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Hi. This is Mary Manin Morrissey and welcome to building your field of dreams. 4

We are going on a journey together and during this journey there is an 5

opportunity, should you choose to take it, to absolutely discover and then find 6

that you can deliver the dreams of your own heart. Things you may have never 7

thought were possible for you...Opportunities, experiences; whether it's work, 8

family, relationship, health, that whatever it is that you decide I want to 9

experience. I am going to express. I want to be. I want to do. I want to travel. I 10

want to do these things. These become the content of your dream building and 11

your capacity for dream building is unlimited as you will discover. But your 12

knowing for how to do it and your ability to access and then use that power in 13

service of what you really want is what this program is about. And through this 14

journey we are going to learn how to discover but then harness so that you really 15

can deliver the dreams of your heart. I have just been doing this over the last forty 16

years with people from all different backgrounds and all over the world and I will 17

tell you this: This works if you work it. So come along, try it on, test it out and see 18

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There was a man who walked into a bank. He walked up to the teller and he said 21

'Will you cash this check?' The teller looked at the check and said 'Well sure, I can 22

cash the check. Just put your name on the back of it, give it to me and I will give 23

you the money.' The man kind of backed up and he said 'Whoa, wait a minute! I 24

don't want to put my name on the back of that check and hand it to you. You'll be 25

holding my check with my name on it and you might decide not to give me the 26

money.' The teller said 'Well Sir, no. How it works is you have to put your name 27

on the back of the check before I can give you the money. It's a banking policy. 28

The other man said 'Well, you know I understand that, but I want you to 29

understand how I feel. I feel very nervous about that. I don't want to put my 30

name on the back of the check and hand it to you and then you'll be holding it 31

and you might decide not to give me the money.' The teller said 'Sir I won't give 32

you the money. You have to go along with banking policy.' The other man argued 33

with the teller. Back and forth they went. Finally the teller had just had it and he 34

said 'You know, I'm sorry. I am not going to be able to help you. You need to 35

leave. Go to another bank or try something else, because I am not going to be able 36

to help you.' 37

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So the man left. He went to another bank and he went through the same routine 39

and again he was refused service. He went to a third bank. He's going through the 40

same routine with the teller, explaining how he doesn't want to put his name on 41

the back of the check before he gets the money. Finally the young teller is 42

explaining and process and policy and finally this young teller has just had it with 43

this guy. He reaches under the teller's cage. He pulls out a rubber baseball bat, 44

reaches out across the teller's cage and whacks the guy on the head and says 'Sign 45

the darn check!' So the guy looks at him, startled, and then he picks up the pen 46

and he signs the back of the check and hands it over and he gets his money. 47

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Money in hand he goes back to the first bank and he walks up to that first teller 49

and he says 'Look! Down the street I got my money.' The teller says 'Yeah, but I 50

bet even down the street you had to put your name on the back of that check 51

before you got the money.' The guy says 'Well yeah I did, you see, but no one ever 52

quite explained it the way they did.' You know, I laugh when I hear that story but 53

I also know that that story is not just that man's story. It's your story and it's my 54

story. In essence, we go to the teller of life and we say will you please give me my 55

dream? Give me the life I want to have and life says ok. Put your name on the 56

check. Put your self, your whole self, into a vibrational match with what it is you 57

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say you want. Put your name to the dream. And the doors of creation open. And 58

we say whoa, whoa, whoa wait a minute! I don't want to put my full self in. I want 59

to know how it's all going to work out. I want to know where all the pieces are 60

going to come from. I want to get pieces of the dream. I want to be informed. I 61

want to have it and then I'll put my full self in. Then I'll put my name to it. 62

