healty life ne is tle in
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"Seeking but not finding the house builder, I travelled through the round of countless
births. Oh, painful is birth ever and again! House builder you have now been seen. You
shall not build the house again. Your rafters have been broken down; your ridge-pole is
demolished too. My mind has now attained the unformed Nirvana and reached the end
of every kind of craving." (Dhammapada. 153-54.)
I made my first Vipassana! "Vida Sana" (Healthy life) As I call it with affection. A
wonderful experience and constant practice for good. The Master is Goenka, who looks
like a millennial wisdom round Buddha. The technique is pure, free of any faith or
belief. Very basic. It's self-observation.
Everything I write is varied collection of information, nothing new, compilations of my
former life, being curious. Reading the Bible, Carlos Castaneda, Ho'oponopono, Toltec
wisdom, the Upanishas, Zapotec, Maya, Egyptians, Greeks, Sumerians, Louise Hay
sentences, Law of Attraction, the Emerald Tablet, the Kybalion (All is mind) watching
films, documentaries and videos like "what the bleep do we know." Also the Anunnaki
story, Planet X, the Illuminati and reptiles deities. Schumann resonance, I became a fanof Nikola Tesla. Changes in our DNA, solar storms. The idea of the end and the
beginning of a new time. Alfa vibrating without control.
It is my experience that I want to share, never say this is like this, or you read a book by
Shirley Maclaine. Everyone perceives their reality as best suits them. Like when
someone tells me: Do you believe in angels? or Do you believe in the chakras? It makes
me laugh, because start to explain what I felt sense a child, is just perception, and not
even enough to take a picture or a video of something, somebody will say it's "computer
image".
A new time came, I had an idea of what is on the outside. Now, with the meditation
technique, I learned to feel from within. A situation whatever is the cause, is the effect
on me. I get angry, happy or any other emotion in response. That feeling or thought
creates a chemical reaction in my brain, neuropeptides do their job, it come to me the
feeling to that reaction and I can became addicted to what the sensation make me feel.
Then meditating, I observe, the sensations and I learn to know myself, learning to train
my mind, I pay attention to what is happening outside and feeling in my body and I take
that emotion whether I like or dislike it, sometimes I say thanks, but no thanks. Once
prepared in this new knowledge is a wonderful meditation, feeling love, really, pure and
true love. No one can practice keeping negativities about the world, or a person or tooneself, its very healthy. Understand also negative and excessive joy, it's like being
drunk. Is mental balance, everything in perspective. Without being carried away by
euphoria or depression.
I'm still getting used to the detoxification of my brain. I would (without generating
excessive emotion of pleasure) like, that everyone can have the Vipassana Meditation
experience. It's hard; a test of courage, but it is valuable for the soul and mental hygiene.
I do not give reasons to the constructor of my existence, to build me another body and
have to go again for the traumatic birth experience, that engenders the feeling of
separation, I was blinded my former life, because what else would I desire but Love.
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You are what you think, what you feel, what you eat and you have to compulsorily take
the responsibility to turn all that into positive energy. We are all connected, the spiritual
Internet, I say, every link can provide more information and mix this, logically or not,
completely basic or very complex concepts, but it depends on how we used we can go
until "Second World War" or hard pornography, or perhaps this porn war of external
stimulus.
Each little life, is a little world, which is part of this world. A living planet, is fluid,
wind and water. With its elements, earth, wood, plants, minerals, fire, ether, us. Life,
energy and consciousness. A galaxy we inhabit is a tiny cell for the eternal Being who is
infinite. Why try to understand in words or pictures, when what you have to do is close
your eyes and feel. No explanation or justification that may contain the Light, Love,
Everything and Nothing. Perfect balance.
I dedicate this text to my Masters, my parents, who are the "very best" I could choose
before coming here to Earth. To Chris as well, whom we have being ultraterrestrials and
of the space within, conversations. It's your experience and it's good to share.
My Vipassana, or as I like to say, "vida sana" (healthy life).
I made my booking several months before. I bought the train ticket more than one
month in advance. The day finally I had to go, I went to another station. During that
month, I have to have seen in my e-mail my ticket at least four times, but I always had
the idea that I was going to a wrong station. The particular day was chaos. Although I
arrived an hour before to the train's departure, I could not get the ticket from the
machine, someone called me and talked a long time, when I went to ask what was
wrong with my ticket, I was sent to another station which is close, but it was not there. I
lost the train, I cried in distress, I cried in front of the subway map, on the escalator, I
cried on the platform, in the subway and on the way home. I could not see anything
clearly, but I wanted to mourn and put out that anger against me, it was like letting go
emotions explode all had long contained, throwing all that I was unable to digest. So I
went home, counting and I went any way.
My dear Vipassana friend, who I lived with at that time, said to me, "You know?
Vipassana will help you a lot in this type of situations. At home I cried last things and
almost dehydrated I had left.
When I arrived at Dhamma Dipa Meditation Center, they were waiting kindly for me,they treated me very well, I felt at home. My eyes were like fried egg, so they just sent
me to bed and tomorrow, is another day.
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Day 1
I missed the first meditation because I was still out of focus, but I slept deeply in a bed,
in my own space, my silence and my company. I got up for breakfast. Breakfast was my
usual breakfast. Porridge with fruit and nuts, rooibos tea. No eye contact and Noble
Silence, the next ten days.
The first day is very chaotic; most people do not have much idea of how to proceed and
usually acts only by imitation. Information is placed outside the room, everyone reads
what will happened in the daytime. You can only ask the managers of the group, you
can not make gestures to others, for be clever about something. When you think you
would save someone the mistake, just buy saying anything, "Hey, this is like this". Just
leave them, they have to learn on their own, is an exercise. "I Respect the evolution of
others".
