everything i know about my family on my mother's side by nathan englander
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Fwf|txodnk D Ena{ Blavx@t Gb`dct an @t @axof|y Ydhf
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2. [bxio xof ovylbnh bnh {dgf {bcednk ha{n L|abh{btxakfxof|. Fwfn caaednk bx xofd| lbiey# fwfn g|a` b hdyxbnif#
tav ibn yff xof {dgf dy `bednk ldk y{ffzdnk zadnxy# bhwdydnk.
Xof|f dy {dyha` lfdnk yob|fh. Lvx yof dy b ednhct {a`bn# xof
{dgf. Tav ibn yff xody# xaa. Lfibvyf fwf|t gf{ zbify# xof {dgf
yca{y bnh |fbiofy xa{b|h xof ovylbnh# obnky bn b|` b|avnh
ody yoavchf|# bnh zvccy od` icayf. Xof|f dy icfb|ct cawf lfx{ffn
xof`.
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fwf|txodnk d ena{ blavx `t gb`dct an `t `axof|y ydhf
Dxy xofn xobx {f ibxio vz# xofn xobx {f|f yv|fby xof
{a`bn y`dcfy bnh oaaey of| b|` xo|avko xof `bny# kvdhdnk
od` ybgfct bi|ayyxobx xof {dgf dy nax b {dgf bnh xof ovylbnh
nax b ovylbnh.
8. [obx xoft b|f# dx yff`y icfb| na{# dy latg|dfnh bnh kd|c-
g|dfnh. Bnh xobx kd|cg|dfnh# vzan icayf| dnyzfixdan# yff`y xa
lf b ibx-ftfh bnh g|fiecf-gbifh Layndbn. Yxbnhdnk nfx xa
of|# caaednk xfn tfb|y achf| bnh {dxo b `fyy ag iv|ct obd|# xof
axof| anfxof latg|dfnh anfdy# {f yff# mvyx b cdxxcf Mf{. Bnh |fiaknd}dnk xof gbif# xbednk dx dn# {f yff xobx xof cdxxcf
Mf{ dy `f.
6. Dxy lfibvyf ag oa{ xoft {bce bnh xbce# dn xof {bt xofd|
yoavchf|y lv`z bnh oa{ of| ca{f| lbie dy ofch bnh |fcfbyfh
lt od` bx fwf|t ia|nf|# xobx {f byyv`f b hdggf|fnx xtzf ag dnxd-
`bit. Xof|f dy bn fbyfb if|xbdn ybgfxt# tav iavch ibcc dxxobx
mvyx `befy b zf|yan xodne ovylbnh bnh {dgf. G|a` b hdyxbnif#
dx mvyx yff`fh bnaxof| xodnk.
7. Xof b|kv`fnx xobx xoftxobx dy# xobx yof bnh Dyfxxcf dn
xof `dhhcf ag Ibnbc Yx|ffx yavnhy# dn b `vio x|vnibxfh ga|`#
cdef xody# {dxo f fb|nfyx bnh bx {dxy fnh= Lvx {obx ha tav ha
dg tav|f B`f|dibn bnh obwf na gb`dct odyxa|t bnh bcc tav| ayx
wdwdh iodchoaah `f`a|dfy b|f anct xof zcaxy ag ydxia`y# dg fwfn
tav| h|fb`y# {ofn zdfifh xakfxof|# b|f xof yndzzfxy ag `awdfy
xobx zcbtfh dn tav| fb| {odcf tav ycfzx1Xofn# xof kd|c ybty# xoayf b|f xof yxa|dfy tav xfcc.
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fwf|txodnk d ena{ blavx `t gb`dct an `t `axof|y ydhf
2:. Xof Layndbn# `t Lfbnbnh# bh`dxxfhct# xobxy {obx D ibcc
of|yof flccy f {dxo ianflhfnif. D ka g|a` ybtdnk dxy oazfcfyy
xa xfccdnk of| blavx xof Mbzbnfyf lffxcfy# blavx xof laht dn xof
yxbd|{fcc# blavx xof yachdf| {dxo xof kcbyy ftf. Tav yff# yof
ybty# xof|f dy yxa|t bgxf| yxa|t. Zcfnxt ag odyxa|t xa xfcc.
22. @t `axof|y gbxof| obh x{a l|axof|y# laxo ag xof` cank
hfbh. @t k|bnhgbxof| nfwf| xach `f blavx fdxof| l|axof|.
