fifty years later

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Chapter 1

Fifty years later, I have completely changed. No more Miss

Nice girl. I officially hate every color except for black. That is the

color my room is and every piece of clothing I own.I live with my new brother and sister Amy and Micheal. They

found me when I was dieing in the hospital at the age of eighteen

of cancer. Amy had saved me seconds before my death. I am

forever grateful.

Amy has blonde long hair and extremely long legs. She is the

best sister to ever have. And her mate Micheal has long brown hair

that covers his eyes. And the biggest muscles known to man. Even

bigger than Emmetts muscles. Hard to believe, but yes.And there is lastly me. Nice Bella left a couple days into

cancer. He left me to die. Micheal and Amy totally support my

decision. I wear dark black make up every day to school and Im in

orchestra at my school. I play the piano. Just like him. But I didnt

want to play because of him; I choose to play because I learned to

play when I was diagnosed with cancer.

People then created a rumor that I wear all this make up

because Im in mourning over my ex boyfriend. Im not. I mactually happy hes gone. I have freedom I have never experienced.

Like learning how to ride a motorcycle, partying all the time, and

pulling the most hilarious pranks ever that always end me up in

jail. Despite the way I act, I ace all of my classes and arrive on

time for school.

I was now changing into black skinny jeans, a black v neck

cotton t-shirt with a white skull on it, black five inch high heels,

and a black leather jacket that fit me snugly. I put on my many

rings and bracelets and I was ready to go. It took an hour just toapply my make up so I always get ready an hour and a half before

it was time for me to leave. My make up was so dark today it

dimmed my bright gold eyes into a brown gold color.


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I grabbed my back pack on my way down the stairs to meet

Amy and Micheal outside in the black glossy viper. Amy smiled at

me through the window and I smiled back.

Hey Bella. Micheal greeted me as I climbed into the back

of the car.Guess what? Amy asked me as she turned around to face

me.

What? I chuckled.

Amy could see the future just like Alice.

The Cullens are arriving today. She wiggled her eyebrows.

I shrugged.

So what are we going to pull on them? She asked evilly as

Micheal drove to the school.Nothing. Theyll be hurt enough when they find out I wont

forgive them. I said lazily.

Micheal then reached the school and parked into a space in

front of the boring high school of Wisconsin. I got out and slung

my bag over my back. I strolled passed the drooling boys with

Micheal and Amy at my side.

I kicked the door open with my foot, too lazy to use my

hands.Miss Creswell! I heard a voice call from behind me.

I turned around. Mr. Kirkham or like I call him, Mr. Triple

chin, was behind me. He was the orchestra teacher.

Yes? I asked.

A new student will be arriving today that also plays the

piano as well. Do you want to share your piano, or would you like

me to get another one from the storage closet. He asked.

Another one if you please. I sometimes get carried away and

new compositions pop into my head. I shrugged.Okay, that is all. See you after lunch. He smiled and

walked away.

I made a sound of disgust in the back of my throat and

continued to my locker. Just the look of his hands touching my


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piano was disgusting. No one has touched my precious ivory keys

except for me. And I hope to keep it that way.

After jamming my bag into my locker, I clicked down the

hallway to my Spanish class. I was greeted at the door by my

awesome Spanish teacher Mr. Hanson. He and I only spoke inSpanish because this was Spanish class, and also because we are

the only ones fluent in Spanish.

Bella. He greeted me.

Hey Mr. H. I grinned.

He and I fist pounded. See why hes my favorite?

Shall we serenade into class? He asked with a chuckle.

We shall. I smiled and laughed.

We started singing La cuka Racha into class while linkingarms. The other students just stared at us and laughed. Mr. Hanson

stuck a sombrero on his head and started to do the Macarena. I

stopped singing and just laughed my way down the aisle and into

my chair next to Amy.

Thank you for joining me Bella. Mr. Hanson called from

across the room with the sombrero still on.

No problem. I laughed back.

Mr. Hanson then changed back to English to talk to the restof the class.

Well that was fun. But of you who need to, please open your

text books to page thirty and read the words on the page out loud.

He told the rest of the class while taking a seat at his desk and

taking off the sombrero.

I looked at the page over Amys shoulder. The words were

fairly simple. I sighed as I looked around the room. Students were

bent over their books, whispering the words to them selves over

and over. I stared out the windows on my side of the table. Rainwashed down them, leaving their own individual rivers.

The class was soon over and the bell rang. Mr. Hanson stood

at the front door handing us back our graded test papers. He gave

mine back with a chuckle. I laughed at my paper too. I had drawn


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an army of evil teddy bears on the side in the spare time I had left

on the test.

Mr. Hanson gave me an extra point for the picture of the

bears and a cool written next to it. Spanish is officially my favorite

class. I skipped down the halls lightly to my next class, Trig. I ranto my seat next to Micheal and sat down. But I sat in it too fast and

I toppled over into him, sending us both to the ground.

He laughed under me and helped me up off the floor.

What did you want to show me that sent you running into

me? He asked.

Mr. H gave me extra credit for the picture of my evil army

of bears! I said excited.

I shoved the paper in his face and he pulled it away toexamine it. He laughed and gave the picture back to me. I saw the

president of Micheals fan club walk into the room. Micheal saw

her too and pulled the hood of his jacket over his head.

Our Trig teacher stood behind him disapprovingly. I coughed

to Micheal to tell him that the teacher was behind him, but Micheal

didnt get my message. The teacher grabbed the strings of his

hood and yanked on them.

The hood enclosed his whole face except for a small hole onhis mouth.

Im blind! He yelled.

The whole class laughed and I pulled back the hood off his

head. The teacher walked back up the aisle and began teaching the

lecture. I barely paid attention. I hate this subject because theres

nothing worth to listen to. I tuned out the drone of the teachers

voice and just stared out the window.

A flash of thunder echoed outside the window and many of

the students jumped in surprise. I grinned and turned to Micheal.Baseball. He whispered in anticipation.

He and I fist pounded under the table.

The teacher just continued to drone on and on as the minutes

ticked by slowly. When the bell finally rang the students all filed


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out of the classroom and Micheal and I got up. We said goodbye

before taking our separate ways to class.

I jogged to my history class through the crowd of swooning

boys as I passed. Typical. Just because everyone knew I was single

every boy was ready to take bullet for me. I sat in my assigned seatnext to this pimple faced boy with wide horn rimmed glasses.

His heart rate sped up as he looked at me. I just kept my gaze

away from him and stared at the chalk board with a bored

expression. We were told to open our text books and the sound of

rustling papers filled the room.

Perfect. Were learning about the Epidemic in 1918. I rolled

my eyes. How fitting. I just stared off into space while looking at

my book. And what seemed like in no time at all, the bell rang forlunch.

I hurried out of my seat and walked to my locker. I put my

books in my locker and walked to the lunch room. But on my way

to my lunch table, I passed the Cullens table. I heard seven gasps

and I just chuckled.

