tired of that song. The Inferno Begins, Sunsetters. Track four of Summer Sucks, beautiful rock opera.

wait a minute. Im actually hearing this.

Someones playing my prog.

4:10 PM

MOTHERFUCKER ZOMBIE IN MY ROOM HE WAS LISTENING TO MY CDS WHAT THE FUCK

Godfuckingdammit, how long have I been out of it?! Im looking around the house.

4:12 PM

KITCHEN. THERE WAS SOMEONE. KITCHEN. ZOMBIE, I THINK. Ohhh god. Oh god. Oh god. oh my god I can't find a weaaapooon.

4:13 PM

Okay. I found a big book. Im gonna deal with this just like Im killing a spider.

4:14 PM

I havent left yet. I forgot Ive never killed a spider before. Not with a book. Fuck it, Jordan. Just go for it.

4:16 PM

OH MY GOD YOURE NOT A ZOMBIE YOURE A GIRL

Im so sorry, hi, Im sorry for waking you, please dont hurt me!

Im not gonna hurt you! Wow! Whoa! Uh! let me put this book down!

Im really sorry for waking you. I was just looking for some food when I found your music collection. You were in the fetal position, so I assumed you were dead or.. or something.

Its okay! Yeah, I have a pretty big collection. ^^;

..so yes. Where are my manners? Hello. Im Jordan.

Donnivan.

Charmed. :D

You can help yourself to my food. I dont know where my parents are; I think its just you and me here. So yeah.

Help yourself.

Thank you

You dont happen to know whats up with the whole

No. No, its all a mystery to me too. Sorry.

Its okay. Here, let me.. let me show you around!

5:22 PM

Shes in the bathroom now. Donnivan is a very attractive girl, really. A redhead. I like that. Then again, I guess at this rate Id take anyone.

..sorry, I mean.. bah. Shes.. got someone. Back in the States. She says she met him at a.. an anime convention. Its a long-distance thing. Yknow, if this Rapture had happened a

little earlier, there would have been a couple of parallels with me; I had a long-distance girlfriend a while back who was also in the States. As it stands, I simply sympathize.

..oh god. I think shes crying. Im gonna go check on her.

Getting light. Very light. No sun, though. Just red.

6:13 AM

We played I Spy.

6:38 AM

Found a car, a big SUV, filled with good food and drink and whatnot. Time for a picnic!

6:40 AM

So why do you wear that.. outfit, anyway?

Good question. I dunno, really. I like to look distinguished, I guess. Makes me feel comfortable. And

cool. Kinda like the Doctor or something!

Looks more like the Blues Brothers.

Yeah, theres a bit of Blues Brothers influence, but that was really just a coincidence. I wear the coat

because of the slender man, and the hats inspired by Yahtzee Croshaw. But its all just influences,

not really that important.

I think Ive heard of Yahtzee. Whats the slender man?

Oh! Haha, the slender man! Goodness. Its an urban legend, this tale of a man whos seen in the

backgrounds of photographs. Hes tall and faceless and wears a business suit and tie. Hella creepy

when you read all about him late at night. Left a big impression on me.

Sounds cool. What does he do?

Nobodys really sure. Usually, the people in the photographs with him go missing. Sometimes theyll

turn up later, disemboweled and strung up on trees. Sometimes theyll turn up insane, sometimes

wearing masks and being violent and unstable. Sometimes they simply wont ever be seen again.

..hes not real, is he?

Hes not supposed to be, but with this whole situation? I wouldnt be surprised. ^^;;;;; I really hope

hes not, though.

6:45 PM

Moving out again!

7:02 AM

Weve still got a long way to go. Were probably gonna stop and rest soon. Maybe.

7:37 AM

OH GOD NO WAY NO FUCKING WAY NO NO NO THATS IMPOSSIBLE THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE

oh, its just a dead guy in a business suit. Never mind. Hahahaaaa, never mind. Nothing, never mind!

7:45 AM

Donnies getting tired. I mean, she seemed pretty tired when we first set out, but now she just looks exhausted. And I admit, Im pretty tired, myself.

Well stop soon.

8:11 AM

We just passed Croydon. Were closer than I thought. Well rest in herjfi0asdH(USFTEAH(EGAJ*)HOLY COCK

8:13 AM

OH MY GOD IT GOT A POT NOODLE WHY THE HELL DOES EVERYTHING WANT MY POT NOODLES

6:36 AM

godddd why is this happening now in a girls bathroom this would be a shitty place to die

6:37 AM

One more time, look one more time and thats it, Jordan.

its not th&&&&&&UUH(_FGHD(GHDG*(HG*DZHV*DZBH*VG* HUAFUJFJ9fAHHAHAHAHHAHHAH

OKAY OKAY OKAY IT its in the stall next to me ITS IN THE STALL NEXT TO ME, OH MY GOD FUCK IT RUNNING RUNNING

FUCK

6:38 AM

I AM SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW OH MY GOD.

yes, maam. >_<

The

I ran out. Then I tripped. I was in a panic, okay? I tripped, and immediately, the.. the that aforementioned.. character came out. Immediately, I godImsoconfused. ACK YES

MAAM SHES SITTING ON ME. I LOVE BEING SAT ON OH MY GOD BUT THIS.. SHES SCARY.