Xofyf b|f xof yxa|dfy of xach `f dnyxfbh= Hv|dnk Z|aodldxdan#
{f h|bne fwf|txodnk. Wbndccb. Bzzcfmbie. [ofn D {by ha{n dnWd|kdndb# {f vyfh xa ka avx xa {of|f xof yxdccy {f|f odhhfn dn
xof {aahy bnh lvt `aanyodnf. Bc{bty# tav xbef b `bxio xa dx
fl|yx. Dg dx lv|ny {odxf# tav|f bcc |dkox. Dg dx lv|ny lcvf# xofn dxy
`fxobnac. Dg dx lv|ny lcvf bnh tav h|dne dx# tav ka lcdnh.
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fwf|txodnk d ena{ blavx `t gb`dct an `t `axof|y ydhf
2;. Vz vnxdc xody yxa|t# bcc D enf{ {by xobx av| gb`dct {by g|a`
Kvlf|ndb. Xobxy {of|f {f obdcfh g|a`. Bnh {ofn D xfcc `t
y{ffx Layndbn# {oa bcya yzfbey ya`f \vyydbn# yof yobefy of|
ofbh# caaednk ybh# by dg `btlf fwf|txodnk D ena{ |fbcct dynx
fnavko. Kvlf|ndb mvyx `fbny yxbxf# yof ybty# cdef b iavnxt.
Xa ybt tav {f|f la|n dnkvlf|ndb {avch lf cdef ybtdnk tav {f|f
la|n dn yxbxf. By dn# Nf{ Ta|e Yxbxf a| [byodnkxan Yxbxf. Xa lf
g|a` xof|f dy xa lf g|a` fwf|t{of|f.
A| na{of|f# D ybt.
2?. Dxy {ofn D` byednk `t `axof| blavx xof axof| ydhf# blavx
`t k|bnh`axof|y ydhf# xobx yof ybty# [fcc# dxy {ofn K|bnh-
`by k|bnh`b# xobx dy Ubnh of|f# xof `dhhcf-hdyxbnif yxb|f# xof
xdiednk agg an flnkf|yP# {ofn `t `axof|y `axof|y `axof|
ib`f g|a` Tvkaycbwdb xa Layxan Bnh xobxy {ofn D yxaz of|.
Xod|xt-yfwfn tfb|y ach# bnh ga| xof fl|yx xd`f# dn {|dxdnk xody#
D flnh xobx `t k|fbx-k|fbx-k|bnh`axof|`t zfazcfib`f
g|a` Tvkaycbwdb. Oa{ hafy xobx nax fwf| ia`f vz1 D` bl-
lf|kbyxfh# bnh D {bnx xa ibcc xof Layndbn xa ybt# Oft# nfdko-
la|# dxy `f# Nbxobn. Kvfyy {obx1 Lvx yof dy nax xof zf|yan xa
ibcc {dxo yvio nf{ynax bnt`a|f. Xobxy oa{ rvdiect xodnky
iobnkf. Ya`f x|vxoy# tav ibn odhf ga|fwf|# lvx {ofn tav flnbcct
gbif xof`# flnbcct xbef b caae . . . {fcc# {dxo f bnh xof Layndbn#
dxy hanf.
24. Blavx Tvkaycbwdb# blavx xof nf{y# `t `axof| hafynx zdxt
`f awf| yxa|dfy yvzz|fyyfh. Yof ybty# Tav obwf naxodnk xa ia`-
zcbdn blavx. D obh dx {a|yf dn `t nax ena{dnk. Of| vnicf# `tk|bnhgbxof|y l|axof|# hdfh bx bkf fdkox ag b l|bdn xv`a|. Xof|f
{by naxodnk xa lf hanf. B l|bdn xv`a| edccfh xof cdxxcfyx l|axof|
ag xof xo|ff. @t k|bnhgbxof| {by x{fcwf bx xof xd`f# ody `dhhcf
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fwf|txodnk d ena{ blavx `t gb`dct an `t `axof|y ydhf
{avch nax |fiawf|. Lvx# dn b yfnyf# xoft hdh. Lfibvyf an xof
avxydhf xoft hdh. Lfibvyf dx xv|nfh dnxa b l|bdn xv`a|. Dx xv|nfh
dnxa {obx {by ya icfb|ct Kahy {dcc bnh ya icfb|ct vnyxazzblcf# b
`bcbht xobx lfky na axof| |fyzanyf xobn b xgv-xgv-xgv.