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Every one of us has been given a sacred name. That name is 'I am'. That name, 64

what we lay on the altar of 'I am', whether I am limited or I am free, whether I can 65

or whether I can't it is shaped in the thinking chamber within us. Now the check 66

of course can't just be written that says 'Dear Life, I want a good life. I want a 67

happy life.' Life does not know how to cash that check any more than if you went 68

to a builder and you said to the builder 'I want a happy house. Build me a really 69

nice house.' The builder would look at you and say 'You've got to tell me what you 70

mean by happy house or what you mean by nice house. You've got to describe. 71

You've got to decide. You've got to give me a picture called a blueprint that I can 72

build to.' Well every one of us lives in this presence, power, thinking substance 73

that shapes itself through our thinking. As you'll hear, there are practices and 74

principles that help us awaken to really who we are and what we are capable of 75

and it is far, far more than most of us have any idea. 76

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I grew up in Portland, Oregon. Mom and Dad loved each other the entire sixty-78

three years they were married. I had a great upbringing, one sister, eight years 79

older, and I had a high school experience like most young girls dream about. I 80

was class vice-president. I was on the drill team. I had a lead in the junior play, 81

was homecoming princess and at the end of my junior year in high school I was 82

pregnant. My high school boyfriend had gone off to college for his first year, came 83

home on spring break. I got pregnant. May 1 I tell my mother and dad that I am 84

pregnant and my mother wept for me as if had died. You know, in her mind all 85

her dreams for me were dying. We had a very hasty ten person wedding. And a 86

couple of weeks later I told one of my trusted high school teachers that I was now 87

married and pregnant. The next thing I knew the principal of the high school, Mr. 88

Erickson, called me into his office. And when I was sitting in his office he said 'So 89

is it true? Are you married and pregnant?' I said 'Well yes I am.' He said 'Well 90

Mary you have great academics and terrific honors, but I need to let you know 91

you will not be allowed to return here for your senior year in high school. It would 92

be inappropriate for a pregnant to get mixed in with the normal girls.' he said. 93

Now this was 1966. Then he followed that with saying to me 'But we do have a 94

place for people like you. It's a high school. It's not held during daylight hours. 95

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It's after dark. It's across the river.' It was actually in a part of Portland I hadn't 96

been allowed to drive in after dark and it's the place where the pregnant girls and 97

the delinquent boys go to high school so you can see the thinking of that era. 98

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Anyway, so the next fall I drive across the river to the other side of Portland and 100

park my car in this part of city and I am walking up to this big building, which is a 101

normal high school during the day and then the in the evening it's Washington 102

Evening High School for the pregnant girls and the delinquent boys. As I am 103

walking up to the school I remember thinking ok, every girl here either has a baby 104

or is pregnant and every guy here is some kind of delinquent. This is my new 105

student body. When I went in to register there were a couple of guys standing at 106

the registration and one of them said 'Well hi, my name is Paul but I'm not 107

apostle.' And the kid next to him says 'Yeah, I'm Peter and I'm no saint.' And I 108

just looked at them and I said 'Well I'm Mary. No comment.' Because by now of 109

course I was five months pregnant. And so what happened then is that my first 110

son was born during the winter of that time at Washington Evening High School 111

and by May I had graduated from Washington Evening High School. 112

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In July I was in an intensive care ward at Portland Adventist Hospital having 114

being diagnosed with fatal kidney disease. One kidney, the tests said, was totally 115

destroyed with nephritis. The other kidney had fifty percent destruction and 116

active nephritis. I was told that if we could get the blood toxin level in my body 117

reduced enough so that I could sustain a surgery to remove the right kidney, then 118

maybe I would have six months to live. So my mother is watching my seven 119

month old son, I am in an intensive care and I have just been told that the best 120

shot I've got is maybe six months. And I am desperate and devastated. Now the 121

God of my upbringing was not really a friendly place to go when you felt like you 122

had really messed up. I didn't have a faith practice. I didn't have a higher power 123

to turn to that I really felt reliant upon or would be responsive to me. 124

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And finally the surgery was scheduled and the night before the surgery happened, 126

about ten o'clock that night a woman walked in my room who identified herself as 127

a chaplain in the hospital who was offering prayer with people who were going to 128

have surgery the next day. She asked me if I wanted someone to pray with me. I 129

was scared and I said yes. She came over and stood next to the bed where I was 130

laying and then she pulled up a chair and she sat down. She did not begin with 131

prayer. She began this way: She said 'So would you be willing to tell me what's 132

