1. Do We wait Something to Happended ?Some times we just want some thing and , we never happenedwanting to have a great man or a woman in a life , is this is a luck or wehave to work on it that we have to hunt for it for years on it, And today'smarket is so hot to find a mate that we have to work hard and find, find,find, and then find, it is same as having a loto 649 , some times we win andwe can not be too. The huntera and the soul mate are in the market are soeager to find right one is too hot and high profiled people that they do not 2. want to have a cheap mate so, oh well, this one's choice that what we cannot do about it .Are they are hunters and some are buyer, selllers so on,' wedo not get what we want this is what it is some times. We do got it what twe want. It is so hard to have a great mate, either he is too picky, tooclean , too luzy or to stinky or too worhty that we do not know ; yet,weopen the magic box, many complain after.I did not got what ;I did not wantany one that it was a loto that nevr pciked . It was pciked from my old manand mother, father, picked it and I have been opening and closing sameloto for years and years , but same luck or bad luck many say that, I havedescribed as attitude of mine and his that we are two seas and neverconnect at a same time one goes one way then one flow from one creek toanother one, what we say solar system that we hope to have energy one,you got that much or not, it was in 90s.But, now that market is so hot, love , money , manner, choices, and ,as wellas ,the matters all the things are profiled in peoples' lives, that time no onetalked about it and we did not learned in school those words even mom anddad never talked about it becuase they were so busy to keep they lifetogerther of the family and never they complained either, I do , now.Well, we do got what we want now, as we see, todays' market, a doctor , alawer, a bussiness, as we do want and live the life well off on the prey's lifeor hunter are so cleaver to eggy "What they want", I am not sure but theyare the lucky one what they want, then must got it and been getting theloto 649 as my son got , "I love honey as well ---- I love you too," been livingin a goods and bads but they did not try the loto dream house, yet ,becuasehe have told me the just want a nice one who will not cheat one me, I canfeed her and cloth her.This is what is loto for them as well too.They may have not been at the loto house ,yet ,as I did not either. Life ispicky or we are picky for the life, I feel ;I am and was picky about it, butafter have had and having choices and same dream and was very hard butI did got , I was his dream girl that was reversal game, oh , well some onehas had win , no matter who, old timer was the great one too, who borned 3. to 50s and 60s too.I have had made that conclusion about, it, that we have to be frim not onchoice but on the decisions that what we make, and what we have , we canchange over them ; we can make overt them too;we can remodel them thatare many way to live a life, so what ever we got in a loto 649 is our luck; wecan remodel it, nad we as I did after many years ,we were pushing onethread of a relation that never was broken but we tried to hard to hold therelation that have had given us a lesson that we can have what we want,not have the matter, choices, and logo, we are old timer people who stillsee one each other from a far way and can mend our relation with acomforter ,not with good clothes and big houses.Older thimer and so far behind from a having a high profile but for us ismatter to have a life, goods and bads are on depened on circumstnaces noton a maone, money can well off some one not life off someone, we are old ,we hardly fit in a modnern house, me and dcoter deep.Reading or not reading is not my matter it is a matter we, are just humanmade, makde, did do done many wrong and right, many have came in ourways to pull our legs ,we still mend our life without some consult us.Olders are odds, we pray, we look upon god, we chant , and fit in a oddplace where our creator had made for usNirmal Kanda