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I was born April 3, 1822 at Rothenhagen, in the parish (original: Kirchspiel)
Werther, Westphalia, Germany. At my baptism I received the names Peter
Heinrich. My parents were Johann Heinrich Dicke and Margaretha Dicke, nee
Blothenburg. Although my parents and their children did not suffer want, yet they
had to be industrious and thrifty to make ends meet. Therefore I soon had various
tasks and work assigned to me as a boy. When I reached the proper age, I was sent
to the school of the locality. Rationalism was very prevalent in Westphalia at this
time. The teacher in the school was a person of low moral standard who, in
addition, neglected his duties in the most flagrant manner. So it was not surprising
that I had learned hardly anything by my tenth birthday. The pastor who
confirmed me was a true rationalist. At my confirmation I had very little real
knowledge of God and His Son, Jesus Christ. My parents, especially my mother,
must have had already at this time some knowledge of God and of His Son. She
often used to admonish me, sometimes with tears. At about this time a
conversation of my parents with a neighbor made a deep impression upon me, one
which I never forgot in my whole life. The neighbor said: “A person must do good
works and lead a virtuous life, then he will certainly be saved.” My mother
contradicted him emphatically, whereupon the neighbor replied: “Our pastor
teaches that, and he must know; he’s a well educated man.” My mother answered:
“I still do not believe it, because our Savior says: ‘I am the Way, the Truth, and the
Life; no one come to the Father but by me.’”
I myself was an unrestrained and high-spirited youth at this time. Just then a
wholesome change in church and school occurred in many localities of my
homeland, for at various places witnesses of the truth appeared. The foremost and
most effective was Pastor Volkening of Joellenbeck near Bielefold. I have traveled
about quite a bit in my lifetime, but have never found that one man could arouse so
many varied classes of people spiritually and in such wide circles as Pastor
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Volkening did. The “Awakening” was not confined to Westphalia only, but
reached into the Kingdom of Hanover and into several small principalities as
Lipe*Detmold. My parents lived about 12-15 miles west of Joellenbeck.
Although my mother was in poor health, they attended the preaching services of
Pastor Volkening as often as it was possible. A cousin, Wilhelm Holtmann, my
mother’s sister’s son, urged me often to attend church with him. The first time I
went to church there was, as always an overcrowded church. In the pews people
sat close together, all aisles were filled; not even standing room left. As it was
summer time people stood all around the church and heard the sermon. In the
crowd that day I stood under the pulpit and could rest my back against it. The only
thing I saw of Pastor Volkening during the whole service were his finger tips. It
was the 2nd Sunday after Trinity and Pastor Volkening preached on the Gospel for
that day, Luke 14, 16-24. It was through God’s grace that I was quickened by that
sermon. On our homeward journey my parents and friends walked on ahead, and I
alone, deep in thought, somewhat behind them. One recurring thought was
uppermost in my mind and heart: “You must change your way of life, or you’ll be
lost forever.” I was a few months past 17 years at the time.
From that time on I chose the companionship of Christian friends. Sunday
forenoons we usually attended services of some truly Christian pastor in the
neighborhood. In the afternoon we attended prayer meetings, conducted by many
of our neighbors, which my parents attended also. Since my father was able to
read well and had a very good voice he was often asked to read the sermons and
lead in prayer, which was done kneeling. The sermons of L. Hofacker and K.
Rieger were read in these meeting. The young people in this group agreed to
memorize one Chief Part of Luther’s Small Catechism, 7 Bible passages, and 1 or
2 hymns during the week and recite them on the following Sunday. These people
with whom I now associated, even though they were inclined to Pietism, were
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sincere Christians who loved the Word of God and our Savior. I was living at
home with my parents at the time.
When I had reached my 20th year an event occurred which changed the
course of my life completely. A Christian farmer in the neighborhood asked my
cousin and me to come to see him, he wished to talk to us. This man was well
acquainted with Pastor Theodore Fliedner of Kaiserswerth on the Rhine. Pastor
Fliedner had written to him about enlisting several young men. He wanted him to
send two young men to him. Since my cousin could not go, I decided to go to
Kaiserswerth alone.
At the Deacon’s Institute at Kaiserswerth a number of young men were
employed in the care of the sick, working in the garden and on the farm. In the
summer medicinal plants and herbs were gathered throughout that whole region.
On assignment of Pastor Fliedner I also had to take smaller or larger trips, so that I
got up the Rhine as far as Coblenz and down as far as Duisburg, Crefeld, etc.
Pastor Fliedner would jokingly remark: “You are becoming a well-traveled man.”
Since on these trips I had to deal with all kinds of people, of high and low estate, I
learned somewhat how to converse with people.
In the fall of 1843 I became homesick, longed to be with my family friends,
and home. I therefore resigned my position in Kaiserswerth and went home to my
parents. After I had been at home for a little over a year, a young man from the
Institute, who was travelling in the interest of the Institute, came into our region.
He looked me up, to encourage me to return to the Institute which I agreed to do.
Pastor Fliedner received a letter from this young man and soon I received word to
come as soon as possible, which I did. My stay in Kaiserswerth was not very long.
As soon as I had learned all that was necessary in nursing and as surgical assistant,
I was sent to Dresden in the summer of 1845 to the newly established Diaconess
Hospital and remained there 4 ½ years. The first patient I cared for was a student
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from the Lutheran Mission House; his name was Bernreuter. For the first days he
lay unconscious with typhoid fever. Later in life we both became brother pastors
in the Lutheran Church-Missouri Synod in America.
During the first years at Dresden I did not have it easy. For months on end I
had no night of uninterrupted sleep, being constantly disturbed. Later on when I
had an assistant I had the night shift every other night for long periods. These
nights were spent in reading and proved a good preparation for my study of
theology.
