into the fire: a poet's journey through hell's kitchen
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These first two chapters set the stage, literally and figuratively! for the adventure into the New York City poetry scene of the late 1970s and early 1980s. The author, Mary Clark, comes to St. Clement's Episcopal Church and its arts programs: the Theater at St. Clement's and the New York Poetry Festival. The church, the arts programs, and the neighborhood of Hell's Kitchen, are all in a transitional time. Photos by Mary ClarkTRANSCRIPT
Into The Fire A Poet’s Journey Through Hell’s Kitchen
by Mary Clark
Dedicated to Richard Spiegel, founder of the Poetry Festival,
for his clarity of vision and inspiration
Thanks to Poets & Writers
for fair and generous support of the Poetry Festival
CHAPTER 1 Poetic License
1978
Talk about miles to go, miles of snow, a transfigured night and all in sight covered
in a winding sheet of white. Stopping by a snowy Ninth Avenue, face and hands
wrapped against the wind, I contemplated the divide before me. Ice-crystals glittered in
streetlights and snow fenced sidewalks. The city streets were deserted, and I was alone
in the canyoned silence. On the avenue’s arctic slope, deep within the haunting sound of
a muted city I could hear gypsy cabs snorting dragon-breath in the dark, and I would
have stayed to watch fringes of icicles on fire escapes glow in the dying light.
Crossing Ninth Avenue, I heard the wolf howl in the wind. Into a cumbersome gap
hacked in frozen snow I pioneered, and westward to find a narrow trail past four and
five-story buildings. Bare choirs of trees fell silent, only ticking now and then in frozen
despair, until a faint glow, just the slightest cinematic glimmer, fell on the crooked path.
I leaned back, one hand on a rack of ice, to see a living painting: a red brick building
with tall arched windows of earth and sky-colored glass. Indigo peaked gables and
copper crosses with a patina of green sprang like a frieze from a breathing, luminous
city-lights gray sky.
Double wooden plank doors painted in vertical stripes of chipped and tattered red,
white and blue were shuttered against the cold and any vagrants or visitors who might
venture in. Hiking up the steps, kicking footholds in rime-encrusted snow, I peered
through wire netting at an empty stairway to heaven. Tracking again through
Technicolor traces from the lighted windows, I discovered a second set of steps and a
brightly lit hallway.
A royal blue and white plaque with a strident red cross sparked through a crust of
frost: Welcome to St. Clement’s.
A bare bulb in a metal cage hung above the steps. Up and down the street of
tenements and brownstones, and on windowsills and steps festooned with snow, there
was no other light.
On the far side of a railing, steps led to a single recessed arch, and winding down
and up again, I began knock-knocking-knocking on heaven’s door.
A small round bell bolted to the brick caught my eye. I heard the buzz resound and
die.
Richard Spiegel, the director of the Poetry Festival at St. Clement’s, opened the
door. “Mary?”
In his early thirties, Richard’s long, wavy chestnut hair and trimmed beard shone
with a soft gleam of mahogany and substrata strands of red.
I stepped inside. “I promised I’d come one day.” My eyes pulsated with red and
white light as I thawed from the glacial trek.
I was one of only three. We read wine-poetry and drank red wine in cups from St.
Clement’s kitchen.
In the news the next day I read a man had been murdered while we were breeding
poetry, in one of the buildings behind the church, hacked to pieces and carried in bags
to the corner trash can. A trail of blood in the snow marked the way to Ninth Avenue.
When the frost cleared, I
returned to Hell’s Kitchen. Jeff
Jones, the administrator of the
church and Theater at St.
Clement’s, welcomed me to his
office. He was tall, the office small.
He enormously filled the room, like
a scene from Alice in Wonderland.
“I came to a poetry reading
here. I know Richard Spiegel from
another reading series he ran in
Midtown several years ago. I’ve
been thinking about working in a
theater, behind the scenes. Is there
anything part-time?” Seeing his reaction, I amended, “or volunteer?”
Jeff asked if I would like to help Richard with the poetry program, but I said, no, I
wanted to do something different, to “work with a group of people and get away from
writing.” Writing, writing, all the live-long day.
