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    Fingerprints

    Deborah Swift

    Martyn Halsall

    Mark Carson

    Maya ChowdhryEmma McGordon

    Poetry from Lancashire and Cumbria

    andOther Traces

    005 Click here to open the book

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    ContentsForeword 3

    Deborah SwiftBoots on the Moon 5

    The Stone Rubbing 6Cairn 7Self-portrait with Binoculars 8Obituary 9

    Martyn HalsallScalpay 11Legend 12Blackthorn 13

    Rembrandts Sandwich 14Mark Carson

    Catarsis 16Per Ardua ad Nauseam 17Offshore System Designer makes Dodgy Decision 19

    Maya ChowdhryBarter 21Kali Mirchi 22

    been sprouts 23Genderality 24

    Emma McGordonDeath at 22 from a Curable Disease 28Gutter-Witch 30Blue Black Zac 32Go Forward

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    This edition published in Great Britain by Flaxbooks,

    26 Sun Street, Lancaster, LA1 1EW. Tel 01524 62166.

    www.litest.org

    All works their respective authorsFingerprints and Other Traces (fax005) Flaxbooks

    All rights reserved; no part o this publication may be reproduced, stored

    in a retrieval system, or transmitted, by any means, electronic, mechanical,

    photocopying, recording or otherwise, without prior permission o the publisher

    and individual creators.

    Flaxbooks is the publishing imprint o Litest.

    Lancaster and District Festival Ltd trading as Litest.Registered in England

    Company Number: 1494221

    Charity Number: 510670

    Editor: Sarah Hymas

    Design and layout: Martin Chester at Litest

    Photography: Jonathan Bean

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    ForewordI knew Flax books would have no shortage o poets or its second digital anthology, but

    not how astonishingly various their writing would be.

    Although the ive poets whose work is sampled here could hardly write more dierently

    rom each other, they do have something in common. All engage with surprising and

    oten challenging subject matter and invent ways o writing to handle it. Coulombsand van de Gra not the stu o poems? They are with Mark Carsons light touch.

    So are towishes and urethane in tougher poems about the relentlessness o working

    at sea. His lights and darks are elegantly used in Oshore System Designer makes

    Dodgy Decision.

    Maya Chowdhry loves words too, her title Genderality telling you shes making a risky

    poem about gender identity. Skilully, she allows language to drive the poem: were

    crossing over, under / cover. Oh yes, she does write one poem about a more usual

    subject matter, the end o a relationship but youll never have come across anything

    quite so inventive as her been-sprouts.

    Theres a change o pace with Martyn Halsalls writing: he draws you into a growing

    stillness and silence until you can hear music keyed to the breeze. A poem in which he

    recalls being told about making a blackthorn sta builds and intensiies, then quietly

    unravels in its inal couplet.

    Emma McGordon uses rhythm and repetition as an engine or ast-moving poems that

    conront urban lie and alienation. Her shits o perspective cleverly keep you inside the

    poem, and may leave you, like her, Drawn / To the man who street cleans / Last nights

    screams.The moon, the uture, the past these are some o the places Deborah Swit takes us, not

    as abstract ideas, but with vivid and shapely writing to make them tangible, her ingers

    absorbed in the marks. Theres a particularly ine ending to her Boots on the Moon.

    And thats another thing these ive poets have in common an ability to deliver last lines

    that leave you savouring the poem. And wanting more.

    Jane Routh3

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    Deborah Swift

    4

    Boots on the Moon 5The Stone Rubbing 6Cairn 7

    Self-portrait with Binoculars 8Obituary 9

    Hear Deborah readBoots on the Moon

    Read Deborahs Profle

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    5

    Theyre still up there, size nine-and-a-hal,

    medium where micro-meteoroids

    swirl like milk in a washbowl o ink.

    The boots stand nights colder than the black

    silk skin in an Eskimos borehole.Silicon is unstable in the gases exhalation,

    so the soles crumble in their own ootprints.

    Their buckles have allen away, and glint,

    loat silvery against the pock-marked crust.

    Grey sandstorms wear the man-made ibres thin;

    threads o polyester detach themselves,

    glow sotly as they sashay into space.

    In their linings, yellow plastic bladders

    designed to protect and cushion the oot,encapsulate the 1960s breath.