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fwf|txodnk d ena{ blavx `t gb`dct an `t `axof|y ydhf
{f yxbtfh bx `t k|bnhzb|fnxy /`t zb|fnxy# `t l|axof|# bnh
`f$# {fh {bef xa b icavh ag lv|nfh-lbian y`aef flccdnk xof
oavyf. Dx {avch yv``an vy# ib|xaancdef# cdgxdnk vy g|a` lfh
{dxo b iv|cdnk flnkf| ag y`aef.
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fwf|txodnk d ena{ blavx `t gb`dct an `t `axof|y ydhf
98. @b|kax dy na{ yxbnhdnk xof|f# of| b|` oaaefh xo|avko
Xofay# of| gbif gvcc ag ianif|n. Tav kax xof ibcc blavx Lfnndf
lfdnk edccfh dn xof {b|1
Tfy# Mbie ybty. Xofn= Na.
Tav hdhnx kfx dx1 yof ybty.
D hdh. D kax xof ibcc. Lvx dx {bynx xof {b|.
Of {by edccfh dn xof {b|# @b|kax ybty. Dn Oaccbnh.
Of {by lv|dfh dn Oaccbnh# Mbie ybty. Nax edccfh xof|f.
Bnh of {bynx edc cfh dn xof {b|. Dx {by bgxf|.
Bgxf|.
Bgxf| xof flkoxdnk. Bgxf| xof fnh ag xof {b|. Ody kvn {fnxagg an kvb|h hvxt.
Tav bc{bty ybdh# @b|kax ybty dni|fhvcavyct# fwf|tanf
bc{bty ybdh= Edccfh dn Oaccbnh hv|dnk xof {b|.
96. Mbie zvxy b obnh an `t yoavchf|# ofb|dnk @b|kax lvx xbce-
dnk xa f. Kvb|h hvxt dy {obx tav| k|bnhgbxof| xach f xobx
hbt. Bn biidhfnx. Xofn# b gf{ `anxoy cbxf|# {f|f avx dn `t
kb|bkfD |f`f`lf| xody zf|gfix. D oachdnk b ib|lv|fxa|# bnh
of xbefy dx# bnh ofy caaednk bx dx cdef dxy b edhnft a| ya`fxodnk#
{fdkodnk dx dn ody obnh. Dx {by b x|vie# of ybty. Lfnndf bycffz
dn xof lbie# ia`dnk agg kvb|h hvxt. Ya`fxodnk makkcfh# ya`f-
xodnk fl|fh# bnh Lfnndf yoax xo|avko xof ofbh.
Dxy Xofa {oa yzfbey= Xobxy anf dn b `dccdan# xobx ednh
ag biidhfnx. Yzfnx t cdgf b|avnh kvny.
Dx dy# Mbie ybty. Anf dn b `dccdan. @btlf `a|f.
97. [obx D` xodnednkbnh `btlf dxy xof {bt `t ofbh{a|ey# `btlf dxy mvyx xof {bt `t ytnbzyfy fl|flvx dn xody
Zbx Xdcc`bn# rvbk`d|f-ag-D|br {a|ch# D` xodnednk# D hanx cdef
xof yavnh ag dx. Bnh `btlf D` lfdnk x|vct zb|bnadh. Dx dy# by
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D ybdh# ydxt tfb|y cbxf|. Xof dhfb xobx dx bc|fbht yavnhy gvnnt#
bnh bc|fbht dy xof ivx obnh xv|nfh l|bdn xv`a|# dy nax ga| `f
xa xodne. Bnh xofn Mbie ybty# D nfwf| hdh cdef xof yavnh ag dx.
Xobx yxa|t nfwf| ybx |dkox.
9;. @b|kax ybty# D hanx ena{ {ot tav| k|bnhgbxof| nfwf|
wdydxfh.
Xof|f {by xbce# Mbie ybty. \dkox bgxf|. Lvx xofn#
cdef fwf|txodnk fcyf dn xody gb`dctbnh na anf oby fwf|
ybdh yvio b xodnk lfga|f# na anf fwf| biena{cfhkfh xof naxbiena{cfhkdnkdx mvyx kax zvx b{bt bnh xofn dx {by kanf.
