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For Halli
Poems By Ezra Vancil
2005-2007
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The Softest Part
The softest part of a woman
Is not where you may think
Behind the ears
in the mouth
or lips of petal pink
inside the knee
inner thigh
you still have not to findthe tender place
its not her face
or curve against the spine
her finger tips
bloom of hips
the nipple, or the eyes
beneath the breast
just a test
to know you really tried
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a trick you say!
if not the cradled
skin between the toes
a game to play
who finds the way?
who can really know?
The softest part of a woman though
is nowhere you can touch
with fingertips
or open lips
its nothing of the such
Emotion
you might say above
is everything she lives
but not just love
and then it is her willingness to give
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like a fool
I want to love you like a fool
Where reason wouldnt play
count up all my precious things
and throw them all away
I want to love you like a war
where soldier meets the grave
fighting for the breath thats left
and dying to be saved
I want to love you like a king
a brave and noble knight
laying down his crown and sword
to offer you his rite
I want to love you like the sea
angry waves of white
crashing on the sailors stern
with all of waters might
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I want to love you like a drug
coursing in the vein
selling all I could become
to loose myself again
I want to love you like Im mad
driven to insane
howling at the hollow moon
naked in the rain
I want to love you like a fire
devouring the night
burning like the devil's den
and pure as angel light
I want to love you like the wolf
crouching out of site
hungry like an empty field
and thirsty for the fight
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I want to love you like a drunk
whose mouth he cannot tame
spilling all his thoughtless thoughts
with ever more to say
I want to love you like a storm
break the weather vane
flatten trees on mountain tops
drown you in the rain
I want to love you like a fool
not - embarrassed or ashamed
trading every reasons doubt
for all I cant contain
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Mysterious
Mysterious, I have to taste
that simple fruit bellow the waste
simple? Yes
complexity
to odds at end
an irony
sweet as wine is said too much
Id rather say the perfect lunch
the salt
the sweet
a recipe
for where they meet, the end of me
Mysterious, I rest my face
between two pillars lightly grace
the inner crevice
valley
hills
I quench my thirst, but hunger still
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from where we came,
each man no doubt
the going in
the coming out
for eyes to peer
from legs embrace
across the hips
breast and face
Mysterious, it is indeed
when fingers plot, trace with greed
the soft
the fine
the peek the line
two arms that reach, two breast they find.
I plot a course and learn the way
from bowing back and peaceful stay
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with inner thigh
breath in cry
her hand, my hair we keep in time
Mysterious, Ill look again
and never hope to find the end
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tangled little hearts
My hope for old
when floors are cold
we lay with no regret
like blowing trees
arms and knees
tangled tide of sweat
when all would think
the sun has drank
all passion from the breast
our secret soul
still sexual
put weary bones to test
grandchildren laugh
we take a bath
and tell them not to listen
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theyll roll their eyes
and act surprised
when wrinkled folks are kissn
youll tease my lips
with naughty nips
and tell me to be slow
my heart would blast
could be the last
what better way to go
to meet the end
two old friends
that know each hidden part
whove loved a life
man and wife with tangled little hearts
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The Seed
How strange indeed, I wonder
This weight of dreams Im under
lost on paths of planted seed
I bare the wrath of fruitless trees
In fear of Lies, Life and truthI find you there, beyond my youth
Further than, my heart could go
you lay you down, like a road
That ever was, and still will lead
to the root, of barren seed
and ask me now, how could it grow?
The waters deep but never flow
without Centrific energy
going out and back to me
through the failings of a man
and a womans grasping hand
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with tears a flood, our cheeks a stain
but bring us life, like summer rain
for thirsty tongues that yearned to say,
the flood of years, all tucked away
for flower spring, where lovers kiss
and dig the earth in cautiousness
to find the seed, that couldnt grow
become the love, theyll ever know
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Train for two
I caught reflections
on a train
staring back from window panes
I was therelooking too
on a train
Me and you
A man in front
We had to laugh
We made a short, Illicit Rap
On a train
They fell in love
He the Mexican
her the dove
Their only touch
a shoulder space
so light the bond of skinless taste
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His wife is ill
he feels alone
on this train
he finds a home
No names or speak
no kissing deep
No Holidays or candy sweet
Just on a train
Just enough
Traveling quiet -
tracks of love
No proof of shame
No lovers game
no come or go or lonely pain
I saw reflections
me and you
we had to laugh our train for two
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to shame the loneliness
I drink a bitter coffee
black, the way I wish
two days old, I drink it cold
to shame the loneliness
I eat a pickled sausage
not even on a dish
in a robe, no one to scold
to shame the loneliness
I watch the television
blank, and pictureless
I sit and stare, who would care
to shame the loneliness
I sleep like in a coffin
dreaming of a kiss
in my clothes, shoes and soles
to shame the loneliness
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Pictures, Photographs
Pictures, Photographs
what do they tell?
Stories maybe
they seem so far
theres your baby
my first car
Flat and shinny, old and square
Photograph a past affair
so familiar, not the truth
that wasnt me!