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been going on in your life the last year or two?' Now this was before the idea of a 133

mind body connection was in the common nomenclature. This was 1967. There 134

had been no mind body connection on the top seller list. There had been nothing 135

in Newsweek. You know later there would be front page articles and cover articles 136

about the mind body connection. There would be a mind body clinic at Harvard 137

Teaching Hospital. All of this would emerge but in 1967 it was in very difficult 138

places to find that actually our thinking and what happens in not only our 139

physical body but the body of our life are related. Most people had no idea of this. 140

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So when she asks me to tell her my story I am scared and so I tell her my story. I 142

tell her what's been going on in my life the last couple of years. At the end of 143

which she just looked at me and very compassionately she looked in my eyes and 144

she said 'Mary, everything is created twice.' I know I had a quizzical look on my 145

face. What do you mean? Then she said 'The bed you are laying on, the nightgown 146

you are wearing, the sheet covering you, the carpet, the floor, the ceiling, the 147

walls, all this machinery, everything was first a thought before it could become a 148

thing.' Then she looked at me and she said 'You know this. You just don't know 149

the power of knowing this.' Then she said 'I hear how much you love your little 150

boy but I also hear how much you've been hating yourself. You feel like you 151

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shamed yourself, you shamed your school, you shamed your family and now that 152

you are considering the connection between thought and result, cause and effect, 153

that everything that is experienced first began in thought; everything that is 154

created first began in thought could you consider the possibility that there could 155

be some relationship between this toxic thinking and the toxicity that is in your 156

body that is actually threatening your life?' 157

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Well this was like a brand new idea to me. While some part of me thought this 159

made sense I had no way to really park this or make sense of it in my mind at that 160

time. Then she said to me 'In this universe, uni-verse, there is one presence, one 161

power, one life. It is ever seeking freer, fuller, expanded expression of itself and 162

that's happening in your right now. The toxicity that's in your body can be 163

released because it can be released in your mind.' Then she went on to say 'You 164

know, in this universe there is this exquisite precise balance and perfection. Just 165

the mathematical precision with which everything is balanced is so precise that 166

even one trillionth of a trillionth millimeter difference in the balance just in our 167

solar system--the whole thing would blow apart. That intelligence is at work right 168

now. It's everywhere present.' She said 'Could you believe it's possible that if you 169

were to align with that precision that is at work in you that your whole body could 170

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actually respond to that and in the morning the doctors would say to you that you 171

don't need surgery. Get up and go home, you are fine.' She said 'Could you believe 172

that that is possible?' I told her the truth and the truth for me at that moment was 173

no, I don't think that's going to happen for me. I believed way more in my pain in 174

that moment than in the possibility and I also at that moment believed a whole 175

lot more in the minor deities than what I would later call the Major Deity. I knew 176

a minor deity when I met them because they had MD at the end of their name 177

and therefore whatever they said to me was gospel to me. They said it. It had to 178

be true. So then she said to me 'Ok. How about this? Could you believe, if you 179

can't believe you can be totally healed, then how about this...could you believe it's 180

possible that everything that is the genesis of this problem is either in the kidney 181

that is going to get removed or actually could be swept into the kidney that's 182

going to get removed and when that kidney is removed from you so is the 183

problem? Could you believe that? 184

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I didn't really know what to believe. But here the interesting thing was I could tell 186

she believed it and it was the first time I ever consciously chose to believe in 187

someone else's belief who had a higher domain believing. I looked at her and I 188

said 'Well I don't know if it's possible or even probable, but I am open to it.' She 189

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said 'Ok. That's all we need is one corner of your mind open to the possibility. 190

