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Mathematics Classroom Experiences and Ahimsa:
Love and Harm in the Mathematics Classroom
Master Final Project
Jayne Powell
University of Alberta
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Abstract At the core of Gandhi’s teachings is the practice of ahimsa, an active love, where one
strives to do no harm in the world, through neither word, thought, nor deed. In educational
practice, teachers would say that they strive to do what is ‘best’ for their students within their
capabilities, yet stories of harm pervade the stories of mathematical educational experiences. In
my research, I conducted a close reading of sixty grade nine student mathematical reflections on
experiences, with Gandhi’s notion of ahimsa as a framework from which to consider themes of
love and harm in relation to mathematics education. This was done in the hopes of better
understanding how I as a teacher can continue to move towards a more loving pedagogy, while
perhaps slowly helping to change the cultural narrative of mathematics education to a more
positive story. This study concluded that there is evidence of potential harm to students, such as;
being intensely focused on grades, having conflated being the ‘fastest’ and being the ‘best’,
viewing learning math as memorizing many sets of steps, believing that they have learned a topic
but merely ‘forget’ it on assessments, not feeling confident to ask questions, being acutely aware
they are not learning at the current pacing, and being singled out. It also showed students
benefiting from tying grades and speed to more than just end goals in and of themselves, setting
goals with metacognitive awareness, and by feeling that their teacher both wants them to and
works towards them succeeding.
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Table of ContentsAbstract.................................................................................................................................................... 2
Table of Contents................................................................................................................................... 3
Introduction............................................................................................................................................. 4
Literature Review.................................................................................................................................. 5On Ahimsa........................................................................................................................................................... 6On Love................................................................................................................................................................ 9On Harm........................................................................................................................................................... 11
Method................................................................................................................................................... 18
Findings and Discussion..................................................................................................................... 22Measured Performance.................................................................................................................................. 23
On Grades.......................................................................................................................................................................... 23On Speed............................................................................................................................................................................ 28
Approaches to Learning................................................................................................................................ 32On Memory....................................................................................................................................................................... 32On Awareness of Learning..........................................................................................................................................39On Not Understanding...................................................................................................................................................41On Asking Questions.....................................................................................................................................................45
Direct Teacher Interactions.......................................................................................................................... 47
Conclusion............................................................................................................................................. 49Implications...................................................................................................................................................... 55
References............................................................................................................................................. 58
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IntroductionI teach students many things through working with mathematics, but I have always been
hired to teach them mathematics. I acted as the mathematics specialist for six years in a high
school before the professional growth opportunities offered by my district were not helping me
answer my larger questions. I decided that to get the ‘answers’ to my questions I needed by
going back to graduate school to study full time. Surely in the hallowed halls of academia
someone would have the ‘answers’ I was seeking.
During my time in the program offered at the University of Alberta I came to realize
there were no ‘answers’ in the form I was expecting. However, I learned to think of and ask
questions differently, and to see the value in different forms of answers. These kinds of
‘answers’ would never be easily defined, nor would these answers ‘fix’ education; but, they
might help the educational world move towards a more positive place.
I realized that the question I really came back to school to ‘answer’ was how I could
impact students and school in a more positive way. The ‘answer’ I found in what I was reading
and thinking was to reflect on my approach to pedagogy. I should be continually (re)asking what
is important, and what does and what should have value. In the middle of considering positive
change as coming from within and not something that could be implemented from the outside, I
came across into Gandhi’s view of ahimsa. He appropriated the word from the world of religion,
which played a large part in his life, specifically Jainism, Hinduism, and Buddhism. Ahisma is
often translated as nonviolence, but can also be translated as to not harm (Parekh, 1988).
Gandhi had a radical take on ahimsa; he considered ahimsa in the positive as love, to not
do harm in word thought or deed (Parekh, 1988). This idea of love as not doing harm on any
level resonated within me; this is what it means to love. A loving pedagogy is first and foremost
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an attempt to do no harm in word, thought, or deed. Because my previous teaching experience
mostly occurred in the context of mathematics, I began to consider love and harm in the
mathematics classroom. There seems to be a cultural narrative that having to learn mathematics
is harmful, at least to those that don’t feel they are ‘good’ at mathematics. When talking to
people about what it is that I do, they feel an incredibly strong need to tell me either how good
they were at mathematics or the stories of their mathematical scars. There is slow to the flow of
conversation until they are able to explain to me their mathematics education story. It seems that,
to continue our conversation, their stories of mathematical experience must be told first; to them
it is the only way I, as a math teacher, could come to know them. Many people seem to feel
harmed by their mathematics education. These stories of their ‘war wounds’ have led me to
wonder about harm, mathematics, and love as seen in people’s memories. My question(s) sprang
from these experiences of mathematics education and the notions of love and harm in Gandhi’s
ahimsa.
During my research my thinking will be guided by the question: When grade nine
student’s memories of previous mathematical experiences are considered through Gandhi’s
notion of ahimsa, what indications of love and harm emerge?
This question is complex, and through considering these questions sub-questions emerge,
such as: What is harm? What does it mean to be harmed by mathematics education? How can
someone be harmed by mathematics education? What is love? What does love look like in
mathematics education? What does practicing ahimsa look like in mathematics pedagogy? These
questions will focus my unpacking of love and harm in mathematical education experiences, so I
can consider what Gandhi’s ahimsa looks like in the mathematics classroom.
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Literature ReviewThe stories of mathematical experiences in school elicit strong emotional responses in
individuals. As a way to start interpreting these experiences, I am drawn to Gandhi’s notion of
ahimsa, to not do harm in word, thought nor deed. By considering ahimsa as a framework has led
me to ask the question: When grade nine student’s memories of previous mathematical
experiences are considered through Gandhi’s notion of ahimsa, what indications of love and
harm emerge?
In researching and writing this literature review, I am interested in starting to unpack how
to approach Gandhi’s work, and the ideas and writings surrounding ahimsa. In entering into
discussion with the ideas of ahimsa I will also have to consider both harm and love. Much is
written about violence or harm in education; in mathematics education, this is often named as
mathematical anxiety, but there is less written about love, it is often written about as empathy, or
caring, but the word love is rarely used. This can be seen in Noddings’ (2013) work on the ethic
of care. When using Gandhi’s notion of ahimsa as a framework it is as important attempt to look
for indications of love in education, as well as harm and violence.
On Ahimsa.Parekh (1988) outlines Gandhi’s notion of ahimsa within Indian tradition, through
discussion of his writings and examples throughout his life. The author concludes that Gandhian
philosophy is too broad to know exactly what Gandhi’s response would be to today’s problems;
however, there are reoccurring themes such as decreasing violence, taking action, and loving as
much as is possible within very complex situations and systems. This article effectively places
Gandhi in the traditions in which he based his ideas on, and provides an outline Gandhi’s version
of ahimsa, within multiple contexts, including some of his writings and actions. Indian traditions
prior to Gandhi “did not assign active love an important place in their moral theory; for Gandhi it
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was the highest moral value. Not surprisingly he took over the concept of ahimsa and defined it
in a radically novel manner” (Parekh, 1988, p. 198). Parekh (1988) discusses Gandhi’s ahimsa as
revolutionary, because he does not hold with Indian traditions that attempt to not cause violence
through inaction or removing oneself from the world. Instead, Gandhi believed that active love,
in the positive, was necessary to promote the well being of all. It is compassion and active love
that decrease the violence and harm in our world.
Although the author ultimately feels Gandhi should have set up a more rigid morality for
it to be of any practical use, I see the intentional flexibility of Gandhi’s philosophy as what
makes it powerful. It is not about clearly defining right and wrong, and censoring those who fall
outside the lines. Gandhi’s thinking on the notion of ahisma is broad and adaptive to the
situation, which necessitates critical thinking and love to be placed as important over clearly
defined reactions for every situation. This includes situations within education, for “ahimsa is the
attribute of the soul, and, therefore, to be practiced by everybody in all the affairs of life. If it
cannot be practiced in all departments it has no practical value” (Gandhi & Attenborough, 2000,
p. 36).
Parekh (1988) also makes it clear that Gandhi could ‘understand’, ‘excuse’ and ‘pardon’
minimal violence, but for him any use of violence or harm could never be justified. For Gandhi,
the ideals of ahimsa must remain absolute: there can be no justification for violence, it is
important to try to live up to your ideals. Therefore ahimsa is a practice, that could never be done
or complete, it is a constant way of being in the world. If a person should stumble, not living up
to the ideal, it is not cause to become demoralized but, according to Gandhi, should illicit feeling
of possible improvement. By this thinking, a teacher can not live up to an ideal all the time;
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however, by striving to be better and to be someone who cares, they would be moving closer to
love and practicing ahimsa.
When reading work that takes up Gandhi’s ideas, authors use his work in vastly different
ways. Some, such as Parekh (1988), try to use his work as a tight moral guide, while others, such
as Allen (2007) use what they consider to the overarching intention of his work. Allen (2007)
rejects both essentialist and non-essentialist readings of Gandhi’s work and believes both
approaches reduce the value of Gandhi’s work by either making it too rigid and structured or too
open and not useful. He believes there is a middle reading that does not look for a static truth but
is concerned with finding truth that can offer insights to help us interpret violence and peace
education. All of Gandhi’s ideas surrounding ahisma, are tied closely with ideas of Truth.
“Without Ahimsa it is not possible to seek and find Truth. Ahimsa and Truth are so intertwined
that it is practically impossible to disentangle and separate them. They are like two sides of the
same coin, or rather of a smooth unstamped metallic disc” (Gandhi, 1954, p. 8-9). Truth for
Gandhi was an absolute, and by seeking Truth through Ahimsa, he was seeking God.
Considering Allen’s (2007) perspective to take up Gandhi’s ideas, I should neither dismiss these
discussions surrounding Truth and God, nor should I feel I have to use these ideas as a rigid
frame. There is a middle reading where Gandhi’s notion of Truth, as absolute, can offer insights
into my work.
Allen (2007) takes a hermeneutical orientation in reading Gandhi where there is no ‘true’
or static view of Gandhi’s philosophy, how writers or researchers interpret Gandhi is wound
together with their current world and situation, and this is unavoidable. This state does not have
to be overcome because every reading of Gandhi should be recognized as a (re)reading. Allen
(2007) finds his research focus on violence and peace education not in Gandhi’s specific writings
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about education, but in Gandhi’s larger philosophical orientation and framework. Using Gandhi
as a framework or as a lens does not mean I need to fit experiences into predefined philosophy
boxes: interpretation is possible, allowable, and unavoidable.