9?. D b` dn Oaccbnh an laae xav|. D b` bx xof B`lbyybhf
Oaxfc dn B`yxf|hb`# fbxdnk iazdavy b`avnxy ag Hvxio ioffyf
bnh `bednk xof |avnhy. Xof|f dy anf hbt agg. Anf hbt g|ff dg D
{bnx xa yff Xof Ndkox[bxio a| xof |fh cdkoxy a| xa ka {bce xof
ibnbcy bnh kfx odko. @t zvlcdyof|# of aggf|y f bcc xofyf xodnky.
Na xobne tav# D ybt. D kadnk xa @bbyx|diox xa wdydx b k|bwf.
94. [ofn tav xfcc xof B`f|dibny tav b|f ia`dnk# xof ib|f-
xbef| kafy avx bnh hafy ya`fxodnk yzfidbc. Of |vly ybnh dnxa
xof `b|ef| ag tav| hfbh. Xof `b|ef|y b|f {odxf `b|lcf# bnh
xof nb`fy# fnk|bwfh# ha nax yoa{{odxf an {odxf# b yx|dednk
flfch ag nb`fcfyy yxanfy. Lvx {dxo xof ybnh |vllfh# xof nb`fy
bnh xof hbxfy# xoft yxbnh avx. Ya tav {bce xof flfch ag i|ayyfy#
caaednk ga| Mf{dyo yxb|y. [ofn tav flnh tav| yxb| bnh yff xof
xabyxfh-ybnh {b|`nfyy ag xof nb`f# tav gffc# dn xof yx|bnkfyx{bt# by dg tav|f lfdnk |fifdwfh by `vio by tav|f xof|f xa zbt
x|dlvxf. Dxy b wf|t ndif xaviob xavio xobx {dcc cbyx vnxdc xof
fl|yx |bdn.
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fwf|txodnk d ena{ blavx `t gb`dct an `t `axof|y ydhf
8:. Ha tav {bnx xa ena{ {obx D gfcx1 Ha tav {bnx xa ena{ dg
D i|dfh1 [f hanx yob|f yvio xodnky dn t gb`dct{f hanx xfcc
xody vio fwfn. Bc|fbht Dwf kanf xaa gb|. Bnh zvx lfdnk b bn
an xaz ag dx5 ia`zavnh xof yxbnhb|h yfi|fxdwfnfyy bnh yovx-
ha{nnfyy ag `t gb`dct {dxo `bnoaah. Dx `befy ga| bnaxof|
ednh ag icayf-xa-xof-wfyx# bnaxof| xtzf ag f`axdanbc hdyxbnif# ya
xobx `t Layndbn nfwf| enf{ {obx {by |fbcct kadnk an dnydhf.
82. Xody obzzfnfh bx xof l|dhkf icvl# lbie dn ?8 a| ?6. @t
k|bnhzb|fnxy b|f zcbtdnk bkbdnyx Iavydn Xofa bnh Maf Ka|-lbie. /@b|kax nfwf| zcbty ib|hy.$ \dkox {ofn dxy ach Mafy xv|n
xa lf xof hv``t# of effcy awf| bnh hdfy. Xof {oacf icvl {bdxy
ga| xof zb|b`fhdiy bnh xof kv|nft# bnh xofn xof zcbtf|y zcbt
anbcc lvx ga| `t k|bnhzb|fnxy xblcf# yoa|x anf `bn.
Xoft {bdx an xof hd|fixa|. [bdx ga| dnyx|vixdan.
Bnh Xofa caaey bx `t k|bnhzb|fnxy# bnh caaey bx ody
zb|xnf|y ib|hy cbdh avx# bnh awf| bx xof hfbh `bny xvnb ybnh-
{dio# obcg-fbxfn. Xofa |fbiofy bi|ayy ga| xof vnxaviofh obcg.
Of zdiey dx vz bnh fbxy dx. Mfyvy# Xofa dy {obx t k|bnhgbxof|
ybty. Bnh Xofa ybty# Dxy nax cdef dxy kadnk xa ha Maf bnt kaah.
Yxdcc# Xofa. B hfbh bny ybnh{dio.
Na anfy ga|idnk tav# of ybty. Tav|f {fcia`f xa ydx
rvdfx# a| tav ibn ofcz tav|yfcg xa b g|t.
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gbyxfyx of fwf| |bn dn ody cdgf. Xofa kfxy |vn awf| lt ody a{n
Wacwa. Of l|fbey ody lbie# xoavko tavh nfwf| xfcc xa caae bx
od` xahbt.