Let's work with that.' Now this was before Talbot had written Holographic 191

Universe, before we understood how a higher domain thought always takes 192

precedence over lower frequency thoughts. We didn't know anything about that. 193

But she said all we need is a corner of your mind open to the possibility and that's 194

what I am asking from you right now is to give a corner of your mind open to the 195

possibility that there is so much more in you and for you than you have known 196

and that by applying these simple principles and practices over a period of time 197

that absolutely you really can build a field of your dreams. Absolutely. 198

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So when she said give me a corner of your mind open to the possibility I said ok 200

and she said 'Then let's pray.' I don't know what prayer she did. I didn't hear bells 201

ring, the hair on my neck didn't stand up, but I relaxed and I must have relaxed 202

because the next morning when I woke up I had slept all night without waking. I 203

hadn't been able to do that in weeks I had been in so much pain. And when the 204

doctors did the surgery they told my family who was gathered afterward that the 205

one kidney was destroyed with nephritis. They removed it. The other kidney, 206

when it was looked at it didn't look quite as bad as they would have suspected 207

with fifty percent destruction, but time would tell. And time did tell. Instead of 208

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getting worse I got better. Within a few days I was heading home and continued 209

to get better and better and better. Even at eighteen years old that caught my 210

attention. Something is going on here. I am part of something. And I just began 211

to be like a thirsty sponge for everything I could find in the field of metaphysics, 212

philosophy, psychology and science to discover how it works in the universe that 213

everything really is created twice. 214

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So I've spent the last thirty-five years in what I call the laboratory called life. Not 216

only searching for these principles, studying these principles, getting degrees in 217

the application of these principles, I went on and got an undergraduate degree in 218

education, a masters degree in counseling psychology, became an ordained 219

minister, received an honorary doctorate in humane letters, I've written a couple 220

of books and I have spoken to thousands and thousands of people all around the 221

world. I have set intentions and dreams and applied these principles to the 222

intentions and dreams of my heart. I've had opportunities that came out of those 223

principles applied to sit for days at a time with His Holiness the Dalai Lama 224

which was a dream I had, to have a meeting; a small meeting with Nelson 225

Mandela, to speak at the United Nations, hang out with Kenny Loggins. I mean, 226

things that I really wanted to do that were minor dreams compared to some of 227

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the major dreams that really would emerge for me. And I just am encouraging 228

you now to consider any possibility. Just open yourself up to the possibility that 229

in this great gift you have an imagination; that there is a place inside of you that 230

is unmuted by circumstance. It's not controlled by your history. It's not defined 231

by anything you've ever known about yourself. It's absolutely liberated right now 232

into the unlimited possibilities that you can consider. 233

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And to just begin to explore what is the life you would love to live? What would 235

you love to be, to do, to give, to create? If time weren't your restriction, if 236

education weren't the restriction, if money, if who you knew, if age, all of the 237

many things that often build what we call a paradigm block where we give power 238

to the conditions we've known to define the possibilities we can have. If none of 239

those were present for you what would you love? What would you love to be or do 240

or create to the construct of your life and you'll begin to see the magic as well. 241

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You know how they train elephants in India? In India the elephant is the farm 243

animal, unlike cattle for much of the rest of the world because in India cattle are 244

considered sacred so the cows are treated with reverence and respect. But they 245

train elephants this way: When they train small elephants they get a baby 246

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elephant and they put a big strong rope around one of their legs and a big strong 247

stake in the ground. And that baby elephant pulls and tugs and fights and tries to 248

get away. Ultimately the rope and the stake are stronger and the elephant finally 249

gives in to the tug of the rope. As the elephant gets larger, instead of increasing 250

the rope and stake in size they decrease it because what happens is the elephant 251

gives over to the tug. It leans toward the tug instead of away from it. So for adult 252

elephants they just weave river reeds together and the slightest little tug and that 253

elephant will go wherever the tug is. Now it isn't that the elephant doesn't have 254

the capacity to break free from that river reed fully. It does, but it doesn't have the 255

knowing and so it is disconnected from its capacity because it doesn't have the 256

knowing. It has learned to give over to the tug. 257

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You and I have some river reed thinking. We have been trained to look to 259

conditions to determine what our opportunities are; what our possibilities are 260

and it's completely backwards. We have learned to live an outside in life when the 261

authority and the empowerment to choose and decide first creation is in thought. 262