Thats not my youth!
funeral wake, the past and gone
their body there
but who can say
a lonely room
a hollow grave
cold and empty, white and pale
photograph it, just as well
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the panting wolf
in desert heat
who sees a ghost
he tries to meet
But moving forward
disappears
the moving water
only tears
the corn and wheat
the croppers share
birds they feed
in summer air
and dust that travels
aimlessly
without the glue
the earth to flee
in clouds that tear
the eyes and strain
I miss you like I miss the rain
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the moment I woke
I Lay in bedcoffee
smoke
My dreams didnt start
till the moment I woke
Ive been awake
wash
eat
I dressed for work
but just couldnt leave
you brush a hand across my chest
unaware of my restlessness
fluttering eyesdream
lay
your ears are uncovered
do you hear what I say
whisper love
touch
purra kiss to your breast
a naked stir
you brush a hand across my chest
unaware of my restlessness
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covers removed
deep
arcI trace the spine
to the back of your heart
close my eyes
tongue
lips
I make a line
to curve of your hips
you brush a hand across my chest
unaware of my restlessness
stir and stretch
stretch
yawn
you open your eyesto find I was gone
you Lay in bed
coffee
smoke
your dreams didnt start
till the moment I woke
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Nameless, Unknown
My heart is a building, naked and plain
built from old lumber, Left in the rain
The eaves, the trim, Knobs and shades
barring the rust, dust of the days
The windows they breath through planks on the wall
sparing one space, for sunlight to fall
on floors untouched, except for the rays
in rooms where I once, traveled the maze
My heart is a building, vacant, but one
section of floor, where I lay undone
No furnishings slumber in corners, on walls
the doors are all closed to frighten the halls
dark, and sense lonely, long forgotten
for lack of my feet, know not where they end
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My footage, as square, conforms to my waist
for nothing to move, except for my face
To look at the sunlight, cutting the void
where once was the bed, I lay as a boy
My heart is a building, once called a home
now its just me, nameless, unknown
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heart you deceive
1.
I never believed in magic
never did,
life is hard
thats all it is
Its tragic, but only to some
that try to imagine their kingdom come
the hidden rabbit breaths hard in the sleeve
with roses,
dead pedals
still we believe
in fairy and dust,
sneeze if you must
get out of the vacuum,
sweep up the lust
for what you deceive, those dreams that will come
you're starting a race refusing to run
at least in your mind, clouding the line
projecting
in transit
never define
what is this race?
Why did I go?who is this face?
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betray my conviction, to die in the fight
dilute my addiction to think I am right
I never believed
but never knew
the magic I need
inside of you
but not really magic, I dressed it in greed
bluffing this tragic heart I deceive
for
Anger
bitter
hypocrisy
casting my spell refusing to cede
3.
I never believed in magic
never will,
life is hard
and willing to kill
its tragic, but only to some
refusing to see their kingdom come
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I'm stuffed!
I wanna spread you thin,creamy, on a bagel
toasted
fresh
hot
savor each bite
lick you off -
my fingers
the corner of my mouth
Ill leave a bit to make you laugh.
Save it for later
Ill say its a snack
if I get hungry before I get back
I wanna saut you in garlic
with peppers - hotsalt..
cheese..
the flavor in oil
infuse with your leaves
over a salad.. inside a soup
tomatoes
red onions
brown rice.. a scoopnot to dilute
or over power
the taste of your skin
lightly dusted in flour
sizzle and pop
drizzle a dop
Id make you a doughnut
if I were a copor better yet
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I think an clair
cream in the middle
squeeze you right therein a coffee cup
some on my chin
lick it off
and squeeze you again
I wanna bake you in broth
400 degrees
winesauce
caper goat cheese
stuff you with seafood
potatoes
brie
serve you with scallops
fresh from the sea.
reduce you to thickened,
sauce made with cream
jiggle your gravy
poach you and steam
fry you in butter
sugar your spleen!
Im stuffed...your love feast for a king
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call her DOVE: for purity
I call her dove
for purity,
she thinks its cute
she likes the thought
that she could be
purity,
by love,
and sought
through corridors,
halls,
pushing doors
in captured time
rousing slumbers impatient mind
she thinks its cute
I think she climbs
moving walls
undefined
I call her dove
for purity
she wonders why
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but likes the thought
impunity
by love
the questions brought
threw corridors,
halls,
and tears
of waterfalls
locked in time
frozen fears
thaw
prehistoric crime
purity,
by love
she takes it slight
I call her dove
an angel's light
but too close
above
her strings
of youth forgot
not for the weak the root weve wrought
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-- I call her dove
for purity
for when I look
its what I find
I like the thought,
she,
pure,
defined, not in her eyes but in mine
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I once was a king
I once was a king,crown,
coat of armor
purple robe,
chamber,
honor
goblet with stones
drank of the fine
foods
at a table
longer than time
the virgin
queen
royal
esteem
invisible kingdomI once was a king
The jester in magic
fools fire
burned for the city
my royal attire
a joke
laughedcover my skin
queen
she laughed
royal virgin
invisible crown
jest through and through
I once was a king loyal
true
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My mind
My mind
I think
or maybe myself
my soul
a friend
that sits on the shelf
He talks to me
quiet
in small simple terms
I listen sometimes
but never do learn
he seems so wise
with years
time
I listen to flavor the wandering mind
he thinks, yes no stop
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he counts up my blessings
winds up a clock
he seems so wise
but fool to such things
as longing
pain
sex
strings
so much beyond
not touched by the lies
he talks to me angry
bitter
and kind
plunders my fortune
enables my spine
drinks of the fruit
drunken in wine
sees to the future
truth
shine
darkens my door
sees when Im blind
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encourages sin
then torches my soul
with
shadrack
meshack
and abendego
lures me in
arouses my deep
seeded lust
to bite in my teeth
Look what youve done!