It's like that story that Silvia Freire tells, about the person who watched the butterfly
struggling to emerge from the cocoon, then decided to help by opening the cocoon, butthen saw that the butterfly could not fly, not strong enough, because she didn't went
through the effort itself for get out of its own shell. Leave it to sweat, heavy heart beat
and that the spirit filled with the pride of succeeded.
I had no clear the technique. At first I concentrated on breathing, was not natural and I
was counting, this allowed me to concentrate, but actually it was not counting, leaving
the mind calm. I could never do it, my mind was like a radio, which never stopped,
eventually just ignored it. Even if I shut up in my mind, what Carlos Castaneda called
the second mind, came to me with laughter, songs and sometimes complex talks.
Goenka's speech at the end of the day, let me cleared. So many years of experience,
many courses, is like a magician, who reads your mind. It is a real master, he's giving
you information, the words you need to hear at the right moment.
I had a dream with the people from the course. In my dream I had to keep quiet, but that
rule was only for me. The others talked among themselves about me, criticizing me. A
woman accused me, that I did not loved her son and he said he loved me, when I saw
him, he had his legs together, was male mermaid. I left the place angry, I went to the
upper parts, some mountains, where several houses had their doors and windows closed,
locked with wood, I was angry, outraged me more because I thought: "All these houses
empty and wasted, while I have no a place to live". Dreams
Always taking care what I think, how I think and judge. Very clear that we are all part
of a whole Being, big and perfect. Just simply observe how cells reproduce. Our
immune system kills cancer cells every day, that our own body produces. Just a bit of
emotional depression, lower defences and trigger the disease. In the book the author
Louise Hay "Heal Your Body" explains how each emotion is somatise by the body, so
the disease is a warning from the physical to what's emotionally happening. It is the
emotion of anger that generates cancer and healing comes by heal the mind, attitude
change life, change the way you think (do exercise and eat healthy).
Sure there is aluminium in deodorant, is blamed for breast cancer, even in men.
Aspartame is everywhere and is cancers of the head, lead in lipstick, ingested meat rots
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in the gut causing colon cancer, plus so much rubbish in processed foods, it would be
better if you are interested use google search.
Louise Hay after practicing her techniques for years, was able to heal herself of cancer.
First healed her mind and emotions through forgiveness, in a world that we can not feel,
but it's real as any emotion, which later materialized in the physical world, in the body.She works with statements of simple ideas like: "I love and approve of myself. I'm safe"
is not so simple for many people truly love and accept their selves. Feeling good despite
what happens in the outside world, that's the big test, is Faith.
The sentence to cure cancer is: "With love I forgive and release all the past. I choose to
fill my world with joy. I love and approve of myself".
Ho'oponopono means "Corrects what is wrong" is an art used by the Elders of the
village in ancient Hawaii. Every time there was a mess, the villagers came with their
dramas to the Elders to do Ho'oponopono.
There are people healed successfully though experiments with this technique. The
psychiatric ward of the hospital in Honolulu was empty of patients (they where
criminals), thanks to a researcher testing the technique incessantly repeated these words
while reviewing the file or record of each patient: "Ho'oponopono, I'm sorry, I love you,
thank you".
To me it's like dropping the ego to the floor, saying it's my fault, and I do not feel guilty,
well, we are free, what else can we do, but enjoy. Forgive me, I love you. Love to all,
how not to, if what I like most is to be beloved, that's why I give the first step.
How difficult is the concept of love, seems so simple when is pure "unconditional", but
in our education often comes with possession, saying: "This person no one loved it more
than me" and is mine, nobody will dare to make this person happier than I can do it.
Also it's like sometimes you ought a favour, because they love you: "How you do that,
to me, that I love you" and dramas. "So much that I sacrificed for this person".
Reproaching. Then perhaps the sacrifice has nothing to do with Love.
Already was crucified the Saviour. Father, with paternal love, offered in sacrifice he's
son in an act of love, for all of us, for all who came. Just him, the son, he is no longer
suffering.
Sometimes I thought of a person, who loves me, but he wants me to be for him or wants
me when he wants, that's not love. I think the exercise (exercise sometimes not) to have
children or even a pet, trains us to unconditional love.
Maybe not even a child because it is mixed the drama of ownership, or even a dog
because the dog loves with all heart. Maybe a cat, which just look at you, tells you: "I
go and comeback, you'll be here when I return? If, he look at you while he's leaving.
There is a book about the Art of Loving by Erich Fromm, like any art, is learned,
requires discipline and training.
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I saw a documentary on Animal Planet, saying that puppies of almost all species have
the structure of the face made to look sweet. The eyes look rounder and closer together,
of course, is small, soft, smell better than adults and they squeal. Adult animals have
this instinct to protect, in that eagerness, they attack each other and sometimes harm the
puppy. Brutality Pro-tenderness?
There is an instinct in the world of forms that says, "This is mine, stay away" and "The
Selfish Gene" by Richard Dawkins. Finally, we are never entirely altruistic, we do
something good for self-satisfaction. While being a good thing for others, be selfish, but
without ego.
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Day 2
I began to meditate as I had to, but the monkey mind, as Goenka call with affection,
never stay quiet, jumping here and there.
There was a time when, if I would open my eyes, I seemed to be certain that at thecentre of the meditation hall, there would be a pool table on a grand piano, for playing
golf. What a stupidity, but psychedelia! So, this picture come back sometimes. It's my
ridiculous situation phrase: "Less sense, that grand piano with pool table to play golf"
Who would ever think something like that?
There are moments in which we meditate on are room. Because I was a little bit tired, I
fell asleep in my bed while I was meditating and in the dream I woke up, feeling this
sensation. "I'm dreaming" I said and ran down the hall to go to outside, because I
learned to fly in my lucid dreams, but just before going outside I saw a mirror. As they
has strong symbolism in dreams, you can see your soul, I said to myself: "I'm going to
watch me!" I went and saw my reflection all disfigured like these mirrors in the mirrorhouse, and I was blonde. I said, "Noooo!". Then I got closer and slowly began to see my
face "Now is ok" I said. I saw that there were tears on my face going in reverse.
