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wbwl × A½bv 

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We are led to Believe a LieWhen we see not Thro' the Eye 

----------William Blake

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`ye©‡j i Dci cÖf ~Z¡gvbe mgv‡Ri GKwUme‡P‡q g›̀ ẁK| hvgvbe m„wói Avẁ †_‡K P‡j Avm‡QAvR ch©š—|Pj gvb GB cÖwµqvq me‡P‡q †ewk ¶wZMȪ—n‡”Qbvix| Zvi ci ewÂZ ¶zavZ©gvbyl ¸‡j v|

Rxe‡bi c‡_ Pj ‡Z wM‡q bvi xi ¯v̂axbZvwewf bœf v‡e niY K‡i ‡Qcyi “l | mš—vb Rb¥ẁ‡qI Zvi Dci †Kvb KZ…©Z†bB gv‡qi| Aa©w½bxn‡q mg AwaKvi †Zv̀ ~‡i i K_v̄ v̂gxi f ‡qB ẁb KvUv‡Z nq ̄ ¿x‡K| KL‡bvwbR©vZb mB‡Z nq gyLey‡R| Avevi KL‡bvmB‡Z bv†c‡i Zv‡̀ i †e‡Qwb‡Z nq AZ¥nZ̈vi c_|

cyi “l Zvi Avb›̀ †f v‡Mi c~ Y©†j v‡f bvix‡K evwb‡q‡Q†ek v̈, i ½vj ‡qi i½gqx, DccZœx| †hLv‡b †hŠeb †f v‡MiDrK…ó mvgMÖxbvi x, †mLv‡b fvj evmA_©nxb| †hŠeb f i v†̀ ‡ni g‡Zvbvixi AkÖ“I †hb Dj−vwmZ K‡i †Zv‡j Amf ¨gvbyl ¸‡i v‡K|

gûqvGK Rb †ckv̀vi i “c‡cvRxwebx| AÜKvi GKwUcwZZvcwj−‡Z Zvi evm| ‡Kvb GK Aï f ¶‡Y PvKwi†̀ evi bvg K‡i gûq‡K GLv‡b G‡b wewµ K‡i ẁ‡q‡QbRỳ vj vj | Zvi mv‡Z Av‡ivKZ †g‡qiv| UMi , wecvkv, cwi ,c~Rv, Q›̀ v, i “cmx|

Gẁ‡K evä n‡qB †̀ n wewµ i v̄—vq n‡q‡Q†muRywZ‡K| msmv‡i i GZ̧ ‡j vgvby‡l i gy‡Li f vZ †RvMv‡ZB GB c_†e‡Qwb‡Z n‡q‡QZv‡K| wVK B‡”QK‡i G c‡_ Pj vbq| A‡b‡KUvA`„‡ói nv‡Z ewÜ| Bs‡iwR‡Z Abvm©coZ †Zv†muRywZ| f vj evmvwb‡q A™¢yZ Pwi ‡Î i GKwU†Q‡j G‡mwQj Zvi Rxe‡b| †Q‡j wUi bvg Awj | †muRywZi me †R‡bB Zvimv‡_ Rxeb è ‡j Ki ‡Z Pvq Awj | wKš‘†muRywZ †hb wbDËvc, wbt̄ ú„n|

Rx‡ebi GB Uvbv‡cvo‡bi g‡äB wb‡‡R GB Lvivc c_ †_‡K wdwi‡q bZzb my›̀ i c‡_i ẁ‡K wb‡q P‡j †muRywZ|

†mm¤¢e n‡qwQj Zvi g‡bi A`g̈ evmvbvAvi AÜ evevi Aby‡cÖi Yvq|gvbyl n‡qI hvivmgvR, msmvi , i vóª†_‡K wbM„wn, wPi ewÂZ| AÜKv‡i XvKvhv‡̀ i Rxeb| †mB me cwZZv‡̀ i wb‡q

Avgvi GB Dc v̈L v̈b| RvwbbvKZUzKzcÖKvk Ki ‡Z †c‡iwQf vM̈-weow¤̂Z ‡mB me gvbyl ¸‡j vi Aš—‡i i K_v|  

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UvKvbvẁqvKB hvm? Kvco wVK K‡i `ª“Z weQvbv†_‡K D‡VG‡j vgûqv|Xy j y-Xyj y†PvL Avi Uj g‡j vcv‡q ‡Kvb iK‡g ̀ vuwo‡q †_‡K c v̈‡›Ui †eë j vMv‡Z-j vMv‡Z ‡Nvi j vMvK‡Ú wc›Uz

ej j , wc›Uzgv̄—v‡bi Kv‡QUvKvPvmgvMx?Qzwi dj vi g‡Zv̀ „wó avwi ‡q GK j v‡d wc›Uzi mvg‡b G‡mev-nv‡Z Kj vi ‡P‡c ai ‡j vgyûqv| Zvi ci ej j , GB

kvj vgvZvj , GBWvgvZj vwgi RvMvbv| Avgvi UvKv†̀ |nv-nv-nvK‡i †n‡mD‡Vwc›Uzgv̄—vb ej j , kvj x†em̈v, Avgvi Kj vi awim! †Zvi Lye mvnmevo‡Q| Qvi kvj x

Kj vi Qvi |GK SUKvq wb‡R‡K Qvwo‡q wb‡q `iRvi m¤§y‡L Avmvi Rb̈ cvevov‡j vwc›Uz| wKš‘bv‡Qvi ev›̀ vgûqvAvevi

wM‡q `vuov‡j v̀ iRvAvM‡j | Zvi ci SvwR‡q D‡Vej j , UvKv†̀ f vj n‡e bvwKš‘wc›Uz|‡hb `vuov‡Z cvi ‡Qbvwc›Uzgv̄—vb| GKUz†ewk LvI qvn‡q‡QAvR| Zi j ‡c‡Uco‡j Lyb Pvu‡c gv_vq| ZLb

bvix†̀ n bvn‡j Avi wKQzB f vj j v‡MbvZvi | c‡K‡UAvR GKwUUvKvI †bB †Kb †h Avm‡Z †Mj GB evwNbxwUi LvuPvq|

cwo, UMi , †̀ vj v, wecvkv, c~wY©gvI ‡̀ i GK R‡bi Kv‡Q†M‡j B n‡Zv| wKš‘gûqvi i ƒ‡ci Kv‡QI i v†h wf ‡Li x| gûqvn‡”Qi ƒ‡ci i vbx| Uj ‡Z-Uj ‡Z wc›Uzgv̄—vb ej j , UvKvbvB| mi , hvB‡Z †̀ |‡k−‡l i K‡Ú gyûqve‡j DVj , UvKvbvB †ZvKvg Ki ‡Z Av‡mvQK v̈b ï ‡qv‡i i ev”Pv| ZLb g‡b _v‡K bv|g‡b _vK‡j B ev....., †Zvi g‡Zv‡em̈vi N‡i AvB‡Z Avevi UvKvj vM‡e Avgvi ? ûu, hvB‡Z †̀ Avgv‡i| mBiv

hv|‡em̈vKBqvMvBj ẁwe bvè gvBm| UvKv†̀ |`i Rvi KvQ_vBKvmBivhvgûqv| Avgvi gv_vq Lyb PvucvBQbvKBj vg|wè ª“‡ci nvwm†n‡mgûqvej j , Lyb! †Zvi me Lyb †Zv†X‡j ẁwj , †Zvi Avevi Lyb †Kv_vq ? BZi | UvKv†̀ |mi †em̈vgvMx|

Avi †hb mn̈ Ki ‡Z cvi ‡j vbvgûqv| cÖvq Svwc‡q co‡j vwc›Uzgv̄—v‡bi Dci | ï ‡qv‡i i ev”Pv†em̈vKBqvMvBjẁm| AvwmmK v̈b, †em̈vi Kv‡QK v̈b Avwmm| ZLb †Zvcv‡q a‡i e‡m_vwKm| AvR †Zvi GKẁb wK Avgvi GKẁb|‡QvÆGB Kvgivi g‡ä ï i “n‡j vā —vaw̄—| cÖvYc‡b wb‡R‡K gûqvi nvZ †_‡K Qvov‡Z †PóvKi ‡j vwc›Uzgv̄ —vb|

g‡̀ i †bkvUv†hb ‡K‡U†M‡Q| GLb GKUzkw³ I †bB ki x‡i |Lvwb¶Y ā —aw̄—i ci Gevi mwZ̈ ‡hb Lyb Pvuc‡j vwc›Uzgv̄—v‡bi gv_vq| N‡i g‡ä ï i “n‡j vKzi “‡¶Î | wc›Uzgv̄—

vb †Kvb g‡Z D‡V`vuwo‡q gûqvi wc‡Vayg-avg Nywmewm‡q ẁ‡ZB, I ‡i evev, I ‡i gv, I ‡i Lvj vAvgv‡i gvBi vdvj vBj†i | Mj vdvwU‡q wPrKvi ï i “Ki ‡j vgûqv|

gûqvi gyL wU‡c a‡i Pz‡j i †MvQvUvk³ K‡i GK †nPKvU‡b gûqvi big ki i xUvgvwU‡Z †d‡j ẁ‡j vwc›Uzgv̄—vb| Zvi ci Db¥v‡̀ i g‡Zvï i “Ki ‡j vj vw_ ¸wm| Zvi mv‡_ nvucv‡Z-nvucv‡Z ej ‡Z j vM‡j v, gvMx‡em̈v, Gnb wPj−vQK v̈b| GK Kv‡gi cqmvPvmAvgvi Kv‡Q| wPwbmbvwcw›Uzgv̄—vb †i | gvMxi ƒ‡ci Z̈vR, †em̈v†Zvi i ƒc Avwg †cvovBqvQvi gy|

gvwU‡Z ï ‡qB mgv‡b wPrKvi Ki ‡Qgûqv| wKš‘wKQz‡ZB Pz j Qvov‡Z cvi ‡Qbvwc›Uzgv̄—v‡bi nvZ †_‡K| gûqviwPrKv‡i gyn~‡Z©B R‡ovAv‡k-cv‡ki N‡i i ‡g‡qiv| mevi †Pv‡L-gy‡L D‡Ø‡Mi Qvc|

mevi mv‡_ G‡mnvwRi n‡j vgw¶ivbxLvj v| ej j , I gûqv̀ yqvi †Lvj | wK nBj †Zvi | Avnv, gvBqvWvgBivhvB‡evbvwK| I UMi KB ‡Mwj ?

gyn~‡Z©B gûqvi N‡i i m¤§y‡L R‡ovn‡j vAv‡ivwKQz†j vK| mevB‡K †V‡j `iRvi Kv‡QG‡j vLvj v| GL‡bvmgv‡bAkªë AvD‡o hv‡”Qwc›Uzgv̄ —vb| gyûqvwPrKvi K‡i hv‡”Qmgv‡b| Gevi †hb wKQzUvDMÖn‡j vLvj v|

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cÖvq wPrKvi K‡i e‡j DV‡j v, †ei n wc›Uz| Avgvi gvBqvi Mv‡q nvZ ‡̀ Q! G¶Y evB‡i Avq KBZvwQ| bvnB‡j wKš‘f vj nB‡evbvwc›Uz| g‡Mi gyj−yK cvBwj eywS ?

