love letters to god, vol. ii
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All That I Am. This sequel to “Love Letter to God, Poems from the Heart”, consists of writings from April through December 2007. The Heart’s Win, the prominence of delirious YES is evident. These poems speak to the continued journey, the pure ecstasy of falling so deeply into Love that no desire for escape survives.TRANSCRIPT
LOVE LETTERSLOVE LETTERSLOVE LETTERSLOVE LETTERSLOVE LETTERS
All That I Am All That I Am All That I Am All That I Am All That I Amrt of who
we are.
Gayle Gregory Gayle Gregory Gayle Gregory Gayle Gregory Gayle Gregory
TOTOTOTOTOGODGODGODGODGOD
TABLE OF CONTENTSTABLE OF CONTENTSTABLE OF CONTENTSTABLE OF CONTENTSTABLE OF CONTENTS
JoyJoyJoyJoyJoy 7 7 7 7 7Not Yet BornNot Yet BornNot Yet BornNot Yet BornNot Yet Born 8 8 8 8 8Yeshua’s GraceYeshua’s GraceYeshua’s GraceYeshua’s GraceYeshua’s Grace 9 9 9 9 9God’s PlaygroundGod’s PlaygroundGod’s PlaygroundGod’s PlaygroundGod’s Playground 10 10 10 10 10Fully HereFully HereFully HereFully HereFully Here 1111111111The SlaveThe SlaveThe SlaveThe SlaveThe Slave 1212121212Bow LowBow LowBow LowBow LowBow Low 1414141414God Looking at GodGod Looking at GodGod Looking at GodGod Looking at GodGod Looking at God 1515151515100th Monkey100th Monkey100th Monkey100th Monkey100th Monkey 1616161616GraceGraceGraceGraceGrace 1717171717Great Heart of GodGreat Heart of GodGreat Heart of GodGreat Heart of GodGreat Heart of God 1818181818BlossomBlossomBlossomBlossomBlossom 19 19 19 19 19Suckling at God’s BreastSuckling at God’s BreastSuckling at God’s BreastSuckling at God’s BreastSuckling at God’s Breast 2020202020The KissThe KissThe KissThe KissThe Kiss 2121212121The Lord’s PrayerThe Lord’s PrayerThe Lord’s PrayerThe Lord’s PrayerThe Lord’s Prayer 2222222222I will...as GodI will...as GodI will...as GodI will...as GodI will...as God 2323232323Beneath it AllBeneath it AllBeneath it AllBeneath it AllBeneath it All 2424242424Beginner ForeverBeginner ForeverBeginner ForeverBeginner ForeverBeginner Forever 2525252525No gods Before YouNo gods Before YouNo gods Before YouNo gods Before YouNo gods Before You 2626262626All That I AmAll That I AmAll That I AmAll That I AmAll That I Am 2727272727Here I amHere I amHere I amHere I amHere I am 2828282828Boundaryless Expanded YesBoundaryless Expanded YesBoundaryless Expanded YesBoundaryless Expanded YesBoundaryless Expanded Yes 29 29 29 29 29Willing to be GodWilling to be GodWilling to be GodWilling to be GodWilling to be God 30 30 30 30 30Owned by GodOwned by GodOwned by GodOwned by GodOwned by God 3131313131HomeHomeHomeHomeHome 3232323232
IN GRATITUDE
To my sons Joshua and Scott, whotaught me so many lessons, most ofwhich they are completely unaware.Children are such an amazing bless-ing. They teach by their very being,opening me, when I was willing, to seethe ways I had denied myself and oth-ers in mind’s great madness. I ampreciously blessed by their presencemore than they could ever know. Theirvery beingness shouted with opportu-nity and prepared the way for my evo-lution into a mother worthy of theirlove. I bow in humbled gratitude fortheir teachings. May they be blessed tofind such grand teachers.