Redemptive emotion!
I woke up and felt the meaning. I thought on the written word: "In the beginning was
the verb" ... says, but I think it was near the end of the Bible, God promises that when
he comes, he will wipe away every tear from your face. I feel that, for me already came.
My body is the house that was waiting with my mind open, which is the open door.
I feel that he washed my face of sadness and cleaned my wounds. Today no scar, healed
and has stayed in my heart that had been broken a few times.
After several meditations, on the tea break, I was in my bed thinking about people who I
despised and why the actions of everyone. Why they play a role in my story for me to
learn something. Why do I need these experiences, and basically, it's me who uses them
at the end.
It is assumed, that together we think, believe and create. Thus, we are giving energy to a
world without peace. Because we are usually unable to feel peace on our own,
regardless of the outside and bla bla.
It came to me the memory of someone who I was not in complete agreement. Then in
the middle of the "Noble Silence" I said aloud: "Fucker!" And I quickly covered my
mouth with my hands.
I started laughing, because all the other ladies, who were also in are rest in their beds
and rooms, all listened. Our rooms were divided from the hall only by a curtain. All of
them heard me as well as I could hear them, serch in their things, sneezing, snoring, or
blow. I wanted to say "Sorry" but it was just to screw up more.
When I have faced attacks without raising arms, once somebody told me: "You play the
victim". Not true, if someone is upset because I don't advocate myself or attack, is
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because I do not feel I have to. In my point of view, I have not done anything wrong and
if someone wants to hurt me is their problem. I do not feel hurt.
Of course it hurts when is someone that you feel affection, but unfortunately or
fortunately, depends on how you judge. I learned to let go of ideas, beliefs, places and
people, affections too.
Not flee or tired of turning the other cheek, but I do ask for elm pears if elm is elm.
(that's a proverb it means you won't have something else)
Again, "I respect the evolution of others" and respect me mine too. To the battle I go
with the best weapons, which are not supported by my cruelty, but in the mercy and
forgiveness, two qualities that require long work. In my experience the forgiveness just
comes, divine Will? You can not force it. Will be my own evolution?
Sun Tzu in "The Art of War" says that subdue the enemy without fighting is supreme. I
think many of my enemies, although not finish being friends, I won theme by myexample, always dignified and not stoop to act in the way that they did.
Enemies help you to learn a lot about yourself, that is true, I do not know who said it.
It's like the external situation would be the enemy "Crisis, Recession, cholesterol,
cancer, weapons of mass destruction, terrorism ..." (Ho'oponopono) Those were my
enemies and are internal and external work.
How much control is needed to keep the peace? Asked Tranquilino, Elohim of Peace.
My mind is calm, my feelings also does and that's not mean that I love you less.
Mentally say "Ho'oponopono sorry I love you" and I apologize if words have offended
anyone. For many people, when they leave the other feeling bad or injured, is a triumph.
I do not give theme their prize.
I lived severely energy vampires, people who feed on the emotion of hatred, fear and
any energy you have. They live in negativity without knowing anything else, if you
show affection or they start to feel good, they are uncomfortable.
I was, I think, a wonderful challenge, but I spent very bad time, for an old fool woman,
how I call with love "Crazy Lady". I know I have to be impeccable with words, I missed
to do more ho'oponopono with her.
She always wanted to make me feel bad and I was not Vipassana at the time, but I did
not feel bad, because I used to analyzed from the outside, thinking: "No one has treated
me like that". My mom and dad always encouraged me, no one humbled me, if
somebody did, I never felt alluded to, then I have said to her: "If you want me to go, I
go". She said, escaping somewere not solved things and I said, do I get something
staying? When I came out of her life definitely she went more crazy and finally was
trying to infuriate the people around her. But she is not my little girl, I did not educated
her, was not in me to change her. I wanted to share what I learned and she couldn't get
it, is the process of evolution. I take her healed with me.
It is hard to think that we share the planet psychic network with such beings, but it is, sothey appears.
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"Why me" I said to my mom many times exhausted by crazy lady. The "pinche tyrant"
She said was named by Don Juan Matus or Don Juan, Carlos Castaneda's mentor.
Always I will need who play with my ego, while I still have it. To strengthen my spirit.
Now I can say, vampires come to me. My blood will make you throw up when I show
the mirror of their soul, which can not show anything. Rapists, pedophiles, and simply
greedy people apathetic, ignorant.
This great Being that contains we all, also has these tumors and this task of healthy cells
is irradiate to diseased cells, although it seems hopeless. "I am old and do not think I
will change".
Inspiring for who recognizing himself creator as heritage of The Creator. I do believe
and I am creating that everything will change, because I already changed and you have
done it with me!
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Day 3
My mind was not getting quieter or calm as the pool table to play golf above the grand
piano. So, it was not working.
I started thinking in "Neistlein's little helper" and I got the image of a baby angel.Beautiful fat, chubby with soft wings, super cute and I blow it out, he laughed.
I was getting put my attention on my breathing, but imagination overflowed
uncontrollably. I went to the past, to worry on something that no longer exists. I went to
future, thinking about "what I'll say" and I couldnt, so I asked help and suddenly started
to feel a soft cold wind in my face, from time to time, so every time it came on I
breathed the little wind and when was not I exhaled, after a while my breathing was
natural, tantric breathing help by the assistant. My attention under my nose. I felt as if I
had inflamed the palate, fat, all swollen. The teacher asked me about my sensations that
day and concluded: "Expansion" and I said "Ok".
Anyway my mind never stopped, in a moment I saw the flowers named "thoughts" in
black and white on a black background with flashing yellow spots.