`i Rvq Lye †Rv‡i-‡Rv‡i av°vẁ‡”QLvj v| gy‡L Av̀ j è ‡j †Pv‡L gy‡L D‡Ø‡Mi Qvc dzwU‡q å“-KzwÂP K‡i Lvj vAvevi ej j , `yqvi Ly‡j †̀ wc›Uz| Avnv, gvBqvWv‡i gvBiv‡dj we bvwK ? †Lvj KBZvwQ....

Gevi †hb Kv‡b cvwb †M‡j vwc›Uzgv̄—v‡bi | gûqv‡K †Q‡o ẁ‡q ̀ iRvLy‡j †hb m¤ú~ Y©kvš—n‡j vwc›Uzḡ —vb|†hb †Zgb wKQzB N‡Uwb GLv‡b| bZgy‡L Lvj vi m¤§y‡L `vuwo‡q ej j , Avgvi wK ‡̀ vl ZzwgB KI Lvj v| H gyûqvB †Zv

Avgvi Dc‡i PovI nBj | ZzwgB KI gv_vwVK _v‡K ?K‡Ú PvucvSvR dzwU‡q Lvj vej j , A‡bK nB‡Qevcy, GLb wb‡Ri Kv‡g hv|GLvbKvi cÖvq cuÂkwUNi i ‡q‡QLvj vi nv‡Z| evwn‡i i ‡j v‡Ki vZv‡K e‡j gw¶ivbx| Avi GLvbKvi †g‡qiv

e‡j Lvj v| †KD gvwm| GB cuÂvkwUN‡i i mKj ‡g‡q‡̀ i †̀ Lvï bvGes me `vwqZ¡Zvi | G‡̀ i ẁ‡qB †ZvZvi ëvemv|†Kvb †g‡qi N‡i KÕRb L‡Ï i Av‡m, Kvi mv‡_ K‡ZvUvKvPzw³ nq, Kvi †Kgb BbKvg, cvB-cvB K‡i me wn‡me _v‡KLvj vi Kv‡Q| ki xi LvwU‡q GB †g‡q̧ ‡j vhvBbKvg K‡i Zvi †ewki f vMB hvq Lvj vi nv‡Z| KviY GB †g‡q‡̀ i wK‡bGK-GK Rb‡K GKwUNi ‡̀ qv†_‡K ï i “K‡i Zvi wcQ‡b eû UvKvj Mwb Ki ‡Z nq Lvj vi |

ZvB gv̄—vbI †Mv‡Qi †j vK nv‡Z i vL‡Z nq Lvj vi | ‡Zgwb wc›UzgvZv‡j i g‡Zv†j v‡KivI Lye K ì K‡i Lvj v‡K|gv‡S-gv‡S `y-PviÕk UvKv†ZvGB Lvj vi KvQ†_‡KB Av‡m| Zvi Dci ‡bkv-f vs, g̀ -gvMxmeB †ZvP‡j H Lvj vi Dci

ẁ‡qB| ‡mB †ZvPvwj ‡q ‡i ‡L‡Qwc›Uzi g‡Zv†j vK‡̀ i |ZvQvovme‡P‡q eo K_v, GB me QzU‡Kvgv̄—vb mv‡q̄ —vKi vLvj vi ev-nv‡Zi KvR| cywj ‡ki eo mv‡ne n‡Z ï i “K‡i kn‡i i cÖf vekvj x‡bZvch©š—Lvj vi nv‡Z| G‡̀ i mK‡j B Zvi Lwi Ï vi , `vwg Lwi Ï vi | ZvB i ƒc‡̀ vKvbxLvj vi i vbxig‡Zvẁb Kv‡UKvD‡K ‡Zvqv°vbvK‡i | GK gv̄ —vb Zvi mv‡_ †Pv‡L i v½v‡j Ab̈ gv̄—vb nv‡Z _v‡K Zvi |

wc›Uzgv̄—vb P‡j †h‡ZB gûqvi N‡i i m¤§y‡L RUj vevuavmevB Zvwo‡q ẁ‡q UMi Avi ci x‡K wb‡q gûqvi N‡iXyKj Lvj v| Avi cv‡bi evUvivLv†g‡qwUZvi Qvqvmw½bx| †m†Zv_vK‡eB|

ZL‡bvbx‡P ï ‡q †nuPwK Zz‡j -Zz‡j ‡Qgûqv| G‡j v†g‡j vKvco Avi Avj y _vj yay‡j vRov‡bvPzj ¸‡j vwb‡Ri nv‡Z¸wQ‡q ẁ‡Z-ẁ‡Z Lvj vej j , I Vgv, I V|

gyûqv†Zgwb Kvù‡Q| Lvj vej j , †̀ wLmI i wK wePviUvAvwg Kwi | gRbyf vB‡i ẁqvI i wePvi Ki vgy| Gevi I V

gv| gyûqvf vj B Rv‡b, wc›Uzgv̄—vb‡K wKQzB Ki ‡Z cvi ‡e bvLvj v| GB wc›Uzgv̄ —vbB A‡bK Kv‡R j v‡MLvj vi | †Kvb†g‡q Zvi Aevä n‡j GB wc›Uzgv̄ —vbB †ZvZvi nvwZqvi nq ZLb| ZvB‡ZvI i GZ mvnm| hLb ZLb Mv‡q nvZ †̀ q|wKš‘gy‡L Lvj v‡K wKQzbve‡j , Z³ v‡cv‡l i Dci D‡VgyL ¸R‡j vevwj ‡k|

Gevi gûqvi Mv‡q nvZ †evj v‡Z-‡evj v‡Z bi g my‡i Lvj vej j , ZzBI evcy†Kgb aivi gvBqv, ‡eUv†Q‡j i mv‡_ j vM‡Z ‡Mwj | wQ-wQ-wQAnb ZzB-B KÕB¾Uvi Bj KB ?

ẁNj K…ò G‡j vPz j , AkÖ“f i vMf xi AvuwL hyMj , AcÖmbœ̀„wó, †g‡NgvLvAvb‡b A™¢yZ nvwma‡i †i ‡L ‡k−lRvov‡bvK‡Ú gûqve‡j DV‡j v, ûu! †ek v̈i Avevi B¾vZ!

K_vUv†hb Mv‡q j vM‡j vLvj vi | gyn~‡Z©B †hb gyL Kv‡j vn‡j vZvi | Mvf wZ©̄‡̂Y©i MnbvAvi cwicvwUKvcocwiav‡b me mgq i vbx†m‡R _v‡K Lvj v| Wvb nv‡Zi ‡gvUvevj vq nvZ †evj v‡j vK‡qK gyn~Z©| Zvi ci evUv†_‡K KvuPvmycvi xẁ‡q GK wLwj cvb, LvwbKUvmyMwÜ R`©vgy‡L cy‡i ẁ‡q w¶cÖK‡Ú ej ‡Z j vM‡j v, gvBqvi eo Z̈vR †i evev| gvMxgvBb‡l i GZ Z v̈R _vK‡j ....... Avwg Avi cvwi bvUMi | I ‡i bvB‡Z hvB‡Z K| eo mv‡ne AvB‡ev| mÜ̈vnBqv†M‡Q|eo mv‡n‡ei †ZvAvevi I bv‡i Qvovgb f ‡i bv| KZ KBj vg bZzb gvMxAv‡Q| ZvbvI bvi gûqv....... wei -wei Ki ‡Z-Ki ‡Z N‡i †_‡K ‡ewi ‡q G‡j vLvj v|

gn~qve‡j DV‡j v, Pz‡j vq hvK I bvi eo mv‡ne| AvBR †KnB eB‡Z cvi ‡e bvAvgvi N‡i | GB Avwg KBqvẁj vg|

K_vUv̄ úóB ï b‡j vLvj v| wKš‘†Kvb cÖwZev̀ Ki ‡j vbv†m| wb‡R‡K mseiY K‡i nvuU‡Z j vM‡j vwbwj ©ß cv‡q|GBUyKz‡ZvnRg Ki ‡ZB n‡e Zv‡K| bvn‡j Pj ‡e †Kb| GZ̧ ‡j vN‡i m̀©vibxn‡q ..... cv‡qi Dci cvbvwP‡q .....

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GB GZ̧ ‡j v†g‡qi g‡ä me‡P‡q †ewk BbKvg nq gûqv‡K ẁ‡q| †hgwb i ƒc †Zgwb ¸b| cyi “l †f vj v‡Z cv‡ieo| †h cyi “l GKevi Av‡mgûqvi Kv‡Q, †mKzKz‡i i g‡Zv†Nv‡i I i wcQz-wcQz| gyûqv‡K Qvov†hb wKQzB eyS‡Z Pvq bv|wK gay†h Av‡QI i g‡ä ......| ï ayGKUzivM†ewk| f vj N‡i i ‡gq wQj | GB bRỳ vj v‡j i P°‡i c‡o ......| bRy`vj vj hZ̧ ‡j v‡g‡q G‡b ẁ‡q‡Qmevi ‡P‡q gûqvB Kv‡Ri | I n‡”QUvKvBbKv‡gi Kj | Aek ̈hZẁb i ƒc †hŠeb

 _v‡K|GL‡bvKuv̀‡Qgûqv| W~K‡i-W~K‡i DV‡Q| UMi Zv‡K Rwo‡q a‡i e‡mAv‡Q| mvš—bvẁ‡”Qwewf bœK_ve‡j | ci x

Kvù‡Qgûqvi mv‡_| Lye bi g g‡bi †g‡q ci x| A‡b̈i Kó †̀ L‡j B ‡m†Ku‡̀ †d‡j | ZvB †j v‡Ki Kv̀ybxej vi †LvPvUvmn̈ Ki ‡Z nq Zv‡K| Avevi f vj I ev‡mmevB|

UMi ej j , meB Avgv‡MvKcvj | bB‡j GB cv‡ci RvMqvq cyo‡Z nq| ‡b I Vgûqv| bvnB‡j eywo gvMxAveviMvj vMvj ï i “Ki ‡ev| †Zvi eo mv‡ne AvB‡ev, eywo KBqv†Mj |

GiB g‡ä P¤úvG‡mLei ẁ‡q †M‡j v, UM‡i i N‡i bvMi G‡me‡mAv‡QA‡bK¶Y| †Pv‡Li Rj gy‡L cÖvq†̀ uŠov‡Z j vM‡j vUMi |

GLv‡b †Pv‡Li Rj S‡i wbf„‡Z| RYvKxY©Zvq Kó _vK‡Z †bB GLv‡b| bvMi G‡j B †hb †hŠe‡bi cki vmvwR‡qem‡Z n‡e| kZ K‡óI gwj b gyL K‡i _vKvGLv‡b cvc!