To think of improvements in education as setting up frameworks to continually ‘fix
problems’ until eventually arriving at a utopic scene is setting oneself up for disappointment.
According to Indian philosophical tradition, to live is to cause violence; there is no escape from
this violence as even killing oneself to be removed from the world would be an act of violence.
According to Gandhi, our duty is to do as little harm as possible, in the active sense, by loving
one another and the world around us. Gandhi does not promote a system where all the answers
are given, he leaves it to each individual to consider and discuss how to decrease violence or
harm in their own sphere. For teachers, becoming a more loving teacher means reflecting on
one’s own practice and making changes based on who one is, who one’s students are, and what
one’s context promotes. These actions, in turn, will decrease harm and violence. “Gandhi often
remarked that it was not his job to tell his followers how to behave, and that each of them must
sincerely work out for himself how best to practice ahimsa” (Parekh, 1988, p. 216). This is not a
one-size-fits-all ‘fix’; in fact, it is not a ‘fix’ at all. To practice ahimsa is to slowly progress
towards greater love and thus, hopefully, decreased harm.
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On Love.Ahimsa is the greatest love of all, and thus all writing surrounding ahimsa should be
considered writings on love. However, I also want to look at how love is taken up in educational
literature. It is important to call out violence and the harm that it creates, but it is also important
to focus on love and all the positive things that happen in mathematical educational experience.
These include stories of accomplishment, stories of positive change, and stories victories, large
and small. Thus I ask, “What is love?” and “What does love look like in mathematics
education?”
Noddings (2013) researches ideas surrounding the notion of caring, which are deeply
entwined with my questions surrounding love. She expertly unpacks the notion of caring: caring
for, caring about, and caring’s negative and positive connotations through hypothetical case
studies. As Noddings (2013) writes, “It may be that much of what is most valuable in the
teaching-learning relationship cannot be specified and certainly not pre-specified. The attitude
characteristic of caring comes through in acquaintance” (p. 20). In the mathematics classroom,
love and caring come through the relationships of the people involved. So much time and
discussion surrounding mathematics education deals with the content, the progression, the
assessment, and the resources, and although these things are important and valuable
conversations, they sometimes overshadow the reason all these things are important, the student.
It is in relation, the places between people, that love is found.
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In education the word love rarely is spoken. It eludes to a crossing of professional and
ethical boundaries, however Loreman (2011) feels that learning happens best with relationships
that are “intimate, safe, caring, and warm” (p. 1). He adamantly names this type of relationship
as love. Through psychological, religious, and philosophical frameworks he argues that learning
should not be learning to comply through conditioning. That by “using love as pedagogy is an
antidote to superficial learning” (Loreman, 2011, p. 8). Learning should not be training, but
education, and becoming a more critical thinker, problem solver, and empathetic person.
Loreman (2011) draws heavily on the work of Cho (2005) who argues that “love has the
power to inspire students to seek after knowledge, love can unite the teacher and student in the
quest for knowledge, and the love of learning can even empower students to challenge
knowledge thereby pushing its limits” (p. 79). Love involves kindness, empathy, intimacy,
bonding, acceptance, and community. Both Loreman (2011) and Cho (2005) argue that passion
infuses all aspects of love. Passion for students, passion for learning, passion for ones subject,
passion for the future, passion for social justice, passion for hope, passion for change, passion for
diminishing harm, passion for leaving the world a better place then you found it. Here I find
love. But can an institution like school be loving? Can you see love in the mathematics
classroom? I would say yes, although school is a structure, is a structure built of people and it is
through the relationships of these people you can see ahimsa, you can see love.
On Harm.By considering mathematical educational experiences through the framework of ahimsa,
two major ideas need to be unpacked: love and harm. Although much written about ahimsa
phrased as non-violence instead of non-harm, and although I at times use the word violence, I
choose to ask my questions from the perception of harm. Violence is the action that is done,
while harm considers the act and the legacy of that violence. I choose to ask, “What is harm?”
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instead of “What is violence?” because I am interested in the on-going struggles as well as the
initial act(s). Thus, I am also asking, “What does it mean to be harmed by mathematics
education?” and “How can someone be harmed by mathematics education?”
Few people would disagree that they entered the profession of teaching hoping to make a
positive impact in students’ lives; yet, students are harmed. Some of this violence is born of a
mainly rigid system looking to produce students who conform to their version of an acceptable
citizen; but additionally, classroom teachers are daily perpetuating harm. Sihra & Anderson
(2009) look at the social violence perpetrated in the classroom, mostly unwittingly, by teachers:
they focus on dsyconsciousness, arrogant perception, and normalization as forms of violence.
Dysconsciousness is presented as an unwillingness to see social violence and the justification of
inequality and exploitation by accepting them as ‘the way things are.’
For Sihra & Anderson (2009), it is of the utmost importance that we as teachers examine
our own lenses and to find out who and what our lens renders visible and invisible. Arrogant
perception is presented as the inability to identify with another person “leading one to ignore,
ostracize, render invisible, stereotype, isolate, or interpret as crazy those who are perceived as
different from the self” (Sihra & Anderson, 2009, p. 381). Finally, Sihra & Anderson (2009)
discuss the normalization of dysconsciousness and arrogant perception of inequity as violence.
They call for a noticing of the violence and the adoption of ahimsa, the largest love, and
philosophical humility so as to realize that there are things that we cannot know.
Sihra & Anderson (2009) highlight the importance of noticing violence. Although
dwelling on the undesirable can seem to cloud a world negatively, it is also important to notice
and give voice to harm that has been done. Noticing and then responding to this harm, so it might
not happen again. By noticing, contemplating, and discussing, we might push violence into the
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light, otherwise the harm will continue to be reproduced in the shadows. Although the discussion
of harm in my work will be entwined with love, it is important not to shy away from experiences
that demonstrate harm done to someone because of my profession. Although harm might not be
done purposefully, it happens and it is important to ask why and how to diminish these negative
experiences for future students.
Joshee (2006) is also interested in noticing violence. In her article on peace education she
discusses what is means to be peaceful and places peace education within Ganhdian pedagogy
and three sub-ideas of ahimsa: “sarvodaya (the uplift of all), satyagraha (the power that comes
from acting in ways consistent with the principles of ahimsa), and trusteeship” (p. 7). She
discusses ways of assisting peace education with three pedagogic ideas and discusses her
personal experiences working against structural violence.
Structural violence is rampant in the mathematics classroom as it is in all classrooms; the
world is not left outside if we merely close our doors. Teachers and students should be aware of
these types of violence and how to hopefully engage and reduce them. Although social violence
is pervasive and woven into our world, to attempt to call them out and to address them is
important: it is a form of love. Although I am not directly discussing peace education, there may
be overlap that exists between this work and that of peace educators. We are both concerned with
recognizing structural violence and using our own lenses to move towards a more loving
pedagogy or ahimsa.
Labaree (2011) discusses the possibilities for a Hippocratic oath for education. First and
foremost, teachers should strive to do no harm. Although straightforward, doing no harm is
easier said then done. The notion of harm is complex; what is wonderful for one is harmful for
another. Current positive reforms can become future systemic issues. I see this complexity
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through a childhood memory. On a hot day in early fall, as I can clearly see the golden straw
fields, post harvest around my home. I was playing near the old red barn when one of our
families’ cats caught my eye. He was batting at something happily in the long grass. As I moved
closer to investigate I discovered the cat was toying with a small mouse. Without thinking, I
swooped down and picked up the tiny creature in my hands, thinking to myself what a nice thing
that was for me to do for such a small helpless creature. How grand I was. The mouse in
response to my magnanimous action bit me. Hard enough to make me cry out, “Fine, if you want
to be that way then I will just let the cat have you”. I placed the mouse back on the ground in
front of the cat, the pride I had felt in my supposed savior hurting. I then turned my back and
walked away. Here the memory of the mouse ends for me, and this sudden ending continually
haunts quiet moments. Over time I have constructed multiple possible endings to this tale. In
one, I race and get my father’s work gloves and, now safe from the mouse’s bite, carry it to
safety. In another, the guilt engulfs me and I turn around and change my plan of action to
removing the aggressor in this situation, the cat. In another, I bravely pick up the mouse again
and move her to safety, for she did not know how to ‘act any better’. Yet, in another version of
the conclusion, I simply walk away, perhaps it is not my place to get involved. This is why this
memory haunts my silent mind; what action or non-action did I take that day? What was the
conclusion to this story for the mouse, the cat, and for me? What has been constructed in my re-
living and what actually occurred? Did I let my damaged pride get the better of me? Did I do the
‘right’ thing? What was the ‘right thing’? Because mice are considered pests on the farm, was
the cat merely fulfilling its purpose? Did I interfere where I did not belong? I do not know, nor
will I ever, but I have lived it though a thousand times never coming to a conclusive ‘best’ action
or non-action.
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So I ask, what is harm and what does it look like in the mathematics classroom and
mathematical educational experience? Harm in mathematics education literature seems to be
often described in terms of the creation of mathematical anxiety, although the word harm or
violence is rarely used. Jackson & Leffingwell (1999) examine how instructors’ behavior
contributes to or exacerbates anxiety in mathematics’ learners. By reading pre-service teachers’
responses to their question, “Describe your worst or most challenging mathematics classroom
experience from kindergarten through college.” Jackson and Leffingwill (1999) found three
focused clusters of increased anxiety: (1) Elementary level, especially grades three and four; (2)
High school level, especially grades nine through eleven; and, (3) College level, especially
freshman year. They analyzed their data by breaking it into common themes and analyzed
whether these themes were overt of covert. Their analysis concluded that there were eight
specific things teachers could do to reduce anxiety: sharing their previous anxiety, project their
love of the subject, offering extra help, making a pervasive mutual respect rule, assisting in the
review process before exams, and offering alternative testing times.
There is a large overlap with Jackson & Leffingwell’s (1999) work on instructors’ roles
of contributing to feeling of anxiety and my focus on teacher’s role in creating feelings of harm
and or love in mathematical education experience. However, there is no tie to theory. Although
my work will be similar, my use of Gandhian theory to discuss and unpack the data will possibly
extend some of the ideas discussed in this article.