Amy and Micheal looked at the Cullens and laughed. I sat

down next to Amy and propped my feet on the table.

So I heard you and Mr. H sang a song in first period. Amysaid as she tossed her blonde hair over her shoulder.

Yeah. And he gave me extra credit on my test for the picture

of evil teddy bears. I laughed.

Hey Bella! Guess who this is? Micheal chuckled and

pointed at his tray.

There was a white mashed potato figure with orange messy

hair made out of carrot scrapings. I curled my hand into a fist and

smashed the model of Edward onto his tray with a bang. I wiped

my hand off on a napkin.He was so young! Micheal cried and threw his hands up in

the air.

More like too old. I mumbled.

Gosh Bella, youre so violent. Micheal said to me.


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Dont play with your food. I told him pointing to the

orange and white mush.

Well Im not going to eat it! He said exasperated.

Then throw it away. I said gesturing to the garbage can.

Smash my dreams and I will make that figure again. Hethreatened as he got up and dumped his tray.

I swore in Spanish.

What was that? I heard a voice from behind me.

I leaned my head over my chair to see who it was. Mr. H was

grinning down at me.

Oh come on! Youre my favorite teacher! I started in

Spanish and smiled at him.

He laughed.And you are my favorite student. He replied with a smile.

He took out his I pod and I cheered. He and I snuck up to the

stage in cafeteria. He and I plugged in his I pod and I searched

through his song list. I put on tapp by 30h!3. He and I bobbed our

heads to the beat and started to dance.

All the students whistled and got up to dance as well. Some

even got on top of the lunch tables. Cyclone by Baby Bash came

on and everyone cheered. I started to move my hips to the beat andpeople cheered me on and I laughed. I started to dance in a way

that should be illegal and some of the boys gathered at the foot of

the stage.

Mr. H took stood next to me and started to copy my dance

moves. He and I laughed as some students got their phones out and

started to record. Mr. H and I turned around and slapped our butts

as our final move as the song ended. He and I laughed and fist

pounded before we removed his I pod.

You are officially the coolest teacher in the world. Ideclared and threw my hands up into the air.

I know I am. He said in a girly tone, bobbed his head and

snapped his fingers in a z formation.


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We laughed and hopped off the stage. I was followed by

many drooling boys to my table. I sat into my chair and waved

them off. They all slumped back to their tables, rejected.

Thats a record Bella. Ten rejected in one go this time.

Amy approved.I looked at the clock above the entrance to the cafeteria.

Im going to go now. I sighed and heaved myself out of my

chair.

I walked past the Cullen table. Their mouths hanging open in

shock.

You better close your mouths, dont want to catch flies. I

said to them with a smirk as I passed.

I exited the cafeteria and walked down the hallway silently tothe orchestra room. I entered the room to find another grand piano

next to mine in the room. I walked past the Chellos and Violins and

sat on the bench of my piano.

I stroked the keys softly and stared out the window.

Untouched by the veronicas popped into my head and I began to

play. The notes filled the room and I closed my eyes as I played. I

sighed in content and smiled lightly.

When I finished the song, I continued onto my piece I hadcreated during my first few days playing the piano. The song was

filled with soft, sad notes. About how I became depressed my first

few months when Edward left. The song then changed into angry

notes as I thought about how much I hated him.

I bent more over the keys, my emotions getting to me. My

brow furrowed as the notes got even angrier. I finished my song

with a sharp note and rested my hands angrily on the keys, making

an awful sound of notes.

I heard clapping and I opened my eyes. Edward was in frontof me, his eyes locked mine.

I didnt know you could play. He said a few moments later.

I can. I said short.

Why did you decide to play? He asked as he leaned on the

piano.


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When I was diagnosed with cancer, my nurse was a pianist.

She taught me how to play. I answered.

Edward then looked very concerned.

When were you diagnosed with cancer? He asked as if he

was a doctor.A few days after you left. I sneered.

His face looked pained.

Im so sorry Bella. He murmured.

Why should you care? You didnt care then, or now. My

eyes turned into slits.

But I do care. I really care about you Bella. I always have.

His voice pleaded.

Oh no. Hes not pulling that on me. Jack ass.Sure. We can go with that. I seethed.

Bella. I know I hurt you back then, but I had to. I was going

to leave you for your protection. He begged.

I know you werent going to change me because you were

afraid of damning my soul, but in three weeks time, I became one

of you. If you hadnt left, you wouldnt have any other choice but

to change me if you wanted to keep me. And after the change, we

would have been happy and together. But all I could think of as Iabout died was that I was dieing and you didnt love me. I said

deathly.

His mouth opened slightly and his eyes scrunched up in pain.

But I do love you Bella. I truly do. He cried as he moved

around the piano towards me.

I got up and stood on the other side facing him.

And I do believe you. But I hate you. I spat.

He flinched.

The other students came into the room. I took my seat on thepiano bench once again. Edward stood next to me and bent down

towards me.

Please forgive me Bella. He begged the other students were

listening.

Save it Edward. I snapped and looked away from him.


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He sighed and walked over towards the other piano and sat

down. His back hunched and he looked at the keys.

There was much whispering.

That has to be her ex boyfriend. A female voice whispered.

Serves him right for leaving her. A male whispered.Oh. If he needs a shoulder to cry on, Im free. A girls

voice whispered.

I chuckled quietly at the last whisper. I got up and opened the

benchs storage compartment. I sifted through the many

compositions I had created until I found some blank pieces. I took

out my black colored pencil and began to write the notes down that

just had popped into my head.

I checked the clock when I was done. Mr. Kirkham walkedinto the room. He strolled over to my piano and looked at what I

had composed.

He nodded his head in approval.

Play it please. He demanded.

I nodded and sat the papers in front of me.

(Yiruma- When the love falls)

I finished to a round of applause. That my friend is Edward

created into music.Mr. Kirkham coughed and we all directed our attention to

him.

Our concert is coming up soon. We will be merging with the

chorus class in the concert. Bella, you will be the main pianist. We

will be doing Viva la Vida by Cold play, a couple of songs from the

pirates of the Caribbean: Blood Ritual, Will and Elizabeth, and to

the pirates cave. And pyramid song by Radiohead. He told us

looking at a list on his clipboard.

What is the dress code for the concert? A female Cellistasked.

Black skirt and dress shoes for the ladies with a white dress

shirt, and Black dress pants and dress shoes with a white button up

for the boys. He answered.


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Crap. All I have is black clothing. I guess Ill have to borrow

one from Amy.

When is the concert? Edward asked.

Next Monday night at seven. Mr. Kirkham said turning to

him.But wed all like to hear you play Mr. Cullen. Mr. Kirkham

added.

Edward nodded and placed his hands gracefully on the keys.

He began to play and I recognized the song in the first three notes.

My lullaby. The class mouths dropped. Even Mr. Kirkhams. The

music continued and Edward turned to me.

You inspired this one. He mouthed to me.