cÖvq mßvLv‡bK a‡i N‡i L‡Ï i †bB UM‡i i | MZ mßv‡n FZzï i “n‡j vZvi | GB mgq N‡i L‡Ï i emv‡bvhvq

bv| A‡b‡KB ewm‡q wec‡̀ co‡Q| †c‡Uev”PvG‡m†M‡Q| i v̄—vi UªvK WªvBf vi ¸‡j veo ‡emvgvj | e‡j , ÔGB gvMx†hg‡b Lywk †Zg‡b Kvg mvigy, UvKv†̀ B bvÕ| ZvB GB ëvcv‡i Lye mveav‡b _v‡K UMi | ZvB FZzi mgq bvMi emvq bvN‡i |

nv‡Z GKwUUvKvI †bB| AvR f vj wKQznvZv‡̀ n‡e †cvUj wgqvi c‡KU†_‡K| `ª“Z †nu‡Uwb‡Ri N‡i i `i RvqwM‡q wgwó GKUz†n‡mUMi ej j , GKUzen, AvBZvwQ|

L‡Ï ‡i i mv‡_ GKUzf vj K‡i K_vej ‡Z Pvq †m| UMi ‡K †̀ ‡LB GK Mvj †n‡mDV‡j v†cvUj wgqv| †hb Puv̀nv‡Z †c‡q‡Q| `ª“Z Qz‡Uev_i “‡g wM‡q XyK‡j vUMi | cÖZ̈vwnK †m‡i nvZ gyL f vj K‡i ay‡q, P‡j G‡j vci xi N‡i |†mLv‡b e‡mSj g‡j †cvl vK, †Pv‡L KvRj , †Vuv‡Uwj wcw÷K, †mœv, cvDWvi Avi LwbKUvmyMw׆g‡Nwb‡q P‡j G‡j vwb‡Ri N‡i |

N‡i XyK‡ZB UMi‡K Rwo‡q a‡i †cvUj wgqvej j , AvBR †Zv‡i eo my›̀ i j vM‡Q†MvUMi | AvBR wKš‘bvP` v̈LvB‡Z nB‡ev|Kvq̀ vK‡i wb‡R‡K Qvwo‡q wb‡q m‡¤§vnK KÚ UMi ej j , Avgvi GZ Lywk bvB †Mv|gyn~‡Z©B UM‡i i cvZvduv‡̀ co‡Z n‡j vcUj wgqv‡K| UM‡i i eo ̀ i ẁi g‡Zve‡j DV‡j v, wK nB‡Q†Zvi ?

 _vDK ï BbvwK Ki ev| Avgv‡Mv†cvovKcvj |Avn, KBqvB †̀ L bv|gy‡L Ki “Y fve dzwU‡q UMi ej j , wKQzUvKvi `iKvi wQj |mv‡_-mv‡_ wb‡Ri gvwbëvMwUUM‡i i nv‡Z ẁ‡q cUj wgqvej j , GB †b, †Zvi hZ j v‡M, †b| GKUznvm| †Zvi

Kvj vgyL ‡̀ L‡Z f vj j v‡Mbv|Gevi †cvU‡j i Mv‡qi Dci Mwo‡q c‡i wLj -wLj -wLj K‡i nvm‡Z j vM‡j vUMi | I ‡i Avgvi bvMi †i ... wn wn

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‡MvQj †m‡i wb‡R‡K cwicvwUKi ‡Z 믗n‡j vgûqv| GL‡bvAv‡mwb eo mv‡ne| ‡avqvweQvbvi Pv̀i , evwj ‡kiKf vi , †QvUNiwU†MvQMvQKi ‡Qgûqv| H ï ‡qvi Uvi mv‡_ ûj ȳ’y j evwa‡q me G‡j v†g‡j vn‡q Av‡Q| GKUzAv‡MLvj vG‡mGKwUwe‡̀ wk g‡̀ i †evZj Avi Lvevi †i ‡L †M‡Qgûqvi Rb̈|

wKQz†L‡Z B‡”QKi ‡Qbvgyûqvi | mvivẁb bv†L‡q †Kgb ‡ivMvj vM‡QZv‡K| Lvj vG‡me‡j †M‡Q, †m†hb†cUf ‡i †L‡q GKUzwSwg‡q †bq| eo mv‡ne G‡j †Zv†Pv‡L cvZvGK Ki ‡Z cvi ‡e bvmvivivZ|

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cÖe„wË bvn‡j I GKwUwWg LvwbKUvi “wUAvi GKwU Av‡cj †L‡q wmMv‡iUai v‡j vgûqv| Zvi ci †Pv‡L co‡j v`vwg H g‡̀ i †evZ‡j i ẁ‡K| GKUz†L‡Z cvi ‡j f vj j vM‡Zv| wKš‘wK K‡i Lv‡e| eo mv‡ne G‡mf vs‡e I Uv|

wmMv‡iUUb‡ZB ki x‡i †Kgb K¬vwš—G‡j vgûqvi | weQvbvMvGwj ‡q ẁ‡q f ve‡j vGB ki xiUvhẁ R¡vwj ‡q †̀ qv†h‡Zv| Zvn‡j wgU‡ZvGB ki x‡i i R¡vj v| gb‡Zvbq, GB ki xiUvi Rb̈ Ggb cvM‡j i g‡Zv†Kb Qz‡UAv‡m‡QA™¢yZcyi “l gvbyl ¸‡j v? Zv‡̀ i me Av‡Q| my›̀ i x†eŠ-Gi gb †̀ n meB cvq| ZzeI GLv‡b gi ‡Z ‡Kb Av‡m| wK Av‡QGLv‡b? nvRvi cyi “‡l i G‡UvDrwQó-‡Z gyL ẁ‡qB †hb myL H wb‡e©va gvbyl ¸‡j v|

Zvi ci wb‡Ri g‡bB A¤−vb †n‡mfv‡e, f vj B n‡q‡Q| cyi “‡l i hẁ GB ̄ f̂ ve bvn‡e Zvn‡j Avgv‡̀ i Pj ‡e wKwK K‡i| bv†L‡q gi ‡Z n‡e †h mevi |

wmMv‡iUcy‡o QvB Rgvn‡ZB Avj ‡Zv‡UvKv†g‡i QvB̀ vwb‡Z ‡S‡i wb‡q Avevi Uvb‡Z j vM‡j vgûqv| Zvi K‡qgyn~Z©ci `iRvq †UvKvi k‡ã mPwKZ n‡j v| Zvi ci K‡l `yÕwUUvb †g‡i †avqv†Q‡o QvB̀ vbx‡Z wmMv‡i Uwbwf ‡q wbjgûqv| nq‡Zveo mv‡ne G‡m‡Q, †̀ uŠ‡o wM‡q `i RvLyj ‡ZB wew̄§Z wbe©vK n‡q ZvwK‡q iBj gûqv| bRy! Avevi GLv‡b.....

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GKUvKZvKB‡Z AvBwQ| Zvi ci PBj vhvgy|GKUzkvš—n‡j vgûqv| ‡mB my‡hv‡MB gv_vwbPzK‡i N‡i i wf Z‡i Xy‡K `i Rv‡f wR‡q ẁj bRỳ vj vj | gûqv

ej j , wK Kwe K ?kvš—n gûqv| wK nB‡Q†Zvi ?

Avwg kvš—AvwQ| ZvovZvwo K, Avgvi Kvg Av‡Q|GKUzwRwi‡q wb‡q evi `y‡qK †XvK wM‡q bRỳ vj vj ej j , H †h †Zv‡i KBwQj vg|Gevi †hb Av‡iv†ewk Av̧b n‡q DV‡j vgûqv| wel †gkv‡bv†k−l Rvov‡bvK‡Ú ej ‡j DV‡j , _y†Zvi g‡Zv

 ï qv‡i i ev”Pvi mv‡_ hvgyAvwg| wel LvBqvgBi v†M‡j I bv| ZzB †Zvi gvi Rvi R †cvj v| bB‡j ......kvš—K‡Ú bRỳvj vj e‡j , Avgvi Dci i vMKBiv_vKwe ? f y j †ZvnB‡Q| †Zvi f v‡j vi j vBMvKBZvwQ|Avgvi f vj †Zvi ` v̈L‡Z nB‡evbv| ZzB evBi n Avgvi Ni _vBKv| bvnB‡j Lvj v‡i WvKgy|Avi †Kvb K_vbve‡j wbðzc LvwbKUvf vej bRỳvj vj | Zvi ci ej j , AvBR hvB| Avevi AvgyAvwg|Ni †_‡K †ewi ‡q ‡Mj bRỳvj vj | µ‡a nvucv‡Z j vMv‡j vgûqv| me Amn̈ j vM‡QZvi | wb‡R‡K †hb Avi mseiY

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eo mv‡ne P‡j G‡m‡Qb| wK¬b †mBf , `vwg cvRvgv-cvÄvexcov, Mv‡q `vwg myMwÜ Qov‡bv| N‡i Xy‡KB ̀ i RvqwLj Zz‡j ẁj eo mv‡ne| Zvi ci gûqv‡K Avcv̀ḡ —K GKevi †̀ ‡L wb‡q ej j , wK n‡q‡Q?

‡Nvi j vMv†Pv‡L A™¢yZ my›̀ i GK nvwmn‡meo mv‡n‡ei nvZ `ywUwb‡Ri Kv‡ai Dci †i ‡L ej j , wK AvevinB‡ev| AvR †Zvgv‡i bvP ` v̈nvgy|

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K_v†kl K‡iB GK Uv‡b wb‡Ri Kvco Ly‡j ï ay e¶eÜbxAvi bvf xZ‡j v‡̀ ‡k †QvÆAvei‡b wewf bœi KgA½f w½‡Z †g‡Z DV‡j vgûqv| GKUzm‡i G‡mweQvbvq e‡mg‡̀ i ‡evZj †_‡K ci -ci `yÕwmc wM‡j wbj eo mv‡ne|Zvi ci †Pv‡L ‡Nvi j vwM‡q ‡̀ L‡Z j vM‡j vgûqv‡K| wbivf i Y gyL, Aveibnxb DbœZ e¶ Avi bMœbvf x‡Mvj ‡Ki gayiZvq†hb ‡bkvP‡i em‡j vZvj y‡Z|

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dz‡Uv‡Z †PvL j vwM‡q| †hb AK¯§vr wè yr cÖevwnZ n‡j vZvi mvivMv‡q| `„wó cy‡o †M‡Q| Avi †hb mn̈ Ki ‡Z cvi ‡Qbv|I gb f m©vmy›̀ i †̀ nUv.....| m‡i G‡mAÜKv‡i `vuwo‡q K‡l wewo Uvb‡QbRỳ vj vj | ey‡Ki wf Zi Uv†hb k~b̈ j vM‡QZvi | KZ †g‡qi me©bvmKi ‡j v†m, wKš‘AvR GB †ek̈vgûqvi Rb̈ Zvi wK‡mi Uvb? †̀ ‡ni bvg‡bi | Ab̈ N‡i wM‡qwK R¡vj vwg‡U‡q Avm‡e| bv‡̀ ‡ni bq, Z‡e ......... wKQzB †hb eyS‡Z cvi ‡QbvbRỳ vj vj |