“There’s lots to do,” Jeff said. “There’s nothing paid at this time.” He added, “But
it’s a place to start, and you might find something you can do.”
Stage-managing? “I like lighting,” I said. “I would like to learn how to do that.”
“Would you be interested in helping build the set?
I perked up. “That sounds like fun.”
Jeff said to talk to Steve, the Technical Director.
We talked about days and hours. I came to grips with the idea that I was working as
a volunteer. I was on SSI Disability, enabling me to leave home and live in a Single
Room Hotel; this was job training. I had to forge my own life, and this was a big
decision for me.
Jeff asked again, “Are you sure you don’t want to do something with poetry?”
No, I nodded, I want to try this.
I had my poetic license in the back pocket of my blue jeans; I had borders to cross. I
went to work on the set for the next play. Steve Cramer, the Technical Director, or TD,
was an Abe Lincoln look-alike, from Illinois or Indiana, and just as judicious and fair.
Steve and I positioned wooden platforms to form a stage and seating area.
“How do you lift these all by yourself?”
Moving one end, he placed it on the top edge of another. “Don’t lift when you can
leverage.”
Some platforms had rows of red seats bolted onto them. “Old Roxy seats,” he said.
“We salvaged them when they tore down the theater.”
We secured scrims in place to create a black backdrop and obscure the machine
shop backstage. He showed me how to repair holes and tears in the set’s walls with
fabric and glue. We tested the doors and windows.
“If you have to move furniture or other props, mark where they belong with small
x’s in white chalk.” The poetry program and the church both used the space, but they
had to replace anything they moved to its original location.
I watched the lighting crew work, clipping lights on the exposed grid. There were
different kinds of lights, and colored gels that fit on them. I picked up a light.
“Fresnel,” I said.
“Fer-nel,” the lighting director said.
Steve returned and he gave me the job of finishing nailing down the carpet.
I attended the first night and was thrilled when the actors came out and walked on
that carpet!
Jeff said at St. Clement’s “liturgy and the arts collide and divide” and sometimes
“coalesce” to create new life forms. If it came together, it was transcendent, but if not,
chaotic.
He worried that Richard was trying to do too much: benefits for causes, poets
theater, weekly readings. “Richard could use some help with the Poetry Festival.”
I wavered. After all, I was trying to put space between me and the Emily Dickinson
syndrome. But did Richard need help? He had been running poetry readings for some
time.
Would he want me to help out? “I don’t know if he wants help.”
“I think he will.”
With ambivalence: excitement, caution, curiosity, anticipation, wondering if I fit in
and if this was what I wanted to do, I sat with Richard as the poets came in for the
Monday night reading. “Would you want me to help out with the poetry program?”
He answered with a quiet but emphatic yes. He started talking about scheduling
readers.
At the next Monday night reading, I greeted people and collected donations at the
door to the downstairs theater. Afterwards, Richard, and poets Rochelle Ratner, Jim
Bertolino, Maurice Kenny, and I went out for coffee. We had a wonderful time and I
did not get home ’til 2 a.m.
A compact, intense but friendly older man, Maurice was co-editor with Josh
Gosciak of Contact/II, a Bimonthly Poetry Review. I noticed that he was selling
postcards of American Indian women and artwork. Maurice said he was Native
American, a Mohawk from upstate New York. The postcards were from his Strawberry
Press, bringing out the work of diverse Native Americans.
In the front office of the church, I scanned the newsletter. It proclaimed that the
vicar, congregation and arts staff “explored changes in America’s social and moral
values.”
Talk about a mission!
On the church’s printed weekly program, a pen and ink drawing of the church
building depicted St. Clement’s sailing into a gale with all its gables and crosses flying.
Are we at sea?
In the front office, Richard held up a poster of whales
serendipity-ing across a blue-white expanse and the poetry
program’s name bending in synchronicity. “A friend of mine did
this,” he explained. “What do you think?”
“It’s beautiful. But whales?”
“I know.”
On the other hand, are poets whales? St. Clement’s a ship at sea, and whales
sporting about, safe from the harpoon?