This creation of mathematical anxiety through negative experiences is tied up in issues of
equity. Multiple articles discussed in this literature review, Shira & Anderson (2009), Joshee
(2006) and Labree (2011), have made me realize that I could be writing more about equity in
mathematics education experience then I initially thought I would be. The aim of equity is not to
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just make everyone into economically productive workers but also into critical citizens and
thinkers, capable of enacting positive change. Studying mathematics can help learners become
more socially empowered and can assist in developing agency.
Mathematical understandings allow access to cultural capital otherwise not available. To
be mathematically literate, to be seen as mathematically literate, and to consider oneself
mathematically literate allows learners a type of emancipation. “Mathematics has long been a
tool of subjugation, but it can be turned into an instrument of empowerment. It can enable
individuals to see through the inequalities and exaggerations that are so often cloaked in a
mathematics rhetoric” (Davis, 2001, p. 18). Learning mathematics can deepen one’s awareness
of the world. Whether our preferred paradigm or not, we live in an age in which scientism reigns,
and scientism is based upon mathematical understanding. Those who can understand and use
mathematics have a cultural capital which gives them power over their world. Mathematical
literacy is vital in the struggle for social change in our technological society (Davis, 2001).
Everyone needs to understand and use mathematics to be able to reject false or misleading
mathematical claims Mathematics is commonly seen as a mostly finished set of procedures and
formulas which leads to a collective understanding that mathematics knowledge is un-
challengeable, constructed, and used by an elite group of thinkers. Yet, those who are
mathematically literate come to see mathematics as more complex, accessed and used by more
than those in positions of power. Davis (2001) argues that, to use mathematics for social equity
portrays a mathematics that is useable, powerful, accessible, and do-able. This mathematics is
not less rigorous but is a mathematics more focused on critical thought than on memorization of
algorithms. This mathematics is aimed at allowing another way to honestly view our world and
consider change.
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As prominent critical mathematics curriculum thinker Frankenstein (1997) wrote: “With
hope, study, and persistence, we continue, trying to connect our work to the struggle for justice,
against inequalities” (p. 21). Those of us involved in education must not allow ourselves to be
resigned to the immutably seeming way things are. Upon entry into classrooms in the role of
teacher instead of student, it is easy to fall into teaching the way we were taught. Reproducing an
educational experience similar to our own makes a kind of sense: it “worked” for us; therefore, it
can “work” again. This method merely serves to reproduce society; yet, “knowledge is not a
copy of reality, but a process of construction” (Piaget, 1978 [1967], p. 27). Although as teachers
we can rely on what we have experienced and what we learned during our education, it is
paramount for our profession to question our role in the system. Do we merely want to reproduce
the system, or enact positive change? I see this change coming through a socially aware
pedagogy of love that hopes to help build a more equitable and just society through learning and
teaching mathematics.Thus, considering mathematical educational experiences, harm is not only
having a negative experience, often born out of the structural violence discussed in Sihra &
Anderson (2009) and Joshee (2006), nor is it merely the development of mathematical anxiety as
considered by Jackson and Leffingwill (1999). Harm is also caused by diminished opportunities
to take up mathematics in meaningful ways so as to become mathematically literate, leaving the
structures of inequity that are masked in a mathematical dialect mostly unchallenged and
unchanged.
Mathematical educational experiences present me as a researcher an entry point into
considering ahimsa in the mathematics classroom. It is in relationships, and the small things that
are done everyday that students may experience ahimsa. In entering into discussion with the
literature, I have come to see that it is important to interpret Gandhi’s theory for the current
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situation, while not diminishing it by only partially taking up his ideas. To write about ahimsa, I
will have to write about truth. Also, harm is very complex and that harm in the mathematics
classroom occurs both through negative experiences, as well as not developing mathematical
literacy. Also, ideas surrounding love are important and powerful. Allen (2007) explains the
larger value of experiences of love when he writes that:
Nonviolence is a powerful bonding and unifying force that brings us together in caring,
loving, cooperative relations; this allows us to realize and act consistent with the
interconnectedness and unity of all life. Violence, in contrast, maximizes ontological
separateness and divisiveness and is based on the fundamental belief that the other…is
essentially different from me or us (p. 302).
Gandhi calls for everyone to practice ahimsa in all the affairs of life. Perhaps experiments in
ahimsa can act as seeds for other individuals to practice ahimsa, knowingly or not. Loving
actions seeding positive change.
We have not been able yet to discover the true measure of the innumerable properties of
an article of daily use like water. Some of its properties fill us with wonder. Let us not,
therefore, make light of a force of the subtlest kind of Ahimsa, and let us try to discover
its hidden power with patience and faith. Within a brief space of time we have carried to
a fairly successful conclusion a great experiment in the use of this force. As you know I
have not set much store by it. Indeed I have hesitated even to call it an experiment in
Ahimsa. But according to the legend, as Rama’s name was enough to float stones, even
so the movement carried on in the name of Ahimsa brought about a great awakening in
the country and carried us ahead. It is difficult to forecast the possibilities when men with
unflinching faith carry this experiment further forward. . (Gandhi, 1954, p. 154 and 155)
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Method
As it is strongly suggested that the data used for a master level project should not require
the completion of the ethics process, thus I went looking online for publically available data.
Online I found one hundred and twelve grade nine student responses to three questions about
their mathematical experience. These students were instructed to write a blog post to their
teacher discussing their math experience as a way to introduce themselves It was indicated it was
to be four paragraphs long and should answer three questions:
1.) Do you consider yourself to be good or bad at math?
2.) What have been your good and bad experiences with math?
3.) What do you hope to accomplish this year in your math class?
The initial post from their teacher was made in August 2012, and the student responses occurred
from the beginning of to mid September. These are rich responses where the students shared a
multitude of experiences and feelings towards mathematics. Little can be learned about the
background of the students who posted their stories to this site based on their responses. In their
writing there are multiple references to their goals for grade nine, but they do not write about the
school they are at, or what state or province in which they reside. By knowing the teacher’s name
and the domain name of her email I was able to track this data set to a school. On this school’s
current website there is also a math teacher of the same name as the blog post teaching grade
nine math, so I feel confident that I located the school that matched my chosen data set and that it
is authentic, in the sense that students did write the entries.
From their website I learned that this is a grade six to twelve school, with class sizes of
about twenty-five students and one hundred students per grade level, that prides itself on
fostering an academically challenging, student-centered environment. The ‘about’ section of the
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school also stated that these students would have been in this teacher’s class for the first time,
and would have her not only for grade 9 math, but grade 10 math as well. This school defines
itself as an academically challenging program, where close to one hundred percent of their
graduates go on to postsecondary studies. Therefore, these responses are from a rather
homogenous group of students who have sought out this specific school, have the resources to go
through a lengthy acceptance process (including; creating a portfolio, writing entrance tests, and
an interview), and live close enough to commute to Manhattan daily.
I have chosen to refer to the students through their blog post number and not their name,
as although these posts were shared publically, I still would like to protect the student’s
anonymity.
Once these blog posts were located my first act was to read through these student’s
writings, considering their reflections in relation to ahimsa. I read about twenty posts and some
obvious possible codes started to emerge, such as grades, memory, comparing themselves with
others, metacognition, defining themselves good or bad at math, and some very specific positive
and negative memories. The emerging themes observed would be influenced by my theoretical
framework of Gandhi’s concept of ahimsa, specifically love and harm. After the initial reading I
used NVivo, a digital data analysis tool, to help organize and code the data. This tool allowed me
to organize the coding process, search, and easily adjust codes. As I read through these student’s
experiences, I heard the voices of students I have had in my own classrooms. Although these
pieces of writing are not from students I have taught, they seem to have had similar experiences
and views.
The codes that were given to different sections evolved organically as I attempted to
notice love and harm in these student’s experiences. I gave each post a general code for their
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expression of their mathematical experience, if it seemed overall positive, mixed, or negative.
Some of the first codes used included grades, which were then broken down into smaller
categories of final, assignments, and tests (which included students writing about tests, exams,
and quizzes). As I coded through more data the node of assignments seemed to not be necessary
and was removed. Other initial codes included comparing self to others, speed, goals, referencing
specific math topics, memory, metacognition, specific negative memory, specific positive
memory, practice, race, and problem solving. These codes changed as I read more posts; for
example, ‘memory’ got a specific sub section for students discussing needing to memorize steps,
and the code ‘negative moment’ gained two main subsections for catching up after being absent
and not understanding a topic. How the codes ended up being grouped together is shown in
Table1. The themes that emerged from the codes are across the top row. Below each theme is the
codes that were compressed to make up that theme. As I worked with these codes to create
themes, I considered similarities and overlap in the student’s writings.
Table 1.
Codes Used in Analyzing Data
Overall
Attitude
Speed Grades Memory Metacognition Negative
Moments
Positive
Moments
Specific
Math
Topic
Mixed First one
done
Assignments Failed memory When ‘stuck’ I… Being absent Teacher
Neutral Compare
Self to
others
Final Grades Memorization Practice Not
understanding
Singular
Experience
Positive Tests Developed Goal
Setting
Singular
Experience
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Negative Compare self
to others
Grade Goals
After coding about forty entries I was finding that no new codes were being produced. I
then coded twenty more. While coding this group, no more new codes emerged, so I ended up
coding sixty of the one hundred and twelve posts.
Next, I considered the codes that had emerged and grouped them into three categories:
measured performance, approaches to learning, and direct teacher interactions. I went back
through and reread the coded sections and transferred them to a word document, being careful to
catalog the number of the student who had written each quote, so if I needed to refer to the entire
entry at a later date, it would be possible. I then printed all of the chosen quotes and cut them out
individually. Having each coded quote on a separate piece of paper allowed me to manipulate
them and organize them into groups, and allowed me to construct a flow of ideas from one to the
next. I also used a pen and a few highlighters to record thoughts I had while organizing these
paper slips. Through this process, many of the quotes that I valued were discarded as they either
duplicated ideas, or did not best illustrate what I was seeing. The remaining quotes and ideas
were then transferred to a word document where I analyzed and discussed these reflections. I
used more direct quotes then paraphrasing as I believe that having the student’s own voice is
powerful when writing and reading about personal memories. I often chose to correct grammar,
punctuation or spelling when I used direct quotes from students as to not distract the reader.