There were then many whispers. Many of the students hadseen that.

I looked away and stared at my keys. I closed my eyes.

The song ended and the class applauded. All except for me.

That was wonderful. Does it have a name? Mr. Kirkham

asked.

It does. I created it especially for someone a couple years

ago. The name is Bellas Lullaby. He said softly.

My eyes snapped open and I felt stares boring into my back.Well. Mr. Kirkham said in awe.

Shall we continue the lesson? I asked, more like pleaded.

Oh, yes. Mr. Kirkham said clearing his head. He blinked

twice. Will everyone please practice what is assigned on the

board? He asked the class, still staring at me.

There was the rustling of music sheets in the back round and

music filled the room. I got up and walked over to Mr. Kirkham.

Mr. Kirkham, I am not feeling so well. May I be excused? I

asked him.You may. He said gesturing towards the door.

I walked quickly toward the door, and when I was out the

door, I ran to the end of the hallway out the front door and into the

parking lot. A gush of wind hit me and I let out a sob. I ran to the

car and sunk to the ground. I continued to dry sob, letting it all out.


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That was the only song that ever made me hurt in side. The song

that makes me turn defenseless, weak.

Because he played that song, this is the first time in fifty

years I have cried.

Chapter 2

I sighed as I looked around me. I was still outside, sitting on

the ground against the car in the parking lot. Wind swept my hair

around my face. Another flash of lightening cracked through the

air like a whip with the sound of thunder. The sky swirled in a mix

of grey and dark purple. There was no sunlight to be seen.

The bell rang, signaling that school was over. I heavedmyself off the street and looked at the school doors. Amy and

Micheal were the first ones to come out; Micheal had some papers

and my back pack. They ran to me with concerned faces.

I smiled wistfully at them and Amy ran the distance left

between us and hugged me.

I saw. Its okay. Are you up for baseball tonight? Amy

asked me pulling back to look at me.

Yeah. I sighed.Amy released me and Micheal handed me my stuff. He

looked at me sadly and hugged me as well. Over his shoulder I saw

the Cullens step out the front doors.

Lets go. I breathed urgently.

Micheal and Amy looked over their shoulders with a glare

and we hopped into the car. Micheal drove like a maniac. Excited

to play tonight Im sure. The town blurred past us with rain

pouring down the windows.

The car screeched to a stop in the driveway and I opened thedoor quickly. Amys eyes glazed over for a couple seconds.

Its going to be pouring! Wear shorts and t-shirts! She

yelled excitedly. And no make up Bella! She added as Micheal

and I ran into the house.


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It was our inside joke. We love the rain. And because we can

never wear shorts and t-shirts out in public, we wear them in the

rain. But we only do when we play baseball, because it would

look crazy if three teenagers were walking around in shorts will

theres a storm.I ran up the stairs and into my bathroom. I grabbed a wad of

tissues from my sink and wet them with water. I hastily scrubbed

off my make up and yanked open the door again after throwing

away the now black sopping tissues.

I shrugged off my jacket and slipped off my jeans. I put on

my tiny Hollister shorts which I dyed black. I raced down the stairs

to see Amy in cute pink shorts with a white tank top and Micheal

in brown cargo pants and a white tank top.You look so much prettier without make up Bella. Amy

sighed as her eyes searched my face.

That must have been the thousandth time she has told me

that.

I rolled my eyes and grinned.

Come on! Lets play some ball! I yelled and raced out the

door.

I sprinted out of the house and into the woods right across thestreet from home. And when I was out of sight from the neighbors

I changed into vampire speed. In a few seconds I heard Amy and

Micheal running close behind me. I swerved in and out of the trees,

my eyes noticing each leaf and rain drop to pass me.

In a few minutes we arrived at a triangle clearing. Thunder

rang in the air and I smiled. I turned around to see Micheal with a

ball and baseball bat and Amy smiling up at the scary looking sky.

Rain poured on us, soaking us in what seemed like a second.

Micheal handed me the bat and took the ball into the outfield.I ran up to the patch of grass that marked first base. Amy got

behind me and crouched down as the umpire.

We all played on different teams. It was the only way it

seemed fair. I nodded at Micheal on the pitchers mound and he


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grinned back. He hurled the ball and I swung my bat. It missed and

landed into Amys hands.

Strike one! She called and tossed the ball back to Micheal.

I narrowed my eyes in concentration and positioned the bat.

Micheal flicked the ball towards the bat again, but I swung too lateand missed.

Strike two! Amy yelled.

The ball was thrown back to Micheal and I let out a huff of

air in frustration. Micheal smiled evilly and I glared.

He threw the ball and I swung at the time the ball hit the bat.

The ball soared out of the clearing and Micheal stared at me

shocked. I grinned and ran to the next base. Micheal took off while

I was at third base. But when I stopped back at fourth base,Micheal came back with seven other people.

The Cullens.

Amy hissed and got into a defensive crouch.

No Amy. I dont want there to be any violence. I told her.

She snorted and rolled her eyes.

The Cullens drifted closer, their feet barely touching the

ground. Carlisle held the ball in his hand. They all ghosted closer,

all of them looking at me. Micheal joined Amy and me and hestraightened Amy out of her defensive stance.

We heard you playing. Carlisle began as he held up the

ball.

Lightening and thunder cracked through the air.

May we join you? There would be even players. Alice

asked in her beautiful voice.

Why not. I said not smiling.

Great. Shall it be girls against boys? Esme suggested.

Wonderful idea. Men bat first. I said stepping up to Emmettand giving the bat to him.

Emmett cheered and I cracked a smile at that. I stepped

around the Cullens with the girls behind me.

Who wants to be pitcher? I asked as I turned around to face

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Me! Amy called and ran off with the ball already in her

hand.

The other Cullen ladies stared at me.

Hello. I said quietly.

Alice, Rosalie, and Esme then all hugged me. I stumbledslightly.

Bella. They breathed.

I patted their heads.

We have a game to start. Do you want the boys to win? I

asked with a laugh.

No. They answered and let go.

I smiled and looked back at where the men were. Emmett

was up to bat first with Jasper as umpire. The others were off to theside talking.

Thunder then tumbled through the air.

Eerie isnt it? I quoted wiggling my eye brows at the girls.

I heard Emmett boom a laugh from where he was standing.

Of course he remembers it. He was the one who had spoken the

very same thing at my first baseball game with the Cullens.

Emmett nodded at Amy and she threw the ball towards him.

Emmett swung and hit the ball with a boom. The ball soared pastme and I ran as fast as I could to catch it. The ball hit the ground

and when I picked it up; Emmett was running past third base.

It was too far of a throw for me, so I ran after Emmett. Amy

and Alice started to laugh, knowing the outcome. I ran quickly

towards Emmett, and just as he was about to reach half way

between the third and home base, I lunged at Emmett and tripped

him.

Emmett fell on his back with a crash and I touched the ball

lightly on his forehead.Youre out. I said with a laugh and threw the ball back to

Amy. Emmett looked surprised. I laughed at his face.