After tea, meditate again and came to my mind an image of Jesus as the Jehovah's
Witnesses draws, in their clothes radiant, well-lit, but it was black and white, black
background, going away. I just looked at him, without imagining, getting what my mind
wanted to send, without apparent control.
Vipassana begins! The latest daily meditation is the introduction to what will be
Vipassana. After calming the mind, not in my case, slowly began to pay attention to
every little part of the body, the Being.
I began to experience big pain. When my attention was on top of my body my legs were
experiencing lot tension and even a dreadful feeling like sometimes I had the needles in
my feet. When my attention finally reached the bottom of my body started to feel tense
neck, especially in what I call "the channel of anger" that runs from the base of the
back, in my case on the right side, bordering entire spine up my neck. Stress. I moved in
all directions, one leg cramped and the other one sleeping.
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Day 4
I started the morning very hungry. Improving fairly, staying very still feeling my
breathing and enjoying the peace of the moment, only my head seemed to spin freely,
then sometimes I felt my head was going to fall or moving with no control to one the
side.
At breakfast I went to make me another tea again, with the same bag, (as crazy lady
used to make me) I just needed to take water, but I had a big woman in the hot water
machine, she was not getting water, but felt the need to put her foot in the place not to
let me pass, occupying the space along the hot water machine, tray with coffee, tea and
sugar, until the part where was also the soymilk. I waited patient and observing my cup.
I asked myself. "Is it this woman trying to make me moving in Vipassana?" And I
baptized her as Margot.
"The Margot" was my first bully, I was five, I was in kindergarten and she was olderthan everyone, big and fat. Every time the teacher left the room, the Margot stood,
began to walk and say, "Now, no one moves or I will tell to The Miss" in very
aggressive attitude. We all watched each other and we watched her. We were much
smaller children, we looked at this bitch, big and menacing. The Margot maybe had
someone who treated her this way at home. I did not know was happening with her, but
at a young age she was full of hate. That bitch beat other children, once she stepped me
horribly strong in the instep in a ceremony at the school and I was on all photos with
angry face, tried to make my life miserable, but as I was happy and lived here and now,
I forgot. I think at that age begotten no hate, but I considered her the enemy and many
years after the memory returned.
Among those who loathed in my story, I had done a lot of forgiveness without result, is
something that just happens. I accumulated six heads, one man and five women,
curious? Heads? Mentally I decided to cut them and observe them, not as individuals. I
thought of the Bible, which says that if I did not forgive, this grudge accumulate not
only on me, but I put that burden on my brother's head. I wont be free because don't
forgive and that person not be released from the sentence that I make.
The head does not suggest much about forgiveness, I think it's turning people into
objects, like chips in a game and leave my ego as the board, then it depends on what
position I install the head or chip. If I am ready to release or keep playing under absurdrules, in complete unconsciousness, thinking "How could this person do that to me", if I
do not deserve it, if I've always been good and bla bla bla.
Sometimes I still remember, with the feeling that I want to pass some memory, but still
could not look at it with complete peace.
It was Friday, I began to remember the meditations of the Ascended Masters. Friday
sixth ray, beloved Master Lady Nada ... I got the meditation of Jesus working as Misha
angel and I thought that they will get pay well to serve this evotution!
Meditation remembered about ministering angel, then I thought about Neistlein's littlehelper. I remembered that the guardin angel do not attend any withdrawals if the current
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life also not attend. This is the case of "Prison by Love" that is unparalleled. So I
thought of the cherub and I know that my helper is not like that, I can not visualize
human form.
Angels are a loving energy explosion, perhaps resembling something like star-shaped
with mushroom-shaped smoke. I told him mentally, I gave thanks for the little air, I toldhim if he wanted to take a holiday of me, this was the time to do it, because I was in
good hands. Then I had a vision of fractal shape, amazing. First I saw that my angel
was like a tree, I thought on the angelic choirs, where are babies angels, children, adults,
angels animals. Those closest to God, dominations work with the stars and planets.
Why not have angels vegetables, insects or arachnids? Then it came to me how is
"Umabel" like a coral. Like a tree that started spinning in all directions, not just two-
dimensional, to make a flower shape with endless streaks and again the suction me tube
vision, that I always see when I stare at the sky, with a repetitive aura coming towards
me. The shape of the angel is pure energy, constantly expanding.
Always with pain and tension in the meditations, with better times, but inconstant. In
one of the meditations in my room, sat on the bed super good, but the mind playing with
me. Suddenly a voice says to me, "Ei! You have your Oyster? (the transport card)
Hurry you'll miss bus!" And my right leg raised up high as if had received an electric
shock. I get scare, uncontrolled is scary. You can cure the immobility of a member with
the thought, the electrical impulse, combustion chemistry, neurons doing chik chik in
the brain and the leg up.
I once saw on the Discovery Channel, the case of a man who had lost an arm. He was
feeling big pain in the arm that had not. How can that be? His doctor put a mirror so that
he looked like he had both arms through the reflection of his remaining arm. The only
exercise was to open the hand. His brain understood well that he released the tension.
The mind.
Of course my monkey mind, had a baby monkey with hat and bottle, while I felt fire
and burning throughout the body, needles feeling in my fingers, the tension was not
gone.
I remembered my mother as a child, with my aunt, used to placed facing the sun with
lemon juice on the eyes so they will get clarify, that's pain.
That day all the scars on my body were pink and swollen. Something was moving,
healing with the trauma of healing.
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Day 5
The arduous morning, slept few hours, thinking everything. That day the lunch was
scrumptious as always, but I saw it coming. The Jack Potato and Humus! Only from my
Father I have eaten the bean mixture with chickpeas in hes "Spring Vegetables".