The Board of Control of the Institute asked me to be a collector for the
Institute in Dresden and at times also in Leipzig and as such I came into contact
with many people of various stations in life. Since the so-called “Leipzig Mission
House” was for most of the years of my stay in Dresden still located in Dresden I
also became acquainted with all of the students of the Mission House and many of
them became my friends. These contacts by God’s grace assisted me to a deeper
knowledge of Lutheran doctrine, especially in the distinctive doctrines of the
various denominations.
During all this time I kept up a close attachment with my home and kept
myself informed by subscribing to the “Westphalisches Monatsblatt” (The
Westphalian Monthly). The letters of a Pastor Rauschenbusch of America
appeared in this paper, describing the religious and church conditions there, which
I read with great interest. Several times he reported on the “Old Lutherans” as he
called the Missouri Synod. In a later issue I read an appeal from our Synod which
told of the great need of the Lutheran Church in America. This plea for preachers
of the Gospel was similar to that which is reported in Acts 16: 9 where we read of
a man from Macedonia who appeared to Paul and said: “Come over and help us.”
Faithful Christian candidates for the ministry were urged to enter the ministry in
the service of the Lutheran Church in America and Christian young men were
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encouraged to prepare themselves for the ministry and service of the Lutheran
Church in America. I read this article during one of my night shifts. The thought
came to me that probably I could serve God and my Savior better there than in my
work at Dresden. My first hope was that it might be possible for me with God’s
help to become an assistant to a pastor in a school.
At first I took no steps in this matter; when the thought continued to reoccur,
I decided to speak to Dean Leuschner about it and ask him for advice. When I had
presented my ideas, he inquired thoroughly about many things. Finally he said:
“Write a short autobiographical sketch and then write a sermon on the words:
“Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness etc. When you have
completed this, bring it to me and then we’ll see what can be done about it.” On
my way out he followed me to the steps and said: “Mr. Dicke, just so you won’t do
everything wrong, use this as your sermon theme: ‘Seeking the Kingdom of God
and His Righteousness: 1. Why we must seek the Kingdom of God, 2. How this is
done. 3. What are the results and fruits of the search’ (I don’t recall the 3rd point
precisely, but I think this was it).” When I had brought both of the requested
manuscripts, he read them and said: “You seem to have a gift for story-telling” and
of my lecture he said: “You are not exactly poor in ideas.” He told me to make a
clean copy of my lecture, memorize it, and then come and deliver it in his study.
This was done a short time later. He had his doubts if my voice would be strong
enough to be heard in a church auditorium. He then suggested a day for me to
come. “We will go the Friedrichstaedter Church where you can deliver the sermon
from the pulpit.” I preached there and Dean Leuschner walked about in the church
with my manuscript in his hand, listening at various points, even under the tower.
Then we went to the vestry and I had to pray “from the heart.” He set two further
conditions: I was asked to have my sermon and autobiographical sketch reviewed
by a truly Christian candidate; I was to have a thorough chest and throat
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examination by a capable physician. When this had been done, he sent the reports
with a personal letter to Inspector Bauer in Nurnberg, who replied quite soon that
my application to enter the Mission House there had been accepted and that I was
to come at one.
This could not be done so quickly, since I was bound to the Diaconess
Hospital by a contract for 3 more months and also because my services were still
needed. Inspector Bauer had also suggested that I have private tutoring while I
was still in Dresden. The Hospital Board of Control approved and Dr. Zehme, the
assistant court-preacher, was willing to instruct me while I was still in Dresden.
Before I left the hospital I received much kindness and love. The Lutheran
Mission Society (Lutherischer Missionsverein) which had as its purpose the
support of young men who volunteered for service in the Lutheran Church in
America, offered to support me while I was a student at the Mission House. One
of the board members at the time was the book publisher, Justus Naumann, the
grandfather of my present pastor, the Rev. William Naumann. The Ladies Aid of
the Mission Society also assisted me generously.
Early in March, 1850, I traveled to Nurnberg via Leipzig. The teachers and
students gave me a friendly reception. Now the work of serious and intensive
study began and I found it hard and unaccustomed work. So I often had periods of
doubt and my spirits sank deeper and deeper, because I thought the preparation for
the ministry was a hopeless goal for me to attain. I had already written to the
Deaconess Institution in Dresden and asked if I could be employed there again. I
soon received the reply that I should just come back; they would be happy to have
me in their employ.
One of my instructors, Candidate and College Instructor M. Gursching,
noticed how depressed I was and invited me to take a walk with him. He soon
pried out of me what was wrong. He was able to solve all my problems and refute
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my objections, and to speak comforting and encouraging words, so that I could
with God's help continue my studies with confidence. I stayed in Nurnberg for one
and a half years. The instructors were very capable men and excellent in all
subjects. That was particularly true of two of them, namely Inspector Bauer and
the above mentioned College Instructor, M. Gursching. Inspector Bauer exerted
much effort, time, and energy in the instruction in homiletics. In addition, I often
had to work out essays on theological subjects. Both activities were of importance
and immense value to me in later life.
In 1851 war threatened to break out between Prussia on the one side and
Austria, Bavaria, etc. on the other side. This made it probable that I would be
called up to serve as a soldier. The Mission Society in Dresden whose protégé I
was, preferred to have me continue my studies in Fort Wayne rather than at
Nurnberg. This accounted for my rather sudden departure from Nurnberg.
I first returned to Dresden, visited friends there, but did not stay long. From
there I went to Leipzig, where I consulted the Director of the Mission House and
arranged with him that my friend, Missionary Miessler and I would be permitted to
travel to America together. From Leipzig I traveled on to my home where I
enjoyed the visit with my family and friends for a short time before hurrying on to
England. On the way I stopped off in Kaiserswerth where I was hospitably
received by Pastor Fliedner. I then continued my journey to London via
Amsterdam. I had been sent to London to negotiate in behalf of the Society for
Inner Mission in Bavaria (Loehe and others) with a Lutheran Pastor in London (Dr.