you naked shame
the life be damned
that gave us our name!
burn burn
you innocent fellow!
your week in your age
soft
mellow
He shows me a sky
sunset on field
nudges my breast
slow
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yield
wanting it all
sin and taste
curses the God
that built me this place
Chained
maybe
from innocent crimes
my self my love my hate my mind
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Have you seen the movie
Have you seen the movie
you know the one
Woody Allen,
the call girl, son
Thats my favorite
Mango
sauce,
sushi
sashimi
land of the lost
bad Santa, Will Farrell
Italian singers,
Bach,
Beethoven
your little fingers
Try this salad
Thai and sweet
Im getting fat
what shall we eat
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Chianti is good
neath these lights
sangria, and chili
lets cook tonight
have you read this book
War and Peace
I wanted to, someday
but wait for me
well read each chapter
a verse in our bed
have you read
Gabriel Marquez
Im feeling depressed
in one of my moods
coffee is best when laying with you
Blender
high speed
look at it go
garlic
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oil
oregano
make me a drink
the one that I like
Mexican food sounds good tonight
I love the feel
the look of this bar
shadows
light
particular charm
tell me that joke
tell it to him the Scottish one
my Scottish friend
Lets get a boat
fly a kite
go to new york
stay up all night
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God is agape
do you know what that means
real Chili, you know
doesnt have beans
I had a dream
It made me so angry
I dont like Tabasco
on chicken fried gravy
Damn thats hot,
Im starting to cry
quit rubbn your chin
without you Id die
after we kiss
how far do we go
your driving is crazy, stay on the road
I think I have loved you
all of my life
my mother was his
birth midwife
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chop up the garlic
pour me some wine
I think vinyl siding,
a capitol crime
wood
floors solid doors a big back yard
a book case of course
cant answer my phone
Im quiet today
you know how I get
all there or away
buffalo burgers
tuaca and fries
the best in the world
ya right, thats a lie!
But I do like these chips
take a picture with one
cashews from India
or Vietnam
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drink your water
I swear that I will
you never told me that water can kill!!
tomatoes, fresh
Ill pay with my cash
I love you so much I could (censord) !
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she
Shell hurt you when the day is donenothing's gained and nothing won
In a life of constant need
a hunger, void, can never feed
bring you empty to the end
stooped on knees to sore to bend
emotions feed the great facade
insanity from perfect god
break your will, scatter far
The Man you were the boy you are
nothing lasts from chemistry
lovers law of entropy
Shell say its true, the best of lies
drown you in her alibis
sleep in peace while war is waged
between the sheets passion aged
plan the future for her own
dig up all the seeds youve sownturn the fault for public eye
in your direction, make m cry
say she wants to know your all
For evidential court to call
Judge and jury justice law
for the witness, alcohol!
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tie your rope too tight to bare
make boys flirt, and men to stare
with painted eyes, slips from Freudtell you that your paranoid
hide a life she promised you
blame you that you never knew
manipulate the fat from gravy
with her breast and bouncing baby
Shell buy a stone when you're deceasedcry in black for all to see
carve your name, then engrave
here lies, my helpless, little slave
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Passions ghost
Passions ghost in 4th dimension5am, candle light
electric drought for spirit found
intentions sleeps
while shadows drown
in jukebox, bar,
youve fallen down
to come so far
from Aphrodite, Hera, Circe
She gave you peace, but freedoms curse
Seven points Chakras, Chi
Futile search for energy
To know beyond all spirit plane
indifference, passion, hurt & shame
secret dreads in secret beds
Bibles Rod, and guilty deathsthis leads you to the interpass
of passion's ghost, in 4th dimension
Circles straight, forth and side
5am, candle light
miss a plane or miss a life
miss a chain, miss a wife
question thoughts, Ideas, beliefs
once upon a time in Greece
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The rain today
God, father,peace in space
how far will you let me go
the rain today
in graceful wind
touched my side like lustful skin
I remembered then
a thought,
long since past
An afterthought
of how I see
your unseen face
In every vessel
you create
trees, rainhills
enzyme
I could never
search, refine
your place, your throne
above
all smoky clouds
in life, in loveyou hypnotize
what do you want,
why did you bring us
why do you taunt
my heart
A prison, arcane
I dont remember I dont know
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a time in life
when even-flow
through my in'casedplace
rest
Ive known no peace
at best
you tease
say you dont
I couldnt tell
with gamesI blow on sails
to treat you like
your own creation
I have my lies
my bribes
fascination
in life
timeto death
i dane
soft as skin, was the rain
you're beautiful
why would you bring
the sage of youth
and winsome truth
to futile
rich
soil to breed
without the option to succeed
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black Hurse
Mission
I had a mission,
I could have been great
God gave me tools,
I no longer lie
for his divine
plan,
grace
I was to be
invincible, in time
space
claw,
gouging skintearing wide open
truth
within