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Dc‡P co‡Qgûqvi i ƒc †hŠeb| AvR bRyi eo gb Lvivc nq, GZ my›̀ i GKwUkixi gvÎ wek nvRvi UvKvq .........|GB AvaywbK hy‡MI ¶zav‡K Rq Ki ‡Z cv‡i wb gvbyl | ZvB †mB mnmªeQi Av‡Mi g‡ZvGL‡bvPj ‡Q`vm,M−vwWGUi, mvgš¿Zš¿Avi c~uwRZ‡š¿i wbôzi Kznwj Kv†_‡K GL‡bv‡ewo‡q Avm‡Z cv‡i wb gvbyl | ZLb nv‡UevRv‡i wewµn‡Zvgvbyl | wK‡b wb‡Zvey‡R©vqv†kªbx| †mB †kªbx-‰el ‡g̈i Lye †ewk cwi e©Zb N‡owb GL‡bv| mg‡qi mv‡_ è ‡j ‡Qï aywbôziZvi c×wZ|

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bRỳ vj vj ‡K †̀ ‡LB eywo e‡j DV‡j , bRy†h, wK Lei †Zvi ? Zvi ci Gw‡̀ K I ẁ‡K ZvwK‡q wbPzK‡Ú ej j ,bqvgv‡j i †LvuR j BqvAvBQQ?

eywoi ẁ‡K ZvwK‡q gyLUv†hb †Z‡Zvn‡q †M‡j vbRỳ vj v‡j i | g‡b g‡b Akªë Svi ‡j veywo LvbwK KZvAvi cvqbv| bqvgvj .......Zvi ci wb̄ ú„wn n‡q ej j , GK cywiqvgwbcywi MwÄKv‡̀ †Zveywo|

UvKvAv‡Q†Zv?n Av‡Q| e‡j B c‡KU†_‡K `kUvi GKwU†bvU†ei K‡i Qz‡o ẁj eywoi ẁ‡K| GB †b eywo|

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MvRvi cywiqv†ei K‡i Avevi eywo ej j , bqvgv‡j LeiUv†ZvKBwj bv?eywoi nvZ †_‡K MvRvi cywiqvcÖvq †Qv†g‡i wb‡q DV‡j vbRỳvj vj | Lvwj dvj ZzKZv|å“KzwUK‡i eywo e‡j DV‡j v, hvhvZi Lvj vi N‡i hv| Avgvi KZv†ZvwZZvj vM‡evB| gvBqvgvBb‡l i `vj j x

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R‡ovn‡”Qgv_vq| cvM‡j i g‡Zvj vMv‡QZvi | †h K‡iB ‡nvK GLvb †_‡K †ei K‡i wb‡q †h‡ZB n‡e gûqv‡K|

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Zvi ci ‡g‡qUvi ẁ‡K ZvwK‡q wKQzUvSwR‡q D‡Vej j , GB †Qgwi GK _veyi Lvwe, f vj KBi v†Uc|

avài Uv†hb Mv‡j j vM‡j vbRỳ vj v‡j i | evnv‡Z Mvj Wj ‡QbRỳ vj vj | Zvi ci †g‡qwUi ẁ‡K wcU-wcUK‡iZvKv‡ZB ey‡Ki ‡f Zi †hb ‡Kgb K‡i DV‡j vZvi |bRỳ vj v‡j `„wó Abyki Y K‡i Lvj vej j , me Lv‡b †Zvi †PvL hvq K̈vb ? KBj vg bvAnb ZzB hv|nvwm-nvwmgy‡LB bRỳ vj vj ej j , GKUvKZvAv‡Q†MvLvj v|KZv_vK‡j K ?bvgvwb, Zvi ci †cŠp gwnj vi ẁ‡K ZvwK‡q ej j , AvBR _vKzK| XvKv_vBKvNyBi vAvwn, Zvi ci Kgy|f vj | hvNyBi vAvq|bRyP‡j †h‡ZB wei-wei K‡i DV‡j vLvj v| ï qv‡i i ev”Pv| e‡̀ i è | Kg †Zv†̀ Lj vg bv| bRyi g‡Zve¾v̀

Avi bvB| Zvi ci GKUz†_‡g Avevi ej ‡Z j vM‡j v, bqvgv‡j i †RvMvi bvB, Lvwj KZv| Anb bZzb GKUvgvj cvB‡jKZ j vf nB‡Zv| ẁb i vBZ ZvMv̀vẁZv‡QbZzb GKUvgv‡j i j vBMv|

i vZ evo‡Qax‡i -ax‡i | gûqvi N‡i i m¤§y‡L K‡qK gyn~Z©̀vuwo‡q †_‡K w¶cÖc‡̀ evwn‡i P‡j G‡j vbRỳvj vj |bvBU†KvP a‡i AvRB P‡j hv‡e XvKvq| †̀ LvKi ‡e wgRvb f vBi mv‡_| GB me Avi f vj j v‡MbvZvi | kn‡i hẁ GKwUd¬vUevwo f vovK‡i ëvemvcvZ hvq.........| G‡Z j vf †ewk| f vj †g‡qI cvI qvhv‡e| ¯‹z j K‡j ‡Ri †g‡q|

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Avl v‡pi †kl | kªveY ï i “n‡ZB GKUvbve„wó n‡”QAvR mKvj †_‡KB| KL‡bvBj ‡k¸wo Avevi KL‡bvSzg e„wóPj ‡Qẁbf i | we‡Kj Uv‡KB †Kgb mÜ̈vevwb‡q †i‡L‡Qe„wói cÖPÛZv| Rvbvj vi duv‡K ZvwK‡q AvKvk †̀ L‡j vwgRvb|Zvi ci ‡PvL Nywi ‡q ZvKv‡j v†̀ qvj NwowUi ẁ‡K|

GB e„wói g‡ä GZ̀ ~i †_‡K wK K‡i Avm‡e †muRywZ| QÕUvi Av‡MB P‡j Avm‡e cvwU©| Gi B g‡ä †dvb Kivn‡q†M‡Qevi `y‡qK| e‡j ‡QAvR †hb wKQz‡ZB wgmbvnq|

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gy‡L wek¦R‡qi nvwmdzwU‡q †i ‡L bRỳvj vj ej j , f v‡j vAv‡Qb fvB ?GB e„wói g‡ä Zzwg ?AvBj vg f vB| Avgv‡MvAvevi e„wó Avi Li vwK ? Avc‡bi j ‡MAvj vc Av‡Q| ZvB AvBj vg|

Gevi `vi “Y Ā w̄̂—n‡”QwgRv‡bi | †h †Kvb mgq †muRywZ P‡j Avm‡Z cv‡i| GB me ̀ vj v‡j i mv‡_ †g‡qUvi†̀ LvbvnI qvB f vj | G‡̀ i wek¦vm†bB| wcQz†j ‡Meo i Kg ¶wZ K‡i ẁ‡Z cv‡i | †muRywZi i ƒc †̀ L‡j B †ZvI i gv_vNy‡i hv‡e|

wgRvb ej j , GLb K_vej ‡Z cvi ‡evbv| Avgvi KvR Av‡Q|f vB Avwg hvgyKB ?wei w³ i my‡i wgRvb ej j , Av‡i , †mwK Avwg e‡j †̀ ‡evbvwK ?KBwQj vg AvBR‡Ki i vBZUvhẁ .....bvbv| GLvb _vKvhv‡evbv| †Zvgvi f vwe evwo‡Z †bB| Avgv‡K ‡h‡Z n‡e Zvi Kv‡Q| wg‡_ ̈ej ‡ZB n‡j v

wgRv‡bi |

GKUz†f ‡e bRỳ vj vj ej j , Zq K‡e Avgy?Kvj GK evi G‡mv| Z‡e , †dvb K‡i Avm‡e| bv¤̂vi Av‡Q†Zv?gv_v̀ ywj ‡q cȪ’vb Ki ‡j vbRỳvj vj | `iRvAvU‡K ẁ‡q wei -wei Ki ‡j vwgRvb| GB †j vKUv‡K †Kb †h evmvi

wVKvbvẁ‡Z †M‡j v†m| mvsNwZK f y j n‡q‡QZvi | ZLb †ev‡S wb, I GZUvLvi vc|QqUv†e‡R †M‡QGL‡bv†Kvb Lei †bB †muRywZi | DrMÖxe n‡j vwgRvb| f vj cvwU©wQj , G‡̀ i mv‡_ K_vwVK bv

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 ï b‡Z n‡j vwgRv‡bi |‡Uwj ‡dv‡bi Gcv‡k †_‡K ̀ uvZ †Kwj ‡q ‡i ‡LB wgRvb ï ayej ‡Q, eyS‡ZB †Zvcvi ‡Qb e„wó ev̀‡j i ẁb| bvn‡j

Avgvi K_vi wK †Kvb biPo n‡q‡Q, AvcwbB ej yb| †g‡qUvf vj | Kvj bvnq .......wgRv‡bi K_v†kl bvn‡ZB j vBbUv†Ku‡Uẁj I cvk †_‡K| g‡b-g‡b Lye wei ³ n‡j vwgRvb| KZ gvby‡l i †h

Mvj g›̀ ï b‡Z nq wbe©vK n‡q ......| nRg Ki vQvovAvi wKQzB Ki vi _v‡K bvZvi | ï ay†h g›̀ ï b‡Z nq ZvB bq| KZ̧ ‡j vUvKvI nviv‡Z n‡j v| eKwkmI cvI qv†h‡Zvf vj |‡muRywZ G‡j vmÜ̈vmvZUvi c‡i | e„wó‡Z Aa©‡f Rvn‡q ‡QvUQvZvq †Kvb i K‡g gv_vUveuvwP‡q †i ‡L‡Q†muRywZ|

gv_vmn cy‡i vkixi Kv‡j vI i bvq Rov‡bv| `iRvLy‡j gyL †Z‡ZvK‡i wgRvb ej j , G‡m‡Qv? wf Z‡i G‡mv|wf Z‡i Xy‡K bZgy‡L `vuwo‡q Av‡Q†muRywZ| wgRvb ej j , KUvev‡R ?