89. @t iavio dy ndnfxt-x{a dniofy5 dxy b hffz k|ffn xo|ff-
ivyodan. Dx yfbxy ovnh|fhy. Lvx xobxy nax {ot D kax dx. D kax dx
lfibvyf# ctdnk ha{n xof cank {bt# dn xof yzaandnk-dn-g|anx-ag-
b-`awdf {bt# dn xof ofbh-xa-xaf ctdnk {dxo b zbd| ag cb`zy lv|n-
dnk bnh b zbd| ag zfazcf |fbhdnk# dx flxy f bnh dx flxy bnaxof|dx
flxy of||fbcct {fcc.
88. Yof dy kanf. Yof dy kanf# bnh yof {dcc lf yv|z|dyfh xobx D b`
bcdwf xa {|dxf xodylfibvyf yof# bnh fwf|tanf {oa ena{y `f#
hdhnx xodne Dh yv|wdwf dx. Xobx D ibnx lf bcanf ga| b `dnvxf.
Xobx D ibnx `bnbkf b yfianh ag ydcfnif. B yfianh ag zfbif.
Xobx xa l|fbxof# D nffh b yfianh yfx ag cvnky lt `t ydhf. Bnh
xa obwf b gffcdnk1 Bn f`axdan1 Na anf dn `t gb`dct {dcc yoa{
anf. Cawf# tfy. Ao# {f|f Mf{y# bgxf| bcc. Xof|fy xany ag cawdnk
bnh ia`zcd`fnxdnk# xany ag edyydnk bnh ovkkdnk. Lvx D `fbn
bnt ag vy# bnt ag `t lcaah# xa ydx bnh gbif |fbcdxt# xa ydx bcanf
an b iavio {dxoavx b zb|xnf| bnh xa xodne xof x|vxo bnh gffc
xof x|vxo# dx ibnnax lf hanf. D yv|f ibnx ha dx. Bnh yof enf{ D
iavchnx ha dx. Bnh xobxy {ot dx fnhfh.
86. Dx fnhfh lfibvyf bnaxof| zf|yan {bnxy tav xa nffh xa lf
{dxo xof`# {dxo of|# yzfidflinax lfibvyf tav|f bg|bdh xa
lf bcanf.
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fwf|txodnk d ena{ blavx `t gb`dct an `t `axof|y ydhf
87. @t k|bnh`axof| obh anf mal dn of| cdgf. Yof {a|efh by b
laaeeffzf| bx b gv|ndxv|f yxa|f ga| b `anxo lfga|f t k|bnhgb-
xof| z|azayfh. Xof a{nf| z|azayfh fl|yx. Yof xv|nfh xof a{nf|
ha{n.
8;. Yof obh bnaxof| mal. D xoavkox dx {by of| mal# bnh D zvx
dx of|f lfibvyf D zvx xody yifnf dnxa fwf|t yxa|t D {|dxf. D cbt dx
dnxa fwf|t yfxxdnk# bxx|dlvxf dx xa fwf|t iob|bixf|. Dxy b `a`fnx
xobx D bhh xa fwf|t cdgf D h|b{# bnh xofn ivxga| dx ianxbdny na
`fbndnk lftanh dxy `fbndnk xa `f. Dx ia`fy g|a` `t k|bnh-`axof| bnh of| @|. Cdniacn |ayfy# `t k|bnh`axof| iaccfixdnk
Mbzbnfyf lffxcfy dn xof tb|h. Yofh zdie xof lffxcfy agg xof cfbwfy
bnh zvx xof` dn b `byan mb| xa hdf. Bnh Dh ofcz of|. Bnh Dh
kfx b zfnnt ga| fwf|t lffxcf# lfibvyf# yof xach `f# yof kax b
zfnnt ga| fwf|t lffxcf g|a` `t k|bnhgbxof|. D lfcdfwfh# vnxdc
D {by bn bhvcx# xobx xody {by of| mal. B zfnnt b lffxcf hv|dnk
|ayf-k|a{dnk yfbyan.