Everything is created twice. So when we look to conditions to determine what we 263

can have we get stuck in just basically repatterning the conditions we have 264

already had. We might change a little color, change a little form but basically it's 265

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almost the same life lived again. I heard once somebody say some people live 266

ninety years and other people live one year ninety times. So what we are going to 267

do is do some repatterning, some paradigm busting, some opening up and some 268

exploring into what it is that you really want. What would you love to be and do 269

and create? Now the way it works in the universe, it is a spiral universe. Your very 270

DNA is a spiral. So in the spiral universe there is everywhere present this ever 271

upward pull of possibility seeking to express itself. Everywhere the universe is 272

seeking for an ever freer, fuller, expanded expression of self. And as unique as 273

your thumbprint is that seeking for expression uniquely as you. So your dreams, 274

what it is that you are here to be and do and express and experience is unique to 275

you. It will not be something that is a chore. It will be something that gives you 276

life. It will be something that expands you, that opens you, that you are thrilled to 277

be living. That's how the universe works, that when you are in harmony with your 278

soul's purpose, when you are in harmony with what you are here to be and do 279

things get easier. The flow expands. You become more alive. You are energized. 280

This is the most passionate, wondrous alive-making way to live life. 281

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So the underlying principle of dream building is this: What is within you is 283

greater than anything that is in your surroundings. What is within you is greater 284

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than any circumstance of your life. What is within you, the power within you is 285

greater than your history. Your history does not need to determine your destiny 286

unless you decide that it must. Every one of us carries an idea about our history 287

and some of that is absolutely just this: River reed thinking. We say oh if I just 288

had the education or if I just had this or if I just had that. There are all sorts of 289

things that we can hold as ideas about what will keep us from having the dreams 290

we want. But this process will teach us how everything is created twice, how to 291

use our thinking in ways that are in service of the dream we say we want instead 292

of thwarting the very thing we would love to be and do and experience and 293

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When I was getting my undergraduate degree, I became particularly interested in 296

the work of Abraham Maslow. As a psychologist he got interested in what made 297

people really happy. He said 'I don't want to study pathology. I want to study 298

what happens in a person's life when they report that they love life; that they love 299

waking up in the morning. These are people who their relationships work well. 300

They have found their creativity. They do work that matters to them. They live a 301

life that has meaning and purpose in it and they report that they absolutely love 302

the life they live. He wanted to determine what were the consistencies, what were 303

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the determiners, what is happening in a person who experiences life this way? 304

And he looked at the kind of common things we would look at. He thought well 305

maybe these were people who just had great families of origin. He discovered that 306

wasn't true. Some of them had had horrific upbringings; abusive upbringings. 307

Then he thought well maybe these are people who just have a degree of financial 308

freedom that gives them the liberty to experience life this way. 309

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He found that simply was not true. They came from all different economic 311

backgrounds and current conditions. Was it people who only had pristinely 312

perfect health? No it wasn't true. Some of them had chronic pain, difficult 313

illnesses, and all kinds of things. These were not necessarily even people who had 314

not had great loss in their lives. It was something else. He determined as he 315

studied what he called highly potentiated lives; people who were living in the 316

peak potential of possibility--these were people who when they got up in the 317

morning they could enjoy the smell of the coffee if that's what was in the room or 318

even the sound of toast being buttered. , that when their child took their hand it 319

wasn't just surface. It was like a moment that they had. He called them, they had 320