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w̄’i K‡Ú †muRywZ ej j , e„wói Rb̈B †̀ wi .......‡Zvgv‡K K‡ZvK‡i e‡j wQGKwU†mj ‡dvb bvI | Zvbv..... gy‡L LyeB wei w³ i Qvc wgRv‡bi|‡Kvb K_vej ‡Qbv†muRywZ| AebZgy‡L `vuwo‡q Av‡Q| †PvL †Kgb Qj -Qj Ki ‡QZvi | Zvi ci ej j , GZ `~i

†_‡K Gj vg ....D̀ vmK‡Ú wgRvb ej j , wK Avi Ki vi GLb .....Zvi ci †muRywZi ẁ‡K ZvKv‡j vwgRvb| me mgq gyLUv†Kgb wel v‡̀ f ‡i _v‡K †g‡qwUi | GB my›̀ i gyL hÎ ZÎ

†̀ Lvhvq bv| †c‡Ui `v‡q GB KvR Ki ‡Z n‡”Q†g‡qUvi |GKwU`xN©k¦vmPvwc‡q wgRvb ej j , †̀ wL Ab̈ †Kvb cvwUcvI qvhvq wK bv| PvLv‡e ?gv_vbo‡j v†muRywZ| Lv‡ev|Bm! Zzwg †Zvcy‡ivwf ‡R †M‡Qv| hvI †Zvgvi f vwei GKwUkvwo wb‡q wf ‡R KvcoUv†Q‡o †d‡j v|f vwe evmvq †bB ?ev‡ci evwo‡Z †M‡Q| _vK‡e KÕẁb| †Q‡j -‡g‡q‡̀ i ci x¶v†kl ..Avj bv†_‡K kvwo wb‡q ev_i “‡g XyK‡j v†muRywZ| wgRvb †M‡j vwK‡P‡b| `yÕKvc Pv‡qi cvwb Dby‡b Zz‡j ẁ‡q

G‡j vemvi N‡i | Zvi ci †mj †dvb Zz‡j ẁ‡q †LuvR wb‡Z j v‡Mj vwewf bœRvqMvq| †Kvb Li e n‡j vbv| †dvb †i ‡Lwb̄ ú„n e‡miBj wgRvb|

wgwbU`y‡qK c‡i Avevi †Mj wK‡P‡b| Zvi ci Pvwb‡q G‡j vAvevi emvi N‡i | ZZ¶‡Y ï K‡bvKvc‡o wb‡R‡Kè ‡j wb‡q emvi N‡i G‡me‡m‡Q†muRywZ| Zvi ci nvZ ëvM†_‡K †QvUAvqbv‡ei K‡i m¤§y‡L a‡i †i‡L wj wcw÷KLm‡Z j vM‡j v†Vuv‡U|

Pv‡qi Kvc GwM‡q ẁ‡q wgRvb ej j , iOPv| `ya †bB| N‡i gywo QvovwKQzB †bB| ï ayPv-B Lv‡e bvwK gywo .....bvbvwgRvb f vB| j vM‡e bv| ï ayPv‡ZB Pj ‡e|evwn‡i Szg e„wó| Rvj vbvq ZvwK‡q †muRywZ ej j , †Kvb ‡LuvR n‡j v?wK †hb ej ‡Z wM‡qI †_‡g †M‡j vwgRvb| †dvb †e‡R DV‡j v| wiwmf K‡i K‡qK gyn~‡Z©†_‡g †_‡K wgRvb ej ‡Q,

GB mgq ... e„wó n‡”Q.......... eo Sv‡gj vn‡q ‡Mj | wK ej ‡j b ... †̀ L‡Z my›̀ i n‡Z n‡e ? GiKg †g‡q GLb †Kv_vqcvB| j vM‡eB ....... eo mv‡ne‡K Nymẁ‡Z n‡e ........| Av”Qvf vB †̀ LwQ| Avcbvivcyi ‡bvgvbyl | Avcbv‡̀ i K_v‡Zv

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K‡Ú wgRvb ej j , Nym! kvj v†g‡q gvbyl I NymLvq! †mB hvB †nvK, Zzwg hv‡e †Zv?hv‡ev|KÕUvi g‡ä evwo‡Z wdi ‡j Pj ‡e ?`kUvi g‡ä Qvo‡j B n‡e|Av”Q†mf v‡eB e‡j ẁw”Q|wVK bÕwgwb‡Ui gv_vq Avevi †dvb G‡j v| wiwmf K‡i g„̀ynvwmi k‡ãi mv‡_ wgRvb ej j , A‡bK K‡ó GKRb

cvI qv†M‡j v| G‡Kev‡i Lvmvgvj | Avcbvi eo m̈v‡i i gv_vNy‡i hv‡e| ‡iUUvi K_vgv_vq ivL‡e|I cv‡ki †Kvb K_vï b‡Qbv‡muRywZ| ï ayDrKwÚZ n‡q ZvwK‡q Av‡Q| AvR †Kvb KvR bvn‡j wbN©vZ bv†L‡q

 _vK‡Z n‡e Kvj | gv‡qi ki xi UvI f vj †bB|wgRvb ej j , cvwUf vj Av‡Q, Lykxn‡j f vj eKwkk cvI qvhv‡e|wK K‡i hv‡ev, wVKvbvẁ‡q‡Q?wVKvb †Zve‡j ‡Q..... wKš‘GB e„wó‡Z Zzwg GKvhv‡e wK K‡i | ZvQvovGLb Mvwo cvI qvgywkwKj n‡q hv‡e|

P‡j vAvwg wM‡q GwM‡q ẁ‡q Avwm†Zvgvq| GLb †Kvb KvR †bB Avgvi |`kUvi g‡ä Qvo‡e †Zv?‡miKwgB e‡j wQ| ZeyI eo m̈v‡i i ëvcvi | i vZ n‡ZB cv‡i |

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bvgv‡b, gvf v‡eb †Zv|GKwU`xN©k¦vm†d‡j wgRvb ej j , †g‡q‡̀ i †h wel qwUwb‡q gv-evevivf v‡eb, †Zvgvi ‡Zv†mB iKg †Kvb mgm̈v

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‡K wb‡q bvg‡j vwgRvb| hvevi mgq †Uªw· Aj v‡K wgRvb e‡j †Mj , GKUz̀ vuovb Avwg GLwb wd‡i Avm‡ev|mvg‡bi M−v‡mi cvwb KvUvi I ‡qcvi eÜ K‡i ẁ‡q wb̄ ú„n GKvAÜKv‡i e‡mAv‡Q†Uªw· Aj v|

‡h‡Z-‡h‡Z wgRvb ZvKv‡j v†muRywZi ẁ‡K| K‡qK gyn~‡Z©i g‡äB †hb wel YœZvDavnI †muwRywZi gyL †_‡K|wb‡R‡K †hb cȪ‘Z K‡i wb‡”Q†m| nq‡ZvB‡”Qi wei “‡×B| †Pnvi vq †hŠeb †gvn dz‡UbvDV‡j cyi “‡l i gb f ‡i bv| GBëvcvi wUGLb Lye f vj B wk‡L †M‡Q†muRywZ|

m̀i `iRvcvi n‡j vI i v| wbSzg wb̄ —ã Pvwi ẁK| e„wó †hb mybmvbZvevwo‡q ẁ‡q‡QevwowUi | †Kvb Mf xi †Nv‡iWy‡e Av‡m‡QGB wekvj AvaywbK `vj vbwU|

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bK K‡i ì RvLy‡j `iRvi mv‡_B †Xmẁ‡q nvwmgyL K‡i `vuov‡j v†muRywZ| Zvi mv‡_ A™¢yZ me A½f w½K‡i‡Q†m|

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`viRvj vwM‡q wf Z‡i XyK‡j v†muRywZ| kvwoi AvuPj †U‡b †Kvgi ‡eu‡a ey‡Ki KvQUvUvb K‡i wM‡q `vuov‡j veom̈v‡i i Kv‡Q|Lv‡Ui mv‡_ gv_vi ẁ‡K i vLv†QvU†Uwej | Zvi Dci i vLv̀ yÕwUwe‡̀ kxg‡̀ i †evZj | wRb Avi †iWivg| `yÕwU‡Z

wgwj ‡q ‡L‡j Amy‡i i kw³ Av‡mMv‡q|‡evZj `yÕwUnv‡Z wb‡q GKUz-GKUzK‡i M−v‡m†X‡j wb‡q AvBme· †_‡K AvBmZz j ‡Z †M‡j b eo m̈vi |I gwb Lv‡Ui mv‡_ †j ‡Me‡meo m̈v‡i i nvZ †_‡K M−vmwUwb‡q †muRywZ ej j , Dû, Zzwg bq| Avwg †X‡j ẁw”Q|eo mv‡n‡ei `„wó †muRywZi ẁ‡K| †gvwnZ `„wó‡Z ZvwK‡q nvZ †evj v‡j v†muRywZi Aa‡i | †Zvgvi bvwK my›̀ i x?‡n‡mD‡Veo mv‡ne †Vuv‡Ui Kv‡QM−vmwUa‡i †i ‡L †muRywZ ej j , Avgv‡̀ i †Zvbvg _vK‡Z †bB| Z‡e Zzwg

Avgvq Q›̀ ve‡j WvK‡Z cv‡iv|Q›̀ v|bvn‡j el ©vbv‡g Wv‡Kv| GB el ©vq †̀ Lvn‡j vZvB ........... |GK Pzgy‡K cy‡i vM−vmLvwj K‡i weQvbv†_‡K †b‡g eo m̈vi ej ‡j b, el ©v- Q›̀ v, el ©vi Q‡›̀ ... nv-nv-nv| Zvi ci

†muRywZi wb‡Pi †VuvUPzwg‡q ẁ‡q ej ‡j b, Zzwg MvB‡Z Rv‡bv?G j vB‡b hLb cÖ_g G‡m‡QZLbB K‡qKwUMvb Avi DMÖbvP wk‡L wb‡q‡Q†muRywZ| cyi “‡l i wewPÎ gb ï ay

†̀ n‡ZB Lykx_v‡K bv| Zv‡̀ i g‡b †Nvi j vM‡Z n‡j bvP MvbI Rvb‡Z nq|GKUzm‡i Rvj bvi Kv‡QG‡mGKwUMvb ai ‡j v‡muRywZ|Mvb †kl n‡j bvP †̀ Lvi kL n‡j veo m̈v‡i i | DMÖ-wgDwRK Qvovn‡j vK v̈‡mU‡c−qv‡i | †muRywZi mv‡_B nvZ-cv

`ywj ‡q bvP‡Z ï i “Ki ‡j veo m̈vi |

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Zvi ci wb‡f †M‡j vAv‡j v| big weQvbvq big †̀ nUv‡K †U‡b ẁ‡q Aw̄’i nv‡Z ‡muRywZ‡K m¤ú~ Y©wbi veiYK‡i eyf y¶zi g‡Zv†m†P‡Ucy‡U†L‡Z j vM‡j veo m̈vi |

i vZ e‡ivUvi c‡i Qvov†c‡j v†muRywZ| eo m̈v‡i i gb Lywk| ZvB †i vRMvi f vj n‡q‡QAvR| eKwkk cvI qv†M‡Qf vj |

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Mvwo‡Z K‡i Mwj i gyL Aewa †cuŠ‡Q‡̀ qvn‡j v†muRy‡Z‡K| mvivc_ GKwUK_vI e‡j wb †m| eo m̈v‡i iAv‡̀ ‡ki cÖnwi `yÕRb R¡ j -R¡ j †Pv‡L evi -evi ZvKvw”Qj †muRywZi ẁ‡K| wbPzK‡Ú wdm-wdmK‡i ej vewj KiwQj , GKUzAv‡MwK †̀ Lj vg, Avi GLb wK! GB UzKzmg‡qi g‡ä me è ‡j †h‡Z cvi ‡j v| Z‡e i ƒc .... G‡°ev‡i Av̧ b|