8?. Blavx ybiey ag ia|n bnh xof anf xd`f D gfcx cdef b `bn= @t
k|bnhgbxof| bnh D h|dwf avx xa xof gb|` yxbnh. Dxy azfn# lvx
na anfy dn dx. Xof|fy b iaggff xdn flccfh {dxo `anft# vnhf| b
ydkn xobx ybty yfcg-yf|wf. Gacey b|f yvzzayfh xa {fdko xodnky
xof`yfcwfy bnh cfbwf `anft xof`yfcwfy bnh# {ofn nffhfh#
`bef iobnkf. Xody dy oa{ xof a{nf| |vny dx {ofn yofy yoa|x-
yxbggfh. [fwf ia`f avx ga| ia|n# bnh xof zdiednky b|f ycd`# bnh
xobxy {ofn xof cbht zvccy vz dn of| x|vie. Yof kfxy avx# `befy
of| k|ffxdnky# bnh h|azy xof kbxf an xof lbie. Bnh dn xof {bt
dnhvyx|davy gacey gvnixdan# yofy obvcdnk avx lv|cbz ybiey lfga|fb gvcc `dnvxf oby zbyyfh. @t k|bnhgbxof| ybty xa `f# Kfx vz
xof|f. Kdwf b obnh.
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84. D oaz vz dnxa xof lfh ag xof x|vie bnh D xayy xoayf ybiey ag
ia|n ha{n. Dxy mvyx xof xodnk bn blcf tavnk `bn dy yvzzayfh
xa habnh Dh nfwf|# fwf| obwf ena{n. Lvx D hanx ofydxbxf. D
f`zxt xof {oacf xodnk {dxo of|# gffcdnk rvdfx bnh yx|ank.
6:. Xoft b|f ybiey ag Ydcwf| Rvffn bnh Lvxxf| ' Yvkb|# xof
y{ffxfyx ia|n dn xof {a|ch. Yof xfccy vy xa xbef {obx {f {bnx#
lvx `t k|bnhgbxof| {dcc obwf na yvio xodnk. [f flcc b zbzf|
ybie xa awf|a{dnk bnh zbt av| `anft. Bx `t k|bnhzb|fnxy#
D yovie ia|n an xof lbie yxfzy# xof f`zxt lffxcf mb| xviefh dnxof lvyofy lfydhf `f bnh `vydi g|a` xof x|bnydyxa| ia`dnk
xo|avko xof yi|ffn ag xof za|io. Bnhyvlv|lbn lat# Mf{dyo
latDwf nfwf| gfcx cdef D obh k|fbxf| zv|zayf# nfwf| ya `vio
gfcx cdef bn B`f|dibn `bn.
62. Xof {a`bn D cawf# xof Layndbn# yof dy nax Mf{dyo. Bcc xof
tfb|y D b` {dxo of|# xa t gb`dct# dxy by dg yof dy nax. @t gb`dct
ya kaah bx dx na{. @t gb`dct ya byxf|gvc. Dxy nax anct xof zbyx
xobx ibn lf bcxf|fh bnh ga|kaxxfn bnh cayx xa xof {a|ch. Dxy |fbc
xd`f na{. Dxy yx|fb`dnk. Xof z|fyfnx ibn lf vnhanf# xaa.
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fwf|txodnk d ena{ blavx `t gb`dct an `t `axof|y ydhf
69. An Xobneykdwdnk# xody wf|t anf# D b` ovnxdnk ga| b k|bwt
labx dn xof bxxdi. D flnh xof k|bwt labx bnh `t eb|bxf vndga|`
/k|ffn lfcx# l|a{n yx|dzf$ bnh b yoaf la b|efh h|fyyf|. Cdgx-
dnk xof cdh# D vnhf|yxbnh= Dxy xof |f`bdny ag `t k|bnhgbxof|y
xa{f|dnk iofyx ag h|b{f|yb cdgf ia`zbixfh# ydgxfh ha{n.
Dnydhf# gachfh vz# dy b iodchy h|b{dnk. Dxy ag b `bn an b iobd|#
b obx# x{a b|`y# x{a cfkylvx anf ag xoayf cfky yxdiey yx|bdkox
avx xa xof ydhf# by dg xof `bn {f|f x|tdnk xa ybcvxf {dxo dx. Xof
cfk bx b |dhdivcavy bnh d`zayydlcf bnkcf. Dxy `t `axof|y h|b{-
dnk. Yof obynx yffn dx dn tfb|y. Yof hafynx |f`f`lf| flccdnk
xobx la.
68. Xof h|b{dnk dy ag K|fbx-K|bnhzb Zbvc. Odx lt b x|bdn# yof
ybty. Bnh bc|fbhtdn b cawdnk# nax-bx-bcc-bnk|t# Mf{dyo yany
{bt# D` blyacvxfct gv|davy. Yof ena{y D` {|dxdnk xody yxa|t#
ena{y D {bnx xa ena{ fwf|txodnk# bnh of|f# K|fbx-K|bnhzb
Zbvc# b cdgfxd`f bx xof |bdc|abh bnh edccfh lt b x|bdn. D ibnx
lfcdfwf dxibnnax lfcdfwf of|.