However, when correcting errors in sentence structure, spelling, or grammar seemed to change
the voice of the student, I left the quotes unchanged.
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I approached this analysis as a previous student and current teacher. The findings and the
discussion are biased by my experiences. This bias is not necessarily negative as having worked
with students whose voices I hear in these reflections. I am empathetic and have an
understanding that I would not have without this bias. As I am writing this project for myself and
possibly other teachers, therefore, these experiences that color my reflections is what connects
this work to the intended audience.
Findings and DiscussionMany factors can influence a person’s school experience, from the individuals they
encounter, to their location, the institution, political climate, as well as many socioeconomic
aspects. In the findings and discussion of these student experiences, the student reflections have
caused me to direct my attention to the love and harm students are encountering that are the
result of systemic factors of the education system. Other experiences of love or harm appear to
be caused directly by a single teacher or experience and also by a practice or tone in instruction.
In considering these student memories of previous mathematical experience through a
framework based on Gandhi’s notion of ahimsa, it is important to recognize that the practice of
ahimsa has two phases. Firstly, one needs to reflect, notice and name harm and love in
educational practice. Then actions need to be taken to decrease harm and grow love. While both
phases are important to a pedagogy based in ahimsa, this study focuses on the first phase,
noticing.
Measured Performance
On GradesOne of the first themes to develop when reading through these remembrances of
mathematical experiences was how often and how emotionally students reflected on grades.
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Grades were sometimes discussed in the context of something larger, as a result of an action,
either their own or something done to them. However, many students spoke of grades as a static
fact about themself, not tied to anything beyond a number or letter. Their grade was the defining
statement of their overall mathematical experience.
None of the questions directly asked students to specifically write about grades, yet
nearly all of the student responses referenced grades at least once. Without direct prompting,
their previous grades are listed as their answer to the questions posed by their teacher about their
previous good or bad experiences with math, such as, “My best experience is getting straight A's
on all my homework assignments for the third trimester of 8th grade” (s1). This student’s grade
on homework assignments is their best experience after hours and hours or work and experiences
both in and outside of the classroom. Another student wrote that their good experience was that
they were “one of the few people in [their] school to get 4’s in the [state] math exams repeatedly,
grade after grade” (s6). These remembrances seem positive but are not tied to how or the why
they were successful on these measures.
For a number of students, grades seem to be a litmus test for how ‘good’ or ‘bad’ they are
at mathematics. “My bad experience is that most of the time I don’t understand math. I have
never received an A on math. I have always been one of the worse or worse person I know in
math” (s19). In this student’s personal narrative, she merely names an inability to score A’s to
prove she is ‘bad’ at math. She assumes the grade speaks enough to communicate her challenges
without reflecting on or speaking to how, or why this might be the case. While another student
lists grades as the confirmation that they are ‘good’ at math: “I consider myself good at math. I
think I’m good at math because I usually always get grades of high 80’s and sometimes 90’s”
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(s35). Students also expressed that they feel pressure from their parents who seem to have similar
ideas that their child’s grade is the element of learning which should be the focus.
In almost in all of my state test I always got a 2 or a 3 and my mom tells me to always get
a 4. iTS NEARLY Imposibe to get a 4 because you have to try hard and do everything i
had bad and good expieiences in math a good expirence in math was that in 7 grade i got
a 3 in the math state exam i never believed that i was that good in math [all grammatical
and spelling errors in original] (s17).
It seems this grade, on a singular state exam, has changed how this student sees themself in
relation to mathematics. It is almost unbelievable to them that they could do well. I wonder what
happens next to this student if the grade on the subsequent test is not as good? Do they again
change how they see their mathematical ability, or will they be more resilient after this success?
For another student, their grade seems not tied to their knowledge or work, nor are they
an entity that is predictable, or over which they have power.
As a student I have never really had any problems with math during class but when it
comes to tests my grade can go from a 90 to a 75 in a blink of an hour. It does not matter
what subject of math, if it is a test or a quiz it always seems to hurt me. But otherwise I
consider myself to be pretty good at math (s55).
This student has separated tests from the day to day of math class. Although they seem to
routinely not perform as well on tests as homework, their belief that they are ‘good’ at math is
unfazed. Writing that the test ‘hurt’ them, by decreasing their overall grade. The use of the word
hurt here is visceral, and although it means a decrease in a grade, can also be interpreted as
possible emotional harm. This harm is instant with the decrease of his grade but also to his
continued education. He does not seem to have developed an understanding that a grade should
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be a reflection of his understanding. Without this connection he is powerless to affect change to
this meaningful symbol.
Grades are so pervasive throughout school culture that even a student who had never
been assigned a number or letter grade before has strong feelings about what grade would be
acceptable.
[I]n terms of grades, I don’t know what to expect. This is because in my teeny-tiny
middle school, we had personal narratives instead of grades, so I don’t know what my
average is. What I do know is that if I get below a ninety, I will be angry with myself
(s2).
This student, who has never been assigned a grade previously, will be angry with himself if he
does not meet this rather arbitrary acceptable level. This level has not been determined based on
previous experience with grades, but what the culture of grades deems a level of excellence.
Grades are motivating for some students, often those who score well on exams, even if it is not
all exams. Others are disheartened over and over, and come to define themselves as ‘bad’ at math
and continue to integrate this impression into their narrative.
A student’s grade is held up to such a level that students are willing to cheat to achieve a
higher mark.
I was so desperate to pass a test and was caught cheating. It was the worst time in my
life. My teachers didn’t call my parents and just gave me warning. I was so surprised that
they gave me a chance, from that point I tried my best to pass all my tests but I never
got passed a 90 in all my math tests grades (s56).
This experience is remembered as the ‘worst time in my life’; this is what this student risked just
to achieve a passing grade on one test. The notion that a grade is supposed to express their
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mathematical understanding and ability is secondary to the grade itself. This statement suggests
that the grade achieved is more valuable for this student then what a high grade is intended to
represent, a high level of understanding. As an educator, I believe the grade achieved in math
class is almost completely irrelevant in one’s day-to-day life, but not developing the
mathematical understandings that allows access to cultural capital can be very detrimental. Yet,
the grade is not connected to understanding for so many students.
Reference to grades were expressed in response to all three of their new teacher’s
questions, from if you consider yourself to be good or bad at math, to what you want to
accomplish this year, to even acting as an answer to what are your good and bad experiences
with math. Grades on tests, as well as the ‘all defining’ final grade are powerful memories in
these student’s reflections. These students introduce themselves as their previous grade, as
though this is the measure that says the most about them in relation to their mathematics
education and one thing about themselves that they expect the teacher to want to know. Of all the
topics that students wrote about in this data set, writing about their grades was the most
prevalent.
The responses from students who separate grade from understanding need to be
contrasted with the narratives of other students who reflected on their grades. One student notes
that, “A bad memory was when I started slacking and did not study for a test and I got a C. That
was my wake up call to do better and try hard” (s1). Although this student, like the multiple
students responses previously discussed, uses an experience of receiving a grade as a powerful
negative experience in math class, they do not merely state the grade as the proof of ‘good’ or
‘bad’. The grade was the result of actions. They mention that before the test they were ‘slaking
off’ and instead use the experience to consider how to improve on future assessments. “The
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highs of my math career is when I achieved the highest score I have ever gotten which was a 90.
[I] think that I received this grade because my motivation level was higher then ever before”
(s12). These two students seem to understand that they have the ability to affect their experience.
Mathematics learning is not something that happens to them, which they are either good or bad
at. Rather, they see themselves as active participants who can affect their experience. By
understanding their ability to affect their skill, these students have more power. They do not view
their grades as final and defining; their grades are merely a signpost on a longer journey.
When these remembrances of experiences are considered in relation to ahimsa, does how
these students interpret the meaning of their grade decrease harm in their educational
experience? Does it allow them to take action? Does it demonstrate love in this complex system
we call mathematics class? Using ahimsa as a framework through which to consider implications
of education does not clearly define what is done as right or wrong. To use ahimsa as a
framework is to question, to rely on critical thinking, and love. It is also important to remember
that (any) harm is not to be justified under ahimsa, but it can be understood or excused if it leads
to decreased harm overall (Parekh, 1988).
Jackson & Leffingwell (1999) found in their study that grades nine to eleven are a cluster
for increased anxiety when pre-service teachers were asked to describe their worst, or most
challenging, mathematics classroom experience from kindergarten through college. The data that
I am analyzing comes from students who are just starting this period of their mathematics
education. Those students who wrote about their grades not as a static definition of their ability,
but as malleable and based on their changeable action seem better prepared to enter this anxiety
cluster. Even if students are currently pleased with their grades, without a connection to how a
grade was achieved, how can they be able to overcome the possible setbacks that they may face
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over the coming years? The ability to persevere though challenges and ‘bad’ grades is a practical
skill. Although students may not believe themselves to be strong at math, they can still possess
resilient dispositions.
Math is by far my favourite subject but it’s not my strongest. I consider myself to
struggle sometimes but I will pull through or work through. Even though my answers
aren’t right sometimes at least I gave it a try. I’m hoping I will try harder to get my
grades up this year it’s very important to me. Especially this year (s33).
Developing a resilient disposition indicates less harm and more love being experienced.
Reasonable struggle is not avoided at any cost; it can be viewed as an integral part of the learning
process. Being able to encounter and overcome challenges can make experiences in the
mathematics classroom more positive.
On SpeedIn addition to grades, which were the most common themes of the narratives, numerous
students also discussed the speed at which they are able to finish classroom tasks, such as
worksheets and tests, as evidence of their mathematical ability. One student commented, “I say I
am good at math because I am one of the first 3 people to be finished in class when we do a
worksheet of have a quiz or test, depending on the type of math we are doing” (s16). Such
students show that they have come to understand that the faster they complete a task, the better
they are at that task. In mathematics the ability to work through problems at a reasonable speed
has value, but so too is the level of correctness, and your ability to approach novel mathematical
situations. Just as in speaking another language, fluency rather than speed contributes to
communicating with others. Does valuing speed without connecting it to these other important
traits allow students to develop a mindset that is productive, not just competitive?