Never been beaten by a girl huh? I like to see you beat me at

football. I said with an evil laugh and a sigh.


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I skipped lightly back off to my place in the outfield. Leaving

the men all dumbstruck. Rosalie gave me a thumbs up and I smiled

back at her.

When it was time for our team to go bat, the boys had zero

points. All thanks to Alice and Amy. Esme was umpire and Amygot up to bat. The ball flew at her and she hit it in time. She

sprinted to the bases, stopping at the plate before home base.

Edward was hardly paying attention to the game, always

staring at me. Fifty years ago that might have been flattering, but

now its just plain creepy. A magnificent thought sprung into my

head and Alice and Amy bust out laughing.

Edward looked confused, so they must be blocking him. I

walked over to Rosalie with the bat and whispered in her ear. Shesmirked and let out a chuckle before nodding.

Just as planned, Edward kept his eyes on me. And when

Micheal threw the ball, Rosalie hit it towards Edward, in all of the

mens-even vampires- sensitive spot.

His eyes widened and he clutched his crotch in pain as he fell

to the ground. Everyone laughed hysterically. Even Carlisle and

Esme. Rosalie ran around the bases, the men didnt even bother to

pick up the ball.Amy and Rosalie made it back to home base, giving our team

two points. I fell to the ground rolling with laughter at the look on

his face.

His..FACE! I heard Emmett burst out between guffaws.

I heard swearing under Edwards breath and I laughed even

harder. Rosalie had soon joined the ground with me as well, still

laughing.

A good minute later of laughing, I sighed before getting of

the sopping wet ground. I stared at all of the drenched people witha last laugh. I stepped up to the plate and grabbed the bat off the

ground with a glint of victory in my eye. Micheal grinned evilly at

me before hurling the ball at me.

I swung the bat in time to meet the ball and I took off

running. The ball was still flying over the trees when I was at the


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base second to last. Emmett came with the ball in his hand,

charging at me. I laughed and continued to run. When he lunged at

me, I curled into a ball and spun under him, as he belly flopped

onto the ground. I got out of my ball still in motion and crossed

home base, untouched.The girls all cheered and gave me high fives.

Oh youre on for football! Emmett said threateningly as he

got up and chucked the ball back to Micheal.

Bring it! I said bobbing my head.

In the end, girls won six to zero. I helped out a little by

using more of my awesome ninja moves. The girls all said one last

goodbye to me before I walked out towards the outfield to say

good bye to the other guys, all except for Edward.Micheal laughed as I strutted over to him with Amy, singing

we are the champions by queen drunkenly, leaning on each other

heavily, and walking unsteadily.

Show offs. Emmett muttered.

Dont be a sore loser Emmett. I said with a laugh.

He gave me the Im watching you sign.

Amy chuckled and let go of me and ran into Micheals arms.

They kissed passionately and I gagged.Save it for the bedroom! I said with a look of disgust on

my face.

I might take you up on your offer Bella. Micheal said with

a wicked grin.

Okay, but if I walk out of my room to find clothes scattered

across the hallway or I hear Oh Mikey! Im so close! I am getting

the water bucket and putting you two in straight jackets. I said

seriously looking at the intertwined couple.

The Cullens laughed at this.Shut up little Miss Virgin. Micheal said glaring at me.

And that is supposed to offend me? I said raising an

eyebrow.


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When I finished coloring the white on my converse black, it

was two hours before it was time to leave. I hurriedly put on my

outfit I had picked out and ran to the bathroom to put on my make

up.

When I was finished with that, Amy and Micheal weredownstairs waiting for me. We walked together to the car and

climbed in. Micheal drove to school a little slower than usual

because we had so much time left before school started.

When we arrived, students were already arriving in the

parking lot. Micheal parked beside a red BMW. Rosalie. Of course,

there would be another group of boys surrounding it at the end of

school today.

I grabbed my backpack I had left in the car yesterday andopened it. No home work. Thats good, makes my life a whole lot

easier. I opened the door and joined Amy as we walked together to

our lockers.

We arrived at our lockers and I spun my combination. I

shoved the books I didnt need inside, but as I was about to close

the door, something white caught my eye. I pulled my locker door

back open again to see what it was.

A white freesia sat in my locker with a note wrapped aroundthe stem.

Forgive meIt said in Edwards elegant script. I sighed and when I looked

in my locker mirror, Edward was looking back at me. I placed the

note back in the locker and put the flower in my bag. It would die

quicker that way. I shut my locker door and walked to Spanish.

I opened the door to my class and sat down next to Amy at

our table.Decided to make you feel all lovey did he? Amy whispered

to me under her breath.

Yep. I whispered back.

Are you going to fall for it? She asked.

Nope. I said confidently.


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were endless with poems! I couldnt stay focused for long before

my mind drifted off. So much to stay distracted.

I sighed as the bell rang and I got up off my chair and walked

out of the room and down the hall to history. When I opened the

door, there was indeed another folded piece of white paper sittingon my desk.

I marched up to it and set my books down before opening it

angrily.

Last night as I lay awake,

A vision came to me.

It was of you and I,

A wondrous sight to see.

And in the dream I had,

I reached and touched your face

I clasped your hand in mine,

And felt your warm embrace

I pressed my lips to yours,

To taste your kiss so sweet

You held me for a minute,In this moment that did fleet.

I came back from the dream,

With a thought of you that stayed

With me throughout the day,

And never once did fade.

I swallowed back the angry lump in my throat and shoved thenote into my pocket. I opened my history book and began to read a

whole different lesson than what we were on.

By the end of class I had learned about ancient China and

Rome while the other students learned about the epidemic. Pssh, I

could do the test for that chapter in my sleep. The bell rang and I


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got up and stormed out of the room, ditching my books at my

locker. I walked into the lunchroom and stopped near the Cullen

table.

Emmett. Do you want to play football tonight? I asked him

raising an eyebrow, not looking at Edward.Emmett grinned.

You and me only. First one to score wins. At the same spot

we played baseball. He said challenging me.

Youre on. See you after school. I jerked my head and

grinned evilly before walking off.

I sat at next to Amy and she turned on me with an anxious

expression.

Can I please see them? She begged.I sighed and took out the two poems. She read them eagerly,

and when she was done, her mouth fell open.

Bella, these are amazing. Theyre so romantic. I dont know

how youre not affected by them. She said whispering the last part

so low only I could hear.

Without effort. I told her honestly and shrugged.

Her eyes narrowed and she handed the notes back to me. I

put them back in my pocket and just stared off into space, thinkingof nothing as I waited for lunch to end.

I checked the clock and it was a few minutes before orchestra

would start. I got out of my seat and walked out of the cafeteria,

ignoring the whispers around me.