Ao# na# na# yof ybty# nax edccfh# nax bx bcc. Fdkoxffn
{ofn dx obzzfnfh. Of yv|wdwfh dx mvyx flnf. Anct# xof cfk. Of
iavch nfwf| lfnh xobx cfk bkbdn.
66. Xof fl|yx xd`f Lfbn l|dnky `f oa`f# {f {bce xa xof |dwf|
dn [dccdb`ylv|k. [f yxbnh nfx xa b hfi|fzdx ach gbixa|t an bn
dnhvyx|dbc lcaie bnh yxb|f bx @bnobxxbn obnkdnk ca{ bi|ayy xof
{bxf|# b `aan ag b idxt bx dxy gvccfyx bnh l|dkoxfyx.
67. Lfbn xbefy avx b eft. Lfodnh b `fxbc haa| dy b gbixa|t aa|
{dxo na x|bif ag xof lvydnfyy xobx {by. Xof ibwf|navy yzbif dy
na{ b {b||fn ag |aa`y# dnhdwdhvbc yx|vixv|fy# cdef b yobnxtxa{n
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yz|avxdnk vz dnydhf b la. Dwf kax b cax ag |aa``bxfy# yof
ybty. Bnh xofn= D anct mvyx flndyofh lvdchdnk. Xof kvty ofczfh
`f zvx xof ifdcdnk an cbyx ndkox. Xa{b|h xof lbie# lfodnh b
`avnxbdn ag lditicf zb|xy# dy b k|avzdnk ag xdnt |aa`y {dxo b
cbhhf| /{odio {f icd`l$ cfbhdnk xa b ya|x ag ivlf an xaz. Yofy
l|biefxfh xakfxof| yibwfnkfh g|b`fy ag bcc yobzfy bnh yd}fy
xa `bef gav| {dnha{ {bccy vnhf| b {dnha{ ifdcdnk xo|avko
{odio anf `bt yxb|f bx xof |avko lfb`y blawf. Dxy b `d|bicf ag
b |aa`# b zv}}cf ia`zcfxf. D kvfyy Dcc nffh iv|xbdny na{# yof
ybty by {f ydx an of| lfh. Bnh D ybt# Tav cdwf dn b oavyf `bhf
ag {dnha{y# lvxbnh D `axdantav ibnx yff avxydhf. Yofxbefy dx {fcc# bnh xbefy `t obnh.
6;. D `fnxdan od` xa `t k|bnhgbxof| mvyx anif. Wdydxdnk g|a`
iaccfkf# h|dnednk {odyefty# zcbtdnk kdn. D `fnxdan ody hfbh
l|axof| Lfnndfxof b|`t l|axof| {oa Dh mvyx gavnh avx
fdyxfh. D ybt ya`fxodnk b{e{b|h blavx xof anct kvt bx yioaac
ibccfh vz ga| xof fl|yx D|br {b|xof kaah anf. D ybt ya`fxodnk
blavx tavnkf| l|axof|y# lfdnk b tavnkf| l|axof| tyfcg.
6?. @t k|bnhgbxof| zdiey b ib|h# b||bnkfy ody obnh`bednk
yfxy. Ga| b {odcf {f a{nfh b lvdchdnk. X{a yxa|dfy. [f {f|f
cbnhca|hy xa b hfcd an xof k|avnh aa| bnh b zbd| ag xdnt bzb|x-
`fnxy vzyxbd|y. @a|f xobn anif# of ybty# D gavnh b laht. Dh
ofbh awf| xa iofie an xodnky lfga|f {a|e# bnh Dh flnh xof`.
Anf xd`f dn xof yxbd|{fcc# bnh bnaxof|# b yxdgg dn xof bccft# yxdcc
{fb|dnk ody obx. Xofyf {f|fnx i|d`fy ag zbyydan# fdxof|. Xofyf
{f|f hfbcy yfxxcfh# zfazcf hanf dn. Of cbty ody ib|hy gbifha{nan xof xblcf. D caae bx xofd| lbiey. Kdn# of ybty. Bnh of kafy
avx xa xof za|io xa y`aef b idkb|.