Scholl) with regard to the sending of missionaries for the City Mission in London.
While in London I also visited my brother, who had the same position in the
German Hospital there as I had formerly held in Dresden. Also he had been sent
there from Kaiserswerth. Among those who proposed a Lutheran City Mission in
London were two parties, one wanting to draw its missionaries from Nurnberg, the
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other preferring men from the “Rauhe Haus” in Hamburg. The latter had gained
the upper hand and so I could no longer accomplish my mission. At the time of
my stay in London the first World’s Fair was held in the so-called “Crystal
Palace”, which quite naturally I visited. After my two-week’s stay in London was
over, I left for Havre de Gras in France.1 Here I was to meet Missionary Miessler
and Student Th. Gotsch, who later became a pastor.
Our ship sailed on 18 September. During the voyage we were in great
danger twice. Finally we arrived in New York on 23 October 1851. We received a
friendly reception and were lodged with the innkeeper, Mr. F. Fliedner, the brother
of Pastor Th. Fliedner. While in New York we attended services at pastor Brohm’s
church. Here we heard our first sermon in America, and it was also one of the best
I have ever heard in my life. After the service we called on Pastor Brohm and
were invited to have Sunday dinner with the family.
From New York we stayed together as far as Dunkirk, N.Y. (on Lake Erie,
south of Buffalo, terminus of the Erie Canal). Missionary Miessler and I traveled
on to Detroit where we went to see Pastor Schaller. We were given a warm
welcome. I had been expected, since I carried letters and other articles from the
father-in-law of Pastor Schaller, Mr. Volk, owner of a vinegar distillery in
Nurnberg. A brother-in-law of Pastor Schaller, Student G. Volk, was staying with
them at the time, because Prof. Walther was on a trip to Germany. This student
Volk was a talented young man who later on became pastor in New Orleans and
died there of yellow fever. Student Volk and I travelled to Ft. Wayne together,
arriving there on 5 November. Among the student-body present I found a number
of old acquaintances.
In Fort Wayne I immediately got busy at my studies. During the first
months Prof. Craemer was the only instructor, since Dr. Siehler was in St. Louis.
1 Translator’s Note: The writer has confused Le Havre in France with Havre de Gras in Maryland.
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In the mornings nothing but theological subjects were taught, while in the
afternoon secular subjects such as German and English language study, world
history, etc. were taken up. At the beginning of March 1852 Dr. Siehler returned
from St. Louis and from then on participated actively in the instruction.
While I was in Ft. Wayne I also became acquainted with my dear wife and
made up my mind, if it be God’s will, that I would some day marry her. But I told
no one of this decision at the time. Unfortunately I could stay in Ft. Wayne only a
year. When classes began again in the fall after vacation, I had to take the
examination alone, in order to hurry to Frankenlust, Michigan as soon as possible,
where I had been called as assistant to Pastor Ferdinand Sievers. A cholera
epidemic had broken out in the congregation there and Pastor Sievers himself was
lying seriously ill.
I arrived in Frankenlust on 16 October 1852. I had to preach right away,
since the next day was Sunday. During the first service I was called from the
church to the bedside of a cholera victim whom died soon after. Fortunately the
cholera epidemic had reached its end. Pastor Sievers gradually recovered, but it
took some time until he had recovered sufficiently to carry out his pastoral duties
fully. I had to budget my time carefully since I had to teach school 5 days a week
and during the illness of Pastor Sievers also had to perform all official acts except
communion. Afterwards I had very little to do with the exercise of pastoral care.
However, Pastor Sievers always took me along when he made sick calls, which
pleased me very much, since he was an extraordinarily faithful shepherd. I was his
assistant for a year and learned to cherish him as a true Christian who was a model
for me in every respect. A bond of true friendship soon united us which lasted
from then till the end of his life. To my best recollection no unfriendly word ever
passed between us.
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In Frankenlust later on I usually only had to lead in the singing in the
morning service on Sundays. But I did have to preach in the second congregation
on Sunday afternoons. In the spring of 1853 I was called as pastor of this
congregation at Amelith, but I still remained assistant at Frankenlust and lived
there also. At the beginning of the summer of 1853 Pastor Sievers and family
moved to the mission station “Bethany” (the mission to the Indians) and stayed
there all summer. During this time I had to serve, both congregations and also
teach school in both places.
While I was at Frankenlust I became engaged to Anna Katrin Betzler, my
dear wife. In June 1853 I attended the synodical meeting in Cleveland, Ohio, and
joined the Missouri Synod as a member. In the late summer I became ill with a
fever. Fortunately Pastor Sievers soon returned, because the illness was quite
serious. I did recover enough so that I could travel to Fort Wayne to get married
on 9 October 1853. Even before I had left Frankenlust for my wedding I received
a call from St. Lorenz congregation in Frankentrost, Saginaw County, Michigan. I
would have declined the call immediately, had I followed my natural inclinations,
but my teachers in Fort Wayne convinced me that I had to accept the call as being
in accordance to God’s will. So when my dear wife and I came back to Michigan,
instead of setting up housekeeping in the parsonage which my congregation in
Amelith had built for us, we had to move to Frankentrost. I would have preferred
to stay with the congregation in Amelith, but God’s will decreed otherwise.
In Frankentrost I soon became ill again with the fever, this time critically ill.