As always enjoyed the food, I went for a long walk in the woods, always looking back,that there was no one, would naturally ventilating, because we still are not angels, and
we're going to the bathroom pi and poo, literally fill us with shit. Although there are
people who do not, because they do not need to eat as they do photosynthesis facing the
sun during the hours of power, that my mother taught me, connecting with the breath of
the Creator, mental and bodily hygiene. Sun gazin. These are people who still drink
water, but some people do not even drink anymore, the "breatharians" breathing are
nurtured, of course it's all in the mind, the connection.
There are others who do not sleep, for medical causes problem or meditation, if you can
order your body secrete hormones necessary for your balance everything is possible. I
think in the beginning of humanity, people could be almost eternal, closer to theprimary essence, safe growth hormone secreted continuously, not like now, until seven
years, then less. It's all about activating the glands, the fountain of youth. Walking,
focusing my assemblage point, looked at the sky, I see the tunnel is a power vacuum
that sucks me, which is also the centre of a flower, its drain fluid.
Time for strong determination, swollen, but not too much, can control it. In my head a
lot of characters, laughter, peace, niggles. Tension throughout the body, although
experimenting much control. Suddenly, in the men's side (the groups of women and
men are only together when they share the meditation hall) there was a very long sound.
They already had the scandal, coughing, sneezing and sometimes snoring. Everyone
started laughing that this gentleman was farting in the meditation. Laughter is healing,
pain and tension disappeared instantly. The teacher asked who could not stop laughing
should leave the hall, many were controlled, but the man was quite swollen and
continued. Who should have gone was him. Laughter was further test in learning self-
control.
A Sufi story tells of a king who was a manic depressive. He got angry or happiness
quickly became disappointment and despair. One day the king got tired of being like
this and made call to the wise man from kingdom that has reputedly illuminated. When
presented with the sage, the king said: "I want to be like you. Could you give me
something to bring balance, serenity and wisdom into my life? I'll pay whatever youask". The sage replied: "I can probably help you, but the price is so high that it would
not be enough to pay your entire kingdom for it. So, I'll make a gift, as long as you do
worth it". The king promised he would be wise. A few weeks the sage come back and
gave the king a chest of carved jade. When opened, the king found only a gold ring in
which it had written some words. The inscription said: "This also shall pass" King asked
for an explanation. And the wise man said: "Take this ring and always before you
qualify any event as good or bad, touches the ring and read the inscription. That way
you will always be in peace". Everything pass, good and bad, tears and laughter, even
human existence and this body representing us at this time.
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Day 6
The mind was taking everything out. Years of TV in my younger days was passing me
the bill. Homer Simpson was saying, "I'm bored". I saying: "I wil stay quiet," like
Chavo del Ocho "Now coy", "We will not think of anything", "Not a word", "Nothing at
all", "A complete mental silence", "Mouth shut", " No nonsense start thinkinh eh!" AndDon Ramon "shut up!" Shot him! "Pim! Pipipipipipipipip" (Chavo del Ocho's crying).
And me frustrated.
Also some babies I saw in youtube that they were brothers and talked "Tatatatata!" And
the other replied almost the same but with different intonation, suddenly everything was
"Tatatatata" And the picture of a baby with me at the time.
Of course hormones were playing with me, I was a little uneasy with me and to other
people, judging them by their appearance and behavior. Labeling them rare, as I thought
one was "little chicken" a little bit slow in her movements, no light, no energy to eat.
According to me, she had some sort of problem moving, because I saw her walking in away that was not natural. At the end, the one walking and the one eating were two
different women, as I tried not to look at them I did not notice their faces, just saw the
same body and the same hair, found no differences in clothing. When I noticed I
stopped my judgmental about them, did not know which was which and I was not
interested either, was automatically put people in a "kind of person" in my book. Very
decentralized, very mediocre.
Judgments about myself were much more severe, I spoke on bad terms: "This is not
working, you are so crazy, your mind might not stop a minute, is a sick mind. My mind
hates me, does not want me be good, I hate myself" Stop! I thought, "I'm not like that, I
love myself... This must be so HORMONES" and ta ta tan Indeed, within a few hours
I realized that another period had come to me with a lot of pain, but with much relief,
more happy that, slowly slowly, I know me better.
It scares me that about hormones, how can determine ourselves, especially to women.
Tasty endorphins, melatonin, dopamine, pheromones, estrogen, testosterone, cortisone
and many glands causing havoc in our Beings, scared me. Now with meditation, I take
it better, because beyond nutrition, a good exercise routine and stress hygiene, is the
reconnection which maintains health, rebind (Pure inner religion), the union with
nature, that feeling where you want to hug a tree and you are filled with endorphins that
make you well, such as exercise, dancing, laughter and love the person who appreciatesit, as loving yourself.
I believe the best exercise, useful and smart learning is to love ourselves, harmonic
oneself pleasing love songs, greeting the mirror and smile. Dealing with mistakes,
without blame, but rather, I'll do it better next time, because now I know, I learned.
Learn to reward achievement, being a lover of life.
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Day 7
I dreamed my friend Luca, who worked at the airport in customer service with me. In
the dream she was selling coffee, I was thinking: How bad is the situation that we must
sell coffee as well? By the way, was more entertaining. It was cold in the airport is a
very large space, saw her wearing coat. Also in the dream was the character who Icalled "Fucker" when I reminded.
That day in meditation I had very clear, what I call "The channel of rage" very tense.
Once, when I was working in the customer service in the airport, a guy came from afar
claiming until he came to me, expressing his belief that I was improperly installed there
that I had to be with all the stand outside the tube, because he needed the information
before enter the airport, that I had to talk to my boss and ask them to change the entire
physical structure and the concept of my positioning, where I should be giving
information. Then I did not speak, because over the years I learned to save energy and
saliva, I only did head signal as "No". The guy was so angry with my immutability, hemade a sign with his hand while he was leaving and that was enough to make the stress
departed from my waist, along the entire spine on the right side until climbed up to the
neck, where stayed for about two seconds and then released me, leaving me with a
headache that stay until I got home.