She.. shes telling me to write. In my journal. Like a good boy. Shes telling me everything I want to hear. Shes.. awesome. But

shes so creepy.

She says to call her Mistress. Wont give anything else. She wont answer any of my questions.

She says shes got the power to kill me right now if she wants to. She says she knows me inside and out. She says she knows

whats best for me, whats worst for me. She says shell guide me, shell lead me through the Rapture. She told me to write those

quotation marks.

Her voice is so nice. Mistress is so nice.

Mistress normally puts her strings in anyone who comes near, Mistress usually strips them of their free will. Mistress says she has

a fetish, a free will fetish. Mistress says shes been waiting for someone who will obey her of his own free will. Mistress says Im

perfect for her, Im not a slave but a pet. Mistress says shell call me slave if she wants to, but Im her de facto pet. Mistress even

used the term de facto, I love her but shes so scaaaary.

Mistress says the time is 12:30 PM.

Mistress wrote the message on that one stall especially for me. The message with the heart.

Mistress will let me go, Mistress wont kill me.

Mistress will find me where I sleep next. Mistress will show me more of the joys of being a pet.

Mistress is going to get up now, to let me leave.

I am going to leave this hotel.

I am going to take Donnie and we are going to leave this hotel.

Im so confused.

6:46 AM

I should do as she said. I mean, shes letting me leave. I get the feeling she really doesnt normally do that.

Just.. please. Oh god. Dont.. dont.. gah. Lets not mention this. To Donnie. Okay?

6:52 AM

Were out. Were out of the hotel. Donnie and I.

6:58 AM

9:29 PM

One door has a hole in the bottom. I can see only stars through it. Where the hell are we?

Im scared to open any doors.

9:30 PM

Donnie tried a door. Shes just run out again and slammed it. Says she saw a giant screaming face heading towards her. I told her I ran into the same thing once. twice, actually.

Im trying one. Keeping Tiger Stripes so close.

9:31 PM

Oh my god. This is a gas chamber.

Whered the door go?

HOLYFUCKFUCKFUCKDIEDIEDIEDIEDIEDIE

9:32 PM

HANDS DOZENS OF HANDS RISING OUT OF THE GROUND HITTING THEM AS HARD AS I CAN

9:33 PM

ONE GRABBED MY FOOT OH MY GOD WHACK IT WHACK IT

9:34 PM

A DOOR GOTTA GO TO THE DOOREJSGJDU

THE DOOR HAS A MOUTH ON IT.

9:35 PM

EAT GUITAR CONTROLLER, DOORMOUTH.

FUCKER I DIDNT MEAN REALLY GIVE THAT BACK

ohgod its covered in saliva now.

That doors out of the question.

9:36 PM

ALL THESE FUCKING HANDS OH MY GOD

FUCKER

FUCKER

FUCKER

9:37 PM

FUCK IT IM TRYING TO ACTUALLY OPEN THE DOOR

IT WORKED

ohhhhgodwhere am I now?

WAIT SLAM THE DOOR SHUT

Kay, now where am I now?

9:38 PM

This is a hospital. Im in an hospital hallway.

9:40 PM

A poster on the wall gave me the impression Im in Birmingham. Wheres Donnie, though?

9:41 PM

HEARD A SCREAM

DOWN THIS WAY

9:42 PM

CAFETERIA, THATS WHERE IT WAS, DOORS JAMMED

BREAKING IT DOWN

9:43 PM

MOTHERFUUUUUUCKERRRRRRR

DIE NO NO I KILLED YOU DIE DIE DIE DIE

IM GETTING TOO OLD FOR THIS SHIIIIIIIT

DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE

9:52 PM

THERE, MOTHERFUCKER IS DEAD. I KICKED IT; IT IS DEAD.

MOTHERFUCKER WAS A RAKE. That is, The Rake, the creepypasta thing. But I killed it already. What the hell.

Checking cafertetf9jdff9

YOURE NOT DEAD?!?!

SLAMMING DOOR, LOCKING, BARRICADING.

9:55 PM

Donnies in here; she helped me barricade the door. Shes got a nasty slash mark on her cheek.

That. Bitch. Is. DEAD.

Once again, I apologize for my use of the term under such negative connotations. But you get the idea.

9:56 PM

I told Donnie how I killed the fucking Rake already. She brought up the possibility of there being more than

one.