The fever was persistent. My Physician had a good reputation in the whole region
for handling this illness, but in my case he fought in vain for a long time. At times
the fever would let up, but as soon as I preached again, the fever returned. The
doctor had expressed the opinion to several people that my illness had turned into
tuberculosis and that it was unlikely that I would recover. He therefore finally
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forbade my preaching entirely. I did not preach from Ascension to the 27th Sunday
after Trinity. Finally, however, the fever let up.
The Lutheran congregation at Frankenhilf, 16 miles from Frankentrost, had
extended a call to me as soon as I had come to Frankentrost. As soon as I had
recovered, I had plenty to do in both congregations. I had to teach school in both
congregations and also conduct services during the week. In general, I got along
quite well in both congregations. The forests in Saginaw County at that time were
still mostly “primeval” and the clearing of land for agriculture had just begun. The
woods were made up of very large trees, for the most part; the region was flat
woodland and the roads were at times a mass of very deep ruts. I had some
interesting experiences during my pastorate in these Saginaw County
congregations, but to tell them here would take up too much space. Sincere
friendship and harmony existed between us brethren, the Pastors Roebelen,
Cloeter, and Sievers.
In the fall of 1856 I received a call from three congregations in Dodge
County, Wisconsin, which I presented to my congregations. They unanimously
voted that I should decline the call. At the end of January or beginning of February
1857 the call was extended to me a second time. This time it was so well
documented and so urgently stated that I immediately felt in conscience, bound to
accept the call. The great majority in my congregations said: “Pastor, if we would
have to answer to our conscience, we must say, you must accept the call. A small
minority said that although they could not see my point of view, but if I felt bound
in conscience, they would not protest and I should go in God’s names. A hurried
move was called for, since a wolf in sheep’s clothing had broken into the
congregations in Wisconsin. When we left our home, almost the entire
congregation accompanied us to the edge of the village with tears. However, the
parting had to come.
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Our journey took us first to Frankenmuth, where we stopped to see Pastor
Roebelen. Our farewell was for the rest of this life. They left for Germany soon
after and did not return to America again. The snow had melted and a hard frost
had made everything solid. The miles to Detroit with the stage was a very
uncomfortable ride. In Detroit we stopped off at Pastor Herman Fick who made us
most welcome. From Detroit our journey took us to Milwaukee where we arrived
at the end of February and were received hospitably by the sainted Pastor
Fleischmann and brought by him to a family in his congregation with whom we
stayed over Sunday. On Monday my dear wife with the children and my brother
Herman went ahead to Town Theresa, Dodge County. I had to stay on account of
our boxes of household goods and could follow them on the following day. Thus
my dear wife and the children arrived in my new congregations in Wisconsin on 1
March, while I came on the 2 March 1857. Since it was the Lenten season, I had to
start preaching on the following days. A number of members of the congregation
expressed the wish that I might be installed by President Fuerbringer. Since he
could not come immediately, I was not installed into office in my congregations
near Mayville until the Feast of the Ascension.
The vacancy in the three congregations had been a long one. I had lots of
work to do, since there were over 200 families in the three congregations and soon
another, a fourth congregation, was added to the parish. While it is true that I had
three teachers in these congregations, yet at the time the teachers who had received
good training, were sound in doctrine, and also led a God-pleasing life were rare
indeed. Most of them were people who had sought out the positions for
themselves. Much dissatisfaction and unpleasant experiences occurred on their
account, until it finally became possible to get teachers who were true to their
calling, capable of teaching, and pious in their manner of life.
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In the winter of 1857 to 1858 I received two letters from people living in
Fond du Lac County who asked me to come to visit them. They were Lutheran,
they said, and wanted to remain Lutherans. Methodist preachers came around, but
they didn’t want to have anything to do with these. They had heard that I was a
Lutheran pastor and closest to them. Would I not please concern myself about
them?
In the week of the 2nd Sunday after Easter I borrowed a horse and saddle
and started on the 36-mile trip to them. Since the spring break-up was in progress,
the roads were in miserable condition. Since I didn’t know the way and was
misled by wrong directions given to me, I traveled on a roundabout route, in fact I
had to turn back on myself. After I had passed through Fond du Lac it began to
rain quite hard. My horse was tired out and at the end of his strength, and so I had
to get down and lead it behind me. I too was almost ready to give up. I wrapped
myself in my overcoat and kept going, even though I could hardly stay on my feet.
It was quite dark when I finally reached the home of the people I had come to see.
When I entered the room I almost fainted and was hardly able to utter a word.
Since I had announced my coming by letter, quite a number of people gathered
there the next day and I preached to them on the Gospel of the Good Shepherd.
God gave me the grace so that I could portray for them Christ the Good Shepherd
and describe His love. Somewhat later a Lutheran congregation was organized
among them. These people lived about 11 miles due east of Fond du Lac. Most of
them hailed from the German province of Hesse-Darmstadt.
After I left this group I looked up some people who lived 6 miles south, in
Town Forest and Osceola. These folks came from various parts of Germany, but
most of them from north Germany. By God’s grace I was also able to organize a
Lutheran congregation there. Both of the above-mentioned congregations now
belong to the Wisconsin Synod. Somewhat later I was able to organize another
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Lutheran congregation in Fond du Lac County. A young man from my
congregation moved to Town Auburn in Fond du Lac County. He asked me to
come and give him and his wife communion and hold preaching services from time
to time, which I promised to do. When I went to the home of these people to keep
my promise, more and more people showed up. After 4 or 5 years the number had
grown to about 25 families. Some of these people always showed a grateful
appreciation for my services.
In the upper Immanuel Congregation near Mayville a serious controversy
arose while I was still there. In that congregation there were a number of people
who would not submit themselves at all to the authority of God’s Word. They
began gradually to undermine Christian discipline, so that it became necessary to
oppose them earnestly. As soon as that happened the battle was joined, which
ended with the separation of 14 families from the congregation. The gracious God
was with me, so that in the subsequent investigations by the Missouri Synod and
the Wisconsin Synod my actions were upheld. I must, however confess before
God that in this controversy I was at times too hotheaded and impetuous.