    The rock samples are calibrated, boots

    let where they stand, their precise weight

    in rocks, carried home bareoot.

    The air bends, quivers in the boom

    o the shuttles returning velocity;

    the men begin to plummet, stretching

    toes through zero gravity to terra irma.

    A shoemaker in Delaware inhales, sees

    the shuttle break the waves, looks up at night

    to where his outbreath hangs, let behind

    in the yellow stomachs o their ootalls.

    Boots on the Moon

    DeborahS

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    6

    I hold the ilm o paper over the stone

    as she rubs in the paste o pearly graphite.

    A shoal o ish bloom rom the white space, then dart away

    under silvery dust. The paper pecks in the wind; rom above

    the marbling o shadows, a lock o birdscalling.

    The blue sleeve o her raincoat is bruised black

    rom rubbing, kneading other ages into here and now.

    The sandstone blushes under her lead caress.

    Her gold hair blows; a Midas in reverse, as she tells me

    how Winired Nicholson teased out the mysterious braille,

    her hands blackened rain-clouds

    driting.

    The cup and rings wont come,

    reluctant to be lured into a lutter o paper.

    Fixed in hard crag, the pebble-in-a-pond circles

    have sat in the same question or centuries. She kneels,

    ingers absorbed in the marks axe tracks, old grooves

    and aint trails shoals and locks

    ollowing.

    The Stone Rubbing

    DeborahS

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    DeborahS

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    From the top, the town is a crust o grey

    almost pocketed by the valley.

    A place can diminish, a man grow

    god-like in this ice-loe o the sky.

    Someone placed a single stone,

    to own the hill beore the others came.

    The cairn is ull o holes and ragged,

    choosing or itsel a shape to trap the rain.

    We place our stone, as though to mend it,

    but the pile is turning native; it rolls away.

    Cairn

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    My neck kowtows rom side to side, lidless eyes

    slew upwards into empty air: twin black holes stretched

    over glassy depths, cupping miniature drits o cloud.

    The hawk swings, hangs rom a thread o intent,its shadow a dark moment poured on stubbled ground.

    It scans the ochre cross-hatch, bleached by summers heat.

    A mouse, terriied to stillness, dare not blink, suspends

    the twitch o its heart in case the grass should quiver,

    the claw hammer smash down into the red-yolked skull.

    A kite can see a rabbit break or home rom hal a mile,

    track the panicked ultraviolet stains o voles. The mouse runs.My eyes swoop, lenses pull the topsy-turvy bird into the mind.

    Self-portrait with Binoculars

    DeborahS

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    Fire is gone rom the city, the notion o keeping a lame.

    Combustion is hidden in chambers where ission and the leap

    o spark are groomed by computers while we sleep. Pyrotechnics,

    once a universal skill, are controlled by lever, pump and switch.

    Wood and sot combustibles industrialized, to ossil uel.

    The cut trees, splitting as the lumber ripens in the sun,

    and stacks o irewood gone. No one will raise the whetted axe

    to hack along the grain, or grunt beore they drag it back, to burn

    in orge and hearth, or smell the sulphur when the match is lit,

    eed it, coax it, watch the kindling spit, see pictures coat its yellow tongue.

    The city is ireproo stainless steel and glass. A campires savage,

    and ire in the mind thermodynamics. Firepower streaks like earinto the plugs, a lightning that astonishes, makes headlines when it strikes.

    Ignition is turning a key in the car. No wool or tinder there to set alight,

    and no one herds the lame to trap the deer, or damps it down to roast the meat.

    Obituary

    DeborahS

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    Martyn Halsall

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    Scalpay 11Legend 12Blackthorn 13

    Rembrandts Sandwich 14

    Hear Martynread Blackthorn

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    You could sit out here all day; nothing would happen.

    A tide might stain the slipway in the lochan,

    gulls would glide over, trailing cries and shadows,

    hard plait o gneiss and tur olds darken, lighten,

    small waters smooth, then pattern to a salmon skin.

    Sky would be kneaded, rise to spread a squall

    creating a widening stipple on open water

    and blot the painters sheet or punctuate

    a line beore its written, glaze a new stone

    as its lited or setting, matt the colour scheme

    o lichen along brown runnels o a worn tin roo.