flawed, mandate,
a story to tell
God gave me tools,
tragic mindlike no other,
(of course its true)
Only I know
the things I could bring
In other dimensions
what worth I choose
invincible tensionswalked with Augustine
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the Beatles
black Hurse
I spread like an eaglethe wings
of the curse
the width
the span
the depth
the fold
of all that I was
lies cajoled
I could have been great
the size of a thought,
dripping in voids
in needs of us all
from seeds
of timepassing
sought I could have been great but now
i am not
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her friend, her husband
I like to think I do not hate hera Christian man,
heart so bound
in Galatians, John, St. Augustine
was on his knees, an artful proof
begging grace,
cursing youth
I like to think she will remain
in hands, Gods,
road to zion
travels though, alone, unearthed
she digs a grave
steep
like mountains
point to peak
A son, husband, job,friendshe will deceive
believe her eyes
for now, in sex, muscles
drown,
deep sweat
a wager's soul
wager's debt
I like to think she will be foundout, that is
For her sake and
her son, that bent at breast
now the toy of restless
throbs
and wet, used skin
I like to think shell love again
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when love is youth
What slithering deseption
Lies he told
steel your youth, hes drunk
unfold
with bitter
sweet need
animosity
I want to hate
loves complexity
an adolescent after effect
insecurity, smudged
mystery
I want anger
burn,
growl
but human nature
for death is vowed
to love
the point,
that is our truth
Love is lies when love is youth
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think like human
I thinkshe thinks
like a human
I think like a human
we
think shrink-wrapped
in air tight we think alone alike
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Halli, work of art
Halli, said
what a amazing day
on text
it's hailing
gray
the pressure of the atmosphere
I picture her
in a frame
Looking from windows,
reading a book
a slight chill from
thunder,
Starting at the lower
Arc of her spine
bringing forth
Peace, from weather
wine
atmosphere
biometric air compressed
effecting chemistry
reads Plato
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I imagine,
or a hundred years
What pain endured
What truth we fear
for perfect days
windows reveal
the hidden plan
The skill
Of man's
Father, maker
proven hand
undertaker
Halli, as we walk,
a house
peeks inside, I stare
She sees
the books, on shelves
De-constructs
dreams, We tell
Try to listen
look - See She, the makers art in me
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pure
She makes me think
observe, dissect
interwoven mesh, of belief
so tied
To youth
insecure she makes me think Im new
pure
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We walked in oak cliff
We walked in oak cliffDown a street, Rosemount I believe
a house, a dream
we released this home
It breathes,now
underneath
plastic, siding
we conceive
a life, a child
Thats her room
she could play
My studio
With windows
build
a entry way
windowsthe kind that stick
and resist Your fist on the frame
But life exists
In wood floors
A scratch, on buffet
what stories they tell
what treasures in age
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Always afraidIm always scared,
Im always at guardmy heart, from pain
skin from scar
shes always in arms,
but given to such
Need to love
passion to clutch
true, unchained
naked, ashamed
were both afraid
we count up the gain
the loss, the fuel
To carry us there
in creations direction
distance, fare
We drag on the castlestilts on wheels, slaved
afraid
dreading the kill
always scared,
bandaging scars
always afraid always so far
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Skin
Skin,light from the window of west
God give patience,
for what I endure
her sex is the window
light, that pours
for and from
the light of south, her naked
Sworn,
purity in dress
sweet, curious,
ethereal
caress - The light,
how it turns
Shadows
EmbraceThe deep and curve
The intricate space
Light
in the valley, Shadow,
mid-tones
grasping the skin
Hiding the bones
of youWhere you began
Inside from out
Outside, in
- We are but machines
spirit, contains Organic in nature
From west window pane
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on Painful throne
We make plans, conspiracies
To capture, Lovers lies
we want a stand, seal proof
escape pricking tongues of youth
Lies, invincible dread
surly we all agree,
ten commandments
truth concede
in swallowed regions
we confirm
Most in love
we discern
making plans, then tear to shreds
innocent
Hopeful, bless
the soul, who dressed in stone
sets the truth on painful throne
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Adam's Apple
What were you thinking,
that night
Do you not remember,
have no sight
Of kindness
youth,
sensitivities
dark rooms where you became of me
To joke of things,
under sheets
As if the years,
void, complete
wrapped up in,
a iron shield
have you no heart to yield
For other men,
theyre atmosphere
You thought,
Id laugh, or would I fear
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Equate
Size
Width
Strength
Was that the proof of years? You think?
To finally come to flesh,
the end
of insecure
defense of sin
I thought of what you said that night
No shame,
in your
passage right
then Adam took fruit from tree
unpure he felt alive and free
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This Empty page
This Empty page - Empty for you
call forth the text,
declare the muse
the flowing,
blossom,
our life on page
neighborhood quest,
or passion's rage
Shape, mine, hew, define
my work a life for you: design!