In the winter from 1862 to 1863 I received a call from 2 Lutheran
congregations in Shawano County, namely St. Martini Congregation of Town
Belle Plaine and Bethlehem Congregation of Town Pella. They were still quite
young congregations in newly opened territory. The congregation in Belle Plaine
had been organized by the sainted Pastor Ruhland of Oshkosh, while the
congregation in Pella had been founded by the sainted pastor J. N. Beyer (of
Caledonia). At the time both congregations were being served by Pastor Beyer,
who had to travel 42 miles to Belle Plaine and 10 miles more to Pella. At many
places the roads were at times totally impassable. Pastor Beyer managed to visit
these congregations every eight weeks. Under the circumstances Pastor Beyer was
anxious to pass the responsibility to another truly Lutheran pastor, while the
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congregations earnestly wished to be served more often by a pastor of our Synod.
Most of the members of these congregations had moved there from my
congregations in Mayville and had often expressed the wish to Pastor Beyer, if
only they could again have Pastor Dicke as their pastor. I had done nothing to
promote this call, even though I was personally interested and inclined to serve in
this kind of mission-field, since that had been the purpose of my coming to
America, if possible, to serve my God and Savior in this way. I enjoyed good
health and had a strong constitution, and I was not afraid of bad roads and the like.
I was also ready to endure poverty and privation for my dear Savior’s sake. In
these matters my dear wife thought as I did.
In short, after I had considered everything carefully, I accepted the call in
God’s name. After I had confirmed the children in Mayville at Pentecost and had
paid a visit to my relatives in Minnesota, my family and I started on our way. As
far as New London we divided our family; my oldest son, Henry and I drove in the
buggy, while my wife and other children went by train and steamer.2 From New
London we traveled together with Pastor Beyer in our buggies to Belle Plaine,
where we arrived on 23 June 1863. On the following Sunday I was installed by
Pastor Beyer in both congregations (26 June 1863). In Belle Plaine the service was
held in a public schoolhouse. In Pella in the house of a farmer, August Pankow.
Since our house in Belle Plaine was not finished when we got there, we had to live
together with a farmer in a small blockhouse for the first four months. Soon after
my arrival in Belle Plaine I went to Shawano and Hartland.3 In Hartland there
were four families who came to the services, and in Shawano about the same
number. Besides that I also served the congregation in New London together with
Pastor Beyer for a year and a half in 1863 and 1864.4
2 Editor’s note: The “steamer” refers to the trip on Lake Winnebago from Fond du Lac to Appleton.3 Editor’s note: Hartland is now called Bonduel, Wisconsin.4 New London at that time was served by pastors of the Missouri Synod.
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The winter from 1863 to 1864 was very severe. The snowfall was so deep
that the congregation members in Hartland were completely isolated. For several
months I could not get to them at all.
When we moved into the new parsonage (a low log-house) in the fall of
1863, it wasn’t nearly ready and it remained that way for two and a half years. The
ongoing Civil War was undoubtedly the cause for this delay. My small study was
fairly well finished. The living room and a small adjoining bedroom had floors of
rough and not completely seasoned boards laid on the ground. These later shrunk
so much that the legs of the chairs would catch in the cracks. The floor of the
kitchen was bare earth as God had created it. The cellar was a small hole dug into
the ground and covered with boards. On this cover stood a short ladder, which
served both as cellar steps and steps to the attic. The children had to sleep up in
the attic, not only our own, but also the children who stayed with us during
confirmation instruction. There were no provisions made for the safety of the
children. The roof gable boards had shrunk so much that in a number of places one
could pass the hand in and out through the gable. Often times the snow lay thick
on their bed-covers in the morning, and yet they stayed hale and hearty. After two
and a half years the house was improved somewhat.
Not only was the housing situation poor, but the same was true with regard
to provision for our living. In the call I had been promised a salary of $150 in cash
and various provisions in kind. The salary and other provisions was supposed to
have been pledged by individual members. But instead of $150 the pledge list
showed only $90, and of this, already at Pastor Beyer’s time, $12 was lost when
three member left, so that the list actually showed only $78. The promised
provisions were insufficient to start with, and even these were not all delivered.
We received very little meat and when the elders admonished some members and
reminded them of their promise, they said: “We have none ourselves and so we
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can’t give the pastor any.” A similar situation obtained with regard to the feed for
the horse and cow. The feed that was brought did not cover their needs by a long
ways, so that I paid out over $200 for feed in the first two and a half years.
In addition everything was very expensive during the war. Plain blue denim
for trousers was 70 to 72 cents a yard, calico 40 to 42 cents. The worst inflationary
prices had to be paid for provisions and feed. Wheat was $2.50 a bushel, flour
$12.00 a barrel, and other prices were correspondingly high. Oats, corn, and
potatoes were usually over a dollar a bushel. Marsh hay of very poor quality was
priced at $22 a ton. Dressed hogs were 15 to 16 cents a pound and more. Money
was barely worth 50 cents to the dollar, naturally also that which the pastor
received as salary. The war brought extremely hard times for everyone. In Belle
Plaine every able-bodied man who was young and physically fit enough was
without exception in the army. Wood for fuel was dragged through the deep snow
from the woods by myself and my oldest son, at that time a lad of 9 years. I also
was in danger of being drafted by lot to serve in the army. But even though my
name was among those to be chosen by lot for the draft on two occasions, God
prevented my being drafted.
My wife had earned $260 teaching district school. Members of the
congregation had raised a large crop of rutabagas (yellow turnips) on half shares on
our land. We received 1,200 bushels as our share, which I took to Shawano myself
after school and sold them. We ate dry bread and saved wherever we could, and
yet we were deeply in debt.