Ever since Edward had played my lullaby and said I inspired

the song, everyone has been talking about it. Her ex boyfriend is

back, she hates him. It has been no problem at all ignoring the

stares because I have so much on my mind, but the whispers are

something Ill have to get used to.I opened the music room door silently and walked over to my

piano. When I looked at the keys, there was once again, a note. I

opened it with a bored expression and read it.


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Every I love you, you whisper,

is like rain for the trees,

moonlight for the ocean,

nectar for the bee

A kiss bestowed upon me from you

is like fragrance on flowers,

heat upon the desert,

mist from morning showers

A glance from you in my direction

is like flame to the fire,

a twinkling of stars,a spark of love's desire

A moment in your arms

is like waves to the ocean,

a rushing, primal urge,

a sweet mix of emotion

The days with youwas like joy without measure,

a life without limits,

I shall love you forever.

I put it in my pocket and began to stroke the keys softly.

None of this romantic crap is going to change how I feel. But when

I thought that, I felt something pull a little bit at my heart. I shook

my head and stared out the window. Students started to file into the

room and read the directions on the board. I sighed and started topractice my lines for Viva la Vida.

Out of the corner of my eye I saw the other piano bench

beside me move and Edward sit down. I directed my gaze back to

the keys. I kept my gaze away from Edward for the rest of class.

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Like you were holding a fragile heart,

That could break any second,

And then it shatters,

And you don't know how to fix it?

Then your world goes wild,

With everything spinning but you,

You stand still and stare at the moment,

Not knowing what to say,

Not even paying attention anymore.

You want to say something to help the moment,

But tears are saying enough.

I want to hold the pieces of your broken heart,

And put it back to one.

I hold you close,Hoping you can forgive me,

For hurting you so badly.

And it's far from a lie,

When I say I love you

And from Health:

People say if you love someone you got to let them go

I say you got to let it show, let them know

That no matter what happens, through thick and thin, your love for

them will never bend,


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Never break, till the earth starts to quake and shake,

Till the end is for sure, till my heart don't beat no more,

Till I'm lying dead on the shore of the river of tears that we cried

over all the years,

Never given up on the chance that one day you will come back

That's why I tack these dreams in my head,

Hoping I won't be alone in bed at night,

Hoping well stop our fight

Wishing that your life will get better,Wanting us to last forever

But you say I'm too serious

I'm bout to go delirious

Why can't you just see that we need each other,

That you're the one for me

That no matter what happens we're going to go on

Why can't we just do it now instead of sitting around

Waiting for the moment when everything's right

You give me hope

Every time I hold you close

I feel like I'm where I belong

Every time I kiss your lips

I feel like it can't get better than this

I miss the feel of your body so close to mine

You're like a grape vine


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You get sweeter with time but if you get too close

There's thorns that can make you bleed,

Make you want to come back and see what's guarded so closeI got past the thorns, to the other side

And what I saw could make you go blind

The most beautiful girl

In the worst of worlds

So much pain kept up

Just got to let it all out

Not doubt bout what might happen again

I'm changed Bella

Ready for a new beginning

I just wish you felt the same way I do

Wish you could love me the way I love youEvery time the poems said I love you, I thought I dont. And

each time I thought that, my heart would prick. I dont know why,

but it does.

It was now after school and I had changed into a black tank

top and shorts. I was running to the clearing to meet Emmett for

our football game. Amy was with me. She didnt want to tell me

the outcome, because if she did, there would be no game at all. I

was so going to win.

Chapter 3

Emmett, Jasper, Alice, Rosalie, and Edward were all in the

field. Emmett was holding a football and practicing moves while

Alice was marking the end zones with white chalk.


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Bella! Think fast! Emmett yelled and threw the ball at me

with blinding speed.

I caught the ball in one hand and torpedoed the ball back to

Emmett. He was a little late and the ball him square in the chest.

Emmett fell to the ground and I laughed.I appeared over him in the same second and smiled wickedly

down at him. He glared up at me.

You need to be better if you want to beat me. I said

bobbing my head.

He got up and towered over me. I just stared up at him at

waited with a blank expression. He narrowed his eyes at me and I

just gave him a cheesy smile and batted my eyelashes. He scoffed

and handed me the ball.Ladies first. He said with a smirk.

Okay. Ill be easy on you. The first one to score two touch

downs wins. I said taking the ball.

Fine. Up for a little bet? He asked me with a devilish grin.

Sure. I said with a shrug.

His eyes flashed to Edward for a second and back to me.

If you lose you have to kiss Edward on the lips. He said

crossing his arms across his chest confidently and turning his headup.

Shit!

Okay, deal. And if you loose, you have to kiss Edward on

the lips. With tongue. I said emphasizing the last part.

There was a sound of disgust and many laughs. Emmetts

eyes grew wide and his jaw opened. I closed his mouth with my

finger and walked off to the center of the field with Emmett

following behind.

I set the ball in the center, and Emmett got in front of me,facing me and the ball.

And..GO! Alice announced.

I quickly grabbed the ball and spun past Emmett. I was about

to make it past eighty yards, when I saw a huge object flying at me.


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I faked and ran behind the now crashing Emmett and into the

safety zone.

TOUCHDOWN! Alice yelled.

I walked back to the center with the ball in my hand. Emmett

was already there, waiting for me.Emmett! Youre loosing it man! I heard Jasper complain.

I have a feeling they bet on who would win. I set the ball

back in the center and waited for Alice to say go.

GO! She yelled.

Emmett grabbed the ball, but I jumped up and put Emmett in

a head lock and knocked him to the ground. There were many

oooohhhhs. Emmett shook it off and got back up and put the ball

in the center.GO! Alice yelled

I grabbed the ball and kneed Emmett between the legs before

running off with the ball. There was hysterical laughter, and when I

looked back at Emmett he was still on the ground. I let out an extra

burst of speed and crossed the end zone with a hoot of victory.

TOUCHDOWN! BELLA WINS! Alice announced.

I walked back to everyone towing Emmett along with me.

Yousuck. He rasped.I just laughed.

Rosalie and Alice were holding down Edward while I

approached holding Emmett up to kiss him. Emmett and Edward

scrunched their eyes closed and puckered their lips. We all started

laughing at their faces. Emmetts and Edwards lips touched and

opened their mouths to reveal their tongues. They kissed for a

second before coughing and spitting on the ground.

We released them and I joined the girls behind them. I

laughed when I had seen that Amy had recorded the whole thingand labeled it as Emmett and Edward getting hot and heavy.

They were still on all fours spitting on the ground.

That was so disgusting. Edward moaned.


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Horrible. I always wondered what it was like when Bella

and Edward kissed. But I honestly didnt know it was this

disgusting. Emmett groaned and spat on the ground again.

We girls laughed and continued to watch Emmett and

Edward spit out each others taste. It was five more minutes beforethey were satisfied and got up. Emmett glared at me and I smiled

back sweetly.

Lets go Bella. Micheal and I still have to finish some things

from last night. Amy said with a sly smile.