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nvZ evwo‡q †g‡q‡K Qzu‡Z Pvq Kwj g wgqv| wKš‘ wb‡R‡K Qzu‡Z bvẁ‡q `~‡i wb‡Ri N‡i P‡j hvq †muRywZ|AvRKvj †Kvb gvby‡l i mi j nvZI eo Amn̈ g‡b nq †muRywZi Kv‡Q| f vB-‡evb gv-evevKv‡ivnvZ Zvi mn̈ nq bv| g‡bnq ‡Kvb wcPv‡ki nvZ| wb‡Ri nvZUvch©š—gv‡S-gv‡S Amn̈ j v‡Mkix‡i i wbR©b †Kvb RvqMvq|

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bvGB KweZvq †hb gb RvM‡Qbv†muRywZi | we‡̀ ªv‡n f i DV‡Z PvB‡Qgb| i Yiw½bxi g‡ZvR¡‡j DV‡j vi ³ KYv| Aw̄’i nv‡Z c„ôvD‡ë-D‡ë †ei Ki ‡j vÔwe‡̀ ªvnxÕ| Zvi ci DaŸ©k¦v‡mco‡Z j vM‡j v,

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wgj ‡bi ẁ‡K ZvwK‡q Lye i vMnw”Qj Avevi nvwmI cvw”Q†muRywZi | A™¢yZ me K_ve‡j Zvi GB f vBwU|gv_vI Lye fvj | GmGmwm†Z Lye fvj †iRvë K‡i ‡Q| wKš‘K‡j ‡R f wZ©n‡Z Pv‡”Qbv| †h K‡iB †nvK I ‡K K‡j ‡Rf wZ©K‡i ẁ‡Z n‡e| B›UviwgwW‡qU‡kl n‡j ....

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Everyone Thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.

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nvZ gyL ay‡q wb‡R‡K ¸wQ‡q wb‡q †ewi ‡q co‡j v †muRywZ| mÜ̈vi Av‡MB P‡j G‡j vwgj b f vB‡qi evmvq|`i RvLy‡j †muRywZ‡K †̀ ‡LB cÖmbœnvwmdzU‡j vwgRv‡bi gy‡L| bZzb GKwUcvwU©†c‡qwQ| hẁI bZzb| ZeyI g‡b n‡j vf vj B n‡e| Zvi ci GKUz†f ‡e ej j , †Psi v†cvj vcvb| GKUzmveav‡b †_‡Kv| e‡j ‡Q`kUvi g‡ä †Q‡o †̀ ‡e|

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DV‡j ci ‡QGLb| bó cyi “l !

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weQvbv†_‡K MvZz j ‡Z cvi ‡Qbv†muRywZ| A‡bK K‡ó m‡PZb n‡q weQvb †_‡K †b‡g ev_i “‡g P‡j G‡j v‡muRywZ| ‡Kvb iK‡g wb‡R‡K ¸wQ‡q wb‡q kvoxMv‡q Rwo‡q eo I obvẁ‡q ki xi , gv_vf vj K‡i †X‡K G‡me‡mj vMvwo‡Z| UvKv†bevi K_vI g‡b †bB Zvi |

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wgRvb ej j , Avcwb f ve‡ej bvme wVK n‡q hv‡e|wgj b evwo‡Z †bB| gwi qg †eM‡gi N‡i e‡mkã K‡i co‡QFZzAvi †iLv| weQvbvq ï ‡q Av‡Qb gwiqg †eMg|

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K‡i ‡bqvhv‡e|wVK Av‡QAvm‡ev|

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wKQzUv̄ w̄̂—†c‡j vwgRvb| hvK, f vj B n‡j v| GKwUwPš—v†_‡K Aš—Z gyw³ cvI qv†M‡j v| †muRywZI mȳ’̈n‡q‡Q| c‡KU†_‡K wKQzUvKv†ei K‡i wgRvb ej j , GB ̀ y-wZb ẁb f vj K‡i LvI qv-`vI qvK‡iv|

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`vj vj | I cvk †_‡K bRỳvj vj ej ‡Q, n̈v‡j vf vB Avwg K‡e Avgy?GKUz†_‡g wgRvb ej j , ‡Zvgvi bvAv‡ivAv‡MAvmvi K_vwQj ?

MvwRcyi †MwQj vg| f y j nBqv†M‡j vf vB|GLb Avi †̀ Lvn‡e bv|f vB Avwg Mwie gvbyl | GZ ̀ ~i _vBKvABwQ| BKUzwe‡ePbvK‡ib|Avwg XvKvi evwn‡i | wg‡_ ̈ej ‡j vwgRvb|I | ZvB‡j Avi wK Ki gy| Zq, K‡e Avevi †̀ nvKi ‡eb f vB|mvg‡bi gv‡mG‡mv|wVK Av‡Q| mvg‡bi gv‡mB Avgy|‡dvb wej wgwU‡q †̀ vKvb †_‡K †ewi ‡q G‡j vbRỳ vj vj | bv, †Kvb KvR n‡j vbvGevi XvKvq G‡m| gn~‡Z©B g‡b

n‡j vgûqvi K_v| GKevi †̀ Šj Zẁqv†M‡j †Kgb nq ? A‡bK ẁb †̀ Lvnq wb gûqvi gyLUv| Nwo †̀ L‡j vbRỳvj vj |

GL‡bvGK N›UvevwK bvBU†KvP ‡Q‡o †h‡Z|

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MZ i v‡Z eo mv‡n‡ei mv‡_ wK wb‡q †hb SMovn‡q‡Qgûqvi | cÖvq mvivi vZ a‡iB P‡j ‡QZv‡̀ i SMov| m~‡h©iAv‡j v†dvUvi Av‡MB GLvb †_‡K †ewo‡q †M‡Qb eo mv‡ne| Zvi ci †_‡KB N‡i `iRvq wLj G‡Uï ayg̀ wMj ‡QAvi‡bkvi †Nv‡i AK_ ̈AvDov‡”Qgûqv|

mKvj †_‡K †KD wf Z‡i cvi ‡QbvZvi Kv‡Q| †i v̀ Povn‡ZB ï i “n‡q‡Qewg, Zvi ci †_‡K †g‡S‡Z c‡oAv‡Qgûqv| wc›Uzgv̄—vb G‡m̀ iRvi duv‡K `vXywK‡q ẁ‡q wLj Ly‡j ‡QN‡i i | msÁvnvwi ‡q giv-givAē ’vgûqvi | AZevsj v†L‡j †KD evu‡P ?

µ‡a wcwË R¡‡j hvw”Qj Lvj vi | evi `y‡qK ej j , gi“K| †KD hvwe bvgvMxi N‡i | eo ‡R̀ | gvMxgvBb‡l i Ggb†R̀ R‡b¥†̀ wn bvB|

Av‡k cv‡ki Ni †_‡K A‡b‡KB G‡j vgûqvi N‡i | †KD-‡KD gûqv‡K Zz‡j ẁj Lv‡U| †KD Avevi 믗n‡j vgv_vq cvwb ẁ‡Z| Z‡e Wv³ vi WvKvi K_vej ‡Qbv†KD| G ‡Kvb bZzb NUbvbq| cwZZvcj−x‡Z cÖvq cªwZẁbB NU‡Z

 _v‡K GB me|N‡ii wRwbm-cÎ ¸wQ‡q i v‡L‡Q‡KD-‡KD| gvZvj n‡q N‡ii gvj -cÎ me Gẁ‡K-I ẁ‡K Qz‡o †d‡j †i ‡L‡Q

gûqv| Kvu‡Pi M−vm-‡c−U-‡evZb †f ‡½Kvu‡Pi UzK‡ivQwo‡q Av‡Qcy‡ivNi Ry‡o|f v½vKvu‡Pi UzK‡i v̧‡j vGKwU-GKwUme Kzov‡”Qcwi | GiB g‡ä g¶xi vbxLvj vG‡mXyK‡j vgûqvi N‡i | gûqvc‡o Av‡QmsÁvnxb n‡q| gûqvi ẁ‡K GKevi ZvwK‡q †Pv‡L Nywi ‡q wbj Lvj v| i v‡MZvi MvR¡‡j hv‡”Q| eo mv‡n‡ei‡¶cvq ....! mvnmeo †e‡o‡QI i | ẁb-ẁb G‡m̀ yÕnv‡Z UvKv†X‡j hvq ‡j vKUv| Ggb gi ̀Avi †Kvb ẁb cv‡e ‡m?

‡ewk K‡i R`©vẁ‡q GK wLwj cvb gy‡L cyi ‡j vLvj v| AK¯§vr Zvi †PvL AvU‡K †M‡j vcwoi ẁ‡K| R‡ovm‡ovn‡q N‡ii GK †Kv‡b ̀ vuwo‡q Av‡Qcwi | nv‡Z Kvu‡Pi UzK‡iv| GB Lvj v‡K Lye fq cwi i | f y‡j I Lvj vi mvg‡b co‡Z Pvqbv†m| mKvj n‡j B ̄ ‹‡z j P‡j hvq| Avi evKxmgq _v‡K N‡i i g‡ä| cwi i gvkvevbvi I B‡”Q†g‡q‡K cov‡j LvwkLv‡e| wb‡R †ek v̈, †g‡q‡K hẁ cov‡j LvwkwL‡q evwn‡i i vLvhvq, Zvn‡j †eu‡P hv‡e ‡g‡qUv|

Wv±v‡i i †g‡q cwi | ZvB †evanq gv_vi ‡eªBb Lye fvj | cov‡j Lvq LyeB f vj | hLb i “c †hŠe‡b c~ Y©wQj

kvevbvi , ZLb wbqg K‡i B kvevbvi Kv‡QAvm‡Zb Wv±vi | cÖ _g c‡¶i ¯¿xwe‡qv‡Mi ci Avi we‡q K‡ib wb wZwb| †eŠ†K Lye f vj evm‡Zb| wKš‘cyi “‡l i †gRvR| †̀ ‡ni †ZvGKwU†LvivK Av‡Q| ZvB kvevbvi N‡i Avm‡Zb wbqg K‡i|KL‡bvmßvq GKevi KL‡bvmßvq `y-evi |

ZLb Wv±v‡i i gvqvq c‡owQj kvevbv| KZ †j vKB ‡ZvAv‡m| wKš‘Wv±vi †hb wf bœgvbyl | ZLwb mvevbvi M‡f ©Av‡mcwi | KZevi kvevbv†f ‡e‡Qbó K‡i †dj ‡e| wKš‘wKf v‡eB †hb Zvi Rxe‡bi mv‡_ Rwo‡q †Mj cwi | Pvi -cuvPgvmci M‡f ©i ev”PvwUi Dci eo gvqvRb¥wbj mvevbvi |