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I will be the one
I will be the one, silver hair
I brush from
cheek,
I pull it back
behind,
and bind
when fragile bones
decline
request from muscles nerve
I will be the one to serve
to wash between, rinse
shoulder
blades
pour warm water
dress
and bless
your humble
- ness
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from root of waters source
I will be the cleansing force
To bring, (breath) life
to yellowed
page
in poetry
your verse
converse
when vision finds
the curse
when you've seen, too much
I will be the guiding touch
I will be the one, when stories
you tell
again
I listen in first
ears
fresh tears
and smiles refined
by years
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constructing new theory still
I will be the one to heal
I will be the one, the end
sight
you see
while leaving this
bed
Time fed
blood of the soul
red
coursing through maze complete
I will be the one
- at your feet
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a wager
If she,
a wager
odds are mine
a chance worthy bet
that love may not be lifes regret
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We're Manic
Were Manic.
Depression?
Still in question
Not for me
My mother knows, I sleep, in shoes
dirty clotheswith lithium
bottles
strewn
I chain myself
in workingpanic
Shes Manic
She talks at speed
too fast forGods
Prayer to read
Excited, beyond
the force - Indeed
were manic compulsively free
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Funnier
Shes Funnier than me
her witis cleaver cutting sly Shes funnier
seriously she must die!
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A woman's breast
Her breast they weigh
on thin blouse - flush
no restraintagainst the shoulder - brush
a gentlemans heart, breath
(thus)
a womans breast were born to Trust
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too much wine
I drink
way too much wine
today
I woke up
with,
a cork - in my mouthI pulled it out
smelt the end too young corked it again
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Math: we are three
We are
Two
But whole, in
Three
trusting
One
mathematically
fractionof
Percent of time
Divided by
subtracted
lies
Truth, fate
we
calculatethe root the square and compensate
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Pointers point: jokes on me
I laughed with balls yesterday
Im not sure why, or what it
was
That was, to cause convulsive
chuckles, I think my eyes
tear-ed
was queer, about toe nails Im
Sure, but she said something
sharp
from dark she throws, the subtle
wit, moves swift from forest for
kill
I will, write it down next time
on a matchbook, or dial it in
Texton insect's back, or my hand
Its prime material, rivals TV
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But see, she has no control
when her jest will spring on
jest
Ill test her memory tomorrow
See if she knows, this mystery
slam
I am - sure it was a pointy tongue
shes at her best turning point to
pointer
wanting her, to do it again, from
scripted jousting with cuts and
rubs
in of, its self, her bearish fun
would not exists, not alone, she
depends
again, on pointers point, aimed
at her, she has a motive, stealing
your inertia
Cinderellas shoes fit nice, her feet
when shes pointing the point;
jokes on me
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I do escape
Creation
way of creativity
Some how - strange
I feel
Destroys In me
surrounding
Peace
Those, strong hold (friends)
when
I feel creative - fear
The end
First:
let me explain
of Time
my Time
Relation to
the object and the turn
Return (trade)
My youth
truth is;
I do escape
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from this dimension
indulge (hate)
Fantasy
Love, but real
Love,
has a number
ticket, stub
still, to the point
creative sparks
must retain
the lonely
dark Spark known - (seen)
contrasting
only shown when darkness known
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Elixir : revisited
elixir
bend to kiss her
- wine goblet, skin elixir medicine
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in private space
The things
little things
I can adore
keep me wanting
to
reach a shore
of you,
a ending place
beginning door
through
a key hole
climb
see you traced in life in private space
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green
The light was green
I sat, clutching gear
the cars impatient
the color unclear
Ive know such sad
thought, and fear
this is different
real and severe
When sadness evolves
alone, without haste
you no longer hidetears without taste
proof that its come
Plateau to new ground
Sadness requires
no face and no crown
No person to knowsee quivering chin
sadness matures
to sadness within
finally blossoms
reveals hidden space
colors uncertain tears without taste
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Father's son
Im a father
A fathers son
A fathers father Fathers son
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my poetry defined
Poetry
more than verse
It seems to me
a shape
reversed, on white
pulp, inversed
tight on loose form use - torn
from subject, tobalance
In
a Visual truth
youth
connect
the lines
erect
refinesooth poetry
a powerless rage
projected on a empty page
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unknowing
unknowing she knows me
unraveling slowly
Bandages binding
constricting the wind
cooling the sun fall
red orange and royal
fields that Ive dreamt
but never within
unknowing she greets me
a bow and curtsy
with king purple robe
and crown for my head
in lavender oil
washes the toiled
brow and in honor lays in my bed
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unknowing she holds me
closer than earthly
skin drapes the structure
of bones in a man
rending the fable
holding me stable
knowing she loves the fool that I am
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cardboard castles
Ive looked for you all of my life
from sights first wonder, newness of light
in secret meetings of shadow time
beneath a dreams painful decline
To decades loss, needless stain
I sought you in each drop of rain
In suns descent for dimming shade
life at harbor, hearts at rage
in cardboard castles, child escape
kingdom chairs, blankets drape
in lust release, vice contained
in fire a guilty soul sustains
I looked for you there, and would I still
If ours, a order fate couldnt fill
Id peer from death - grip of the slave -
look for you there, even the grave
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without walls
we are a fortress without walls
worn stones of weather round
gates from hinge torn down
solders bend to love's resolve
we are a fortress without walls
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My precious idol
My precious Idol
I hold you closer than skin
in the dark
this night
I could have revealed you in time
but would I, I wish you were
revealed, that is
youve brought me to knees
slaved me to sin
each breath and each prayer
each morning
leaving
returning,
how slow your soft touch across my chest
the speed of a decade
crossing my breast
and then I am
as u are
master to slave
slave to will my hideous crime
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My hunger, filled
to hide
dissolve
blur and cave
those places of truth
where precious God made
I dream-t you engrave-n
rounding my neck
feeling the weight
constricting loop
in ocean of sleep
descending the wake
through blue waters falling
to dark waters deep
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Time is a sausage
Time is a sausage
That's what he said
Im quit fond of sausage,
He wasnt joking
time is a sausage
Drinking wine
smoking
outside
the frogs, the damn frogs
are they in the sausage
bulging at ends
connected and held by motion of skin
forced up ,
tight from the link
That's where Christ shines
defines
a moment I think
creating and ending the pressure of years
centuries past motherless tears
sexual perversions
marital bliss
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snowflakes on windows dissolve in a kiss
That is the sausage
-I ponder a drink -
but separate in wonders
glorious link!