I shuddered but nodded. I followed her passed the Cullens,

but when I passed Edward, our fingers barely touched and a spark

shot through my hand. Edward gasped quietly and looked up at

me. I just looked away and continued to walk.What is it with that damn shock of true love? I mean I dont

love him. My heart tugged even more at the thought. Amy and I

made it to the forest and we took off running back home. Tingles

danced on my fingers and I tried to shake it off. But for some

reason they wouldnt go away.

We made it home and I walked into the house and sat on my

bed staring at my tingling fingers. My bedroom door opened and

Amy walked inside.Hey. She said and sat on my bed.

Hi. I said still staring at my hand.

I wanted to talk about something with you. She started.

Okay. I said nodding at moving my gaze to her.

Listen. I know your going to hate me for saying this, but I

think you should forgive Edward. He really loves you, and those

poems were just amazing. Any guy willing to do that for you is

worthy of forgiveness. And, thats all I guess. Ive never been good

with speeches. She said looking at me seriously in the eye.I just stared back and she sighed before getting up off the bed

and walking over to the door.

Think about it. She smiled slightly before leaving the

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I sighed and looked down at my still tingling fingers. Should

I forgive him? Amy does make a good point, but I cant love him.

My heart felt as if a knife had been struck through it. Liar, my

mind argued.

What? I have hated him for fifty years! I snapped back.No, youve just been hurting for all those years. What ever

you thought was hate was hurt. My other conscience told me.

Stop telling me what to do! I yelled at the other me.

I sighed and walked over to my book bag. I grabbed it and

opened the zipper before dumping it all on my bed. And the last

thing to fall out of it was the white freesia. It was still alive.

Through the whole war of sadness and hurt, love was the

only thing that came out unscathed.

Chapter 4

I ran to Spanish in a hurry. I was almost a minute late! My

black sweater and skinny jeans flowed behind me a little bit at the

speed I was running. I came to a halt in my high heels at the door

and yanked it open. Mr. H was smiling and he shrugged it off.

Thank you! I sighed in Spanish.

I walked back to my seat, but in it, was a yellow rubberducky. My eyes widened and I stared up at Mr. H. He smiled and

nodded.

Eight tonight. He said in Spanish.

I cheered quietly and removed the rubber ducky off my seat

before sitting down. Time to announce the good news at lunch.

I sprinted into the cafeteria and jumped up onto the stage and

to the podium.

May I please have your attention? I called and everyone

looked up at me at the stage.

Thank you. I have just received an important notice. Rubber

ducky at eight. I repeat, rubber ducky at eight!


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Everyone cheered except for the Cullens who looked

confused. I hopped of the stage and everyone began to talk. I

walked over to the Cullen table.

What does that mean? Rosalie asked raising an eyebrow.

Mr. Hanson the Spanish teacher has a party once a yearwith his students. None of the teachers know, so we wouldnt get

in trouble. I explained and pulled out a piece of paper form my

pocket and handed it to Alice.

These are the directions to Mr. Hansons house where we

will be having the party. Tonight, at eight. It would be fun if you all

came. I said with a smile before I left.

Amy and Micheal were about jumping out of their seats as I

walked over to them. I laughed and sat down as I propped my feetup on the table.

Its going to be so much fun! Amy squealed.

Mr. H always has the best parties. Micheal said in

agreement.

Amy looked behind me and back to me.

So did you forgive him? She whispered so low only I could

hear.

My heart clenched.No. I whispered quietly.

Amy looked at me for a moment before sighing and looking

away. I dont know how to forgive him. He basically left me to die

and I had no one to turn to. No one to hold me close and whisper I

love you, no one to talk to, he didnt stay when I needed him the

most. I swallowed a lump in my throat.

My head turned slightly and looked over at Edward for the

tiniest bit of a second. I turned my head back to its original

position and looked down at my hands.He looked so pained. So hurt, so miserable.

I have done that to him. I hurt him by telling him I could

probably never love him again. And every time I rejected him, it

hurt him even more. I am a monster. I have rejected the man I had

loved. The one who would stay with me at night, the one who


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protected me and cared for me with his life, who loved me more

than his life, who left me

Another lump of guilt rose in my throat and I swallowed.

This was becoming too depressing. I have to get my feelings out. I

got up from my chair suddenly and walked out of the cafeteriaquickly. I walked down the hallway and into the music room.

I ran to my piano and opened the compartment in my chair. I

hastily took out blank pieces of music sheets and grabbed my

writing utensil. I wrote down the notes that swirled through my

mind, and at the speed I was writing, I was finished in a minute.

I set the completed song in front of me and began to play.

The song was filled with guilty notes, sad notes, hurt ones, and last

of all, love. I sighed and looked at the blank space provided for mytitle. I wrote down the title: My entire fault.

I bit my lip and paper clipped the sheets together. I looked

sadly at Edwards piano. He will never know how I feel about him.

If he finds out, it would hurt him even more. I will keep watch of

him from afar, making sure he is okay. I will be there to comfort

him, but to never hurt him. I will never let him know that I love

him.

I was in my bathroom, in a pair of black tiny shorts and ablack sparkly spaghetti strapped tank top with a pair of high heels.

I hardly put on any make up, too depressed to add more. I wish I

could tell him how I feel, but I would just hurt him. I put a smile

on my face and exited the bathroom and down the stairs.

Amy and Micheal were waiting for me down stairs. Amy

applauded at my almost make up less face. I grinned at her and she

linked arms with me. We three walked outside into the midnight

night and into the car.We drove quickly to the party, and were greeted by lights

flashing through the windows. Thank goodness Mr. H lives in a

house not in a neighborhood. The cops would have come to every

single party and probably arrest Mr. H.


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Micheal parked the car and we got out and walked up to the

door. We opened it to see many teenagers. Some talking, some

drinking soda, some dancing or talking to the Mr. H our DJ. I was

then hit by a small person. Alice was hugging me tightly. I laughed

at her and she looked up and grinned.Jasper told me you might need that. She smiled beatifically.

I glared at Jasper from across the room and stuck my tongue

out at him. He laughed and grinned. She let go and I walked over

to Mr. H.

Hey Bella. He smiled and waved.

Hi. I grinned and waved back.

I was about to play our favorite song. You ready? He asked

evilly.I laughed and nodded.

Pop, lock, and drop it by Huey and came and I cheered. Amy

and Rosalie were at my side in an instant.

I LOVE this song! They said in unison.

We laughed and started to dance to the beat. Many other girls

did too, and soon we were a whole group of girls dancing.

Basically all of the guys were watching us. Whenever the song said

drop it, the girls would all spread their legs shoulder length apartand bend them lower than a ninety degree angle. We would get

back into a standing position in a second, giving the on looking

men heart attacks.

But when I noticed Edward, my breath caught silently and I

looked at Amy. She and Rosalie were having so much fun,

grinning and laughing. I smiled at them and they laughed back.