Michael Hadge, the Theater at St. Clement’s director, hot-booted in, carrying an
armful of scripts. As he charged about in tight dress blue jeans, tailored cowboy shirt
and polished boots, scripts went flying to the four winds. Mike had studied at the Actors
Studio on West 44th Street and one of his friends from those days was Al Pacino. He
and Anita Khanzadian, the theater’s second chair, were planning the next season of Off-
Off Broadway plays for the Theater at St. Clement’s.
Jeff Jones lounged behind his desk in the
windowless middle office, conducting
meetings with panache.
The Board of Managers at St. Clement’s
attended the meetings along with the arts
program directors. Yes, we are all managers.
On Monday nights Richard and I sat at the
door to the downstairs theater while destitute
poets dropped change into a Poor Box to hear
other equally starving poets. Richard used the
money to pay the poets and print flyers. And
of course, buy wine.
We met several times a week to plan
readings and write press releases. He
proposed that I take over the readings during
the summer months so he could take a
vacation. It all seemed too much too fast.
My friend Sally, who wanted to be known
as Kip, asked if I could get in touch with Muriel Rukeyser.
Muriel Rukeyser! Is that all?
Kip said she wanted to protest the policies of the American Poetry Review.
“Her number’s in the phone book,” Richard told me. “She’ll talk to anyone.”
I never thought to look there. I forwarded the information to Kip.
One day, Richard approached me in the blue hallway, with a Cheshire grin. “I want
you to meet a friend of mine, an old man who lives in the Village near me.” He ushered
me down the hallway toward Jeff’s office.
A tall thin, elderly man with long flowing white hair and short beard and mustache,
in a wrinkled Arrow shirt, was setting out paintings on the filing cabinets, chairs and
desks. He greeted me with a smile, blue eyes paranoid but twinkling.
“PJ,” Richard said, “this is Mary. She’s going to help set up the display.”
PJ placed several pieces of artwork on a table. “I call these Impressions, my textile
art.”
I reached out to touch them. Tactile, textile.
After the exhibit opened, PJ invited us to visit him at his home in Greenwich
Village. His apartment was crammed with boxes of clippings, letters, typewritten pages,
books, newsletters, leaflets. Window frames
crumbled at the touch. Electrical sockets hung loose
in the walls. The walls were covered with what
looked like soot.
Touching long grimy tendrils above the stove, I
said, “There must have been a fire.”
“No,” PJ replied. “There was no fire.”
Oh. My hand wavered.
“In a way,” he said, “there was a fire.”
CHAPTER 2 Ladders of Flame
Upstairs in St. Clement’s sanctuary’s vast open space, rows of tall arched windows
resembled trees, and their mosaics formed branches, flowers and leaves. The peaked
roof with hewn beams two stories high was Noah’s Ark come to rest upside down on
Manhattan Island, filled with seminal winds and sounds of the flood.
A red carpet on the stairs and in the offices was worn but still warmed to the glow
from the windows’ mosaics of glass. These were not primary colors and depictions of
saints or scenes from the Bible, but Longfellow’s forest primeval — lichen gray and
green moss on fallen trees, clouds streaking into blue.
Watty Strouss, a member of the church’s Board of Managers, said, “Oh, they’re
actually not stained glass. They’re leaded glass.”
“There’s beauty under the grime.”
“We’d like to restore them, but it’s very expensive. Each piece needs to be cleaned
and re-set with new binding.”
A heavy wire mesh covered all the street-front windows, crisscrossing the muted
mosaics of glass. The protective mesh made the church look almost medieval.
“Oh,” Watty said, the word “oh” a major part of his vocabulary and depending on
the inflection, having different meanings like the Chinese language. “Someone didn’t
like our being an anti-war church and threw a Molotov cocktail through an upstairs
window.”
In the 1960s, he told me, Joan Baez was married in the church. Later she referred to
it as “that funky little peace church on the West Side.” Watty sighed. “She couldn’t
remember our name.”
The upstairs space was both the Sanctuary where services were held and a theater.
In the 1960s it had been remodeled to accommodate the American Place Theater. After
American Place left for new digs in the basement of a high-rise on West 46th between
Sixth and Seventh Avenues, another Theater at St. Clement’s was born. That
incarnation had a good run, but collapsed amid questions of missing funds. The current
Theater at St. Clement’s started in the early 1970s and operated in the downstairs space.