Holding to gather
but, dividing the shore
this one from that
beginning and more
Im quiet fond of sausage
the frogs and the wine
the place of my chair
its place in this time
carbon base life
a table for two
bursting with atoms
following you
until the end
-another drink-
puff
smoke
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when God of creation
great words he spoke
will close up the book
time to a end
of sausage, frogs wine with a friend.
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Cupid's Grudge
I feel sorry for you
cupid had a grudge
and gave your love to me
he must have had a bad day
too many broken hearts
on the Richter scale
he woke up tired (hung over)
and sailed to Dallas
Oak cliff, to a little house
-top floor
snuck in quietly
disturbing the door
He heard your prayers
in empty rooms
he had a grudge
and made a chore of your love
soon he convinced and prodded you - to
my place of negative space
empty and void, but charming
my face, kind
Its a defensive smile
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He had a grudge
the evil fairy
but no one can stop the arrows thrust
when we love we simply must
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science of skin
Come lay here beside me
let me feel the unfathomed complexity
of Gods creation,
under weight of my arms,
the heat and cool dexterity
of flesh,
let me gently abate
fear within,
entwine in healing
science of skin
Come lay here beside me
close as bodies of mass combine
in small quarters,
under weight of my arms,
displace particle's time
in motion,
re-think and debate
theory of space,
confine me a endless
pallet to taste
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Come lay here beside me
Let me marvel at artful objects
in creators hand,
under weight of my arms,
the vein that constricts
to expand,
the eyes that dilate
for night,
blood beating heart
for passion of sight
Come lay here beside me
dust of the earth in the gardens
of man,
under weight of my arms,
molecules move for the pardon
of mass,
lungs forming shape
deep within, breathing Gods grace
the science of skin
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love of war
My love is a ancient raw blood of war
man's scull crushing under hammer, sword
for your honor, purity, unblemished flesh
stained, brutality, pain and death
to prove, and claim your heart, and soul,
on battle field, steel blade cold
My dream as modern man (concealed)
to give no mercy, no life i yield
in animal roar, of masculine speed
bring forth the weapon, split forth the seam
with no fear, but age, blood on cage
animal beating heart of rage
on fields where man meets face of manripping flesh and daring stand
ancient, historic, primal, core
My love is a ancient raw blood of war
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Edens grave
Have I lived so long in Edens grave
and never felt the ocean's wave
or touched the silken butterfly
who dances for the childrens eye
Colors more than sight allows
have I embraced those burning clouds
ending days in appetite
for stars in heaven's pride of night
did I live so long and never taste
snow - so shyly kissing the faceaimless, white melodies
clothes for barren naked trees
do I listen what the rivers say
theyre wisdom of a thousand days
winding from a mountains height
against the stone's endless fight
A scissor tail, robin's nest
did I hear the song so curious
Have I lived at all - have I lived a day
Have I lived so long in Edens grave
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This world
I'd offer this world
if worlds I could hold
Build you a fortress
with immortal gold
rid the sun
of power and ageorbit the stars
around you, engage
opposite poles
gravitie's might
to float on a cloud
of endless delight
tame the lion
beast of field
bow him before
your knees, he would yield
as your protector
of heart and of smile
walking beside your
every mile
I'd chart 7 oceans and gather to one
a island of plenty
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to bask in the sun
where berries so sweet
grow forth everyday
after a meal
the eagles would play
I'd dress them as generals
four stars on they're chest
and after a laughyou'd lay for a rest
Robins would carry you
without a sound
to squirrels that burry
your dreams in the ground
planting the seed
stretching, a vine
breaking the earth
with fruit of your mind
and under the shade
I'd fashion a ring
from silvery fish
born of the stream
then humble my pride
bough on my knee
offer this world you've given to me
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a possession of stars
so cherished you are
a possession of stars
the galaxy's mass
confined in my heart
so cherished the pride
a sky open wide
folds in a pocket
soft in my side
So cherished the bliss
a ocean's abyss
weight of the deep
contained in a kiss
so cherished the night
all mountains of height
bend over trees
witness the sight
so cherished you are
possession of stars
the galaxy's vast space in my heart
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part 1: Celebration of the wedding bed!