    You could look at the rock and count our billion years,

    read o a range o mountains higher than

    Andes or Himalaya, see these hills

    worn low by this same rain, sense how it was

    changed gradually each day; how it goes on.

    Scalpay

    MartynHa

    lsall

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    The rest had gone back up the track to the rented arm.

    She stayed with her two daughters by the shore,

    acing the island wide as a mothers welcome.

    Light gentled, oil lamp turned down in slow motion.

    She heard the amilies voices ade, the odd

    laugh let hanging, protest, squeal o a tease.

    They watched ar coastlines haze, tide gather evening,

    skys glowed hearth settle to the ash o their dritwood ire.

    Daughters drew stillness round them like their blankets,

    shared the watch with her; poised gulls, rill o tide,

    last burn o sunlight coppering sharpened crags.

    One note. A ripple, scale, then tentative chords;

    soon a tune ingered, loated, keyed to breeze.

    A solo clarinettist ar down the shore

    riing dusk; drit in woodsmoke; pipes knie-sharped

    as oystercatchers always dressed or evening.

    Each note stroked through hushed brush o olded water.

    Do you know the story o Orpheus? They shook their heads.

    He played a lute, a small harp you can hold.

    Its music made the world: trees, plants and lowers,those summits across the bay where clouds are rising.

    The children waited, quiet or once and listening

    to the man who could summon nightall out o music.

    In a moment their mother would say: well have to go now.

    But not yet. Not till the world that he played was inished.

    Legend

    MartynHa

    lsall

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    Deep roots must come out whole to orm the crown,

    as he explained it. Wrenching the blackthorn ree

    meant digging round and deep, orming a pool

    the sky relected in as bog-lood illed it.

    Each stem would make a sta, hacked straight, and seasoned

    simply by waiting, letting sap breathe to air;

    wood set in its own clearing, keen as steel.

    Varnish would sheen it dark as a night o rain.

    Using one could transorm him: prophet, saint,

    in the old sense, walking, breaking resh words like bread

    to share their meaning, leaving on the bounce o peat

    no wound, as ground, healed o itsel, bounced back.

    But then hed let them somewhere, bench or shed,

    over the water; bags packed, driving away

    Blackthorn

    MartynHa

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    An artist sits in a ca, watching a man.

    Her eyes are drawn to the warming red o his coat,

    the grateul way he cups his steaming drink,

    worries at a sandwich; rabbi, chewing prayer.

    The man is acing the past, in its winter light.

    He could be someone known, or wearing a mask.

    He is also watching: menu readers, shoppers,

    prodigal children, loose, daughters and sons.

    The artist begins to catch him in her pocket book;

    the angle o his mind, worn by remembering,

    halter o his shoulders, phrasing o bearded jaw

    as i rehearsing a speech hed hal orgotten,

    small hopes in hal-closed eyes, small hopes returning.

    The artist jots notes: scarlets, pleats on rags.

    She pauses, leaves a gap in ront o the man,

    a space or a tumbled body and bronzed, shaved head

    recasting Rembrandt, who painted a ather who watched

    roads and crowds or so long, till holes in his hands

    were reilled by his sons return. Servants in shadow

    wondering i it was better to smile, or marvel.

    Perhaps Rembrandt, reaching or bread, caught searching eyes,

    recalled that story, set his crust aside. Drew.

    Rembrandts Sandwich

    MartynHa

    lsall

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    Mark Carson

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    Catarsis 16Per Ardua ad Nauseam 17Offshore System Designer makes Dodgy Decision 20

    Hear Mark

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    Read Marks Profle

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    Cat fur was used for early electrostatics experiments,

    before the Wimshurst Machine and the van de Graaff Generator.

    With van de Graa caress

    I sweep cat-ionsto the tip o each tapered hair

    stripping them ree

    charging her up

    to a perilous puss-potential.

    Lithe with gigavolts

    on dielectric paws

    she airly

    crackles with coulombs.

    Now, a det approach

    to the tuted tip

    o her conductive ear.

    Phuitt! Six thousand microns

    o desiccated air

    crack

    and a whi o ozone drits away.

    Catarsis

    MarkCa

    rson

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    The oceanographers motto: through difficulty until seasick

    The door crashed back. Diesel roaring

    a man alls stumbling,

    shaking and grabbing my shoulder he shoutsyells by my ear,

    slams out. The bulb burns orange.