That's how was baptized the channel of rage, because I'm not immutable, I am very
perceptive, empathetic, patient, but intolerant and although I was not agressive in any
way, my mental and emotional health was cooked in negative rubbish radioactive of
seasonings powerless. When seemingly can not do anything, either with people, nature
or whatever, I do not give up, but sometimes you need a truce. It's useless waste energy
sometimes to get a result, when best to retire to observe both oneself as the situation or
the other, in order to prepare a strategy, a plan of attack seriously. When you are in the
middle without escape, it's time to defend, sometimes you can use the energy against us
to deflect against what is attacking us. No need to hurt, sometimes frightening is
enough. Of course the ultimate test, stay calm.
I feel I have a lot of peace, but also that I have become very intolerant of people or
things that try to remove peace from me. One day a lady on the bus, which I was about
to step on, I even managed to put my foot there and not step on her, when I touch her
foot I said: "I'm sorry" she made as she'll start to complain against me and I shouted her
energetic: "I'm sorry", all staring at me on the bus. I felt to be the scream of Munch.
My head was still going backwards, sideways and down, I thought I was tired because I
was not sleeping too much, but was not that. Trying to be meditating lying in my bed,
always mindful of not falling asleep. I set the feet over the pillows, to leave theme
height and I got more blood to the head, but then my right knee was also on sideways. I
was within the spiral, a Frisbee.
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Day 8
Meditating in bed, I fell asleep. Upon awakening I had to run to the bathroom but
carefully, I was draining. Very severe, like a cleansing. I felt very strange, bloated head,
as if I heard the shells of sea and could hear constantly, thought I was more perceptive
to the blood behind my ears. Very perceptive to my body, especially the fluid, nothingto do, I'm female.
Very connected, in a new state, strange, sleeping less, but vibrating in alpha. When I go
to sleep, sometimes I can remember what I dreamed the night before, although I didn't
remember upon all day. Is like a dream memory that comes back to me when I'm in
alpha, it happens that sometimes situations in the day time bring me a dream memory.
Platitudes and situations that are repeated in different sets. With the breathing came the
awareness that each breath is nourishment of life, is to eat the breath of God Mother
Father, the Word that makes things be, the first and the last, who is and who was and
who will be, in my case arrived, was installed super comfortable, knew I was waiting.
I feel it in me and in all things, if I look at the moon I see the rainbow aura,
concentrating is like stepping into that aura expanding are two faced cariodes fractals
one in front the other forming an 8, the infinity sign, the moon amid, an energy sphere
with a navel, with its center as this torus we have aura field. On both sides of the sign
infinity (or top to bottom or bottom to top) rays which pass the made donut shape.
When I put my eyes crossed it projects fractal vision, Inguz runa shaped, resembling
two serpents braiding, as a DNA sequence, parallel spirals. Whenever I concentrate I am
within the spiral, I can be in both directions, turn to the side and the other, like a shell, a
pineapple, a sunflower. Where do we turn? Which side is the good? There is no good or
bad, both are extremes of the same thing. It comes to me then Lucifer conclusion.
Hermes gave their knowledge (Hermetic) about all laws governing the universe. The
book "Tao Te Ching" is what best relates, to me, about what God is. I read that book
little girl and was very clear because it is very simple.
In the "Kibalin" says: "The universe is mental, nothing is still, everything vibrates, as
above so below, everything is dual, everything has two poles, natural equal but opposite
extremes in their degree, everything ebbs and flows, there are times back and forth,
winter and summer, every cause has its effect, and the generation". That is fixing things,
because history repeats itself, appears to be a circle, but something changes, something
that moves and is a spiral, as often shrinks and enlarges, as Fibonacci. Fibonacci, whoIm a fan as well.
What if after they are three? If not just two poles? Are two columns abiding?
The harmony of perfect mathematics makes it better than anyone combing with
numbers.
Between that state thanks for the information, the excitement, the presence, the memory
of dreams with the fallen angel, whom I believe I have a good relationship, for all this, I
remembered a dream, I dreamed that the devil was a little girl, who was scared to face
the world because everybody will hate her. I told her everything will be ok, I was going
to protect her, I would give my love and that everything had a solution. She was crying.Was the illusion of Satan and evil too.
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People who plan wars and move the drug business for the purpose of obtaining money,
people who torture, even among several men who rape women unit kill her, who buy
women like things, paedophiles can feel excitement with the body of a child, is sick
people in his mind are wrong, perhaps such behaviour ends abruptly with a microscopic
lobotomy extracting neurons exactly the connection that shorting. The "evil" does notexist as such. In nature there is no evil. There is life and death, putrefaction and
nutrition, decay and regeneration, there are bacteria and parasites, all goes according to
the "code of discipline and behaviour" is not good birth and death is not bad, are what
they are. How will this be, I've seen the devil? In the eyes, red like fire. I saw it, "in my
young times" where my hormones wreaked havoc, disrupted my whole perception of
reality became dark and strange situations were created and followed to show the
darkest of myself, my own fear of emptiness, disconnection absolute maximum
ignorance that evil is not such. Because God is love, and even the worst of beings who
have gone through this Planet, Love in perfect love can forgive. Lucifer was forgiven
quickly, but we decided to tell a story, because we really like the stories, we are curious.
Children always, we love that cajole us with fantasy, poetry, sweets, gifts, fireworks,well told stories dramatized and loud, we laugh.
The bad thing are the writers of ancient times, the only good thing: "And they lived
happily, ever after" the favourite of many.
Time to sleep, good night! But I'm not sleepy! I keep telling the story to myself of what
happened after ever after? And as sometimes we children are afraid of things you not
understand, we can generate fears as absurd as "fear of the darkness". The reality is
sometimes generated on very stupid beliefs. Years of wars or wars of years. Televised
Stoning of Women? On the basis of what? Tradition? Religion? Nooo! "What happens
is that in those countries ..." What countries?