‡mB gvqv†_‡KB Rb¥n‡j vcwi i | GKwU†j vf ....| gvWvK †kvbvi †j vf wKQz‡ZB Gov‡Z cv‡i wb kvevbv|‡ek v̈i v†ZvAvi BUcv_‡i ‰Zi xbq| ZvB nq‡ZvgvWvK ï b‡Z B‡”Qnq Zv‡̀ i I | KvD‡K f vj evm‡Z B‡”QK‡i |

cwi i R‡b¥i c‡i I Avm‡ZvWv±vi | wKš‘cwi hLb eo n‡Z ï i “Ki ‡j vZLb ‡_‡K AvmveÜ n‡j vZvi | cv‡Qeveve‡j WvK‡Z bvï i “K‡i cwi |

f ‡̀ ªv‡j vK gvbyl | mgv‡R Zvi m¤§vb Av‡Q| †ek v̈i †c‡Ui †g‡q Zv‡K evevej ‡e, †mUv†Zvnq bv| Zvn‡jmgv‡R Zvi gy‡L _v‡K bv|

Zvi c‡i I gv‡S-gv‡S UvKvcvVv‡Zvcwi i Rb̈| GKevi †ek wKQzUvKvGK mv‡_ ẁ‡q‡Qkvevbv‡K| †m†hbcwo‡K Zvi evevi cwiPq bve‡j | `iKvi n‡j Av‡i v†̀ ‡e| cwi i f werl ‡Zi Rb̈|

cwi †̀ ‡L‡Z n‡q‡Qmv‡ne‡̀ i †g‡q‡̀ i g‡Zv| Wv±vi †̀ ‡L‡Z Lye my›̀ i wQj b| Zvi g‡ZvB n‡q‡Q†g‡q| GBkn‡iB Wv±v‡i i evwo| GKẁb i v‡Z †ewi ‡q Pzwc-Pzwc Wv±v‡i i evwo wP‡b Gm‡Qkvevbv| hẁ KL‡bvcÖ‡qvRb nq|

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cwi i ẁ‡K ZvKv‡ZB R¡ j -R¡ j K‡i DV‡j vLvj vi †PvL| G‡Zv̀ vj vj j vwM‡q bZzb †g‡q Lyu‡R‡Q†m| wKš‘wn‡i UzK‡iv†h Zvi nv‡Zi Kv‡Qc‡o Av‡Q| †PvL gyL †Kgb D¾¡ j n‡q‡Q‡g‡qwUi | †Pvnvivi kªxevo‡Z ï i “Ki ‡Q|†̀ ‡n †hŠeb Qov‡Z ï i “Ki ‡Q| GLb cyi “‡l i nvZ co‡j B Zi -Zi K‡i †e‡o DV‡e ‡̀ n|

Avb›̀ †hb Avi ai ‡QbvLvj vi g‡b| I ‡K ẁ‡q †Zvj ¶ UvKvKvgv‡bvhv‡e K‡qK gv‡m| gûqvi †P‡q †ewkUvKv†iRMvi Ki v‡bvhv‡e I ‡K ẁ‡q|

Lvj vi Pvnwb-‡Z f ‡q KzP‡K `vuwo‡q iBj cwi | †Kb ‡h GLv‡b Avm‡Z †M‡j v! †n‡mLvj vej j , ZzB cwi bv?

ûu|ZzB BmKz‡j combv?ûu|‡Kvb K¬v‡m?K¬vmwmK‡m|f vj -fvj |Zvi ci gûqvi Ni †_‡K †ewi ‡q G‡j vLvj v| gy‡L Zvi wPš—vi Qvc| wK K‡i j vB‡b bvgv‡bvhvq †g‡qUv‡K|

kvevbv‡K †j vf †̀ Lv‡j KvR n‡e| cÖ_g GKUzSv‡gj vKi ‡e wKš‘GKevi j vB‡b †b‡g †M‡j Avi †Kvb mgm̈vn‡e bv|UMi‡K ẁ‡q kvevbv‡K wb‡Ri N‡i †W‡K cvV‡j vLvj v| kvevbv‡K †W‡K ẁ‡q UMi ej j , Avwg hvB| †̀ wL †M

gûqvi wK ....Lvj vej j , ` v̈L †MgvMxgi‡j vwK bv?kvevbvi eqmAvi Lvj vi eq‡mi cv_©K̈ Lye †ewk n‡e bv| kvevbvej j , eyAvgv‡i wK WvK‡Qv?eq| KZvAv‡Q?em‡j vkvevbv| Zvi ci cv‡bi evUv†_‡K GK wLwj cvb gy‡L cy‡i wPey‡Z-wPey‡Z ej j , ki xiWvfvj bvB|

Wv±v‡i i Kv‡Qhvgy, nvZ Lvwj | nv‡Z cqmv_vK‡evB ev†Kg‡b, GB eq‡mwK N‡i bvMi Av‡n ZzwgB KI ? eyov-ayi vhvIAv‡n UvKvẁ‡Z Pvq bv| wek-wZwik UvKvi †ewk †Zv....... wK Ki “g KI |

‡cŠpveq̄ ‹vGB i“c‡cvRxwebxL‡Ï ‡i i Avkvq wb‡R‡K GL‡bva‡i †i‡L‡QwKQzUv| nq‡ZvAí wKQzKvj c‡iBZv‡K wbt̄ K̂‡i ‡̀ ‡e eqm| †hŠeb nvi vn‡q co‡e †m| ZLb wK K‡i ẁb Pj ‡e Zvi ? Mw”QZ UvKvI ‡bB †Zgb wKQz|

Lvj vZvK‡j vkvevbvi ẁ‡K| Zvi ci i n‡m̈i nvwm†n‡mej j , †Zvi wPš—vwK| Gnb †ZvwS j v‡qK nB‡Q|gyn~‡ZB gy‡L †g‡Ni Qvqvco‡j vkvevbvi | Zvi ci Aw̄’i K‡Ú ej j , bv†MveyAvgvi cwi BmKz‡j hvq|gy‡L SvgwU†g‡i Lvj vej j , cov-‡bKvnB‡Q| Avi K‡Zv| †ek̈vi gvBqvcov-‡bKvKBivwK RR †e‡ióvi

nB‡evbvwK ?Gevi cy‡i v-cywi Aw̄’i n‡q DV‡j vkvevbv| ej j , eyI ‡i Kv‡g j vMvgybv|Kv‡g j vMvwe bvwK Zq wm›̀ y‡K f Bivi vLwe| Zvi ci kvš—K‡Ú ej ‡j j vMj , †Zvi wS-i †h i ƒc, †Zvi †Zv†Kvb

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f ve‡Z j vMv‡j vkvevbv| G gwnj vi †PvL hLb GKevi c‡o‡Q‡h fv‡eB †nvK †g‡qUv-‡K j vB‡b bvbvwg‡q Qvo‡ebv†m| `iKvi n‡j †Rvi K‡i ¸Ûv‡j wj ‡q ......| ZLb UvKvAvi †g‡q ̀ y-B nviv‡Z n‡e kevbvi | ZvB AMZ̈vB †g‡q‡Kẁ‡q KvR Ki ‡Z i vwR n‡Z n‡j vkvevbv|

wf Z‡i wM‡q nvRvi Lv‡bK UvKvG‡b kvevbvi nv‡Z awi ‡q ẁj Lvj v| Zvi ci nvwmgy‡L ej j , AvBRB Wv±v‡i iKv‡Qhvwe| GLb †Zvi my‡Li ẁb|

UvKvnv‡Z wb‡q DV‡Z hvw”Qj kvevbv| Lvj vi Wv‡K GKUz̀ vuov‡j v| Lvj vej j , Zq Avi †̀ wi KvBivj vf wK ?KvBj B ëē ’vKwi | KvBj mÜ̈vi ci gvBqv‡i ZzB Avgvi N‡i cvWvqvẁQ| evwKWvAvwg eySzg| Kq ẁb c‡i me bZzb

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ëē ’vKBivẁgy| Gnb Avgvi N‡iB bvMi WvKgy&| ‡Zvi N‡i †ZvAvi envB‡Z cviwe bv| AZ cyi vb N‡i wK AvibZzb gvBqvi Kvg Pj ‡ev|

wb‡Ri N‡i P‡j G‡j vkvevbv| cwi co‡Qwbwðš—gy‡L| †g‡qi ẁ‡K GK evi ZvwK‡q †Pv‡L Rj G‡j vkvevbvi |†g‡qi Kv‡QwK me Ly‡j ej ‡e †m? bv, ej ‡Z cvi ‡e bvwKQz‡ZB| Zvn‡j AvR †_‡KB †mKvù‡Z ï i “Ki ‡e| ej vi`iKvi †bB| Kvj B hvnevi n‡e|

Zvi ci Awf gv‡b eyK f ‡i f vej , †ek v̈i N‡i Rb¥wb‡q Gi †P‡q Avi f vj wK n‡e| meB †ZvKcvj | bB‡j †m

ẁb †Kb †c‡Ui g‡ä evuwP‡q i vL‡j vcwi ‡K|mÜ̈vi Av‡MB cy‡i vcywi mȳ’̈ n‡q D‡V‡Qgûqv| AvR ‡Kvb i K‡g mvR‡MvR Ki ‡j vbv†m| wbivf i Y e‡mAv‡Q

N‡i i wf Z‡i | AvR Avm‡e bveo mv‡ne|eo mv‡ne bvG‡j I L‡Ï ‡i i †Kvb Af ve †bB gûqvi | j vBb a‡i L‡Ï i e‡m_v‡K Zvi evû ev‡mi Avkvq| wKš‘

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¯úm©Ki‡e bv| gvS i v‡Z bvgvR co‡e| K‡Zvẁb gvRv‡i hvI qvnqwb| evevi bv‡g wkwbœ†̀ qvnqwb|‡ek v̈‡̀ i †ZvRvnvbœv‡gB †h‡Z n‡e| ZeyI gv‡S-gv‡SB bvgvR c‡o gûqv| hẁ weavZvgvd K‡ib| Avevi

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Avgv‡̀ i mgvR †ZvAvevi D‡ëvPj ‡Z †ewk f vj ev‡m| ‡gvj−v†_‡K gyQwj−, cywj k †_‡K †bZv| GLv‡b AZ v̈Pvixi†P‡q hvi Dci AZ̈vPvi Ki vnq, Zvi wePvi K‡i B Lye gRvcvq gvbyl | me©†¶‡Î B †hb ag©ewR©Z Amvg̈Zv|

bvn‡j mgv‡R hvNU‡QZvNU‡e †Kb? ‡mẁb eo mv‡ne GKwULe‡i i KvMR †d‡j †i ‡L wM‡qwQj gûqvi N‡i |gv‡S-gv‡S Gfv‡e Le‡i i KvMR †d‡j hvq †m| †mLv‡b GKwULei wQj | wZb-PviwUj ¤úUwg‡j GKwU†g‡q‡K a‡i

wb‡q ej rKvi K‡i j y‡Uwb‡q‡QZvi me©̄̂|wē §‡qi wel q n‡”Q, †h †Q‡j ¸‡j v†g‡qUv‡K a‡i wb‡q wM‡q Zvi Rxeb bó K‡i ẁ‡j v| Zvivẁwë Ny‡i†eov‡”Q| mgv‡Ri †j v‡Ki vZv‡̀ i †Kvb wePvi K‡iwb| ei s †h †g‡qUvi GZ eo ¶wZ n‡j v, MÖv‡gi †j v‡Ki v†g‡qUv‡Kbóv-åóv, Kzj Uve‡j mgvR †_‡K ‡ei K‡i ẁj | Zvi cwievi ‡K Ki vn‡j vGKN‡i |

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‡mB mgv‡R wd‡i wM‡qB wK n‡e| gbUvwe‡̀ ªv‡ni Ab‡j f ‡i DV‡j vgûqvi | Avh©†m‡R _vKvgvbyl ¸‡j vi †P‡qwb‡R‡K †Xi f vj g‡b nq gûqvi | GLv‡b VKv‡bvnqbvKvD‡K| nq †hŠeb wewµ| GB mZ̈ ‡R‡bB GLv‡b Av‡mmevB|

GK R‡bi ey‡K gv_v†i‡L Ab̈ KvD‡K wb‡q GLv‡b f v‡e bv†KD| mf ̈mgv‡Ri Awf bq Ki vi “¶, ‡j vf x¯v̂_©ci, j ¤̂Ugvbyl ¸‡j v†P‡q †ek̈vA‡bK f vj | GLv‡b è b nq ki xi | wKš‘gb! mf ̈mgv‡R cÖwZwbqZ P‡j g‡bi†ek v̈gx| bvn‡j we‡q Ki vcyi “l Avevi cwZZj vq hvq wK K‡i ? we‡q nI qvbvi xwKf v‡e ivÎ xhvcb K‡i Ab̈ cyi “‡l imv‡_?