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Speed was not only used as evidence of ability but also of quality of experience in
mathematics class. Being one of the fastest student’s in their class was noted as some of their
best experiences in math class. “Some good experiences I had in math were with fractions and
graphing. Each time I have homework, I always finish my math homework the quickest” (s8).
These positive feelings of being the fastest are often conflated with the idea of being one of the
best. This interpretation of speed can be motivating, and this student goes on to write how they
think they are “pretty good in math” (s8). Beyond knowing you are one of the first to complete a
task, which is motivating without explicit teacher validation, another student enjoyed being
rewarded by their teacher for their speed. “I’d have to say the best times I encountered with math
was in eighth grade when I was always one of the first people to complete math worksheets and
received bonus points for that” (s6). This student, who only considers themselves “ok at math”
(s6), is recalling being the fastest and receiving bonus points as a highlight of eight years of math
education up to this point.
The importance placed on speed is also entwined with competitiveness—knowing you
are fast is contingent on having someone to whom you can compare yourself. For some students
(normally ones who consider themselves ‘good’ at math) this competition can be very
motivating.
I guess I started loving math when I was in elementary school. I was great, and some
students in my class were really good too, so there was always a little competition. We
would always get multiplication sheets and I was always finishing them quickly, along
with some of the other proficient math students. In a way, those kinds of competitions
were fantastic for me. I was motivated to do well on them. The students also pushed me
to be great even if they didn’t realize it (s11).
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But what happens to these students if they find themselves losing their status as the fastest? Does
this kind of competition build mathematical resiliency? Without the ability to overcome set
backs, both large and small, in the mathematics classroom the act of doing math starts to become
anxiety ridden and would be less likely to try something in case they might fail.
Competition does not exist without students comparing themselves, or being compared
to, their classmates. Although students at this level of education are not awarded grades based on
their performance in relation to others, comparing themselves to those around them is an
extremely common practice. “Math was my favourite because I was the best in my class. I would
always help out the kids in my class that were confused and I always understood stuff right
away” (s5).
For many students in this study being the ‘best’, or one of the ‘best’, is determined by
their grade and the speed at which they achieve their grade. Any teacher who has handed back an
assignment or exam knows what many of the students will do first. After quickly looking at their
grade, if one has been given, they will turn to those around them and ask ‘What did you get?’
This is not done to help deepen their own, or others’, understanding, it is done to compare
themselves on a linear measure, be it from 0 to 100, or from 1 to 4. Hopefully their next move is
to then look through their tests to see where they went wrong, and again lean over to their friend
not to compare himself or herself, but to learn from them.
Similar to finding students who were reflective about their grades, some students who
wrote about their speed were more self-aware than others. They not only stated how fast they
were but also discussed characteristics that help them learn and do math quickly. “I think I’m
good at math. Some of my [best] qualities in math is being able to understand things quickly. I
can make connections to things I’ve learned in the past and I can create shortcuts to get the same
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exact answer, but just a bit quicker” (s42). This student shows a developing understanding of
himself or herself as a learner as they value the ability to tie what they are studying to what has
come before. Another student writes, “I find myself mostly good at math, but not like really good
at it. I am not one of those math genius, but I am willing to learn from my mistakes so next time
I’ll get a one and two zeroes” (s29). I wonder what a math genius looks like to this student, as I
know the willingness to learn from previous mistakes is a characteristic of excellent math
students.
In considering these remembrances of the speed at which students finish mathematical
tasks in relation to ahimsa, placing value on speed is both harmful and loving. Like most things,
to some they are harmful and to others it brings out something pleasing. “For Gandhi ahimsa
meant both passive and active love, refraining from causing harm and destruction to living
beings and positively promoting their well-being” (Parekh, 1988). Valuing speed in doing
mathematics is not intrinsically harmful; it can allow students feelings of accomplishment and is
thus motivating. Focusing on speed however can become harmful when it is considered an end in
and of itself. When being ‘good’ at mathematics becomes inescapably tied to being fast at
mathematics. The student can become inflexible, or inadaptable, as mathematical challenges
increase in complexity and cannot be done quickly, but require perseverance and problem
solving. If a goal of learning mathematics is to “enable individuals to see through the inequalities
and exaggerations that are so often cloaked in a mathematics rhetoric” then learning a
meaningful, powerful, mathematics must be prized (Davis, 2001, p. 18).
Grades and speed are ways of quantifying understanding I have named measured
performance. These measures can be used to report, and reflect on what understanding has
developed, but in isolation, without reference to the work that has taken place, or other skills of
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value, grades and speed can seem like ends in and of themselves. It is an overly simplistic view
of learning makes education a quest to collect points, not to grow one’s mind.
Approaches to Learning
On Memory
The students who discussed their memory, or memorizing steps, when remembering key
mathematical experiences highlight different ways of viewing what mathematics is, and what it
means to do math. In writing about how they approach their learning much can be known about
how these students think developing understanding occurs. Some of their reflections point
towards seeing mathematics as a finished set of procedures and formulas to be memorized,
which leads to an understanding that mathematics knowledge is un-challengeable, constructed,
and static. However, others see mathematics as more complex, useable, powerful, accessible, and
do-able. This orientation allows for critical thinking and the opportunity to view one’s world and
the pursuit for the development of knowledge as changeable, not static.
In many recollections the students wrote about the importance of being given clear steps
or a formula in allowing them to excel mathematically.
I like to see math as just multiple steps that happen in order, and not when there is
uncertainty about the answer. I guess I feel more confident where there is only one
possible answer to a problem instead of multiple answers or choices. If I know the exact
steps in an equation to solve for the answer, I can easily get the work done without
breaking a sweat…All I need to excel in math is a clear understanding of the content we
are learning about, along with knowing how to solve any problem given, and a focused
mindset that doesn’t get distracted (s49).
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This student sees math as a clearly defined set of rules that merely need to be memorized to get
good grades. Mathematical thinking should not require them to ‘break a sweat.’ They need only
find the ability to focus so as to remember all the steps that they will need to succeed. Innovative
thinking or problem solving do not seem to be part of their definition of doing mathematics, yet
these are part of the powerful set of skills that should be being developed if students are to
become mathematically literate.
Another student starts by describing math as a puzzle, a game or toy designed to test
ingenuity, yet quickly moves from the type of problem solving thinking that would be required to
solve a novel puzzle, to a clearly defined set of rules. “Math, to me, is simply a puzzle. The only
problem is remembering the rules... I want rules, that need to be followed to lead you to a result”
(s40). This student has perhaps heard someone describe doing math problems as solving a
puzzle, but have not integrated the ideas of what it takes to solve a puzzle with what it means to
do math. They see math as a number of algorithms that need to be memorized, and then drawn
upon in test situations to produce correct answers. Mathematics does rely on and use algorithms,
but this is only part of what makes up mathematical knowing. The issue with students
approaching math by trying to memorize a set of rules is that when they come to a question that
does not quite fit the rule, they will get it wrong. They have not developed any mathematical
flexibility in their understanding and are not adaptable to a new situation without a new set of
rules. A powerful way of doing mathematics allows students to take their understanding and
adapt it to novel situation through problem solving.
This ties to what many students wrote about grades, the ability to easily memorize
algorithms leads to high grades, which seems to be the goal for many. These students’ definition
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of what it means to ‘do’ mathematics misses out on developing ingenuity or being
mathematically flexible; a clearly defined path to achieving a high score is of most value.
Many students in the study focused on the memorization of rules in math as this allows
for a clearly defined path to success. Instead of learning being an on-going process, these
students ‘request’ the rules to be clearly laid out allowing for memorization. All they believe that
they require from their teacher’s is to clearly outline these steps so they can reach their goals.
At sixth grade I didn’t do well on a test because I didn’t really know how to do the math.
Unlike my eighth grade teacher, she didn’t explain the steps in detail. For me, that’s how
I learn math better. I expect myself to do well on tests and get a high grade that my
parents will be proud of me (s22).
These steps and this kind of mathematics does not lead to continued success as mathematical
problems become more complex or if it necessitates problem solving. I could be interpreting this
student’s statement incorrectly, for it is beneficial for a teacher to explain why mathematical
choices are made, their meaning, or how they arrive at an approach, perhaps this is what is
meant. However, this student’s use of the phrase ‘explain the steps’ leads me to interpret them to
be focusing on learning to memorize algorithms composed of steps, over developing flexible
understanding. For many students their approach to learning is to take the clearest, most direct,
path to the highest grade by memorizing clearly laid out procedures.
Other students define math in the opposite way, having little to do with memorization.
“[M]ath has always been my favorite subject since 6th grade and I think it’s easy to understand.
It’s not like other subjects where you have to memorize facts and dates you just learn how to do
it” (s47). This student in contrast, who most likely went through similar educational experiences
as those above up till this point, has such dramatically different understandings of what it takes
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to ‘do’ math. Some view doing mathematics as memorizing steps, and others do not think they
are memorizing anything.
When considered in relation to ahimsa, students in this study who wrote about
approaching learning as memorizing algorithms were harmed when their teachers did not present
the information in a way conducive to this strategy. They felt love when they were able to use
this strategy to achieve high grades, and praised these teachers for structuring their learning in
this fashion. However, harm can also be noticed when students focus on memorization as the
main way to approach learning. They have a diminished opportunity to take up math in a
meaningful way that will allow for continued success. These students who approach their
learning as memorization would be harmed if a teacher organized their classroom to value
critical thinking and problem solving, but beyond the harm of adapting their learning approach, if
they are able, they would develop more powerful approaches to learning that would read as love
as they grow into more critical thinkers.
Other than the many students who view math as a set of procedures that need to be
memorized, many others blame their memories for previously not living up to the goals they and
their parents had set for them. They view mathematical learning, as something that should
happen instantly and then, with no further labor, should never be forgotten. “The problem I have
with math is that I have a very hard time trying to remember what I have learned. Even if I took
notes I would not have remembered much unless I looked back at all the notes I have taken”
(s58). It seems that this student has not yet realized that understanding is something that happens
over time, with continued practice and review. That part of the purpose for taking notes is to
have a document to reference in the future, as this new learning has not yet been committed to
longer-term memory. Even if they have started to view their learning as something that takes
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review, they believe they are somehow not learning correctly as it takes more time than a single
class for them to understand something. “I overall don’t consider myself to be bad at math but
I’m not really good because I have a problem of learning concepts quickly and sticking them in
my mind. When a concept is taught to me it takes me a couple days to actually get it and then
I’m fine if I study it” (s54). Should this not be what how every student approaches developing
their understanding? Instead they think that something is wrong with them, as they did not learn
it instantly.