The song ended soon and we stopped. Rosalie, Amy, and I

leaned on each other. Exploding with laughter. We walked over to

where everyone was waiting.Micheal and Emmett looked purely crazed and started

looking up and down Amy and Rosalies bodies. They stared at

each other for a brief moment before grabbing the girls and taking

them away. Probably to a private area.


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You three looked hot. Jasper said with a laugh as Alice hit

him playfully.

Thanks. I smiled

You almost made Eddie explode. Jasper said giving

Edward a playful look.Edward glared at him and I laughed. I looked quickly away

from Edward before my emotions could get to me and Jasper

would find out. And if Jasper found out Edward would find out.

Amy and Rosalie then joined us with Micheal and Emmett.

Each couple smelling of each other. I wrinkled my nose in distaste.

Sorry Bella. We forgot. Amy said apologetically.

It gets better after a while. Edward assured me. When you

live in a house with three couples, it could be around the corner atanytime. Edward shuddered.

Micheal and Amy laughed while Emmett, Jasper, Rosalie,

and Alice hit Edward. A certain song came on and Alice, Rosalie,

and Amy dragged me to the dance floor.

After what seemed like hours of songs, a slow one came on

and I started to exit the dance floor. But through the crowd of

people I was passing, someone shot their arm around my waist. I

looked up to see Edward staring down at me.One dance Bella. Please? I bet you improved since prom,

He taunted with a slight smile.

I chuckled and rolled my eyes. He led us to an open space on

the floor and we started to dance around the other couples.

(The veronicas- When it all falls apart)

My arms wrapped around Edwards neck and his wrapped

around my waist. My eyes drifted down to the floor. Looking away

from his eyes. I bit my lip before summing up the courage and

looking in his eyes.His gold eyes were a beautiful color. Sparkle shone in them

and I saw much love and adoration in them. I saw in his eyes, what

was in my eyes. The same emotions as him. My breath caught and

I continued to stare into the swirling liquid of gold.


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I was walking to Spanish, staring down at my feet. I feel

completely awful from last night. Now Edward will probably never

talk to me again. That is what you wanted. My thoughts reminded

me. But why does it hurt so much? I asked myself as I opened my

Spanish door.Not all of the class was there yet. I walked over to my table

and sat down. We were having a quiz today so I just stared at my

table into space. I heard Amy sit down next to me.

You okay? She asked me quietly.

Yeah. I mumbled back.

Amy patted my arm and I sighed.

Mr. H passed out papers and I immediately started on mine. I

was the first one to finish and hand in my paper. I collected mythings before leaving the class room. I walked to my next class,

staring down the empty hallway.

I walked slowly, taking minutes to reach half way down the

hall. I felt like something was pulling me back. That something

was holding me down, trying to stop me from living my life.

I was finally to the door of my next class when the bell rang.

I waited until the students had filed out of the classroom before

taking a step into the room. I walked over to the teacher andhanded him my homework before walking down the aisle and

sitting at my seat. Students were no entering the classroom and

reading the assignments on the board.

I took out a piece of notebook paper and wrote down the

answers to the equations on the paper. By the time I had finished

what I was needed to do, everyone was in class and starting the

class work. I sighed and took out another piece of paper and began

to doodle.

I drew a perfect row of squares and circles before the bellrang. I gathered my stuff up and walked out of class, turning in our

work. I made my way down to history and opened the door. My

eyes flashed to the chalk board. A quiz on the chapter I was too

bored to study about. The one I could do in my sleep.


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I walked past some students and sat down in my seat and

waited for the test to be passed out. I took out a pencil and stared

off into space. When the test got around to me, I answered the

questions in minutes. I got up with my stuff and handed the paper

to my teacher. He likes to grade tests after we have finished them.He looked over it and nodded his head in approval. He made a

mark on the page and I was handed back an A.

I walked out of class with a sigh. I walked down the hall to

the music room. I was not going to lunch. I would have to face

many questions there. I opened the door and walked across the

classroom, looking at the dust motes swirling around along the

way.

I just sat down on my chair and stared at the keys. A songpopped into my head and I placed my fingers gracefully over the

keys. I started to play the notes of Clair de Lune. Many memories

washed through my mind. I closed my eyes and wallowed in the

happiness I once experienced.

When I finished the song, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I

looked over my shoulder slowly to see who it was. Edward was

standing behind me looking down at me. He took his hand off my

shoulder and sat down next to me on the bench. I would have run,but right now Im too sad to move.

He spun around on the bench and faced me. His eyes locked

mine before saying anything.

Bella. Why did you run last night? He asked me.

I just looked away and bit my lip.

Bella, look at me. He said in a soft voice.

I didnt so he pulled my face around to meet his. His hands

cradled my face and I leaned into them.

Why? He asked again and his eyes scorched mine.I opened my mouth, but we heard footsteps coming down the

hall towards the class. Edward looked at me sadly before

disappearing and reappearing on his piano bench. The door opened

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instruments. Mr. Kirkham came in last and looked at us both at our

pianos.

I wonder if the students rumors were telling the truth. He

mumbled and looked at the two of us.

Oh god. People already know about me running from Edwardlast night. Not that I care, but that moment was horrible, and now

Edward was going to se it in peoples heads over and over again.

When my eyes darted over to see his face, he was bent over the

keys, about to play a song.

He started to play a sad song I had never heard before. He

began to hum quietly to the music, his voice creating the most

beautiful sound known to man. Many of the girls were now

drooling and the ones that had just walked into the room werestanding there with their mouths open.

Sexy and tortured. The right combination. I heard a girl

whisper in approval.

I growled softly and I saw Edwards lips twitch in

amusement at my response. He looked at me, still playing.

Does that anger you? He whispered to me lowly.

Oh the many things I could to do him One of the girls

whispered.My eyes widened slightly in anger and my jaw clenched. I

nodded slightly and turned back to my keys.

Wonder what he looks like shirtless One whispered to

another.

My eyes widened and I let out a low growl.

You wonder why he keeps going after her. A voice

whispered.

My tension relaxed. That is a good question. There are

honestly so many other female vampires. And from what mymemories tell me, a vampire did want Edward. He should move

on, have a better life. Staying with me is only bad for him.

His lips would be better on mine than hers. A female

whispered seductively.


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My jaw clenched tighter this time and I pinched the bridge of

my nose with my thumb and forefinger.

good ass.good hairnice mouth that should be on

my- I was about to scream when the door burst open.

Jasper and Emmett rolled inside like they were in combat.Bella! Alice has warned us you are about to explode. We

have come to rescue you! Emmett said holding his hands up in a

shape of a fake gun.

Get her agent teddy bear! Jasper said pointing at me.

Emmett ran over and threw me over his shoulder.

Emmett, Jasper you dunder heads! I yelled and hit his

back.

Edward was very amused and waved at me before I wascarried out of the room. We ran down the hallway, me still in this

very uncomfortable position.

If Emmetts agent teddy bear, than what are you Jasper? Mr.

Control freak? I asked sarcastically.