There is a kind of eclipse that casts the shadow of the moon on Earth, passing through
Europe, the Balkans, Kosovo, South Asia and Middle East. Is that this area is "damn"?
That as the moon affects the tides, growth and lunatics. Also can do it with the
werewolves? We like the stories and the mind is powerful and "All is mind".
I say I saw something black shapeless, but with two red eyes looking at me, under a
furniture, as a cat hiding. When darkness seeking to make palpable, light can too. It was
the time I saw shadows of light and felt the peace and like a menthol feeling which
cleanses, purifies and expands. I was scared, then trust, I have always been aware of thepresence only that I thought it was out side me.
As a child I was ashamed to go to the bathroom or take a shower, it was something
watching me, the illusion of separation. The presence is me or I am. Everything else is
history.
Lucifer plays a role, is the bearer of light, the closest to God, the antagonist, opposite
hand, to make things be. If we lived in complete harmony loving on ecstasy. Would
need a physical existence? Bearer of Light gives us knowledge, let us look bare and
with the first impression we got scared, we got layers and layers to not recognize us,
ignoring our primary essence. The snake slithered creeping, Kundalini, sex is sacred,that gives the miracle of life, became meaningless carnal without love meaning. If we'd
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followed blindly in the light, dazzled happy, but without knowing what was it or that we
where there. We have known the densest darkness, that way through free will,
voluntarily and each of us as an individual being say, "Father, be your will, not mine."
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Day 9
Matthew 16: 25 "For whoever would save his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life
for me sake shall find it." (The Bible ... God!) Eternal life we already have it with are
little soul and integrated into the Great Soul. The physical body is preserved better with
a vibrating in alpha brain, that secretes more endorphins and melatonin, a body thatdoes not consume junk, a peace that goes from the inside out. Just keeping the stress
that is natural, which serves the animals to flee when they need it, such as "Watch a tree
over your head!" or "the bus is coming!" Disease free, without eating, drinking or
sleeping, because only provides the breathing, eight hours more per day to read or do
whatever, living in flesh Perfection, in a cave warm enough, perfect transiting on the
Earth perfect evolution.
Someone told me the story of the Yogi who had a perfect record and a day don't not
know what happened, was cool meditating, but he moved it seems he was not vipassana,
scratched his forehead, felt his mistake, he looked at his fingers and gold dust, had
killed a moth, so he had to reincarnate again.
That day after lunch I went to sing and kill flowers, the manager quickly came to wiggle
her head in signal of "No" and with finger beckoning. I felt big "sancara" (useless
emotion of something you want or do not like) of shame, but I liked to take me the
emotion of shame, guilt and repentance, and transmute. All negative emotions are
released through forgiveness.
I said before that in my experience the forgiveness just comes, it's not something that
can be forced. One day I saw something that remind me a memory of someone with I
had not healed many things. I was very angry with me, how I was because this person,
who pushed all my buttons and got the worst of me. Excellent because I did work hard,
but in the end, we lost relationship, lost touch, but never the time, the experience is
invaluable.
I went to the memory and filled me with rage even if it was in another time, in another
space, I was just in my mind. So it was also mentally remembering something beautiful
that this person made for me, I felt love and shed the bad memories, which I can go
again and keep saying that was unfair, that I was dumb, but I do not feel bad, because I
loved and I love, I choose not to forget that person, but I choose to forget and dissolve
resentment.
With every breath I consciously full of Love, when exhaling what I forget, put out and
dissolve. Also go further, inhale Love and I exhale Love and expand Love, connection,
conscious breathing and constant. How to focus on something else?
You can walk and chew gum. I imagine the day when we educate this generation on this
knowledge and successfully we'll move to that state of perfection. Would we need to
learn more? Would we need the human experience? Or if the family who cares for us
and watches us behind the veil will come and say, "One two three already! to be aware"
the 144,000 or as many they'll be begin to vibrate with awareness without sleep and
who is not aware they couldn't go to sleep, they would forget to breathe and they come
to sudden death.
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Would eliminate the Bushs and Henry Kissingers of this Planet so easily. I do not know
if it would be possible, I see that the cells die and regenerate new, healthy ones I think
can maintain healthy tissue around it, and diseased cells have their expiration dates, a
matter of time.
I experimented spasms as strong, leaping in through meditation. Feeling rotating androtating each cell, and the galaxy is also a cell like all rotating around its center.
Between waking and sleep came the word "Tekel" the balance of God. Everything is
governed by physical laws in this material world, in the immaterial world everything
has its law to where nothing escapes.
I always remember the story of Job and I like to talk about it with my Jehovah's Witness
friends, I ask: "Why if Job was so good, God allowed Satan to play with him and make
him go through so much pain?" They say that this insures that Job is good because loves
God and not just because God is good to him. Job then was always faithful to his faith,
that took him out of suffering and heaven on earth was given, with a long andprosperous life.
Again, almost fable like I found so entertaining the Bible, the devil in the middle,
causing the free will of each and decide to stand firm on Goodness.
I want to share a moment of wisdom, a book of C. Pastorino Torres called "Minutes of
Wisdom" This small pocket book, my mom gave it to me. I use instant messaging with
relatives behind the veil, always tells me exactly what I have to read, or if I go again on
another day I get the same thing, I laugh and I feel that they also laugh, they feel my
gratitude. The passage is 215 and reads:
Do not be sad! Found the consolation that heaven gives receiving pain with patience
and love.
If the person you love more than anyone else, rather than yourself, was ungrateful to
you, do not be sad: asks the Father to accompany each day and make this person
happier.
Give to the Father, who is infinitely sympathetic, all the people you love and love theme
you too.