    The ship is uneasy: rolls hangs alls.

    The brush in the toothglass topples, drops

    a relentless irregular beat.

    Dulled, behind my eyes the dazzle pulse

    slows to a sickly heartbeat.

    Up in the lab, squalor: ashtrays and cups, cans,

    crusts and the hot smell o solder,

    logbooks, litter, tooth-marked biros.

    Tubes lare out the eatures o unshaven aces,

    grey-blue rom the shades.

    Fathoms below, the towish streams

    sensors through layered Atlantic.

    Five little pens scritch a trace on the scroll;

    one pen is still.

    We go through the motions o hope,

    speed up, slow down,

    high gain, low gain,

    no gain.

    Per Ardua ad Nauseam

    MarkCa

    rson

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    MarkCa

    rson

    We are kidding ourselves

    that we can go on, go to bed,

    get up like humans in daylight.

    Decks down, in the alley sleep swills knee-deep in the doorways.Drapes swing and the bosun snorts and rolls in his body,

    wakes graceless, grunts his eet into slippers.

    On deck, a grey lumping line is the dawn.

    Pallid and chill my oilskin sweats cold.

    The crane coughs, bangs, kicks into lie.

    As the winch grinds in,

    stub-ended nerveless my hands

    wrench the airing,

    catch the hook as it swings past my skull.

    The towish lies dripping on deck,

    beached dolphin, its urethane bladder

    extruded or surgery.

    Breakast is waiting below,

    stewed tea and dried milk, greased bacon, scorched bread.

    Later well start, well take it apart

    strip it down, clean it out,set it up or the next launch, the next tow,

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    This engineer cant get design approval.

    Hes got to square the circle: compromise is oval hell smooth the seastate, shave the ship excursions,

    massage the data to suppress the motions.

    Believes his own distortions, thinks that hes

    determining the spectrum o the gales and seas.

    Bends the criteria, and overrules

    the codes o practice, guidance notes or ools.

    Canute could tell these sel-deluding clowns

    a thing or two about the tides, their ups and downs,

    and winds, and waves, and where the surges reach

    and when to move your soa up the beach.

    Offshore System Designermakes Dodgy Decision

    MarkCa

    rson

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    Maya Chowdhry

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    Barter 22Kali Mirchi 23been sprouts 24

    Genderality 25

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    MayaChow

    dhry

    i swapped a purple sports bra or my irst dress ready-made

    didnt recognise mysel as the skirt skirted its mosaic mirrors

    suburban Noida ringing in the mid-distance

    in the second dress i was shrouded in a bluebells bellthe seams were seamless traced my spine despite the lack

    o measurements she said shed dreamed o me naked

    i imagine her in the sports bra its lycra pinning her breasts

    to her rib cage she told me shed worn it in Deence Colony Bazaar

    acquiring haberdashery in small newspaper packets tied with string

    later i ound a pink ribbon in an inside seam

    an embroidered moti that grazed my navel

    and wondered what it spelled

    Barter

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    MayaChow

    dhry

    kali mirchi predicts the all o nations

    pursuing a palatable uture

    in the Malabar mangroves

    her emerging lower-spikeripening red climbing the coee crop

    blackened skin abraded to white

    to pepper a jar o Pataks

    kali mirchi (Punjabi for black pepper)

    Kali Mirchi

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    MayaChow

    dhry

    break-up rom your girlriend, discard longing into compost

    you need to have prepared yoursel the day beore

    pick over and remove any broken eelings:

    ear, anger, hatred.

    rinse in several changes o lukewarm water to removedust and anything let rom the milling process

    cover all with warm water and soak or twelve hours

    put in a plastic bag that has been punched all over with holes

    (you can do this with a ork).

    place the bag in a sieve leaving the mouth o the bag open

    cover this opening with a tripled well-dampened tea towel.

    balance over a large bowl in a dark, draught-ree place,

    some people use the unlit oven,

    or the area under their sinks.

    drain

    try balancing your needs with hers

    drain

    you will ind other eelings have sprouted overnight

    let warm water gush over again and again and clean

    rub careully, that which doesnt loat away

    should be picked o.