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Gayle Gregory began writingthese poems, or rather they
began to be written through her, whileattending spiritual intensives with herteacher, Elle Collier Re. This sequelto “Love Letter to God, Poems fromthe Heart”, consists of writings fromApril through December 2007. TheHeart’s Win, the prominence of deliri-ous YES is evident. These poemsspeak to the continued journey, thepure ecstasy of falling so deeply intoLove that no desire for escape sur-vives.
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JOYJOYJOYJOYJOY
Joy!Dipped in LoveOnly forgiving
Nothing held backJoy!
Oh Joy!True purposeEmpty of all
But God
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NOT YET BORNNOT YET BORNNOT YET BORNNOT YET BORNNOT YET BORN
Not yet bornFully into
Light
Shadow’s depthsYet to
Uncover
More to forgiveMore toRedeem
The LightShines Brightly
Come
Tread deeperStill deeper
Into the Core
Come HomeGod awaitsYour Glory
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YESHUA’S GRACEYESHUA’S GRACEYESHUA’S GRACEYESHUA’S GRACEYESHUA’S GRACE
Yeshua,Grant us your GraceTake from our handsAll that we are ready
To Forgive
Poke usProd us
And show usThy way Home
Not letting us settleFor anything less
Than Being God
Give us reliefFrom our mind’s
Small storyThat creates
Such an ache of separationAnd begs us returnTo Full belonging
Ah…the reliefIs in the ache!
Such an amazing designThat brings us full circle
Home again
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GOD’S PLAYGROUNDGOD’S PLAYGROUNDGOD’S PLAYGROUNDGOD’S PLAYGROUNDGOD’S PLAYGROUND
Such an amazing worldThis playground
In which we liveJust for a moment
And in a flashWe are gone
Time spend in denialIn pushing away
The love that we requireIn holding ourselves back
From full releaseAn unholy delusion
Love simply, patientlyAwaits our YES
This world is our blessingIt is our cure
It is here we learn to loveIt is here we find Usefulness
It is here that we join the heavensAs we dive into each other’s hearts
Shattering this earthly windowInto the Divine
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FULLY HEREFULLY HEREFULLY HEREFULLY HEREFULLY HERE
I choose toBe fully here
To kissThe ground that
Embraces meTo love
This earthbodyThat allows
Intersection with theDivineTo be
God’s toolOf Love
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THE SLAVETHE SLAVETHE SLAVETHE SLAVETHE SLAVE
Slave to the mindSlave to love
We are alwaysIn servitude
Caught in thoughtsTrapped in wishes
Whirling inWhat we desire
Spinning inIn what we abhor
Or…
We can chooseTo be bowedIn surrender
To the mysteryTo raw unlimited reality
A slave to GoodIn service to All
Deeply openOur mind splintered
Upon the heart of God
One wayLimits and constricts
Promising freedom
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Delivering painBringing suffering
To newer and newer depthsAlways holding the promise
Just a little longerJust a bit higher
Promise without release
The God pathHolds no promise
Asks for allThat we have ever learned
That we have everThought ourselves to be
Appears dangerousAnd forbidding
When we are blessedWe see True Promise Here
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BOW LOWBOW LOWBOW LOWBOW LOWBOW LOW
I shall bow lowEnchanted by
The radiance ofEach God child
I am blessedTo encounter
Bow lowHumbly
Made wholeBy my lovingThe ONE
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GOD LOOKING AT GODGOD LOOKING AT GODGOD LOOKING AT GODGOD LOOKING AT GODGOD LOOKING AT GOD
Show me where I hold tightLoosen the debris
And sweep this vessel cleanFather, there is full understanding
Of the price you are askingNothing is allowed
Nothing can be keptEverything is to be given
A clean slateFor you to write uponIs all that can remain
Show me FatherAll that I still grasp
So that it can be givenTo your sweet Yeshua
Burned in the fireOf His Great Love
So that at lastI can stand nude before you
God looking at God
16100100100100100ththththth MONKEY MONKEY MONKEY MONKEY MONKEY
When the YESIs big enough
It trips a switchFrom self to God
Come to the ocean’s edgeAll that is not Whole
Falls awayIn the moment
One dives intoThe Ocean
The hunt stopsThe endless prying looseOf old stories and griefs
Given with thatBlessed step
How big must Yes be?How does one know
The 1000th stepHas been taken
How many petalsMust open on the lotusWhen is yes – YES!