The church’s main income came from renting the Upstairs Space to outside theater
groups. Every Sunday church services were held onstage, making use of the current
play’s set to match the sermon’s theme. Vestry members with corduroy jeans beneath
their robes rolled out the altar and pulpit and lowered a large crystal cross from its
station in the light grid high in the beams.
Alone at the massive gray metal desk in the front office I heard sounds in the
church: voices, stories, pieces of song, wind in the sanctuary, birds in the oak tree, the
organist practicing hymns, tales of the flower fund and the trust for burying the poor.
From where I stood on the church steps I could see lines of tenements ride out of the
setting sun: full-tilt railroad flats roaring toward midtown Manhattan, skyscrapers rising
in Pyrrhic tower after tower, while the river sings through the streets of its power,
scarlet mist fills the air, diffusing over playgrounds and bars, vacant lots, delis, schools
and cars. I could see fire escapes flare the red of steel mill fires, flames slashing across
tenement faces.
I walked into the street:
This is the fire, this is the glow as flames rise in the core, heat rises ethereal, takes
on new forms, almost human, they flow along fire escapes: angels, angels walking on
ladders of flame.
Denise Levertov’s speech, “The Education of the Poet.” at the Donnell Library, was
thrilling, incredible. It startled me so many people would turn out for a talk on poetry.
The Poetry Festival reading featuring Susan Axelrod, Linda Stern, Kathryn Cullen
DuPont, Keelin Curran, and Amy Roth drew eighty people, almost a full house. There
was a notice in the Daily News “Leisure” section, put in by the readers.
Soon afterward at a Poetry Festival reading I met Dan Stokes, who looked like a
young, roly-poly Bacchus. He was the editor of the East River Review, a series of poetry
pamphlets, and the New York Culture Review, publishing articles on poets and writers,
especially those who broke with tradition. He asked me if I would like to read
manuscripts that had been sent to him. “I’m way behind.”
I said yes, and he gave me the address of the New York Culture Review bookstore,
and we set a time for me to pick them up. Daniel M.J. Stokes lived in the back of his
bookstore on East Fourth Street near First Avenue.
He was a post Beat poet with a brusque exterior but an affable heart. His poems
about the tortures and joie de vivre of love, poverty, crime, and freedom, made him part
of the François Villon tradition.
PJ was free in a way that seemed to have nothing to do with society. “I have a
theory,” PJ said, “that intuition is a motivating force in our lives.”
“Intuition? Isn’t that just a way of sensing things?”
“No, it’s more than that. The intuition is a program we build ourselves, and it’s
linked to every part of our nature and the environment. And it begins in infancy,
unconsciously, as we build up a memory storage of amiable and hostile experiences.”
This intuitive program leads us to act and respond in either a positive or negative way,
instantaneously, before we know it.
“And it is based on what. . .”
“What is valuable. A person evaluates every action for its worth.”
In my Single Room Occupancy (SRO) room on the Upper West Side for working
and indigent women, I was reading The Aesthetics of Silence by Susan Sontag, and Film
Form by Sergei Eisenstein. One of the best books I ever read on film was Negative
Space: Manny Farber on the Movies: modern film “involves a struggle to remain
faithful to the transitory, multisuggestive complication of a movie image and/or
negative space. Negative space, the command of experience . . . an artist can set
resonating . . . so that there is a murmur of poetic action enlarging the terrain of the
film, giving the scene an extra-objective breath.”
Extra-objectively, “Loba; Part 2” by Diane di Prima was lighting up my nights.
Sharing its love of adventure, with all its risk and elation, the wildness of the words
brought me back to my beginnings in Florida. Henry Miller said Paris was his mother.
Florida was both my mother and father.
My long poem about Florida and childhood was in Richard’s hands.
Waves half dark, half light leap and spin
flashing hooves and windswept manes
sleek black flanks and spinning wheels
of a chariot carrying the moon
wings of darkness flutter and fall
palms bow and bend and arc in the wind
as the surf sings
strength and renewal
strength and renewal
Richard suggested I read part of it in May with Duane Locke, an Immanentist poet
from the University of Tampa. I lost my breath and could not speak. I was too shy to
read my own work.