I sit this night
glorious night
one a.m.
ponder, turn
look , your bed
my bed
our bed - to be
sheets, pillow
I dream
red
stand by the angels
protecting the dresser
with a glass
red wine
my last night
confess there
in roomsmy heart
holding (past)
in arms
alone no more
your bed
our bed
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much more
though.
some may say
a mans desire
mortal - flesh
but not so
your bed - our beda kingdom
my castle, flowing.
to know - that is desire;
its center
known
and found.
as we glance, peculiar
in Edens crown
naked, trace
the thread of passion
from dust to rib
to other halves
in pain
we live for love what greater deed sacrifice
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fight canes seed
Abels right
the blind escaping
un righteous night
consumed we are
in rooms will be
and are
newly clothed
HE celebrates
sees not past
nor secret place
but Christ and spirit O God of grace
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Crest and Trough
Love was the wind upon the ocean
The crest high and trough low
we the wave in lovers tow
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I disappear
I loose my self
in myself
and fear
often times
I disappear
not always soas youth
as man
young the heart
i still could stand
outside gates
in every core
but weak
I hide now
close the door
peer out through
the looming night
see the man
who sits outside
empty of
his other part
hiding in
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the lonely heart
I loose my self
and then I fear
you've lost a part
of me
in tears
one drop containing
each a piece
of what you thought
your love would be
I fail
I will, be lost sometimes
gone in fancies
of my crime
penance for
and from the slave
I am now, lost
in other days
I fear
too often
worry much
ten million thoughts
I can not clutch
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like a fighter
seeing three
head shot punch
witch one is me
I loose myself
myself I fear
will loose you when I disappear
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eternal ocean
my heart - in pieces
Over your place
Of refuge
- No more
shame
I know what its like
You never will
It is my art
A youthful skill
To dredge the suet under weight
Of water
(fate)
God - death
sin, father
Its pain, But still
Were charged
Naked - from God
remembered will
Impressions
on clay, We are
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Remember
Birth, grave and scare
Cold like Decembers Taste
on feet
on floor
O warmth - skin
dream no more
I know loneliness
more than you must
Like freedoms curse
and poison lust
I know the dark room
The wish for arms
brushing my breast
doing no harm
in synchronized wars
of will
together separate thoughtful, still
Of -
the intriguing
space (someone dreaming of your face)
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for nights of passion
All is told,
secret rations
slow, unfold
in arms that will
not hope for more
than fill,
endurestand Eternal Ocean - shifting shore
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oath
An oath I have made that I can not keep
as Christ loved the church
{you lay asleep}
I ponder grace, mercys grand
Weight of sacrificial lamb
emptied glory, servant poor
for riches reaching every shore
an oath I made, thus, covenant
to rip the purse, completely spent
all of me, the known and dreamed
he gave his life, and lived for me
though he was rich becoming poor
I ponder this (for this once more)
glory restrained, for malice, pain,
Humility for sinners gain
loving un-lovely, making true
even the grave he humbled to
baring all, curse and stain, the wrath
for man and womans shame
becomes the bull on alters red
he had no place to lay his head
bending low, with every blow
he took on flesh, so they may know
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By his will, he walks in love
divinity - the cross above
on his shoulders, the oceans weight
of drowning mans wicked fate
this by mercy, not forced unto
to show the world what love will do
an oath I have made (before his face)
I can not keep - God give me grace
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suffer me
tired, so tired, no rest I gain
from mornings, nights, teasing rain
grey cool skys. dirt and sea
tired of life, it's tired of me
she - (nature), mothers land
feed me stones from ivory hands
she grieves my breath, my hungry sigh
the day of birth, the day we die
tired i sleep, sleep I wake
drunk'n fools for blessed fatememories - (the torche's flame)
burning up our Christan name
tired and low, beneath i am
the youthful hope to understand
yesterday's, future glimpse
history's, present tense
today, tomorrow, now, then
we build the gallows - noose we're in
tired, so tired, in unbelief
waking life, why suffer me?
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I Perish
I perish
not by sword or steel
I perish
each moment that I feel
I perish
damn unyielding flood
I perish wounding crutch of love
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medicine medicine
grant me gracewalking through
this ghost of faith
burn the edge
of my desire
numb the burn
red of fire
medicine
my dullest friend
let me wake
and sleep again
blur my fate
bring me low
humble quiet
liquid soul
medicine
dream no more
search not of
look not for
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passion's gate
deep within
dreams will float
a lake of sin
medicine
oh life unsure blurring days
a quiet cure
yes I thought
more in youth
now a lie
blessed truth
medicine
your will is mine
live between
space of time bring me forth heaven's gate
lacking love's
forgiven hate
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Judgment
Judgment ,
this I fear
God's hand,
wrath of years
a thought,
whisper,
turn of fate
Karma ends,
but God will wait
This I fear,
and tremble through
God is love,
but hatred too
last night,
the other,
a thousand more
how long O Grace,
will you endure?