Keep saying itKeep saying YES
Until the question falls awayAnd becomes ANSWER
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GRACEGRACEGRACEGRACEGRACE
GraceSuch a marvelous word
Just a willingnessA full YES
Is all that is requiredDemon hidingIn the recesses
Hangers-onOf past memories
UnvanquishedAnd yet
Grace slips inTo claim me
YES my Lord!Yes and Yes and Yes!
I am YoursJust as I am
And You are mineI am so blessed
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GREAT HEART OF GODGREAT HEART OF GODGREAT HEART OF GODGREAT HEART OF GODGREAT HEART OF GOD
O, great heart of GodThis form you created
Is your palaceYour tabernacle
Your churchThis ‘I’ tires
Of claiming residenceAnd making much ado
About nothingLord, this Holy structure
Is yours for Thy planThe final Yes resounds
No more struggleAll no’s have wornOut their purposeHave brought their
Futility homeThis that I am
Has always been yoursAnd ‘I’ but a creative renter
The door is openUnlocked and torn down
Inviting the rightfulOwner to enter
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BLOSSOMBLOSSOMBLOSSOMBLOSSOMBLOSSOM
We are not so differentYou and I
I drink in your beautyAs I eagerly sip
The wine from Christ’s cupYour flame red blossoms
A reminder of my new birthInto each joyous moment
I breathe inInhaling the energetic soup
You breathe tooWhat a lesson you are
To any who stops and pausesAlong their busy way
Just beBe of full Use
Nothing less satisfies!
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SUCKLING AT GOD’S BREASTSUCKLING AT GOD’S BREASTSUCKLING AT GOD’S BREASTSUCKLING AT GOD’S BREASTSUCKLING AT GOD’S BREAST
FatherI do not know the truth of earth
It changes and shiftsWith the watching
I am contentTo be here
Without opinionWithout needTo influence
Without knowingAnything at all
I am a babeSuckling at God’s breast
Being filledWith each moment along
Such gratitudeSuch graceI am blessed
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THE KISSTHE KISSTHE KISSTHE KISSTHE KISS
Kissed by GodTaken apartMolecularly
Redressed anewAwareness
Without painWithout fearWithout want
Immensely pleasedTo be HereTo be Used
In any capacityNo where to goNothing to do
Beloved of GodEmbraced
And at Home
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THE LORD’S PRAYERTHE LORD’S PRAYERTHE LORD’S PRAYERTHE LORD’S PRAYERTHE LORD’S PRAYERMind’s interpretation; Heart needs none
Divine FatherDivine FatherDivine FatherDivine FatherDivine FatherBlessed MotherStanding in awe
Your perfection In-spiresMind surrenderedMind surrenderedMind surrenderedMind surrenderedMind surrenderedHeart of Full Use
In and as Love aloneThe gateless gate revealed
Trusting in Thy designTrusting in Thy designTrusting in Thy designTrusting in Thy designTrusting in Thy designUnfolding as moment-by-moment splendor
All needs metGift’s given for
Souls unique purpose aboundKnowing as we forgiveKnowing as we forgiveKnowing as we forgiveKnowing as we forgiveKnowing as we forgive
Our mind’s storyAll judgments of others
Fall cleanly awayFor no ‘other’ exists in the One
Remaining rooted in GodRemaining rooted in GodRemaining rooted in GodRemaining rooted in GodRemaining rooted in GodWants and desires dissolve
Home’s beacon awash with lightDraws us silently upward
Breathing the Heart-of-AllBreathing the Heart-of-AllBreathing the Heart-of-AllBreathing the Heart-of-AllBreathing the Heart-of-AllThis Love that we are
Awaits only recognitionAnd invites us into remembrance
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I WILL …AS GODI WILL …AS GODI WILL …AS GODI WILL …AS GODI WILL …AS GOD
Great Divine PresenceRemove my insensitivity,
The skeins of cotton from my earsI will listen as you listen
Remove my blindersThe cobwebs of delusion
I will see as you seeRemove the constriction
The NO surrounding my heartI will love as you love
Remove the chains of resistanceThe self-centeredness from my body
I will serve as you serveRemove all sense of self, of me, of mine
I shall dissolve into OnenessAnd forever more
Be blessed with Divine Union
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BENEATH IT ALLBENEATH IT ALLBENEATH IT ALLBENEATH IT ALLBENEATH IT ALL
Beneath fragmentationConnection
Beneath sorrowPure Joy
Beneath the ache of lonelinessAbsolute community
Beneath agitated resistanceSweet acceptanceBeneath aloneness
All ONE
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BEGINNER FOREVER BEGINNER FOREVER BEGINNER FOREVER BEGINNER FOREVER BEGINNER FOREVER
Of full useA beginner forever
In loveWith each momentSitting in AWE!