In the fall of 1865 I received a call from two congregations from the vicinity
of Indianapolis, Indiana. The promised support looked very good. At first I
thought I would return the call without further ado. When I began to think about
my situation, and especially about my debts, I realized that matters could not
continue in this way. I communicated with Pastor Beyer and asked him to come
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and counsel with me. He came to see me soon and urged me not to accept the call.
We called a congregation meeting in Belle Plaine and explained what was at stake.
A new pledge list for my support was prepared and the members showed a real
willingness to bring sacrifices in accordance with their circumstances. They
begged me earnestly not to leave them, otherwise they would be entirely without a
church ministry. Also in Pella the members displayed a real spirit of sacrifice for
my support. Yet, even though I would have to take on many additional burdens
and hardships and my financial support would be less than it would have been in
Indianapolis, I felt in conscience bound to remain with my congregations.
In the spring of 1864 I began to preach also in Town Bear Creek and served
this congregation for nine and a half years. In Town Larrabee (both towns are in
Waupaca County) I organized two congregations of which I could transfer one to
Pastor Lauritzen’s parish. When the war had finally ended in 1865, immigration
into our region became quite lively, whereas it had almost stopped completely
during the war. A few families had even moved out. My mission field became
larger from year to year until I was finally serving 14-16 preaching places. In
Belle Plaine I taught school, and in addition had to conduct confirmation classes in
4 different places, preach at various places, besides all the other additional work
such a sick calls, funeral services, weddings, etc. The work had finally gotten too
much for me, so that I began to suffer from severe insomnia. I lived in fear that I
would as a result have to resign my ministerial office. End of October 1872
Candidate Henry Stute came to my assistance and took charge of the congregation
in Town Hartland.
In 1873 I came to the conclusion that my mission field ought to be divided,
partly because several congregations made sufficient material progress, so that they
could with a little effort and good will maintain their own pastors; partly also
because I could no longer supervise the whole parish in such a way that no
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detriment would result. This was particularly true of the youth work. I therefore
strongly urged the congregations in Belle Plaine, Pella, and Town Grant, as well as
in other places which were to be attached to the above congregations as branch
congregations, that they should call their own pastors. At first no one wanted to
discuss the matter seriously. Their answer to my urgings was “We have a pastor.”
But I did not permit them to refuse me. Instead I spoke to their consciences and
declared that I could no longer accept the responsibility of having their children
grow up as they were. Neither could they accept the responsibility, for their
children needed much more instruction in the Word of God than I could give them.
Most of the members realized the truth of my argument and so my plan was
adopted. As a result three calls for candidates were sent to St. Louis. It was my
intention to give up all congregations and mission stations west of Shawano.
These congregations were the oldest, and consequently also richer in material
goods. They were therefore also the first who could afford to provide for their own
preachers.
In the winter of 1874 I received a call from St. Paul’s congregation in Town
Washington, who wanted to have me as their own pastor. After considering all
things carefully, I accepted the call in God’s name. It was an important mission
field to which I was transferred by my acceptance of this call. Outside of my own
congregation in Town Washington, there were also three brand new and promising
places, which I had to take over, namely a preaching place on White Clay Lake,
north-east of me; also preaching places in Town Gillet and Town Howe, both in
Oconto County. I was firmly convinced that I had to take over these places myself,
if they were not to be lost for our church. There was no other pastor in the
neighborhood who could take care of these people; in addition, no means were
available to pay another pastor, since at that time there were no mission subsidies;
with a few possible exceptions all the settlers in this whole region were brand new
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beginners. Since the congregation in Town Washington could not build a
parsonage for me, I had a small log-house built on land that I owned there.
The congregation in Belle Plaine had followed my suggestion to call their
own pastor and gave me a peaceful dismissal. So I moved in God’s name to Town
Washington in early summer 1874 with my family and lived in the center of a large
mission territory. In the late summer 1874 Candidate J. Diehl came and relieved
me of several congregations and preaching places west of Shawano. Because no
candidates could be supplied for the other two calls, I had to keep the
congregations west of Shawano in Belle Plaine, Town Richmond, and Town
Herman. In the meantime I had organized congregations in Gillet and Town
Howe. Thus the number of places to take care of had decreased very little through
the arrival of Pastor Diehl, because in Town Gillet and Town Howe there were two
preaching places in each township. Fortunately at that time my son-in-law, Pastor
Stute, could help me in my parish almost every Sunday afternoon, which he did
untiringly, not only here in Town Washington but also elsewhere, especially in
Shawano.
Pastor Diehl relieved me of 4 congregations. In the year 1876 Pastor G.
Barth was called to Pella. He also relieved me of several places. In 1879 Pastor
Ebert accepted the call to St. Martin’s Congregation of Belle Plaine. He also
assumed responsibility for a congregation in Town Richmond and somewhat later
for St. James Congregation in Shawano. In 1881 for a short time (barely 5 months)
I had an assistant, Pastor Karl Schwan. The two congregations in Belle Plaine
could not agree on salary and other matters. Consequently I had to keep St. John’s
congregation myself. Also here in Town Washington I received lasting help when
Candidate O. List relieved me of Immanuel Congregation here and the
congregation in Gillet. I was still able to serve mission congregations until I was
70 and a half years old, namely the congregations in Town Howe and Town
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Richmond. In the fall of 1892 Candidate Johannes Huchthausen took charge of the
congregation in Town Howe and Rev. Nickel relieved me of the on in Town
Richmond.