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fwf|txodnk d ena{ blavx `t gb`dct an `t `axof|y ydhf
64. D vyf xof G|ffha` ag Dnga|`bxdan Bix xa kfx bx dx. [f
hanx obwf yvio b cb{ dn `t gb`dct# lvx xof kawf|n`fnx# xof
kawf|n`fnx {dcc xfcc tav xodnky blavx b `dyydnk l|axof|.
Xof kawf|n`fnx {dcc ya`fxd`fy yob|f yfi|fxy dg tav bye.
7:. [of|f dy `t Lfbn {ofn D nffh of|1 [of|f dy Lfbn {ofn
D obwdnk b gffcdnk D ibnx gbif1 Dxy nax xobx D {bnx xa yob|f dx.
Dxy xof fbix azzaydxfxof ach `f dn zcbt. [obx D {bnx dy xa
xv|n zbcf ga| of|# ybtdnk naxodnk. D {bnx xa ka bndavy bnh bye
of|yoavch bntanf ibccxa ia`f flnh `f vnhf| xof lfh.[of|f yof dy |dkox xofn dy avx hbnidnk an xblcfy. Xobxy
{obx D yff dn `t ofbh. Bnh xobxy av| yxbnhb|h maef hv|dnk xof
|b|f xd`fy {f yzfbe. @f ybtdnk# D zdixv|f tav avx hbnidnk an
xblcfy {ofnfwf| D {anhf| {obx tav|f vz xa. Ao# tfbo# yof
ybty# xobxy f. Avx hbnidnk fwf|t ndkox.
72. Xof cfxxf| dy |fbcdn laxo |fbc`y |fbc. Xof|f dy bn fnwfcazf
g|a` xof kawf|n`fnx# b zbie ag zbzf|y# ga|`y xtzfh vnfwfn#
gbhfh |fz|ahvixdany# cb|kf yzbify ga| xof icdzzfh fzcbnbxdan.
Dn dx dy b cfxxf| {|dxxfn dn t k|bnhgbxof|y obnh. Dxy b lfbvxdgvc#
dnxfccdkfnx# ianflhfnx /lvx nax iaiet$ yi|dzx. Dxy b zacdxf cfxxf| xa
xof kawf|n`fnx# b i|dyz# icfbn cfxxf|. Of dy {|dxdnk an lfobcg ag
ody `axof|# blavx of| yanody l|axof|# edccfh dn /bgxf|$ xof {b|.
Xofth flccfh avx xof ga|`y# bnh xofth yxdcc nax |fifdwfhof
{by {anhf|dnk {ofn xoft dkox kfxody hfbh l|axof|y xodnky.
Ody fggfixy.
Lfnndfy {a|chct fggfixy.
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ena{ dg Dwf fwf| yffn ody obnh{|dxdnk lfga|f. D xodne xa ibcc `t
`axof|# xa xfcc of| {obx D` oachdnk. D xodne xa ibcc `t l|axof|#
a| `btlf Iavydn Mbie. Lvx |fbcct# `a|f xobn bntanf# D xodne
xa ibcc xobx `dyydnk cawfxobx `dyydnk cawf|. Lfibvyf dxy of| D
{dyo {f|f {dxo `f5 dxy of| D {bnx xa yob|f dx {dxo |dkox na{.
Bnh `a|f ya# xa flnh `tyfcg {ffzdnk g|a` b |fbc ybhnfyynax
bndavy# nax hdybzzadnxfh# nax g|vyx|bxfh a| iangvyfhmvyx
{ffzdnk g|a` xof x|vxo ag dx# bnh xof ofb|xl|fbe ag dx# bnh |fi-
aknd}dnk dx by xof zv|fyx f`axdan Dwf fwf| obh. Dxy xody D {bnx
xa xfcc of|# xobx D` gffcdnk b zv|f gffcdnk# `btlf `t fl|yx x|vf
gffcdnk# bnh ga| xodyD bh`dx dxD b` z|avh.
79. D b` ybh ga| `t k|bnhgbxof|# xfn tfb|y zbyyfh# bnh ody
`axof|# hfbh ga|xt# bnh ody l|axof|# ydxt tfb|y kanf g|a` xody
{a|ch. D b` an xof iavio bcanf# bnh D b` {ffzdnk. Dx dy xof
zv|dxt ag xof cfxxf|# xof yd`zcdidxt ag dx= Tav| cbyx l|axof| hfbh#
bnh tav|f byednk ga| ody xodnky.