(Beautiful, in fact, I thought of writing it, I put a little paper and I lost the paper. This
morning I opened the book and read a little message I needed on another page. Nowwriting and I remembered I wanted to write this here, I didn't remember the number of
the page or the passage and made a little gesture of ups! But I opened the book right
there. My being laughs and the Being laughs too)
I did not want to sleep, but as it was easy to sleep as it was a state that become a bit
mixed. I lay on my bed with feet in height and was doing well, a calm mind, feeling my
being inside and outside. I began to dream, was in the driveway of my friend's home,
with whom I lived at that time, at the entrance to the house there was a fire alarm, just
out of the kitchen, every time we burned the food was a scandal. Then I dreamed it was
all dark and very loud alarm sounded, I could not see anything so I fumbled in the dark
to find the switch on the wall , I could not and I was a bit desperate, because I wanted tosee but it was all black, when switch on, the light, I awoke up.
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What an impression, the alarm was a bird whistling outside. I had slept without wanting
to sleep and as Goenka says: "We are never unconscious" Even when we are sleeping,
we are feeling outside stimuli, your body feels sounds, smells, sensations, as when you
get wet the bed and dream that you are in warm sea. Do not wanna talk about it.
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Day 10
There was no radio or anything but all the time I had music in my head and the last day
on waking, Nino Bravo sang "Free" (Libre) as the sun dawns I am free. I was so happy
with my experience these ten days, but the morning meditation was terrible.
One morning in pain, a feeling of despair in the time of strong determination, without
moving. Tears came I had an idea that I was not thinking that thought, but I was
generating a sense ugly. About what was the importance, if we all were dying in the end
is the same, that mattered become as wise and aware if perhaps others are not interested
in anything and generations continue destroying the planet, feeling miserable and doing
half effort because "Why to do anything else? If things have been always like this.
In a book that I love, that my dad gave me "The Importance of Living" by Lin Yutang,
talks about many important things and in a passage about the views of humanity,
speaking of some old women referred to life as "some women calved us and we'll calve
another ones" that simple. That for some Chinese the goal of life is that your childrenand grandchildren do not ashamed too much. What people!
Then meditation torture finished and I left the hall, wiping my tears, to the bathroom to
wash my face, and I went to pee. The feeling is gone, but the questions that it has to be
imperfect reality to be lived and if one comes to light, is that the end of the dream? It
will drop all this staging, the curtain opens once expanding greatness of soul. That's
going to leave more expensive. I took off from here and I go there, if I adhere
completely there, I'm not here. I'm here and there at the same time, that's the work.
Another story, this one from my childhood. "Seraphim, bread crumbs" A poor boy, who
was so good, so good, it became angel and did not know how to deal with the halo and
the feathers of his wings. He began to make mischief, but they crossed the line and
started to came out horns and tail. He apologized for his behavior, I think he blamed
adolescence and hormones and returned to being who he was, a preteen kinder, but for
the rest of his life washed his teeth improperly, just in case, for not reach absolute
perfection.
Guilt and forgiveness, the meanings of the words are out there. The feelings and
emotions that we provide are learning. Feeling on the service to the Planet and not think
that this place is on our service. The animals and nature are my motivation, they are part
of the Being, they might also pray when they feel plenitude. As my friend Violeta Parrasings: "Even so fierce animal whispers his sweet trill" (Hasta el ferz animal, susurra su
dulce trino). The animals love their offspring, they love humans when relate well, they
love nature, better than many of us, because they recognize themselves part of it. So my
service is to the Earth and everything that it contains, whether I like or dislike, and is
just about that.
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"Metta"
Face washed with pure heart and Let's go atoms! No need to be too expensive, it costs
me nothing.
Relaxed, stabilized and can feel the spiral to the side and to the other, without feelingout of control. Feeling the vibration of each section of my being My heartbeat, my heart
pumping and blood step by step through my veins, to the tips of all my fingers, with
pace, pulsing and throbbing.
Light in my head, eyes closed, Love without fear, without resentment or convictions,
with all my memories released. A closed eyes I slightly turned my head to my heart, I
looked with new eyes and I saw him, as I say with affection Jesus Christ Superstar,
looking from a little bit below with his face in 3D inside his tripartite flame (blue, pink
and gold) very comfortable in my heart.
I opened my eyes this time tears of joy fell, the absolute Peace is mine.As the Course in Miracles: "This is my Son, and all I have belongs to him" And I say: "I
give this holy instant, be you who runs, because I just want to follow you, sure you give
me your Peace" (Continued very beautiful, is the final lesson of the course).
I left and walked through the woods all me made an energy rainbow ball, I say: "Father,
please, please let me stay like this forever, that I always remember this feeling" And
said: "While you feel your breathing and your heart beating you'll know. If you are not
breathing and your heart is not beating you are again with me" Now I feel every atom
and every cell, is my experience, is what I sought and I learned. Thank you.
My best wishes and sincere, that your experience and learn through life be full of Being,
wake up your Self, which is also mine.
I know you benefit even if you do not know. I love you, through the Being in Me. If you
feel down or without spirits can come to me for I'll say: "Do not be silly, how could you
think that? Ha!" You are from Earth and Light, you contain everything, you can
everything. There are no limits. Dont tell you stories.
Live your life with skill, that every moment can be a holy instant.
I love you. Light, Peace and colours for you.
Neistlein A. Martinich Geerdts.
PS: The name of my guardian angel. I always thought "Umabel" meant "God above all
things," but one day googleing I found another meaning, "the encounter with God"
"Communion with God. It is done. Thank you.
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Acknowledgements:
To my family and my friends. To my enemies too. My pets and nature in general.
To Silvia Freire, Louise Hay, Lin Yutang and everyone who takes the time to examine
our lives and sharing learning.
To all those who work in the Vipassana Meditation Centre Dhanma Dipa and all centers
around the world.
To the other family behind the veil that await patiently and confidently, our learning and
our joy.
Thank you!