For 34 years of my life I was privileged through God’s grace to do mission
work in its real sense and to carry on Home Mission work. During that time I lived
the life of a pioneer. Finally I had only St. Paul’s congregation in Town
Washington, where I live in my own house since 1874. Here I served five more
years until the fall of 1897. But then I was compelled for various reasons to resign
from the active ministry. Some of my old friends did not fully approve of my
action. But anyone who wishes to judge fairly must know all of the reasons which
prompted my action and weigh them judiciously. If I had not been compelled to
teach school, I could have administered the holy office for one or more years, but I
could not see any proper way of being relieved of this duty. But I could no longer
teach school because of my insomnia. There were other reasons also, such as
difficulty in making sick calls, accompanying funerals to the grave in winter, etc.
God gave me abundant opportunity to do what I could still do. I was able to
help out Pastor Nickel in Shawano, so that he could do mission work among the
Indians. I could also help out frequently in the Town Washington, Immanuel
congregation, where I was vacancy pastor for almost 5 months, and afterwards
during the illness of Pastor Kolb I could assist frequently. As long as I was still
able to render such assistance I was glad to do it, partly because it gave me the
opportunity to witness to the grace of my God and Savior, partly because I could
still show my fellow-sinners the way to salvation. I was able to preach until I had
completed my 80th year, but then I was completely done for. I had caught a cold
and became very hoarse. I tried to preach too soon, lost my voice entirely for a
time, and never fully recovered its full power. Now there is no longer any need for
my assistance. The good and gracious God has until now provided me with a quiet
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old age. Even though my family and I formerly lived in poverty, yet now in my
old age I can live without worry and want. While we have no great surplus, we do
not have any lack of necessities either.
I suppose I can say that in the years of my ministry I did not seek to feather
my nest, for as often as a congregation founded by me reached the stage that they
had enough of this world’s goods that they could afford to pay me a decent salary,
I turned it over to another pastor, so that they could be supplied more abundantly
with God’s Word. On the other hand I assumed responsibility for new and poor
congregations, in which for the first no money was to be gained.
I have been criticized at times and the claim has been made that it was a
serious mistake on my part to have served new congregations at times without
salary and not to have insisted immediately that they pay their pastor a salary. If
you don’t know the circumstances, you can’t form a right judgement. The
immigrants who settled in our region at that time were almost without exception
very poor. Since they were making their beginning in primeval forest, they had to
live for quite some time in very limited circumstances. They were worse off than
new settlers are today, because now they can sell their logs for good prices. Then
the settlers had to burn down their woods with considerable work, or if they could
sell some of it, it hardly compensated them for the work involved. The present
settlers on new land can find work at fair wages almost everywhere. The settlers
then often had to leave their farms and families all winter long in order to find
work at a great distance at generally low wages. For a long time money was
devalued and prices were inflated. Whatever the beginners needed was usually
very expensive. Some even had to leave their families in the summer to work as
harvesters in order to earn the money to buy the most urgent necessities.
When pastors serve mission station now they receive support from the
mission treasury, but at that time nothing was available for such purposes. So if it
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is proper to subsidize preachers at mission stations, so that congregations in their
period of poverty can hear the Word of God without paying salary, then my actions
in preaching God’s Word to the poor without pay was not wrong. If the
congregations which receive subsidy for their pastor’s salary from the mission
treasury for a time do not become spoiled or stingy, then I cannot be faulted for
doing the same thing. Or, if I by my procedure committed the above-named
offences, then the whole Synod today is making the same mistake, for Synod is
doing exactly what I did.
In addition, the Methodists were very active at that time almost everywhere
and made great efforts. They boasted continually that they preached to the people
free of charge. Consequently I either had to do what I did, or else leave the whole
field to these sectarians. It is true that I was most anxiously concerned, lest people
see in me a person who sought not the sheep but the wool. Because I saw with my
own eyes what poverty the new settlers endured, I did not have the courage to
speak at once about salary matters. In this I often took the Apostle Paul as my
example, but I must admit that unlike him I did not always strike the right balance
and I must also confess that here and there I should have urged the people sooner
to help support the holy ministry in their midst. My mistakes and neglect had their
cause in human weakness.
The land I owned helped to support and maintain my family. Originally I
had, on the advice of Pastor Beyer, bought 40 acres of state-owned land in Belle
Plaine. Their purpose, to help in the support of my family, was certainly
accomplished. At first some of the members helped clear some of the land. My
wife and children helped energetically in the farm work. At times I also had a
hired man, and as before said, with the help of my family we managed to scrape a
bare subsistence off the land. Since my sons had no inclination to study for the
ministry I later on bought more land in Belle Plaine while it was still cheap. When
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I tried to sell it later on, I could not get its value. Since I did not want to sell it at a
loss, I kept it. Then the price rose to such an extent that it has become a substantial
aid to our support in our old age.
When I left Dodge County I had $400 in cash which I lent to a friend and the
rest invested in land. Practically all of this money was an inheritance, the major
portion from my brother Herman who was unmarried when he died. I wanted to
save this money for my family. On the advice of a congregation member in the
present Town Grant, Shawano County, I bought a farm there and rented it out, so
that it would bring me some income to provide for my family. The last renters
were two brothers, who, after they had lived there a few years, either wanted to
buy it or move out. At that time I made up my mind to sell them the farm, since I
had an opportunity to buy some good state-owned land very cheap. The buyers of
the farm, however, were not able to pay out the purchase price immediately, so I
had to have patience with them. Because I wanted to buy the land in Town
Washington anyway I turned to my brother Friedrich in Minnesota and asked him
to lend me the money for a while. He sent me $150. Due to the delay in the
payment for my farm the purchase of the state-owned land was held up. In that
way I got the same amount of land for $100 cheaper, because all state-owned land
which is unsold after three years on the market (and that was the case here) is sold
for the original price. When I wanted to repay my brother later, he made me a
present of the money, so that I have the land on my farm in Town Washington
almost for nothing. It was not my intention at the time to live on this land, but
circumstance changed. I myself never worked on this farm. I simply didn’t have
the time. But it was not easy to make ends meet, since I needed quite a bit for
horse and buggy, for my clothing, and for travel expenses and pocket money. In
addition the living cost for the large family which the good Lord gave me were not
small.