I asked how that could be possible.

She brought up the egg sacs.

Motherfucker, shes right.

There are four Rakes. I dont know how the fuck thats possible, but then again, theres not even supposed

to be one.

9:57 PM

I can hear the motherfucker roaring out there, clawing away at the door. I told Donnie to be ready with her

frying pan. Were gonna team up on the fucker as soon as the doors down.

9:59 PM

This is taking a while. Im starting to have second thoughtsFUCK GET IT GET IT DIE DIE DIE

10:00 PM

FUCKERRRRRR

Mistress is ordering me to take Donnie and go to bed now.

Mistress will see me in the morning.

her giggles. Not so comforting.

11:00 PM

Donnie and I walked home slowly. Donnie stopped by a bin to vomit at one point. We didnt speak to each other.

She knows Im a pet now.

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6:00 AM

Doors knocking. Loudly.

6:03 AM

Bobby G.

The Mistress wants you and the girl.

7:15 AM

Mistress is sitting atop the tallest booth in the marketplace a makeshift throne for a makeshift God.

Donnie looks tired and sick. No doubt shes afraid. I know I am.

Mistress says I shouldnt be so afraid. Mistress is no monster. Mistress wants only whats best for her pet.

Mistress snapped her fingers, and now Genesis Thats All began playing on some speakers that had been set up. Such a cheerful and peppy song.

Mistress commanded me to sing along.

Turnin me on,

Turnin me off,

Makin me feel like I want too much,

Living with yous just puttin me through it all the time.

Runnin around,

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Does she really enjoy the sex? Can you even call that sex?

Can you even call me a good guy anymore?

Can you even call me a human anymore?

5:49 PM

Donnie and I are going out to look for a meal.

Together. .w.

5:54 PM

We agreed not to go towards the marketplace.

Were just looking nearby.

6:02 PM

Restaurant.

Raiding the kitchen.

7:40 PM

There was food. Lots. We cooked some meals and sat down at a table for two.

We talked. About happy things. I told Donnie about some of the fun I had, the new CDs I got, the SLCEMs, DJay

Versus the Minotaur, and how much I missed her.

Donnie told me about a new dress the Mistress got her. Its pretty. And.. blue. I like blue.

We mostly spoke about our old lives, really. I talked about what life was like back when I used to live in America,

all my old friends, my old schools, the video games I once played. Donnie talked about her life in Kingston, the

evenings shed spend with her mother, the days shed spend out wandering through town for the sake of it

At one point, Donnie grabbed my hands and told me how she really didnt know if I was gonna make it back or not.

She didnt know if I had it in me to.. kill people just out of no choice. She didnt even know if she could trust me to

come save her. As much as we get along, I havent even known her for a month. I told her she was completely

right; Im practically a stranger to her. I told her I completely understood why shed be so afraid and hopeless.

These are tough times. But the important thing is that Im back.

I mean, that is the important thing. ..right?

8:01 PM

..I killed those people. I killed a lot of people in that church.

I did. Ive done horrible things.

I cant imagine how much disgust Donnie must feel.

10:43 PM

Im terrible.

11:01 PM

..Donnie gave me a hug. Randomly.

Maybe she doesnt hate me.

But Im still terrible, I am.

11:11 PM

I wish I could redeem myself.

RJ9can see hat im wintg

NTIAO BNI NI NI NO NONO ONCUCK OYOU FUCK YOUONO THATS A HAMMER

(The next several pages have been ripped out.)

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2:33 AM

HRFNLFFAI FG a break LONGER THAN A MINUTE PLEASE

(The next several dozen pages have been ripped out.)

8:19 AM

I hurt I hurt plaaes break plesae

(The next several dozen pages have also been ripped out.)

5:55 PM

nomore

oh god

(Even more ripped-out pages.)

10:01 PM

penis aching ass bleeding mouth ready to throw up

oh my god please mistress teeth really

(This days log is almost completely missing. Maybe thats for the best.)

11:00 PM

mistress says thatll do bitch learned his lesson yes maam

sleep on floor tonight

dont care

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2:34 PM

head

ow

hurts

up

door

nobody

3:10 PM

limp

ass

blood

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..oh! Hi, Mistress!

I see you lifted the oven door from inside!

And I also see that youre kinda on fire!

Like, wow, youre hot!

Literally!

Hahah, I mean.. youre not mad at me, are you?

See, thats.. how you win the game!

You shove the other person in the oven!