AH!!!!!Yes, my LORD
As you willThrough this vesselThis reverberation
Of YESThrough which
God speaksKnowing onlyThis momentPerfect use
UnawareAnd aware
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NO gods BEFORE YOUNO gods BEFORE YOUNO gods BEFORE YOUNO gods BEFORE YOUNO gods BEFORE YOU
To trustAbsolutely
To sayYES God
I serveOnly you
I haveNo other
‘gods’ before youNeither
HusbandSons
DaughtersFinancial security
My lifeMy death
Yours alone
Mine onlyTo bowIn thanks
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ALL THAT I AMALL THAT I AMALL THAT I AMALL THAT I AMALL THAT I AM
All that I amOffered in reverence
Bowed humblyTo the mystery
All that I amDancing with jubilationShimmering with Light
Electric with GodAll that I amOf full Use
Empty and willingTo be God’s Love
All that I amNothing held back
Yes, GodPresent at last!
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HERE I AMHERE I AMHERE I AMHERE I AMHERE I AM
HereHere I am
HomeRight hereRight now
WillingTo listen
To God aloneNo longerTrappedBy mind’s
WhineOpen
To loveAll
HereHere I am
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BOUNDARYLESSBOUNDARYLESSBOUNDARYLESSBOUNDARYLESSBOUNDARYLESS EXPANDED EXPANDED EXPANDED EXPANDED EXPANDED
YESYESYESYESYES
I am Come!To earth
At lastUse-full
A blessingTo All
NothingTo do
But BEJust LoveOnly God
HereFor All
ImmersedIn Self
BoundarylessExpanded
YES
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WILLING TO BE GODWILLING TO BE GODWILLING TO BE GODWILLING TO BE GODWILLING TO BE GOD
Willing to be GodHere on earth
To let goOf all my fearOf being here
WillingTo let God
AppearIn this form
WillingTo build a bridge
From heaven to earthWilling
To trustTo release
This shynessWilling
UnabashedlyBoldlyHere!
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OWNED BY GODOWNED BY GODOWNED BY GODOWNED BY GODOWNED BY GOD
God, there is only You!Every time I lay claim
To your kingdomI exorcise YouLeaving myselfAlone and lost
Closing the doorTo heaven
And wonderingHow to get in!
God, you are perfectionEmptiness dancing in sheer awe
I alone createThe separate senseIn claiming your dueI lay down my staff
My flag on ownershipContent to be
Owned by God
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HOMEHOMEHOMEHOMEHOME
Father, I have forgiven all back to the Whole.
(Silence)
You have yet to forgive your idea of separation dearone.
You create separation not I.You create me as separate when you see yourself as
a person.As long as your personhood remains
The door to heaven is only slightly ajar.Let go the entire game
And that includes the person playing.Come back dear one; come Home.
Relieve yourself of this unholy cross.There is but one way Home.
Leave all you have created and see that you havenever left.
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