In a 1976 issue of Dan Stokes’ New York Culture Review, Locke wrote about
“Immanentism.”
It is a linguistic reality engendered by a heightened and intensified
awareness, a quality of consciousness different from the habitual and
ordinary consciousness . . . The immanent poem results from a fusion of
the subject and object, the inner and the outer, the knower and the known
into a qualitatively different and new substantial reality.
Richard asked me to schedule June and July.
At Womanbooks on the Upper West Side, I heard two good poets: Akua Lezli Hope
and Audre Lorde. It was raining cats and dogs, overwhelming umbrellas and street
drains. After the reading, I hung around, trying to work up the courage to ask Audre
Lorde to read at St. Clement’s, but I was too miserable about my own life: needing love,
work that earned money, success as a writer, to approach her. She left suddenly and the
woman from the bookstore said she had not been feeling well but came to read that
evening anyway.
Early on a Monday evening, Dan Stokes came into the downstairs space before his
reading. Richard and I and Dan and another poet began drinking the wine.
“Not going to be an audience,” Dan assured us. “No one ever comes to my
readings.” He belched.
The poet Barbara Holland came in. She was not amused. A small audience filtered
into the seats. They were not amused.
I started work on a new piece, “Buffy,” about a child who lived on an island. The
view was subconscious, subliminal. It had an odd style. My style.
Her father, absent, an enemy or stranger, fluttered his long silky
wings when passing through windows and doors, weaving in and out
magically, always in mid-flight, then settling a moment on the back of
her mother’s chair. . . . He was her bird now, a bird of prey.
Kip said she thought it should be a mixture of poetry, prose and dialogue. “You
could be the Henry James of psychological poetry.”
Sid Bernard said my writing was too dense, with a confusing concentration of
images. He was right. I was being true to the direction my writing, and my life, were
taking me in. I had more work to do.
It was a full house in the 99-seat downstairs theatre for the chamber theater
production of “Travellers,” directed by Maurice Edwards. This “concert piece for
theater” set Ilsa Gilbert’s words to music by Jim Green, with musical director Skip
Kennon. The singers performed eight pieces, including “Lizzie Strata,” “Sarah Lee
Cake,” “Lawrence of Astoria,” and “Mama and Papa Ionescu.” The program was
funded in part by the New York State Council on the Arts (NYSCA, called “nisca” by
all those affected by this government agency.)
Ilsa Gilbert’s poetry and lyrics evoked the constants in our lives: feelings for home,
musings about family, suffering and overcoming, often with humor. As a poet,
playwright, lyricist and librettist, she was active in the 1960s and 70s Off-Off Broadway
avant-garde
theater in
Greenwich
Village. In 1967,
her play, “The
Bundle Man,”
with composer
and counter
tenor Marshall
Coid, ran at The
Old Reliable
Theater Tavern
in the East
Village. She
worked with
many musicians
and composers
on her particular
brand of
chamber opera.
As we talked, I found her to be sweet and funny, but also reserved, cosmopolitan,
driven, and savvy: a vintage New Yorker.
Steve Cramer saw me scribbling in the front office. “There’ll be work to do on the
next production,” he told me, on “Voices,” by Susan Griffin. Susan Griffin was a poet,
and this play was unusually subtle word-work for the Theater. Estelle Parsons directed
the cast of Catherine Burns, Susan Greenhill, Rochelle Oliver, Anne Shropshire and
Janet Ward. The actresses were appearing, as with all TASC and Poetry Festival
productions, with permission from the Actors’ Equity Association. This, I learned, was
because actors were to be paid for their work under union rules, and these were either
low paying or unpaid performances.
On the program’s back page, the Theater’s mission was described in more detail:
“Ultimately, we choose plays that reckon with moral conscience. What is the
responsibility of an individual to his or her self and to others? Of an individual to
society at large? Or, on the corporate level, of the faceless conglomerate to the
anonymous citizen?”
Yes, we are pioneers on the moral and ethical frontier.
Copyright by Mary Clark 1978-2013. All rights reserved.