Im running now BONES YOU TOLD ME THAT THING WOULD BURN HER

THEN AGAIN NO YOU DIDNT YOU JUST GAVE ME THE RECEEEEEEIPT

9:30 PM

OUT OF THE KITCHEN

OH GOD THE RESTAURANTS FRONT DOOR IS BLOCKED BY FIRE

WHERE THE FUCK DID THAT FIRE COME FROM

MISTRESS IS BEHIND ME

..AND SHES ALSO MELTING OH MY GOD THATS PRETTY BADASS

9:43 PM

I HAVE AN IDEA

Ill whack her with Tiger Stripes again. Maybe, since shes melting, shes weak against it or something!

Cmoooon, Tiger Stripes. Cmooon Tiger Stripes.

BATTER UP

9:44 PM

..o_____e

I, uh.. well.. Tiger Stripes destroyed her wooden skin, alright.

Now its shattering like a big piece of glass.

And now esgjk9fb..

..asrjgwemiefwmiefiwe. mwirIW$wrwirein! D:

Its Rosa Syclus. At least, whats left of her after all these years of insanity. Or whatever.

Shes.. I mean, the woods gone, and the fire stopped with the wood. So now its just Rosa. And me.

Shes in a dark-crimson dress. Shes a ginger. Freckles. And, well, okay, shes more of a corpse than

anything else, a living corpse.

Except her eyes arent anything like any zombie Ive ever seen.

Her eyes are conscious and calculating. Theres no rage in those eyes, no impatience, no desire to rush

and catch her prey, even though Ive just been standing here like a sitting duck, writing for a while now.

..shes put a hand on her hips. She knows Im writing down her appearance. I dont think shes just creepy,

journal; I think shes a deductive genius. I think she can tell everything about you just by looking at you. Like

Sherlock Holmes, but better, cause shes a dominant fucking girl!

Shes just in the crimson dress. Nothing else. I think.

she just flashed me her naked crotch; yeah, shes both wearing nothing else and shes a deductive

genius. And much hotter under the wood.

.no, Jordan. Dont think about how hot she is, nor how brilliant and respectable she is. Shes a psycho.

Shes a psycho. She is a psycho. Remember how shes been forcing sex on you all this time?

Forcing sex. Theres a word for that, Jordan.

Okay, Rosa. I dont know what youre planning, but right now Im after one thing and one thing only.

Revenge. Youve caused too much trouble and Im talking too much

THIS IS FOR DONNIE!

rjsdgguig

BEING SAT ON IS ACTUALLY PRETTY ENJOYABLE RIGHT NOW

9:50 PM

RAGH

BEING UNABLE TO GET FREE IS ALSO VERY LOVELY

BUT I REALLY NEED TO.. GET GOING.

FJK(FEAJKEA MKI FUCK.

FUCK. F(JICJI FUCK!

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7:15 AM

What a beautiful day outside, just lookit that beautiful red sky! It looks just about ready to hug. I want to hug the sky. Dont you, journal? I do. :D

7:23 AM

Theres a goddamn zombie in the kitchen. Just one. Hes slowly looking around. He looks half-comatose. I wanna say he looks like an adults mind trapped in a little kids motor

skills.

Im gonna go get Donnie. We need to get outta here, anyway.

And yeah, journal. I kept my promise. Well, half. I told her it felt so strange, after what Mist The Harlequin did. So she respected that, though I tried my best. I feel almost like a

slut. But thats not fair, journal, its not; Ive read, yknow, about abuse victims and they think really badly of themselves and.. I mean, I guess..

Ill get over it. Oh, I dont have to get Donnie; shes coming down now.

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FIREWORKS

Gas Maskys gone.

The zombies are all just standing around.

What the hell is going on?

9:24 PM

DANNY

Holy fecal matter, its Danny Finnegan! He found us! Goddammit, Danny, I had no idea you were secretly Chekhovs righthand gunman.

Hes got a tennis racket and is whacking a path to us.

9:25 PM

He said Archiell make the zombies fight again if we dont hurry and get out.

Duly noted.

Also getting the fuck outta Dodge.

9:30 PM

SCUSE ME

COMIN THROUGH

BYE

WOULDNT WANNA BE YA

IF YOU COULD TALK, YOUD BE SAYING MY LEG!

That was a lame one-liner.

Im just gonna shut up now.

10:02 PM

The zombies have tapered off.

Now the streets are silent.

10:03 PM

Danny says theres a hotel nearby; he was staying there last night. We can stay there tonight and discuss what our plan is.

10:05 PM

Turns out hes also been keeping some sort of log of his travels, as well.

..pfft, thats a tiny batch of papers compared to my, like, seventeen journals.

That reminds me. Im gonna run out of paper soon. I need to find more empty notebooks.

10:27 PM

Ah, Days Inn. Havent stayed at one of these in quite a while.

10:31 PM

Donnie and I are sharing a room. Of course. >w>

Danny says he wants to be alone, anyway. Says hes got some thinking to do.

Fine by us!

10:42 PM

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5:55 PM

Oh god, all the hugging. >Ww___