For other students, not being able to access what they have previously ‘learned’ causes
them to struggle on tests and exams. “My weaknesses in math are Geometry, word problems, and
sometimes, I get mental blocks that keep me from doing really easy problems, even though I
know how to do them” (s34). Although these mental blocks can arise from having high anxiety
about test performance, this can also arise from students having a misunderstanding of how well
they grasp the material. They seem to believe that if they have solved a kind of problem once
they should be able to apply that to all further encounters with that kind of problem without
incident. “The problem resurfaces when test or quizzes come along. I suddenly forgot everything
I have ever learned in math and I have to struggle to remember things” (s7). This student has a
view that at some point they ‘learned’ a topic, and that their understanding is complete.
Therefore, it should be easily accessible to solve future problems. “I can be studying math for 3
hours and the next day, I will sometimes forget what I learned or what I have to do to solve the
math problem” (s23). Time spent studying does not mean that topics have been mastered, yet for
some students this time spent ‘studying’ should equate to ‘knowing how to do it’.
It would help alleviate some of these student anxieties if they viewed learning as a
process, not something that happens instantly, where you only have one chance to understand. It
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is okay to struggle, and that not understanding in an instant does not mean that they cannot
understand or that they are bad at math. “My worst experience would have been learning how to
divide and multiply fractional expressions in eighth grade. It was pretty straightforward at the
beginning, but as the expressions grew more difficult, I found myself struggling. Fractions were
confusing enough on their own. I also hated whenever we did a unit on word problems, I feel like
the words get me even more confused” (s39). Struggling should not be seen as a failure. It is part
of the process of learning; if you are not, at times, struggling you are not improving.
It is less harmful to have an understanding that learning is recursive, and not fixed. That
meaningful learning takes revisiting a topic numerous times to master an idea; even then
understanding can be continually improved. Learning does not have a clear beginning and end.
Student twenty-three goes on to say, “What I hope to accomplish this year in math is to be able
to get great grades and not be able to forget what I study or learn.” Not forgetting is not entwined
with what steps they might take to better remember what is worked on in class, it reads as a wish
that may or may not be granted by the math gods. The student is limited in their control over the
outcome. Learning math is seen as something innate, that they are either fortunate enough to
possess, or not. As student thirty-five wrote, “Math is a subject that many people either excel or
struggle on. People either are good at it or bad at it.”
Students who view learning as a process that should happen instantly and should then
remain the same feel no love from education. They feel as though there is something wrong with
them, since their brains do not work like computers, that it takes work and study to come to
understand something. Even if they feel they have understanding, tests betray them and they feel
harm while sitting looking at a problem that looks familiar and thus they assume they ‘know how
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to do it’, they have merely forgotten. There is no love to be gleaned from this approach to
learning, only repetitive harm.
To approach learning as memorization, where learning should be accomplished instantly
and should endure until it is tested, does not allow for lasting knowing, or becoming truly
mathematically literate. When considering this view doing math, through the framework of
ahimsa, it may allow for some initial positive feelings, but in the long term it is harmful. It
allows students to feel they are succeeding as they memorize algorithms, which they replicate on
tests. Although learning mathematics does employ the use of acquiring of algorithms, they are
not the entirety of what is means to become mathematically literate. It makes students feel smart
and accomplished as they look at the high grade they were able to achieve. However approaching
learning in this way does not allow for continued success and lasting understanding. Some might
be learning to be mathematically flexible enough to adapt in the future, but many will not. They
will become frustrated when their learning approach no longer scores them high grades, and they
will struggle to keep up. To approach education with ahimsa and not do harm, although an
impossible goal, is a good guiding principle. For to live is to cause harm, it is inescapable.
However, what lasting harm is crueler, to allow students to not develop lasting mathematical
understanding, but have high grades, or to develop lasting understanding, but need to struggle
more to get there?
On Awareness of LearningOther students wrote about their approaches to their learning in a way that contrasted the
above students’ focus of memorization. These students displayed more sophisticated
metacognition, an awareness of their process for learning and understanding. One student
defined themself as good at math because they are one of the first to complete tasks, and then
wrote about their last year’s grades as a product of their work ethic, and of their view that their
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previous teacher wanted them to succeed. They finish by setting goals for themselves for the
coming year;
I say I am good at math because I am one of the first 3 people to be finished in class like
when we do a worksheet of have a quiz or test depending on the type of math we are
doing. Some math questions might be challenging to me, but I still try my best to try and
solve it...I think the highest grade I’ve got in math was a B…My main goal this year to
get at least one A in math. I am going to try my best by paying attention in class, doing
my homework, doing my classwork, but mostly by respecting the teachers because
with out them, I won’t be able to succeed in this class (s16).
This student’s entry discuses speed and grades, but instead of focusing on the memorization of
algorithms as the method to improve these areas, they are aware of areas of growth and focus
that could help them achieve their goals. They know they have control over their learning, and
that by changing habits they will be more likely to have a positive outcome.
Having a more developed idea of what factors can be manipulated or changed to improve
a result allows these students to know themselves better as learners. Allowing them to view their
learning as something they have power over. Such as the following student, “You can’t just
make me do the work without showing me how and you can’t just show me how and not let me
try it out and get comfortable” (s14). This student sees learning as something that takes time and
effort to develop understanding. They see their teacher as having a role, but they see their own
role as well. This understanding would allow them to be more resilient when they are faced with
a challenging problem, or situation in math class. This student went on to set two goals for
themself for the coming school year.
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I want to improve my understanding of certain subjects in math such as geometry, and I
want to work on memorizing formulas, and definitions of certain math terms and words. I
would also like to improve on focus by removing myself from the few close friends I
have in my class and not talking to anyone distracting... And I will try not to distract
myself in the process (s14).
Like many of the students he discusses memorization, but it is not memorizing how to solve a
problem. It is to have formulas and terminology memorized so they can focus on the problem. As
well, it shows great responsibility as a learner to disclose to your teacher that you do not work
well with your close friends while in class. This student is taking ownership over their learning.
Another student discussed that over the past few years, different teachers had caused
them to be more or less in interested in math, but the main focus of their entry was on how they
could develop more advantageous study skills.
I can solve problems quickly (its not always organized though) ... I would like to think
I’m a good mathematician. I can usually keep up with what’s going on, but if I cant I just
re-read the notes until I know what were learning (s4).
This student goes on to make a goal to “be more organized with my work instead of just writing
on the page to get the answer” (s4). There is nuance to this student’s entry. They understand that
factors external to them will influence their mathematics experience, but at the same time, they
have control over how they approach their own learning. They can identify when they need to
review more, and see value in improving the clarity of their communication.
How students approach what is means to do mathematics impacts their experience.
Students who have developed metacognitive skills can better analyze their current practices and
can then set goals on how to change how they approach their learning to improve the outcome.
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For these students their mathematical experience is filled with ahimsa, both in the short term, and
these positive experiences will foster success for them in the future. In contrast, those who are
less sophisticated metacognitive awareness see their learning as either happening, or not,
memorized, or not, are harmed by their approach to learning as they do not see how they could
change their approach. They hope for a better outcome, but how to reach the goal is not clear.
Many of them have come to see learning math as memorizing algorithms, which should be
instantly understood and committed to memory. This harm is decreased when student approach
their learning with metacognition. They know more about themselves as learners, and have
multiple tools to rely on to help them learn.
On Not UnderstandingThere is a difference in the approach to learning involved in realizing the difference
between not remembering and not understanding. To answer the question “What have been your
good and bad experiences with math?” many of the negative moments mentioned in their posts
were based on not understanding. Either not understanding because they had missed classed,
classes move too fast for them, or are not understanding because their approach to learning.
Many of these students are aware enough of their learning to know that something has been
missed, but did not express sophisticated knowledge about their own thinking to name possible
resolutions for when or if they have similar issues this year.
One student reflected on missing the first two days of a new chapter. “Everyone had
grabbed the concept of it by the time I got back to school. Because I was two days behind
everyone else I didn’t understand a thing and I just barely past the test and quiz on the subject”
(s3). This negative experience stands alone in her post. She did not write about the impact, or
anything that she or her teacher did to improve her understanding. Although this experience was
negative, she still defines herself as good at mathematics, and has meaningful goals for the
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coming year. For another student, missing school had larger consequences; they wrote that they
do not think they have reached their full potential mathematically.
[W]e had a geometry unit and I got severely sick, to the point of having constant
hospital visits, so I missed the introduction class which was always a full period of
…[explanation]. I missed three days and fell completely behind dropping my grade from
an 87 to about a 72. I lost hope, and dropped even further into doodoo, because of stupid
mistakes I made in work habits and in school mindset. I want to improve my
understanding of certain subjects in math such as geometry, and I want to work on
memorizing formulas, and definitions of certain math terms and words. I would also like
to improve on focus by removing myself from the few close friends I have in my class
and not talking to anyone distracting... And I will try not to distract myself in the process
(s14).
This student was absent because of illness often during the year, and falling behind the rest of the
class caused him to change how he viewed and approached learning. Although he had a difficult
year missing so much class, luckily he had positive experiences from previous years to fall back
on. That although he did not learn as much as he could have while sick, he still believed that he
can be successful and had laid out positive, meaningful goals for the coming year.
Other students did not have a concrete reason, like being absent, to attribute for not
understanding. Many wrote about when they were ‘lost’ and did not know how to proceed.
My experiences with math haven’t been good ones in middle school. I didn’t understand
things and was confused most of the time. I also didn’t do much of my homework
because I would just give up if I didn’t know what it was about. I’m hoping this year will
be easier to understand (s5).
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This student’s entry is upsetting. He has developed a coping strategy of just giving up when he
does not understand. This is a student who, like all students, would like to do well, but does not
have the metacognitive understanding to analyze their approach, or the view that this can change
the outcome of their learning experience. He just hopes that this year will be easier. It seems this
student has experienced harm in the math class repeatedly, leaving him demoralized. Few
resilience or metacognitive skills have been developed to overcome as it seems that challenges
have been much more present than successes. This entry clearly shows the harm a student can
feel in a mathematics classroom.