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My dear wife bore me 13 children. The two eldest, Karoline and Heinrich
were born in Frankentrost, Michigan. Three, namely Marie, Pauline, and Friedrich
were born in Town Theresa, Dodge County. So we moved to Belle Plaine with 5
children. There 5 more children were born, namely, Hermann, Hermine, Anna,
Wilhelm, and Karl. Three further children were born to us in Town Washington,
Johannes, Juliana, and Klara. Johannes and Juliana were twins. Of these 13
children 10 are still alive. Herman died as a small boy, before he could walk.
Friedrich died of an accidental gunshot wound. He was driving our cows to
the pasture and met some of the other boys of the neighborhood on the way. One
of the boys had a pistol, which another boy took into his hand. He thought that the
pistol would not fire, because previous attempts to shoot it had not succeeded.
When Friedrich came to this group, the boy who had the pistol in his hand wanted
to frighten Friedrich, aimed at him and said: “I’ll shoot you dead.” There was no
misfire this time. The shot hit our Friedrich in the chest. Because the lung was
perforated, he died of internal hemorrhages after 13 hours. He was 10 years and 4
months old when he died. I did not happen to be at home when the accident
occurred, but was in Town Bear Creek. He was still alive when I returned, but not
long. Before his death he prayed: “Lord Jesus, I live in Thee; Lord Jesus I die in
Thee; Lord Jesus, thine I am, living or dying! Take me to haven. Amen." Also:
“The blood of Jesus Christ, God’s Son cleanses me from all sin” which he applied
to himself through special emphasis on the word "me”. He was quite weak and
would doze of; when he awoke again, he would pray of his own accord such short
prayers and Bible passages as mentioned.
Our eldest daughter, Karoline, the wife of Pastor (Karl) Stute, now also
deceased, died in the fall of 1883 in Tawas City, Michigan of malaria. Although
we had the blessed hope that all three children died in faith and are saved, yet we
did experience deep sorrow in these three deaths, particularly in Friedrich’s case.
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We could comfort ourselves with the conviction that our dear ones had merely
preceded us into heavenly rest, into the Kingdom of Glory of our Lord Jesus Christ
and that we would follow, soon or late, just as the Savior promised when he said:
“I will come again and receive you unto myself, that where I am, ye may be also.”
John 14:3. When it is said of all Christians that they must through much
tribulation enter into the Kingdom of God, it is particularly true of the ministers of
Christ, on whom God must sometimes lay a special cross. God be praised, that
they are called not only to be burden-bearers together with other Christians, but
also, if they remain faithful and steadfast, to be partakers in the glory of heaven
Rev. 1:9. Yes, God often comforts them already here on earth, as He did pious
Job, and lets them win victory after victory. That has been my experience by
God’s grace.
I was permitted to serve the Lord my God for 45 years and 4 months in the
holy ministry. It has been my goal and purpose, when I came to America, to offer
my life in the service of missions and of the Lutheran Church in America, to
preach the Gospel of Jesus Christ to my German countrymen, so that they might
become true Christians, believe and be saved. God be praised and glorified that He
has been with me and permitted me to achieve my goal and life purpose. In His
service and with His help I could organize 345 congregations. Several of these
gave up their original organization to unite with other larger congregations, so that
today they number 22. I was permitted to teach school for 40 years in my Savior’s
service. I was privileged by God’s grace to show the Way of Life to a great
multitude of children both in school and in confirmation classes. May God’s
blessing rest upon this instruction! I thank God that He blessed the Word and my
labor, so that I may hope that through me, a poor and unworthy sinner, something
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was accomplished to His glory and the salvation of my fellow-redeemed. With full
conviction and in all sincerity I say: “Any good that’s done in this life of mine is
due entirely to Thy power divine.” I also confess in the words of the savior: “If ye
have done all that is commanded of you, say: we are unworthy servants.” If
already he is an unworthy servant who had done everything, how much more am I
unworthy, how much more I, who failed by far in doing everything commanded. I
neglected much that I should have done, and much I did wrongly. Many times I
should have confessed my Savior or I should have warned men of their sins, and
didn’t do it. Oftentimes I gave offense through my quick temper and so I must cry
out, when reviewing even the best of my labor: “God be merciful to me, a sinner”
and “all my righteousness is as a filthy rag.” Next to the spiritual benefactions and
all the other blessings, which God has showered upon me, in my long life, those,
which I have come to enjoy in my old age, are certainly not the least. Until now I
have been able to live quietly without suffering any want. My health has been such
that I could attend services in God’s house almost every Sunday and my hearing
stayed good enough6 that I could hear almost every word of the sermon. That the
sermon I hear is the pure Word of God, that is a blessing so extraordinary that I
cannot thank God enough for it.
God has showered another great blessing upon me in that the true life’s
companion which he let me find has been preserved at my side all these years, so
that we could celebrate our Golden Wedding Anniversary some time ago7. The
children are all grown and can with God’s help provide for themselves. When I
think of all this, I must say from the bottom of my heart: “Lord I am not worthy in
the least of all the mercies and of all the truth, which Thou has shown to Thy
servant.” I can only sigh:
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O Father, deign Thou, I beseech Thee
To listen to my earthly lays;
A nobler strain in heaven shall reach Thee
When I with angels sing Thy praise
And learn amid their choirs to sing
Loud Hallelujahs to my King. (The Lutheran Hymnal #30 v. 6)
TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY! AMEN!
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