'high porosity to aliveness'. You think of something that is porous like a sponge 321

and just soaks it up. So imagine having high porosity to aliveness, that you aren’t' 322

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just swimming in the shallows of your own aliveness muted by worry or concern 323

or patterns that keep us out of the real depths of our own life energy. He 324

discovered that there were some commonalities. There were some consistencies 325

and there were some patterns in the lives of people who lived in high potentiated 326

aliveness and most consistently it was this: These people paid attention to, were 327

sensitive of and followed the dreams in their heart. They paid attention to the 328

longings in their own heart. So Maslow had been asking the question are these 329

people with something added. What he discovered is no, these are people with 330

nothing taken away. They hadn't given up that kind of childlike 'Gosh I can be 331

and do and create what I want to'. 332

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There was a study done not too long ago. It was about genius and the exploration 334

was into what happens in a person that is living what might be called a genius 335

life. The research began with a premise that genius is the number of modalities 336

with which one takes in information and is able to synthesize or make use of that 337

information. What they discovered was the number of modalities, you know you 338

could take it in with your five senses, you can also take in information intuitively, 339

imaginatively, your ability to use your intellect to shape that information, your 340

ability to make perception out of the information, all of those modalities that 341

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every one of us had anyway. When they are in concert or in harmony there is 342

what we call genius. So they were exploring what happens in people's lives that 343

they live this way and they discovered that pretty much ninety-nine point some 344

percent of all babies operate at a genius level for about the first eighteen to 345

twenty-four months of their lives. The learning curve that each one of us goes 346

through to be able to discover that I can actually control this hand and you will 347

watch the little baby look at their hand as if it is something apart from themselves 348

and the incorporation of bringing the whole body into a system and beginning to 349

shape ideas and learn words and crawl and then walk. All of the learning that 350

occurs in that first phase of life is so accelerated. The learning curve is beyond 351

anything most of us ever achieve the rest of our entire lives. So we come in as a 352

genius. By the time we are five, only twenty percent of us are operating at a 353

genius level and by the time we are twenty only two percent are operation at a 354

genius level. So what happens to us? What mutes those capacities that are ours 355

that we begin to disconnect from? 356

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What the research said was that the disconnection occurs systematically and over 358

time through this: The learned voice of internal judgment. We start to make 359

ourselves wrong. We start to doubt. We start to look outside ourselves for 360

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approval and opinion about what we can be and what we can do and what's 361

possible. So we learn to be condition based in our thinking because that's the 362

major programming on planet earth. That's how most people live. So we re giving 363

our kids our very best version of how the world works, which is look to conditions 364

to determine what you can be and what you can have. And there's another whole 365

way to live and that's what we are discovering. 366

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Now as you will discover, as you go through this there is something at work in 368

you; this ever upward pull of becoming. In the Talmud, which is a mystical 369

Jewish writing, it says this: It's as if every single blade of grass has an angel 370

leaning over it whispering grow, grow, grow. That blade of grass will actually 371

break through cement seeking the light. There is that same pull of becoming in 372

you. It will give you ideas and images and possibilities but it is up to you to allow 373

those to begin to be shaped in your mind as dreams; as ideas that form into 374

pictures because your mind thinks in pictures. 375

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If I say to you don't think about the Statue of Liberty. Don't think about that 377

woman on Liberty Island outside of New York City. Don't think about the woman 378

with her arm stretched up in the air. Don't think about the torch at the end of her 379

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hand. Don't think about the ferries going to and from the island back to the city. 380

Don't think about the Statue of Liberty. What are you seeing? You are seeing the 381

statue of liberty. Your mind has no sense of humor. So if you start thinking oh I 382

don't want this to happen or I don't want that to happen, your mind begins to go 383

to work on those pictures. So you really want to focus on what do your really want 384

to create. As you are exploring the possibilities, allow images of possible futures, 385

of lives, of ways of being. Explore in your imagination what you would love to be 386

and do and create and give. 387

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