Unfortunately, students are constrained by the system in which they learn, where each
year they move on to a different grade, where it is expected that they have some understanding of
the topics covered in previous years. This system is not overly adaptable to meet different
student needs and understanding. Differentiation within a class only deals with this issue to a
limited amount. “Sometimes in math class I will begin to understand something and then the
class will switch to learning something different or a different strategy and I find myself to be
lost yet again” (s32). This student seems to be more confident then student five; however, they
are also restricted by the system in which they are learning. Many students wrote about times
when they felt that their class was moving too fast for them or they needed more time to develop
their understanding before moving on to a new idea.
My bad experience with math was when I went into the eighth grade.… [E]veryday we
would have a new lesson, by the middle of the year we were already in Algebra 3 going
onto Trig. The class moved way too fast for me to have time to understand and we had a
six page test almost every week on the topics that we covered. It was rough and I got
lower grades (44).
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Learning about a topic is restricted to the program of study for the student’s grade, but it is also
designed to fit into the specific number of math minutes each week. This system does not allow
for major adaptation to individual needs and thus has the potential to harm students each year.
Even when students are aware enough of their understanding to realize that they need more time,
the system itself lacks responsivity. The structure in which they learn is restrictive to students
trying to develop meaningful understanding, while at the same time making them feel not
capable of learning.
After writing my literature review I originally thought that I would be, at least partially,
writing about systemic social inequality in education. Yet, in reading the student’s reflections
they did not reference things that might be associated with social inequality, such as
socioeconomic status, race, or gender. This perhaps shows how invasive systems of inequality
can be in institutions like schools The school system can seem to be static and unchangeable,
therefore unquestionable. The lack of evidence in students’ writing of social inequality could
also possibly steam from the students in this data group having similar backgrounds and
educational experiences. If so, they may be less aware of how these factors influence their lives.
Student responses do however shine light on structural inequality, unequal results built
into institutions that will produce inequality, in school. The restrictive timetable and grade levels
set very strict boundaries on what students need to know, and how long they have to learn it.
Even if, as the students above show, realize that they do not ‘understand’ to an acceptable level,
the structure of the system wins out, as they must move along to the next topic and the next
grade. Year after year, topic after topic, these students are being left behind, continuing to not
gain access to cultural capital only available to the mathematically literate. Year after year,
feeling like they are not ‘smart’ as their learning could not fit into a predefined system. In my
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experience in the Alberta school system, it is not until high school that they can even retake a
course to allow for deeper understanding. During the seminal kindergarten to grade nine years,
there are no second attempts, or taking more time. No wonder student five just hoped that this
coming year would just be easier. Perhaps they do understand, that the system is engineered
against them. Grade levels and timetables are not practices based in ahimsa, they are founded on
notions of efficiency and control.
On Asking QuestionsOne of the key tools that students have to assist in their learning is the ability to ask
questions. In this study students showed that they knew that asking questions would help with
their understanding, but for different reasons they did not take advantage of this tool. Many made
one of their goals for the year to ask more questions.
One reason to not ask questions is that it shows that they do not understand, and thus the
act of asking questions allows others to know this about them as well.
I do not like asking the teacher for help because it makes me feel extremely stupid,
especially in front of the entire class. For example if a teacher has just explained an entire
math problem for the whole class and everyone else gets it but me I wouldn’t feel
comfortable asking a question because it makes it seem like I wasn’t paying attention and
personally I don’t like that (s7).
Student seven did go to on to make a goal to improve her ‘study ethic’, but did not discuss a goal
of trying to ask more questions. She, like many, when faced with a task that makes them feel less
than an other, expresses that it seems easier to just give up. “My bad experience of math is when
I can’t solve a problem and usually I just would give up on the problem instead of asking for
continuous help” (s30). This student seems to be able to ask questions, but feels that there is a
limit, because asking too many questions would indicate they are struggling more than their
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classmates. They would rather give up, knowing that they do not know, than make it explicitly
known to their class and teacher that they are not understanding.
Others recognized that they should be taking advantage of asking questions and although
they have instead given up in the past, they want this year will be different.
When I am taught a new lesson and don’t fully understand it right away I sometimes get
frustrated and don’t try my hardest. I do ask for help sometimes but still won’t understand
it. This year I want to fully understand every lesson by asking the teacher for help (s43).
Even these students who have not considered themselves successful in mathematics in the past,
would like that to change. They would like to know what it feels like to learn and understand. To
not be afraid to ask the questions that they know they have. They know that staying quiet does
not benefit them over time. “Some bad experiences I have had is when I don’t understand
something the teacher explained and I stay quiet it doesn’t benefit for me, cause then I do bad on
that type of problem” (s20). These students have the metacognitive awareness to know that
asking more questions would help with their understanding. “I know I will ask for help if I need
it instead of acting like I know what I am doing (in seventh grade, that was a really big
problem)” (s11). They are aware that they do not understand the mathematics, but unlike some
students in the previous section, they have an idea of how they could change this, however,
social pressures to appear ‘smart’ are harming them.
To sit in a class everyday knowing that you do not know what is happening, and feeling
social pressure to appear that you do, is harmful both to the students’ self-worth daily, and
reduces their opportunity to work towards powerful mathematical literacy. To reduce harm,
asking questions should not been seen negatively, but positively. Asking questions should be
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celebrated as the student is able to identify an area they need more assistance in, and are willing
to try.
As well, the interactions that arise out of questions are opportunities for students to not
only build their mathematical understanding but also their relationship with their teacher.
Through being asked questions teachers can demonstrate a loving pedagogy and show that they
care. Not asking questions not only harms a student’s mathematical understanding but also
diminishes the possibility of developing a caring and constructive teacher-student relationship.
Direct Teacher InteractionsWhen reading though the students reflections, the most discussed topics were their
purpose for learning, grades and understanding, and their approaches to learning, memorization
and metacognition. Yet, some student had experiences that they recalled as their best and worst
memories that resonated with my own experiences, both as a student and a teacher. These
recollections speak directly to the love and harm in mathematics education. Of these students’
eight plus years of learning math, these memories rise to the top. These are the lasting memories
that they have created. These are the stories that they tell as adults when they meet a math
teacher at party, or to their own children.
The following student had a feeling of wanting to give up, when they were ask about
something they were not clear about in front of the group.
I remember in 7th grade we would be called on even if our hands weren’t raised. I do not
like speaking to the class or even a group. Being called on would make me shy and doubt
myself. This made me want to give up, especially when I got the answer wrong. That is
one of my bad math experiences (s32).
This is the harm that teachers have direct control over. Unlike the harm caused by structural
inequality like grade levels and timetables, which teachers have little direct control over, and can
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only attempt to deal with the consequences, teachers decide how to ask questions in their
classroom. Teachers knowing their students and having thoughtful questioning practices in place
can mitigate this harm.
Whereas some students remembered the good grades they got on tests, or how fast they
were able to complete tasks, other students remembered their teachers. The following students do
not name specific interactions that occurred for them to feel that their teacher wanted them to
succeed, but in their memories of their positive experiences in math class these memories rose to
the top. “I think the highest grade I’ve got in math was a B. The reason I have got B’s was
because my math teachers cared about my [sic] and wanted me to succeed” (s16). They felt their
teacher wanted for them to succeed, or through patience allowed them to feel success.
“Throughout my school years, my math teachers have always been kind and patient to me
because I don’t always get stuff on the first try. They never gave up on me, and that’s probably
why I enjoy learning math” (s6). The act of noticing and reacting left students feeling love. “My
teachers were always nice and helped me when they noticed I was struggling” (s7).
Feeling like their teacher cares, and wants them to succeed is connected to how these
students view how they were able to be successful. Loreman (2011) feels that learning happens
best with relationships that are intimate, safe, caring, and warm and that by “using love as
pedagogy is an antidote to superficial learning” (p. 8). So much of the harm that has been noticed
in this study are occurrences that diminish the capacity of the students to take up mathematics in
a meaningful way. The above students have overcome at least some of these barriers by having a
student-teacher relationship centered in caring. They felt cared for from their teacher noticing
and responding to their learning. Here ahimsa is palpable; in a caring teacher-student
relationship.
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ConclusionAfter teaching for several years, mostly mathematics classes, I began a master’s degree at
the University of Alberta with many questions. During my program I learned to ask questions
differently and to value different kinds of answers. One idea which resonated with me during this
time was Gandhi’s notion of ahimsa, an active love, — doing no harm in word, thought, or deed.
Considering mathematical experience through the framwork of Gandhi’s ahimsa become the
focus of my final project.
I found one hundred and twelve student written reflections online, which I read through a
framework of ahimsa, focusing on love and harm. In their blog posts the students were asked to
answer three questions, 1) Do you consider yourself to be good or bad at math? 2) What have
been your good and bad experiences with math? 3) What do you hope to accomplish this year in
your math class? I read through these posts, then using the program NVivo, coded the data. After
coding forty entries new codes did not seem to be continuing to emerge. I then coded twenty
more, and did not create any new codes during that time, so I stopped coding new entries. I then
organized the codes into themes that seemed to be related and transferred some quotes from each
area to a word document. I printed and cut out these sections so I could easily change their
arrangement and analyzed them for insights.
One of the first insights of the study was how often, and in many different ways students
referenced grades. None of the questions directly asked students to write about their previous
grades, but almost every post referenced previous grade(s) at least once. For many, a previous
grade was named as their ‘best’ or ‘worst’ experiences in math class. Students did not elaborate
beyond the grade about what lead up to this grade, or how they might alter or replicate this
memory in the future. Others used their grade as their proof for how ‘good’ or bad’ they consider
themselves to be at math. Again, nothing more than the grade was stated, there was little further
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reflection on any thing that lead up to these grades. Some students wrote about their parent’s
grade expectations, and others how their grades on individual assessments always bring their
grades down. There was one student who had never been assigned a grade in their previous
school who had developed a very specific idea of what grade he thought was an acceptable for
the coming year. These students showed that they were highly motivated by grades, but did not
always show an understood connection between their grades and what happens in class. One
discussed cheating, how they were willing to cheat to achieve what they considered an
appropriate grade, never reflecting that a high grade should be a reflection of a high level of
understanding. The grade number itself was more valuable to them then the understanding it
represents. Other students talked of their grades in relation to preceding actions. Such as having a
high level of interest and receiving a high grade, or ‘slacking off’ and getting a low grade. These
students tied their grade to more then just a number, it was the result of actions which they have
control over. Others wrote about grades to make it seem that they did not consider grades to
represent their level of understanding. Their goal was a high grade, not a deep understanding.