    repeat this process every our hours, never disturb

    continue to do this or three to our days or until

    the beans have elongatedthis is the ideal process producing perect sprouts

    anything else will produce stunted results.

    at this point do not cover up,

    place in the ridge

    and all will stay healthy or three days.

    been-sprouts

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    MayaChow

    dhry

    1978 aged thirteen / i wear a denim waistcoat /

    khaki small-collared shirt

    knotted with a black silk tie /

    my mum reuses to leave the house / with me until i take the tie o /

    i stu it in my pocket and wear / an imaginary knot; centre-stage

    scene one:

    throw me a lie

    buoy sailor, we living

    in sink or swim times;

    all mouth and no trousers

    getting thrown out the ladies

    or looking so sexy butch

    shes a girl!

    shes a boi with a toy

    denied admission to vanilla

    shes a girl

    looking straight / through me

    shes all ired up on T

    did i say she?

    i mean he, it,

    shit, were crossing over, under / cover

    agents or the gender dividebecoming them and inding:

    recipes or bombs

    measurements or inside leg

    how to grow the hair / elsewhere

    hes a aery boi / should be a girl,

    grew his hair and tucked his cock down

    Genderality

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    MayaChow

    dhry

    her inside leg

    what a drag, not popular like the queens / not cultured

    like the queers, something in-between the word-play

    translator or impersonator

    transgressor or impressertest the line

    scene two:

    skirts dont suit me, something about the cut,

    the print, the way it hangs like abandoned washing

    grazing my knees, bellowing in the breeze

    an embarrassment / like the time I walked down

    market street with the back o it all tucked up in my knickers

    and I never knew / that I could wear genes

    charity-shop retro, inherited rom the underground

    worn lives / gender uniorms on rails /

    try them on or size / unwanted garments / on special oer /

    shop-soiled

    y change what you wear / to it in with your xs crowd

    you still wont gain entry / theyll be wearing top man /

    when youre all tammy girl

    scene three:

    on the street I wear one o my o-stage identitiesand an old lady says: can you help me cross the road young man

    i readjust my sock / take my hands outta my pockets,

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    MayaChow

    dhry

    scene our:

    i can rip-saw / use a lathe, make mortise, tenon and dovetail joints

    tie your hair back the journey-man says / health and saety

    i plane oak, waer-thin curls peeling back to smooth contours, trace the years with

    my index inger /28 and still no sign o an identity: carpenter, ilm-maker, web-designer

    activist, mentor, chairperson

    gendered jobs / apply within

    scene ive:

    write an application / person speciication:

    silver wisdom in her hair

    roses / spirals / celtic knots

    big / bouncy / braless / breasts /

    stunt cunt lying open

    our armed lesbian kali gender killer

    this lavour is not available in other stores

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    Emma McGordon

    27Go Back

    Death at 22 from a Curable Disease 29Gutter-Witch 31Blue Black Zac 33

    Hear Emma read

    Gutter-Witch

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    EmmaMcGor

    don

    Outside they will be getting married,

    buying houses

    deciding on tea-dipping biscuits.

    Outside they will hold each other

    until they squeeze the very lierom that which they cherish.

    Outside all o this will be repeated in

    18 or 15 or 20 years time.

    Outside they will die young

    and know little,

    and I will hear about this

    as I pass through isles o supermarkets.

    Outside they will smoke each others

    cigarettes and believe themselves to have lived

    to live and to have lie orever.

    Outside they will not know o WH Auden,

    Anne Sexton or Barry Patrick MacSweeney,

    nor will they care to know.

    Inside there will be two lights,

    a radio, several books scattered,

    a hal drunk lager, an empty coee cup,a pen with chewed lid.

    Death at 22 from a Curable Disease

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    EmmaMcGor

    don

    Inside there will be no knowledge

    o the latest eviction

    or the care or the status o celebrity.

    Inside our plates will be washed,

    one to be used again tomorrow.Inside there may be the anger o a young man,

    although outside they will not eel

    his wrath or dependability or envy

    in the slightest.

    Outside they will

    go blind in one eye

    and again I will hear about this

    through temporary connections

    buzzing with sounds o news-speak,gossip and have-you-heard-abouts.