shake the temple
rattle gates
God is love
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and perfect hate
I have no blame
blame is mine
judgment day
naked shrine
I fear,
alone and dustjudgment come
for judgment must
let the weight
on shoulders hang
not on my back
not in my vein
I can not pay
just deserve
the longest day
i can not hurt
enough
no pain
no shackles strong,
can hold me for my sin, too long
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all I had
She's all I had
I called her twice
all I knew, my only vice
this night was cold
but still to come
frosty mist
melting sun
butterflies
flower's bud
winter days
white as mud
She's all I had
I watched a bird
panic flying
where? (I shrug)
a feast of loss
I drink to love
she's all I had here and above
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This too I Recall
This too I recall, glancing behind
selfish I drank a good part of wine
our zucchini was big, it ate all the rest
a joke, the tomatoes bulging flesh
this to I remember, angry the day
christ was born, or so we say
I took a guitar, rusty the strings
sang like a squirrel, fell on my knees
I remember it well, moist of eyes
ladybug dancing, bathing your thighs
in milk and salt, blood of grape
quenched my thirst intwining fate
the job, the girl - talking machine
the quiet of angels, porcelain queens
set all around me, praying as such
why they pray, having so much
This too I recall, glancing behind
selfish I came, in haste did we dinein haste, great forcers. passion, love
fate predestined like noah, his dove
this too I recall, glancing behind
love is a moment, fighting in time
great is your flesh, but more is your kind
heart and in this, I rest and recline
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Let them sleep
So then Death what will you offer?
Life what profit give to me?
Profit? soul! you selfish scoffer
Riches share you here to be?
Glass of eye, seek your answer
by the breath I give and share
grip your wisdom pose and dance her
questions me with sound of air?
Death engage this vital storm
will in silence thus behave?
sting the tongue, you jagged thorn
Lift your chalice from the grave!
Laughter, oh , I love it so
comedy by tears is much
truth in secret, precious gold
what men venture forth to touch
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Ask me fool, require my time
beat your chest and pull your hair
bring it forth, all that is mine
give it me, that which I spare
Death, my void of conscious will
what sword of blood will you deploy
be you brave or be you still?
fainting weak, and then destroy?
Yield! you son of memory
release your shoulder from the weight
ask the blade why do you bleed?
inquire of providence your fate?
Yield, I yield, my quite soul
leave me to this thin despair
there I find you death so old
Life the youth that didn't care
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Predictable! you do agree?
Life: surprise, I long to touch
Death: to think he questioned me!
man: I thought I knew so much
Yield my soul! Spirt flee!
Escape by holes of hollow sight!
Where my master? I believe
The flesh is shallow for it's height
I do not care why question now
escape the night, we haven't time
but night is full, completely round
without a star or spark or shine
Life: I know they need so much
frail the skin that holds the soul
Death: I long the warm to touch
let them sleep and never know
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My daughter, my Queen
My daughter, my Queen
as Solomon said, you are above
the crown on my head
from rubble and stone
gates for a throneQueen, daughter, Queen
mysterious home
of pride and lust
forgive me intrust
not what man will give
but take what you must
Power you wield
no doubt in my vein
the blood that is cold
in warmth you will claim
what is your position
with faith as a seed
man whose fruition
is boasting to bleed
my Queen my throne
thorn in my head
blessed of water
ancient we shed
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blackened cough
scares in the skin
Queen have you paid
too much for a sin
remember the garden
fruit of the sun
you offered me there
a kingdom undonenaked your breast
no temple of shame
I took of your fruit
gave you my name
Queen prophetic
knowing us so
Why you embrace
our invisible soul
sure, God willed
or something the same
man of the dust
woman the rain
Queen of a temple
so Godless, until
Queen, oh my daughter your blossom would heal
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My Comfortable Fear
welcome my son I've known you so long
your bright morning peace theology song
I've know you in birth, in hope of a year
i held you a child and old in your fear
welcome, invite your innocent painlet me seduce the love of your vein
my child my son no earth could reduce
your peace, it from, untangle youth
I've know you so long, in this i have pride
always mine, your invincible side
for me it was food when you were so weak
my words were the years waiting to speak
breath my child, breath, let me taste
the spirit of life, and life of the haste
welcome, endure what i will contain
a meaningful birth and thoughts of the rain
my son, my heart, i knew you so well
death is my name and life is the spell
welcome my pardon, sleep in the dead
peaceful the night we lay in my bed
when all that is thought, pondered upon
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becomes what you are, solid a song
to sing for a moment, it must be so right
darkness of morning, morning of night
then, my son, you limited breath
your ripe and conceive the flower of death
my name and soul, i wish you the same
cold in your flesh , peace, i contain
no skin, though a point, famous in name
for passion witch I live and will claim
regard me as not, elusive, a dream
I am a truth, as hope is a scheme
touch me and feel the power of day
skates and school, red marmalade
I'm life, death, all in the same
I bring you forth, in memory's fame
so resist, fuss, turn in your grave
deny me the fuel to jest and behave
as I must, my son, my dear
simply entrust, my comfortable fear.
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Ocean : Preview
This a ocean
restless waves
we both shall roll
up the curve
down in motion
turn about
before we cave