Haha, very funny. No, I am agent sexy. He said next to

Emmett out of my line of vision.

I started laughing hysterically.

The doors of the school opened and we walked into theparking lot. I was set down in the parking lot, and laughed once

more, wiping an imaginary tear out of my eye.

Now, we are taking you to our house captive. And there I

shall beat your butt at video games. Emmett said his voice full of

authority.

We got into Emmetts jeep and started to drive to the Cullens

place.

No way Emmett. I am totally going to win. I said looking

at him in the rearview mirror.He looked back at me and grinned.

We shall see. Emmett said evilly.

In a few minutes we pulled up to a breath taking mansion.

Emmett parked into a large garage and we got out. I followed them

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the house was all a pale on pale color scheme. We stopped in front

of a huge plasma T.V. and I was handed a controller.

After Emmett had explained the rules to me, he set the game

up and we began to choose our players. I was this creepy ghost

thing while Emmett was a big bear with blood red eyes. The screensaid fight and we began.

After two hours of the game, I had managed to beat Emmett

every time. Emmett threw down the controller and hit his head on

the back of the couch.

Why! He yelled in exasperation and threw his hands up

into the air.

There is only one game left to see who is better than who.

Jasper said in a low voice and lowered his head at Emmett.Wrestling! Emmett shouted, excited.

Jasper and Emmett ran out the door and onto the front lawn. I

followed them out and Emmett got in a defensive stance. I got in

front of him and crouched down as well.

The first one to pin the other down for three seconds wins.

Emmett said before lunging at me.

We darted at each other back and forth, stopping each others

moves for a while. But when a silver Volvo pulled into thedriveway, I got distracted for a second and Emmett caught me. He

had his body on top of mine, and I kicked Emmett in the stomach.

Emmett was now on the bottom, my hands locking down his

wrists. Emmett thrashed back and forth but he couldnt free

himself.

123! Bella wins! Jasper announced.

I jumped away from Emmett and grinned cheekily at him.

Is there one thing your not good at? Emmett complained

and got up.Nope. Said Alice as she, Rosalie, and Edward walked

towards us.

She has you beat at everything. Alice put her arm around

my shoulders.


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Im going to go. Micheal and Amy will probably be

worried. I said a moment later.

Bye agent teddy bear and agent sexy. I laughed before I

darted off into the woods right outside their house at vampire

speed.I speeded back home and was outside my house in minutes. I

walked through the front door and closed it behind me. I noticed

my back pack on the counter as I rounded the corner. I picked it up

and walked up stairs into my room. But as my hand was on the

knob, I smelt a smell different from mine in my room.

Vampire. I whispered and sniffed.

I opened the door and none was there. But where the smell

was strongest, was at my window and my bed. When I looked overat my pillow, there was a single red rose lying gently next to a

note.

Edward. I thought and sighed. I walked over to my bed and

sat in the middle. I picked up the rose and note and placed the note

in my lap. The rose was perfect. Cherry red petals with an

evergreen stem. No wilt was to be found, no thorn as well. It was

truly perfect. I stroked the rich green leaves and the petals and

sighed.I set the rose down gently on my bed and picked up the note.

Please tell me.

It said in his graceful script. I really felt guilty now. I set the

note down with sadness. I picked up the rose again and laid down

on the bed, stoking the soft petals over and over again. I smiled

lightly at the rose. He would do this all for me, when I wasnt

doing anything to make it better. I then frowned at the last part.I give up. I will tell him. But the question is, how am I going

to tell him?

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It was the night of the concert for orchestra. I had tried to tell

Edward each time, but I had either chickened out, or something

stopped me from telling him. I was in a white button up and black

skirt and black high heels. I did not put any make up on as I left thebathroom.

I exited my room and walked down the stairs. Amy put an

arm around my shoulders. Micheal and Amy were coming to see

the performance tonight. They had become good friends with the

Cullens in the two days after I had found the rose on my pillow.

We walked outside and into the car. I stared nervously at my

hands while we drove. What was I going to tell him? Have I hurt

his too much for him to forgive me? The car stopped and I lookedup. We were in the full parking lot; students were walking into the

school.

I got out and jogged to the front entrance. I traveled with

some students down the hall to the gym where we would be setting

up. A stage was in the gym covered with a red curtain. I walked up

the steps and behind the curtain.

Students were tuning their instruments and talking amongst

another. I walked past the many students to my piano next to

Edwards. He was not there. What?! Has he left? Have I hurt himso much hes left me?

I turned around and looked at the entrance to the stage.

Edward was just coming onto the stage, walking past the people. I

let out a sigh of relief and sat down on my bench. He didnt leave,

you still have a chance Bella, dont give up!

I stared at my piano keys and felt him pass behind me. My

body wanted to be closer to him, and my hands ached to hold him.

Not now! You can do that all you want later if he takes you back! Ireminded myself.

Mr. Kirkham stepped onto the stage and looked behind the

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The show is about to start. I know you will all do great. He

said happily and stepped full onto the stage where the conductors

podium was.

We heard Mr. Kirkham announced the choir and orchestra

before the curtains rose and we faced the audience.Lights blinded us and Mr. Kirkham directed our attention to

him. The students in the orchestra began to play as I watched them.

I only had to play for the pyramid song. Mr. Kirkham raised his

baton and pointed at the violins.

When we had finished all of the songs, we were applauded

by the audience and the curtains fell again. The students all began

to talk and get up to leave. Edward was passing behind me when I

caught his arm. He looked down at me confused.Can I please talk to you privately? I asked him.

He nodded and I released his arm. I got up and followed him

off the stage and out of the gym. He lead me down the hallway and

around a corner. Edward stopped and turned around to me.

Yes? He asked.

I took a deep breath.

Im so sorry. I am hurting you all the time, and it kills me to

see you in pain. I said looking down.He pulled my face up with his hand and I leaned into it.

Are you going to tell me why you ran the other night at the

party? He asked in a soft voice.

I was hurting you. Whenever I would look at you, your face

would be pained, and its all my fault. I said sadly and looked

into his eyes.

Bella, you were never hurting me. Jasper would tell me

what your emotions were. You made me sad because he said you

were depressed, hurting. And that was my fault. He said to me,moving closer.

But I rejected you. I still hurt you. I argued.

Bella, He said in a soft whisper and out his other arm

around my waist. The only thing that could hurt me is that if you

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gave me hope that maybe you still loved me. His face pulled

down to mine closer.

Edward. I sighed gratefully and put my arms around his

waist.

Bella, do you still love me? He asked as his hand strokedmy face and our cheeks touched each others.

Yes. I whispered and moved my lips to his.

I kissed him and he kissed me back. Our lips moved

together and he picked me up for better leverage. My hands clung

to his neck as the kiss got more urgent.

I love you. I whispered and kissed him back forcefully.

I love you too. Edward whispered.

And here we are, a happy fairy tale ending that should havehappened fifty years ago. But hey, at least it happened.

fifty years later

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