This is the harmful side to grades, when the number has more meaning then what it represents.
Students wrote their goals for grades over the coming school year, but many did not demonstrate
an understanding of what steps could be taken for this to goal to come to fruition.
Another measured performance that students wrote of often was the speed at which they
were able to complete mathematical tasks. Their speed, like grades, was given as the proof of
being ‘good’ or ‘bad’ at math. Many showed they had come to understand that being fast at math
meant they are ‘good’ at math. However, in my experience, powerful mathematical literacy
requires much more then speed, such as; fluency, problem solving ability and persistence.
Multiple students, named being the first to finish as their best experience in math class. It was
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very motivating for them. Valuing speed is tied up in competition; you cannot be the fastest if
there are not others to compare yourself to. Competition can be motivating and harmful to
different learners. Especially harmful to those who take more time, but who also believe that
speed at math means being ‘good’ at math. Some students, as with grades, discussed their speed
but put it into context as to why they are faster or slower. One student believes that they are fast
as they are able to tie their current learning to past learning. Another reflected that they are
normally slower but are proud that they always learn from their mistakes. Fixating on speed can
become harmful when it is considered an end in and of itself. When being ‘good’ at mathematics
becomes inescapably tied to being fast at mathematics. This can cause students to become
inflexible, or inadaptable, as mathematical challenges increase in difficulty.
Another common theme in the student’s reflections was memory. Many wrote about how
they value teachers who break down the math into easy to follow steps, and then they memorize
these steps and thus do well on assessments. Although mathematics does rely on some
algorithms, memorizing algorithms is not all that learning math entails. Students also have to
solve problems, and be innovative. These reflections show how these students view what it
means to do math and how they view what it takes to learn math. By focusing on memorizing
algorithms they miss out on other aspects of mathematics that make it powerful and useful in the
long term. If they only have algorithms memorized they cannot solve problems that do not fit the
exact parameters. Viewing leaning in this way can lead to high grades and positive feelings in
the short term and in particular situations. However, to view mathematics like this over an entire
school experience leads to students struggling and experiences of harm as problems become
more complex.
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Connected to memorization, other students wrote about how their memory fails them
during assessments. In their reflections they wrote about how during assessments they forget
‘everything they have learned’. They feel deceived by their mind. Their writings show that these
students view learning as something that happens instantly and then should be lasting. Another
student wrote about how she is ‘not good a math’ as it takes her a few days and studying to learn
new concepts. Showing the belief that if you are ‘good’ at learning it should happen
instantaneously. These students are harmed every time they are assessed as they assume that
learning happened at some point and should therefore be accessible. When it is not, they feel less
than, and that they are ‘bad’ at math. It would help alleviate this harm is these students were to
view learning as an ongoing process, that does not have clearly defined beginning and end
points. It takes review and possibly some struggle to be successful. Struggle does not have to
mean failure; it is key part of the learning process.
In contrast to approaching learning as memorization, other students showed sophisticated
understanding of their learning through metacognitive statements. These students often wrote
about their grades and/or the speed at which they finish tasks, but they also discussed skills and
approaches they rely on for learning beyond memorization. They showed an understanding that
they have control over their learning experience. That learning takes time and effort. These
students seem as though they would be more resilient in challenging learning situations. Their
goals for the coming year went beyond setting a grade they would like to achieve. They also
discussed the steps and strategies they would rely on to achieve their goal(s). How students view
what learning is, and what it looks like, greatly impact their learning experience. Students who
have developed metacognitive awareness can examine their existing practices and can then set
meaningful goals on how to improve future outcome. For these students their mathematical
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experience is filled with positive moments. While those who see their learning as either it
happens, or not, either they remember it, or not are harmed by their approach to learning. They
hope for a better outcome, but how to reach their goal(s) is not clear.
In addition to the students who are harmed by ‘not remembering’ their learning, other
students discussed the harm they felt never having developed understanding. Some attributed
being absent for multiple or for important days as to why they were unable to reach their full
potential for understanding a concept. These seemed to be students who felt that when in
attendance their understanding developed consistently. Other students felt they did not ever
really understand and this had led to them to give up. Others attributed the pacing of the class as
to the reason they did not understand. They felt as if they had had more time to develop and work
on a topic before moving on they could have been successful. The structure of modern schools is
broken into grade levels, with specific topics to be covered and understood during that year.
These outcomes are to be covered in a set amount of minutes. This is an extremely restrictive
system that is not adaptive to individuals. This system produces, year after year, topic after topic,
students that do not have an understanding of the intended outcomes, who are moved onto the
next grade to continue to feel ‘lost’ and like they are not smart. These students are harmed as
they do not gain access to the cultural capital only available to the mathematically literate and
may never come to see themselves as mathematically capable.
A number of students felt that they should be asking more questions, but for multiple
reasons did not want to. In their reflections it was made clear that they understood that in the
long term staying quiet would not benefit them, but to the desire to appear like they understood
won out. They felt that asking questions would show their teacher and other students that they do
not understand, and felt more confortable giving up. Some students wrote about wanting to
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change this behaviour, making asking questions a goal for the coming year. While others knew
not asking questions was holding them back but made no explicit goals to change this behaviour.
The social pressure to appear ‘smart’ was too powerful. Feeling like asking questions makes
them less than, and is harmful both to the students view of themselves and their ability to take up
mathematics in a powerful way.
Many students spoke vaguely about their previous teachers while some discussed them
more directly in response to the questions asked. One student recalled a teacher’s practice of
calling on students when their hand was not raised. This made the student feel shy and doubt
himself or herself. Unlike the harm felt from an education structure like the timetable, this is an
area of harm that teachers have direct control over to decrease student harm. A few other
students discussed previous mathematical accomplishments, attributing the positive outcomes to
their teachers wanting them to succeed. That by their teaches noticing and responding to their
learning they felt love. So much of the harm that has been noticed in this study entails events that
reduce the ability of students to take up mathematics in a significant way. However, these
students have overcome, at least some possible obstacles, by experiencing a student-teacher
relationship centered in caring.
Love is not the antonym of harm. A loving pedagogy, based in ahimsa, works to respond
to harm that exists in the world and in education. There will never be a classroom without harm.
“Although the Euclidean triangle is impossible to draw, we know how to approximate it; we also
ascribe its properties to actual, but imperfect triangles, and use them to guide our practice”
(Parekh, 1988, p. 215). Therefore, to teach with ahimsa is to honestly workout for oneself how to
decrease harm in one sphere, to continue to reach for the perfect even while knowing it is not
attainable. This study showed that students were harmed in numerous ways. Being intensely
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focused on grades, having conflated being the ‘fastest’ and being the ‘best’, viewing learning
math as memorizing many sets of steps, believing that they have learned a topic but merely
‘forget’ it on assessments, not feeling confident to ask questions, being acutely aware they are
not learning at the current pacing, and being singled out. It also showed students benefiting from
tying grades and speed to more than just end goals in and of themselves, setting goals with
metacognitive awareness, and by feeling that their teacher both wants them to and works towards
them succeeding. “Gandhi often remarked that it was not his job to tell his followers how to
behave, and the each of them must sincerely work out for himself how best to practice ahimsa”
(Parekh, 1988, p. 216). This study focuses on the first half of a pedagogy based in ahimsa,
reflecting on the current condition. The next step is to address noticed areas of harm. To teach
math with ahimsa, teachers must truly work out for themselves how to decrease the harm in their
classroom. This study has afforded me such time and reflection by reading through student
voices of their experience.
ImplicationsBased on this study a pedagogy based in ahimsa would need to approach performance
measures carefully. The role of grades in learning should be explicitly discussed. These
discussions or activities should also attempt to connect grades to an awareness of the learning
process, refining goals, and adapting learning strategies. Using formative assessments to help
improve understanding can assist students in developing the idea that they are not just doing
work to earn a grade, that their main goal should be to be improving their understanding.
Assessments can be a powerful tool to improve understanding by providing feedback and areas
for growth.
To teach with ahimsa would mean explicitly valuing and discussing skills and
characteristics that allow for the development of resiliency and productive dispositions. For
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example, instead of only valuing speed, give problems that require problem solving and
perseverance. As Mason, Burton and Stacey (2010) wrote about learning mathematics, “Probably
the single most important lesson to be learned is that being stuck is an honourable state and an
essential part of improving thinking” (p. viii). It is important to value perseverance in your
classroom. In addition, making sure that given problem sets do not reinforce the idea that math is
merely memorizing algorithms. These problems should require at least some adaptation to build
mathematical flexibility, not merely repetition. It can be valuable to struggle at times. To teach in
such a way that shows that mathematical understanding is neither instantaneous, nor permanent,
and requires review and practice.
These changes in focus are centred in assisting students to develop their metacognitive
awareness, in my view an act of ahisma. The students who wrote more sophisticatedly about
their goals for the year, by referencing metacognitive skills seem more aware of what it means to
learn mathematics. By focusing more on these skills, and not only on the outcomes, perhaps
students could develop greater metacognitive skills. By explicitly focusing on metacognitive
skills, and challenging misconceptions of what it means to learn mathematics, students could feel
more confident to ask questions. Conceivably, if learning is not viewed as something that should
happen instantly, asking questions would not produce the same amount of fear in students trying
to hide their not understanding.
It is easy to recognize the harm that structured grade levels, and timetables cause.
However, it is not a part of education that teachers can easily change or challenge. This study
found a number of students who attributed their success to their teacher’s attitude towards them.
They felt their teachers wanted them to succeed; they noticed their struggles, and worked with
them with patience to improve their ability. Perhaps, these students can find some success
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through caring relationships with their teachers. As Noddings (2013) writes, “It may be that
much of what is most valuable in the teaching-learning relationship cannot be specified and
certainly not pre-specified. The attitude characteristic of caring comes through in acquaintance”
(p. 20). This is where a teacher has the most power over the experience of students in their care.
This is the central goal of developing a pedagogy based in ahimsa. To teach with love is to
reflect on ones practices and to work to actively decrease harm for ones students.
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