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emv†_‡K D‡VGKwUwmMv‡iUaiv‡j vgûqv| f ve‡Z Avi f vj j vM‡Qbv| hvnevi †nvK Zvi | weavZv†Zvme †̀ L‡Qb| wZuwb Aek B̈ mg wePvi Ki ‡eb, †kl wePv‡i i ẁ‡b| gvby‡l i Kv‡Qmv‡g̈i g~ j ¨ bv_vK‡Z cv‡i ZuviKv‡QAvek B̈ Av‡Q|

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AvR †hb mnmªevi ‡mB †Q‡j wUi gyLLvwb gyẁªwZ n‡Z _vK‡j vgûqvi Aš—‡i| K‡Zvmgq e‡q †M‡Q| cÙvhgybvqe‡q †M‡QK‡Zv‡mªvZ| wbðB GLb Avi †mB wbLuvZ †Pnvi v†bB †Q‡j wUi | nq‡Zvk³ mg_©cyi “l n‡q‡QGZẁ‡b| Mvb†e‡R DV‡j v,

ÔK‡Zv†h K_vwQj KZ †h wQj Mvb, K‡Zv †h †è bvbvej vi Awf gvb| K‡Zv†h K_vwQj KZ †h wQj Mvb,K‡Zv †h †è bvbvej vi Awf gvb| †Zvgvq Kv‡Q†c‡q AvKvk n‡j vi v½v| Mwnb iv‡Z wcÖq .......

 j Zvi wgwó myi †hb gyn~‡Z©B kªeb-Bw›̀ ª‡qi gayiZvevwo‡q Aš—‡i i meUzKzms‡è bvwgwkªZ ëKz j Zvq Db¥vẁbxK‡iZz j ‡j vgûqv‡K| Avevi hẁ GKwUev‡i i Rb̈ hvI qv†h‡Zv†gVc_ a‡i , †mB †QvÆMÖvgwU‡Z| †hLv‡b Zvi AvwZ Avcb,Avcbvi †P‡q Avcb †j v‡K‡̀ i evm| †mB †Q‡j wUGL‡bvwK ‡mfv‡e ̀ uvwoq _v‡K ? A‡c¶vK‡i _v‡K ? Zvi †Pv‡L wKRj Av‡m? †mwK wei n f ‡i ¯§i Y K‡i gûqv‡K ? Zv‡K wK GL‡b fv‡e wbkx‡_ ? GL‡bvwK cÖf v‡Z †Zgwb S‡i c‡o

eKz j ? dz j Kzuwo‡q †KD wK gvj vMvu‡_ Avcb g‡b ? †mB wbR© j vMÜ GL‡bvwK Av‡QeKz‡j i Mv‡q ?Duû, wK cv‡ci Awf kß Rxeb Zvi | GKwU†j vKI †hb †bB Zvi G‡Zvme cÖ‡kœi DËi ‡̀ evi | evwj ‡k gyL ‡̧Rû-û K‡i †Ku‡̀ DV‡j vgûqv| GB bi K cywi ‡Z †KD †̀ L‡e bvZvi GB Kvubœv| GLv‡b ‡̀ n ̀ L‡Z Av‡mmevB| mvš—bvevf vj evmvẁ‡Z bq, ‡hŠeb ..........

‡mªvZkxj cÖgË b̀ xi g‡Zvey‡Ki wf Z‡i dêy-avi veB‡Qgûqvi | Zvi B i “wa‡ivaviv†hb ̀ yÕKz j Dc‡P co‡QZvi`xN©‡bÎ Mwj c‡_|

‡Ku‡̀ -‡Ku‡̀ hLb K¬vš—gûqv, ZLb ì Rvq Kovbvovi kã †f ‡mG‡j vKv‡b| wb‡R‡K mseiY K‡i D‡V`vuov‡j v|AvuP‡j i Ly‡U‡PvL gy‡Qgûqvf ve‡j v, eo mv‡ne wK G‡j vAvR ?

`i RvLy‡j gyn~‡Z©B i “̀ ªgywZ©gûqvi | bRỳvj vj ! ‡n‡mbRỳvj vj ej j , `yB ẁb Av‡MB XvKv_vBKvi I bvnBwQ|

c‡Z †̀ wi nBj | †MwQj vg GK MÖv‡g|KzËvi ev”PvZzB wK PvQ? hvAvgvi mvg‡b _vBKv|gy‡L nvwmdzwU‡q †i‡L bRỳ vj vj ej j , G‡ZvivMKiQK v̈b †i gûqv| Avwg †Zvi wK ¶wZ KiwQ?

 ï qv‡i i ev”Pv, Zzwg Avgvi wK ¶wZ Ki ‡QvQ? †Zvi gv‡i wMqvwRMv|‡n †ZvgvBivM‡Q|Ke‡i i †Zvb DWvBqvwRMvï qv‡i i ev”Pv|Gevi †hb ivMn‡j vbRy| †PvL eo-eo K‡i ej j , gv_vq Lyb PvcvBmbvgûqv| f vj nB‡evbvKBZvwQ|Dév†e‡MN‡i i wf Zi wM‡q ewUG‡b gûqvej j , gvMxi cyZ ZzB wK Kiwe Avgvi | GK †Kv‡c †Zvi .......gûqvi GB f q¼vi i “c †̀ ‡L mwZ̈ †hb fq †c‡j vbRỳ vj vj | †Kgb evwNbxi g‡Zv†̀ Lv‡”Q| Avi †Kvb K_vbv

e‡j nvuU‡Z j vM‡j v| GB i v‡Z wPrKvi †PPv‡gwP Ki ‡j †j vK R‡ovn‡e| Ab̈ f v‡e mv‡q̄ —vKi‡Z n‡e I ‡K| GK eviGLvb †_‡K I ‡K †ei Ki ‡Z cvi ‡j B n‡j v, ZLb ‡̀ Lvhv‡e I i †̀ gvM†Kv_vq _v‡K| bRỳ vj vj nvuU‡j v†bkvwewµi†̀ vKvbwUi ẁ‡K|

`i Rvj vwM‡q weQvbvq wM‡q em‡j vgûqv| wKš‘wKQz‡ZB †hb µa mseiY Ki ‡Z cvi ‡Qbv†m| ï qv‡i i ev”PvGL‡bv†j ‡MAv‡QwcQ‡b| AK¯§vr gûqvi g‡b n‡j veo mv‡ne‡K ej ‡j †Kgb nq| cywj k ẁ‡q hẁ I ‡K awi ‡q †̀ qv†M‡j f vj B n‡e| KzËvi ev”Pvi wk¶vn‡q hv‡e|

g‡b wKQzUv̄ w̄̂—G‡j vgûqvi | A‡bK Av‡MB GB KvRwUKi vDwPr wQj Zvi | GB kn‡i i me `v‡ivMvcywj k gv_vwbPzK‡i eo mv‡n‡ei Kv‡Q| wKš‘Lvj v? hvnevi n‡e, eo mv‡ne‡K ej ‡ZB n‡e bRỳ vj v‡j i K_v| I i GKwUkvw̄—cvI qv̀ iKvi | bvn‡j †g‡q‡̀ i me©bvmKi ‡ZB _vK‡e bRy|

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gûqvRv‡b Kvj wVK P‡j Avm‡e eo mv‡ne| MZ Kvj GZUvKivZvi wVK nqwb eo mvn‡ei mv‡_| †j vKwULye f vj | Avevi f ve‡j v, f vj bvQvB| f vj B hẁ n‡e Zvn‡j ¯¿x-Kb̈v, msmvi †d‡j evRv‡i i ‡g‡q gvby‡l i Kv‡QAvm‡e†Kb?

ci ẁb we‡K‡j Lvj vi N‡i †Mj gûqv| eo NiwU‡Z Pj ‡QRwgRvi xmvR-m¾v| we‡̀ kxg̀ Avi gvs‡mi ëē ’vIKi vnq‡QAvR| eo NiwU‡Z bZzb K‡i weQvbvcvZvn‡”Q| me †hb Sj gj Ki ‡QAvR| G me †̀ ‡L gyn~‡Z©B gb Lvi vcn‡j vgûqvi | MZ Kvj bRỳ vj vj G‡mwQj | Zvn‡j ‡mwK †Kvb bZzb †g‡q‡K wb‡q G‡j vGLv‡b ?

gûqv†h ẁb bZzb G‡mwQj , †mẁb GiKg mvR-m¾vn‡qwQj Lvj vi N‡i | Zvi ci †_‡K †̀ ‡L‡Qeû evi | bZzb†g‡q G‡j B Gfv‡e mvRv‡bvnq Lvj vi Ni |

gbUv†Kgb Aw̄’i n‡q DV‡j vgûqvi | Avevi †hb Kvi me©bvk n‡e| wKš‘KvD‡K wKQzbve‡j Lvj vi Ni LyuR‡Z j vM‡j vgûqv| bv, bZzb †Kvb †g‡q‡K †̀ Lv†M‡j vbvLvj vi N‡i |

AvR KZ̧ ‡j vwcPvk Avm‡e GLv‡b| UvKvi †Rv‡i `vg DwV‡q GK i v‡Zi Rb̈ wK‡b †b‡g bZzb ‡g‡qUv‡K| Zvici †_‡K Pj ‡P _vK‡e ........

bZzb †g‡qi †Kvb †LuvR bv†c‡q UMi‡K wR‡ÁmKi ‡j vgûqv| UM‡i i Kv‡Qcwi i K_vï ‡b wew