    Inside and outside we will know

    that these connections are utile,

    ull o non-passionate ailings,

    too late or preventing avoidable accidents

    and opportunities missed or diagnosis.

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    EmmaMcGor

    don

    From up here,

    where the steam

    o the street heat

    rises,

    I hear the savage cackleo some gutter-witch,

    who argues the price

    o a pizza slice

    or a look misguided

    in her direction.

    And she who has dressed

    or this occasion

    to sounds that one day

    she will come to know as youth,pulls at the black strap that has

    rom her shoulder slipped unnoticed

    to reveal an identical one o white

    on her sunscorched skin.

    From above to below

    she knows nothing o me

    watching this,

    or knows that onedid witness the kiss

    that was wet with deception,

    still she clung to the arguments hiss

    as her strapless body mingled with his.

    Gutter-Witch

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    The street steam cools

    and alls,

    ools ind themselves

    in some others home

    where beds will be slept inat right angles to sense,

    and the idea o sedition is given no chance.

    Sunday mornings mix

    in their cocktail smell

    o duvets used and cigarettes spent.

    Now in the not quite still

    turn o the dawn

    I ind mysel

    more closely drawnto the man who street cleans

    last nights screams,

    and the rain

    which gutter runs

    to some place

    ree o noise.

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    Blue Black Zac

    on his knees

    eyes to heaven.

    In the May sunshine

    you can see the souls

    o his shoes as he rests on his heels.

    This is the May Day bank holiday

    o a returned to school childs drawing:

    spider sun in the top let corner,

    an ice cream, a ootball, a grazed knee.

    This is a childrens playground,

    three red swings,

    banana slide,a park bench

    and railings.

    Blue Black Zac

    on his knees

    eyes to heaven.

    May sunshine

    warm on his ace.

    He dreams o a manriding a red horse among

    myrtle trees in a ravine with red

    brown, white horses behind him.

    Blue Black Zac

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    This is the May Day bank holiday o two riends,

    Ikea excited, driven car park crazy by two more riends

    and two more riends, all with the idea o a space-saving-shel

    that they have the perect photograph o themselves and a loved one

    in a ake leopard-skin-style rame that will look just wonderul

    in a kitsch kind o way.

    There is another car park,

    near a playground.

    They will park there.

    Getting out, gabbering and gibbering

    hal tripping on tape measures

    hal noticing a man in the park

    resting on his knees.

    Blue Black Zac in his tracksuit,

    trainers, beloved ootball shirt,

    on his knees looking to the Lord

    who said:

    These are the horns that scattered Judah

    so that no one could raise his head.

    let the dying die and the perishing perish,

    their buyers slaughter them

    and go unpunished.Or at least this is what Zac thought he heard.

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    This is the May Day bank holiday

    twelve months since we

    shared a pub, a pool table, a jukebox.

    Your broad chest, you talked

    o your little prince and princess

    in a land ar ar away with a woman you wanted to call wie.

    Zac, twelve months ago we sat in a blue black car,

    watched the sunset, and borrowed binoculars

    rom the couple in the car next to us.

    Youd never seen so ar in one gaze stretched,

    so ar you said it was almost the uture.

    Zac, i you could have seen the moon

    turn twelve times rom then you would see

    no son rising rom his knees.You joked, you said i theres a red sky at night

    it meant the chip shop was alight.

    Blue Black Zac on his knees on a day

    when many shepherds had already risen

    over the land.

    Shepherds who do not care for the lost,

    seek the young, do not heal the injured or feed the healthy

    but eat the meat off the choice sheep, tearing off their hooves.

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    Zac, I was the child on the swing.

    Zac, I was the Ikea excited.

    Zac, I was even the blood hungry hack

    who got the line, the act that you

    were ound dead on your knees and looking to heaven or answers.

    Blue lights lashing on your ace and arms blackened by your own blood

    and didnt that grim discovery as we called it sell a ew more copies

    o the evening edition that would otherwise have been packed out

    with May Day rivolities and it gave us something to talk about over a pint

    what a cracking story.

    Zac, I am more o a hypocrite than those hacks, or in lie

    I would never have written about you.

    Thought o you almost as a igure o insigniicance.

    Still sons die or the recognition that they did live.And now, Zac, though you can no longer hear me,

    I will speak o you

    to those who would otherwise

    never have known your name.

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